Looking Through My Cursed Old Art and Cringing

Hello, witches.
If you're reading this, then thank you so much for being here. I apologise for taking a little longer on this video then I expected to; it ended up being way longer than I expected it to be, haha. I hope you can get a kick out of my little deep dive into some of my old art from middle school.
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[@Oinguschoingus53]

I'M DYING THE SLUR NAME ☠️

[@leainaparade]

YES PLEASE READ THE COMIC! i would love to see it :))

[@somecelery4u763]

i love the “fresh hella thicc tho” lol

[@skipperdoodles3275]

Your art was better than mine when I was in middle school. And I was always kind of a precocious kid.

[@mayzeeissilly]

Dude I did the same thing I threw so much of my old art away and i would literally tear it up 😭

[@kittypuppy1495]

Idk why I wanted to say this but. *CASUALLY HOLDING A PET SKULL UWU*

[@rattersworld1016]

Honestly, this was funny because although I'm learning Japanese, I couldn't read the katakana for "Hallelujah" and I would've been grateful to you for translating it if I saw it at the time.

[@chriscrowarts4886]

your past art is great honestly you shouldnt be so hard on yourself

[@rottika]

Thank you for the compliment, I really appreciate it! ❤ I certainly tend to be a little bit harsh on myself, even to this day, though I've been trying to work on it! /pos

[@rattersworld1016]

@@rottika It made me feel kind of bad, honestly, because although my proportioning is (I think) more to my liking, even at the time your coloring was much better than I can manage now. But your art is great, and I hope you can learn to appreciate that! :) Edit: Okay, I don't think I would shade with black, I just don't know how to color yet and stick to black and white usually. I also don't have the right materials, and sometimes I think my watercolors can turn out okay, so I guess I was embellishing a little.

[@rottika]

@@rattersworld1016 Thank you so much for the compliments! I'm sorry it made you feel a bit bad, though. My apologies for that!

[@Sinc3r3ly]

I get you were a kid at the time but god the bean being Mexican 😭

[@rottika]

Yeah, I def feel a lot of regret and embarrassment for that one. 😭😭😭

[@WolfArtizan]

Honestly it makes me feel better knowing that others ended up deleting your art. Back in 2021 I had a break down, and deleted my new channel..(I had 2 channels) I've been making videos since 2017. I regret it so much because I lost so many of my animations. I acted way too soon and should've calmed down before I destroyed all the history. It was because of stress that I did, but I still regret it. I'm so thankful to have the rest of my really old art staying on my old channel! I also have my sketchbooks of when I was first drawing. It's nice to have when you feel your art isnt that good, because you can always look back and remind yourself that you improved!

[@Breeze627]

The character you tried to cover up in Japanese her name translates to death a demon I’m not even joking I speak Japanese it’s crazy

[@rottika]

NOOOOO, THE CRINGE. 💀😭

[@satohime]

suuuper late to this video but havent seen anyone comment on the japanese yet so i shall do my duty most of it is just funny google translate without proper stroke order but the funniest thing is the ward, that kanji you didnt recognise means ward as in like....shinjuku is a ward in tokyo for example 😭 honestly loving that its so google translatecore and i did the same thing as a kid first learning so godspeed

[@rottika]

IT IS SO GOOGLE TRANSLATECORE, LMAO. 😭💀

[@purupumpkin]

you: you can guess what her name is it starts with tr me: Oh no her name is tracer you: it was a slur Me: oh

[@Mafon2]

Errr..... trigger ?

[@windowcreeperbird9669]

4:40 wait there's a pronunciation discourse around Chara's name? I always thought char-uh was the correct pronunciation.

[@rottika]

YEAH. A lot of people say their name is pronounced "Care-uh" like "character" and I have also heard people say "Car-uh", which is super weird for me, who has always pronounced it "Char-uh" as well. /lh

[@kitty8845]

Tbh I pronounce it like shar-uh and I don’t know anyone else who says it like that

[@bicianimations1895]

I pronounce it as cha rah as in short for character

[@Cyanide_Jeuels]

I pronounce it as "Care-uh". Like Character.. idk. They're a character 🤷

[@Zuza.t]

I didn't expect you to listen to kikuos music too. And also yes, that song slaps. Also also i would love to see/hear you read that old comic. I wouldn't mind you rambling abt it Also also also cool vid :DD

[@rottika]

Yeah! I'm a huge Vocaloid fan, and Kikuo is one of my favourite producers! And yeah, I'll definitely think about making a video about it. 👀

[@Zuza.t]

@@rottika Well youve got me very excited for your future vids now. No pressure tho :)

[@dumfishee]

Babe wake up new Syzygy video just dropped

[@haydenberg6763]

GIRL YOUR ART IS AMAZING (I still have my first notebook w/ all my first art)

[@haydenberg6763]

Ngl, most of those pieces are about cats

[@SomeGaymerNerd]

I saw that mystery in the thumbnail /pos EDIT: FINALLY, SOMEONE WHO PRONOUNCES CHARA THE WAY IT'S SPELLED 😭 /pos

[@Daphne70]

Lmaoooo the Mexican bean drawing 😭🤣💀

[@Light_Dies_07]

25:19 i read "duth ear" how 🤧

[@lordarthur2165]

Honestly, this is some good art for a young teenager. I didn't even colour my stuff when I was 13, actually I still don't. And as a trans person, don't worry about the character name, you were a child and as children we just repeat thing we heard from adults and I remember that this anti-sjw era was very... Horrible, we all were pressured to be as shitty as possible. I am happy you eventually understood that this was wrong.

[@StoneBasilisk]

I keep all of my old sketchbooks in a box, and I've got oh.. twenty? in there right now, haha. It's fun to look back on and see how much I've improved.

[@L3NORE.RAWR.X3]

4:39 wait are there actually some ppl that DONT PRONOUNCE IT CHARA-

[@PupkinPumpkin]

25:26 I know the context. 😨

[@rokikubo]

i love danny debeeto

[@SirLadyMarie]

Your draw the undertail drawing when your 9??? And the other drawing when you were 13??? Your drawing are so improved at such a young age , my art know dose not even compare it 😭😭😭

[@cyanidejam9737]

Would you still make comics? Hmmm, Maybe you should read your old comics for a milestone Speaking of milestones, Your almost about to reach you thousand milestone, horay

[@rottika]

Maybe! I would probably have to learn a lot about panel flow and composition before I ever work on another comic. Maybe I will read 'em for a milestone. ^^

[@MAG1C_STARS]

Tbh, everytime I see your videos im shocked that you dont have like 10000000+ subscribers or something!!!

[@50ksavagegoodsavage4]

*plays "Photograph" by Nickelback* 8:32 Don't cry, you did what you've done! 👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿 MUST NO DA WAE!!!

[@AkariNootFound]

honestly, your arts are amazing as always, the undertale ones too! u got good story for ur characters as well i really love all

[@ranchustars3050]

i would like to see a reading of the old comic! mostly because it reminds me of some old comics i made but way more innocent funnies.

[@junhjhnhb]

karkat pfp

[@TheThunderRabbit]

I REMEMBER THIS VIDEO!! I had been looking for this since I first remembered your old content from when this came out, and it's so wild. XD

[@Kitthecatgod]

Bro I love hollow knight

[@AceyOC]

YOUR ART IS AMAZING, and I 101% agree about having to use a mouse it is donkey indeed(I only have a Chromebook and it sucks like hell.)

[@bearman....]

22:09 weirdocore

[@lafetonlore2937]

I click and saw the HALLOW KNIGHT art! (I don’t play Hallow Knight)

[@RosesBubblegumstudio]

Wait what happens to your old channel or were that someone elsa

[@rottika]

Must be someone else! I have not changed my channel. :]

[@BobRossCat]

You had a sleepykinq faze too?! I swear I still can't listen to Dr. Sunshine is dead without remembering that MAP

[@Zombuu]

Reminds me of me, when i was 9 (I'm 13 now and I still draw but I feel like my art improves every day 😅)

[@AceyOC]

Heh, that my friend is why I only use katakana(I don't know hiragana)

[@bicianimations1895]

Id love to see you redraw one of these

[@ScytrusScythe_]

YOUR LIKE ARE AT 999 AND (before my comment) YOUR COMMENTS WERE AT 66 0-0

[@Evan-gc]

EEEEEEEEEE HOLLOW KNIGHTTT sorry huge hollow knight fan here 😁 I love your new and old art its so amazing!

[@Folxi-en9sw]

12:45 I have a samsung galaxy too

[@piscessun]

It’s that. Hallow knight?

[@8kat]

I love the old drawing of Chara

[@Skiinett]

i feel the undertail stuff. at some point i made a furry oc that was error sans sister 💀💀

[@PupkinPumpkin]

You think the old art is bad but it's art goals to me /srs

[@mankindsalien]

its not that bad

[@soybellaa]

IM CRYING THE BALDI DRAWING

[@CATTAILxoxo]

I literally don't have any evidence of my ENORMOUS FNAF phase as a child due to the fact that literally all of my books and sketchbooks got rained on during moving. We threw them all away. Honestly, I think the most art from my childhood I have is digital, and I didn't start drawing in a digital form until like 2019? I still only have a couple of images, not FNAF related but CREEPYPASTA related, I Wasn't even in the Creepypasta fandom.. I think the most "old" art I have is from last year, the year where my art went from obvious BEGINNER level to a QUESTIONABLE, but OKAY level.

[@castordemomania]

Why is this better then my art rn

[@Cyanide_Jeuels]

I am still an edgy kid. But, I can *probably* execute it properly

[@gacha._.lover2138]

The only times I ever delete art is when I need to make space

[@pearl1838]

I have a friend called Bee and SHE WAS A FURRY 💀

[@Catz_idk]

I REMEMBER I ALSO WATCHED TWISTED DOC AS A KID💀

[@Oak_Eggar]

13:27 me trying to think and not getting anywhere

[@Oak_Eggar]

13:41 oh

[@PinoccThePiccolo]

As a trans guy, thanks for not trying to make excuses for your past transphobia and admitting that it was wrong. It makes me feel more hopeful about people becoming less transphobic in general. Also this video was very enjoyable!!! It would be very fun if you did another (also your art was really good at 13 ahdjfj).

[@beyondtherealmsofdeath]

Your old art is super cute and I love your content but bruh you cannot be canceling someone for ill advised jokes they made in a comic when they were 14 when you did the same thing😭I may be missing something but Not intending to start drama but you probably shouldn’t say things in videos that will incite comments about ship discourse. Anyone who fights about it consistently is dumb and you really don’t want your notifs to be full of Neanderthals yelling at each other for 2 weeks about what you’re allowed to draw

[@rottika]

Oh! If you're referring to my comments about TWISTED-DOCTOR (previously Sleepykinq), I was not referring to the insensitive r@pe joke he made in his comic when he was 14 (I care very little about that actually). The thing I was referring to that made me stop supporting him was that he said the n-word, hard r, two different times as an older teen an adult. Both of these times, one of my old friends (who is black) was deeply hurt and put off by his comments. Besides that, he also did a lot of sharing lewd content with minors as an older teen (16, 17) and an adult (myself included, I was in his Disc server as a kid when I was 13 or 14, and the NSFW channel was open to people 13+). There are other things, but I am not going to get into it here. TD has since made a thorough apology for his actions though, and though I no longer support him or draw/like his characters and/or ships, I don't have any intention or desire for him to be cancelled. I also do not care/police what other people draw/like, as long as their artwork is not breaking any laws. Just thought I'd clear that up! Thank you for your support, as well! ^^

[@beyondtherealmsofdeath]

@@rottika oh Jesus I had no idea he did that, that’s completely valid then, I thought it was just the joke he made I didn’t know he did that wtf? Yeah he can eat bugs. Also ofc your content is super entertaining and your drawings are really good! Definitely an underrated youtuber

[@GizmosOrgans]

z

[@bluecannibaleyes]

This stuff you drew as a kid is better than anything I’ve ever drawn.

[@jackvaljack1515]

I still hate SJWs, but making such a big deal about them online back in 2018-2019 is not something I’m particularly proud of.

[@beyondtherealmsofdeath]

Right, everyone has different definitions of what an sjw is but a true sjw would love the attention from brigading them. So why give them that

[@Nevvybobevvy]

ok but your art is literlly SO PRETTY!?!?!? LIIKE THE LINE ART IS SO SMOOTH