Living with OCD a documentary

This is a documentary that I made of myself for a school project

[@titandragon753]

People need to realise that not everyone with OCD has a fear of germs only. It can manifest itself in many ways. Everyone is different. The fact that his room is messy is irrelevant and rather an ignorant comment. Do your research before leaving comments like that.

[@bethlancaster4120]

Looks like there needs to be more awareness about ocd and all mental illness in general. No titan is right ocd can manifest itself in many different ways. You can be really messy and even neglect chores and still have severe ocd.

[@Netgear600]

For the people saying that for a person with OCD his room is really messy, there are different types of OCD, you don't have to have anxiety about a messy room to have OCD.

[@michaelcdarby]

Anyone here with OCD I am terribly sorry. I have been diagnosed with it for 5 years and have been on 4 different medications with 4 different therapists. People don't know what it's like to actually suffer in this world. They worry about stuff that goes on around them but nothing near what we suffer with

[@samuelsnell9474]

I'm here I have server ocd if u need help or advice

[@KaptainKash100]

​@@samuelsnell9474 Are you still there?

[@lpsstarlight2207]

does anyone else have that annoying trait where they touch something and it just feels...wrong?? so you keep touching it again until it feels right? And when you can't touch it again it just makes you crazy? :( If I can't touch that certain thing again I start pulling at my hand and rubbing them to help the sort of "pain"

[@ravikanth7167]

ya i feel the same :(

[@lpsstarlight2207]

***** for me it didn't happen too often, but when it did, I wouldn't be able to stop until I've touched it hundreds of times (no exaggeration there) But when I can't touch it again I will go INSANE. Once when I was little I was in a store with my parents, and I picked up something off the shelf and had to put it back because we were leaving, I put it down totally wrong (?¿) and I couldn't fix it cuz my mom had grabbed me and we left. So the rest of the car ride home, I was pulling at the skin of my hands and rubbing them against each other, even bitting them. By the time we got home I had a huge burn and different bite marks all over my hands. This still happens now when I'm like 15 years old, but not with the biting part, and I stop before I can physically injure my hand, and just shake my hands out

[@marrissarobertson4571]

Ugh yes

[@halleyrhoton9763]

Yes.

[@skyelercook5764]

yes I do that

[@ronnieluna7173]

I have obsessive compulsive disorder too. I have too tap something three or more times, and if I don't I think something bad will happen. It's horrible

[@ronnieluna7173]

I have been professionally diagnosed

[@Foxbite]

Same I have OCD I have to do something in the exact order and everything has to be clean or I'll think something bad will happen

[@GeoWrld-wq5se]

+Ronnie Luna i was there when i was 8 now i am 23 and my mental state is good cause as the years passed i learned that its me or it so now everytime i am about to explode i ve found myself ways to chill you just need to open that door and get away from those chains and never be harsh to yourself if something isnt done today it will be tomorow :) ocd is the reason i ve set up walls inside of my head and i ve playing hide and seek with it in my case everything is about time...it gets me very anxious even if i know i am right on time and everything i m eating or even walking when i was little have to do with double numbers 2 4 6 8 etc never let this bitch get you down you are better than that

[@Foxbite]

+George Brezerakos Thanks bro you really inspired me

[@ausvice3721]

Ronnie Luna would I have ocd? Things I do are not to step on cracks (only when I notice, when I do I get pissed) and when thinks go slowly back and forth I get really anxious and I start tapping things fast or I hear screaming and hollering and I also can never have the volume anything other than the intervals of 5.

[@marrissarobertson4571]

That cabinet thing is so me😂it's bugged me for years lol

[@TheDanimatorsChannel]

Thank you for sharing, I have OCD too in the form of checking and I was thinking about making a similar video and wanted to see what other people had already made. I was stoked to hear a motion city cover playing in the background because I can highly relate to that band and that song. Right before I posted this comment I was playing their songs on the drums.

[@eyeyamI]

you are brave for participating in this. thank you. wishing you all the best

[@SadeyLovesYah]

I hate when people leave cabinets and drawers open.

[@swapilot48]

Man, god bless you, you have OCD and you do your best and strive to do the best. Plus, you play guitar, how cool is that!!

[@night1247]

if he had not OCD would it still be cool ?

[@ryzimski5749]

OCD is a serious condition, it can put large amounts of stress on people, leading to the possibility of random bursts of aggression, depression and what a majority of people would consider odd behavioural patterns, its not a healthy thing to have in your life.

[@pintoralma88]

Cullen, nice comment!😊

[@heatherwalton4281]

I'll go ahead and make this comment 777. This takes a lot of courage to post, and you should be proud of yourself. Having anxiety myself, I struggle telling others, in fact I fear people judging me for being scared. Life with anxiety disorders is not easy, and it takes guts to spread awareness. Bravo, sir!

[@sparkle5278]

Those cargo pants would drive me crazy & I don't have OCD. Wrinkly pockets!!!

[@ocdhelp]

Thank you for bringing more attention to OCD. It's very important to keep talking about it so people understand how serious it is and that it's not only about cleaning or organizing. It's a very serious mental condition that can take over teh person's life. Thank you for helping bring awareness.

[@Jay__Cee]

Thanks for this video. I know just how you feel but seeing someone else's journey tells a different story. Much love and good luck in recovery whenever or however it may be.

[@ninjanerdstudent6937]

Worrying about being too skinny in our society is not a problem most people feel. It's usually the other side that society would, in general, form obsessions about and then be compelled to do the compulsions (actions). I had it much worse as a child with OCD. I have developed my own coping mechanisms over the years. For example, being in public and surrounding myself around people prevents me from doing the compulsions and I end up following the social norms. Obtaining more education is my other coping mechanism as well as meeting new people. Just keep yourself so busy in life that you have no time to think about these day to day obsessions. OCD has a ton to do with superstitions. Originally, I just closed my eyes and told myself "everything is fine, nothing bad would happen by changing routine", then I proved it to myself by switching up routine, like testing a hypothesis to myself. If you are not able to cope like many of us can, just go for the drugs.

[@chelseagillego3039]

My life with OCD really pulls the trigger out of me! I mean for goodness sake,I've spent almost ours just to make sure I have touched everything inside the house including the ceiling.And not just that,I'm trying to make sure that my hands are clean. And if I hold my right hand,I also have to hold my left hand and vice versa.I also have to touch the switch inside the house 4 times because if I don't,something terrible is going to happen.One time when I was excessively worried about dread and my death, my anxiety attack me more than a day,my family was so worried and they thought I was experiencing mild stroke by that time.Until now my OCDs ruining my life,including my daily activities and my duties inside the house and inside the campus.And even now,I have to type this correctly because I find it hard to resist it,so much...

[@samuelsnell9474]

I have serve ocd if u need a chat I'm here or advice

[@cnazu5185]

the hand washing.... dear god that is my entire life. i'll spend 20 minutes after i shower just washing over and over 99% of the time no matter what lotion i use they're still raw and cracked from the friction. ocd and germophobia is killer

[@smooth-hound6593]

Do any of you understand that OCD is a serious mental illness about negative thoughts which makes you feel the need to do unnecessary compulsions that stop the negative things from happening that make no sense but to someone with OCD it does make sense it annoys the shit out of me when people say I have OCD when really they are just perfectionists when really you don't understand the everyday struggle that someone has to deal with I have had OCD for over three years and I will tell you it has been hell I have had all sorts of negative thoughts harm to a loved one that really was the start of it all I have had some really bad ones it's scary so please don't say that you have OCD when you don't

[@AndreaMartinez-gn1oj]

I have been dealing with similar things. I have not told anyone but people have noticed. I am so scared becuase the thought are scary. They keep me awake at night and can't stop thinking about it. I don't know what to do. I feel useless and helpless. Can you tell me how you deal with it and what to do?

[@TheChilledHamster]

There are different levels of OCD, some people have to walk through a doorway multiple times or have to close a door and then tap it with both hands.

[@thehealingstartsnow3418]

Sharing what you struggle with is a good start. It helps to have a strong community of support. Contrary to popular opinion, the condition can be overcome.

[@bethlancaster4120]

I've had ocd for over 20 years and then other problems developed. Yes it is hell even worse when people treat you like crap.

[@KitanKate]

when i eat food i have to make sure its even too, like i eat half of it on the left side of my mouth and half on the right but half of that has to be upside down and half has to be the right way round. it annoys me sometimes but ive been doing it for years and its just natural now.

[@jasminedaniel6904]

Its good to see teenagers take in their mothers cleaning and doing things them selves. just wonderful

[@ChoosingMorality]

You are an impressive young man, Eric. And you have a fabulous attitude. The world is your oyster.

[@carnivalfunships1]

I am 16 years old. I have OCD. For me I have to check sink faucets, doors and my phone. It will take me up to an hour before I finally get to bed. Unfortunately America has gotten this idea that OCD is like ADHD where you do everything fast. I check the same thing over and over. It drives me crazy :(

[@darylesells19]

We don't all think the same way, hope your coping better. Please don't lump all Americans together friend.

[@glitter_bomb7260]

I have OCD... srsly I stayed up until like 1:00 AM because the (get ready for this loooooooooongggg list!!!!) the closet door was open the nail polish box wasn't right the bed was slightly moved my door was ajar the pillow case was uneven the TV provider was crooked my chair was crooked the pig night light was crooked my clothes weren't in the basket properly my notebook stack was slightly crooked the underclothes droor was slightly open my poster was falling my pillows weren't in color order my blanket wasn't straight my shorts kept scrunching up the blanket under my feet wasn't comfy enough the curtains were out of place SOOOOOOO YAHHHHH XD that was my night

[@MinerBub]

Oh my god, I finnaly found why I need to do things twice. This is one of the greatest things I have ever discovered.

[@davidowens5841]

I have COD as well. Although I don't have the same symptoms it can still be quite bothersome. And disruptive as well. I've only known about my OCD since 2009 or 2010. So it's still fairly new to me. Some of my symptoms include compulsive hand washing and bathing, compulsively cleaning my home. Every thing has to be just right or I go nutsoid. Especially in my kitchen. Do not let me catch you putting things in the wrong place or the wrong order. I may well go postal if I do catch you. I do have times where it is not nearly as bad. But it is always there. And it gets worse when I'm under stress and feeling really scared. I'm really glad I watched your video. It was really good and I really identified with it. What l really liked the end because it showed that you have hope, and hope is so important. I hope to see more of your videos because they are really good. Thank you. Jude

[@jeanetteandonian3430]

Eric Medina, you have a real gift! You probably know that. People have a hard time understanding OCD and its different forms and you did a great job giving people a feel for your own experience with it. As I read through the many comments in response to your film, I see that there are many young people questioning if they "have OCD" or not. I am a social worker and professor and I just want to say that people should reach out for help if they need it or think they need it. I am acquainted with OCD and know that people can be helped. There are many myths about OCD and what it is and there are many variants and degrees of severity. OCD can make people feel that they are strange in some way, but they are not--many people (and kids) have this problem. It waxes and wanes and sometimes can even go away over time. In fact, people with OCD are often highly intelligent and creative, from what I have learned about it, so OCD might be a price of sorts for having other gifts and talents! No one goes through life without encountering challenges and OCD is just one of the many kinds of challenges people can face. My advice is to seek help and not let yourself hide! BTW, Eric, I have shown your film to my graduate social work students who feel that they learned a lot about OCD from it. Thank you for your courage in sharing your experience with others--it helps to diminish stigma and increases public awareness.

[@stephanielee5730]

Reggie, I'm a 45 year old woman who lives with ocd, since I was 10 years old. Checking, rechecking locks, turning on and off sinks, switching on and off light switches until right, checking my car is lock all the time. Making sure everything in its place, when I get home from work. Making sure all the dishes are clean right. I know what your going through.

[@fearlessmrog]

I admire your courage for making this video; not many would come forward and openly admit they have a problem with something like this. Some of the things you OCD about creep me out, but I found this video incredibly insightful. Kudos! :D

[@fangsta15]

Thank you for uploading this, you are very brave. The one problem I had though was right after you washed your hands you touched the sink handle which re-contaminates your hands and you did not wash them over. So you basically just washed your hands and unwashed them instantaneously.

[@jjreider8668]

I had OCD when I was younger. One day I was looking in the mirror after shaving and noticed wrinkles by my left eye that didn't match the ones on my right eye. This distressed me very much, until I said "Screw it!" Nothing I could do about it would help, and after that day the compulsions started to crumble one by one. There are still a few minor ones (can totally relate to the cabinets) but for the most part, I'm healed :) Good luck to you!

[@GarrBear314]

cool rendition of "no surprises"

[@Makinwaves02]

@MrJediAres OCD was killing me too. My life was consumed with rituals for everything..and I mean EVERYTHING. From handwashing to counting, to double checking that doors were locked, appliances turned off. I got to a point where I thought, if I dont get help now I am going to end up either involuntarily checked into the psych ward or suicide. After working my way thru it I can now say that I finally have my life back..you can do it too man. Stay positive, it'll all work out :)

[@mrannen1958]

watching the first 3 min makes me think a lot of women have ocd

[@alyssacallaghan4065]

lmfao

[@louisastyles8144]

I have dyslexia ADHD and OCD 😞😞

[@jannasosa9284]

It bothers my whenever people say that his room is too messy for someone with ocd. There are so many ways ocd can effect a person's life and so many forms and levels of OCD that his is just not as extreme. I have a mild (er) for of OCD my room is not always in a good condition.

[@edm101089]

Just made the 666 comment mark, everyone. How about making it 777?

[@Jakeryanshow]

Fuck I put in 6 anytizers

[@kathxss3662]

Do you actually have OCD

[@balkiprasanna1984]

Eric Medina Damn. That patterns... ROFL..

[@mrkrabs805]

+Kathleen N no I think it's just a film on what's its like to live with it

[@hotbollybabes6777]

+Eric Medina i have ocd . how to get rid of it . so frustrating . i am 21 and still i am a freshman in the college . it is affecting my life .

[@ForHeShallSave]

I can tell you all about OCD if you want, I've had severe OCD from the age of 12, I'm now 25. I have tried everything to cure it and now, I just live with it. I could tell you every single angle. the depression, the anxiety, the uneasiness, the adject fear over some compulsions and the rituals that follow. Intrusive thoughts and constant, and I mean CONSTANT ruminations about death and pain.

[@lesbiansaregoodandch]

We all wish we never had it. But sometimes you have to look on the bright side. It is a terrible curse, but it is also somewhat of a blessing. People with OCD tend to have a higher IQ, be extremely creative, not to mention extremely organized! Don't let it get you down. Your bigger and better than the disease!

[@moonlitegram]

I have to ask - are you seeing a psychiatrist? Have you actually been diagnosed with OCD? I could only get through 7 and a half minutes of this before getting frustrated, but everything I saw in this video at most could be described as OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder), which despite the similar name and a few overlapping traits is a very different diagnosis. OCD is neurological, and is linked to biological and chemical processes in the brain OCPD is a personality disorder, not a neurological disorder If you had OCD, the cabinet being open would give you anxiety because you might have an irrational fear that leaving it open could result in the death of someone you knew later on. And there's a good chance you would know the fear was completely irrational and not realistic, but the anxiety it caused was so great you had to satisfy it anyway by closing the door. If you have OCPD, the cabinet being open could give you anxiety as well, but it would not be tied to a specific fear. It would just give you anxiety because it is not uniform with the rest of the cabinets, or because "the rule is the cabinets must be closed". You'd have the anxiety because your personality developed an uncommon adherence to a specific set of rules, perfectionism or order. But its not linked to any sort of specific and irrational fear. And you might not even think its weird that you want it that way. Plain and simple, OCD should not be "CDO" as so many people like to joke, because it has NOTHING to do with things being in alphabetical order.

[@hla6618]

Thank you for clarifying that. I've been living with OCD, and have had the irrational fears of being a pedophile, a murderer, etc., and my compulsions are purely based on trying to suppress the thoughts/anxiety. People saying "I'm so OCD because I can't stand out of order things" don't know what it's like to have OCD, nor would they ever want to.

[@hla6618]

Shpee I haven't been diagnosed because I'm too embarrassed to bring up the suicidal thoughts, panic attacks, and obsessive thoughts to my psychologist. Sometimes the symptoms flared up so bad that I would sit in a corner and wish I were dead. And I did leave quite a good amount of details out of what I previously said. I used to have OCD, before I had gotten back on Zoloft (which I had been taking for anxiety). Anyways, the intrusive thoughts were followed by doubt, and more intrusive thoughts, which turned into a terrible cycle, eventually leading to me having suicidal tendencies/ thoughts. I did have compulsions, though a large sum of them were mental. I would check to make sure I wasn't a pedo, or a murderer by making sure I didn't like the thoughts... but then I'd get another intrusive thought and feel worse than before, allowing myself to believe I was a monster. Though I haven't been diagnosed, I thoroughly believe I have OCD.

[@HughG.Rection896]

Magical Mystery Pink well maybe i can convince you to tell a physciatrist . ive dealt with ocd since i was about 8 i remember times where i would basically be pulling my hair out or hitting myself in the head to try and make the thoughts stop my symptoms went unnoticed til i was like 16 will i noticed i couldnt get to sleep at night or concentrate at school ( i dropped out cause of this) i went to a psychologist and got diagnosed with adhd, ocd often presents itself as adhd in kids, i was put on adderal xr and that made things worse. i would focus even more on my thoughts so i stopped taking it. when i was 18 i had an indecent with someone and it bothered me to the point where i was staying up all day and night trying to convince myself i wasnt what i thought i was( im not going into detail about that it would take waaay to long lol) so after about 2 weeks or nonstop intrusive thoughts i said "i gotta see a shrink" so i went to another psychologist and was diagnosed with manic depression, severe paranoia, and a couple other things i cant remember that arnt really important.after about a month of going to this doctor he started saying shit that made everything worse like "o well everything should get better if you move out of your parents house" and that made me worry more so i went to my current psychologist and she diagnosed me with severe ocd, i was put on zoloft and seroquol and i could finally get to sleep at night and my intr. thoughts and compulsions are still bad but not as bad (its getting better). if would have never went to see her i probably would have killed myself or hurt someone else but now im happier than ive ever been and all the weird things i did as a kid a starting to make sense. so defiantly make sure to talk to a shrink about it and message me if you need any advice or someone to talk to cause trust me ive had every kind of intrusive thought you can have. Stay classy

[@hla6618]

Shpee I'll stay classy :) And thanks for the advice. It's just... the thought of talking to a psychiatrist about my situation just freaks me out for some reason. It was already hard enough to talk to parents about it, but I'm not sure if I feel comfortable enough about bringing it up to my psychiatrist.

[@moniquerademeyer3889]

I have OCD because I always get worried if something doesn't look right or I haven't done it in a specific way something bad will happen, but I don't tell people because they'd just tell me I'm over reacting but I can't help it.

[@tompennock6369]

Excellent Video. I Have Severe OCD Too Since Childhood. Thank You For Making This Video!

[@Mrkluelessguy]

It can't go away. It won't go away. It's unbeatable.

[@YoniSagi]

Yeah, Yoshee, I totally agree with what you said. I didn't mean that people have a little bit of OCD but that they attribute some stress-related symptoms to OCD, it's like, a way people put it, even if they don't have OCD, which I don't find too much of a problem as long as they know they aren't actually suffering from it, but only from stress, since that could lead to misunderstandings.

[@Kamoblue]

I've gone a long time learning about different things and gaining awareness about issues such as OCD, because I hope to help people who are struggling with it. Little did I recognize that after all of the times I've gotten in trouble for being "unorganized" , rushing (after spending obscene amounts of time in the mirrow changing clothes) that I struggle with OCD as well. Thanks for this video, I see alot myself in it.

[@brittanyhansen6767]

I just wanted to say that I found your video both extremely interesting and inspirational! I was diagnosed with mild OCD a few months ago so I know somewhat of what you are going through on an every day basis. My OCD have more to do with social interaction instead of environmental interaction. I have extreme trouble making/keeping friends and maintaining a relationship with a guy just because I also find something about them that drives me crazy. Just remember you are never alone!

[@EclecticGreyWitch]

My OCD and panic disorder have almost complete control of my life. It was very brave of you to make this video. I hope you got a good grade on it.

[@fartman69420gghhh]

Ocd sucks i count steps, afraid of basically everything going wrong, check everything multiple times and have multiple rituals

[@AlysonDancer]

and good luck with yours! great songs by the way!

[@Blaze936]

Great video man. I live day in and day out with this torturous OCD. It weighs me down tremendously but I try and keep pushing. It's just always nice, and reassuring, that I'm not alone in this battle.

[@edm101089]

Being tidy and clean is a common misconception about OCD. Hoarding is a form of OCD, but I don't have that. For the most part my room is actually clean. But for cabinets, it creates chaos if one is open.

[@supervioletrain]

This is a truly amazing video. I can't believe you were brave enough to show this video in your school. I sort of know what you're going through.

[@mtj.cynical]

0:55 it bothers me the time doesn't go by fivesssss ugh. I count everything to make sure it goes by fives. Like words in a sentence. Walking to the bus is hardest for me, because of the sidewalk, certain colors and crossing the streets and stuff. What shoe I put on first, how I tie it. Color order, and alphabetized order. I like everything to be by fives, sometimes I count things I do by fives or else I have to add or subtract from it.

[@fartman69420gghhh]

•social angstiety• thats not ocd

[@TeenOCD]

I know what you mean, but there is help and it just shows how hard working you are!

[@aysesoyer]

IT WILL GO AWAY IF YOU TAKE CONTROL OF right stuff ... Remember; you are MASTERS of taking control. Acknowledging the problem is the most important step. I AM PROUD OF YOU young people whohave awareness...

[@thestriker2529]

Of OCD was a person I'd yell at the top of my lungs, "Fuck you!!!". I'd threaten OCD, "Let me enjoy my life!!! I just want to enjoy The Elder Scrolls: Skyrim like everyone else!!!".

[@solaceprevails1]

I do that too. I have to close doors and flick lights on and off to make sure that it is perfect. STAY STRONG!!

[@melrobinson8723]

I noticed i had it at around 15 years old. I was outside 1 day and this girl touched me and i went and showered. I didn't want anyone to touch me. I am 22 years old now and the compulsive thoughts are trying to consume me. I can honestly say that my faith in Jesus Christ has helped me gain control. it's still bad but not like it was. I havent told anyone. Im scared they will call me crazy and treat me different. Sometimes i dont know how im still alive. God is truly keeping me alive.

[@EthelCaseyAnnabelle]

I am writing a creative writing story and this video has helped me. One of my main characters has OCD. Thank You.

[@yekaterinanikolina2100]

I love writing too and I have OCD for 7 yr now.But you will not really now what OCD feels like, unless you make deeper reasearches in this.Good luck writing your book.

[@TeenOCD]

Yeah, its so frustrating especially when things take a turn for the worst (i explain in it my latest video) but you just gotta keep fighting because everyday we are closer, a beautiful truth!

[@TeenOCD]

I know what you mean, when people joke about it at school or on TV and laugh about it they have no idea how much we struggle, it makes me hurt.

[@BB87Rufio]

It's strange to see someone with severe OCD living in a home that isn't immaculately clean

[@noneyourbusiness341]

not everyones ocd has something to do with being tidy

[@mtj.cynical]

BB87Rufio My OCD doesn't care about cleanliness it cares about everything being by 5s and by being color coded (doesn't have to be rainbow order)

[@yeehawtoucan889]

James Michael, mine does. really bad.

[@stephaniejackson2074]

BB87Rufio because thats not what OCD actually is!!!!!

[@fckyouall9895]

BB87Rufio my mom has it... her apartment isnt clean.. im a messy person as well

[@Paul-cl3sy]

This is really good especially the ending. It really got to me. I have OCD that is probably the reason why.

[@lalala36710]

beautiful video. I have OCD too, right now I mainly struggle with irrational thoughts and stuff. I am in 10th grade, When I was in 6th grade and such I struggles with counting and stuff. You are so brave for sharing and even just talking about it:)

[@unknownconspirator]

Stay strong edm. I've been grappling with OCD for coming up on 25 years now, and it does get better with time and treatment. :-) Also, I applaud you for having the strength and bravery to make this video for a school project. Coming forward and publicly stating that you have OCD (or any major neuropsychological issue) is a tough thing for most people. There are few of us that can do it. Thusly... [applause] :)

[@DazedConfused1969]

Well first make sure that he is loved and that you love him for who he is, complement him when you see him in the morning and after his work or things like that, ocd is mainly people being unsatisfied with themselves in the day so if you give him this self confidence then he can attach away from it.

[@emilycave754]

No way to get rid of it for good, and you will still have those thoughts but it won't affect you as much as it would have in the past. Medication you don't really need, but it helps. What you need is strategies of how to fight it. One example of this is exposure and response

[@sakinehbs]

You are not alone, my son has it too, he also cries. I wish they find a cure for it soon. I feel your pain. I go through it with my son most of the time. It is so sad to see him in pain. His pain is my pain...

[@ceehernandez565]

I'm glad someone made a documentary about ocd. I have it and I'm ready to give up. If there's a treatment, my insurance won't cover it. No drug or therapy works and I stay exhausted. People have no patience with me and get angry at me, as if I could control it. This is a curse. The only thing I look forward to is eternal unconsciousness.

[@davke5711]

Cee. If you are willing then please try this: next time you'll have an obsession do not try to suppress the thought or analyse it trying to convince yourself that it just doesn't make any sense and so you shouldn't feel that way. In fact do not do anything about it - not the compulsion, no suppression, no denial. Just accept the fact that the thought is in your head. I know it may sound impossible because of the extreme discomfort it may cause and the anxiety may really start to build up - sweating, breathing, trembling and so on, but once it will reach it's peak, it will gradually subside. Maybe for the first time in a while. I would also really recommend to you to meditate - one of the effects it has is lowering the anxiety levels. I would also recommend you to watch this: v=uixONPLVKEg. I don't think that you can 'control' it, erase it, or stop your brain from producing it, but you can decide if you want to pay attention to it when it happens and go along with it, or not. You have the power to decide. You are not your thoughts, Cee. You can learn to decide which thoughts you want to follow and which you don't. Good luck.

[@ceehernandez565]

Thank you for u r helpful and encouraging reply. Can't hurt to try it. Thanks again.

[@Lucky-ds9tp]

So I have a hearing disorder that a therapist had diagnosed as OCD because of other things I do. I can't go to bed without wearing socks, I have to put lotion on my face and hands after I take a shower, I have random thoughts on acting out and I get close to doing them, I bet myself in my head, most importantly I can't stand hearing people eat or talk too loud or scratching etc. I'm sick of people diagnosing themselves with it or trying to act like you have it. My sister does that and she's older than me. She heard I might have OCD and she turns it into something about her. Everyone thinks it's about being neat and clean but it's not.

[@falconsite]

150th comment. I FIXED IT! IT WAS ON MY FREAKING NERVES!

[@TrackpadProductions]

So many people just pretend to have OCD now to seem "out of the ordinary" that no one really takes it seriously anymore. Like depression or ADHD. Things as little as the sound a fluorescent light make are enough to distract me, but no one takes me seriously anymore.

[@fuckingmcdonalds]

@TheFazzy91 The urges that people with OCD have are different than the urges people without it have. The urges are not normal (such as having to count every bird in a flock that flies by, or having to hold your breath for 30 seconds) and they usually come with an irrational threat (ex. if I don't do this, my brother will die). This is more in severe cases, but I can tell you it is absolutely more than "mental weakness". I had it myself and thank God I have overcome it, but it took years.

[@butterfly77387]

You are so beautiful, gentle and talented. Please never give up 😊.

[@Oshowah]

I had OCD and it was fucking killing me, I was barely in control of my own life. This demon in my head made me believe everything he said, and I could do nothing but obey. But one day, when this disorder had fucked up one too many things in my life, I decided to show who was in charge. I changed almost overnight, by my own will. To all fellow OCD-suffering people out there: it CAN and WILL be defeated

[@ta617]

Thank you for sharing this with the rest of us.

[@josiechapman5731]

8:41 bothered me because you had 2 extra up there that were discluded and uneven to the group. it didn't make the tray even and it blew my mind that you didn't point that out

[@mgf1998]

Yeah, it is similar with me. I almost always have to have all the doors in the house firmly closed and any doors accessing the outside locked (and checked at least 3 times). I also like to have all the lights off except for one (no more than that) if a person in the room (also partially due to my urge of not wanting to waste electrical energy).

[@MikeSampsonFlow]

Lol the arranging part like the cabinet, my brother does that, but it's like, if no one is watching t.v. he turns the volume down or he always has to put the toilet seat down and if he sees something unfinished or not right like the carpet being folded up, he will fix it... To me it gets a little annoying lol

[@fckyouall9895]

Theres literally nothing more exhausting than living with this... both mentally and physically..

[@edm101089]

@TheDaYosha I get sick at least once or twice a year. I live a pretty safe life. I'm careful what I touch and of course, antibacterial never hurt. I keep my distance from any sort of cough or sneeze. I hold my breath when someone coughs so I don't breathe it in. And if I feel that any bacteria such as dirt have flown into my mouth I spit it out.

[@isokevinvlogs]

the best of getting an OCD is that your body is clean and you're organise.

[@harshit233]

Get well soon bro

[@ravenray4497]

I also have a fear of being clean, washing hands non stop but also making sure that soap does not splash on me or my clothes, if that happens, right away I change but make sure the soap that was on my clothes not touch anywhere n if that happens I spay water anywhere that my clothes have touched n it goes on n on like that with everything, it hurts me so much that my chest burns n feels like on fire n have a hard time breathing

[@dollyandsandy]

I used to brush my teeth for about an hour at night. I can relate to a lot of what you have shown here in your video. Thank you for sharing.

[@defaultdan9765]

Could be a lot worse man. I have this shit disorder too. Takes a lot of will power to "fix" the compulsions. Then new ones will replace the old. Maybe neuroscience will find a way to "fix" it with neuroplasticity.

[@MrVidsAllDay]

OCD is as difficult for the people around the person suffering as it is for the actual individual suffering as well. I can't tell you how many times I want to just strangle my brother or grab him and fucking scream into his face that his behaviour is so ridiculous, but I have to remember that he can't help himself. It is so alarming though to see how fast it progresses in only 1 years time - a completely normal kid to a germ obsessed freak who can't leave the house. His life is forever changed

[@ashleyflutetay]

@waritgreen I think everyone has their little irritations but with OCD you do things like that because you feel like if you don't something bad will happen. You don't just simply do them. All of the rituals in this video people will do to try and ward off anxiety.

[@edm101089]

Usually, people with OCD are very curious about their surroundings. It's kind of like they have an extra pair of eyes that no one else has. They notice small pieces of lint than is unnoticeable to others. He might see something on the shirt that isn't according to his sense of balance. Whatever that is, he will take of it. Things have to feel and be perfect.

[@AndreaMartinez-gn1oj]

I usually get a thought in my head and can't stop thinking about it. It causes great anxiety. It's horrible

[@johnt.wolfbanger5731]

My 17 year old has OCD and had to drop out of HS. He thinks his masturbation habit makes his face look weird to people. He is afraid to go out, and when he does he has to wear a surgical mask. He has angry rages and I've had to call the cops on him. Paxil seems to have helped with that. I a 65 and can't take this shit any more. I suffer from anxiety and depression.

[@gabrielagonzalezGil]

i cant handle odd numbers, i was diagnosed and one more thing, if you have OCD then how comes your room is messy? i can't see my room disorganised i have to clean it also i have ticks and if i burn a bit of my right hand i have to burn the same bit on my left, to make it feel equal its so stressing!!

[@talianicole5421]

+Speedy Gonzalez I have severe OCD. I take 4 different pills for OCD and what OCD has caused me. OCD is not about being organized and cleaning your room. Yes, society has made it look like a cute little quirk one should have if say, they always like their room clean, or if you don't like odd numbers. OCD is thinking if you do not touch an object 14 times on each hand, something bad will happen. It is a non-stopping thought that you will kill your best friend, even though you love them and would never purposely hurt them. It is thinking if you do not know how many hours you slept, you will die or get insomnia. OCD is not about your room being clean. So before you say something you think you have because you simply are a perfectionist who likes a clean room, please educate yourself.

[@thecasualbear7173]

I have such weird rituals, like, if i turn the sink off, i have to touch it in a specific way and a specific number of times before i feel satisfied! Same thing with my TV-remote, door and even my body if i am itching somewhere! The worst thing is when i’m at the gym, if i’m lifting weights my mind is saying: «just 2 more reps, just 5 more, just 5 more» until my body is physically unable to, same with running, 2 more minutes, 2 more, 2 more!!! It never ends! The voice in my head even tells me how i should eat my food, how i should hold the fork and the knife, how many bites i can take! It gets dangerous sometimes too, when i’m riding my bike my voice is telling me to slam the brakes or collide with the truck that i see! I have to get out of bed at exactly 8:26 in the morning and i have to get up at the left side of the bed!!! All of this is really exhausting and it’s killing me slowly!!!

[@lesbiansaregoodandch]

It drives all of us nuts. But unfortunately, there is no cure. You just have to tell yourself "okay, no matter what, I will not close my door 5 times tonight." Take baby steps. The less you listen to the OCD, the less its going to bother you. Think of it as a bully. If you give the bully lunch money, they will keep coming back, but if you stand up for yourself, he/she goes away. You can try what I do, Tell yourself if you do the compulsion, then the said bad thing will happen. I hope this helps.

[@demonpunk666]

There are so many different forms of OCD. Those are his issues he deals with. Hoarders can have OCD as well, so not every sufferer has a cleanliness or organization issue.

[@SepherStar]

demon85punk Hoarding is now understood to be separate from OCD. That's not to say a person couldn't be a hoarder and have OCD, but much like OCD and Tourette's, there seems to be a border that separates the two.

[@MontoBono]

You have a good point. I feel the need to wash my hands in the shower so that I can turn the water off and on with my feet since the sinks here are quite small.

[@simsisthebest66]

Also, if I don't do a perfect cartwheel or handstand before I go to bed, I will feel like a failure and keep trying until midnight or 2 in the morning if that's what it takes.

[@gaudiumrome]

"Obsessed with keeping my teeth clean." "1-2 minutes." ._.

[@katiegarcia4066]

First thing I thought of was... "messy room." How can you worry about cabinets being open, when you aren't worried about the mess in your room? Doesn't make sense.

[@vegetables1593]

I don't have OCD but I too HATE when people leave cabinets open.

[@lisaliciaga7076]

Most people take it lightly but it's actually pretty horrible. The littlest things bother me to such an end I might panic if it's not labeled, placed, organized, stacked, feels or looks perfect.

[@ThEmaN51015]

I cannot stand disorganization, i like things being organized and clean. When putting things away i have to check them. My safe number is 3