When I learned something in life than that recovery is never linear. It's not a straight line up, but more of a wave going up and down. Maybe this helps, hearing that this is common? Anyways, take your time and take care of you. I really really hope you will feel better soon ❤

I went through something similar. Perhaps you should start focusing less on your weight and more on how you feel? Like, if you want to eat more, eat more (or less). If you want to exercise more, exercise. If you feel tired, rest. You will live in this body for the rest of your life. You don't have to look a certain way to anyone. If the weight decreases every time, then perhaps this is the norm for your body?

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Heyy!! Lots of love for you and your attitude girl. I wish you all the best for the ups and downs. Currently also in uluwatu and was just wondering which gym that is? They are all so expensive🤧🤧 so grateful for you xxxx

Looking back does nothing than show you footsteps taken, and looking forward does nothing than making you fall over your own feet. Learn to live in the present and make the best out of what you have, right here right now! Don't worry too much, Katharina! You've got the support you need!

can you share the name from your appartement:)

I think a break is a good thing, honestly sometimes we have goals but life doesn’t work out the way we plan. Whether or not you do the marathon next year, maybe it’s good to just relax and take it one day at a time. You have your whole life to do all the things you want and you can still do those things with after your break. sometimes it’s better to release yourself from pressure of a goal and just focus on small steps right in front of you.

You are so strong for being able to admit this to yourself, let alone 25k people on the Internet! I've been there too, up and down in weight and unable to snap out of a certain mentality. But nothing is permanent and change gets easier the more you do it. I believe in you 💛 the kitty is your cheerleader, so cute 🐱

Hey Katharina, please don’t put yourself under sooo much pressure. I’ve been following you for some years now and love your videos. I just wanted to say that you don’t owe us anything. It’s super brave and honest of you to take us with you on this (not always easy) journey, but you don’t owe us any excuses or explanations. If you need a break, that’s completely okay and we will support you even more, when you get back. Keep going and don’t be too hard on yourself. Recovery is sooo hard and you are very very strong. :)

we all want what’s best for you!! proud of you for sharing and being vulnerable but remember you don’t owe any explanation to anyone, put yourself first if you need it ❤

you’re amazing, thank you for creating such a safe space here ❤

Hey there Beautiful. You’ll soar, keep up the hard work. The only person you need to have approval from is yourself. I hope you start feeling better soon, and enjoy your travels ❤

U are strong. Tks sharing your Journey. U need to rest and take care of yourself

You got this!❤

What I've learnt from eating disorder recovery (ana), is that you need to be consistent. I know you already know this, but we were told to have a timeframe of 3-4 hours between eating. So in total 6-9 meals a day. I also struggle a lot with my weight (yoyo-effect), and eventually got kicked out of the treatment programme, because I could'nt gain weight quick enough. One thing that did kinda help me though was to document all the things I ate in a day + the time. Although this might be triggering, it gave me a perspective of how little I actually was eating - cause you know our minds like to trick us. I tend to lose quite a lot of weight when I'm travelling as well, especially backpacking, because you burn so much more when you're out and about in a foreign country, so the diary might be of help in this situation. Of course you do what feels right for you, and taking a break from working out sounds like the right decision - even though it might be tempting. I know you have a lot of friends and family that loves you and wants to help you - men hvis du nogensinde har brug for at rante om spiseforstyrrelse til én som 100% forstår dig, så kan du altid række ud! Jeg gik selv i behandling ude i Ballerup, og de er virkelig dygtige - helt anderledes og meget mere "humane" end børnespyk. (jeg hedder leastorm_ på insta hvis du nogensinde skulle have lyst til at skrive<3) ellers ønsker jeg dig bare alt mulig held og lykke, og god rejse!

dear katha, for someone who has been following you for about a year and who has in the meantime struggled with severe anorexia and is still recovering when i am writing this, i want to send you all my love and strength because i totally get how hard it is to actually stick to weight gain when necessary without neglecting the other things that happen in life like travelling, hobbies or studying. sometimes the mind knows and we know we have to put on more weight in order to become stronger, healthier and live life to its fullest, but the body just doesn't follow because of all the stress and damage it has been put through, it gets lost and confused. i really want to see you feel better, more confident, stronger and healthier, hoping we can sort of do it together :) a lot of people ignorant of the context comment on this video and i'm so so sorry for that, please don't take comments at heart because sometimes people say harsh words without knowing the consequences it could have on oneself. i believe in you, and really wish to see you run next years cph marathon with a healthy body and mind ❤

I usually don't comment under your videos but I just want you to know that whatever you want to do, we'll be there supporting you. Since de beginning of your channel, I've been following your journey and tbh, I totally recognise myself. Recovery is hard, and the path to it is far to be linear so don't worry. Take your time, do what you think is the best for you and above all take care of you. What's more, as you said, you are a human and sometimes it takes us more time to achieve our goals. Well, that's life and the best thing to do is not to get discouraged and bounce back (as you do). So don't worry, you're doing perfectly. And no pressure, we got you and we'll be supporting you whatever you do 🫶 Take care Katharina <3

You’re doing great Katha!! You’ve made so much progress already and it’s normal to feel stuck sometimes or maybe even like you’ve stepped back But you’re so strong, you can do this! Also you don’t owe your followers anything You’re health is the most important right now Keep going and always remember that you are amazing!

Running is good but your health must come first. cool cat

Hey, your vlog really gives me a boost! I just got back from Japan last month and immediately felt down because I missed it so much.😔Everything there is so different from here! But I quickly found a solution-I started planning my next trip to Japan.🥹

Philippians 4:6-7 “Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Jesus Christ died for our sins. We have ALL sinned and fallen short of God’s glory. We are all on the way to hell, but God Himself in His mercy atoned for our sins on the cross and all we need to do is accept His sacrifice. He loves you and He alone can save our souls!

Thank you for being so open. As a 40+ year old dude I had quite some girlfriends dealing with eating challenges. It was so difficult to witness from the outside as I couldn’t really do/fix or help. It something quite ungraspable, if that’s a word. Seeing someone you love so much struggle is hard. I therefor think that you being open about it, without coming across as a victim of anything is super beautiful. It will not only help other girls (and boys) in the same situation. But it also inspires me, even though I again feel that wish to be able to help. I can imagine your boyfriend feel the same, and also a bit powerless. You’re a beautiful soul, take good care of the body you got. 🙏🏼 Oh and shit, coming out of both ends, I know that very well. Lived in Bali for almost a year, so been there several times. 🙈 Sending love! ❤

I would really recommend seeing a dietitian or nutritionist when you finish your travels if you’re not already!

I'm the kind of person who want to DO so many things, always coming up with new projects. I've so many friends, job, money, project IMPORTANT THINGS because of eating disorder. From 13 years old to know at 32 when I finally starting to notice it for REAL. So please, from someone who experience it, DON'T WAIST YOUR TIME. It is not a cliché and please, we all have one life. Make the most of it. No matter what it is. Be happy and enjoy your life. It the one thing you can do good on earth. For you and so for everybody around you. HAVE FUN!!!!

Just let me get one thing straight I think of you as an adventurer as someone wanting to live connected to people Their body and different environments finding joy in running to get to understand themselves in relation to the environment around them never think you are a “girl wanting to put on weight’ that’s just a thing you are a girl known for being a whole lot of inspiration

Thank you for your vulnerability! I've been recovering from a restrictive eating disorder for 8 years & I want to offer the idea that healing is not linear. I'm inspired by your determination to live a strong, active, adventurous, vibrant life! But at the same time it's okay to go through rough patches. Wishing you gentle compassion <3

Healing isnt linear. You got this

Dietitian?Could help.

I enjoy watching your videos as you a fun interesting girl , ur not just ur ED. Ed and exercise addictions are horrendous and the hardest fight of our lives so we all relapse and can’t move forward at times so ur not alone xx

Oh no! I’m sorry you got Bali Belly. I hope you feel better soon. Please keep taking us with you on your journey. It’s a tough one but you will make it through. Just keep trying your best!

You inspired a lot of people. I just hope you can see yourself as we see you. You have achieve so many goals that you set yourself to, you are powerful enough to achieve to achieve this one to. If you need time to yourself I would totally understand

I believe in you

I think I can speak of behalf of all your subscribers that we will only be so incredibly happy to see you get better and develop a stronger body- that will ultimately enable you to do and express everything that is in your strong mind already! I have been in a similar situation as you are now, so I can resonate with how you feel and it really makes me care so much. Even though we might not know each other personally, I want you to know that there is a like-minded girl in Vienna always cheering you on. I am sending you lots of love, you got this <3

Dear Kathrina you have and always will be a strong lady. Your courage to face and confirm what many of us have been thinking just shows how strong you are. Take the time you need to recover physically and mentally-we’ll all be here for you. Sending love and hugs always 🥰❤️❤️

Love you katha, please never give up or feel ashamed of your dreams and goals because of the judgement of others❤ if deep down you know you want to be strong you should never feel ashamed to share your running ans fitness related goals, do what makes you happy and stay healthy always <3

I am pleased to hear you being honest with yourself and also with us. There have been many times you have been in this position where it all hits you that you are not in the space where you want or need to be. My biggest advice to you is to recover for you... not for us... for you. Which means not rushing recovery and trying to get to this place where you can say you are fully recovered when you just aren't there yet (and that's absolutely ok!). I worry you will get strong again and then go back to marathon training and be back in this position again. Your recovery has to come first at all times. I truly hope you choose recovery for yourself this time and give it time... recovery... full recovery (not just gaining a small amount of weight and claiming you are recovered). Weight gain is only the begin. Truly wishing the best for you.

I’m so glad you made this video. Please be gentle with yourself. Shit happens! It’ll happen. Try and be patient with yourself xxxxxx

Relax,take it easy 😃

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I miss Copenhagen so much

Ive stared to taper my training due to injury. I've ran once last week T__T I miss it so much. Im focusing on cross training this week.

A fed and strong runner is a fast and healthy runner. Committing to weight gain is scary but I think you know that this is the only path forward to make sure you can live your fullest life. I would recommend following RDs on social media who focus on sports nutrition for women - for me, education (and daily reminders) on the consequences of undereating are keys to staying healthy.

dear katharina, i know this is not how you are feeling at the moment but you can still be so proud of yourself. i struggled with an ed myself and had a difficult time because of the pressure i put on myself and the expectations i saw in others. it is hard but please remember you don’t have to prove anything to anyone, especially not to us viewers. i can imagine that you are disappointed and that actually there are so many things you want to achieve, but life is not a race. it is more of a unique journey and even if right now it might not be as you imagined, your progress isn’t gone and you haven’t failed. you are more than yesterday’s mistakes. letting go of expectations and pressure is hard and so is healing, therefore i hope you’ll be more gentle with yourself. it is so important to give yourself the time, love and care you need to heal and you deserve it all. i believe in you.

I hope you can be patient with yourself. Improving is not linear... it goes up and down and sometimes a bit more down than we wish for. But as long as you try and try to have some grace for yourself you will get there. I am very excited for you´re moving journey but i also love seeing a tiny bit of the world trough you´re vlogs ( I am a hardcore homebird so no travel for me ) Same as i love to see all the new foods you try. Love how you can try all the new things. I have ARFID so new foods are kinda difficult for me. I try but it takes a lot for me to do so. So i love seeing how others do try new things. If you don't mind me asking. What would be a helpfull thing for the people here online watching you're vids to say / ask to you? Is it ok if some of us are worried sometimes or is it triggering? I am never sure what would be appropriate. Especially because it would be diffrent for everyone. I know you will get there. It would be hard but look what you already did. You can be proud even if it now feels like a letdown.

You are such a wonderful person, Katharina. I love your channel and your energy and I really admire your motivation and courage here. To your points in the video, we will always be patient and support you in this journey of change and healing. 🌸 -Liz from the US

proud of you girl ❤️

You are doing amazing acknowledging your mental health, take it slow, be present, and enjoy your time with your boyfriend. The internet will always be here if you do choose to take a break. You already know what you have to do. :) we love you regardless (New subscriber here who has been binging your videos)