Coping With Severe OCD as a Teenager | My Life With

[@caroline-pm4mo]

OCD is not an adjective. i hate hearing people say "im so OCD about x" like no you're just a perfectionist

[@Rose-xm6by]

exactly, a person with ocd can be a perfectionist but a perfectionist doesn’t have ocd.

[@jordan.d1475]

And its am exceedingly rare disorder that is debilitating but people just throw it around like it is nothing

[@jordan.d1475]

@M Detlef so edgy, wow

[@milflover408]

M Detlef get a life dude.

[@masterchief7336]

caroline OCD isn’t a mental illness

[@lilianmurnane4617]

I hate when people think ocd is being organised

[@dylpicklethebugslayer]

Yep

[@dylpicklethebugslayer]

It's annoying.

[@rhiannam4895]

I know it's more to it than that.

[@oliviap.6050]

Me too

[@eunizel123]

same

[@hndrxx5339]

I'm So Glad Her Mom Doesn't Lose Her Temper On Her, And She Understands What She’s Going Through.

[@catfromtrigun]

I Like That You Capitalized Every First Letter Of That Comment, It Sounds Like It Could Be The Title Of A Movie Or A Book And That Is Kinda Cool

[@u.h.forum.]

Sounds Like You Have OCD When You Do All Caps For The Starts Of Words

[@dth91]

lmao i always wonder why people do this maybe i have my answer

[@pinkpugginz]

If she acted like that around my uncle he would have beat the crap out of her like he did to my cousins

[@RoyHoy]

I used to capitalize the first letter in each word!! I taught myself to do it fast cause I was bored. I did it for a year and then I stop after people kept asking.

[@squirrely102]

You can tell that woman is such a good mother. She is understanding of her child and tries to help her with her mental illness without being condescending or judgemental. They seem like a lovely little family.

[@ajmayden]

well my OCD is bad bad i gotta brush my teeth 9 times when i texts it makes no sense because my ocd

[@ajmayden]

i feel guilt everyday

[@fllnzxs]

And I'm glad I have such an understanding mother with kid who has anxiety like me

[@ZeketheKid2016]

And yet you see all these influencers throwing “anxiety” “ocd” around like they are just moods 😒

[@guppydotcom8134]

Exactly!! You can feel nervous, or you can be a perfectionist, but you can't just 'feel' ocd or anxiety

[@CostanzaMorchio]

As someone with social anxiety i feel this

[@athoswolff776]

Yep, I have anxiety. I searched for help after my first girlfriend told me that punching my forearms and thighs before sleep was not normal,and waking up in the middle of the night,dripping sweat,feeling like you gonna have a heart attack almost every time might be more than just nightmares. Now I'm diagnosed and, whenever those people say they suffer from anxiety because they get nervous or shy or just don't have the guts to deal with some situations sometimes in their life just...make them so punchable.

[@funbee378]

Ik it's annoying ughh : 😑

[@CeciliaGonzalez-bi3yh]

Like it's a trend ugh!

[@Simonporter89]

I dated a girl with severe OCD, when I was in my teens. It's heartbreaking. There's no other way to put it. I remember trying to help her get out of the shower after hours of her cleaning herself over and over again, freezing because the hot water ran out hours ago. Thank you vice, thank you for allowing people to understand a little bit better this terrible affliction

[@salmagarica7417]

I help my boyfriend through the same struggles and it’s really heart breaking, but you just have to be patient and supportive. Never rush someone with ocd. Always show your love and compassion for them, it really helps. Especially when it’s bothering them more. They just want someone to love and understand them for who they are and what they go through. To never judge or discourage their struggles, because it could feel embarrassing and cause insecurities. Just bring peace, love, and positivity!

[@pinkpugginz]

What a nightmare

[@annieroydube]

Oh my god that’s absolutely heartbreaking💔

[@addieconnelly4938]

@M Detlef why did you comment so many times lol?

[@lani5089]

Vinny Vidi Vici thank you for being so patient with her🥺 im sure she appreciates it a lot. my mom has ocd so ik how hard it can be

[@cocolefleur]

Imagine feeling like everything has to be perfect, in a world where perfect doesn't exist. What a strong person.

[@loerkue]

Perfect doesn't exist? I feel sad that you think that. Hope your life gets better.

[@lilgh0stttt]

Levent Oerkue it doesn’t lol

[@anthony639]

only God is perfect. awaiting comments calling me stupid..xD

[@loerkue]

@@lilgh0stttt :-( I think it does. Just gotta find it.

[@anthony639]

@Attentionwhats your point though? just because one havnt physically seen the Creator of all that was made who is perfect in all his ways doesnt mean perfection isnt real or doesnt exist.

[@cheeburger1604]

the fact that her mom is supportive is amazing, it makes it so much harder when your parents get mad at you for your compulsions.

[@simonehawthorne2647]

It's way wosre when u have abusive narrasictic parents who couldn't give to fucks about u, nor yur OCD..it's honestly a nightmare..u wish someone was there for u but in reality, u are alone, n u suffer alone, n everyone, continues to ignore u n that fact...I can't stand people n how they treats others...just because their fucking different!!!!!!

[@Nightlife_Offical]

Yes, that is the worst thing to say to someone with OCD. "Just don't do that" "Why are you scared; it can't hurt you" "it doesn't exist" "its just in your head"@@wyn9466

[@Breebzi]

Ikr like OCD is already hell on it’s own and it just makes dealing with the condition a million times harder when you’re getting yelled at or scrutinized for something that you can’t help

[@ashlysasha4482]

her mother is amazing. the fact she knows what she is talking about and takes the time to sit down and help her daughter cope with OCD is purely beautiful. not many parents take the time to understand their children instead judge them the way society do.

[@whereamihelpme]

ive always wished my mom could be like this for me and my ocd. was thinking of sending her this.

[@EM-zt4ul]

Yeah my parents are idiots to my struggles including ocd. They completely forget and/or dont take my ocd seriously... even though it's their fault for neglecting me.

[@girlofanimation]

@@EM-zt4ul , same thing happened to me. My mom always tried to force me to do something that went against what my ocd allowed, triggering anxiety. It feels like torture. Apparently, my parents knew I had ocd since I was a little kid, but I didn't get any psychiatric help until I was old enough to seek it myself.

[@EM-zt4ul]

@@girlofanimation wow mine developed from my parents giving me PTSD and extreme anxiety and depression and I had no coping mechanism my whole life and they wouldn't get me help so I developed ocd before I knew it :( The worst side of mine is my germaphobia which gets worse if I feel worse it's nearly incapacitating but I'm just so tired and want treatment already. At the beginning I used to drive myself even crazier (imagine the chronic stress) and it still affects every second of my life now except that I barely function like a burnt candle. I avoid doing as much as I can to remain calm in one place. I'm always anxious/nervous. I hopefully don't have to re explain it to my family again. And I've had problems with other people being judgemental and not understanding of mental health which makes it hard to want friends. We need patience.

[@najma5153]

I somehow relate to that, on a spiritual level.

[@Emily-nq6sw]

She's a very mature, eloquent girl for her age. I hope she achieves everything she desires.

[@MrFriko22]

Emily J OCD people are tend to be very intelligent and smart. And it can show at very young age.

[@Emily-nq6sw]

@Jimmy For wishing her well? ... Whats wrong with you lol

[@jesseling6672]

Elephant*

[@karahershey]

People with OCD disoder are often very smart people

[@skinnyflexeroi6379]

She just likes attention and non of this helps her.

[@Intoxi_katied]

I’m a teacher with OCD and oh my god I would NEVER rip up a student’s paper! That’s disgusting!

[@Intoxi_katied]

Emily Gibson Of course! The school I work at has amazing teachers who are educated on these student needs and we do anything we can to help! I wish you the absolute best. You’re not alone. Teachers should aim to give you the best educative experience, not a traumatic one!

[@ariellekrause3680]

a teacher i’m my class ripped up a girls paper because she didn’t write a paragraph and just wrote a sentence

[@Intoxi_katied]

My Dun Mare Who on earth are these teachers?! That’s terrible. Can they not ask them where they need more assistance and go from there?

[@murdermostdownunder3562]

I had a teacher rip up my work in front of the entire class. I was new, I’d come from a school where the teacher didn’t teach us cursive.. or anything really. Looking back, he was definitely manic depressive. I had only been at this school for about a week or two. I am also dyslexic. She yelled in my face and ripped out all of my work. One page at a time. I think I was 11-12 at the time? I still remember it. I’m 26 now and I just self published a novel. It makes me laugh now but at the time it was pretty traumatic 😅 I also have OCD, it’s pretty hard. But it’s okay, life’s good 😊

[@somegrill7561]

My Dun Mare I would rip it too 😭

[@sallylovests]

She's only 14? She is very mature (in the best way possible of course) her tone, the way she speaks. She is beautiful, I wish you all the best Allison! As someone who has just started to get diagnosed you make feel better. Edit: Now she is 16

[@Bethefirst7]

Hello, Sorry I’m deaf Please can you summarize the interview for me !!!

[@Chiller-pc1dv]

​@@marley606 OCD is more complex than that. OCD is a debilitating anxiety based disorder characterized by unreasonable thoughts and fears that lead to compulsive behaviors.

[@kimkon2171]

@@Bethefirst7 the has a condition which makes perfectionisim clinical. She is redoing things all over again to a point where it’s obsessive, sometimes she starts making a pony tail up to 4 hours.

[@hannahwillis9838]

@@Bethefirst7I think they added captions to the video!

[@xxexotichumanxx665]

its weird what mental problems do to you

[@daya7185]

I have OCD and many people tell me that I’m so “lucky” to have it. I’m not lucky that my brain keep telling me to fix and clean everything or wash my hands so often that it bleed. OCD is not a funny quirk or an useful tools, its an illness that causes alot of harm.

[@CocoNicole84]

SD John Same, I have OCD too and have been told that as well. Or when people say they have OCD because they have a clean house or organize something.

[@michealthegiant8382]

I have OCD

[@PipenFalzy]

You have to laugh at yourself and tell yourself that rituals are silly and nothing bad will happen if you don't do them. I had it bad till I taught myself this.

[@michealthegiant8382]

@@PipenFalzy I perform rituals by it it's so hard to live with it but a day will come And I will beat it

[@anjamihajlov8858]

how the fuck could someone say something like that, i just cant understand people that are just not using their fucking brain, it really fucks my head the whole day, and someo e thinks that something we should be grateful for??????

[@xDigitalMonster]

“Sometimes it’s really secretive.” As someone with OCD, damn that really hits home.

[@conanambrose2807]

Noises in my head: mm m mm m mm m mm m mm

[@lucifernandelope3815]

EXACTLY :(

[@clairewillow6475]

I never thought of that before! I used to spend hours looking online about names. At one point I felt like I had to find 3 perfect baby names. First and middle. And they had to be right and follow rules my brain came up with and it was never quite right because I would read opinions on the names that would me question that I had found the “right” names

[@hellocloverkitty]

I almost broke down the other day in front of my mom. I told her "You think I'm fine because I hide it. No one sees how much I'm suffering."

[@Mia-vb8zy]

Same :(

[@breonawarren1507]

Glad her mom takes her seriously and understands, not many parents will try to understand or help.

[@fuhgetabatit1051]

My parents indeed. All I got was a slap on the hand,caller stupid, mistreatment from my teachers, things thrown at me, bullied, etc. Nobody was there for me when I was dealing with this.

[@kaylanord3536]

Every time I try to tell my mom about it, she tells me to just stop thinking or it’s all in my thoughts or just stop or that if I have God it won’t continue and it really hurts but I dont show it. I really want help but she keeps putting it off. I talked to my pastor about it randomly and for some reason I started crying when I tried to explain and idky. I don’t know what to do. I cried watching this because i finally see people feel the same as me

[@riazi_burger7252]

@@kaylanord3536 same here, they think im Just pretending for attraction, they think im joking to them

[@kayla_j]

My daughter just turned 11 and is diagnosed with severe social anxiety and atypical anxiety disorder. I could never imagine not supporting her. I got her a neuropsychological evaluation as soon as I realized she isn’t just shy and isn’t outgrowing it. It was really effecting her schooling and interfering with her life. I feel awful that parents refuse to seek treatment or acknowledge when there is a real mental health issue. It’s doing a great disservice to your child. I wish you all luck and hope you get the support you need and deserve. 🦋❤️

[@78_mary31]

my parents would be like why are u showing tragedy.. u r not some fancy foreigner or something stop acting like a child. If I explain them my lip picking disorder they would laugh saying I m just stupid

[@meemoo7]

I struggle with intrusive thoughts, I can tell u its just hell. wish i could just split my head open or bang my head against something. thank god I found an amazing therapist

[@wayne6931]

I have intrusive thoughts about sexual,harm, suicide. And I get anxious about mostly every little thing. I cant say it was all bad. I got new beneficial skills and practices out of it. I practice meditation and I feel more enlightened. Other than that its hell.

[@uniquegod1997]

@@wayne6931 I really need to speak to a women with this thoughts, because I think a friend of me (female, non paranoid shizophrenia and 19) does have thus. When I broke up with my ex gf, she distracted me and we would Chat over phone and someday she asks if I could H1T her. that all got to a very dramastic increasing point because I was stupid and interested and wanted to see whats it about. We have met and we did all kind of things f.e s.e.x.u.. things that was so fucced up that she was crying at one point, and the things she would ask for over phone were really nuts. We do now want to meet again, and I was telling her I want you to seek up an psychiatrist first etc and dthat her thinking and the result of it does not seem to fitt and it Reminds me of toxic self destruktive behavior, basically through me because she trust only me and we both know each other too well and since years. We are not together as its not working and she cant feel anything for the most time, it's really so much more

[@uniquegod1997]

if you have sxual harm thoughts like person in this comment thread could u read my comment and MB talk to me? Edit: Sorry for my somewhat bad English I never know when yt deletes it so I didnt put much effort into it I think u get what I mean.

[@briclare]

@@wayne6931 this is exactly what i deal with too.

[@Idkyournameee]

​@@wayne6931me too...

[@mizzysparrots4874]

The O in OCD means obsessive.... you can become obsessive over anything with OCD. It is NOT about cleaning and organizing. I dont have OCD nearly to the extent of this beautiful child but I do have one thing where I constantly think my doors are not locked/shut. I will close and reclose my front door 5 times before I believe it's closed and locked. Theres no rhyme or reason to it but my brain just doesn't shut off until I repeat this process. I hate it. Edit : thanks for sharing your stories! And I didn't say that you can't have OCD about cleaning. I mean that the typical personal believes OCD is only for cleaning and thats not true. Becoming obsessed with cleaning is definitely something that happens. In other words, not everyone who cleans a lot is OCD, and not everyone with OCD is obsessed with cleaning.

[@Ryla_2008]

Same 😑

[@Emily-ol2mk]

I have OCD and this is very true. There’s been nights where my husband will hold me as I’m crying because I rationally know the fan isn’t rotating, but my OCD brain is telling me to check it again. Or checking the baby monitor again and again because I’m terrified it is shut off. Or getting up to walk to the bathroom every couple minutes because my brain is telling me I will pee myself if I go to sleep (which has never happened lol). It’s a constant war with your brain and it’s so tiring.

[@stephanies2982]

Thank you! 🙏 It’s so nice to know I’m not alone. 🙌 I check the doors so much that it prevents me from getting places or doing things in a timely manner. 😩

[@unaninanine3743]

From checking it so many times, have you ever mistakenly left it unlocked?

[@AdamarisOsorio]

I used to leave my moms house and sometimes have to drive back after being up the street because I felt like I didn’t close the garage, then I started to take pictures of it and still had to repeat 🙈

[@isa-cr3yq]

i absolutely hate when people are like “omg my room is never messy im so ocd about it hagdhagahhsha” like no becky, you just like to be neat.

[@hannahgoodchild5255]

It’s always the fucking beckys 😂😂

[@socks7819]

Or "omg i have SUCH OCD like i HAVE to have my desk organised or it drives me insane haha!"

[@ohhhhmydarling]

Maybe you can kindly inform them that OCD is an actual condition next time you hear them say it then. It's gotten to the point where "I'm so OCD" has become a saying that literally just means "I have the compulsion to be tidy." Most people who use that phrase aren't self-diagnosing themselves and they probably aren't thinking they have OCD. It's a phrase that has morphed from a real condition to an idiom of sorts.

[@isa-cr3yq]

Holly Noel thank you, i didnt look at it that way but this was helpful. ill definitely do that.

[@Ryanbros]

I have a messy room and I have ocd

[@souhung69]

She seems very reflected for her age. She has a bright future ahead of her, no matter what.

[@souhung69]

@@Ciana_Baby ok?

[@jontrellolando]

ciana baltimore you good bro?

[@lifebeyond_ocd9269]

hairslikeabirdnest thank u!

[@leafhidden]

How is she going to have a bright future when shes only 14 and already so insecure she cant even leave without thinking she looks bad? Dont lie to people.. she has a very depressing and rough future ahead

[@jontrellolando]

Oschner 🙌🏾 hopefully she can change it for the better though ❤️

[@jessieleigh8796]

OCD is not a mood. It's not just wanting everything straight or your Skittles sorted by color. It can look like those things, but the difference is there's an intense anxiety behind it that can make just living so much harder for the sufferer than the average person. Fun fact: people with OCD need more sleep than the average person. It's like running a marathon all day long but in your mind. This girl is tough to be able to go through it like that and come out stronger on the other side.

[@Cuddlypipebomb]

This girl is so freaking smart and in touch with her disorder. I had severe anxiety all my life into my early adult years that wouldn't allow me to do almost anything the other people my age were doing socially. It was hard to go to school, work or just to the store. I would pretend I was sick. Hide in a bathroom and cry. Not be able to speak. Self harm. Hyperventilate. Sweat profusely and think everyone noticed everything that was going on with me. I am just recently learning about the exposure method and compulsions. I don't have OCD but I can definitely relate to this. I still have anxiety to an extent but keep working on it, it gets better!!

[@everyvie1568]

❤️.

[@amazing3954]

Take care 🌼

[@thejcraft8567]

@Borfis Jort definitely smarter then you mane 😂😂

[@thejcraft8567]

@Borfis Jort my basis is you calling a young teenage girl with extreme ocd stupid and fat because she’s maybe barely above the average weight for her age , idiot 😂😂

[@thejcraft8567]

@Borfis Jort insult a piece of crap isn’t gonna keep me up at night 😂

[@felixmastropasqua2820]

she's so mature for 14. battling your own brain every day will do that to you. lots of love

[@OfficialMyxomatosis]

@Jay 24 I agree completely. I am 4 years older than my BF of 8 years, but when it comes to life experiences, *especially trauma* and battling my own brain in secret every day, I might as well be 71 instead of 41. And he wonders why I fall asleep every night on the couch around 8:30 pm.

[@mitterios2827]

Its agony.

[@bwuddybunni5033]

@alphachadpussfortntiteproplaya420sixd9 the girl in the video isn’t fat..

[@sleepykitty1745]

I have BPD and am 22, but sometimes I feel like 80. So much already happened to me and I did a lot. Enough to fill a lifetime.

[@leafkefn3774]

@Borfis Jort noway bro... your life is actually miserable on a diff lvl

[@kesharaa2355]

OCD IS NOT AN ADJECTIVE I love that. I really hate hearing people claiming OCD for the littlest things.

[@dollymadison7365]

Yeap, that’s how I feel when people say “oh you’re so bipolar” or “I’m so bipolar”. Like wtf does that even mean 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@artwithrstardoodles5743]

Dolly Madison yes and anxiety too!

[@kesharaa2355]

Art with Rstardoodles Agreed!

[@dollymadison7365]

Art with Rstardoodles yes yes ! I have both, I am bipolar type 2 and I have generalized anxiety disorder. I just hate when people do that 🤦🏻‍♀️ being that I know what it is to suffer from it everyday

[@kesharaa2355]

Dolly Madison I also have an anxiety disorder and people throw that word around so casually smh

[@lilybug2332]

My mom once said "I wish you were one of those clean freak OCD people." Personally, my OCD has a lot to do with touching things, and obsession. I will have to walk in a certain place multiple times, or touch something a certain amount of times until it feels "right", and I also have a problem with whenever other people do things, it feels wrong to me. Living every day of my life is like torture. With the obsession piece of my mental illness, I constantly have intrusive thoughts I spend hours on end thinking about. They include violence towards myself or others, questioning my interests and hobbies even when I'm positive I like what I like, and unwanted sexual thoughts. To anyone out there struggling, I love you and hope things get better 💖

[@viktorija.jankauskaite]

❤️❤️

[@kamilakomor5815]

Thank you

[@kylielong2879]

for her sake, i hope she never starts doing winged eyeliner

[@cherubchy1087]

Kylie Long as somebody who has OCD and wears winged liner, this is hilarious

[@donttrip2323]

My first thought watching this video

[@charismaf1834]

Omfg lol.

[@caseybouvier9205]

Kylie Long this is not funny.

[@kylielong2879]

Grandma Skittles wasn’t meant to be funny :p

[@juliayk]

I now understand why people get annoyed when others use "OCD" so passingly to signify detail-oriented or clean or whatever. OCD affects people's lives in a way I never realized... Allison you are so strong!! Thanks for sharing your story

[@JaslineXD]

Julia K yes OCD is hell for people. There was this case of a dad that couldn’t have his kids come over because he couldn’t let them sleep on their beds, he would iron bed sheets over and over and he would sleep on the floor to not crease his sheets. It’s rituals that makes your life hell and full of anxiety.

[@LorenDraws]

Basically its something that gets in the way of your life like many other illnesses ... like depression, someone can be sad but if you then stop seeing people, stop taking care of yourself, stop doing the things you like, if your sadness is getting in the way of your regular daily life for long period of time its most likely depression you know. Ocd isnt just perfectionism etc. Its something that takes time out of your day for a multiyude of days that gets in the way of your daily life eg. I have to be at school by 9am but if i dont take the right amount of steps within a square of pavement i have to go back to the start of my walk, this may make someone late but itd very distressing to not start again

[@starrinight6114]

My mom gave me OCD (genetics) But she has the cleaning one

[@kai-gm9re]

OCD doesn’t even imply a detail-oriented person. it’s characterized by anxiety-driven repetitive behaviors. washing your hands again and again, checking the oven just in case every five minutes, hell, even just mentally remembering every conversational error you made in a day and repeating them over and over in your head because it makes the anxiety easier. sometimes, your OCD is entirely mental. no one sees it. all your compulsions are mental behaviors which consume your consciousness.

[@hellokaylee2977]

I hate it when people joke about OCD and consider is as “nothing.”

[@zulmycruz]

I joke about depression like it nothing cause that's the way I see it even tho I have it. Tho I do agree wth u

[@mitterios2827]

I have really bad ocd and I secretly try to tell people with small hints but the only person who really knows is my mum (she may have told my stepdad but idk). It really gets in the way of my life and a lot of people ether think that I am daydreaming constantly or just not paying attention and the teachers don't seem to understand. What really make I so bad is that I can't seem to get away from it and it keeps threatening to do something with kne of my biggest insecurities (can't say what it is for private reasons). It gets in the way of my conversations, my gaming, my school work and even going to sleep, basically my general life, so please don't joke about it. (For me it is like an evil god watching over me and controlling my life). I did try to make "good god with the power of my own mind, but thats a story for a different time. Also other symptoms like bad images/gif kind of things and repeating things and fraises and over explaining. I could go on and on but I don't want this writing to be too long, plus It is possible that no on will see this. Gonna copy and paste this so that it isn't a complete waste of my time.

[@Bobs922]

I say it all the time as Joke but I really have ocd. Im allowed to make jokes

[@mitterios2827]

@@Bobs922 Same kinda?

[@user-bd6hn]

I have ocd and make jokes about it , i also don’t find it offensive when others makes jokes tbh , i can tell the persons intention isn’t to insult someone with ocd it’s just a light joke .

[@Mnxeu]

As someone who has pretty bad OCD, it's extremely debilitating. As she said, it can take you a long time to actually do something because every time you do it you have to do it again because it doesn't feel 'right' and if it's not right then your brain is saying stuff like 'If you don't do it right your family members going to die' or this is gonna happen or that's gonna happen. It's truly exhausting. This is why it's so annoying when all these people are like "Oh I'm so OCD" like the mother said or whatever. They truly don't understand just how exhausting and annoying it is. Thank you for this video Vice, thank you for giving us a voice. Thank you for sharing our frustrations. I hope Allison finds things that make it easier for her in the future, because sometimes the compulsions do get better. She's got a wonderful mum supporting her. ❤

[@Ultrawicked]

She said anxiety is secretive and its so true 😞. Its all in our heads . I hate leaving my house everyday but i do it anyways . Exposure is hard .

[@thetimeisnow9236]

I barely leave my house, which I'm lucky I work from home. The only times I leave is to go out with my dogs, which helps me get out for a bit but I've been needing to return clothes but always find a reason not to go bc of the thought of seeing people.

[@imaginelosing7067]

I don't suffer from terrible anxiety but it's a task every day going to school with a few hundred people in my immediate radius at times I do enjoy learning tho

[@dynochronlock]

So true celene... I have to smoke to have to deal with life..lol

[@15sbass]

@@thetimeisnow9236 get a life

[@SuperGamingBeast1]

Peanut mate you’re obsessed with speakers you donut

[@shyla.from.the.westcoast]

I love how patient her mother is, it must be horrible being a child with a parent that isn’t understanding of mental illness like her teacher she had.

[@arielamron3664]

I have severe OCD and my mom won't even try to understand it. She just thinks I don't try.

[@yuhgetintoitagario3351]

My OCD is severe. I dislike when people say “omg I am so clean, I have ocd” it’s not like that, it’s life changing. Literally.

[@Catlily5]

Ironically OCD can lead to being dirty. There was a famous American industrialist who had OCD whose rituals took so much time they became overwhelming. This also happened to me. It takes me hours to bathe. I once spent 7 hours in the bath. Now I put off bathing for as long as possible. It is horrible.

[@Maya-Hayden]

I couldn't agree more. I was diagnosed at an early age. I remember one time restacking pillows at least 14 times one morning. I remember because I had literally just woken up and I felt like It wouldn't even let me move past getting up, I finally got the stack to be perfect but it just ended in tears and hyperventilation (from how much I was moving and the effort I was putting into this tiny task). I had spent more than two hours doing that and there was nobody there to stop me and I couldn't stop myself.

[@dillo1594]

@@Catlily5 Yes, I dont know if I have OCD but im such a perfectionist that I just end up getting nothing done all day :(

[@Catlily5]

@@dillo1594 Me too. I rarely get anything done due to perfectionism. I was never a perfectionist as a kid, I don't know what happened to me.

[@theraubyreport]

It's fantastic to see Allison already so advanced in her recovery journey. My OCD only really became abundant in my twenties, although I now understand teenage events a lot better now. There's no "cure" for OCD. The recovery requires a lot of education, really facing your fears, exposing yourself to the world, and realising that true self-compassion is the ultimate goal.

[@RachaelA2010]

[@theraubyreport]

I am thank you! And I hope the same for you too!@@RachaelA2010

[@jomama2645]

Remember, OCD is NOT perfectionism. That's just how some ocd manifests but it can spiral out in many different ways.

[@kariarabellalassauniere402]

As a long term OCD sufferer, my heart breaks for this Girl. The strength she shows is awesome, but no kid deserves this, no kid should have to bear the obsessions that this disorder brings.

[@swift3602]

Kari Arabella Lassauniere I bet these vice fans would like to know your point of view on gay people. Oh yea, you want them eradicated from the us and their rights stripped.

[@kariarabellalassauniere402]

@@swift3602 wait?! What? I don't understand how you got to the LGBT community. I am afraid you think I was saying something horrid about this girl who I have immense respect for and my heart breaks that someone so young has to deal it.

[@kariarabellalassauniere402]

@@Ciana_Baby I don't understand what is so funny

[@kariarabellalassauniere402]

@@swift3602 also, I am kinda Trans myself, so I really am lost how we got to hating gay people.

[@rubydoo921]

Swift360 ....what?

[@beanarias5806]

Hey💙, my OCD as a teenager was like yours. Compulsions all day, everyday, rewriting, rereading, counting, and all sorts of rituals all day. My OCD took 8-12 hours of my day at its peak. At 17 I did CBT on myself, for many months, I got a dog, which was a great stress reliver, I started mediation daily while doing the CBT during the time as well. For months I failed, the first, second and third time, but eventually I began to get better. I was 90% OCD free by mid 18, I'm now 26 and OCD lingers maybe once every three months and I just take a deep breath, resist the urge and it goes away eventually again. Severe OCD as I once had it is now in the past. There's hope, keep strong, so one day you can look back at your OCD past how I am now. Xo

[@nadiachernich4876]

Bean Arias this is so inspirational

[@catfromtrigun]

CBT? I googled that and now my search history is, uh, well

[@beanarias5806]

@@catfromtrigun cognitive behavioral therapy

[@tina_2055]

I'm 16 and I'm dealing with ocd by myself. This comment definitely gave me hope! I wish you all the best❤️

[@damijini2099]

This makes me feel so much better. Make me know that there's hope. I am 26 too and going through the same struggle. Thank you ❤️

[@izchildress]

This really hits home. I failed almost all of my classes my freshman year at university because of OCD. I couldn’t write on paper, no matter how perfectly I formatted my notes and homework, it didn’t feel right. OCD affects all areas of my life in different ways. It absolutely haunted me for the greater portion of my life. I am grateful to say that I have now successfully filled 2 notebooks completely without throwing them away. It’s a constant battle, but it does get better.

[@hansolohansolo]

I have Bipolar II and OCD, and for me personally, OCD has been what has driven me to be suicidal for most of my adolescent and adult life. It’s debilitating. It’s excruciating. And I wish more people understood how minimizing it is and how much harder it makes it for people with OCD to talk about an already silent illness when everybody walks around making jokes and saying “I’m so ocd” like it makes you quirky. I owe my life to the professionals who have helped me get to a manageable place, having both OCD and Bipolar. I will end on a happy note and say that the affirming and earnestly sympathetic comments are truly heartening, and I am so immensely proud of this strong, smart, brave young lady and her considerate mother. Seeing her face her compulsions and her mother supporting her made my heart swell. Thank you, Vice, for this video and the one about living with Bipolar Disorder.

[@juliekennedy9891]

I have Bipolar II as well with all 3 forms of anxiety: social, general, and OCD. I would agree that the OCD is more of what has driven my suicidal thoughts in the past as well.

[@DarthFurie]

I feel the same way. I have dealt with Bipolar 2, anxiety, PTSD, major depression, panic attacks, and OCD, and OCD is by far the WORST of all. It is literally sucking the life out of me, I struggle to leave my house.

[@brandoncooke3780]

I understand all of you im 19 and i have it really really bad

[@AutomaticDuck300]

I'm bipolar 2 also and I get OCD with some things but couldn't imagine it to a great extent.

[@madhatter8237]

I'm literally sitting here crying... Someone understands.

[@jennahjaradat3909]

it feels good to know someone understands one

[@jennahjaradat3909]

ong*

[@florixflowerzx2549]

Jennah Jaradat k

[@chironOwlglass]

All you have to do is get your histamine under control fam, I promise you. histamine is the most overlooked neurotransmitter and is literally the key to so many different mental illnesses

[@marliesboelaers6463]

I feel you! (Ocd as I write this lol)

[@LANDSEAAIRCANADA]

Todays teenagers are under so much pressure, we need to show a great understanding for the youth with this and other disorders More power to her Thank you.

[@ed-nc1ry]

genuinely, social media is the devil

[@LANDSEAAIRCANADA]

@@ed-nc1ry yes, it is mighty evil in many ways

[@kingreynoso]

Bro, we've all been under pressure since the 70s to 80s. It's just manifested into a bigger burden. The air we breathe, full of smog is literally causing depression and disease to those who inhale it. If something's not fixed, it'll just rust over.

[@mosthated2469]

Sure you guys have it the easiest lmao sit down

[@ashh7720]

@@mosthated2469 sure

[@MrNicoleCherie]

Is it just me or do my fellow people with OCD feel anxious when hearing about other people's obsessions and compulsions?

[@Rachel-xg7hs]

Yes as soon as I clicked on this video my tics started going crazy. 😂

[@MrNicoleCherie]

@@Rachel-xg7hs damn ya! I was self talking like "keep it cool 😎"

[@ShootYourRadio]

Yeah same here. And when she was going through the list of stuff that she did, I was like I do that I do that yep I got that yeah I do that.

[@kuromi3z]

i do lol. i get anxious and angry bc it’s “not right” when everyone’s experience is different. there’s no reason to be mad or obsessive over it, but it just causes me so obsess all day bc “maybe i’m the one who’s faking it”

[@Rachel-xg7hs]

@@kuromi3z That’s a pretty good description. I understand you.

[@piercethepaige]

I'm in college and we were learning about ocd in my psych class. I was excited to learn more about it bc I have it pretty badly. But through the entire class, the guy behind me was laughing so hard at everything the teacher was saying. I had to play it off in class but I cried all the way home. People of all ages are so inconsiderate of others feelings and its so sad😔

[@kendallgrace3443]

That’s so sad! I hope you are doing okay.🙂

[@hanahalabi101]

Me too I hope your doing ok

[@Ev4088]

Sadly we aren't aware of the people around us or how something we do can affect them 😭 wish we were

[@emoykam8394]

Man wtf this guy, I hope you’re doing well too!

[@user-no4pv1nj2b]

wow that guy is in college, in a psych class, laughing about ocd? he’s not gonna get very far in what hes studying🙄

[@moodyangel]

she is so intelligent. an old soul for sure. i'm wishing her luck.

[@BriaBarrows]

Yesss

Yes, I hope she gets better, it sometimes gets better with time, my ocd was so much more worse when I was younger

[@ninacrasnow-dodd2265]

as a person who does not have ocd, this documentary has really educated me and made me understand it so much more. thank you Edit: thank you for the likes, it’s so great to know that other people did not know much about OCD before this, and learnt lots after watching it! 🤗

[@-alexischubb-3437]

That's so cool, you're just like my friend. She reads everything for me.

[@idoru__]

i think this is one of the main purposes of it. i wish more ppl saw things like these to educate themselves more on mental illnesses they don’t have just to understand what other people have to go through!

[@-alexischubb-3437]

@@idoru__ Exactly, some people try to say they have something they don't. My blood boils when I'm in school and someone says that they have OCD when they organize. It relaxes when I hear someone who does have OCD relate symptoms

[@extrapathos]

same

[@Tomarsnback.]

There has to be some sort of medication or treatment to help with the symptoms.

[@payton-renee]

As someone who struggles with OCD in my daily life, I feel for this poor girl. I don't have it as bad as this young lady, but it's something that is incredibly intrusive and hurts me to think that it's something that I could live without but just can't.

[@shannonhill4273]

I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this as a teenager. My OCD did not start bad until last year when I was 30. To go through school with OCD must be exhausting. It’s such a life changing illness

[@hilariaguzman6638]

I hope you're doing well and coping with this okay! I'm sending love your way!!! You're not alone in this. I hope this comforts you in anyway 😊🥰🥰💕💕 loved your comment too!

[@wachinima5927]

Yeah tell me about it I’ve had ocd for years since I was 5 got on medication and nothing happened got one tattoo and felt it was incomplete so I ended up getting 4 more that are huge which I regret and so on I rewrite read things several times i got pure O too can’t have a relationship cause my obsessions kill me, it’s truly hard to live with this but what ever I’m trying my best. Reassurance is the worst thing it has destroyed every single relationship I had

[@shannonhill4273]

Chelsea Love yes I am diagnosed by a counselor and psychologist. I’m currently working with the psychologist weekly. I didn’t say it started at 30, just got really bad after I had my kids. I think hormones may have triggered it. My psychologist says I most likely had OCD all my life but that it wasn’t as prevalent as it is now

[@nayp.5603]

​@@shannonhill4273 Same here. I think I've had it for years, but it has just recently gotten so bad that I obsess about harming myself. My sister says I did weird stuff in High School, but I never had obsessions. I just used to hate when people sat on my clean clothes and/or sit my clean clothes somewhere dirty. In college I was obsessed with selling my soul, but I said "God knows my heart" and kept going. This new one is the hardest to shake because I'm continuously scared I'll give in.

[@ujjwalreal]

I am so glad that she got diagnosed so early on, makes it so much easier when you know what you're facing, and that it isn't you. I dint realise how bad a case of OCD I had till I stumbled across an article about Pure OCD. Allison, girl, you will be the strongest willed person you will know with a very strong sense of self and that will help you defeat it. It maybe never leaves you but it becomes compartmentalized to an extent that it's not a nuisance or an interference anymore. All the love for you Allison, you will overcome.

[@LeoSeasoning]

Glad to see a wholesome youtube comment section for once. She deserves it!

[@Wolfstar26]

i have ocd, it's really amazing how watching this was like looking into a mirror for me. it makes me so happy to see people saying that this made them understand the disorder better.

[@Cold_S0up]

She’s done a very good job of explaining her experience with ocd

[@mikebasil4832]

I had severe OCD all through my teenage years and even today it still lingers to some degree. So I have great respect and appreciation for anybody with this condition who can be courageously open about it.

[@ChimkenRiceNuggy]

How has your work experience been with OCD? I want to know because I have it too.@@mikebasil4832

[@dinoearth5352]

i'm 14 and was recently diagnosed with ocd. thank you for sharing, allison.

[@arielleemery9678]

i’m 16 with it, we’re all in this together

[@lifebeyond_ocd9269]

Dino Earth magical gecko Arielle Emery hey it’s allison from the documentary :) (i swear loll my MH journey/advocacy acc insta is @lifebeyond_ocd ) and you guys are totally right, we’re all in this together. ocd is something we have to fight everyday, it’s invisible to most people, with so much stigma from most people, we all need to fight this & advocate (if u can) to make a change together 💛 and btw you guys are awesome for fighting this, keep doing ur exposures, u got this!!

[@Aquadecember23]

Pretty sad she cant get the help she fully needs bc it costs to much...so america lets just let our people suffer instead of giving help. Typical

[@dinoearth5352]

@@chupapimunano9533 don't fucking mock her and the other people talking about their experience. it's called ocd. and it's real and it's painful. don't fucking mock us.

[@thea66]

I'm really struggling with this but i havent been diagnosed and i dont know how to tell my mum i dont know what to do how do i tell someone about my problems

[@ryansack5198]

It has always made me roll my eyes when people say “oh I have ocd” or “I’m so ocd” when they really don’t have shit and are just dealing with normal anxiety... THIS is ocd.. not something you say you are to be cute..

[@abbywhite1113]

okay yes this happens a lot but imagine actually having it and someone is telling you that you don’t that’s could really make it worse.

[@Abilouise]

Yes exactly, I could never tell anyone or say it out loud, so people that can say it so confidently and out loud for everyone to hear are so annoying and they don’t understand what ocd truly means to people who have it

[@smaxrob]

Right? Or when they think it means you just have to have things clean and organized. So ignorant.

[@lindseycampbell7487]

I love that she was able to be diagnosed so early. It shows that she has a very attentive mom and good doctors. As a person with OCD to just about the same extent, i appreciate that. OCD is like your brain torturing itself, and she's fighting it like a champ!

[@no_peace]

I only have a diagnosis because I told a doctor "i have ocd." Like no one ever asked me anything that would have discovered it. It's unreal

[@tonyivan508]

there are bad professionals in every area. Change your doctor and don't give up.

[@bonitamccalister214]

“The Allison disease”? Wow kids are sooo cruel😔Her mom is very supportive. God bless.❤️

[@MD-cn3zh]

300th like lol well done 👍

[@MD-cn3zh]

Ikr

[@Wandererofpeace5175]

You can't say every single kids are cruel

[@blackcat-mp7kh]

they are immature they don't know the consequence of saying anything, adults can be cruel

[@sunnirobertson4316]

People used to hate sitting next to me in class and would complain to the teacher OUT LOUD about sitting next to me and it really hurt my feelings. The reason they hated sitting next to me was because of my compulsions. I couldn’t help it and it was so frustrating.

[@User_93721]

She is a very mature girl for her age

[@jontrellolando]

panfriedd I know I shouldn’t laugh at this but I’m 💀

[@eleventyleventeen1466]

@@siddjonson6742 eww dude she's 14

[@evanscortez8114]

Eleventyleventeen she is now 15

[@eleventyleventeen1466]

@@evanscortez8114 I was replying to some perv, they've deleted their comment

[@insanefreakOMG]

Her mum smiling and nodding her head at the camera and looking back at her daughter is so lovely to see, she is clearly soo proud of her daughter 🥺❤️

[@kaiiids815]

Damn! This girl is inspiring! I didn’t get diagnosed until 2020. I had just had my daughter (a month before the lockdowns) and postpartum triggered full-blown OCD. I’ve always struggled with it for as far back as I remember, but I was never diagnosed and just thought I was “weird.” Im so proud of her for making a difference and being an advocate. Go get ‘em girl!!!

[@AZ-vh5tf]

Thank you for this Vice. My boyfriend struggle from OCD and he’s contemplated suicide and has struggled from depression. It really is a silent killer because I didn’t even know he had it until after 1 1/2 years of dating. He’s got such a good poker face and it kills me. I hope more people talk about this and take steps to get help.

AZ 808 the way to fix the brain. 🍄

[@heathermclaughlin7335]

Hair Razor Detox absolutely correct! ❤️

[@bellabear653]

That doesnt always work. Because ocd has anxiety components. Mushrooms work better for migraines. Please be careful what you advise.

[@pinkpugginz]

@@bellabear653 🙄

[@bellabear653]

@@pinkpugginz 🙄 back at you.

[@ToddiusMaximus]

I suffered from OCD my whole life. I used to pull my hair out. Thanks to CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) I have gotten much better. I still have to make myself not do things over and over.

[@evenvals7968]

Go you man!!

[@maliciouspig8494]

Try mushrooms

[@tharealEazyE95]

@@maliciouspig8494 they work tho?

[@maliciouspig8494]

@@tharealEazyE95 yep in good dosage

[@maliciouspig8494]

Do psilocybine with a professional, even once and it can cure many 'mental illness'.

[@jesterheart2998]

It hurts, because you want to say "no!" But you can't because the constant worry or image is in the back of your head if you don't complete the compulsion and you are stuck for what can be hours on end, what started as a relief through an action is now a cage that many are trapped in, I wish the best for her and everyone battling their own demons :)

[@isthataspider7410]

That’s how I felt when I was going through the brunt of my ocd... you worded that very well. It’s not even just the guilt during compulsions either- it can be traumatic just looking at something that triggers it, and I wish people would be more understanding about that for those that are struggling.

[@jesterheart2998]

I wish you all the best, a lot people don't consider that the OCD can be traumatic and you feel trapped by yourself, and that hurts because you know that you are both the prisoner and the warden and it's gonna remain that way. But nevertheless, I hope all the best for yourself :)

[@yoongistan2944]

This is exactly what it is.

[@xDigitalMonster]

Dude yessss. My contamination ocd has been running extra rampant with covid and everything

[@Lily-bn5fn]

I’m 16 and I’m dealing with severe ocd too.. it’s so draining.. I literally relate to this so much I obsessively stress about my thoughts and feelings for hours and hours.. And it’s so hard seeing family living normal lives.. like I just want that too :(

[@anonymous-zb3gk]

I'm 16 too and I feel the same way 😭.. Stay strong buddy

[@silvy-limatthews1082]

There is hope, after many years I feel like my ocd is at the lowest level it’s ever been. There’s a lot of ways to work through it although it took me a few years, I found KZbin meditations for ocd particularly helpful. I’m at point now where I feel l can speak about my ocd and intrusive thoughts out loud without getting more anxious. Speaking about it helps although it seems so scary. I hope it gets better for you guys 🫶.

[@donutwizard38]

i’m 16 too relate so much

[@allieowen2624]

I don't have ocd but it really bothers me when people say that ocd is just being organizing or having books straight on a shelf and then saying "omg I have ocd!" it really makes me mad.

[@restinpeacekobe987]

Literally every comment

[@jamesnialG]

Even worse is when they say "I'm so OCD!"

[@bruno3]

I was about to say that. They even say it with pride, as if that was a neat quirk. It's really annoying and disrespectful.

[@kristen7623]

SAME

[@crypticshadows]

@@jamesnialG ikr, people say that all the time. I’m diagnosed with milder ocd and I don’t have any normal compulsions. I constantly pick at my skin and everything that feels “out of place” like certain bumps or freckles or scabs. Its not typical OCD and no one seems to understand it and just says it’s my adhd or anxiety but it honestly does suck. Compared to the girl in this video it’s absolutely not as bad but it still does impact my life quite a bit (and yes I have other compulsions)))

[@emmapetrus127]

i’ve never seen anyone with anxiety like mine and watching this truly made me cry because i feel like there’s someone out there who really understands me

[@marliesboelaers6463]

Same girl! x

[@hannahholman2411]

me too, this is my ocd down to a nutshell. It's so reassuring to know it's not just you!

[@summerestee5148]

Same

[@iamjasmine770]

I hate when people at my school organise there coloured pencils and are like *"i hAvE sEvErE oCd"*

[@jacquelinejadeyoung1589]

Bro u to be spitting facts though

[@jessehopkins5898]

Fax

[@alexat848]

It's so annoying. They're just oblivious and don't care for the real impact of OCD and just use it as a joke because they think it's funny. You're compeled to say it. Don't say it. You don't know the effect. You don't live with it and deal with it 24/7.

[@Roadtotekkengodkazuya]

@@alexat848 are u not mentally unable to fight yourself from not doing perfect things or what, I'm very confused

[@conorbowen3360]

This kid is far more mature than many adults in some ways. I wish them the best

[@mackenzieb2218]

such an intelligent girl. hope she's coping okay with this covid madness.

[@saharaamazinglady]

As someone with OCD that is hygneine and counting based. Covid actually helped me seem "normal" in people's eyes. Having to wash my hands 5x was suddenly normal because everybody else was doing it at my work. Customers at my work would complain about dry hands from washing/sanitizng and i was like haha yeah same. If anything germs arent what ocd is about, it's usually trauma based. No germ involvement necessary.

[@GloriaW888]

These are disabilities teachers need to learn about while in college.

[@marblemaniac1000]

i agree!

[@autumnreed2079]

Middle school I would say!

[@Quandussy]

They need to learn a TON about things like ADHD, autism, OCD, etc. Idk if they do already or not, but that should be a whole separate class they have to take where they spend a whole week or so on each common mental disorder/condition

[@Quandussy]

Then they should also focus just as much on common, mostly-physical disabilities (cerebral palsy, vision/blindness, etc), and then finally on abusive households/trauma caused by coming from garbage living situations

[@Quandussy]

They pretty much should know as much as someone with a degree in psychology/counseling because it makes you much more empathetic

[@Kate-hh8yi]

I'm grateful her mother sees her for who she is, her guidance shows through the strength of her daughter.

[@kimchi-gd3bu]

(Tw idk?) The worst is when ur ocd says “what if i dont actually have ocd?” And then u obsess over whether u actually have ocd or not even tho by doing that it literally proves that u do-

[@nevelansdown5626]

I’ve found that sometimes separating myself from my brain helps? Like referring to my “ocd brain” helps me differentiate between logical thoughts and intrusive ones, so it starts to become easier to ignore really stupid (because they are stupid) thoughts. Idk if that helps, but remember that ocd is so clever and the more you try to fight/analyse the thoughts, the bigger that thought gets x

[@lara3540]

That’s not only found in OCD though! It’s called imposter syndrome and can happen with every mental illness. Edit: Just got a notification for this comment and ironically now I’ve got imposter syndrom myself concerning my AD(H)D

[@liquidsmoothxxo]

YES

[@sadlittlesnail6424]

@@nevelansdown5626 for sure. i don’t know if i have ocd but i’m certain i and neurodivergent (i show most, if not all, symptoms of adhd). i’ve started to do that because my intrusive thoughts can get so bad i can’t even think straight. we love being unstable

[@rozhin6055]

My family are convinced I'm faking it and attention seeking... I would tell them I'm not but it made me think what if I am? It's been 6 years now and recently because of how bad and out of control it's gotten (Mine is cleaning - myself, dishes, wiping my bed and the items I use, not sitting on our couch or hugging/touching others, etc.) I'm 99% sure I do have it but fixing it is really hard, so is being taken seriously by doctors!

[@angellerosettev.8560]

yet people say, “oh my god i am like so ocd right now!” they’re idiots.

[@oliviap.6050]

angelle rosette v. Thank you! It doesn't make sense to say I'm so obsessive compulsive disorder right now

[@ohhhhmydarling]

Or they just haven't been informed about OCD and what it really is.

[@keira7070]

or they're just ignorant or uninformed

[@sophiaberger7290]

I live with OCD and to be honest with you, it's not something that we are generally taught about in school or at home, so when people say things like that, I let it go. Some people are just uneducated, not idiots. If that sort of thing bothers you, definitely take initiative and talk to them to the best of your abilities about what OCD really is :) Have a wonderful day!

[@tromboneman4517]

People should be TAUGHT about every neurological disorder. Not necessarily every gory detail, but enough to be able to figure it out if they come down with something.

[@hecatommyriagon655]

I don't know if you'll ever read this, Allison, and even though we only got a small glimpse of your world, you come off as a very intelligent young girl. Being 14 - and having this level of self awareness and consciousness about what you can do, to improve the condition you have, is nothing but amazing. It's plain to see that you are really doing an effort and educating yourself about your condition. Doing exposure and training your brain to understand that "this is OK", at your age? Trust me, that says a whole lot about your character. What we, who do not live with an OCD, take for granted - you have to work hard for. Those small things about fixing your hair perfectly. Yeah, we might have a bad hair day and feel slightly uncomfortable, but it will never compare to the way you(and many others like you) are feeling. Thank you for sharing your story with us, we need people like you. People who have "issues" that are invisible. We need you to speak up. Someone who are not as strong as you, are probably cheering because you had the guts and will to share your story. Because YOU did, you may have made their path just a little bit easier. Thinking that you are only 14, that's amazing. Your wit, level of insight and intelligence - seem to surpass your peers. I'm not a believer in gods, but bless you - and keep fighting.

[@lifebeyond_ocd9269]

hey! it’s allison from the documentary! (i swear it’s me lol my MH journey/advocacy ig is @lifebeyond_ocd ) i know its 3 months later but i just saw this comment scrolling through cuz i was having a bad day. this comment made me feel a LOT better though. thank you so much ! simple things most others can do that i cannot do due to ocd & anxiety frustrates me bc it feels like it’ll never get better & the ocd & anxiety will control me forever. but realistically it’s gonna be hard & scary & uncomfortable but the more i do my exposures & let myself think those intrusive thoughts/images w/o resistance the more manageable it’ll get. & i speak up and advocate, when others can’t. that’s the only way to make a change, right lol. thank you sooo much for this comment it made my day :)

[@hecatommyriagon655]

@@lifebeyond_ocd9269 There's too much negativity and trolling in comments sections everywhere. People(all over the world) read them and our words and actions have consequences. I feel the only way to combat this negativity, is to try and drown it with more uplifting behavior. Thanks for getting back to me and letting me know it helped you on a bad day, sure put a smile on my face! :) Be the change, you want to see!

[@ravenclaw.glader9954]

She has such a good understanding of her illness and drive to get better, much more than many adults. Such a mature girl, i want the best for her

[@isabellabernard9713]

As someone who does have OCD and takes a ton of medication and goes through a ton of daily life routines with OCD this documentery really hits home and i am proud and amazed at how far she has come

[@ceciliamst]

the “allison disease?” come on people are so ignorant 🙄.

[@franciefick]

who said allison disease?

[@DuranLover15]

Francie when she talks about classmates bullying her, they call her condition “ the Allison disease” 😒

[@franciefick]

@@DuranLover15 thats disgusting.

[@larahforrest2430]

Kids can be cruel but I think it's because of lack of education tbh, if they were taught about this then that wouldn't have happened

[@vellivampire]

@@larahforrest2430 you are right ppl need to be taught about all these things.

[@xo1720]

What People Think OCD Is : Making Sure Everything Is Organized What OCD Really Is : Checking If The Door Is Locked at 3 AM

[@ant9772]

I just had to check the door because of this lmaoooo

[@annacortezz]

mine is intrusive thoughts ALL THE TIME, and my brain tells me something like “If you dont flush the toilet 5 times you will die in your sleep” “Check if the door is locked or ur mom dies” i hate it and i wanna dir

[@xo1720]

froggyna Yeah same! i think this like, if i dont shut the blinds people will peek in. its so annoyying

[@annacortezz]

moonlique right! i hope there will br a cure for this in the future, its so hard living with this

[@blondiezwrld]

My boyfriend checks to make sure the door and garage is locked at least 20 times and if he didn’t “see it” locked and shut, he’ll turn around and check again before leaving. Same thing with the car, he has to lock it at least 15 times.

[@joemcnicholas89]

what really makes me sad is when adverts say “they turned ocd into a game”

[@stevengrutzmacher]

OCD is not always about "germs". My Mom used to tell people that i was afraid of germs. She meant well, but that embarrassed me so much. And it reaffirmed that my family didn't care to understand ME.

[@darkred1438]

i went to school with a girl who had ocd in middle school, i remember her so vividly bc ppl would bully her and call her names. once in the bathroom she was scrubbing her hands really hard, i asked if she was okay and she started crying. her hands were blood red and there was literally blood coming from her hands. she killed herself in 7th grade, people said she had an od on aspirin but other people said she hung herself. i don’t know which one was true, but it made me so mad. bc the same people that bullied her were like “she deserved better” and “society sucks”. she was such a nice person though, i didn’t even know why she got bullied. she always smiled and really did just try to make friends. she genuinely was one of those people that you can’t forget.

[@genericchannel126]

Man, thats terrible. Being different is not bad at all! I wish she had transferred schools or do online schooling before it got that bad. Poor thing, hope the family is ok

[@darkred1438]

Generic Channel me too :(. i think abt her pretty often, i just wish i could’ve gotten to know her better and let her know that i was there for her.

[@daluchiadannaya2161]

So sad 😔

[@holls3061]

She's got a great head on her shoulders, compassionate & mature, such a brave young lady

[@rachaelnelson6789]

“The Allison disease.” Wow. Kids are cruel. It wasn’t THAT long ago that I was a child and even the worst of the bullying I dealt with wasn’t so personal, so venomous.

[@AutomaticDuck300]

I had a school nickname which I thought was funny and silly at the time. Years later, I found out how cruel it actually was.

[@cristinaapariciolinale2119]

When she showed in the beginning the hair thing, it brought me back. I’ve done that sooo many times. Once I was going to a wedding and didn’t like the hairdo so I re did it so many times I missed the church service and part of the wedding and when I got there I had a panic attack where I lost consciousness and was rushed home where I woke up with Oxygen because I couldn’t breathe. Another time I suffered a bad fall broke my arm and couldn’t use it for two weeks, I had my husband do my hair and when he didn’t do it well it brought me to tears I couldn’t handle it. Of course that’s not everyday but the fact that it got to those extremes and the many other things like erasing things and writing again until they’re perfect, moving things constantly because I feel everything is crooked, having to re check things a million times, it really makes my life miserable at times.

[@tiger_lord305]

Im a 21 year old male and I feel this girl’s pain. I didn’t know I had it till I was almost 19. OCD is commonly misdiagnosed or mistreated. Props to Vice for bringing awareness to this disorder.

[@laurenbeen6171]

M Detlef huh?

[@peggleblastlover]

i also am a teenage who suffers with severe ocd. it’s draining and incredibly hard to live with. that’s why when people organize their pencils and say they have ocd it really pisses me off.

[@chironOwlglass]

OCD is caused by elevated histamine, the most overlooked neurotransmitter. you can get better, you just have to get histamine levels under control

[@shawnicelavallie2519]

I didn’t know rewriting wasn’t typical for everyone. I will rewrite my lists over and over and over until it’s exactly how I want it. If I write a letter, I’ll do the same thing. Even filling out applications, I’d grab multiple in case I needed to start over. Hm. Interesting. I don’t think I have OCD but I know how frustrating and anxious that can make you. I’m so sorry to anyone who has to deal with these things day in and day out ☹️

[@noone9177]

I'm just like that, and one thing I started doing that kinda of helped was to not write things so instead I type on a computer.....the problem is I now create multiple archives to reorganize and rewrite until it is EXACTLY how I want it to be and it has lead me to multiple deleted files pretty similar to each other and countless hours in front of a computer but at least now I don't rewrite everything in class, I do it at home a bunch of time (I also avoid opening the files sometimes just so I won't see and won't redo everything so yeah, a bunch of files that I never opened again.....)

[@brookelawrence6740]

I’m 25 and just got diagnosed with OCD and I’m beginning treatment and you’re helping me, Allison. Thank you so much 💙

[@waahoup3243]

I am amazed by how educated and supportive her mother is. Most parents don’t bother.

[@rrf35988]

I don't know her, but I'm so proud of her.

[@unicorn-glasses]

What an incredibly strong girl. OCD is so serious, it's actually a brain disorder involving lapses in communication between multiple crucial parts of the brain. That's why she developed it at age 3, she was born with it. That's not always the case but it is partly genetic. My dad has severe OCD, similar to this girl (in time spent on obsessions/compulsions). My sister and I both have mild OCD but mine flares up badly to the severity of my dad's when I'm under a lot of stress. It absolutely sucks and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Good for her for being an advocate, that's exactly what is needed. The more people know about it, the less stigma there will be.

[@lifebeyond_ocd9269]

Elizabeth Cullum thank u so much and I totally agree. U can also follow my advocacy account on insta @lifebeyond_ocd

[@louieo8129]

For someone living with OCD, I so wish I had someone in my life growing up that I could share my thoughts and compulsions with. Someone as understanding and supportive as this mom. I grew up not knowing what it was and just accepted that I was different, and so I lived with it secretly until I educated myself in my late teen years. Thank you for this video VICE.

[@bryselbows]

I’m so grateful to watch a doc on this. I am 27 and was diagnosed with OCD 2 years ago but have been struggling with it my whole life. It makes work so hard to the point I quit my job 2 months ago. It makes it hard for me to keep friends close. I relate to her so much - even have the same hair tie issue. I wish I had the support her mom gives her. For sure going to follow her online!!

[@jc30081983]

She has great hair

[@newthrash1221]

ciana baltimore Why is that funny?

[@Viktor007]

@M Detlef did what?

[@alisavage6116]

M Detlef that’s so rude

[@diamondbae5217]

It needs a deep condition tbh bit scraggy.

[@oliviap.6050]

M Detlef reported you

[@mnqmaldonado]

She’s so sweet and intelligent! And her mother is so kind and supportive. ❤️

[@LeahMorrison-g4u]

OCD is one of those all encompassing conditions that, without treatment, will slowly take over your entire life. I knew of an extremely severe case once where a young man had to quite lite live in the bathroom in his mother’s house. His anxiety, compulsive behaviors, and intrusive thoughts were so severe he couldn’t function outside of this tiny little room. The good news is, OCD is one of the few psychological conditions that actually has decently high success rates with treatment.

[@tromboneman4517]

How ironic that one of the worst conditions you could have is also the most treatable.

[@gianightcore4608]

I am getting the “wise beyond her years” vibe from her

[@wangruochuan]

My wife has OCD and used to have panic attack a lot. I thought she were just being obnoxous. Then she went to see doctor. Had some serious mental break down and stressing out moments. Pray for this little girl. All you guys whos been fighting with mental illness, you guys are really brave. Hope yall feeling better soon.

[@loudchihuahua]

What a strong, brave, wise young lady. I’m in awe.

[@melissamartin9615]

I am very thankful you shared your story. I canNOT imagine the amount of complete exhaustion this mental health illness causes you, Allison. As the significant other of a man who has been diagnosed with PTSD and has permanent Psychosis from illegal drug use, I have an understanding of the importance of family support- I applaud your mother and admire her strength. I do have a couple of thoughts. As I listened to your mom and she was saying that people say that they have OCD over something minor. You know, honestly I would "toss" that term around when I did something that I was trying to explain away to other people who thought I was putting more effort into a task that I didn't need to. Or if I spent more time fixing something, rearranging something and people would tell me it wasn't worth it. I'm not saying it is the right term to use, but folks say things when they feel inadequate or "silly" for doing things and others and they are afraid others will judge them for it. We all have strengths, we all have weaknesses. If you continue to educate others about OCD traits, it could change the way people reference it. Now that I understand more about PTSD and Psychotic tendencies, I never say things like, "Don't be so sad, you should be happy" or "Just think happy thoughts", or during a psychotic break I understand why I must keep a certain tone in my voice in order to help calm my boyfriend down or to just be in the room so that he knows he's not alone. I am saying all this to make the point that a person never knows what will happen in life at any given point. The biggest thing we can do to help one another is go through hardships with them. Learn as much as you can about the situation and put yourself through every emotion, every heartbreak, every nightmare with them. Also, realize that the cross you bear may be lighter than another's or heavier than another. But we all will go through trials in this lifetime. Be kind; don't be offended if someone uses a phrase in a hurtful way, more than likely they are uneducated about the proper usage. And if you hear them, and you can- tell them about it and why it's not the correct term to use. Not only does this show your person that they are supported but it makes the "good" days so much more beautiful for BOTH of you. The other thing that I was curious about was during the part of the video when you, Allison's mother, was saying that she would ask you so many times if you loved her, was this the fear in her mind from thinking she wasn't "normal" and she needed reassurance or do you think it was the Obsessive trait of OCD? Also, do you think it would have helped and could it help today, if you told allison you love her as soon as you see her? For example, every morning when you both wake up. First words- "Good morning, I hope you slept well; it makes me h as happy to see you, I love you so much." I am asking from a place of curiosity. Mental health has become such an amazing part of my journey and my boyfriend's journey. I strive to learn and share as much as I can. God bless you, each and every one.

[@joclourey5118]

For any OCD sufferers out there, there is an incredible facility called Roger's Behavioral Health. If they don't have a location in your state, it's extremely common for patients to travel out of state for their care. I hope this can serve as a resource to anyone seeking help.

[@aaronrock8120]

Joc Lourey YES!!! I have OCD as well and went to Rogers...it saved my life. I wish everyone knew about it and had the opportunity to get treatment there. It’s such an incredibly healing place.

[@toria1209]

Rogers is AMAZING! I went to the Oconomowoc location for residential.

[@aaronrock8120]

Tori A so did I!!!

[@joclourey5118]

@@aaronrock8120 so glad to hear it helped! I'm in their program right now and they've already done wonders!

[@iKaterinaPetrova]

i’m a perfectionist (and i absolutely hate it) but i don’t have OCD.

[@Iamphoenixarizona]

I ArtemisX I ikr, the struggle of wanting to be perfect

[@iKaterinaPetrova]

Its.Arizona it’s very hard to live with. i’m getting better tho

[@Iamphoenixarizona]

I ArtemisX I Im getting worse , if I’m not cleaning constantly I’m folding clothes and cleaning out my turtle tank

[@maryrichardson7511]

@@iKaterinaPetrova thank you for undestanding and not misusing it OCD has ruined my life, I have pure o ocd which is the most terrifying thing, i didnt know what it was at first and thought i was crazy because of the way the media stigmatizes it

[@andreac5293]

ok ik i’m off topic but omg u watch the vampire diaries too????? i could tell bc of Katherine

[@zhixinli7826]

When people starts to use OCD as an excuse, or uses OCD to insult someone, it's annoying...