Losing Hope | Bulimia Trouble with Clogging Toilet | DreammyRainbow

I am losing hope with ed and depression. My bulimia creates trouble and i feel like a total burden. Can't live with myself.
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[@juliefr0g]

i love watching your videos, i finally feel not alone. you're just so honest and real. Please don't stop uploading :)

[@dreammyrainbow]

thanks for saying that. You are never alone, just rmb that. We, all of us struggling whether you know the person or not, are in these together. Sometimes we cross path, like you and me, and it's nice to know there's another person out there like you. xoxo

[@DesignatedSarah]

ED and depression are the worst, I know. And I've definitely been at low points where I've been suicidal. As someone who has been there... please reconsider your plans for overdosing. I know how horrible of a struggle this can be, but you're not even giving yourself a fighting chance anymore if you end it. Please don't follow through with it. You owe yourself so much more than to just give up on yourself.

[@dreammyrainbow]

i know a depressed brain is skewed. I had actually given myself chances before, too many to count. I hate relapsing and the million symptoms that keep coming up one after another. There's another relapse after the last one just ended. That's what I am tired from. I am trying to holding out currently

[@DesignatedSarah]

[@muddy8234]

Don't overdose. There is hope. I have an incurable disease and everything seems hard but it is worth carrying on even for those brief moments of happiness.

[@dreammyrainbow]

as bad as it sounds, i wish I have an illness that I can die from. sorry if it offends you. Depression is something that doesn't allow you to even have that brief moments of happiness. No motivation and interest in anything. we battle invisible demons most other don't understand or see, which is why some think we are not trying hard enough or being lazy or whatever. I hope you are well mentally. Yes, treasure those moments of happiness to keep you going. If i dont sound intruding, may I know what disease you are struggling?

[@muddy8234]

No, I understand. I have been on anti-depressants for 15 years and have, in the past, been admitted to psychiatric care for depression. It is awful. BUT. As I have gotten older it has eased and I have learned coping mechanisms and I get a good amount of joy out of life now. We all die anyway, don't rush it because you may have happiness just around the corner xxx

[@breebreathes690]

Don't give up dear.... You deserve to be better. I don't know what to say to make u say to make u feel better. But I'd say that I'm always here for u n by ur side. I know that life fuck up. Just keep trying n stay strong

[@dreammyrainbow]

thank you lovely for commenting. I don't want to say much here since we communicate elsewhere xoxo

[@ag2897]

Your self worth is not based on how much you weigh, I understand that ED can make you think that way, but remember you are still a wonderful person no matter what the number is on your scale. :) Hope you can see the many strengths you have, like intelligence, spontaneity, kindness and others. Wish you all the very best in beating ED eventually.

[@dreammyrainbow]

oh, now i know you are the girl who commented on my ig. sorry for missing and forgetting your past comments. I so wish I can beat it. It's the third relapse. Relapse isn't so bad, but getting back on track is the more difficult part.

[@femalafaye]

Please don't give up fighting dear. I understand what you're feeling, I live in the same hell you do. I know you feel like there is no hope and that you are a burden, but you are not. There are people who would miss you dearly, and I would miss you too.

[@dreammyrainbow]

i love you. It's hard as hell. I am trying to hold out but it gets desperate sometimes :P

[@muddy8234]

Pour some Mr Muscle down the shower plug, you pour it down, leave it for 5 minutes then rinse it down with hot water and all the blockage will be gone! A bottle is about £3 here in England.

[@dreammyrainbow]

we don't have that brand here. We tried so many brands and methods when it was clogged. my parents guessed it's old age and bad construction wearing off leading to worsening problems for all the toilet and sink drains at home.

[@YenNguyen-so5qb]

Please seriously consider telling someone in your life about your plans for suicide. Have strength to hold yourself back from following through on your plans. No one can truly understand you but we can only do as much as we can to try to understand.

[@dreammyrainbow]

thanks for taking the first step to try to understand. Not just for me, but for others struggling and in need. They need your kindness and care to go through their bad times. You are doing great. I have actually told my counsellor. We are just talking over things. xoxo

[@kimhaneul1509]

hey girl you in hong kong ? stay strong xoxo

[@dreammyrainbow]

hi. yes, I am in Hong Kong. Why this question? xoxo

[@kimhaneul1509]

dreammyrainbow just asking

[@mamamia8817]

Are you from Hong Kong?

[@dreammyrainbow]

hello. yes, i am. maybe you recognise the environment or the place. nice to meet you. thanks for your support xoxo