Jealousy In Our Relationships | Chosen Family Podcast

While Baby is with the sitter, it’s date night for Mom and Dad! Ashley and Alayna discuss jealousy and their different experiences in the closet, and Alayna incites a search into a photo that acted as her gay awakening.
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[@myriam1791]

im OBSESSED with ashley breaking the 4th wall and looking at the camera whenever alayna says something unhinged 😭 it's giving jim from the office

[@ashgavs]

been waiting 2 years for this.

[@blixacash5458]

​@@ashgavsAnd that is why I actually watch the podcast!

[@kaiya33123]

SAME!!❤😄

[@hi-yo1kq]

Since I can’t tell anyone this I’ll leave it here: I’m not really out, it’s complicated. But I went to pride last weekend, alone. I was terrified. The whole way walking there my legs were trying to run away. And when I got there I pretended that I had nothing to do with it, stayed for 5min then walked away. Came back watched the parade for 5min while pretending to be on the phone with someone, walked away. Then I came back and joined the crowd. After a while I was enjoying it and even smiling. So yeah I’m proud of myself. Baby steps :)

[@manonht7899]

So proud of you 🎉 baby steps are the hardest !

[@Kateee2005]

Congratssss🎉🎉🎉

[@Frutebrute69]

I’m glad you’re able to work your way up to it at your own speed! I wish you the absolute best

[@mialindvall]

❤

[@Frutebrute69]

@@PeachNEPTR I think you may have commented on the wrong post?

[@lizan1993]

Watching a podcast is like being that introverted person in the friend group that never speaks but is just happy to be there

[@zuri234]

so true

[@MJBowie]

Exactly! And then IRL I’ll listen to a group chat and enjoy it fully until suddenly someone in the group says something directly to me and then I’m so thrown off because why is this “podcast” (irl people in a group with me lol) talking to me?

[@spiderlinz]

i’m so invested in the Kristen Stewart photo saga

[@happyashley4085]

Me too!!!

[@prettybird29]

Same lol

[@helenogrady4544]

Me too! Ashley- we should move on.. Me- Noooo we need to find the photo!

[@girl_fromthenorthcountry]

Is the one shown in the thumbnail the correct one??

[@alexlail7481]

When she mentioned her teen collage the song 'centerfold' popped into my mind and played the whole time they're searching for her pictures 😂

[@hi-yo1kq]

As soon as Mak leaves they start talking about their childhood 😂

[@MischaKavin]

Mak is baby, it's not really reminiscing for her

[@michellerbn]

Me: sitting and watching this podcast while Ashely says its so fucking boring 🧍🏻‍♀️ 😂😂

[@ASMRSlow]

I sit down or lay down to watch it every week

[@dawn1779]

😂😂

[@wan7612]

I feel called out for actually sitting down and watching this podcast. I'm the type to like watching as people interact and body languages. But as always loving the Chosen Family podcast, which is probably the only one that I've been keeping up to date with

[@kaiya33123]

SAME here!!!🥰🤗

[@monesquely]

I prefer watching podcasts over listening to them for similar reasons! I can sit still for a long time and not get bored of the content is good.

[@homoromoacecase97]

Exactly. Its almost a way of learning social interaction through modelling.

[@marinabyme2763]

I watch it like this too(⁠ ⁠´⁠◡⁠‿⁠ゝ⁠◡⁠`⁠)

[@mae7158]

Cosmo girl 2007 with Kristin Stewart should be what your looking for 👍

[@fluterem8866]

This has GOT to be it!!

[@oliviagiblin4178]

we need confirmation

[@GuitarGoals]

Alayna lore always goes wild

[@louis0320]

the joy when alayna said night snack 😭

[@nena7316]

her faceeee it was so adorable hahahah

[@girl_fromthenorthcountry]

Night snacks are a slippery slope

[@deaththreatsandrainbows4337]

Ashley spending 100 dollars on that magazine lmaooo

[@JuMixBoox]

I don't know why it hit me so hard that the AIDS crisis was happening during Ashley's childhood. Our history really is so close.

[@carolynandersonshepherd3544]

I've never identified with Ashley more in immediately looking for the photo

[@rtd1791]

I looked too. No joy. There are great photos of Stewart in barely there black shorts. Much more recent. I think part of the promotion of Love Lies Bleeding.

[@Raddiebaddie]

Alaynas mom impersonation 😂 i just love your podcast✨

[@benjulesrun9057]

"I would have been upset either way" is the best

[@kyrasaturn]

something about alayna is just so cute this episode

[@ericadecopas]

It's so crazy because "that ONE Kristen Stewart picture" was actually my bi awakening, but in a totally different generation, age, and vibe. Mine was a picture of when she got her hair cut, a pic playing some sport at the beach. I died.

[@ttarotkidd]

This is the only podcast I sit down and watch like a tv show haha. I just love y'all

[@myflyingkidney]

I watch this podcast while eat mostly, but also I like watching podcasts as well. I like slow living, I do things slowly, so I don't think there is anything inherently bad about dedicating one hour to doing just one thing.

[@LilJo94]

I suppose jealousy can feel good in a secure relationship because the good in it is the sudden rise of a feeling that reminds you that you care very deeply about this person.

[@nena7316]

my routine has now just become watching/listening to the new ep every week right before i have therapy (cause its an hour after the eps released lol) and honestly i like it cause now i have something to not make me as anxious right before therapy lol

[@RDawn]

Well dang, it's released at 2am for me (tx gang!). When is it released for you?

[@nena7316]

@@RDawn 9 am hahah I live in europe

[@kaiya33123]

ME TOO!!! It really helps me not feel as anxious🥹🩷

[@twilighttess211]

Lol No way!! I do that sometimes😂😭(cause there is a 45min drive to my therapist’s office)

[@nena7316]

@@twilighttess211 haha I have to take the subway and bus and then when I’m listening to it I’m just laughing out loud but then people look at me weird hahaha

[@floplyssa]

A simple joy in my life is sitting down and settling in to watch a podcast lol 😭 certain ones are for multitasking but other ones are def for watching!

[@helen2710]

In Finland, people eat dinner really early and they also have a "night snack" which is directly translated as night bite (iltapala) but it's just kind of the opposite of a breakfast.

[@SandraLugn-nc1rk]

We call it "kvällsfika" in Sweden and offen combined whiff late lunch ore a a urly dinner, kväll = evening, fika = swedish fika but it slavery like porige ore sandwich.

[@coolsenjoyer]

I'm one of those dorks that likes to translate Finnish phrases to English literally so I always think of iltapala as evening piece

[@RobinReflects]

For the record of how I watch this podcast. I'm 36, I have a PC with two screens, and I have this playing on one screen while I'm building a mushroom house in the video game Grounded. Love the podcast. You all keep making them and I'll keep showing up.

[@Geo-gc5qs]

I'm 31, I have a PC with two screens, and I have this playing on my secondary monitor while I'm playing a browser game on my main monitor.

[@devvv1877]

For The Kristen Stewart photo .... Try 2007 Cosmo Girl photo shoot

[@MichelleK.B.]

$29.99 on eBay and has a dress with a pattern I could see being called lacy or doily-like.

[@kbwolfe9491]

Night snack is Alayna's version of second breakfast

[@esthermaples4456]

What did Ash say that got bleeped at the end 🤣😂🤣 This is why you watch a podcast! 😆 I usually have it on as I'm getting ready in the morning or eating lunch but the facial reactions, antics & occasional pics add so much 😁

[@twilighttess211]

I wish I could read lips😂😂😭

[@jul.m.2692]

Listening to a podcast whilst doing laundry is not loneliness, it's an ADHD focus tool. Brain no thinky is essential to us indeed. It's also similar to body doubling.

[@Fishful_Thinking4]

Alayna, same to the experience of “practicing kissing a close girl friend but not ever thinking of it as dating or possibly a sign of being gay.” Being gay wasn’t even something I knew existed for my entire childhood through early adulthood - oh the epiphanies that followed 😅

[@noa_is_unavailable]

love the kristen stewart photo sidebar - not a white dress, but could be one of the many ‘08 vanity fair twilight photos 😂

[@spiderlinz]

every time I start an episode I intend to do or start something else but every time I end up just watching it with full attention. same thing with really good music where I get super distracted by it and just end up sucked in

[@cael_aj]

Almost all of the podcasts I "listen to," I watch on my TV (or my phone on lunch breaks at work) and do nothing else 😅

[@RobinR-db2wb]

"Oh yea Mak isn't here." .. after they've gone off on two tangents for the past hour. .. :D

[@rosielb]

I swear, Alayna talking about her teenage years is beat for beat my story. We were showing each other how to climax so we were better at telling men what we liked??? Fully also had a girlfriend that I thought was just my bestie. Got SUPER jealous when she made out with a boy and a school dance we planned together and ran out of the dance crying about it. People called me lesbian a lot and I was LEGIT confused AF by the suggestion bc it seemed so normal. In college I eventually started offering climax lessons in the bathrooms of frat parties. STILL DIDN"T KNOW! It took me until age 32 to question all of this.

[@maramapipepe1313]

Can confirm. Am doing laundry. Brain no thinky. But sometimes.... I look over so I can see facial expressions and get that *extra* parasocial seasoning 😋

[@Arrowgrab]

"But that's why we have night snack" Did we just reach peak Cute Alayna?

[@KassidyKarlsson]

you're almost at 100k subs! Yay congrats🥳

[@cael_aj]

I relate to Alayna's experience kissing girls growing up so much. I "practiced" kissing with my best girl friend as early as 3rd or 4th grade. She said that's just what girls do. In middle school my friends and I would play spin the bottle at all girls sleepovers, or play truth or dare and dare each other to kiss each other. By high school I was saying, unironically, "I've kissed enough girls to know I'm straight." 😅 Definitely not straight, but to be fair, I never felt anything when kissing my friends because it felt more like a game than like two people who could be attracted to each other.

[@mayapingel2012]

35:08 no because we are still starved of any good gay content so ashley please don't judge me if i sit through an hour long video about trying to find a specific picture of kristen stewart from 2008

[@rosejermusyk]

Love that I’m not alone in googling alongside Ashley for these Kristen Stewart pictures. I think it’ll be found among the search results for: Kristen Stewart cosmo girl 2009 photoshoot. All results are black and white. She’s wearing all-white outfits throughout. So it could be one of them. Could be none of them. Looking forward to this topic resurfacing in a future episode with the final result. Whatever it is.

[@faeriesandrainbows]

Could also be the 2007 photoshoot for Cosmo Girl. 😊

[@moony788]

I always watch podcasts… I draw during or smth, or I put it in the background while I do other stuff but I like glancing back at it every once in a while, or when there‘s something I wanna see like expressions or stuff you‘re showing I can look. And then sometimes, like rn, I watch it when I‘m too mentally and physically tired to do anything else so I can just watch a comforting podcast (and make the brain go quiet lol)

[@kyrasaturn]

ALAYNA i need to know if it’s the “2007 kristen stewart cosmo girl photos” that pop up on google!!!!!!!!! it’s black and white and a doily type dress

[@kyrasaturn]

IM BEING SO SERIOUS I NEED TO KNOW PLS SEE THIS ALAYNA

[@miraaa19]

that's what I was going to say!

[@miraaa19]

'Kristen Stewart Cosmo Girl 2007 photoshoot by Matt Jones'

[@hi-yo1kq]

I think it might be it

[@bruadarach9758]

The dress definitely looks right! So interesting if her memory turned it from black and white to sepia

[@morganne2006]

I watch podcasts at my desk at work all day. Was an audio only listener for years, switched to video when possible and it adds a lot.

[@LilJo94]

also, i love the vodcast format coz you keep me company while I do my needlecrafts 😅

[@mommyissuesmusic]

This is where our Patreon money goes!!! LOLOLOL

[@SushiRoller91]

That’s crazy…Alayna being an Alpha was NOT on my bingo card this year, what a wonderful development

[@heuredux]

hahahahaha during the start of the episode, i thought they're looking for Mak as Kristen Stewart hahahahaa but they are literally looking for a Kirsten picture hahahahaha laughing so hard hahahha

[@matthijsclaessen8152]

Mood. (And to be fair, there’s a resemblance!)

[@RowanWolf22]

Coming out was difficult tbh because everyone around me was like “FRIENDS WHO ARE GIRLS CAN HOLD HANDS! They can kiss! They can sleep in the same bed naked! They can have practice sex with eachother! It’s all platonic!” And as a little baby gay I could not for the life of me deal with that. I would never sit on people’s laps or hold their hands or anything 😅 because to me these things were romantic not platonic and I still to this day find it weird when people try to platonic-ize romantic things? I’m demisexual and a lesbian (I did identify as bi for a VERY long time due to comphet and fear that I’d end up alone) but for me it just felt wrong and weird. If we turned it into “girl and guy friends can hold hands, kiss, sleep in the same bed naked and have practice sex platonically” people would slap romantic on that straight away without a blink of an eye (not talking about friends with benefits or QPR) - so it’s weird that they don’t even consider the fact y’know. Girls can be gay 🥲 that girls belong to LGBTQ+ too. School is so damn rough for the queers. I’ve been out of it for 10 years now and just… feels weird man. I still can’t comprehend how people can make romantic things into platonic. I think it’s part of why it’s so hard to find queer females too, when the straight women are all tongue in mouth and touchy but “hey it’s platonic girls can do this without being romantic!”

[@blixacash5458]

Yours' is the only Podcast I watch on my TV. It's become a tradition to watch it relaxing after a late 2k swim and before a too late bed time. Although I fully agree with Ashley on everything she said about podcasts. I frequently second screen on my phone or press pause. But it's just more fun to see you priceless reactions in amazingly edited conversations, plus the occasional cat butthole. 😂

[@sarahweber6212]

I’m really invested in this magazine photo search. This kind of thing happens to me so much.

[@carligirrl]

Alayna, I ALSO had photos of women on my wall, too. I literally had an entire wall dedicated to Britney Spears and another wall was covered in photos of models I cut out from a Delia's catalog. And I did not comprehend, at all, at the time, just how gay that was. All of my friends had Nsync and the Backstreet Boys on their wall,s but not me. Britney Spears.

[@fluterem8866]

OMG the Delia's catalogue! That brought me back. There was this one model with long dark hair who I thought was SO PRETTY and I would go through the whole magazine just to see all the pics of her. I had no idea at the time that I was gay 😂

[@DDD2323-z5i]

I do watch every podcast I "listen to." As a matter of fact I'm eating dinner now and watching and I truly feel like I'm around the dinner table with my chosen family.

[@MadelineTaylor295]

My favorite pod posted in time for my first hour of work on my bday ? A delight 🥰❤️

[@hi-yo1kq]

Happy birthday!

[@MadelineTaylor295]

@@hi-yo1kq thank you 🫶

[@hi-yo1kq]

I usually watch the pod while doing something else. This is the only pod I can just listen. Normally I tune it out too easily. It’ll be 20min before I realize oh hey I was listening to something. And also I don’t like not being able to see facial expressions. It’s also why I hate phone calls and texting. But when I’ve had a bad day and just wanna disappear I’ll lay down and watch the whole thing. Makes me feel so much better❤

[@livarno6287]

To answer the question, I had KZbin playing in the background while folding laundry/cleaning and occasionally looked at the Kristen Stewart photos 😂😂

[@leahsims641]

Gotta love listening to this pod at midnight!

[@187942]

Thank you for posting so early! I have such a hard time getting up for work at 6am but this helps more than you know

[@DanielleDrewa]

I have bi polar and suffer from loneliness no I’m such a story teller just like your door man! But hopefully I’ve gotten good enough to not make people feel like they can’t walk away. I love when someone will tentatively listen to my stories.

[@Taurus_Butterfly]

I'm sorry to hear you have loneliness 🤗 I do to at times.

[@anapalacinka]

I had to pause and google the Kristen Stewart picture myself 😂

[@sanjilone7278]

to Ashley wondering who watches podcasts, I watch this one while I exercise at home, so there's one anecdote

[@retired4mdance]

This episode title had me RUNNING to watch!!!! Kstew for life

[@Elarg29]

Hellloooooo happy witching hour from Massachusetts

[@Taurus_Butterfly]

Hi fellow MA resident 🙂

[@errormoon1010]

Yes people watch these xD , I exclusively listen to this podcast and WHGS on yt 😭😂 Half the time I watch it without doing anything else and the other half I play minecraft with my phone propped up beside me so I can watch and play. Lots of memorys of these episodes come up when playing those worlds again later on. I remember the topics when passing the builds I was working on during the episode and what those conversations meant to me if they resonated. I even ended up making a world soley to listen/watch these podcasts too and only play on while watching WHGS and Choosen Family :') YT Gang 🤟🔥 (Also, loved the episode yall talked abt minecraft 😂💛)

[@that_suspicious]

Actually right now I'm sitting and watching the podcast on tiny screen of my phone (I have no access to another device to be distracted with) and it's happening on public with the sh*tty wifi just to hear from Ashley how weird I am 😀👍

[@shateisadavis8944]

I'm on hour 5 in the ER waiting room, so YES!! I'M WATCHING A PODCAST! But I normally listen while I'm at work! Love you guys! Miss you Mak 😊

[@celinel9750]

Kristine Stewart was in ''Panic Room'' with Jodie Foster way befor Twilit. She was a kid star.

[@jasminebraid5891]

The eneregy this week is WILD and I'm so hear for it

[@sleepwalkinmoon]

i must say i literally watch this pod whilst doing nothing else... but its because i find it to be a calming thing to focus on before bed! not too stimulating so its great

[@SpaceyD]

Mak losing her mind with them having a Twilight conversation without her!

[@Max.in.the.daily.]

Who else loves there pod but never clicked so fast when they read Kristin stewart😂😂❤❤

[@linwill1720]

I usually don't watch podcasts, but I'm recovering from a TBI while living alone and very lonely so here I am 🤕😅

[@tambob82]

I watch Podcasts whilst cooking and hanging with my cats. Cancelled Netflix. I like watching people I like. Y'all, Pants, WHGS, The Handsome Pod, Bein' Ian with Jordan and RIP Jordan are my TV now. The adventures are the best! The recent Bouldering ep is 10/10

[@yeahokay...actuallynah]

some people had boys on their walls, some people had girls...i had scooby doo

[@rtd1791]

I only learned late last year that Scooby-Doo was a Great Dane. Dang, did I feel stupid. My kid asked what type of dog I thought he was and I was like, “A Scooby?”

[@smilingkelly5251]

I have a three monitor computer set up, and "watch" on one screen while I'm working or gaming!

[@Zweigenhaft9]

Just add a little granola to the fruit soup and I'm so down lmao

[@lisajopegg1685]

Apple stopped supporting my iPod a couple of years ago, so can't listen to podcasts while driving anymore. I watch podcasts on KZbin, toggling back and forth between watching (because the facial expressions and physical reactions are fun) and having it in the background. Plus, all three of these ladies are nice to look at. :)

[@summer5198]

Hey!! Happy 3:13am from western Ny!!!!!

[@louis0320]

as someone who eats while watching this podcast, i now feel a bit better about my attention span

[@rosebudscott]

I don’t know Ashley or her Mom but I am a mother and can tell you that Fruit Soup was born out of a moment of desperation when they hadn’t been to the store and all they had was a screaming kid, milk and fruit cocktail. God bless fruit soup moms.

[@ashgavs]

ahahahahahhaa i love this

[@akkavoskuil9720]

You've officially pised off all podcast watchers xD I watch all my podcasts! The ADHD doesnt let me pay attention otherwise and i will miss 90% of it if I dont watch it. Thank god for the podcasts that put their stuff up on youtube (with SUBTITLES!)

[@blakemtg47]

No mac 😢

[@kapowjam3462]

"I sent a 4th one just in case" 😂

[@lilyrosebungle]

I watch/listen when doing the dishes or when I’m drawing. It’s nice to have something on in the background. ☺️

[@PracticallyDivineSage]

I watch the podcasts. 😂 It feels like watching a talk show. I will admit sometimes I put you guys on while I do something but other times I’m having a meal and got you up on the tv or laptop 😂

[@Stephiedanger]

I love to watch the pod! I watch a bunch of pods on youtube while I play video games to chill out in the evenings! i ALSO Listen to a ton of pods while I work during the day on the reg podcast app on the phone. wow. no wonder I am always tired. someone is chatting in my ear every minute of 16 hours of the day...... LOL

[@shadufr]

Honestly I prefer listening to podcasts whenever I can. Obviously if I can’t because I’m driving or something then it’s no big deal, but I just really like getting to see facial expressions and reactions. Usually I watch the podcast when I’m eating or something like that, as if it’s any other youtube video

[@biubwauncut]

I guess I am still not broken because I can’t listen to podcasts. Body language is important for my brain to immerse itself in a conversation so visual podcasts are my fave. I don’t have many, but those that I love, I love.

[@jenl6980]

Same!!!

[@mizzmatrix]

I listen to this and Made it Out, because I can watch them have a conversation.

[@RiverDoesTheThing]

Oh god they're still doing Better Help

[@PeachNEPTR]

Pay more on the patreon and they won’t need ad revenue

[@PawsitivelyQuestionable]

​@PeachNEPTR yeah, let's give them more money to incentivize them to stop promoting a problematic company to impressionable viewers. That's a solution.

[@PeachNEPTR]

@@PawsitivelyQuestionable that’s a really weird take on economic incentive. So you think it’s better if the only people supporting them are the companies you hate? We can make those advertisers irrelevant by supporting the creators for making the content we enjoy. Take an active role in making capitalist advertisers irrelevant. Don’t rely on other people to be the community for you.

[@abbyapplegate1498]

love listening to this at midnighttt, love these ppl

[@emakesmusic]

TY for uploading right before I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason ❤

[@heyemulee49]

please update us on the Kristen Stewart pic when yall *hopefully* find it!

[@zazajf]

Ashley speaks to Google so kindly

[@leolovsen1448]

Okay Ashley hear me out with the poly thing!: You can be poly and not act on it, just as you can be bisexual (or insert literally anything else) and not act on it. I was in a poly relationship some years ago and I'm still open to it, but my situation is different now and it's a lot of work, just as you say. And about the emotional part: one partner have the ability to give you something and another something else, just like you are able to give them different things. It's like "next level" friendship, why don't you have just one friend?

[@ashgavs]

Yeah im really not able to love two folks at once it’s just not a nice feeling for me but the bits were just meant to be bits!

[@leolovsen1448]

​@@ashgavsah okay sorry! Idk why but the bits flew over my head this time😂

[@kir32]

Look up kristen stewart 2007 cosmo!! White doily dress, although it's black and white rather than sepia

[@JuMixBoox]

I've heard from a polyamorous family that it can actually make it freer to have more adults in the household and as points of connection for the kids to be more independent and follow your dreams. But of course you have to be the type for it. And also of course it doesn't mean you are less committed to your partners, kids, or family because of it.

[@slim3330]

I'm watching your podcast on the phone while having breakfast or cleaning etc.. & for the kirsten steward part I'm happy to be able to see some of the pictures^^

[@dawn1779]

❤❤❤I Love watching u guys while gaming I LoVe hearing u guys and looking over and seeing u laugh ( polyamory is 4 people with not alot going on ) 😂😂also getting to see the pictures of Kristen Stewart was sweet !!

[@esm.co_]

If I wasn’t watching I would have never been blessed with that picture of KS so yes I watch podcasts OKAYYYYY

[@Axolautism]

Its okay Ashley I feel you on the "any wanting of love is neurosis"

[@rozi.m]

Let me tell you, fruit soup is a thing here too (there are different variations like pear+peach+apple combo or sour cherry+plum etc)☺especially popular during the summer, mainly consumed really cold