Losing My Little Brother | NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me

[@suan333]

Dylan is her soft spot. She breaks when she hugged him, she can ve vulnerable with him because she knows he is gonna be there for her. That's precious.

[@Badlove10]

Everyone needs and deserves this type of love.

[@JevanBarwari]

Precies wat ik voelde toen ik dat stukje zag. En dat hij om haar verdriet mee huilt zonder enige schaamte, wat hij totaal niet moet hebben, is prachtig. ❤️

[@chessnisnisan3529]

that scene made me cry 🥺

[@035burg3]

His*

[@rugiddy1]

Him holding her and beginning to cry when she did got me! He seems so supportive & it makes me so happy for her

[@ChristianCandelaria]

This one had me crying so much when she hugged Dylan at the finish line. I can’t

[@violetsapphire2090]

Sameeee that’s when I lost it

[@genealmarietaylor4439]

Omg yes! I had to pause because I started to lose it.

[@tonya7004]

I tried to hold back the tears but I lost it at the finish line too 😭

[@maggie_sugarxo]

same!!!

[@Mike-px5he]

SAME OMG THAT WAS SO EMOTIONAL

[@Newest_editsjustbecause]

The fact that he waited for you, omg. 😭❤ That boy took control of his situation until the very end, that seems to be a family trait.

[@Newest_editsjustbecause]

@J W From my understanding, she was away and flew back home.. he waited for her to come see him and they had their time together, and then she went home and he passed that night.

[@Newest_editsjustbecause]

@J W No problem. :) I definitely get why the wording through you off a bit.

[@ericaparrish2615]

I work in nursing. You see this happen. Some people wait for a certain person to come before they relax enough to pass. Some people wait for people to leave so they don’t have to witness them passing on. When people are dying...they know, and many times, they hold off until something can be fulfilled.

[@Newest_editsjustbecause]

@@ericaparrish2615 that's honestly so beautiful.

[@ila84leejoon]

😭😭

[@LilBitkujoBL]

The fact that people blackmailed this beautiful woman, makes me so angry. I love you Nikkie, I tried not to cry.

[@valerievancouver365]

To me was one member of my family. I moved cities and e eventually other country at 22. But other tha that 99% fine, but I was famous. Nice of you to make nice comments.

[@poccapocca5602]

Uh,what did she do???did she make some problem like beauty youtuber do???

[@valerievancouver365]

@@poccapocca5602 👎 ⛔ NO She didn't. Just being nice girl 👧 😌 make up 🎨 artis influencer and some idiot try to expose a secret from.her past.

[@valerievancouver365]

@@poccapocca5602 someone try to black ⚫ mail her.

[@poccapocca5602]

@@valerievancouver365 oh Okey Okey got it! :') I was so confused why they hate her so much because I really like hed

[@jadejones2583]

“He told us he’s waiting for you” that cut through me

[@shandi3210]

That got me too 😭💔

[@kathrynwhitbeck9798]

Same

[@luminisant]

Cringe.

[@maryjainrj]

Me too 🥺

[@pars6008]

That is really emotional, painful, heartbeat too. 😥😭

[@nanamiharuka3269]

I love how even though she's a public figure she's still ok going out and being on camera without makeup. That's really awesome and a great example for others who feel that they can't do that

[@SchnitzeIkuchen]

That is what makes her so relatable for me, cause I dont even wear makeup, but still enjoy her tutorials.

[@Mishel813]

Because she is extremely beautiful and alot pf oeople dont feel like that

[@solauditore1735]

I always use makeup because I feel so insecure 😔

[@teelesynclair5902]

@@solauditore1735 you shouldn't feel that way. I don't know you but you're beautiful ❤😃

[@nikkidimick947]

@Sarah Depeux yes, there are people out there that do not leave their homes without a full face of makeup. It's really refreshing to see someone who actually does makeup for a living, feel comfortable enough with herself to not wear any makeup in public.

[@zoegreenshields1665]

When you said he was waiting for you. I lost it. It held it together so you could say goodbye. ❤️😭

[@zoegreenshields1665]

@J W I was about to reply and saw someone else explained it perfectly ☺️

[@TheColdestIsh]

@@zoegreenshields1665 tag me where?

[@brendenboggs8515]

Sometimes when I watch celebrity documentaries I end up liking them less, but I’m absolutely loving yours Nikkie!

[@chrisg64]

Same here. I feel like they r just full of themselves and it’s cringe but this is so well done and so heart warming. She has a beautiful story

[@NaachMore]

Ya....

[@deficator750]

You know you could of just said you liked her instead of adding the contradicting bullshit

[@brendenboggs8515]

@@deficator750 why are you so pressed?? How about you don’t tell people what to say?

[@deficator750]

@@brendenboggs8515 ok thanks for replying

[@SuperGirl-nc2xb]

I remember when this originally happened and she talked about it, but I didn’t know he was only 14 😢 he was so young with a long life ahead of him

[@alyssacastillo2293]

Me too, I thought her brother was in his early 20s. He was so young

[@hahayes1220]

I didn’t know it happened and it made me feel so helpless for her, the poor girl has been through so much :(

[@simonjacob5215]

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️💔😭

[@nldrbcontrol]

i have a channel on gardening.pls visit.

[@nldrbcontrol]

@@alyssacastillo2293 i have a channel on gardening.pls visit.

[@kittyjustice9377]

The way she called Dylan her "gift" from the world, after all she'd been through. I can't deal with the emotions anymore, this is so beautiful.

[@klarissalopez8661]

The fact that Dylan is like “home” to you hits differently. 😭❤️ Had me crying so much, because you don’t find that support system anymore 🥺

[@amberess8695]

It's super rare, but when you find it, NEVER let it go ❤️

[@Andys61724]

It's out there. Trust me

[@dulceamaya1492]

@@amberess8695 absolutely. I found mine 12 yrs ago and so happy I did. Without him in my life it wouldn't be the same.

[@Theannaloid]

It’s out there, you just got to look hard

[@amberslilrose3954]

Stop looking in clubs and bars. If you lay down with dogs, you'll come up with fleas.

[@bbwdiva1]

Self care, my dear. Meghan gave you the best advice ever. I am loosing my husband of 34 years an inch at a time. My daughter sometimes has to remind me to take time for me so I can take care of him. You are so precious inside and out and the pain will eventually decrease. Hugs and kisses to you!

[@romycullen17]

Biggest of hugs to you and much love!!!!

[@christinefulwiler]

Sending you so much love, Sheli 💕

[@biebsoholic]

Sending you love and a big hug 💕

[@femkehoekstra6486]

Sending you much love!!❤️❤️🥺

[@Kree.B.]

❤

[@vablaya]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet brother. This episode was heartbreaking. I cried.

[@shimaass32]

Me too

[@kyliedunmire7280]

I’ll never forget when I saw that Mikai had passed. I started sobbing; my saint of a mother immediately needed to know what was going on and began crying too. She put out her arms for a hug and through tears she said, “Please tell your friend I’m so sorry and my heart aches for their mom.” She truly was one of the most empathetic people I’ve ever known. Polly didn’t quite understand “internet friends,” but she had the biggest heart in the entire world. I’ll never meet you, but I hope you feel the love of all us that invite you into our lives on a daily basis. ♥️♥️♥️

[@AmirMasoudii]

Nikkie's mom: I'm so proud of you Nikkie: *starts crying* Dylan: *starts crying* We: *starts crying* We love you girl ❤️

[@theofficialsammymehy6555]

😭😭😭😭for real

[@nldrbcontrol]

i have a channel on gardening.pls visit.

[@nldrbcontrol]

@@theofficialsammymehy6555 i have a channel on gardening.pls visit.

[@pauljsm]

yeah, that (everyone crying, me included!) caught me by surprise ❤

[@WyvernBookTales]

When Nikkie broke down, and MamaTutorials started crying and then you heard MrTutorials started crying too, NOW I'M CRYING 😭

[@brontestewart6381]

It kind of feels like she feels guilty for working during her brothers sickness but Nikki if you didn’t feel that way he wouldn’t be your dearest brother. I’m so sure that he felt so much unconditional from you as his sister ❤️

[@buuubec]

The fact that Dylan cried when she did. So powerful

[@sarafwasimasiddique6098]

I love how supportive Dylan was and he was crying holding you after you let go. Wishing y'all are always happy together.

[@Jayme_Le4457]

as a sibling my worst fear is losing a sibling. nikkies brother was less than a year older than me and i cant fathom how people so young are so vulnerable, but are still so strong. he was brave.

[@muhammadmuaz5796]

Number

[@justmombeauty]

Losing a sibling feels like a bond that's been broken in your soul. It's been a month since my sister passed away.

[@marloespeters8404]

I'm so sorry for your loss ⚘🌹 she is watching over you ❤

[@FoxyCleoBrown]

It's been 5 years since my brother passed away people tell you it will get easier but it doesn't.

[@BaAZiGar]

@@FoxyCleoBrown omg same ! my younger brother passed away sept 2015

[@an_gel_707]

I'm so so sorry for your loss, your bond may feel like it's broken but your sister will always be in your heart. It's gonna be okay ❤

[@sarah-janepocklington2475]

Same my brother passed in July 2015

[@meekonaleash]

I forget she's not from America because her english is perfect It wasn't till that thing with Ellen I realized

[@EvelineUK]

That thing with Ellen is what prompted staff and celebrities to come out and say she's not the nice person you see on TV. Ellen, that is...

[@arianaamir2367]

only Americans speak perfect english? 🤣🤣

[@faizaquadri2139]

That's the irony 😂

[@035burg3]

His*

[@nataliee8032]

I’m American and my English is crap 😄

[@leannanichole]

Dylan crying with Nikkie at the finish line 😭 my heart 💕💔💕

[@ramisaahmed8531]

Dylan is literally her comfort blanket, its like she feels as though she has to be the strong one but with Dylan she can be vulnerable - so sweet ♡

[@jellyfish8949]

This is a gorgeous documentary. I think we can all say she is a ‘Power vrouw’ And I wish her well.

[@D1sturb3d.gh0u1]

You could’ve also said power house :) kinda easier for english speakers

[@axellebie8732]

@@D1sturb3d.gh0u1 except “vrouw” means “woman” and not house so I don’t see why it should be translated like that.

[@charlotte-63]

@@D1sturb3d.gh0u1 vrouw means woman not house

[@Lux421]

@@D1sturb3d.gh0u1 lol is it the first time people not complying to your language? Welcome to the rest of the world 😂😂 sorry not being mean, but your comment is a little funny to me.

[@Hayhayokaykay]

@@axellebie8732 maybe he lives inside a woman? 🤣

[@reneescouch9035]

I lost my fiance 4 days before Christmas, so seeing how you are handling yourself is inspiring! Much love from South Carolina! Stay strong!

[@TISHASATSANGI]

Stay strong! 💞😭

[@bubble1778]

Sending virtual hugs and happy thoughts your way

[@tamarajovicic5954]

I'm so sorry for your loss, stay strong 💙

[@shersyril6495]

Sending all the love, stay strong ❤️

[@kang_hyun_sub8324]

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[@valerieortega4735]

I didn’t expect to cry so much when I saw her at the finish line crying with Dylan, she’s such a strong woman and I love her for showing this side of her!

[@gabrielamariesantiago-leon9427]

I think it's time people stop excusing cultures and beliefs when they're only hurting people for being HUMAN.

[@cannoneermike]

It's easier said than done, they actually believe it is a sin and they won't let it happen anytime soon.

[@kris-vi3cu]

I live in Romania and every time I wear makeup in public I always get stared at by other people and I'm told that boys don't wear makeup.

[@gabrielamariesantiago-leon9427]

@@cannoneermike yeah unfortunately that's the way it is. I just wish people would stop going over that fact and act like that's normal/ok to do. I'm tired of people saying it's offensive bc of their culture. You know what's offensive? Hurting your own people because they are themselves and hijacking their feelings to be someone they are not. I'm glad she saw that herself in her own MnG. Because that shits very real still.

[@gabrielamariesantiago-leon9427]

@@kris-vi3cu I'm sorry you have to go through that. It's not fair to you or anyone else who is like you or me (I'm pansexual so I'd def be looked down upon in a lot of places). We deserve to be able to seek shelter in our own home, but sometimes it's not that way for millions and then we end up here trying to find a connection with another person struggling with this. Hope one day that changes. One day.

[@h4rriette]

Wdym??

[@alliebercikk]

this one hit me like a truck. I lost my big brother and it was the worst feeling ever.

[@vr8348]

🖤

[@Userrandom44477]

same😢

[@beckyboo1433]

I lost my little brother, he was 14.😔 I'm sorry for your losses too ❤️

[@Userrandom44477]

@@beckyboo1433 omg i’m so sorry for your loss😢. losing a sibling is so hard

[@laxmitamang8219]

Same here , I also lost my younger brother.

[@sarahm1562]

My heart is just... overwhelmed. Losing a family member, or anyone close to you, is devastating. Climbing that mountain, honoring your brother, is absolutely wonderful. From what's been said and shown of Mikai, he would indeed be grinning from ear to ear.

[@bradleybraafhart]

Im not crying, are you crying.. no im def not crying CRIES

[@deniseverkaar6691]

Echt hè!!!

[@randybobandy9828]

Cringe

[@coltjames9159]

Same, Brad. ;-;

[@JCF504]

@@randybobandy9828 😂

[@junsam5995]

@@randybobandy9828 your cringe

[@NefiCZ]

This is so heartbreaking really. I feel your pain. My dad passed away in August in Czech, while i was in Germany where I live. Sadly it was very sudden, he was gone in few hours since i got the call, and i didnt manage to get to Czech in time to say my goodbyes. Treasure the moment you still had with Mikai and that you got there in time. It's a true gift! Love

[@Gnomy84]

So sorry for your loss ❤

[@magicdragon9322]

I'm sorry for you loss .. i hope all is well

[@bubble1778]

Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way.

[@Verbsdescribeus]

any ireverssible loss is so tragic...

[@jenninstitches]

Crying like a baby. That walk was something else. My aunt waited for me and I know it leaves behind a mark that has no name and no way to describe. Even almost 20 years later it is still a thing that follows me, but now I know it was a gift to carry a reminder of how much that woman loved me. Your brother gave you the same thing. A gift of knowing you were worth waiting for because he loved you that much.❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@helenwalker716]

I lost my daughter 7 years ago this November. She was 44. My closest friend. This made me cry. Yes, I still cry. Love you Nikki.

[@embracetheweird-cats]

The vulnerability this women has showed throughout these videos is so inspiring. To be open and share how hard life is on top of being a celebrity. I think this is why you are here. To share your story to inspire others 💛 you are so strong Nikki

[@alissahowdy]

i’ve come back to this video after hearing the news about an hour ago that my grandma doesn’t have a high chance of living for much longer. i’ve never lost anyone in my life, and honestly as of now, i’m in denial. it’s hard to cope, but watching this has helped prepare me for what’s to come, in a way. i love you nikkie. thank you.

[@Hippidippimahm]

I’m so sorry. I’ve lost several family members and friends and it never gets easier.

[@rach_laze]

It never gets easier but you learn to live with the loss, its going to be hard but let yourself feel everything. It might feel like it's all too much but the storm will break and you'll be able to see and think more clearly after a while

[@jeannieh3227]

I’m sorry honey.

[@greta4224]

I'm sorry stay strong

[@alyssamartin6329]

STOP WHEN DYLAN CRIED GIRL I BROKE 😭

[@DanielLopez-ef3th]

I never buy KZbin premium but for nikkie I did I love this

[@donovansplace]

Same I am legit crying

[@jayleigh03]

SAME

[@joejonaslover6969]

Same!!!

[@xJonnaax]

same to all of this same

[@93Cakes]

Same and I’m canceling after the series is done 🤣

[@annabanana1665]

People who disliked were crying to hard and accidentally disliked

[@DrGeta666]

Where is hard?

[@babooska48]

@gwopchaser wow you are just heartless...

[@D1sturb3d.gh0u1]

@gwopchaser Get a life. You should accept people for who they are

[@chanyeolswifu752]

@gwopchaser wtf

[@blancamartinez7864]

@gwopchaser must be fun not feeling trapped in your own body

[@brehannahhh4026]

Nikki I am so late on this, but my little brother passed two months after yours did. My brother’s was sudden, it was a car accident and he was 25. I was absolutely gut wrenched for the longest time, as we were always best friends our entire life. The one thing I made sure to do was feel everything in its entirety, every emotion, stage, and let out every cry/tear I wanted to. It was a rollercoaster to say the least, but I am glad I didn’t hold myself back from that. It’s STILL hard and it was three years ago! I love you as do many others, you have touched so many hearts with what you’ve been through. He is your guardian angel now and is so proud of you. 😇

[@emmajane9403]

I am so so sorry for your loss 💔 that just made me cry because we aren't promised tomorrow are we. Sending hugs 💕

[@brehannahhh4026]

@@emmajane9403 you are so sweet thank you for your sweet message!! We are never promised the next day, tell the ones you love how much you adore them 🥰

[@sarahandersen8648]

When you started crying... I have 2 little brothers and a sister. and my worst fear is loosing them. You are the strongest person, abs Mikai is so proud of you!!

[@babygoose8716]

I’m so glad she made an episode just for him. ❤️

[@Justinexxb]

For whoever wants to know, all the songs in this series are from Eefje de Visser❤️ (the song at the mountain is called ‘Er is’)

[@aryakomal]

Aaha thanks. I was about to ask this

[@MonikaRistova]

Omg thank you so much for this comment ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️

[@themevrouwdewi]

Thanks!

[@19Annika89]

Dankjewel! Ik zocht hiernaar ❤️

[@GothikQueen]

Thank you!!! I had no idea what to look for as I understand absolutely nothing but OMG is it beautiful???

[@jamiemiguel_]

Hi! I was there at the Kuwait meet and greet (lol im the girl in the pink jacket) and i met the guys that were denied to meet with her. They were a funny bunch and honestly very friendly! They texted me saying they waited until Nikkie finished her m&g and met with her after it! They talked and they said Nikkie was so sweet when they talked about the situation. I hope you’re always doing well Nikkie 💗 May your little brother rest in peace 🙏🏼

[@SakuraMoonflower]

Nikkie is the best.

[@marss0754]

Crying. I love my brother so much. Imagining him passing away... I feel that so deeply. Thank you for sharing

[@Spirit-Ss0ul]

I lost my twin brother tragically. It's been 17 years. Some days it's so hard. 😔

[@cevirthek262]

Virtual hugs!

[@bubble1778]

Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way

[@alia206]

I'm so sorry. I lost my twin brother last year. It still feels unreal.

[@greta4224]

Stay strong❤️

[@davinamalcolm1677]

Sorry for your lost.

[@xxmoonlightxx4740]

You can tell that Dylan is her rock, he is her safe space, he is her soft spot, he definitely is her home wherever he goes that’s where her home is🥺♥️ her whole family is her home that’s her village and it melts my heart to see the love and support in her family

[@noface____]

Couldn’t get through this episode without crying :((( and bless your manager for thinking of you and your mental health and giving you weekends off. Everyone needs a break.

[@gertskook]

Watching this and seeing her finish the mountain for her brother I just... My heart shattered when she broke down crying then seeing mama tutorials and mr tutorials crying I can’t handle people crying. To give them such a big big hug

[@josiequeen3739]

I lost my older brother earlier this year. I didn’t get to say goodbye because it was sudden. Which is a different pain then seeing them go and saying goodbye knowing you won’t see them again after that. It doesn’t matter how you lose someone or how long ago it was, its just painful. You are so strong and such an inspiration. You’ve kept on living and are living life to the fullest and that is amazing! 💕

[@elene_hbm]

you are so strong and I’m so sorry ❤️

[@miriam9419]

I used to be sad about not getting goodbyes from loved ones who died. Something which helped me is the realisation that all moments are equal. The goodbye doesn't mean more than the other times you have spent with them. For the people I didn't get a goodbye with I remember our other memories which were very precious. They know how I feel about them and I know how they felt about me. A goodbye may have been nice but it was not needed.

[@happie.maddie]

this one got me. i’m crying so hard. you are SO STRONG Nik.

[@Hoimetlaura]

Bizar how Linda walked with you and is now fighting her own battle 😭❤️🙏🏼

[@femkehoekstra6486]

Ik weet het kon niet stoppen met erover nadenken😭

[@normalopez3941]

What’s wrong with Linda?

[@mathwithme7423]

@@normalopez3941 she has breastcancer and is current getting chemo treatment

[@noukvantzelfde6724]

@kat sanrio the tumor has shrunk and there are no metastases... hope and pray for her🙏🏼

[@sidneywedge2477]

This episode was painfully beautiful. Having lost both my parents in a 3 year span, I am all too familiar with the pain.

[@lovebug9386]

Same honestly... Sorry for your loss 🙏

[@MercedesAmyx]

I have went through the same. Praying for you & im here if you need to talk. ❤️

[@andradascurtu3905]

I'm sorry for your loss, you can have friend in me if you need.

[@suzanfeenstra5276]

💛

[@jennifertustin6629]

My boyfriend also lost both parents in a short timespan. I’m so sorry for your losses.

[@sarahandrea7232]

Wow. I am speechless. I never knew your story. I myself lost 2 brothers. The pain is absolutely unreal. Thank you for making this video. You opening up about your story shows others and yourself that no one is alone in this. Sending you all my love♥️

[@blueeyedscorpio7]

Ever since my mom has passed away from three types of cancers.. my life has NEVER been the same without her! I loss my father at 12.. It really does take a toll on a person to get through the years without their loved ones by their side!! 💔💔

[@ronnimesser]

I lost my little brother too. This video literally made me cry for the first time in a long time about that loss.

[@Hippidippimahm]

I’m so sorry. I hope you’re doing as well as you can ❤️

[@desireenichole_]

The shirt of her brother popped up when she needed him most 🥺✨ he’s always with you and he was definitely there for you in that moment! Love you Nikki!!!!!!

[@theonlydaxone]

This was so sad. I nearly cried the whole time. Im so sorry for your loss and he would be so proud of his big sister. So much love from your neighbour country germany 💗💗 be safe, be healthy, be strong, be nikkie 💗

[@priapus6145]

I'm a Gay guy, I like makeup and I'm from Kuwait. I'm glad you brought up the issue, I feel suffocated here and I'm desperate for a way out.

[@bubble1778]

I hope this doesnt come off in the wrong way and if it does i truly apologize however Im honestly curious as to how people in kuwait react and feel towards your sexuality. I will admit im very ignorant on these topics in other countries and i would love to learn more. Anyways sending love your way

[@zunroniz1732]

Same .. I'm from Pakistan and we have the same issues. I just want to go where we can live the way we want. I'm just dying here slowly .

[@mileena7ily]

Don’t give up! I’m sorry you have to hide parts of who you truly are. You deserve the freedom to be yourself and To be happy evitación who you are. I would hope things get better for you and everyone who deals with the same issue in the future.

[@angelamorrow8973]

@@bubble1778 from what I know men can face jail time for being gay. I remember reading about men being executed for being gay.

[@mynoxx01]

@@bubble1778 Im pretty sure telling other people about your sexuality is not a thing in Kuwait.

[@gracethompson6926]

I literally feel like I can’t breathe watching this. So raw.

[@FransceneJK98]

So dramatic.

[@gracethompson6926]

@@FransceneJK98 clearly never lost a sibling have you.

[@FransceneJK98]

@@gracethompson6926 not a sibling but I lost many family members in a war so let’s not compare

[@babysenpai3883]

I just kept crying

[@sarak.]

I cried so hard when she hugged Dylan and Mama at the finish line. We love you so much queen 🌺💖❤️

[@yvettegietl1759]

I feel that losing a sibling is like losing a child cos we help raise each other X

[@jessaguilar4747]

This comment is everything....So true. I’m much older than my siblings, 6 years older than my brother and 8 years older than my sister (dad was military so they waited after having me) I was another mom, still am in many ways. I can’t imagine losing them. Nikki is so strong to be able to get through this. Thank you for your comment, it really touched my heart ❤️

[@arol1644]

I couldn’t do life without my brother. I know I would have to find a way to survive it, but I would be heartbroken beyond repair. The same goes to my mom. I can’t imagine life without them.

[@deepasmakeupstory1286]

The moment she hugged dylan.. oh ghosh though my brother is alive but only the thought of loosing him got me crying so badly 😭😭

[@travelbird4644]

I lost my husband and 2 of my children. There are times I sit alone in my car and scream , to let the pressure of the pain out. On days that I am feeling strong, I talk about them so their memory can live on. I live my life to the fullest to respect that they weren't able to and appreciate that I have that privilege. I'm sorry for the loss of your brother, I feel your pain. Thanks for sharing his memory and your journey ♡

[@hannahscott5779]

You are so incredibly strong. I dont know you but I'm proud of you for pushing through and for waking up and conquering every day with out them.

[@bubble1778]

I cant imagine going through what you have. Sending lots of love and happy thoughts your way.

[@simple_naildesigns]

So sorry for your loss 🙏🏽

[@Mia-mv1ew]

it seems like she gives herself so much pressure to keep getting millions of views like when she was viral. I think its important to accept that views will never stay high forever. the pressure is so unnecessary and unhealthy.

[@kirstybarrett4141]

It doesn’t seem like that at all

[@nolaray1062]

These are amazing, Nikkie. Makes me respect you even more.

[@GeekG22]

I started crying so hard when she finished the walk.. i lost my grandmother last year due to leukemia so this hits hard

[@bubble1778]

Sending virtual hugs and happy thoughts your way

[@sierragayle123]

I lost my little brother too, to a car accident. I miss him so much everyday. I am so sorry for your loss. We will see them again one day. Rock on Nikkie!

[@hanniehmar8885]

Sometimes the realization that I’ve lost my little brother hits me so hard I have this suffocating feeling, it gets hard to breathe, thick heavy clouds of emptiness covers me whole and all I can do is wait for it to pass me.

[@snackwraps]

that’s how i am with my grandma. she raised me and I lost her in august. this is the perfect explanation for how i feel

[@vanessahollenbach85]

I am so, so sorry for your loss...

[@CorshaLishell]

I’m sorry for your loss. If you don’t mind me asking, how do you prefer your friends to be there for you? My bestie lost her brother and As a friends I wish I was there more.

[@soloataraxia]

I lost my grandma's and this is how I feel. Like being trapped in a hole that I'm trying to scape but is impossible.

[@neetuh4850]

I lost my little sister and I get it. I know the pain too.

[@caitlinmariah7141]

Oh the tears... this brought back SOOO many memories of when my brother passed away. I tried so hard to push it back in my mind and hold my parents together and the rest of my brothers. One lesson I have learned through that... you ARE allowed to be strong and vulnerable at the same time. Your mental health with thank you later.

[@jaym6940]

I feel so terrible she couldn’t come out in this like she was probably supposed to

[@lucasdegennaro]

One minute in this video and I’m crying like a baby! No parents should have to lose a child. My parents when threw that and I know how scaring that is. So sad 💜

[@alissandralopez299]

it’s been 2 years since my big brother passed and it’s still so hard i admire you a lot

[@africareigns]

I am truly sorry for your loss. ❤

[@christttmasssholidddayyys497]

RIP

[@greenmachine5600]

Stay strong❤️

[@alyn849]

i started crying the moment she said "he's waiting for you", again when she introduced dylan, and then again when she finished the marathon

[@stefanie3306]

I usually never cry when there’s a sad story in a KZbin video but seeing Nikkie cry just broke me down to tears. You’re such an amazing women don’t stop what you’re going 🥺❤️

[@sophielouisafarrell4236]

Watching this and not being able to hug her is the hardest thing, can't stop crying. Please look after yourself Nikki, you don't always have to be strong 💛

[@ParanormalGeek]

Again I’m so sorry for your loss.. thank you for sharing this you don’t realize how many people you’re helping with sharing this with so many people especially in such a year like 2020 is 🙏🏼🌹💔

[@traceymoore2777]

My heart broke in this episode. The hug and tears with Dylan and her mom...I love you Nikki. xx

[@laurenristaino9691]

My little brother passed in 2018 leaving behind 2 of the sweetest little girls on the planet. It's so hard to lose a younger sibling like a part of you dies with them. 💔

[@kellinorris134]

I just love you girl. Every time you almost cried, I cried for you and when you cried, I cried with you. You are such an inspiration. Keep it up!

[@binnazabdalla77]

This was such an emotional episode 😢❤️ you’re so strong

[@emmakoenders2089]

I cried when you made the finish line and all those people were cheering. Such a powerful moment

[@alessiaabrate7975]

I have a little cousin but I can't imagine what losing a lil brother feels like..rest in peace ❤️💯 stay strong nikkie

[@e.a2099]

I've been through this with my big brother unfortunately, and it traumatizes.. courage to her.. And I hope you don't lose your cousin!! Kiss!🥰 And Stay strong Nikki, you're not Stay strong Nikkie, you're not alone ❤️💪🏻

[@lauraheath1502]

Your brother sounds like a soldier and he fought just to see you, that’s so touching ❤️❤️ i feel for you as I lost my father and omg I’m crying now

[@thegingerx]

Seeing Dylan cry with Nikkie almost broke me open ♥️ True partners share their pain. What a beautiful moment.

[@cmcm4204]

Her and Dylan reminds me of the taylor swift song “peace” where she’s apologising because her partner will never have a normal life because of her 💕

[@Nothing.nobody.]

Brilliant song

[@suzannekruyswijk]

Exactly what I thought off! They were and are in a similar situation I think. So sad...

[@kaylee.dejong]

I’m so sorry for your loss... whenever you talk about Mikai or his pictures are shown, I immediately break down crying. Can’t imagine how it must be like for you and your family. Amazing to see you participating charity in his name. Amazing to see Dylan waiting for you. Amazing to see you feeling safe with Dylan to finally break down hugging him. I’m so glad you found your person to ride this journey of life with. Glad you found Dylan to be there for you whenever you need someone (and vice versa ofcourse). Again: I’m so so so sorry for your loss. Sending you love from Nederland - Brabant (!) - Berghem (dorpje naast Oss). ❤️✨🦋

[@telaraday8743]

I'm so beyond proud of you for sharing such vulnerability with us all Nikki. You are strong. You are HUMAN. Remember that. I love you so much!

[@minasixx9457]

I cried a lot watching this. I lost my big brother in a car accident only 20 days before Mikai passed away. Thank you for sharing this with us. You are such a wonderful and strong person. I hope I'll meet you one day and give you a big hug. Thank you Nikkie, we love you 🖤

[@ma-yi9ye]

i hope u feel better now

[@minasixx9457]

@cxwwxc thank you 🖤 It's hard of course and will be forever. Therapy helps learning to live with it 🖤

[@katdimitriadis]

Humans have the ability to be so amazing. Everyone clapping as Nikkie reached the finish line, all that support, kindness and love; I burst into tears. Thanks for showing us you in this series Nikkie. You give so many of us the courage to go forth with authenticity

[@andrear5960]

I cried so much because I relate so much to you. My younger brother has a disability and sometimes I just zone out to forget about it. It is hard seeing someone you love so much not being able to live their best life. Sending my love you you Nikkie, xo.

[@mgmadera2]

I remember when you went thru this. When you took time off to go do fun things with him and your family. He was so happy. Love you so much Nikkie. 😭❤

[@lyannsantos9960]

He waited 😭 I’m in tears! I’m so sorry for your loss! You’re so strong!

[@BBeautyLover92]

I cried throughout the whole video, and the fact that he waited for you!! 💔❤️😓 and when she hugged Dylan at the finish line 💔❤️ I lost my grandma 3 years ago and it still feels fresh 💔

[@lilraycub]

Thanks for sharing your story of the loss of your younger brother. As we speak my younger sister is fighting for her life in ICU. I never thought that i would be in the position to see my sister in a fragile state. She has always been such a fighter. I am dealing with this struggle with immersing myself in work and school. You help me realize to take a step back and spend the time supporting my family through this time. Once again thanks for opening my eyes. Much love.

[@user-lg3ub6ip9v]

I lost my son 2019 he was half my world his brother who is now 17 is so strong like you everyday. My love to you and your mom

[@Smittenhamster]

Ugh, I cannot even imagine. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. Children should never pass before their parents. The very thought of losing my own child runs chills down my spine.

[@missym2397]

Sending love

[@ayamakhlouf5000]

Be strong my dear ❤ I'm sorry for you 😢

[@zunroniz1732]

@@Smittenhamster No don't say that.. 😢 I lost my mom and dad same month and for me i lost my world. It's been 3 years and i still can't move on and i don't think i ever will. 😞

[@Smittenhamster]

@@zunroniz1732 You may understand what I mean when you have children of your own. Having said that, grief is no competition about who has it worse and I never intended to say that. Your feelings are as true and valid as OPs. I'm sorry for your loss and hope you will find some level of peace in the future. I'm not sure if it means anything to you to hear that from an internet stranger but your parents did a great job raising you. If you miss them that much they must have given you a lot of love and care which in turn builds a foundation for you to be able to do the same.

[@renaebanyard3219]

I bawled my eyes out when you crossed that finish line! and was cheering at the screen as if it was live. Your brohter wouldve been so proud of you ♥ I have yet to finish the series but just wanted to also say, thank you for being so vulenrable for us. you have no idea how many people relate to you Nik ♥ We love you!

[@ilonasmolders386]

Pffff there I am, minding my Monday night, crying my eyes out at this series and the beautiful Nikkie, with the most beautiful music by Eefje. Well done, Linda!

[@jellybeanfiasco916]

Nikkie is so beautiful inside and out. I’m so glad she showed this side of herself.

[@celineg3511]

The way Dylan cried with her after she finished the walk for Mikai 😭 he’s the one