Lies I told myself in recovery | not I’ll enough, no weight gain & starting tomorrow

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Sharing this video feels like a breath of fresh air - even though I’m revisiting my past. As mentioned, I feel responsible to share the knowledge I’ve gained through my experience in recovery from an eating disorder with the purpose to help those of you, who need that extra push. I do remember saying I did not want to post more about this certain topic on my channel but what I also learned from making this video is how far I’ve come myself - which I wanted to honor as well. I’m aware it’s a bit long but I couldn’t cut it any shorter, nor did I want to. I personally think these topics deserves a few minutes at least to be discussed in the best way and I hope by sharing my experiences and perspectives, that you’ve gained the confidence and motivation to to what’s best for you. I’d really love to know, If you’ve experienced the same, agree or even disagree with me - that’s the thing about recovery too. Not a two journeys are the same because not two people are the same. Let me know if you want me to turn these videos into a series. Thank you for listening xx

[@mirchen01]

Omg yes pls turn this into a series and let me tell you, your videos are never ,too long“ 🙏🏻❤️

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I'm glad you think so 🥹@@mirchen01

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you! I resonate completely with what you're saying@@oxanadc

[@katharinaschneiderr]

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Have a cookie each time I say 'the biggest lie' or 'I wish I did it sooner'. Enjoy ;)

[@liliansmeenge3297]

Does an Easter egg count? Different flavour each time!

[@AshleyBitton]

lol love it!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

absolutely haha! @@liliansmeenge3297

[@AshleyBitton]

**there is no valid reason for skipping meals** - loved that Katharina! ❤👍

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Putting it straight out there!

[@AshleyBitton]

@@katharinaschneiderr yassss sis 👏👏

[@jennyminney]

this video is amazing! I love the way you edit, i'm truly inspired by your style and also these lies are ones I told myself and its such a good reminder that we are never alone in these feelings and that we shouldn't fault ourselves for having these thoughts, but they don't need to be listened to ever!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you Jenny. I do appreciate this so much

[@AshleyBitton]

I remember when I first saw another person struggling and I felt so sad instead of wanting to be that size and I realized wow, this is recovery - knowing that a small body doesn't bring true happiness and that living that lifestyle is just not worth it. It's a journey and I think looking back and reflecting every now again is super helpful. Sending you lots of love and big hugs from Hollywood!! xoxo 🤗❤❤❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Absolutely! It's definitely something worth mentioning. Love right back! xx

[@AshleyBitton]

@@katharinaschneiderr 💖💖💖

[@hannahc7026]

Something that I struggled (and still struggle) with in my recovery is falling into traps of disguised restriction, such as intermittent fasting. I became very interested in intermittent fasting this past summer and although I wouldn’t admit it at the time, really I was just looking for some way to restrict myself because after about a year of eating intuitively again I was growing discontent with my eating & my body. I tried intermittent fasting for a few days but I stopped after seeing a video on Abbie the dietician’s channel about how intermittent fasting can mess up women’s periods. I had just gotten my first natural period of my life that summer and I was extremely happy about it so I wasn’t willing to risk losing it again. Looking back at it now, all of the KZbin videos I had watched on intermittent fasting that inspired me to start were made by men.

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I myself believe that everyone should do what feels the best for themselves, but personally, I've only had bad experiences with intermittent fasting. I think this lies deep into the 'setting rules' and controlling my food intake around a certain time, place etc. which only made me feel horrible - and destroyed my hunger signals. It's definitely interesting to know more about the scientific part of it! I'll watch some of that myself. I am SO PROUD for you to get your period back! That is absolutely amazing ❤❤❤

[@cerisediedrich26]

Thank you for sharing genuinely honest content, these type of videos are helpful and you sharing your personal experience and what you’ve learned helps other young 20 somethings like me not feel so alone going through recovery❤ Inspiring seeing others like you share the ups and downs, and show that growth is possible✨ You are such a genuine creator, thank you for sharing all you do!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so much. I am so proud to be a leading example and for you to find this comfort, watching my videos and the things you learn from them. I always question myself, if I should even post them - and for what reason. But thank you ! ❤

[@fieke7]

you're really saving me, it feels like we are talking like friends. thank you thank you thank you for being so brave and sharing

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you for letting me know. I'm so glad to be this helpfull! Wish you the best

[@Maddie.d326]

Thank you so much for posting this! I swear, I've been telling myself all of these lies. I feel like I'm doing better, but I'm actually doing worse, so I think it's time to kick that voice in the butt and tell it to quit lying to me!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Yess, that's the spirit! I'm happy to help you push yourself! Let me know if I can do anything to help you further.!!

[@Maddie.d326]

@@katharinaschneiderr 💕💕 oh my gosh, thank you so much!!! I really appreciate that

[@katharinaschneiderr]

You're welcome!

[@Naphinel]

This was also very helpful for me. I'm in quasy since... yrs. I'm eating less, than others, but I'm thinking all the time about food, meals. I'm soooo hungry (all the time), but I'm restricting at the same time. I have so many fears, but I want to recover and a normal life with happiness and joy :( This is insane. :/

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I am so sorry for you. However, glad to be able to help you! Please, watch the videos I posted during my weight gain series, I believe they'll motivate you! at least, make you feel like you're not alone. I wish the absolute best - remember, you can achieve so much more than you think

[@rasher331]

You're such a lovely person, I'm loving your videos.

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Glad you like them!

[@Bellis_11]

Love your videos😊. I like that you are so authentic and honest. When I used to struggle I felt so alone and that no one ever talked about these things made me really lonely. It’s so nice to hear about your knowledge and perspective☺️

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so so so much! I'm really happy that you think so. It's really important for me to be relatable, down to earth and comforting. This made me smile

[@sereen-isgaming]

It’s my second day in recovery and honestly your videos made me feel so much more comfortable to eat, I made pancakes this morning but I used my comfort ingredients, but when I thought about it and tasted it I realized how bland it was and that my ed just convinced my brain it’s good, I stopped working out excessively and decided to heal so I can focus on school since I’m going to soon do IGCSE, and yesterday I fought a fear food which is ice cream, but today I wanted to make a meal plan but ended up eating random things bit by bit from each, I definitely feel guilty for eating pancakes, then I had some salmon from soup and so on, but I won’t give up because if I stop now I know I’ll relapse, I want to become stronger and heal and then have control over my meals, even though I might go through some days of eating too much or too little I will pass through it, I did try recovering twice before but I relapsed because I didn’t fully accept it and was still over working myself the hell out, but now I realized how much I actually am starting to like foods, I did have some oat pancakes with yogurt and fruits, and to be honest it was good, so did I have some rice cakes and few other fruits and that’s perfectly fine, I still felt hungry and it was better then restricting and only thinking about it, and I’m still going to eat more later if I want to, Hopefully I will go through this positively 💗

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I belive in you

[@BackpackComics]

Always love hearing your advice and how you go about problem solving. Inspirational as always! :) Youre making a lot of progress!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so much:))

[@Demiproudman]

So so much of my thoughts and feelings towards things are exactly as you are explaining. Exercise and recovery is such a hard thing.

[@katharinaschneiderr]

It's difficult to find the balance! Seems impossible at times but like anything else, we can achieve what we work towards xx

[@sarahnorman9521]

Wow! Katharina, you are such an encourager and an AMAZING communicator! This video helped me a lot🙏

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so so so much! I am really glad you say so ! xx

[@EsmeONeill-o2d]

this video was beyond helpful for me I related to every single thing u said and I feel so motivated in my recovery after hearing everything u said

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I'm glad. Thank you for sharing this with me

[@BEeTheArtist18]

This video is so helpful for me! I agree with all your worlds. I'm struggling with eating disorder, so I need to gain min 8-10kg and I don't want to live in hospital. My doctor said that l have to. Also l want keep long running😢 l'm afraid of weight gain. Your video really help me! Thank you very much❤❤❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I've gained 10+ kgs since I started. It was terrifying at first but slowly, as I reached this point, it became easier and easier. Don't worry about the numbers, focus on what you can handle right now. You need to eat, gain your life back and everything will be possible for you again. Thank you for watching ❤

[@kendrajohnson6535]

This video is very much appreciated. Thank you, Katharina :)

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you for telling me ❤

[@kristinelandsem1181]

2 words: Inspiring and Strong. I can't think of any other words that describe you better❤ Keep fighting. I am cheering for you❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

❤❤❤ I'm all smiles. Thank you!

[@laurencharltonn]

Loved this! ❤ maybe a video on “unexpected” benefits of recovery? Like more focus on things, able to spend money on yourself…??

[@katharinaschneiderr]

That's actually a really great idea! I'll definitely consider that! xx

[@lianvdvee]

This really made me open my eyes, I’ve lost my period for 3 years now and i have never really cared much about it. The thing is i have no idea how to get it back

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I'm glad and sorry for you. My tips for you would be to cut out stressfull things from your life - such as intense exercise. Eat a lot (A LOT!) and give it time. It takes a while for your body to trust you again after longer periods of not having your period, so to speak.

[@lianvdvee]

@@katharinaschneiderr thank you love

[@lisadepiza]

Katharina you help me so much, thanks you thank you thank you. Please continue, and especially what I eat in a day and stuff.

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I am so so so glad. I definitely will!

[@Monica-st]

great video and great reflections!! i’m very happy for you , hugs 🫶🏽🫶🏽

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so much Monica! Hugs for you ❤

[@meistenzeldam3969]

I don’t have much to say right now, I only want to say thank you❤️

[@katharinaschneiderr]

thank YOU ❤

[@nadineheggli4226]

Thank you so much for this video… I have decided to start recovery yesterday and it is soooooo hard. I feel everything you say and it is so nice not being alone. I am fighting not having to go to the hospital, because I want to try recovery at home. Could you please make more of this kind of videos 😊

[@katharinaschneiderr]

dear, I am SO PROUD of you! The decision itself is actually amazing and such a huge step in the right direction! Now is the time to take action. Don't forget to remind yourself, why you chose this. You chose life - YOUR life! I'll be sure to help you the best I can. Hugs ❤

[@alexischapdelaine9476]

Hi Katharina nice to see you again, hope your new year is going great for you. I hope your food feels better soon sounds like planter fascitis swelling of the tendon going along your food i have had that its very painful for while. Great vlog as always, have you ever thought of becoming a motivational speaker? to girls and guys who may be going threw an eating disorder> I think clients would respond really well to you and your story by educating them on what you have had to do to recover you mentioned at the beginning of your video about a girl you noticed in the gym that seemed to be struggling maybe try reaching out to her slowly maybe you might be able to help her for sure. Love all of your vlogs everything you create. Have a great rest of your week head winds are not helpful thats for sure especially when having to clean up snow.

[@katharinaschneiderr]

First of all, thank you! appreciate it. Both yes and no - I was considering it, but I honestly have no idea where to start. I believe I need to look into a relevant study at university or something like that. But that would definitely be interesting and a great achievement for me too, being able to help other people. Thank you for encouraging me ❤

[@living4happiness]

I like the video and how openly and honest you reflect your own way. But I think you still have some way to go. Please do not overexercise and allow yourself to live your life at home like you did in Japan (prioritising enjoying your life without any training goals). In my opinion the idea of running a marathon does not well go together with your recovery process ... wish you all the best!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you! Have you watched my previous video? I talk about how my workout routine is. I suggest you watch it!

[@marie29]

Really enjoyed the video (as always!), thankyou you, are the best❤. I recognise so many of the thing you say, but luckely i am doing really well now! When I first starting watching you, I was still really deep into my ED but you have really helped me along the way with staying true to myself. Your kind en warming precense makes your videos like speaking to a friend🫶

[@mirchen01]

Proud of you! ❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

You're so kind, thank you. I am really glad you told me this ❤❤

[@miriam031]

Thank you so much for this video

[@katharinaschneiderr]

You are absolutely welcome

[@jentevankeimpema4877]

Omg I had the same thing with the Nike running shoes!! I know have a huge bump on the back of my foot that hurts so bad when put pressure on it and my doctor said it will not go away

[@katharinaschneiderr]

oh dear, I'm sorry! Not a single person has the same running style as you, hence why shoes are so individual and important to get the right ones. I hope you'll get better with rest!

[@mirchen01]

This video is so mind blowing helpful and motivating wow

[@katharinaschneiderr]

❤❤ hugs hugs hugs

[@aimh6604]

Hey Katharina, I thought you were German because of your surname, but you are living in Denmark. I love your style, I also watched your lookbook video! I also like your earrings and rings! Especially the long earrings, could you give me some info? Have a good day!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I'm Danish. I don't speak a single word German haha! I got my earrings in a shop in Canggu, Bali. So they're not online unfortunately :')

[@liliansmeenge3297]

I for a long time tried to loose weight (because I was overweight) and told myself the exact same lie: I’m gonna start tomorrow. It never worked because of this ‘better time better place’ idea. So it’s the other way around (loosing weight) but the brain works kinda the same way. Quite interesting.

[@liliansmeenge3297]

@@oxanadc true, I needed to loose weight because it became unhealthy

[@katharinaschneiderr]

I think we tend to hold back on a lot of things in life because of procrastination. Weight gain/loss, cleaning, signing up for something, getting that job done or whatever. It's all mental!

[@lenaruffinoni6607]

I am anorexic and idk how to get my period back, I lost them 2 months ago (i don't think it's a delay bc I usually have them all three weeks) and unconsciously I'm denying the dangerosity of this lost. I know I have to recover to get them back but it'll take too much time. If someone have any solutions, please help me!

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Hi dear, thank you for reaching out! The inconsistent periods is completely normal - happens to me too. My doctor told me it's because my(your) body is stressed and in the need of finding balance. It'll happen, slowly! My advice for you is to keep eating and resting. If I slip away from a 'normal' routine of eating and resting, my body reacts crazy and my period gets messed up again. Consistency is key, making your body trust you again, literally!

[@juanarisso1704]

Wait she said she never leaves her house in the morning without eating first but she then showed how she had breakfast after leaving her workout class

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Yet I wonder how you did not notice the first minute of the video? I suggest you rewatch it :)

[@leniolesch896]

How long did you stop exercising?

[@katharinaschneiderr]

almost 2 months !

[@lunabacher7986]

du er så god katharina

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Tak

[@raidenshogun606]

i get my period then i’m losing it again i’m so tired of this😭

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Happened to me as well. It's horrible! However, it's a sign from your body that you need to keep eating, fueling, resting and can't turn around, back to how things were. Fingers crossed for you

[@thealiceftw]

have you gotten your period back for "real" or is it from taking HRT?

[@katharinaschneiderr]

As mentioned in previous videos, I quit the HRT months ago after regaining my period. It has continued ‘for real’ since then but a bit irregularly as expected :)

[@thealiceftw]

that's great - keep going!@@katharinaschneiderr

[@andrea.andrea]

sorry but why do you put the sauce pan back on a hot stove?.... you ruin the sauce pan's lifetime a lot quicker!!😬 also concerning your injury - im sorry for you! recommend swimming or aqua jogging or spinning, as it won't put pressure on your foot while doing it!:) p.s. its fulfilment (not fulfillness) :-)))

[@katharinaschneiderr]

It's butter, not sauce, to make the eggs not stick!

[@MandyGoldenGoddessFan]

I'm happy that you uploaded a video Katharina I hope everything goes well for you for this week too also keep being a awesome KZbinr because thats what you are to me ❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Thank you so much! Hope you're doing great too ❤