Life After Loss: 7 Months as a Widow | My Journey of Healing

[@arvettadelashmit9337]

I was having a time getting over being abandoned (alone with two small children) by my husband. I cried a lot; until, someone told me I was crying because I was feeling sorry for myself. My crying stopped; and, I got mad. I packed up what I could, moved back home (with the children), divorced my husband, and enrolled in college (and took both children with me to a State University). Your husband didn't abandon you. He did not leave you unskilled, with no safe housing, almost broke, with small children to feed, teach, and take care of. It will take time for you to adjust to your new life. You will adjust; because, your husband was also your teacher. It is alright for you to cry.

[@susanjenningsjones]

Please don’t be sorry getting upset. I think we are all there with you. It made me cry.

[@dianemontavon5670]

I lost my husband in 2020. He was very ill for years. I hate to say I was relieved when he passed. I knew he wasn't in pain anymore. My religious belief is that I will see him again one day. I find comfort in that. It also makes me not so afraid of dying. I understand how you feel. Everyone grieves in their own way. I cried for months while my husband was still alive, but when he passed my crying stopped. I cry now when special things come up...birthdays, Christmas etc. I am lucky that I do have my daughter who lives with me. She doesn't drive and I knew she'd be with me for as long as we both are alive. Take care of yourself.

[@brightenyourcorner951]

Sweet lady, my husband passed unexpectedly in 2018. I remember thinking am I the only widow still grieving like this after one, two, three years. I thought I would never feel any real happiness again. (I’m not talking about another relationship, just a truly happy emotion) I had three children at home and did my best and , thank God, after about four years, I was so very grateful to feel joy and happiness. Grief is the price of love they say and it is so true. Be kind to yourself! And rest! Rest . Rest. Take naps if you need them. I’m now a grandma and my last two just graduated from high school. I enjoy my very simple existence these days . I don’t have many friends because I’m not who I was when I was a wife. Also I work a lot. It’s okay . I will just keep taking one day at a time. And be grateful for the healing and the wonderful memories I have of my dear husband

[@dianapower-qo8gy]

Thankyou for your vlog, on the 21st this month it will be one year that my husband of 55yrs and best friend for 57 died, a day doesn't go by without crying, even when I am sewing gets hard to see. Whats the use I have frequently asked myself, like you said we have to go on. I'm moving packing now, property to big, but not going far but I intend to create a garden similar to yours, that's my second passion to sewing 🪡 I cried through your vlog, yes the big decisions are hard, and I have just made a huge one.( I'm dreading the day I have a mouse in the house) 😂 one day at a time that's all we can do, regards Diana from NZ 🎉❤

[@joannelabryn7531]

i also am a widow of 14 years, you will feel better as time goes on. Bless your sweet heart.

[@cindy7702]

Hi there, I survive by being aware that I will see all I've lost, one day.. even my dogs... I tell myself that those who have gone are not in pain anymore and how happy we will all be together again.. I just do me all the time now.. Good for you Jane.. You always take care of you now..

[@barbsdee3831]

A great quote that has stuck with me is from Esther Rantzen of all people! "I have lots of people to do things with but nobody to do nothing with" I was married for 39 years and was with my husband for 45 years. I’m at the ‘It’s not fair’ stage when I see old couples and feel I’ve been robbed of another 30 years together 😢 Keep your chin up chuck x

[@sharminrichards4461]

John would be proud of your strength. And let jordie tackle the spiders😂

[@bredabrunell9582]

There's no easy way through grief. Tears feeling lost devastated are all feelings that are natural. I think the only thing that gets you through is work. Its a reason to keep going. Your a very talented woman and that's your saviour. Keep going cry when your sad. It's healing. And be kind to yourself.

[@cynthialindsley5117]

This was a lovely video, you are doing very well. There are no lessons in grieving, loosing a spouse is worse than loosing a limb. They are more than a part, together you are one. You are very honest with yourself, and are doing your very best. In your self talk your are having talks with John and as you go through each day he is there supporting. God bless you.

[@sandraobrien8705]

What a blessing for John to have been loved as you've loved him. He was very lucky to have had you as his partner all these years. I wish you all the best. May wonderful people and wonderful experiences line your path.

[@BethMaitlandDramaQueenBeeUnltd]

Bless your heart. Yesterday was four years gone for me. Our circumstances are so different, but know there is no time limit to your journey, your grieving. No one is allowed to pressure you or judge, and I lift you up as you care for yourself, and learn to manage this new world. You can do it. You are amazing. You are not alone. You will find your way.

[@Craftytutu]

I’m so glad you are negotiating your way through this new version of life Jayne, it’s a difficult journey. I lost my son 7 years ago and everyone I know said there is no pain like it. I was so overcome with a longing to be with him so I knew he was ok. As heartbroken as I was at the time I couldn’t help thinking that losing my husband would be even worse. My son was an independent adult who I saw every week or so but my husband is my soulmate who I long to spend time with every single day, who makes me laugh, get angry or feel gooey every day. He is 12 years older than me and already had one heart attack and the fear of losing him is always there. Be kind to yourself and carve out your new life 💞 Incidentally during my grieving journey instead of decorating/ gardening, I bleached/dyed my hair with bright colours! My husband literally never knew what version of me he would find when he came home from work 😂 My little picture is the first colour in my journey 💞

[@lynnelyons5171]

Jayne, you are such an inspiration to so many people, including me. I lost my darling Mummy 2 years ago, at 87. I talk to her each day, I sometimes even jump in the car to go round to show her my latest make until I realise that she’s no longer there. She’s out of pain now, which gives me comfort. Your achievements are amazing, your strength is an inspiration, your love for John is wonderful. 💕

[@lindaallen78]

I had already watched your first video. I was only passing through at the time. You seemed so forlorn and I decided to stay, so I subscribed. I am full of admiration for you. My answer to everything is 'keep busy'. You have to self discipline but you are already doing that by all accounts. It is you now, in charge of your destiny. If you love your home and garden I would stay there. It keeps everything familiar. Moving can be extremely stressful. ❤❤❤

[@drinny-12u]

I know this video is a couple of months old, but. Wow, we’re sisters in this journey. I list my husband April 1st 2023 when I was 58 years old. I still like you cry every day and this last week was very difficult for me and assuming you as well. I’m watching this crying. What you are saying is exactly what I’m going through. Hugs ❤

[@catherinebulley432]

Jayne you’re a very special lady 😊 love this saying ‘ look towards the sun and the shadows will be behind you ‘ 🥰

[@clothes_i_sew]

So happy to see you back on YT. Grief is really hard and it moves in stages. I truly believe you do see your loved ones again but John is still there pushing you along in spirit. Think of all the wonder stories you can share with him when you see him again if you live your life to the full. I also believe you can honour a life by living a good one yourself. Go easy on yourself and take care ❤

[@livingwellfarmtx]

I'm so glad to hear you are doing well and keeping busy. I only just found your channel when the video about losing your husband was recommended on YT. Instantly I felt connected to you. My husband was 21 years older than me and only 61 when I lost him to cancer in 2002. Being his care giver the last few years of his life was difficult. I still had 2 young daughters to raise, both are on their own now, and at times it gets terribly lonely still. Staying busy and trusting in the will of God gets me through each day.

[@helenf8117]

Pleased to see you and know that you’re doing sort of ok. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a partner - I’m sure there is no right or wrong way to move ahead and you need to follow your own journey and I’m just so pleased that the sewing community is such a great support. You’ve achieved so much in a few months and I hope eventually you will find “you”. Sending lots of love. X

[@brendaforret9931]

Jane, thank you for sharing your healing through the loss of your husband John. Everyone handles loss differently, so it is important to do what is best for you. I love your videos as I am attempting to do some garment sewing. I do crafts and knitting and I was also inspired by your garden series. We recently purchased land that we are developing and I have researched the raised beds as they look fabulous in your garden space. As we are retired, we are unsure if we want to build on the property but I do know that I am interested in developing the garden. We live in Atlantic Canada. Take care and remember it is okay to cry, laugh, and love.

[@SaraPeterson]

Thank you for sharing. I do believe that you will be with John again. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@rvquiltquest7062]

You encourage me. I am kinda stuck after my Honey passed and loved Quilting but WHY it is hard to get back to it? BUT I will!! You keep going!! You are doing great and helping a lot of others along your way!!!

[@judyjohn2248]

Thank you for the update. I am proud of you for being transparent with your life journey. I have found that sharing with others how I am doing leads to stronger mental health for me. Blessings to you from California!! 🍁🍂🌱🥰

[@deirdrebyrne1450]

Jayne, what a way you’ve come, I think you’re wonderful. You’re doing so much, designing, sewing, patreon, videos, your garden, redecorating (your bathroom is fabulous), baking, buying a car etc! It’s a lot and you’ve done it brilliantly. I wish I was half that productive! John will always be with you in your head and nothing will change that. Lots of luvs and hugs to you❤️🥰💕

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@AnitasDreams]

Just saw your video & I would say you are doing well. Losing someone in your life is always hard & the grieving process takes as long as it takes. Be kind to yourself & take the moments you need to cry when you need to & then continue on. Looking forward to seeing new things for you.

[@Ohcarol912]

Jayne just keep doing what your doing, grieving is the hardest emotion it’s a case if coming to terms with the loss that you know you will not get over. Never apologise for crying over John why shouldn’t you cry he is worth crying over you love him. Wow Jayne the grass doesn’t grow over your feet does it you have worked hard in your garden and house. Best wises 😊

[@lauraann4014]

I understand, I lost my husband of 40 years 3 years ago, take care of yourself ❤

[@denisek57]

Oh Jane, such a blessing to hear you are staying strong. What a statement when you realized that yes you are worth it. I think that is such an important message for all of us wherever we are. I think we can easily get in that mindset that we are not worth it. Stay strong and do remember God loves you and is there for you:) Thank you for all you do!

[@samanthabuckle]

Sending so much love lovely lady. Really wonderful to see you Xx

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@twinnish]

You are still consulting with John and he still let you know what he thinks because you have 40 years together. I love that car - beautiful.

[@kerryhull2116]

It takes awhile, but it does get better, just hold on to your memories and take care of yourself❤️

[@stellaberrelly5377]

Hi Jane, bless you you had me in tears but I would say 7 months isn’t such a long time so just go with the flow and do what you want to do, don’t pressure yourself. ❤. I am sure John is keeping a careful watch over you. Take good care of yourself sweetheart. 😘😘

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@katewhyte6274]

Dear Jayne, thank you for the update. You describe your feelings so well and I'm sure you will have helped someone by talking about how you are doing. Keep doing what you are doing, it sounds as if you are looking after yourself very well. Take care x

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@annesullivan1171]

It's hard. Sending hugs and kisses ❤

[@scottydog6539]

Smart to keep the ceiling holes to move your camera. Great painting you did. You are doing good. Healing. Little by little you will go well.

[@juliegolub2602]

Life is a beautiful journey of discovering who we are in every positive and negative experience. But we have to make the choice to see life as a gift! I totally agree that the hope we have in seeing our loved ones is such a precious gift God gave us . ❤

[@edieparastatides9403]

What I think is you are doing a marvelous job!❤so proud of you and you should be proud, too. I love watching your progress!

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@margomcintosh763]

My husband of 51 years died in July of 2023 and I know how you feel. It’s so hard isn’t it. I too am finding it hard to get on with life. Your words described exactly how I have been feeling. I wish you the best and hope we both find comfort in the daily things we do like sewing. Thank goodness we have these hobbies to do. I sew clothing and make quilts. Thank you for posting.

[@amandajenn-h3o]

John will be so very proud of you Jayne 🥹 transitioning is all part of the grieving process and one day you’ll find yourself focused on all the wonderful years and happiness you shared together. It’s still early days and there’s no right or wrong way to deal with your grief…..you’ll get through it in your own time - you are amazing. Bless you xx

[@carolhughes312]

A rollercoaster journey for you. Look after yourself-be kind to yourself and take your time - you seem to have been doing an awful lot!

[@suek7086]

A rollercoaster is exactly right. The thing is, you can’t see when the sudden curves and drops are coming. 9 years out and I still have times that hit hard and get surprised.

[@laurabantock8912]

What a brave discussion - I applaud you all the way from Canada! (Ex-pat). ❤ I loved your early KZbin on shabby heart shaped bunting…gosh those were a ton of fun, you are a natural teacher.

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@SunShine-ip7gl]

Sister this is such a beautiful video of truth and that is hard to come by these days! Yes life is different and a growth process in learning to breath through big changes. May you bloom after the season of resting as the plants do. Replenish and do self care knowing hubby is always there as are the pets seen to leave this world. Those will take care of John and you keep doing things and share with them all out loud. This is not odd for you are their legacy!!! Love your work and patterns - be well sweetie! Hugs from this country to yours XXOOOO

[@elizabethevans5931]

You are so brave. Take each day, or each moment at a time. There is no rule book for grief.

[@lolawall3561]

All of this will get better with time. I have really been encouraged by your courage as time moves on. You are a lovely person and I hope the best for you. I look forward to your creative path. Best wishes to you!

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@yazzyra]

Sorry for youre loss. Sending good thougts from me. Wish you all the best. Kjersti ❤❤❤

[@robynlaszlo6128]

So many blessing to you there is no time time limit you do you and enjoy what ever you do lots of love coming your way ❤❤❤❤❤

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@ClaireWhoMakesThings]

Hi Jane, I’m so sorry for your loss. I think you are so brave. I’m glad you are feeling a little better. X

[@skoop0808]

I am so glad you are feeling a bit better. Baby steps, but steps all the same! I have always loved your videos, so It is good to see you again. Stay strong, and know you are loved, even by those of us who only know you online!

[@MaryLaw-w8x]

Pretty much everyone is highly sensitive to loss unless they lack normal empathy but I guess the bigger thing here is to have the courage and generosity to actually listen to another,s story of loss and bravery.

[@LisaAdams.75]

Nawww, I'm glad you're doing ok even though your heartbroken. It took me a solid year and some months to grieve my father so I can only imagine it taking much longer with a life partner. What healed me is knowing I will see him again too. I talk to him and always tell him, see you soon.

[@vivienlee610]

It's still early days really Jayne, and it's so right to give yourself time to be as you need to be, and yes, you will see John again. He's still with you but in a different way. One day at a time. ❤

[@scottydog6539]

The loss hits you at times still even though John has been gone a short time now. Time will heal your sadness. It really will make it easier for you.

[@maureencullen1008]

I am so glad your moving through your grief.I think it is lovely that thinking you will be with John again gives you comfort ,just as long as you and your family know that your life is now in this world.Everyone is different and so how we grieve will be different just go at your own pace.You will always carry John in your heart but remember you carry all of your family both physically and spiritually in your heart too.Help each other through your grief as each of you will have known John in a different way but collectively you all loved him. ❤

[@lizwarnke4689]

Going through grief is like riding ocean waves. Sometimes it's peaceful and calm and then wham! You get hit with a huge wave of grief. What I've found is when that happens, I just experience it and go through it and cry. Then it is better for a while. Sometimes you think you're fine and some thing just sends you back and you feel like it just happened. But it does get easier to ride the waves.

[@angelaszabo5820]

Dear Jane what a lovely heartwarming video. You should be so proud of yourself and how you’ve coped so far. Grief is something we all have to contend with. For some it’s easier than others. Never apologise for your tears. They are so much a part of the healing journey. No one whose been in a similar position will judge you for them. You are entirely human and inherently fallible. Thank you for how you’ve continued with your work and sharing your artistic talents with us. I love your patterns and your quintessentially English style. I’ve bought your Dixie pattern but I’ve not got around to making it yet as I’m finishing a crochet blanket for my daughter first. I bought some lovely soft Needlecord for it so I hope you make it before the winter’s out.😊 May God bless you and bring you peace. ❤️🙏

[@angelaszabo5820]

Sorry I meant “I can make it “😊

[@Jillybean620]

Very well said. Sounds like perfectly normal grieving and transition. Not easy, but you’re certainly not alone. Wishing you the best.

[@friedmansfresh]

I’m just at 5 mos, I’m 55 so about your age, but my husband died suddenly and left me with several adult kids and a 5yo we adopted. I feel you. I’m sorry you are spending evenings alone-having to care for my little one is overwhelming but has saved me. Hang on, I have to think it will get better

[@44TJG]

You do what you’ve got to do at the time. If you need to cry, just cry, let it out wherever you are whatever you’re doing. It’s been 30 months since my husband died. I look back and can’t believe what I did in the early days and how I felt. You will find your Greece changes. There are several stages. I’m currently going through the PTSD .,can’t carry on, I’ve lost everything stage. I wish I could go back to those early stages of grief where it was so much easier.

[@donnanawrocki3022]

Jayne, your words resonate with me. My Dad passed 10 mons. ago and my Mom is feeling just as you. We are all still trying to adjust to as you say new life. All so strange. One day at a time- you do as you want. But I am glad to hear you are moving forward, keeping busy and continuing with your passions. ❤

[@oneforchrist7446]

I'm so sorry for your loss, you will see him again and that is awesome look forward to that! And sew on till then!

[@jennistevenson796]

I think you’re doing brilliantly and are an inspiration. Love never dies xxx

[@heatherharris5129]

Well done you for getting this far, best wishes for your ‘new life’ even though it was definitely not what you would have ever wanted xxx

[@beckyb8339]

Lovely to hear from you Jayne x

[@christasdressshoppe]

Thank you for sharing your heart. Grief is a very confusing thing. My mother died 7 months ago and my father-in-law died 3 weeks ago. I did the same thing you did, for about 5 or 6 months I just stayed busy and didn’t grieve properly. So when I slowed down it was a mess of grief. This year has felt like I was walking through a thick sludge. Or thick fog. Praying for you today! You will be in both my thoughts and prayers as I sew. God bless! -Christa

[@scottydog6539]

Nice to have friends drop by for coffee/tea.

[@valerieslater-t1v]

You have everything you need to be able to go forward, just do what you do best, which, of course, is SEWING.....love to you....

[@LaurieEarly]

❤ Thank you for sharing how you are doing. It is inspiring to me as I am also grieving now 7 months. I have always wanted a mini Cooper - such a joyful thing to do for yourself. Wishing you every good thing. 🌸🍃

[@sharonflaherty7454]

I got out of bed and i needed to cry ❤❤❤❤Lots of hugs jayne.❤❤❤

[@apositivethread8919]

I’m so glad to see you. I was once told that my purpose on this earth is to make it a better place for my having been here. That could be raising your children in gods and decent human beings. Maybe being a helpmate so someone could count on you without feeling compromised. It could even be someone who helps others pass on a craft that has been passed through our families for generations - a skill that can protect us and show others how special they are to us because we are willing to use our skills to cover their bodies with our love of fabric. Maybe just maybe you already know why you’re here. ❤️

[@zdenkasykorova182]

All power to you girl.

[@06snydernancy]

It makes complete sense. You will see him again but right now he wants his family together. It’s soooo confusing to express grieving and oh My God to be confused by loss and your own rebirth into your new life so you won’t be lonely. You are still you but when you lose your husband, your way of communicating with yourself and the world comes from being in a void. And that void remains. I know how you feel though I haven’t lost a husband but my children have mostly left me as I age for no reasons and some for their own lives. Having been a busy and independent person I have struggled but now with help and therapy I’m hoping I’m coming out of it, I hope, and today you have really inspired me by the things you’ve said today. Helps to know there are so many like you, many widows of husbands and being left behind. In the end we have to make it on our own. Love how you’re going on. John sounds absolutely wonderful and earned his way to Heaven. Keep honest with us, you are a big help!

[@lilianbastos8264]

Beautiful to see and hear from you again! Your so brave and strong 🥰hugs from 🇸🇪 Sweden

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@reginapompey6486]

It’s ok. You are grieving. You will get better. Anybody who has experienced the lost of a Love one understands.

[@helenweatherby1694]

Bless you. xxx

[@helenweatherby1694]

Sending love xx

[@Leemar9]

Jane, it's lovely to hear you are doing ok. Such a really tough time after your huge loss. It's been 12 months since my husband passed away and I'm still feeling so lost. I wonder if I'll ever stop crying 😢. It's lovely to follow your story and well done to you for keeping busy and being so creative. Thanks for all your inspiration ❤

[@louiseatkinson3044]

We all cope with grief differently, have faith in the universe and trust the process. You will learn to live your new life embrace everything. Cry when you want to. For now though I would say get your nails and hair done put a pretty dress on and love yourself ❤

[@MsHighpeaks]

Bless you

[@sallyvaughan1231]

Sending you heartfelt love and courage. You are doing so well xx

[@shaidabegum.]

❤❤❤

[@sueprice4082]

Only 2.5 months for me losing my husband of 47 years. You are giving me hope that I will be sewing again, can’t say I won’t stop crying for a long while yet-keep doing what you are doing ❤️

[@dianapower-qo8gy]

Go into your sewing, honestly keep me sane, almost 58yrs I had My husband and best friend in my life, if tears fall as sewing, stop wipe, compose and go on, same as a particular song feeling down this month as it is 12 months since he passed, but I know that he wanted me to carry on. Just wish he hadn't left me so many tools to sort out etc, he was a builder, l think my fabric and sewing studio might have been a tad easier. Take one day at a time, they go Up and down only one who has lost their long time partner can really understand, tears are falling now so I will go, take care 🎉f❤

[@sueprice4082]

@@dianapower-qo8gy thank you so much for your lovely words-much needed today❤️ xx

[@ebsfamily8204]

Hello, I watched your two videos last night, and this morning I received Henri Nouwen's daily meditation and thought, of course, of you -- though we don't know one another. I thought I'd pass it on, as I hope it can comfort you. Love Remembers "It is possible to have intimate relationships with loved ones who have died. Death sometimes deepens the intimacy. . . . [I believe] that after separation certain people continue to be very significant for us in our hearts and through our memories. Remembering them is much more than just thinking of them, because we are making them part of our members, part of our whole being. Knowing this experience allows me to live from the deep belief that I have love to offer to people, not only here, but also beyond my short, little life. I am a human being who was loved by God before I was born and whom God will love after I die. This brief lifetime is my opportunity to receive love, deepen love, grow in love, and give love. When I die love continues to be active, and from full communion with God I am present by love to those I leave behind."

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much for your kind message xxx

[@margaretsmilligan9393]

Be kind to yourself, you are doing great , xx

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@elainearchbold259]

Good luck to you and god ble

[@polie74]

😢 you had me bubbling with you..❤ still early days. Love watching your videos. Good luck

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

😊 thank you

[@sylviapage8572]

Thank you for the update. I know it must be very hard for you losing your wonderful husband but I think you’re amazing. Thanks for taking the time to share your experience with others.

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@michellem3899]

You’re doing great! Hugs coming your way.

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much!

[@macquadj]

Oh Jane, of course you’ll see John one day. I think you’re doing very well considering how much John meant to you.

[@judithglavas9030]

Jayne, there is no manual for being a newly widowed woman. Please don’t beat yourself up over your feelings. Just take your time and allow yourself the time to heal. It does get easier. It has been 47 years since my husband passed away. Just trust in yourself and you’ll get through this.

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

Thank you so much x

[@christinemarshall1547]

Very sad time, but you need to have weekly social outings with friends, family and new acquaintances.

[@asajarl5519]

❤

[@shonalogan1581]

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[@PemelaNaidoo]

I also lost my husband suddenlý dring covid time 2021 Hê left me with nothing Im serviving I take 1 day at a tme

[@kathymerner6402]

There is no right or wrong way to grieve. Everyone's path is unique. A day doing nothing is necessary sometimes. John may not physically be present but his energy is all around you. Be kind to yourself.

[@janetlink9756]

What pattern is your sweater vest?

[@TheDressmakersCloset]

I bought it from a thrift shop xx

[@sarahodonnell6957]

🙏❤️💙💜

[@janetlink9756]

Everything you do, do to the glory of God, and know you will see your precious husband again.

[@louiseberman4241]

You have lost your purpose being a carer for the last 19 years on top of being a wife. It will take a while to realise you haven't got that role anymore. Grieving process can take a year or so. You will eventually find something to occupy that gap and learn to live your life again cariad. You are doing really well and you are allowed to cry. It's normal. Love your videos so do them as and when you can xx❤

[@Zzzzzzzzz216]

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[@janetgasston9888]

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