Loneliness, isolation and being transgender

One month on hormone treament, feeling lonely as family tries to cope, the malign influence of radical feminists.

[@jimjones7912]

Thanks! I'm 80, just beginning HRT, for which I'm excited and hoping to trounce Disphoria! Good luck to you, I'm honored to follow in your foot steps!❤

[@leanneb9529]

You seem like a very sweet person. Best of luck on your journey💖

[@Carrotline7_7]

Hi Zoe, I'm currently 19 year old and going to be 20 soon in 3 months. I'm a MtF transgender and had that feeling since I was 15 but I couldn't tell this to anyone since I have transphobic parents and had transphobic friends in the past but I quit contacts with those friends a long time ago. Before I turned 15 I was pretty much a toxic kid with bigoted views in life and also had the biggest ego possible. I always tried to be better, always tried to be on top of anyone in anything I enjoyed the most but with a toxic behavior and hated anyone that tried to be near as good as me. Not only that I was pretty transphobic and homophobic as well back then because of bad influence from my old "friends" and parents. I did a huge 180 when I turned 15 and realized from my new friends and from myself that spreading hatred only gives out more hate and suffering which leads to people leaving me. I hated that feeling of being left alone, I always did and that's why I always looked out for making friends so I don't feel alone. I also came to the realization that hating on people because they are "different" is straight up stupid. They are not different at all...They are like us, they are human. So I will respect anyone equally, doesn't matter what skin color they have or what their beliefs are. I was hiding myself from my friends and didn't tell them anything about my sexuality and who I really am but I had to tell them last year in winter and it came out as positive which made me happy. It made me realize that I chose the right friends in my life and I'm so happy to have them. I wish I could tell my parents about this but I can't right now but the time will eventually come one day. So I was laying there thinking about the future and had to look up videos and found yours and you are like a role model to me! Keep doing what you are doing! You got this Zoe :) Oh and I'm so sorry to everyone here because thats a very long text about how I feel but honestly it did me good typing all that out, I feel relieved. I will eventually come back to this comment in 10 years and see how things have changed for me :)

[@susansummers2149]

I'm in a similar boat ..... slightly younger but yet to start my transition as too many home complications. Thanks for sharing you with us. I hope you are well and wish you all the best. xxx

[@user-hc2bd7tt4t]

Hi Zoe! I'm from Argentina :) I'm FTM. I'd been quite depressed these past years because of a rad feminist and other episode. Most of them are quite young and they don't realize their ways could bring more hate and sectarism. I think sometimes they forget empathy just like everyone else. That's why I usually read about transgender people in history and all the hate they've been through. I also go to psicologist of course xD as I decided to walk alone for a while. Besides, taking hormones has been a whole life journey for me. They weren't able when I was a kid, as I grew up in small towns. I hope you are feeling better now-a-days. I can see this video has a year. Also I apologize for my tough and messy spelling. I'm still learning^^ I send you lots of love and best wishes. We are a lot of people in this journey all over the world :D Recently I read a comment here on youtube: 'Don't be a gender bias, hate every one equally' xD Regards

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

9 9 Hola Where are you living now? In Argentina or have you moved? I am well and my transition continues to progress. But from time to time I feel lonely for those close to me cannot understand what is going on with me. That is for good reason. Yes, being around empathetic people is very important now. More than ever. Mis felicitaciones y un gran abrazo. Zoë

[@user-hc2bd7tt4t]

@@zoegenevieveperry8663 Oh, thank you very much for answering :D I'm living in Buenos Aires these days. But I hope someday I move to another city or country. We'll see. I'm really glad to hear that you are doing well. I have my days too and it's still not easy but your videos help a lot. Lots of love and best wishes! Andrés:)

[@darrob721]

Thank you so much Zoe.🥰

[@marinaloulli3452]

I actually typed in trans loneliness and up you came.Getting on 5 years post op here, and I have found a certain withdrawal within myself from active social interaction, to a degree anyway.Sometimes I’m pretty lonesome, and ageing it seems, now I’m in my 60’s, which hasn’t helped my courage.

[@davidschrader3061]

It that a beautiful tattoo on your chest or a beautiful slip of some sort? Love your videos. So inspiring.

[@rubensoto6447]

I'm so happy to here your story. I started HRT at 59 yrs. You give my future hope!

[@norahjaneeast5450]

On the journey too only 54 less then a month until 55 Going to be 18 months on female hormones Looking forward to watching more of your videos So lucky to be in Portland Oregon

[@norahjaneeast5450]

Hulu missed up anyway looking forward to seeing more of your videos

[@micktierney2779]

Hi i am transwoman in ireland only o hormons a year i think we are same near enough i was born 26 july 1964 .

[@hannahmich7342]

I offer what little support I can for you. I too am both trans and intersex. This is who we are and I hope the world accepts us but if they don’t that is their issue.

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

Hannah mich Thank you Hannah

[@hannahmich7342]

Zoë Genevieve Perry No my dear thank you for being who you are. It is very comforting for me to know there are others like us going about with their lives.

[@Andrewslife2]

Hi Zoe, Jennifer here, I hope your week has been good, I'm a mature Trans Woman like your self. I am here for your support when you need it, hope things ge a little better. 💜💋

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

Jennifer'slife2 such a lovely thing to say.

[@daisyb5646]

Hi Zoe. I really admire you for taking the plunge to live your life in accordance to your true self and identify. You are a real inspiration, and help to give me strength. I am a middle-aged male, who too feels female, very strongly feels female infact, and has done for years. I liked your first video analogy, where you likened the actual realisation of who you really were to a dam that had finally burst open. I am there too, but am still living as a man, and am keeping my feelings private. I am still reflecting, soul searching, researching and considering how and when to take things forward. Incidentally, I hope you manage to attend some Tranmere matches as your passion is your passion, and you definitely deserve to enjoy it again ☺️

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

David B thank you David. I wish you every good fortune. And I have returned to watching my team. There is a great LGBT group at the club called Rover and Out!

[@zeezeeparker7961]

Zoe, this world is tough to survive sometimes. Hate is around us everywhere but we all only get one shot at life. Even Jesus had haters so what chance do we have ? I love that u r being true to yourself and becoming an inspiration to many who have to walk a similar path. I think u r a beautiful person, know that please. In each anxiety situation just remember this too shall pass. How shallow can family members be? I think u have dogs who even love you unconditionally .....funny how they know better ❤

[@alannakennedy7526]

My new name is Alannah, it has been chosen to make it easier for my wife. I am also from the UK , Edinburgh, but have lived in USA for the last 5 years. I look forward to your next episode of ‘life take 2’

[@alannakennedy7526]

Hi Zoe. I am 53 and been hormones for 4 months now. Your first video always brings me to tears when you talk about the dam in your head, I had a cell built in my head, that is where I kept ‘her’. I keep checking to see if you have any more, as they resonate so much with me. Do you intend to upload more? I love the way I have gone from really secretive to ,I will tell you anything you want to know, it’s such a relief. How sore is electrolysis for you? I have areas marked out of ten for pain with a 10 being top lip, just under the nose. Do you use lidocaine to help or are you tougher than me.

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

Hi I do plan to upload more. One is imminent and will be about travelling across Queerspace. My reaction to electrolysis is the same as your. The top lip really hurts. I didn't like the upper cheeks but most of that is gone now. Easiest for me is the chin. And yes I use Lidiocaine! What first name do you use now?

[@alannakennedy7526]

Zoë Genevieve Perry you mentioned you are married, is your wife supportive?

[@cracatusa]

Hey! How your changes going? Let me tell you about my story, I've started my transition at 36 years old and I'm 9 months on hormones, the changes go slower than ppl younger, so be patient! And good luck Whit your journey!

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

San Cep I am sure you are right but nearly five months on the changes are happening. My breasts are growing and my skin is softer and my beard is easier for the person doing my electrolysis. Emotionally I feel changes too. So I am happy.

[@shortwavelisteningforbegin418]

San Cep what I find amazing when looking on KZbin is how many of us there are out there.im on hormones and injections a rollercoaster of a ride.Hang on in there stick with it and be your true self.Regards Karen m.

[@46StephC]

Hi Zoe, I am Stephanie! I have been post op almost 20 years. The loneliness never goes away. The holidays are the toughest, after years of spending it with family, we become seperated then go through holidays alone..

[@maddiecrochet]

i'm happy for you and i wish you luck along your journey

[@TheCoomar007]

U r an inspiration for me, thanks

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

It makes me happy to think I might have offered encouragement and support to anyone.

[@TheCoomar007]

@@zoegenevieveperry8663 I haven't started my transition for various reasons. It's not easy but I know I must do it. Watching ur video really gives me motivation. I am 40yrs from Malaysia. Great country but not for transgenders. Wish I can be ur friend

[@corribee5.]

Hi Zoe How's it going and hopefully everything is very positive, take care always.

[@braxton1763]

Hi zoe, my names Braxton and I’m a 20 year old mtf transgender woman, I have been dealing with this alone sense I was 17. This has been extremely difficult, especially when so many people are against us. Thank you for this video, makes me feel a little less alone❤️

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

Thank you so much for this lovely feedback.

[@edwardburlew7375]

what is up now? its been months

[@SteffBrockley]

You’re sweet. I hope the football game went well for you.

[@kendrahwhyte9816]

❤❤❤

[@slickandslaycious6579]

You’d think that the working class and rural people would realize that bigotry (or any type) is opposed to their wellbeing and families

[@slickandslaycious6579]

And actually against the religious views on how to treat people generally (and “eunuchs” particularly)

[@sallymoore902]

Do you still read these back? Loneliness, not something I relate to really. Not anymore, I changed a long time ago. I prefer my own company. I do know of those articles to which you refer. Personally I have never trusted the media. I known them to lie since I were a small child.

[@sallymoore902]

It's sad you won't get to see your Rovers for now but I'm sure they'll return soon. I used to be a fan of football but racist thugs and idiots put me off going, and the cost! It's nearly 30 quid at Turf Moor and more at other grounds like Fulham, Arsenal and Chelsea. The whole money thing really puts me off.

[@zoegenevieveperry8663]

It is now quite a while since I recorded this video. Thanks to an LGBT group at Tranmere Rovers, I went to my first away match on my own, quite a long time ago now. They are called Rover and Out. I love them.

[@eliw2792]

@@zoegenevieveperry8663 Hi Zoe, how are you doing currently?

[@user-jb7uz4hs2i]

I vaguely remember all this nearly ten years ago and look back at how utterly niave I was. The hardest thing about taking this step is its irreversable and so lonely. My family rejected me, I have no freinds as nobody wants to know me. This has been exacerbated by the increase of these stupid trans activist groups who put trans people in a bad light resulting in a deeper social isolation. I have found this has all been for nothing. If you are thinking of going down this road..DON'T. I never regreted trying to change my gender, I just feel regret that I realised too late social death is an inevitability for most of us who do this.

[@duchessgrotesque]

And? Do you want to go out and socialize wearing the mask? Never getting to express who you are? If we are doomed either way I'd rather be doomed out and on HRT than doomed in the closet.

[@judgejudy3035]

Strange monologue