My Story | Living with Schizophrenia

[@LivingWellAfterSchizophrenia]

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[@munibarehman7005]

U r not a schizophrenia patient.u have demonic effects.u need to keep touch with ur holy book ND holy prophet.u need to study bible ND pay ur attentions to Jesus christ.u try it I hope vry well u will find ur true prblm ND solution.

[@kolomoseschaji9879]

​@@munibarehman7005 what's up with you bro? Leave her alone.

[@munibarehman7005]

@@kolomoseschaji9879 leave her alone??? What do u mean by this???? A person needs help ND u r saying that leave her alone.u have not senses or u have not heart????? She needs help .A spiritual help.lonliness is poison for her.u want to give poison those persons who r suffering from critical situations.r u human ???????

[@rachelthomas6210]

Thank u

[@keithagee8972]

lt seems you should not have died. You were supposed to be an advocate; & leadership by example. Blah blah blah got sidetracked/scenic route/stopped going forward. Alice in Wonderland reference: "...but dear, think of blah blah blah...". You have gained a range that is a tangent of real experience. lf you reply to my comment...l'm reply: "Build me a kitchen"

[@n.jmnz5]

I’ve been diagnosed as schizoaffective. I’m 30, married with 2 children. I’ve debated starting a KZbin channel but struggle due to embarrassment & shame. You’re really inspiring & im thankful to have these videos to watch. I hope that one day I can gain the courage to share my story the way that you do.

[@shannonmcneill9464]

Please don't be embarrassed. This is an illness not shame like diabetes. My son has same but won't get help and is agreeing and abusive I do not see him due to the same I still love him and miss him dearly. Big mamma hugs to you , love you much

[@TheQueenIsWithin]

You don't have to if you don't want but please don't feel ashamed for having a mental illness. You're doing the best you can with the hand life has dealt you.

[@cuhweenuh]

Subscribed in case you decide to start making videos :) Don’t ever be embarrassed for something you can’t control, I believe it’s important to talk about our struggles to remove the stigma and make it normal for others to be open and understanding about things we don’t quite understand yet

[@n.jmnz5]

Thank you everyone. This is something I struggle with..I may just make videos, ive wanted to for years.

[@fumanpoo4725]

@@shannonmcneill9464 What do you mean "Same like diabetes?"

[@toothpastehombre]

No frills. Vulnerable and authentic. Your testimony exemplifies hope. Thank you

[@esthervolina3406]

Wow! I can't believe how much you went through... I give you a big hand girl !!! You are like iron or steel. It is amazing how you survived. Seriously. Thank you for sharing.

[@otshepengassegaai4736]

@@esthervolina3406 truethfully you are suffering from demonic attacks. Try to be a spiritual person by studying the bible with Christians.Hope Jehova and Jesus take care of you.

[@abayramaswamy7806]

Do you know how strong you are? God bless you.

[@arieswaters]

@@otshepengassegaai4736 that is so funny.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@pw510577w]

There is nothing wrong with having a mental illness. Videos like this help to remove the stigma. You've shown that it's possible to achieve many things that people with mental illness think are unachievable. If you have a health condition, mental or physical, good management can make a world of difference, as well as having a supportive partner.

[@elizabethevans6980]

So true!

[@journaling.aw.vlog.37]

Yes, this is so important, the help with stigma, and there is nothing wrong with having a mental illness. Ty

[@cynthiadavid5282]

Ur videos are uplifting

[@kay8698]

Its electronic harassment,, look it up ,theres groups on fb about this

[@angelwings7930]

Exactly. She never asked for this. She’s a victim of life’s bull-sh**.

[@antoniahubancheva7907]

My father was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few months before I was born. That was in the late 80s in Bulgaria, a country wrecked by economic and political crisis... No need to say what was the level of mental health support and treatment at the time. I can't even imagine how enormously difficult it could have been for him. But he was an amazing father and his love was so powerful we could always feel it, no matter his state. He was so unconditionally proud of me that somehow he gave me this quiet feeling of self-confidence, the feeling that whatever happens I will be loved and valued. From the point of vew of society he was absolutely unpunctual and unsuccessful men. For me and my sister he was, and still is, the greatest father we could ask for. Because even now, 20 years after he died, we're still empower by his love and trust. I wish he knows that ❤️

[@BN2K]

❤❤

[@jaimem1800]

He does know that. And he is still with you, guiding you. He sends u lil signs. im sure u sensed them. Love & light

[@psychmatisa]

Thank you. As a psychologist, I love watching testimonies like yours as they help me better screen, identify and support clients like you. I owe you a debt of gratitude ❤

[@truegemrn]

You are changing the world, girl. If I was your mom, I’d be so proud of you.

[@minstac1530]

Hey that's exactly how I feel

[@joannewilson1483]

You speak and you help so many you are a power and your knowledge will comfort a support others

[@noexcuseschristians]

As a mental health nurse, I appreciate your raw honesty. You telling your story will help so many people, including people like me that cares for patients. Thank you!

[@ruxanajewoon517]

Good job dear! Maternity nurse here. Hugs

[@canoneyes]

Hospice nurse here, I learn so much from Lauren.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@sandracid4987]

Thanks. I believe many of your viewers, like myself, have made already, a bond with you. You're an eye opener to me, such much, that now I know my paranoid schizophrenic, now deseased, brother passed trough. Receive my best regards. Sandra 🇲🇽

[@GoatTalkUnlimitedInc.]

Would it pass without medication..I wonder if it’s spiritual or truly mental..please help

[@veronicadacey7870]

As a therapist,I am so sorry you had to go through such a traumatizing experience in the hospital.I am in the U.S. and that experience unfortunately is pretty common. There is still a huge stigma still in the medical field concerning mental health issues. We need people to speak out loud and clear to continue to break down fears and stigma.

[@mikeodee1164]

i was not suprised about 1 year ago when my psychiatrist told me she knew several mentally ill americans who were severely harmed and in each case the judge did nothing to the people who harmed them the judge did not put them in jail he let them get away with their crimes against the mentally ill people each judge in all the casess

[@nelfi11]

🙏🏼❤️

[@lornahudson4454]

As a mental health nurse here in the uk I appreciate your honesty. Something needs to change.

[@CourtneyFritts-u4e]

I' live in the US too I am 24 been in and out of the hospital since age 12 the recent was June 20th a month before my birthday. The system is crappy makes me rather act out on my thoughts then go get help. Having to go to the emergency room isnt even helpful they lock you in a tiny room and make everything worse like other personalities. I was in a mental hospital November 2022 and they put me in the same room as this girl that wasnt allowed a roommate and they put me in the same room as her and she touched me and I didnt wanna tell the staff cause they knew her and I knew they wouldnt believe me. I didnt wsant to fight her cause I was going home the next day and didnt 3ant it to stop me. The system dont care. I'm in a bad mentally state of mind and the hospital isn't even worth it. I ain't having any luck in finding a therapist and I dont know what else to do at this rate there ate hardly no therapist around anymore and I need one now

[@DoNotForget45180]

Jordan peterson is a descent one..I learned alot from him

[@victoriawatson4538]

She is a very good speaker. Praying that things continue to go well for her and her beautiful family.

[@bambicastle2807]

We need God Jesus Christ our savior... No doctor can heal that,even as it's a demonic attack inside our brain..you ask deliverance,or ask God to heal you. I have been here with a voice ,but I ask God to save me.i told my self get out Satan I never give you authority to use me .who are you to speak to me killed my husband and son. Get out in Jesus name I pray... I repent all my sin ,I really humble heart to jesus save..God really exists.if demonic no one can heal no certificate can save us. Me I never have no doctor only Jesus. Evil spirit is real,I saw black 2 shadow in my room, and I ask God save me because black shadow in my neck is too heavy my body...and I saw white shadow to save me,and black shadow get out in my room .. But I never think I killed myself,I already gave to Jesus my life..only God died to my sin,and only Jesus owns my life.. We need Jesus Christ to save us... God loves us!

[@cman92]

@@bambicastle2807 what a joke, people like you are one of the reasons people take their lives and don’t reach out for help. Do just a little bit of research before you spout such ignorance.

[@dsrtsnw]

@@bambicastle2807 your fairytales arent real. there is no heaven, only true peace of complete nonexistence.

[@mybirdsmells]

@@bambicastle2807oof check that grammar sweetheart

[@EJ1443]

She really needs to work on her storytelling skills and not just drop random bombshells with no explanation. (The moment where she talks about being stripped naked and being restrained out of the blue.) I also wish she would try to look at things from another perspective like her therapist or hospital staff (I am trying to keep in mind she probably went to some crappy hospitals)

[@hopemillington3842]

My son is presently in the hospital for this illness. Thank you for sharing. As a parent I have looked so many places to get support and understanding of this illness. Your presentation and clarity are much appreciated. I wish you the best!

[@tracya.schneider7698]

Wishing your son, you, your family and your friend network so much support and supportive hugs 🤗❤.

[@stephaniedonatello6844]

I send my best wishes to you and your son❤❤

[@grandma460]

💜💜💜

[@carsonc6659]

🙏🏻

[@qy6853]

My empathy is with you. I was diagnosed as schizophrenic during my graduate study at 25. Ten years later I picked up my education and got my PhD at 38. I have worked as a professional since and I am close to retire. To reduce the side effects of the medication, I have successfully slashed the amount to a minimal level that could just help me fall asleep. If I sleep well, everything I do is fine. I have never had a relapse. Keep going and loving. You story is encouraging and you are amazing.

[@afraalsamkari2445]

Congratulations 🎉. Your story is uplifting. I hope that I can do the same. Thank you❤.

[@alistertowelie]

i have aspergers syndrome. i know this is not the same as any schizophrenia but i deal with depression, anxiety, delusions, obsessive-compulsive thoughts, and hyperactive fixations. the fact that you've found love and had your own child gives me hope. thank you so much.

[@brittanycaraway2699]

I have asperger's and bipolar. Wishing you all the best

[@Fred-Faizi]

My 16 year old son was diagnosed with Asperger after he completed the Neuro Psych Evaluation, however he also has psychosis and delusions. He has exact similar symptoms like you described. How do we know its not psychophrenia or psychosis disorder? Do you take any antipsychotic meds? He does take Zyprexa but no one really knows how to fully diagnose him.

[@noradinneen1]

I think you are very courageous the way you manage your illness & talk so openly about it. It can only bring more understanding and empathy for these illnesses which can be very frightening for the sufferer & their family & friends. You have achieved a huge amount in spite of your illness. Im really impressed by you.

[@davidderuiter726]

Autism spectrum and schizophrenia spectrum go together more often than commonly known.

[@jenn_jean_kent_artist]

Thank you for sharing your story. Wow, i cannot imagine that horrifying hospital experience! Yes, I agree with some others who mentioned Aspergers/asd, that autism could be at play as well, and may be worth exploring getting an autism evaluation from an autism specialist who understands adult women who may have been missed being diagnosed. You are very beautiful, intelligent and enduring to have come through so many life challenges.🙏💜✨

[@karifaller9284]

Lauren, the impact you and Rob are making on the stigma involved in a mental health dignosis is amazing. Your ability to share your experience so transparently shows just how hard you have worked to be mentally healthy. Most people could not do what you are doing on this channel. You make it easier for all of us, regardless of our mental challenges, to feel less alone. Thank you so much for the huge contribution you make in general and to me in particular. xo

[@nedacyrous6794]

What an amazing story!!! So brave so strong to be able to share her story so authentic

[@kay8698]

Its electronic harassment,, look it up ,theres groups on fb about this

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@MakeGodSmileToday]

You are amazing. My beloved Momma was diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia. Throughout her life she was subjected to electro shock therapy and way too many pills to mention. Now that I am 59, I can look back at her, my childhood, and my own lifelong battle with depression with a sense compassion for it all. I am confused by my own (at times) relentless sadness. God bless you. ❤

[@frisco61]

I’m 62 and it was my father and I also have days where I’m just profoundly sad. But overall I love my life now, but mental illness is a lot for children to process, I’m not surprised that I have those occasional sad days.

[@anci2aa]

Please search for Jesus and I am not talking about religion ( the denominational churches teachings) but I am talking about finding out about him by reading the Bible and discovering the possiblity of having a relationship with him through reading the Bible with an open mind. By the teaching of Derek Prince which he described having this sadness what is actually happening is you have something that is called the spirit of heaviness and it is very well described in the Bible verse Isaiah 61:3. You can find his teachings on KZbin just type in Dereck Prince as he explains it very well as he himself had it and he got delivered from it and you will find your answers there. When you get to accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour he can set you free from absolutely anything and give you a peace you have never known before.When these feelings come try to rebuke them in Jesus name everytime. Not all the thoughts that come to your mind are yours actually even though they are in your mind but you will find out that your mind is like a battlefield. Some of the negative thoughts that come to your mind are of the enemy and he has an access to our mind if we live in sin and in many other ways too (unforgivness, pride, rebellion, generational curses) and this is called spiritual warfare. The only possible way of protection from this enemy is through Jesus Christ as he died for our sins and paid our debt. When we accept him with our heart and our mouth we become born again and not under the old law(curse).Search for born again Christians (they have the Holy Spirit) among people you know and they can explain you everything( not the religious denominations church going Christians without the Holy Spirit).

[@alexdable-s9n]

Thankyou for this. My mum was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, was a teacher, guide troup leader and a core nember of the Women's Institute. We're from England. She had her struggles and I definately have been affected by emotional neglect due to the very heavy medications she was on. But she was a beautiful person and taught me a lot about keeping going despite whatever life gives you. She died at age 55 of pneumonia. RIP mum. Thankyou for doing your very best. Xxxxx

[@LoriDawn327]

My 37yo son was just diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Your videos have really helped me understand what he is going through and how I can help him. Thank you, Lauren!

[@freshliving4199]

Can you see you in your son?

[@pepsicola6232]

@@freshliving4199 what does that even mean?

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@helenmedina3474]

MY SON passed i had no choice there no one out there to help so i called the police and thats where he dies he had schziohenia

[@cecilasilo1925]

@@helenmedina3474 so sorry Helen. I wonder how he died. My prayers are with you!

[@TheBritot]

What a well spoken, intelligent, & strong woman you are. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are going to help a lot of people out there and that's to be admired and respected. I sincerely wish you well in life.

[@WakingAngels]

Love this comment 💛

[@howareyou857]

As a mental health clinician and a daughter to a parent diagnosed with Schizophrenia I am moved by your words. Thank you. X

[@Miriamblake]

Was there anything that has helped your daughter get better ?

[@howareyou857]

@@Miriamblake my Mum? She takes a variety of tablets including Olanzepine . It wad the menopause that triggered it. Unfortunately she was never the same. She is 91 now!!

[@Miriamblake]

@@howareyou857 so sad I’m sorry about that ! My brother just developed it the past two years and is very violent as well and it’s just sooo hard to see him like this and wish there was more I can do !!

[@howareyou857]

@@Miriamblake is he being medicated?

[@Miriamblake]

@@howareyou857 yes but he doesn’t always take them and when he’s on them he’s like a zombie he’s 27 and just sleeps all day

[@gatorgirl0422]

Im losing my sister to this right now. She absolutely refuses to get help other than the 3 day baker act stays. 5x so far this year. We payed 28,000 for a 30 day stay only for her to get out and be non compliant with after treatment. I no longer recognize the person that was once closest to me. Im heartbroken and exhausted. I feel like I'm grieving someone who is still alive...I dont wish this on anyone, and it's definitely not talked about enough. I'm so lost. 🥺

[@Uhlbelk]

Please take care of your own health, and recognize that there is a limit to how much you can help others.

[@margaretgarana911]

Praying for you

[@Nissi1283]

I felt the same way. My sister was diagnosed later in life and because she refused to get help I had to cut ties for the safety of my children. She went into the system and my mom was told they would only order inpatient treatment if she committed a felony, they put her on Haldal and released her shortly thereafter. We lost her not even two months after they released her. I'm so sorry for your pain because it's so difficult for everyone involved.

[@susanlovato112]

I have done the same with my son. Grieved so much at losing him. He is alive but not himself.

[@RandomSwiftie13]

You should try to show her success stories of people with schitophrania. That might help... Just stay supportive of her and her might just get through it and become somewhat normal again.

[@NotaGabeItch]

I struggled so bad fighting the tears watching this. Thank you so much for sharing, I love your channel so much. My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago. Ever since then I’ve been on a journey to understand my brother’s illness and how I can be a better younger brother and more supportive for him. Since his diagnosis, he’s had only 1 episode within those two years, and we quickly learned it was due to him being off the medication. I would be lying if I didn’t say things have been overwhelming at times. I love my brother to death and want the best for him. At times i struggle to understand what caused this to him. My brother is a recovering Alcoholic/Addict, but had a relapse 2 years ago and during this relapse, this was when he experienced his first episode. He ended up in a mental hospital for about 2 months, he was severely paranoid, having hallucinations, and was fixated that a woman he was seeing at the time was drugging him. For myself, it was a traumatic experience, I didn’t know what to think. It was hard for me to admit he was schizophrenic, I didn’t want to believe and accused the Medical Professionals that they were misdiagnosing him. I just thought he mentally broke due to relapsing and the guilt. It wasn’t until he experienced an episode a few months that has set me on a Journey to learn more about Schizophrenia, so I can understand how to properly be a more supportive brother. Even till this day, I still have a hard time accepting the fact he is schizophrenic. There’s just so much I don’t understand, nor do I want to accept 😢. I just want the best for my older brother. Is there anyone out there that has experienced something similar? Was it the relapse of alcohol and drugs that made him schizophrenic? It’s been difficult to wrap my head around at times.😢 Thanks for listening 🙏🏼

[@beatrixbrennan1545]

As someone who struggles with mental illness and alcoholism, I think it's quite possible your brother experienced Delirium Tremens, which are hallucinations caused by the withdrawal from alcohol and usually subside after a while. Depending on the person, they could last a couple days to a couple months. Hallucinations, delusions and hearing voices are very common during this time of detoxing from alcohol. It's possible that your brother was in the throes of DT'S and was diagnosed schizophrenic and placed on medication before he was given time to come out of it on his own. I'm praying for you and your brother that you would find the answers and help that you need.

[@leonoraterreblanche6561]

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[@hdeniz1513]

Nothing we experience today is new. It’s been faced by our ancestors long time ago. People in the past had a rather simplistic but functional answers to problems like this. First of all, let me say I studied neuroscience for two years at UofG until I transferred to YorkU to study psychology. All this struggle was to figure out why this happened to me (diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder). With no scientific answer in the horizon and a little bit of luck, I turned my face to religion and started studying it with a religious master. He recommended me to read the book of Job where he declared war against God for the things that happened to him, lost everything he had and caught a disease in the end. Everything people said to him did not explain why horrible stuff happened to him. He asked God why several times and he finally answered. All went back to normal and Job became even more rich and powerful. Here, there is a spiritual answer based on philosophy. Please read it with an open mind and see if there’s any similarities between Job and your brother. If it makes sense, encourage him to read it. I pray for you, your family, and your brother. God bless you all.

[@internetperson6195]

oh my god you're the best sibling anyone could ask for

[@jaskayy6590]

What this woman has been through 💔 but keep shining woman ✨it’s so helpful to hear your story

[@christopherhoyt3699]

Lauren, You have the warmest smile and the MOST Genuine and personable way about you when sharing your struggles and triumphs in coping with schizoaffective disorder...keep pushing and soldiering through the ups and downs of your journey and know that your mission is making a profound and positively impactful difference in the lives of others. ❤️

[@otispage5746]

Courage

[@guyrabinowitz]

Don't capitalize "genuine."

[@ingridsol8432]

@@guyrabinowitz WTH?? 🤣🤣🤣 🤪

[@luckyslob3359]

I remember starting to suspect that I might’ve been schizophrenic, but it didn’t seem to be the same super negative depiction I had seen just about everywhere so I just reasoned that the voices I heard in my head were normal. They were not. Got diagnosed earlier this year. It’s been a struggle adjusting to my new normal, but I’m gettin there.

[@amandaarnold1926]

It is really beautiful how open and vulnerable you can be in sharing your story. As someone without schizoaffective disorder you have helped open my eyes to what it can be like to live and manage your illness. Thank you for sharing and helping to educate us all. I am a healthcare provider and your story and experiences will stay with me and help me take better care of my patients

[@shahnazsultana3189]

You are a very sweet soul. God bless you dear.

[@reginagaughan-kassery4575]

This story broke my heart...what an amazing woman she is & so blessed to have a husband that loves her that much to marry her inspite of her psychosis. Kudos to both of them & much grace & blessings!

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc,

[@lorablackman9508]

You are a remarkable woman & rolemodel for my own struggle with schizoaffective disorder. I've been watching your channel for a few years now. Always, your friend, Lora

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@chelseasharp7352]

Thank you for being so brave & sharing with the world your journey. My 20 year old son was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia & bipolar disorder. As a mom, I want to understand what he is experiencing as much as possible & learn how to be the supporter I can be. WE are going through this together, and your videos are a blessing for us to understand and get a better grip on this, as you said. Again, thank you, and know your honesty is helping others! God bless you & Rob & your beautiful children!

[@Oxannalj]

You may want to watch 3 moms in the trenches! Their podcast is filled with good information. My brother is schizophrenic from his late teens. Which was in the 70’s, it was much different than today. Yet my own son is experiencing much the same. Yet diagnosed with PTSD, or so he says.

[@behaviorthoughts]

Thanks for sharing your story, I struggle with depression and an eating disorder. It creeps back into my life when I am the happiest. It’s about building a routine and just being accepting

[@whiteroses6138]

I am grateful for this thank you. You are an inspiration for me. I have what you live with and I have now finished a graduate degree. I am proud of my accomplishment. Yoga has helped keep me grounded and my loving family.

[@scottmusgrove764]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Lauren. It's been really great watching your confidence grow. I'm currently starting my recovery journey and hearing you speak so frankly (and without the sugar coating) is very inspiring and reaffirming. Keep up the great work!!

[@libbywarren6083]

I’m so grateful you and your husband started this channel. You’re story has helped so many, including my family. Thank you!❤️😊❤️

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@frantull8951]

God bless you! Thank you for your beautiful inspirational life story. Warm tight hugs♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@lidamieles5259]

I have a brother 64 years old that was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20. My brother’s life story with this disease is very sad. He is stable taking medication and with the care of all of us (5 siblings) I thank you for this video and telling your story so honestly. Makes me feel supported. I wish you and your family more health and joy always. God bless you 💗

[@transformtransmitt]

You are so courageous! You're the first video I've ever seen like this. I'm so afraid of my illness and I'm so afraid of admitting it to anyone outside of the psychiatrists who have attended to me during my many hospitalizations... You make me feel like I can look for more help thank you

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc,

[@sharimanhas6083]

These hospital staff should be sued. Thank you for sharing your story.🙏🏽

[@ameliaspradley3660]

Thank you for sharing your experience! While I don't have any "personal" experience with schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder (with myself or family), I work in healthcare in direct patient care. Your videos have been so incredibly helpful to me in having a deeper understanding of what some of my patients are feeling or experiencing, in order to learn how to help them more effectively. THANK YOU for putting your story out there. ♥️ That's how we create change.

[@mlmbeliever]

I work in healthcare also. My first visits working in the ER had me confused about knowing and approaching mental illness. I started asking questions. I remember starting my psychiatric rotation and one schizophrenic patient told me he always sees monsters following him but he knows they aren't real when he's taking his medicine. On the other hand if he wasn't taking the medicine he would swear those monsters were real. He must have known I really needed that insight into what ppl with mental illness are feeling and this young man clued me in. I didn't want to say or do the wrong thing. At some point I started working in a mental hospital and got to know people of all ages and mental illnesses. Sometimes I see college students who are just realizing there is something wrong. I wish everyone well who is struggling with these issues.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@embru]

Beautiful story. Thank you for sharing, and helping people understand what schizophrenia is actually like. You should be very proud.

[@humblestudent633]

More strength to you and all those facing similar challenges in life. Compassion is the solution to most of the troubles.

[@katieconfer5858]

Despite being here from close to the beginning of this channel and knowing most of this already, it was really beautiful to hear your whole story

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@manicantsettleonausername6789]

I think you shared your story beautifully, and I'm glad you exist in this world. You are a wonderful person and the work you do is so important, thank you

[@canoneyes]

Same!

[@sophcw]

I don't have schizoaffective disorder, but I love your channel. This work you're doing is so important to destigmatize and familiarize people with these conditions and show that a joyful life is possible for people. And having started watching you early on, it's so clear that you are thriving now and it's so great to see. Congrats on everything!

[@donnabrown1549]

I watched this entire video, and I was touched by how human and personal this story is and how well it conveys this woman's struggle and subsequent success because she recognized her illness, had family support, and took accountability for her own health; she is 1 in a million success story. I would like to see more of the same for all of society.

[@t.v.4551]

What a beautiful woman and a beautiful individual. It breaks my heart 💔 to hear about such trouble and tormenting pain she went through. I am wishing her a lot of inner strength, family love & support to go gracefully in life with her health challenges! Thank you so much for sharing! You are a very brave lady! 😍🌺

[@LostOnLandAgain]

This is so real. Thank you Lauren. Because of you I have more understanding about this illness.

[@bmwbabe3]

I just love absolutely everything about this channel. Sending you lots and lots of love. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@pinkprincess124]

I was diagnosed with major depression at the age of 21 and it was a very difficult experience because my friends and family did not know. I was lonely... finding my husband really turned my life around and I never felt out of control with my emotions ever again 🙃

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@flop3x]

I'm in your walls

[@wheatstonebridge]

I wish I could say the same. Having a husband does not make my demons go away

[@renee2105]

@@wheatstonebridge JESUS WILL...

[@americancitizen748]

You've done better in life than most people WITHOUT a mental disorder do. Count yourself blessed...

[@pocahontas4583]

Cause they probably do have a disorder. Just not diagnosed and treated.

[@julianadamico4702]

She is very articulate and has a lot of insight into her illness

[@0oooooo0]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It was grounded, not sugar coated but calmly optimistic. Sending you so much love and strength

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@ghenderson6717]

I am so grateful that you are alive, too. Thank you so much for sharing ❤ As a midwife I had the honor of caring for a couple of moms with schizophrenic disorders throughout the years. It was really enlightening to listen to your story. What touched me very much was your relationship to yourself, the self care and love for yourself.

[@sueg7174]

I wish you had been online when my son was alive. he had ECT too large doses of it and time off and on his medication. You have changed the world for people with mental illness. Thank you.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@lindaburleyson]

Wow. What an incredible life story. Thank you for sharing. I am sorry for all of your suffering and I wish there was a quick fix. It looks like love is helping you through it. Lots of love

[@bonniepinskey2212]

Wow….What a compassionate and brilliant speaker you are. I feel your story should be watched by all patients fighting similar disorders if not for nothing more than hope that perhaps they lost long ago. I have had no exposure to this illness except recently through a friends diagnosis. I feel I am better equipped to help. So please know that once more you have blessed a reader with your story and experiences. I pray for you and your family and your great life’s adventure that lies ahead….

[@Si0nnach]

Girl, thank you so much for this. I feel so much more educated getting to hear about the illness from a person experiencing it rather than a textbook. You have completely changed my perspective on this illness and it is greatly appreciated.

[@snoozyq9576]

This makes me feel much better about my own difficulties Your openness is so comforting. Thank you ❤️

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@nandorludvig8531]

After spending my whole active life as a neuroscientist, I still don't know what would be the best medical direction for the treatment of schizophrenia. But Lauren's absolutely high-quality examination of her own case helped me to recognize the power of loving family life and understanding social environment in reducing the unwanted symptoms of schizophrenia. At the same time, I believe medical sciences can't give up on finding the right way to eliminate these symptoms from the life of the affected. This testimony of Lauren will surely be part of the medical curriculum one day and will surely inspire scientific minded psychiatrists to reveal the characteristics of the association cortex of men and women with schizophrenia -- and, based on this knowledge, design methods to eliminate the disturbing symptoms of this condition.

[@lillianafrick1388]

Well said and hopefully one day there will be a cure for all who are suffering with this disease!

[@nandorludvig8531]

@@lillianafrick1388 I don't know whether you are affected by schizophrenia or involved in its treatment and research as a psychiatrist or neuroscientist. Either way, you yourself can do a lot towards the ultimate objective of finding a cure for this disease. If you are a patient, you can do a lot to tell psychiatrists that they must consider schizophrenia also as a "spectrum-disorder". The mildest forms need more social awareness, empathy and community help than drugs with all of their side-effects. Believe me, this simple change in the approach to the mildest forms of schizophrenia would be a great step into the right direction of schizophrenia treatment. On the other hand, patients suffering from the most severe, intractable forms of schizophrenia must find an effective support group -- to be formed by mild schizophrenia patients and agreeing doctors -- to campaign at the National Institute of Health and other funding agencies to not to give up on finding a cure for the disease and do everything they can to revolutionize the national/international effort to make new experimental and clinical approaches. I myself published papers on the possible connection between schizophrenia and some dysfunctions in the hypothesized prefrontal cortical neural supercircuitry of "Self-Ken". But there are many other new ideas in the field that would move forward schizophrenia research meaningfully if funded properly. Anyway, I am sure cure will be found -- but it may take even a century to get there, at least in my opinion.

[@Mallratthrift]

@@nandorludvig8531 I have a son dx'd with SA w/ Depressive features. I wonder all the time if it is funded properly, it seems so little is done besides take this pill and see if it helps. Why do some meds work and others don't? Why is it ok to treat patients with this so poorly when they need to be inpatient. Often they are abused by staff. I not only have a son with SA I also worked at a mental health facility as a biller and the practices are often abusive. They make patients feel like inmates. It makes my son terrified to tell his symptoms because he fears them so much. Also I wonder why the psychiatrists don't want to hear the backstory of the patient, like weird behaviors or episodes as a child, hindsight from family is discouraged. That has been my experience. My son is 37, I love him, care for him and I'm disgusted at the lack of help and the nonchalant attitude of the docs in the CMHS...we've been through at least 7, it's a revolving door. I also wonder if autism, Asperger's sometimes turns into SA due to the trauma of teasing, bullying and often ptsd it creates. I could swear my son always had a quirkiness about him that now , as we are more informed about Aspie, I wonder if he had. Thanks for being here.

[@nandorludvig8531]

@@Mallratthrift Dear LizzyLouCollectables, you spoke from your heart -- and I absolutely understand your conflict. In my medical school years -- back in Hungary -- I was interested in psychiatry, but abandoned the field because of the same reasons you articulate: (1) the arrogant, condescending behavior of psychiatrists towards the patients while they exactly knew they were unable to help them, and (2) the field's absolute lack of deep commitment to change this hopeless situation and work on new, indeed useful treatments for major psychiatric disorders, especially schizophrenia and depression. But the complex truth is that both schizophrenia and depression are extremely difficult medical problems, because they are -- unlike epilepsy and many other brain disorders -- human-specific diseases and as such, we cannot learn from relevant animal models. And obviously, related computer models and in vitro research are useless, due to the lack of understanding of the most basic pathophysiological features of these diseases and the dependence of these pathophysiological features on the full function of the intact brain. I recently published a paper in Open Journal of Philosophy, with the title of "A cosmological neuroscientific approach to the Soul of Multiverse", in which I presented a figure on the structure of the human soul. The figure showed the possible central medium of Soul in the individual human scale, which I termed as "Self-Ken", essentially a neural supercircuitry in the prefrontal cortex with such domains as Identity, Conscience, Will and Mission. And I believe both schizophrenia and depression are the manifestations of severe errors in this human-specific supercircuitry. More than a decade ago, still an active neuroscientist, I applied for a NIH grant to work on this hypothesis -- but the application was rejected with the same arrogant and condescending style so characteristic of the profession of psychiatry. But I hope, my paper will be read by some young psychiatrists and one of them, one day, may even give some thoughts to it and devotes some research effort to this idea. Nevertheless, even if this idea will turn out to be useful, maybe even correct, it will provide only an explanation for these brain disorders. Will it help to develop therapy? It will certainly be one of the greatest scientific/medical challenges of this century. Because meaningful schizophrenia/depression therapy must correct specifically that malfunctioning prefrontal cortical supercircuitry, the very medium of human Soul -- and this can hardly be done with oral drugs, because they act all over the entire brain, causing more problems (unwanted side-effects) than real help. Obviously, traditional surgeries, like the non-scientific, indeed evil, lobotomy practiced in the mid-20th century, are out of question. I did propose drug-delivery/neurotoxin-drainage ("pharmacodialysis") implants for severe schizophrenia in a paper in 2013 -- but I am not sure such implantations will ever be accepted by patients. So these are the problems. Still, I am convinced human ingenuity will one day find the way to provide meaningful treatments for patients with severe schizophrenia and depression.

[@RerememBerering]

6 figure schizo here. There are medications out there that may eventually help. It did for me. Don’t lose hope of being the you that you want to be.

[@Mf7d89]

I want Special Books by Special Kids to interview you!

[@thetechnoking]

That would be great. But he gets an email from whoever wants to be interviewed by him so probably that will only happen if she reach out to him asking to be interviewed.

[@lvega5606]

I can see the other way around ... her interviewing him.

[@christinelommer2289]

@@lvega5606 XW

[@debbieripley201]

@@lvega5606 rocket

[@lydialjal]

I am glad you are here and am in awe of your bravery in sharing your story. Wishing you well.

[@EllenCowan-z1h]

Thank you for sharing your most interesting mental health story . You are such an eloquent, lovely and brave person. I wish you and your family all of the best.

[@Carlos-ln8fd]

I think I subscribed to this channel during the first few months of its existence and I'm so glad I did. Thank you so much for sharing. I think it's helping people understand mental illness and that's extremely valuable.

[@pieceofmind1900]

I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for the past six years with auditory hallucinations, paranoia, and delusions mostly, gaslighting myself that it's just me making things up, you've helped me own it in a way, and make decisions for what the best care for myself is, and have seen marked improvement over the years. Thank you for sharing your experiences

[@angelaf1305]

What is your name please?

[@TheEdmond30]

Hey Kiddo, I'm on the other side of Schizophrenia, I still take meds, but the news from here is that there is going to be more to life than mental illness. It is going to improve. its not so much getting better like you do a cold but you'll learn to function better the longer you keep going. your videos are very valuable, and very open. keep going.

[@knuthamsun6106]

edmond do i understand correctly that for many or most sufferers, it comes down to choosing between the chaos, conflict & danger of going unmedicated or the numb, dead pointlessness of antipsychotics-induced anhedonia?

[@TheEdmond30]

@@knuthamsun6106 personally i find the meds a formality at this point, there are many drawbacks and less than pleasant effects, but with mindfulness and a meditative approach, with people you can trust around you, completing the puzzlebox that is schizophrenia is possible, I've been lucky with the meds, in that i took a proactive stance on doses. getting a balance right is crucial, too many people are over medicated as a whole, or are on inappropriate meds, but they are a safety net for much of the chaos and extremes of state. the right dose will change life from a fractured minefield to something feeling like normality. This is just my experience and is not conclusive, however i remain convinced that there is life after psychosis, there is joy and meaning in the resolution that is possible. Keep faith in that which you love and value, beit God or Gods or just a good idea. Because life is short and pain is a transitional state. and there's a lot more future than there is a now.... with or without the drugs.

[@knuthamsun6106]

thank you Edmond

[@margiemurphy3336]

How can I subscribe to ur channel?

[@dogtrainingmexico]

My oldest son has schizophrenia, and after a few terrifying years, he has improved tremendously. He just graduated from university. In fact, I have read that about 30% of people with schizophrenia can recover, or partially recover...

[@M-qk2pg]

Hi Lauren My son has had at least 3 psychotic episodes over the last year and a half. I discovered your videos by chance. You are exceedingly brave and I am so grateful to you. You have helped me to understand better what he is experiencing.Thank you so very much

[@jonniemae818]

Your story of acceptance is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. It gives me insights on how to handle Schizo-effective Disorder. ❤

[@nickyb7266]

Lovely lady! So happy she is getting through this! 💕

[@rosalynmurungi317]

I'm so happy that you are sharing this. Thank you

[@wendychavez5348]

Thank you! My brother has schizophrenic disorder, and the entire family has learned new interpersonal skills to help him survive with his condition. I have Borderline Personality Disorder (combined with other things, all triggered by a traumatic brain injury when I was 15), which complicates matters, and the entire family adjusted to help me cope too. I'm glad you and Rob found each other and support each other so well--it's huge to have a network that's willing to work with one's issues, whatever they might be. You remind us that this is a regular thing that happens to regular people, not a punishment, and it doesn't mean we're evil or even bad. Brain positivity is huge too!

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc,

[@brendahatch3399]

Thank you so much for all that you and Rob do. Sooo very much appreciated.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@drushali14]

Lauren, I watched this till the end and was in tears! No, not out of sympathy or fear, but out of my understanding of the 'love' that resides in you - it shows in your love for your husband, for all your 3 kids, and for your life. It might sound very cliched, but you truly are bold and beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story, and sending you love.

[@MarietaDimitrovaD]

« I am glad my story isn’t over. » This got me unprepared. I felt it in my bones. Brilliant message. A big thank you, Lauren and Rob!

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@valentinamartin5764]

That line, brought me to tears ❤

[@marywhitley6629]

Hearing your story is very helpful to me as a nurse. Thank you for being so open!❤

[@michellew3932]

I just stumbled on this. My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 5 years old(he was 20). I’ve only ever known him to struggle with his mental illness. God bless you for putting this out there for other people (those struggling with the illness or the family who cares for them). This disorder runs in my family and I know firsthand the challenges, I think it’s wonderful you have this channel. My brother passed away from COPD and heart failure at 60. He was a beautiful soul with a kind heart, smart, funny and thought more for others than himself. You got this, stay strong. I will keep you in my prayers.

[@slane_design]

I have heard so many stories of people being diagnosed with this after taking SSRIs. So sad. What you endured was ABUSE at that hospital. Hope that you find healing and love.

[@lisalaurin5805]

Yes, that's true. My mom was after taking SSir as well as my aunt.

[@saikiranbv1234567]

You are really strong, with all the stuff that was happening you fought with it and came out of it. You have a strong heart, good luck and keep going!!

[@lukehanlon3814]

She’s selling merch do you think she needs the Money she’s scamming people on youtube

[@saikiranbv1234567]

Na I don’t think so! What’s wrong with selling merch??

[@celinavue]

Thank you for sharing! I lost my brother to schizophrenia. He struggled with it for many years. This is such a debilitating mental illness. I still miss him every day.

[@alexmckenzie6974]

Thank you so much for being brave in sharing your story. As a psych in-training, it is beyond appreciated. Wishing you all the best on your journey.

[@seanrisley]

All this time I thought I was a hypochondriac, that's what my folks called me. But now with all these descriptions, I'm teary-eyed hearing aspects of my life experience. Thank you thank you thank you.

[@Trzntxn]

It’s important not to diagnose yourself. Stay strong. Talk to a psychiatrist

[@georgiadecher4353]

Thank you for sharing your story. My daughter has the same disorder, and have seen the pain she has gone through. She is in a good place now. God bless you and your family!

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@demelzaforeman4245]

I found this amazing. I have spent 40 years working in family mental health and I am now retired. The way you have shared your story is honest and painful but is so hopeful. Thank you

[@jackiem1093]

You are so amazing!! The strength it takes to share your story is incredible. I grew up with a mom who suffered and now I have children suffering with treatment that isn't working. I hope many people get to hear your story and feel hope and find courage to face it head on. I am grateful that I have🙏🏼 thank you so much 🌹

[@htipton7385]

Thank you for sharing your story & your honesty. You are an inspiration so brave and so helpful for so many of us who struggle with our mental health and care for family members with mental health issues ❤

[@nicolec.5352]

Hi Lauren, thanks for sharing your story. I have a similar background than yours in the sense of having had a privileged childhood and access to education, I was meant to be a really successful woman, and I actually accomplished lots of things before the age of 30. But then in my 30’s something changed, to summarize, I’ve been diagnosed with almost everything on the DSM, schizophrenia and schizoaffective among other illnesses, I had the schizoaffective diagnosis for 5 years. I’ve lived this past decade in and out of hospitals, on and off work, still living with my parents and so on. Now back to you, I wanted to point out how much confidence you’ve gained in your videos, I recently watched an old one and you talked in a very matter of fact way and without expressing a lot of emotion, now you smile and look very comfortable in front of the camera. Keep up the good work and I hope you get nothing but love and stability

[@Sarablueunicorn]

The day they understand that "mental illnesses" are symptoms and not illnesses maybe people struggling can get real help. Let's say a person who suffers from psychosis, instead of trying to figure in what "man made book " mental illness, they should try to figure out what's causing the the psychosis while still try to treat the symptoms. Like a fever, a fever is a symptom of many complications but it's not a disease, it's an immune reaction, while one cannot figure out what's causing the fever this symptom should still be controlled by medication, hydration, cool baths, not these methods will treat or cure the issue but will remove discomfort, pain and avoid that this symptom causes bigger damage. I'm not even going through personality disorders that assume that certain traits and behaviors imply that a person is mentally ill, like a narcissists grandiose or a borderlines fear of abandonment. Auff.

[@elviram3360]

I have schizoaffective disorder and people call me all sorts of names. They call me stupid. First of all they should look at their own faults because nobody is perfect and secondly I don’t know what I did. This is all one big game to someone and I’ve been suffering around 13 years! If I’m so stupid I need to know what I did and it doesn’t make sense not to tell me. I’ve tried to be nice and have had problems with saying or doing things I regret. I’m starting to think I should be the evil both that people make me out to be. I’m no better or worse than anyone else. I

[@elviram3360]

Please help me to figure out what has been going on. I think someone has made a video or series of videos with my likeness and possibly saying things that I didn’t say, like photo shop, but with videos. I love everyone and I’ve had a hard time trying to be nice with all the hatred and cruelty

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@katec9893]

I'm similar, I have lots of good grades and qualifications but got diagnosed at 22 with clinical depression then in my 30s with OCD and PTSD and holding down work has been one of my biggest challenges. It then feeds into feeling bad about myself. Usually when I work full time I relapse but there aren't many part time jobs that pay enough to live on. I find dating v triggering and upsetting so I'm single at 39. Society needs to much better accommodate those of us with mental health struggles so that we can still be part of society.

[@radhikadhaipule3297]

You are a lovely person, Lauren! I am glad you were ‘unsuccessful’ and I am grateful for you ❤️

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc,

[@kaesmithmusic]

I've been subscribed for quite a while and want to thank you and Rob, again, for all of your hard work and openness. I'm so happy that you are doing well and living such a fulfilling, inspiring life. Many blessings to you, Rob and your lovely family.

[@sriku1000]

A great watch on; Why you need to self-reflect? And the consequences if you don't. Collective Self-Reflection. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWbJZq2BqLNkeqc..

[@debbieblair3329]

What an awesome story! You are a strong lady! Thank you for sharing! Enjoy your wonderful life and beautiful family.

[@jjaasseeyy33]

I happened to come across this video on NYE 2023 which is about 10 years after the 2014 incident. I am so so proud of you for making it this far. No matter what happened in 2014, you are HERE and inspiring others who may not feel they have long left. I used to watch some of your videos when I first set out to understand what was “wrong” with me. You became a staple in finding an online community I could enjoy even if we all had different diagnoses. That was almost 10 years ago for me as well, and now I feel like I truly understand myself. From back then to now I’ve realized that what I thought was “wrong” just made me special all along. Congratulations on your journey and I wish you a blessed New Year 🥳

[@andrewbarker2726]

Wow. I'm so pleased to have stumbled across this post. Although I have suffered serious anxiety in the last few years, your story has humbled me. What a story you tell. You are obviously a very caring and determined person. Keep the good work up. Andrew 😊

[@gloriasihlis4932]

I really enjoyed hearing your story. My own mother had schizophrenia and my brother as an adult. It wasn't always easy growing up but we had wonderful times also. I would never change it in the world. My mom was a very loving mother and I was very close to her. She passed away in Jan. 2015 at the age of 88. My brother is doing OK but could be doing better. He doesn't have much family support except for me, my husband and daughter. His wife left him many years ago. You are blessed to have your husband supporting you and family support is very important. I think my brother could have done better if his wife and children would have stayed with him. God bless you and your family. Concentrate on being the best loving wife and mother as possible and you will do OK.

[@rycoreco633]

I came here right after watching the video made in Dec 2018 and didn't realize it was the same person and was thinking about how they have got weirdly similar life experiences until she started talking about the police rushing her to the hospital. So happy and proud to see her journey

[@73thebutterfly]

Thank you for sharing your experiences. This is wonderful and will help others to know they are not alone. It is inspirational. Wishing you all the best. Xx

[@KarenCharlton-p2s]

Thank you for creating this content Lauren. My 17yo son has been diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder this year and it has been incredibly difficult to find quality stories of lived experience to help him learn how to best manage his condition as it is so rare. Honestly, we cannot thank you enough.

[@jilla-dr9hu]

I have bipolar and have trauma and your channel has helped me so much not feel alone. I been following you for a while. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@alexandermatthewsmusic]

I have Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective depending on what the doctor writes on my papers... I think maybe having or finding some kind of "purpose" in life to drive you is a big key.... having kids would be the next level in "Purpose" I would think well done you... I remember being totally psychotic.... scared... treating my body like a trash can and for me too at times thinking back things got a little dangerous... it wasn't long ago I also thought... "I'm feeling good maybe I can lower my meds now" I asked the doctor and the answer was "No not a good Idea" although if I wanted too they gave me options... these days I take my meds pretty religiously... I'm like one of those kids that got "scared straight" ... the anxiety I have still terrifies me and I get psychotic from time to time but if I'm not going back there if I can help it... the other day a neighboring demolishon business guy asked me what I did and I said I work part time which I do... He said I was "fucking lazy that's why this country is fucked"... sometimes maybe the whole Schizo thing is a lesson on how to deal better with negativity... sometimes it's just nice that asshole was standing right there in front of me and I heard him loud and clear... he was pathetic... he would cry like a baby twice if he had what I do... Once because hes terrified and twice because he too could no longer go to work and sell his rubbish... anyway what a rant.. I only did it because sometimes things can help others although I'm pretty much a one off by by xx

[@alice_rabbit8345]

I can’t imagine calling someone lazy for working part time.

[@theroaringryan1470]

Sorry that an asshole called you "lazy" for working part time. That takes a lot of work and effort to even manage a part time job, plus with your disorder that I also have you deserve all the support :)

[@elizmal533]

Definitely sounds like that guy has bigger issues than he knows!! too bad he’s not getting the help and support you are!! Take it one day at a time!! We support YOU!!❤❤

[@memyselfmartini2328]

Thank you for sharing... my aunt struggles with this illness and I never really knew what things were like for her... But your story helped to put some things into perspective so thank you. Really happy for you and your family, you created a beautiful bond and dynamic, and I wish you good health, more ups and beautiful moments and memories ❤

[@naomibennett2000]

I’m so amazed by your story. I’ve just recently experienced hypomania due to stress in my life and hearing your story has given me hope for the future. I’m going to keep taking my medications because I know how important they are in preventing relapses.

[@chaunceyrash5067]

Good for you, never giving up is such a strength. I had an uncle who passed last year who had schizophrenia. When lucid and on his medication he was such an interesting, brilliant and charming man, when not I could see his struggle. You are a success story and I think accepting your diagnosis will be very helpful to anyone struggling with this. Well done.

[@kintee3227]

How I wish my son and myself can see your video much much much earlier. My son was diagnosed with Schizo at 29 years old. He killed himself at 31 years old ( in 2017 ) as his doctor refused to admit him into the hospital when he became so ill. It has been 6 years since he passed on. I still Miss him so much. 😭😭😭

[@cynthiawiggins8349]

You are the strongest woman around and the love you have for others is beautiful. So open and honest and willing to help others. I have bipolar disorder with psychotic features but have a wonderful life. My son also has it - he is 32 years old.

[@BridgetChapinPatterson]

You are amazing! Thank you so much for sharing your story. My sister has schizophrenia and she's really struggling right now. Your video helps me to understand her illness better, and in turn helps me to support her more. Again, thank you! 🩷

[@jiayisong5909]

I LOVE how your voice softens when you start talking about Theodore ❤ Thank you for sharing this!! I'm a med student currently training in psychiatry and this has given me so much inspiration and motivation. I wish you all the best.