Feeling lost, lazy, uninterested, and depressed after awakening - What to do?

[@paulinemichard9717]

Oh dear. Hearing you is like a precise description of what i'm going through...it asks me to sit down a lot to remain still and not sink totally into despair. Thank you so much for speaking about that

[@dcktater7847]

Welcome toda club

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

In 2012 I entered a state so beatific that I was depressed for 4 years afterwards, with that memory still with me but no access. I had to return from that state due to karmic obligation; it felt like a choice but was actually involuntary. For years after that I would meditate for hours every night hoping to somehow get back to that state, and every time I would find it had been locked away. I was also told this return would entail immense suffering and it has. In 2020 I was wealthy, retired, and had idyllic life conditions. Today I am homeless and broke with no visible path to rebuild. I'm on my last legs here, I feel like there is nothing left in the tank. I've always tried to stay positive through this all and help others with the awakening process. But at this point, God, if you are listening, I could really use some help right now.

[@kevinmai2947]

How did you lose your wealth and retirement?

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

@kevinmai2947 It's a long complicated story. Short version, divorce, forced into a mental ward, forced into meds that messed me up very badly for years, kidnapped, robbed, evicted, no money to get my stuff back before they auctioned it off. I committed to the spiritual path full stop in 2011, nothing was going to stop me from going the whole way. A series of tragedies and gradually losing everything was the result. It's probably for the sake of severing all worldly attachments or something along those lines. It has been crazy rough for the past ten plus years. There is no free will, I can't dodge any of this no matter what. I thought it was over in 2023, but it just got worse. I'd really like to go back to that state I was in back in 2011 and be happy. There's been so much trauma. I just want to go Home. I know it will all be okay in the end, I just don't want to suffer anymore. Thanks for your concern. 🙏

[@kevinmai2947]

@@JustOneWillingSoul That's a crazy story. Have you heard of Ananta Kranti? She's a spiritual teacher who awoke decades ago in a Japanese prison for being caught with her friend's LSD. Not quite a psych ward but I imagine the horrid conditions are similar.

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

@kevinmai2947 Hadn't heard of. That sounds horrible though. There's always someone who has it even worse I suppose. 😅🙏

[@bugrist]

I would stop to long for something that is not present if you care about your well being and love yourself. Forget it. It was what it was. Find no mind instead and be free from such totally useless attachments

[@silentsabbath]

when I decided to dig into devotion, everything changed for me. it opened up new ways for me to see the world. it led me away from outcome and expectation. it answered questions I didn't even know I had. it allowed me to find love every where. thanks, Lisa. this was such a good reminder for me.

[@rafreitas]

That’s it. That’s what happened to me! Thank you Lisa. ❤

[@josearocho62]

Thanks!

[@bobmolavi]

Thank you so much Lisa. A great reminder with so many powerful spiritual nuggets. After going through awakening, its very common to feel depleted or depressed. It could be the perfect time for the individual to WAKE UP. Author: Pure Happiness

[@Not_Quite_Sam]

This is exactly where I’m standing these days. Tons of gratitude for your help Lisa ❤ Thank you

[@3r7s]

❤❤ so on point..

[@stardustjazz2935]

You are so right about it, I wish I was able to to get that advice when I was 20 and I had my first so called awakening...

[@aishaninyheim3404]

Beautiful ❤

[@sydlobo]

spot on

[@EternalBeingOfficial]

Thank you, I am turning 25 this year and this really resonates

[@ABrown-th1ho]

Thanks for addressing. It's difficult to get excited at times about this experience when we understand it's all an illusion. However, I try to look at it like I am Source/God experiencing itself and if I can spread love to others or be the light to others, that is well worth the effort. Not always easy. But, it does help! ❤

[@YvonneMcNulty]

Thank you Lisa, really perfect guidance for me right now🙏🏻❤️

[@Jhawk_2k]

Oh yeah, been there. I've experienced existential dread since childhood, I was always oriented towards existence and what it means, if anything.

[@alfreddifeo9642]

Thank you for speaking truth

[@izzynow]

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[@tatianapassosterapeuta]

Thank you so much, thats what i perceived, an intelectual awakening...

[@dcktater7847]

Well i know nothing about awakening but all of the above thanks...

[@SweetMellieSue]

Thank you Lisa. I started to surround myself with reminders, I refer to it as weaving my spirtual practices into all things, so it becomes like breathing and blinking.... no thinking, just doing. Listening the music chants you shared with us in your last Satsung, at the gym, during the work day, plan to do more as you suggested here. Also incorporating it into my cooking and eating (learning about Ayurveda practices and eating). Love to you❤ Melody

[@ananddesouza1837]

I am going through this same thing now. Thanks to God for sending me this video. And Thanks to Lisa. I have watched many or Ramesh Balsekar's videos and Roger Castillo's also. In some of the Ramesh Blasekar's videos we can see the younger Lisa Cairns and Roger Castillo. And also Wayne Liquorman.

[@cjkim6796]

been at this place for about 4-5 years now. i don't necessarily mind it so much as one effect of the "awakening" seems to have gotten rid of my life-long anxiety attacks nearly for good, which in turn acts like a buffer or a catch net so i don't sink below a certain point. but low energy seems helpless. meanwhile, i got me a motorbike n license for the 1st time 2 yrs ago at 48yrs of age- got me saying a prayer before each ride in no time, 😂😂especially after a pretty heavy crash one time(got out ok with minimal injuries and zero effect in my love for this new found addiction). interestingly, i also been noticing the habit of prayer spreading outside of riding and into daily life little by little. i don't mean to be an advert for motorbikes but there's one option. 😁 but i still struggle- i can only ride so many hours and days. i also know heavy lifting helps a lot- maybe even more effective purely psychologically speaking- but often lose the motivation for months. anyway, just wanted to rant a bit on this very interesting topic a bit. much appreciation on the advice/wisdom, thank you always,

[@freewilldita1]

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[@peachcoachshon]

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[@manucabandini]

dear ... ♥

[@sanduys3085]

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[@1OSWALDO1100]

If you awake You wil feel the urge to create

[@michaellicht8854]

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[@ferdinandalexander8053]

That’s because no one ever awakens. That which is all there is of all there is, is already fully awake, (if you choose to use that term.) It doesn’t know any other status besides Its changeless perfection. It is whole, complete, omnipresent, now, not after more thoughts about it.

[@khwaac]

Does watching non-duality videos count as awakening?

[@dcktater7847]

Well does effing an inflatable rubber woman count as effing??? Who really knows...🤔interesting philosophical question. But probably not...(fully). It can be a precursor for effing maybe

[@Jhawk_2k]

What an analogy 😆​@@dcktater7847

[@johnleo16]

Well if you watch with resonance there is definitely something in it I would say but if it's for curiosity or learning then not just yet , wait for the resonance .

[@natesamadhi33]

No. No offense, but thats like asking "does watching workout-videos counts as working out." you need to engage in actual awakening-practice (dhyana and vipashyana) to awaken.

[@Jhawk_2k]

@ If I watch workout videos while working out I'll see gains.

[@jmseipp]

Only the mind feels lost, lazy, uninterested, depressed. The Awakened Consciousness doesn’t feel any of that.

[@dcktater7847]

Yea but you are the mind

[@jmseipp]

@ If you watch, witness, the mind long enough you will come to know that’s not the case. You are the WITNESS, you are AWARENESS, you are PRESENCE, not the mind.

[@dcktater7847]

​@@jmseippyes but that can be dissociative personality disorder too

[@eoghain5021]

@@jmseipp you aren’t the witness, there is duality between witness and the witnessed in this case

[@johnleo16]

Yes you are right ,yet this is how the experience comes across because we are so enmeshed with the mind , all these years of living life through the mind that's all we know how to , even after awakening commences this is a huge challenge hence this phenomenon of feeling lazy , disconnected, uninterested,.depressed , its the mind that feels all this , consciousness is sat chit ananda , it takes a lot of getting used to and and not seeing things from the mind but from consciousness for these symptoms to lift . I am in the thick of it right now .

[@tonydaniels6352]

If you are lost, lazy, uninterested and depressed after awakening then you haven't awakened. It's just a premature claim to have awakened because you're thinking too much about non duality concepts that you have adopted as a belief system. The ultimate awakening which is Self-realization has no levels.

[@mthwvr]

First there is no stopping awakening or after awakening. Stop grasping. And get off your ass and help people.

[@aleksandrkarma7679]

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[@kksxxy7258]

God has departed from you because of your unbelief and when you acknowledge him - magic you cannot utter happens because he created all things - truth all else is deception - seek your answers

[@kksxxy7258]

Do not follow false idols sacrifice to other gods this world is run by the devil and the other things you follow are controlled by him keeping you from acknowledging god and that is his requirement

[@evaldochavesoficial446]

Marry me?

[@PhanThịChinhnh]

Mein Versuch, einen sexy Tanz für meinen Partner zu tanzen, endete damit, dass ich feststellte, dass ich die Koordination einer neugeborenen Giraffe habe. Notiz an mich selbst: Das nächste Mal sollte ich mich auf subtiles Schulterwackeln beschränken😘

[@sherrilawrence662]

Thanks!

[@richardsnyder6413]

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