life update (house, moving, PPD, chaos etc & I simply cannot stop saying "by the skin of my teeth")

[@padminimayur4049]

HLP, everyone is out here just surviving by the skin of our collective teeth

[@melissakessler77]

Amen!!!

[@melissa.deklerk]

Absolutely agree! Like how are we actually surviving?!

[@wende.with.an.e]

Truth, so much truth.

[@raneabrown4662]

I literally feel like I have pulled something off every day that there’s not a gross malfunction 😂😂😂

[@Suboptimalconditions]

For real! ❤

[@jasminejanisch4566]

“A screech of the joy of learning how to screech” is soooooo hilarious and emblematic of children and their discoveries 😂😂

[@shmachable]

Two of my four babies were screechers. It was a blessing and a curse.😂

[@alyssarosengard6674]

Just a reminder- you are an author, poet. Definitely don’t leave that out when you are introducing yourself. Be very gentle with yourself as you get back to your new “normal.”

[@marionagnew4260]

case in point: "it smells like a wood nymph's bottom; it smells like wood chips and butt." Your transcripts would be a gold mind for people doing erasure poetry.

[@livnatkafka9017]

As someone who doesn't think they will ever be able to buy a house because of a long housing crisis that is happening in my country I love to hear when other people are able to buy one it gives me hope we are all entitled to housing it shouldn't be the luxury that it is

[@lydiasalerno2320]

What a beautiful comment. Sending so many good vibes to you!

[@SimplyKatieWalks]

I'm 56 and never owned a home, I'm certainly excited for you also!❤

[@awalker127]

I can only imagine that you're likely a Canadian. It's wild here

[@mantra_ephemera]

@@awalker127I’m pretty sure Canada isn’t getting the worst of it.

[@livnatkafka9017]

@awalker127 I'm Romanian not sure how our crisis compares to Canada 🤷‍♀️

[@dariavision]

You do not need to have guilt or make explanations for buying a home. Be proud. It’s inspiring.

[@specteramber]

Hannah, please, feel free to speak openly about your new house, because not only are we all very proud of and excited for you, but we're also waiting with bated breath to see what interior design choices you make. You inspired me to color drench my dining room, I'm only looking forward for more inspiration

[@AJisreading]

Hi Hannah! I'm in my early thirties and just wanted to say that as someone whose social circle is full of new home-owners but is currently in the "i have entirely written off home ownership as a thing that will ever be possible for me" phase of life myself, hearing that you once had the same mindset that I do is incredibly encouraging. Rather than being envious or sad hearing about the move and renovation, it makes me feel hopeful that maybe my own circumstances might also change enough to own a home one day.

[@natalielloyd9200]

Saaaaaame ❤

[@staceyhookins3433]

Same!! And even if it is never possible for my family I am ever so happy for yours!!

[@marnie8032]

Two things: I cannot express how much it means to me when you give a little disclaimer about parenthood topics, even though I’m gonna watch either way. It makes me feel cared for in a way that brings me to tears each time and it is deeply appreciated. Second, we bought our first/only house two years ago when I was 47 and I had an extremely similar reaction to yours with lots of disorientation for quite a while. I kept thinking ‘I’m not the kind of person who lives in a house! House living is for those other people!’ I tried to explain this feeling to loved ones and no one understood what the hell I was talking about. I don’t feel like that anymore but I remember the feeling vividly.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

❤️

[@womanofacertainage5892]

I was an attorney for abused and neglected children - and for people struggling with addiction, mental illness, poverty - for 23 years. I understand holding grief in one hand and gratitude in another. The horrors I've seen and some I've lived -- and the privilege and gratitude that I was able to go to law school and to have a career helping people who need help and to be paid to do something necessary and important - it's all here. I, too, have one son. (And lost two pregnancies, one before him, one after him.) He is now 24 years old. The grief of his childhood being in the past is also a grief I carry. The joy and gratitude that he is a smart, kind, compassionate human being is something else I carry. Sending love and hugs. XO

[@chaqillenikita748]

Beautiful comment. Thank you for sharing with us 🙏😌

[@claudiahansen728]

Congratulations on becoming a homeowner. I went through some highs and lows when we bought a house as well. The happiness of actually owning a small corner of the world and the fear of it not being permanent. Now it's 25 years later. In the yard, one big tree is gone. A new tree has grown tall. And the house has become a home. I wish the same for you.

[@orchid51551]

HLP having a case of imposter syndrome, is definitely a case of her being just like us, scrambling to keep it together. You deserve all the happiness you and Joe worked so hard for. We are here for any home improvement, decorating, organizing content you give us. Other influencers make videos of packing and unpacking,empty house tours, etc. that get lots of views. We will watch whatever you post, even paint drying! Take time out for your move, and we will see you at your new place!

[@dr3m1ly]

watching a mascara-ful tear run down your beautifully made up face as you speak about grief and gratitude is like art in of itself thank you for sharing your life with us!

[@marniash9559]

Ok ya’ll let’s rally for HLP, this wonderful lady, and watch and rewatch her content and keep her going for this overwhelming and exciting new chapter🎉sending lots of ❤❤❤

[@lenisteingen3036]

I‘m going back to the no buy playlist all the time!

[@cosmic_lotus_eater]

I love watching her custom eyeshadow palette creations, those are soothing to me ❤

[@kamloopscruiser874]

❤The house is an outgrowth of the no buy year, a natural extension of growing up and taking charge of the finances. You’re having a moment of growing pains catching up with your own growth in the form of a bout of imposter syndrome. In the maelstrom of a move! Lots of moving parts (pun intended)

[@catharinecowan4514]

I hadn’t heard the quote you shared near the end of the video and it hit me like a ton of bricks - going through a divorce at the same time as moving into a great new home and thriving in a new career, I find myself carrying both an immense amount of grief and immense amount of gratitude/joy at the same time. Some days the dissonance is overwhelming, and every day it is exhausting. That dissonance between our personal lives and the greater world can also be exhausting. You are doing amazing, and it means so much to me and many others that you shared all these vulnerable pieces of yourself during an overwhelming time. Also, please tell Joe he is amazing too 😊 Finally, just a thought - if this isn’t over stepping I hope! If you find yourself struggling to get your usual content together, what if you posted a few videos of you reading from your poetry collection? I’d watch the crap out of those, and (in my ignorance )I think that might be a simpler type of video to produce and edit? I could be totally wrong of course 😅

[@katiesavard5640]

I would watch the heck out of a poetry reading!! ❤

[@MLiesel]

What a brilliant idea, poetry readings!

[@niktakanuka5740]

Commenting so Hannah knows I'd watch that too!!

[@sewitfits7393]

A baby, a house, a move, a book. I think you are entitled to at least a couple of weeks of breathing space to unpack, enjoy your baby squeal with delight or frustration and weep in your grief. And may I say you are doing it with a grace that I admire and seek to emulate. Blessings

[@CheeseFreaky]

I honestly don't often comment on videos, but I had a thought while watching this one that finally articulated for me why I absolutely adore this channel. A lot of people complain and then sort of need to shoehorn acknowledgements of privilege into their complaints, which is fine for some contexts but can often come across insincere and clunky and less nice to listen to because it kind of establishes footholds for objections or arguments. What I love about your videos is that you're never complaining or sharing frustrations for the sake of it - you share them in order to talk about something deeper and larger than yourself, to dive into universal truths and experiences, so that if I don't share your circumstances I can always think about my own in a different, interesting way. You also talk about frustrations while laughing, because you see the inherent humour in whatever is confusing or overwhelming, which is a far more graceful approach than complaining and then undercutting with acknowledgements of privilege. You almost make me feel like you believe any frustration or challenge you face is itself a privilege, and I so appreciate that point of view. Thank you so much for your lovely videos!!

[@cjaneg97]

I always struggle with holding both grief and gratitude at the same time. It always feels like the grief is ready to drown out everything else but holding on to the good is what keeps me going.

[@theprousteffect9717]

Yes, I completely relate to the "this is what other people do" feeling, not just with buying a house, but with so many life events. I will always feel a twinge of pain when someone in my age bracket does something I don't think I'll ever be able to do, while at the same time feel genuine happiness for them. I understand the amount of consistent time, work, and sacrifice that go into reaching any goal that's worth accomplishing. The amount of value that you add to this platform is immense and I'm so grateful you've been rewarded for that effort.

[@janestwocents6938]

I bought a house (with spouse, who is the creative) at age 40. I can't recall if it felt normal or weird. all I remember is that it felt Gordian to me and I made what I thought was a very low ball offer in the hopes that it would be refused. probably shows how awkward and unready I was even at 40. But it has been an absolute blast to have the creative outlet of making it home. Now, 25 years later, and planning to say goodbye to that labor of love feels a bit sad but also "job well done" congrats on the next wonderful chapter. Doubt your doubts! 💃🎶🥂

[@elizabethschrimpf3117]

Therapist and grief counselor here; I've been with you since 2022 trying to heal MY childhood *stuff* and just want to thank you for being brave enough to normalize vulnerability. You've built a beautiful corner of the internet, you have my gratitude :D

[@rmmr1168]

Our years have been strikingly similar. I had a baby around the same time. Moved to my dream flat. I’m Jewish, married to a Muslim. The joy and the pain are in tandem. Wishing you all the best!

[@HannahLouisePoston]

❤️

[@giedre8921]

I have to say the way you speak is so soothing to me. English is my second language but the way you talk is so relaxing. Your capability of self reflection and ability to put everything into words is a god's gift. I am not a fan of poems but I would definitely read yours. Your down to Earth mannerism, sultry and feminine presence, and logical and sharp mind is really attractive. You are art in itself.

[@jacquelinedaniels87]

If English is your second language, bravo. You speak more beautifully than many of us native speakers.

[@jbridges9574]

Hiring packers, movers, and a cleaning crew were the best money I spent when I bought my house. They’re more efficient at this than we can ever be. The stress it alleviates is priceless. An added bonus that so many people forget is that the liability for damages is now on them. If it’s not too late, the best tips I can pass along is just to put all your stuff away in your current house, or at least with the things it should be packed with. Then label every packed box on all sides with the room you want the box put in when it’s unloaded in the new house. Good luck!

[@Pangaea83]

You expressed so perfectly the weightiness of seeing what’s happening in the world and looking down at your perfect baby. We left the US last months to Morocco to visit my in-laws with my baby and 7 year old and it felt so good to escape the moral baggage of living in the US for a minute. If I could get out there, I would but I’m also tethered to my work and kids and home. I hope the care; concern and comfort of every mother extends outward like an invisible hug and prayer to all who need it.

[@Shellyish]

Girl, I have not even watched a moment of the video before I had to say that I’m so glad you’re still here, posting to KZbin. You’ve been well missed by me and so many others, I’m sure. Sending you and Joe and Felix all the love and support! ❤

[@naamahnotorious955]

Hannah, I remember when I was pregnant with my first and a bustragedy happened in Switserland with a bus full of young children from two Belgian schools. A lot of kids died that day and I couldn't stop bawling my eyes out at work. I feel ALL the drama in the world, the pain, misery, the incomprehensible things that human beings are able to do to each other impacts me even more now that I'm a parent. I never imagined the feelings of responsibility on the one side and the absolute powerlessness on the other hand, could be so strong. I've always been called too sensitive for my own good, but being a mom made that even more clear to myself...

[@kelleyvito721]

I have the same pride/shame about my career. It never occurred to me that I might be good at something and could have a successful career. So proud of you and happy for you!

[@Katiedora122]

I'm renting an apartment with a roommates at 34 and I've have always had corporate jobs, and I simply cannot imagine being in a life position to buy a home (especially because of student loans), and a lot of my close circle is pretty much the same. Meanwhile, my younger sister is 28 and married with a second baby on the way, and they just sold their condo to move into a bigger house. Obviously our priorities and stress levels are vastly different, but things just shake out like that sometimes 🤷‍♀

[@emilyjensenius4289]

Also as someone who had messed up shoulders after *years* of nursing and hauling around my toddlers, I found that working out with dumbbells in the 5-10 lb range really helped to stabilize things. I also stopped having so much neck and back pain. MadFit is my favorite workout channel, she is AMAZING and so beginner friendly.

[@lisacombs4634]

As a long time subscriber, I cannot speak for everyone else, but from the bits and pieces you've shared previously, I figured you were a little scarce because of all the big changes going on in your life. It is a lot of big events, having the baby and the house all at the same time, along with whatever other things all people deal with day to day. I knew you would get your legs underneath you and turn the corner. We enjoy the journey with you, but you owe us nothing. Your videos are incredibly insightful and this insight along with your compassion is why you have grown your channel. I, too, have gone through big life changes in the last year, and I also find I'm low on bandwidth for personal processing. But we are so happy you have the baby and so happy you're buying a home. The shame will pass and the joy will be wonderful. I urge you to deliberately choose to be kind to yourself as I also struggle to do. We are in this together and we will be here when you emerge to the other side. God bless you as you roll through the roller coaster of life.

[@stampinprn]

I love that quote. I have felt that way for the past 2 years since my mother died holding grief in one hand and gratitude in the other.

[@thejulietocean]

Hannah I’ve been positively *stalking* KZbin waiting for an HLP video ❤️ today is a good day!!

[@HannahLouisePoston]

the gap ended up being waaaaay longer than we had hoped 😭😭😭 explanation contained in this video!!!

[@lauravterrazas]

What's HLP? 🫣

[@lauravterrazas]

Oh wait. Initials. Lol 😂

[@maryangelasouza1919]

Same! I've had a feeling today was going to be the day, and it was 😅

[@Tokayd13]

Me as well. I normally save the videos to watch at night after my husband goes to bed. But today I had to watch first thing, to make sure everything is okay. I knew it was probably (just) an overwhelming time, but I worry.

[@kristinej.9599]

Thank you for making space for this check-in. You articulate your experiences with such insight, grace and humor -- we all benefit. It's a gift!

[@auntietara]

I, too, felt like I would never be able to buy, but at age 44, single, the opportunity arose and I took the leap of faith and did it. That was over 20 years ago. I’m now married to the best guy in the world, we’re retired, and bought a home we absolutely love. Being stretched by holding grief and gratitude gets easier with age, in my experience. Not that either of those things are lessened … it’s the stretch that has become something I can handle with more grace. Hang in, girl … we’re all pulling for you. 🥰🤗

[@oddreplica]

That clionadh shadow is a love letter to this backdrop, a perfect blend of the dead salmon walls and the globular bits of the geese lamp.

[@Madeline-Cano]

I am unbelievably envious about your lovely house (I've been watching on IG!) but my god am I so happy for you and Joe. You are such a beautiful creative. A poet, a film maker, a mom, and a HOMEOWNER!!! You deserve all the beauty and wonderful things, Hannah. Congratulations! 🩷

[@HannahLouisePoston]

Thank you so much!!

[@iangrissett9203]

You look beautiful even in chaos. Absolutely killing the messy bun!

[@deathbychai]

Hannah what a powerhouse of a quote to share. Thank you so much for sharing all that you shared and continuing to actively share yourself with us. Truly, you are such a source of inspiration and calm, I am so thankful for having found your channel.

[@farahscroggs2939]

Hi Hannah, I loved the quote that you shared at the end . Finding the balance between gratitude and grief at the same time is no easy feat. As a 46 year old woman I can tell you that I have learned that life comes in seasons, everything will change, have grace for yourself in this season that you are in nothing has to be perfect, embrace the chaos and keep moving forward. I’m sending you a big hug. (Please excuse my grammar, English is my second language)

[@sugaCat363]

Husband and I bought a house in 2020, so I empathize with the weirdness of getting to do this exciting stressful thing that many people in our circle won't get to do, during a time where many people were suffering. It was very strange to, as you said, hold that gratitude and grief, but also not have time to think about it, because moving is soo chaotic. Everything happens so fast when you buy a house! Thank you for taking the time to update us, but please please take the time to take care of yourself. We will be here when you get back.

[@lisasutton5691]

This is timely for me. My mom lost her battle with cancer the second week of May. And let me tell you, she was a warrior. I have not felt as strong. So I will repeat the Francis Weller "mantra" to myself over and over again. Thank you.

[@ardenwooooo]

As a random person with creative dreams who thinks I will probably never be able to buy a house…I’m just so so happy for you!!! I’m so excited for you to have a place that is truly your own! Thank you for sharing what’s going on in your life. Love ya 🇵🇸❤

[@melissasanford3602]

I resonate so strongly with that quote and the feeling of being stretched largely by the poles of what I've felt in the past 8 months. During this time, I was accepted to my dream PhD program (fully funded!!), but what I study is deeply intertwined with the horrors of this genocide. So, there are no "breaks" and I am deeply immersed in the daily horrors which are starkly juxtaposed by so much love and beauty that I am so lucky to be surrounded by in the forms of my family, home, and security. Thank you for talking about this pull. It can be hard to bear. And thank you for what you do, it is appreciated. ❤

[@HannahLouisePoston]

sending love ❤️❤️❤️

[@bleachitwhite]

unexpectedly tearing up here at the end of this. thank you as always for your candor, kindness, and wisdom, HLP.

[@apocketfulofprose]

I didn’t expect to be hit so close to home and to start deep crying with this video. You are seen, you are not alone, thank you for giving voice to so much of what I (and I’m sure many others) are feeling. I am so grateful to you. ❤️ (Also, it felt so good to laugh when you tried to wipe away the mascara with the tissue paper!)

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you! Sending love in return!

[@KarenDoveEdwards]

Thank you so much for being a real person on a platform that encourages a curated perfect life. And thank you for acknowledging the horrific reality and amazing joy we all experience every day right now.

[@EmanDesouky-yg6xk]

Being a parent makes the Gaza genocide hit harder. Thank you for acknowledging the unfathomable horrors. And that Francis Waller quote shook me. I was a fan but now I’m loving your content even more.

[@RusticLps]

HLP, your videos and content always cheer me up. Please please prioritise your health, your family and yourself! Its disheartening to realise to what degree youve pushed yourself through all these challenges and struggles! thank you notably for voicing so poetically and thoughtfully whats happening in the middle east (i assume Palestine) and it must be as a mother incredibly distressing to see/be witness to so much horrors happening within and outside of your life. Love love love your content, but i am growing to love your person more and more every watch. take care please as that is whats most important ❤️❤️

[@AlisonKjeldgaard]

I so appreciate how your makeup videos are not just makeup videos - they are always so thoughtful and often bring larger questions about consumerism and how to be more mindful consumers into the discussion. Thank you for showing up so vulnerably to share what's been going on behind the scenes, and for sharing how the daily (even hourly) horrors happening in Palestine have been affecting you. I've been feeling the same way. I'm going to write that quote you shared on a sticky note so i can remember it.

[@evanbarbourgrippi1473]

I see myself in your grief and gratitude, too. It’s disorienting to be a parent and at the same time see so much death and suffering in the Middle East, and to see your own family and love for them in the families there. Keep stretching. I’m doing it right alongside you.

[@melaniemerkosky]

Oh that quote gave me goosebumps ✨ Thank you for sharing yourself and your truths with everyone here Hannah. Best of luck with your move!

[@saraisreading4231]

If you went back in time and told No Buy Year Hannah that you bought a house, imagine how she’d react. I remember you talking about being surprised that the money in your wallet was growing instead of shrinking. And now you’ve grown to the point of home ownership! I hope you take a moment to be proud of yourself and sit with that feeling. ❤❤❤

[@lydiach3426]

Putting a face of makeup on just to cry it off in the end, oh sweet HLP! love you!

[@jennarose1867]

Hannah, I am not a frequent commenter. But you are one of the few content creators (maybe the only one actually?) where I watch every video you make. I feel that stretch of grief and gratitude. My children will hug me or do something ridiculous or funny or have a tantrum and I marvel that I can be here with them, that I hold them close and see them, a privilege denied so many families right now. Thank you for sharing your post partum self in the video today, I think it will be helpful for many people to hear that. I hope the move has gone well!

[@sandrahalling]

I saw a video on IG recently about how Grief is often talked about as a journey, but it is really a language. There's no end; coming to terms with grief is a process of becoming increasingly more fluent.

[@daniellycalipo6531]

OMG the joy you bring to my life Hanna! you casualy droping the information that you found the perfect lip balm ITS THE END OF A LONG HUNT I live in Brazil, most of the products you use I dont have access to buy, so for me the joy its purely the entertainement your videos give I love that I can be a patreon and support your beautiful job in the world! I wish all the great things your soul desires ❤

[@saraantonelli3586]

You’ve build a great community of people who support you and everything you’re going through. Enjoy your success, it’s beautiful how humble you are. Can’t wait to see the new home ❤

[@emilybreslin3645]

Sending you a lot of love! This quote came up on a podcast; apparently it is from an old movie: "I'm a strong tree with branches for many birds. I'm good for something in this world and I know it too." That imagery helps me when I feel like I am holding too much. We are all holding too much, but we can. ❤

[@elizabethknittel]

Hey there beautiful! I just love your channel!!! I found you during your maternity leave last year and have binged so much of your content! I struggle with major depression and your video series “what’s cheering me up right now” has been a game changer for me! So helpful when I need gratitude! Hope your move went smoothly!!!! ❤❤❤ sending you lots of love 💕

[@elizabethknittel]

I just joined your Patreon! Yay! More Hannah content!🎉❤

[@juless9277]

Gosh, I just feel so much compassion and respect for you, for what you are able to articulate so graciously and share so thoughtfully with us on this platform. The balancing act it must be to hold the private and public, personal and professional aspects of your life, ooof! And all while holding the grief and the gratitude, as that quote so beautifully puts it. Wishing you ease and grace as you navigate this hugely transitional time, congratulations on the wonderful parts, and sending compassion for the hard ones.

[@kalliej4807]

HLP, your humility is a breath of fresh air. That being said, you have every right and reason to feel proud and excited for this new season of life. As someone who feels that owning a home will never be my journey, I still love to see the hard work pay off for people. I love to see all your hard work pay off. You deserve it!

[@BineFold]

Oh wow you genuinely brought me to tears at the end there... I love that Francis Weller quote. I hope the move went well and you and your family are doing great in the new house so far!

[@BethInABox15]

Absolutely resonate with the home purchase emotions and not wanting to tell anyone. I just tell people “I’ve moved house” and I don’t even mention the purchase unless they specifically ask. The millennial guilt is strong after watching so many friends forced to skip major milestones like this. We also had to do the 2 month Reno before moving in and it was a chaotic experience. We’ve been living in the place for 3.5 months now and it’s finally starting to feel like home. Be patient with yourself, “the only way out is through” 🤝

[@cscreative5460]

People on KZbin (and in general) have moved and literally said nothing 😅 so your complex thoughts on this speaks a lot to your personality and authenticity

[@mariegrooms9648]

Hannah, I absolutely love the quote you shared about gratitude and grief. Wow. I'm on the brink of turning 42 and I feel like the last 5 years have stepped fully into that land of contrast. The love of my life of now 13 years moved back to where I live in 2021 after 7 years of cross-country long distance - a dream that was hard to hold onto after so many defeats and a global pandemic. In contrast, we both lost all of our grandparents in a 4 year span among a host of other wonderful and terrifically terrible events in the mix, with no sign of slowing. You really do have to buoy the good to help ease the sharp bite or dull ache of the bad, in whatever way you can find. Thank you for sharing your experiences. You've given me the solace of knowing I'm not alone in this wildly exciting and devastating journey through this life and world we share. ❤

[@mariegrooms9648]

Found the full quote! Francis Well, a well-known author and psychotherapist, has said, "The work of the mature person is to carry grief in one hand and gratitude in the other and to be stretched large by them. How much sorrow can I hold? That's how much gratitude I can give. If I carry only grief, I'll bend toward cynicism and despair. If I have only gratitude, I'll become saccharine and won't develop much compassion for other people's suffering. Grief keeps the heart fluid and soft, which helps make compassion possible."

[@baidykle1]

Every single time I watch one of your videos, I think what a beautiful, wise, deep person you are, it shows in your every word, and always gives me this feeling of connection and hope about life and the world. Thank you. Congratulations on the beautiful things that are happening in your life, you deserve them, and strength for the heavier things. ❤ We bought our house two years ago, and I still don't feel like I've settled or like it's mine/ours. It's a very unsettling feeling.

[@amandajaneh]

This all resonates so much! I so appreciate your big heart and your vulnerability, Hannah! I have elder care, a kid with autism and work full time - it’s hard enough without devastating news and suffering around the world. As you say it’s a lot to hold at once!!Sending you so much support and gratitude for your channel. You make the world a bit brighter for so many of us! ❤

[@MrsSukiSkye]

Take whatever time you need, live your best life! The Tubes will always be here whenever you get back 😊

[@sepideharfazadeh542]

So so excited for you Hannah. All the best wishes for your new life in your new home, so well deserved. Enjoy and be happy with your baby, husband and lovely cat 🥰🥰🥰

[@ghouliegarou]

I think there are many of us experiencing similar dissonance in our lives currently. It's been a mantra in my family over the past few years, "don't forget to celebrate the good things." It's so easy to let the bad stuff overwhelm you. Make space for all of the good too! Best of luck on the move! Even when the move is what you want and what you've been working for, it's still one of the most stressful upheavals in life. Hope you're able to settle in quickly and comfortably on the other end.

[@silkehuybrechts7832]

Right when I saw the tears well up in your eyes, I felt the lump in my throat. I have never felt this happy and at peace in my own skin and in my own life, but also never felt this anxious and sad about existing in this world. I have always loved reading and writing as a way of both escaping and processing my feelings, but I have never needed it as much as I do right now. I have found a lot of comfort in poetry, and in words in general. Thank you for sharing that Francis Weller quote. It's beautiful, and it holds so much truth.

[@nadia.lewis.]

Congrats on the house! I feel you on that weird Millennial paradox: shame of not having a home, and preemptive guilt if I ever do manage to fulfill the dream...

[@margeling4718]

How exciting!!! Just remember to breathe. We will be here when you can return.😊

[@LexiLadonna]

Our babies are about the same age, and the screeching is real! I don’t know how such a little body manages to make such a loud noise

[@alicepirola7077]

Congratulations going out to you, along with much empathy for your situation and phase of life that you're in...as I am 62 yrs., I can definitively share that there is so much more to come in terms of the grief/gratitude idea. Hold them both so gently in each hand, realizing that it is All part of the journey Sweetie. You will make it through and then on to the next, and so on. Thank you for sharing as it helps not only you, but others on the similar part of the path you are on. Keep that beautiful smile intact, don't settle in one place too long and look forward with much anticipation and yes, greatfulness.❤

[@jamkwasowski5207]

A silly comment I've been not posting every week, but still think every time so here we are: I had really hoped that when your son was born your title sequence would be updated with a little swaddled baby, balanced on top of Sadie's head at a jaunty angle! But the new one is lovely too 😘 Genuinely delighted that your hard work is being rewarded with the security of your own home and the joys of making it beautiful and comfortable. The system is rigged and vile, but if we can ethically hack it there's no shame. So much love to you ❤️

[@stellonestellino6912]

Totally agree with you about everyday miracles and gratitude vs deep grief for what is going on around me

[@evalindell2757]

I lived in the same house for over 30 years. When we moved I did not declutter a single thing but I have spend the time since decluttering! Lots of things I though would be decluttered got a new life while some things I just loved in the house got decluttered! You don’t know how you will feel in the new place! Much smarter to wait and see! Good Luck with moveing!

[@jilliancampbell6742]

Thank you always for showing up authentically. Whether that’s full of joy and energy or with heaviness and only tissue paper to wipe your tears. 💕 you are a light in the world.

[@fernandacampestrini89]

And thanks for talking about the grief/gratitude. I’m in the same boat. I also cannot talk about things before crying a bit. One day at a time.

[@caitlynwells6648]

I relate so much to the last bit. Holding grief and joy: the way it feels so contradictory, and how it makes what is precious so much more precious, and whats precious makes what is grotesque and horrifying even more so…ugh. ❤

[@TimeTravelReads]

I love that quote about grief and gratitude being held together and it stretching you. Thank you.

[@erinodonnell386]

Congratulations! It can be very… confusing to try and navigate having worked hard and carefully and being proud of your work and acknowledging that your success is something you should be proud of. Especially in a world where people come out of the woodwork and try and rip you down for even acknowledging your own success. Remaining humble and grateful is one thing, and that is entirely separate from owning your accomplishments and being proud of yourself although arrogance and confidence are often conflated. Navigating that myself has been really hard, I have a tendency to be extremely hard on myself at baseline so dealing with that internal conflict and external pressure has been difficult. And navigating that in a public space like the internet would be tough and confusing and could be a bit of a tightrope. Good luck Hannah. I know you can integrate yourself and your circumstances and come out the other side with balance and grace and confidence. You deserve to be happy.

[@Portia1416]

We bought our first dream home in Feb of this year. I know exactly the feeling you are feeling. I can completely relate. The first month or so felt surreal. Like is this really my home? Is this really my reality? Our situation was interesting bc we bought my in. Laws home. They downsized so we bought their beautiful home. The first month and a half I felt like I was just visiting or sleeping over my in laws home. My children shared the same sentiment where they said they just felt they were sleeping over grandmas! 😃 but now I feel it is our own and am enjoying actually making it ours. We will be doing full renovations, starting w the kitchen. And we am already did all the landscaping which I love! I realized I do in fact have a green thumb! I also planted a vegetable garden and its thriving! ❤️❤️❤️

[@jodywinter8171]

You deserve your success and increased financial security, Hannah, You have such a highly tuned sense of compassion and empathy, and it's OK to both enjoy your success and progression in life and still feel empathy for others who are still waiting. We all contain multitudes and two things can be true at once. Try and enjoy the moment and share whatever you feel comfortable sharing. x

[@palettesandpans]

Your share at the end hit deeply and made me feel some tough but real emotions. The world is such a dark, scary, and often hateful place right now, I'm not sure how any of us stands it, but somehow we do and we make it through. The bit about simultaneously holding space for grief and gratitude struck a chord.

[@thegardentable3]

I relate so strongly to this video. Your feelings are valid and strangely listening to you work through your life changes and feelings helps me process my own feelings from years ago going through similar circumstances. I love your content and find it so relaxing and helpful. You have helped me so much with my own mindfulness. Which is strange maybe but true. All of that said- hiring packers and movers when you have a baby is a fantastic idea and I am not sure if we ever fully understand how our brains change when we have a baby. You will never be the same. Wishing you the best move. Thank you for sharing. I can’t wait for the new summer content from your new space:)

[@Marsolan]

Nursing pillow was helping my shoulder situation❤️

[@Heather.C.ButterflySage]

Beautiful quote. So true. Sending love, prayers, & strength to you & your family during this time. 🕊💗

[@brittanyschnell]

I feel like my PPD was prepartum depression. While there have been times where I have been sad since my baby was born, it's been nothing like how it was when I was pregnant. We are all so different. Thank you for sharing your journey

[@MoonlitSunflower]

I'm sorry that life has been so full of grief for you right now. I am happy though that during this time of hardship you have so much that you are grateful for. I appreciate you sharing the quote. Sometimes it is easy to sink into the depths of sorrow. I've always loved the idea of swimming drunk. A terrible idea, I know. But they say when people are drunk, they can become more easily turned around and have a harder time determining which way is up. Which way to go to break the surface and breath. I think sometimes being "stretched" by sorrow can make it hard to see all that we have to be grateful for. It can make it hard to truly live with joy and gratitude. To stretch yourself in the other direction.

[@loradow5543]

I so appreciate your reflections. It is hard to balance gratitude and well-earned pride with grief and acknowledgement that so many others do not have the same opportunities. Listening to you was a good reminder to me that being stretched by the grief and the gratitude is the point. Thank you so much for your videos. I don’t give a rip about makeup. I just like to hear you think.

[@tcwaxwing]

Catching up with this one, and reaching out with heart in both hands to balance the grief and the joy. Hope the move goes as smoothly as a move can go!

[@Labbfreak]

Holding space for all of this for you, Hannah. I’m not a parent but strongly relate to so much in this video.

[@MLiesel]

What a beautiful video. Thank you! Sending encouragement your way as you juggle your full-time jobs, and as you are stretched between grief and gratitude. It occurs to me that you have spoken about how it was, in part, deep grief and reeling from what was going on in the world which spurred some of the overspending that eventually led you into your no-buy year, and I am feeling moved by the growth you have achieved in the years since. It seems like, despite the deep griefs and intensity of your current experience, you have carefully gathered so many tools for moving through hard things, and you have so generously offered to us your example of growth. You share so many insights from your own experience that help me to navigate my life more intentionally as well. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences and I hope all goes well with your move!

[@TheYoghurt42]

I would love to see the bathroom renovation video!! I bet your design inspirations are gorgeous

[@devonasselin4328]

Moving into a house that you bought and needs work is a lot to process all at once. And renovating especially DIY takes waaayyy longer than you think initially. It's so exciting though and I am obsessed with interior design so can't wait to see that content. It's been fun watching your stories on Instagram too, mini updates. Thank you for sharing this all!

[@kimxgree]

I hope you are taking moments to rest and breathe during all of this chaos. I appreciate the courage it takes to share the depth of emotion you have with your audience. Please know that you are not alone in the tumult.

[@reformingbeauty]

I would have loved to see vlogs of you renovating your new home. 😊

[@HannahLouisePoston]

we took lots of pictures and footage, I do hope to make some videos from it!