Costco & Primark Shop, A Healing Cry, Cosy Bedtime Routine, Wedding Venue Chat & Dance Mum Life!VLOG

[@Samkeepgoing]

Oh Louise we all wish we could give you a big collective hug right now 😢

[@VelvetVolcano]

We really do 💜 sending you so much love Louise 💖

[@PeachyTash]

Yes this is exactly what I came in the comments to say

[@helencatgardner]

I've just seen this today and as I'm watching I'm tearing up with Louise. I came here to say I wish I could give you a hug also. You are incredible for opening up and being honest with this person, Louise. People need to know. You are amazing, and you are right. It's not your dirty laundry. Sending you so many hugs 💗💖

[@anjalibhat14]

My mother survived childhood abuse and she broke the cycle. She's been the kindest, most loving, most generous parent to me and my sister; we are truly blessed and I love her so much. I see the same happening with you. The bath time clip was so soothing, so healing, so gentle, and so indicative of the fact that you're giving your daughters a childhood brighter than your own. You're amazing, Louise. I'm so sorry for what you went through, but so proud of your recovery.

[@Louisepentland]

This comment means SUCH a lot to me and I'm SO glad your Mum broke the cycle, what an amazing woman xxx

[@hannah9184]

@@Louisepentlandyou’re doing the same Louise! The strongest women 💜

[@shirleymclean5895]

How bloody dare people be cruel to others - losers!A lady once said to me ‚ hey, look on the bright side, they will be dead one day! RESULT👍lol

[@TamaraHarrison-v1f]

Massive hugs❤

[@Rubyisgrowing]

Wow good for you. “It’s not my dirt” will stay with me, what wisdom xx

[@Louisepentland]

[@kimoaks6999]

crying and clapping!@@Louisepentland

[@hannahprentice10399]

Wow! Little Louise would be so so proud of you not only sharing it with us but sharing it with someone who you knew was in her life! Forever proud of you Louise. All the things you are doing is really helping little Louise🩷

[@adriana7144]

Stopped midway because I wanted to say how proud of you I am. I grew up in a home with an abusive parent so I know the effect it can have. You handle it so, so well. Way better than I do. Please don’t beat yourself up for the way you reacted. What you did is so brave and important.

[@rachelmirren]

Louise, thanks for sharing your vulnerability after your interaction with the person at Costco. It's really important and it's good you shared with both that person and with us. ❤ xx

[@rachaelzimmerman7262]

“I came to Costco for pasta not PTSD” love it! You can make everyone laugh as we cry 😊

[@julieconstable9081]

Thats a massive thing for you to do to someone you've not seen for years. You're such a strong inspirational woman. Sending you so much love ❤️

[@michelleschroeder7144]

It's amazing to me to see that after all you went through as a child, you've grown into a beautiful, successful, sweet, caring woman and mother. She didn't win. You survived and have become the kind of mum your mother would have surely been to you. You deserve all the best ❤

[@racheladams8137]

As soon as you said, “this is not what this vlog is for” I found myself shouting - YES IT IS!! This is exactly what it’s for!! What a gift that we get to hold these tiny pieces of your story. Praying your strength to share might give hope or endurance to someone watching with a similar story or pain. And I’m thankful for the Mom it has helped you become. So thankful that if another kid at the girls’ school or dance schools was experiencing something similar they’d have a Mom like you to run to. I’m not thankful for your suffering, but so thankful to see what God has done with it ❤️

[@rachellouise6241]

That abuser does not get to go through life Scot free - she chose to abuse you and so you should tell everyone in the world. Doing this is stopping other little ones being abused by her AND other children in general, people will hear your story and relate it to their situation and it will help. Spread the word always, i’m so sorry it’s so hard but how brave and strong are you? Year by year you are helping and even saving more children 😊❤

[@siancross8675]

Had to stop part way through just to comment. You are such a brilliant, emotionally intelligent, empathetic person. You dealt with that situation so well both in the moment and afterwards. That includes everything that you described, the freezing up, the opening up, the shutting down afterwards and then crying whilst explaining it all perfectly. That is so important and so hard to do, and you did a fantastic job of it ALL. I found myself having a conversation with you (at the screen) whilst you were explaining it all wanting so much to reassure and encourage you as you went. You said you don’t know what this blog is for and who is to know that something like that would happen but this blog is now an amazing example for so many others as to how human it is to feel like this and totally understandable it is, but then also showing how to deal with it in a way that is helpful all whilst explaining and rationalising and reasoning with everything you were noticing about how you felt at the same time despite how overwhelming it can seem. You are a role model for so many for showing how you feel and how you dealt with it. So so very proud of you. ❤❤❤

[@Louisepentland]

This comment is everything to me, thank you xxx

[@amyhughesbudgie]

You're so right, healing is sometimes just as painful as the initial abuse. But it is an upwards trajectory. You should be so proud of yourself for facing such pain so bravely ❤

[@mjmomo541]

Being the size of a borrower inside someone´s pocket was actually one of my favourite childhood dreams because the idea of being protected felt so comforting! xx

[@justmemyselfandtime3]

I’m so so proud of you for your interaction outside CostCo. Being that vulnerable and brave is hard but you deserve to be able to talk about it! Re: your reaction and how you felt after, from a biological point of view your brain/nervous system was thrown right back to those memories and your brain doesn’t know the difference between if it’s happening or not, so your fight or flight system massively kicked in to protect which is why you felt so shaken and adrenaline-y. Its a completely normal reaction when you’re re-processing those kind of memories and feelings. It’s also so empowering to see you let yourself feel but also remind yourself that you’re safe now. Hope you’re feeling a little better these days💛

[@satujohanna6334]

We can see this was huge for you and you didn't hide! That is taking back control and standing up for little Louise. You did great and you are not alone ♥

[@lauras6716]

Oh Louise, you should be so proud of yourself. I can't imagine how hard that was. I am so glad Liam was there after x

[@sarahbrierley6311]

Thank you for being so honest and raw, tears streaming down my face but it helps in some weird way to hear someone vocalising what I didn’t know I felt. I can’t imagine having to have a conversation with someone who knew my abuser (even saying that!), you did a very strong and empowering thing for yourself to speak up xx

[@samanthafenwick5286]

You are so brave. It's difficult when people have no idea what closet monsters they associate with. The effects narcissistic abusers put people through are life-long and you never know when a memory could trigger. You did the right thing ❤️

[@lydiarosebrita4901]

I think it's good you told him. I was abused by a family member and it is such progress to not be keeping the secret anymore. If that guy was a decent kind person then he would be grateful that he knows who the person really is. I think I've learnt from telling different people that their response says more about them than it does about me.

[@jacdyson]

I'm so grateful you've chosen to share your story. I've always felt that it connected with my experiences, but the mentions of animal trauma especially hit home. Thank you for your vulnerability, thank you for sharing and I wish you all the best with your journey 💓

[@JodieJPorteous]

Louise, thank you so much for being so vulnerable in sharing your experience. I found it so healing listening to you process that situation. Those incredibly wise words; 'it's not my dirt' will stay with me. The pain you've endured & are still healing from everyday is horrific, but i know in bravely sharing your story you will help so many. Hugs always, please be SO PROUD of you xxx

[@kerryjemmett9382]

Sobbing watching this, I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Childhood trauma can hit you at the strangest times. Every time I go back to where I grew up I feel drained when I get home because of trying to hold it together. Sending hugs xx

[@GrammyRose]

I can guarantee he thought about you all during his shop. And yes, this is what this blog is for. You're not alone. And look at how far you've come!! Be proud of that. ❤❤❤

[@rosiemoore2285]

Joining everyone else in saying I'm so proud of you Louise. Not only for how you handled the situation but also for sharing it. It was an important representation of such a real experience which spoke to me in my own trauma and I'm sure everyone else. You're so strong 💞

[@keirawalsh7950]

Louise I have never stopped a video to comment before but I was so moved by what you said and just so amazed by your grace and strength. You will help so many by sharing your story and your healing. Thank you ❤

[@Rachael8989]

I loved this blog Louise, just so homey and cosy. It was hard to see you so upset, especially when you spoke about your cats being harmed and having to watch 💔 but you are amazing for overcoming what you have gone through.

[@minxsmovies2525]

Omg past Louise would be so so proud of you just telling that one person and I for one hope that gentleman goes back and tells every single person what that pathetic excuse of a woman did to you and you are also so brave just sharing that conversation with us you truly are an inspiration, massive hug from myself to you 🥰

[@ajs511]

Oh Louise, I cried with you this vlog. You are such a beautiful, special, and relatable soul. You are one of the people who brings me the most comfort, and I want to say thank you for not only sharing your daily life, but sharing your deep feelings with us. You are so loved and appreciated.

[@zoe7day]

Louise, I’m so proud of you - I’ve been watching for years and years and I can really see your growth. To be able to stand tall from your trauma and say it as is - “abuse”! - takes real courage. Sending you big hugs xx

[@MicheleCrastes-jm9pf]

My heart broke for you as you went through telling this person the things that person did to you and your fur babies! Love you and you are a strong beautiful woman!💕💕

[@Hellokahea808]

Gavin and Stacey when Mick finds the dead body. Anyways, thank you so much, Louise, for your sharing. I love your openness and vulnerability. You’re right that healing doesn’t always look pretty ❤️‍🩹 so proud of you ❤

[@abbeyobrien327]

Louise, thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability. I haven't watched youtube much in the last while (work, life, blah blah) but I have followed you for years. Your experiences and effort to heal really resonates with me. You should be so proud of yourself for not owning other people's dirt. It is something I struggle with, and it's so refreshing to see someone bringing real and sometimes tough experiences to this space.

[@onemarathon1]

Louise I’m watching this on the train and trying not to cry. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us 🩷

[@imjoat7551]

Oh Louise I cried with you. Hearing about your cats was horrific, I can’t even begin to understand the trauma you have been through x but thank you for sharing it’s so important xx ❤

[@HazelMcBrideAuthor]

Stopped the vlog halfway to let you know how heard you are. How supported. How loved. You make such a difference in people's lives and the abuse you suffered does not define you. ❤

[@lauradore_a]

Good for you for telling him that. Holding your hand and having a cry with you, the stuff you’ve been through is exactly that, not your dirt. You’re a survivor xxx

[@ttttthea]

as a fellow person with PTSD, I laughed OUT LOUDDDDD when you said "just wanted to go get my jumbo pack of pasta, not PTSD", because that just sums it up perfectly doesn't it 🥹 the possibility of being triggered anytime, anywhere 🫠 thanks for your vulnerability louise

[@JulEnglefaris]

Its insane how quickly trauma can sneak up on you OUT OF NOWHERE. Ive had a similar experience and it shook me so much, how much is still affected me after so many years and as an adult. Sending love.

[@charlottewenban2931]

"Healing doesn't always look that good, does it". Really so proud of you and in awe of you as a longterm watcher x

[@Andrea.S.G]

Oh Louise! You are such a strong woman. You keep fighting and simultaneously motivating other people to stand up for themself❤️

[@Niichooollaa]

The switch from Disney joy to having to face those memories must have made it extra painful. This was heartbreaking to listen to, I can’t imagine how hard it must have hit you. I hope you took some time for yourself after this but thank you for being so vocal about your past. You’re surely helping a lot of children speak out about abuse. Absolute champion.

[@lauriedell813]

I’ve only just now stumbled onto this vlog, but I’m so glad I watched, because your decision to show us a vulnerable moment and explain some of what had happened really has put something into perspective for me. I very recently got out of an extremely abusive living situation with someone I thought was a dear friend (they disproved this the second I stopped being a doormat and finally stood up for myself) and your phrase “it’s not my dirt” really hit home for me. It takes so much courage to talk about your trauma, no matter how long it’s been. Thank you for sharing, it’s truly going to help others going through a similar battle with heavy trauma. ❤

[@TheHanification]

Paused the video just because I wanted to comment on how STRONG and extraordinary you came across in that clip. I can only imagine the whirlwind of emotions something like that must have brought up in you, so unexpectedly, but I was nodding and agreeing with every word you said. It did look like healing: it looked like somebody who was coming to terms with something that was not her fault and is certainly not her secret to hide or diminish for the comfort of others. Well done you, hope you're feeling proud and bit by bit, you can release the pain you've been holding onto all of this time. Sending so much love and admiration xxx

[@emilykennedy4904]

Your gorgeous girls are so polite, they’re such a credit to you and your amazing parenting. You’re such a wonderful role model ❤️

[@LordandLordettes]

Oh Louise. 😔 I want to give you a virtual hug. I know it won't fix your broken heart but to just know we are always here for you. Sending lots of love xxx❤

[@natalieharrigan8328]

Thank you for talking so openly and honestly about your childhood experiences of abuse. I understand it must be immensely difficult to do and yet so important at the same time. Sending you love ❤

[@maypicknell6796]

This exactly what these vlogs are. A release for you and also a place for us to know we are not alone on life’s struggles xx well done to you for saying it to the person.. you are a strong woman xxx

[@yaneryventura9705]

Long time sprinklerino here. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability Louise. I was so incredibly impressed and proud of you and the huge amount of growth and healing you have done over these years. I definitely got teary listening to that part. Keep on keeping on ❤

[@dooter6024]

I like Liam even more now!! Oh Lou, we all really do want to just hug you. Those of us who also survived childhood abuse I think really understood what you were feeling in that moment. For me, EMDR has been hugely, hugely helpful. Whatever works for you, I hope you find it. You deserve everything beautiful and positive in your life with your gorgeous family xx

[@lilycollins3159]

My god, I actually adore you. You bring me so much light, I can't thank you enough for being THIS honest and true to yourself. I've been watching you from the VERY beginning and you're the only youtuber I've truly stuck with after all these years, because you're just so down to earth and just the bested egg

[@29051967]

"It's not my dirt" is such an empowering phrase, thank you for the reminder xxI think of it every time I have a wobble xx. I'm so sorry you had to go through what you did, your bravery and courage to speak out is inspirational. You already know this in your heart, you are an amazing mother and a brave cycle breaker❤ from an oldie but goldie xx

[@Loren641]

Watching you brush Pearl’s hair made me feel extremely sad and joyous at the same time. Thinking of everything you were put through, and then seeing you w/ her makes me think about your breaking that generational trauma. 🌸🌞

[@lillyhilton1964]

Louise I can not thank you enough for being yourself and sharing your life with us. Seeing you being open about your abuse is really helping me heal with mine (on going). You give me so much hope that one day you can be better ❤

[@JonasBrotherLuver122]

Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable, sending hugs!!! I've been supporting your journey for a long time, and your heart/how you parent is an absolute shining example - you're loving, patient, imaginative, thoughtful, empathetic, resilient, honest, crafty, hilarious, spontaneous, etc! I wish you, Liam, Darcy, and Pearl all the best

[@JuMixBoox]

That was so strong of you to tell him. I can't imagine how much it must have taken to not just look for the fastest way out of that situation and confront what happened instead. I wish I could hug you tight. You're doing amazing.

[@moomin6006]

Sending you all the love! You're incredible and you haven't let such horrific experiences corrupt your character or spirit. You are such a strong person, your girls are so lucky to have you and couldn't have a better role model.

[@HH-ig3ck]

Louise you are changing lives every time you share your story ♥️

[@HH-ig3ck]

And you’re doing it for little louise ♥️

[@H0ckney91]

I just want to scoop you up in a massive hug 😘 Thank you for sharing your story and for being a strong female to look up to xxx

[@humorme991]

I admire your strength and bravery so much! Not only for speaking about your trauma, but also for your commitment to be so vastly different from the person who hurt you. You are a place of love and safety for your daughters. You can be for them what you needed as a child and that is a victory! ❤

[@juliasherlock1757]

Thank you for not filtering the life out of your videos I’m so proud of how far you have come and you owning your past is incredibly brave xxxx sending loads of love to you and your family ❤❤

[@EleanorTin12]

Oh Louise, sending some hugs, life does like to throw some massive curveballs at us and you dealt with this shock beautifully. I'm going through therapy myself right now and seeing you just cry and be honest is so validating that i'm not alone. Find the good- and remember you have come so far and have a whole glitter family driving you on.

[@RacheeFace22]

Sending so many massive hugs Louise, you are so so very brave and I am so glad you can speak your experiences that shows just how far you’ve come. You are the very best egg ❤❤❤❤

[@PeachyTash]

So absolutely proud of you for speaking up more and more about what you need to share to help you heal. I understand some of the pain and I just want to reach out and hug you through the screen. Long time glitterino from before Darcy was born and it’s been a blessing to watch you become an incredible and safe mother while also healing yourself. Sending lots of love xx

[@kakerunaruse6352]

My mum had substance misuse issues since i was five. I remember finding your vlogs in my early teens and watching them made me feel so safe. Now i'm 22, breaking the cycle and still feeling so safe when i watch your vlogs. Thank you Louise for giving me the hope i so desprately needed back then.

[@amandarees1411]

Oh Louise I feel so sad for the young girl going through that and feeling alone. You are so strong and are an amazing woman

[@rossag4623]

Thanks for this video Louise. I think you were totally right to tell him that his friend isn’t a good person, well done. You’re brave and wonderful Louise thank you❤️

[@hsimpson6581]

You have never gone into detail about what happened in your past. It was far more horrific than I ever imagined. I just love you Louise!❤

[@Louisepentland]

Very, very hard to say outoud the specific details. Imagine the worst and youre halfway there. x

[@racheleleanor1992]

Sending you so much love Louise. I wanted to give you a massive hug when you were crying. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable with us - it's really great to hear you are healing even though it doesn't always look pretty. And thank you for consistently being a cosy joyful online presence xx

[@daphnehampshire7629]

I was mowing my yard listening to your video. I stopped to give it my full attention when you were crying. I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine how up were treated. Hugs

[@carolineibbetson5395]

Louise Thankyou for being so brave x I’ve been emotionally and psychologically abused for 54 yrs now by my narcissistic mother and everytime I tell someone it lessens the load xxx you are an amazing woman and she can no longer hurt you x you are safe now x sending you lots of love xxx😊

[@rhiannontodd9040]

You are such a strong, lovely and kind person Louise. I’m sorry you bumped into someone that brought back those horrible experiences but I think you handled it extremely well. I wish I could give you a hug, you are an amazing role model and should be so proud of yourself x

[@rhiannontodd9040]

Also, love the gavin and Stacy quote!! ❤

[@le4977]

You are so courageous and brave to speak up and tell him... Your honesty and genuine rawness is something I'm so in awe with. There are people watching you who you make feel seen and heard. 💛 I hope you know how much we all care about you

[@Christinaruthpascoe90]

Louise we are all so proud of you, you owned the situation, faced your trauma and made one more person in the world aware of abuse. We love you xxx

[@taragould4144]

Gosh, that was a hard watch Louise 😢 i cant imagine living through that, what a horrific, poisonous woman. Love Liams advice though, never thought of it that way - its not new trauma, just old stuff that has bubbled up due to bumping into someone from that time. I'm glad you spoke your truth and unloaded a bit of pain. Why should you have to suffer it all inside?!! Sending all the love ❤

[@elizabethl8979]

You are so brave And you have ended that cycle of violence completely. Your girls are safe because of you. You are amazing. I love you ❤

[@nickibishop8456]

This was heartbreaking to listen to, I’m so sorry this happened to you, it sounds horrendous. Sending you love ❤️ you’re incredible xx

[@angeloddrev]

Well done Louise. I can identify, as you begin to heal you are able to express yourself and you did a magnificent job. You will be surprised how many people actually knew something was wrong, but didn't have any concrete evidence and didn't want to rock the boat by asking questions. That surprised me when I started to talk more openly. You've done fantastically, eventually it will catch up with her in one way or another. It's good that at least one more person now knows the truth about this woman. I'm sorry you had to go through that ♥ It's important to also realize they will have continued that behaviour wherever they went, so it isn't personal although it feels like it.

[@marllyburnett4433]

Oh Louise I want to give you such a hug, I'm so sorry you have suffered so much xxx

[@alisonhulett2935]

You are such an inspiration- particularly to those of us survivors of abuse- thank you for your immense bravery and vulnerability xxx

[@Abigailrose109]

Thank you for sharing your Costco interaction. You're so right; it's not your dirt and props to you for even being able to share that. Always appreciate you being so real and honest with us.

[@eleanorjanewilliams3539]

Hi Louise, I used to watch you years ago and I am so over the moon to have come across and see you still do your vlogs (notifs now on!). Hands down the most comforting content ever. You are so wonderful...your sense of humour, candidness, intellect, creativity. Also, I remember watching you open up about your past a long time ago and it certainly urged me to think about and move through my own. It's so moving to see you grow through it all. You are remarkable. Thank you for sharing the most simple day to day "mundanities" to the depth of your own healing, and for keeping going all these years. Steadfast people like you are hard to come by online! Love and prayers! Ellie x P.s. what you said about "not my dirt" is fantastic - after doing lots of healing with all the professional help you can imagine, I've never framed these past experiences in that way.

[@amandacoffey3676]

I'm so sorry you had to experience that encounter but I'm so proud of you Louise, you have come a long way on your recovery and healing journey. xxx

[@rebeccaconnor8253]

Thank you so so much for sharing this difficult part to your day. I've had similar experiences regarding my abusive ex, walking past the smellies isle in boots and smelling his aftershave, nearly knocked me into next week. So much panic and horror over something simple like an aftershave, it's crazy how ptsd can transport you to the most horrible places and make you feel like you're in danger again. I really appreciate you sharing these raw moments and emotions because they're very very relatable and I think you're the only youtuber I've ever seen share something like this. Thank you Louise and take care of yourself

[@charlotteslowsdown]

I am so far behind on videos so even though I know you likely won’t see this Louise I have to comment because it needs to be said that you are a massive inspiration. Thank you for being such a strong, brave, fantastic women. Thank you for being you, thank you for showing that you can still achieve so much even when you’ve been through such horrible, unacceptable things. I am so proud of you!

[@larissat2943]

You deserve every light and every little bit of love that comes your way. Thank you for bringing so much light to the Internet ❤❤❤

[@juststef2451]

Hugs to you Louise. No one should have to go through that trauma. Especially a child. But you are right, it is healthy to get those sad emotions out.

[@Sophiieeeeeeee]

You’re right, it’s not your dirt and you are the most wonderful human who brightens my day whenever I watch your videos 🤍

[@gracepattie]

You are a wonderful person, Louise. Overcoming the trauma and abuse you went through and still being as kind and hopeful and warm as you are shows utmost strength of character. Sending a big hug, lovely lady. 😘🤍

[@angeladanielsu4g565]

This Vlog was incredible, to talk about a vunerable subject, and the conclusions you came to. Thank you for sharing. You are inspirational. ❤

[@Francescavalletta77]

Made me so sad to see you cry, your such a beautiful kind person. I really admire what you said about it not being your dirt, your so right xxxxxxx❤

[@natalielhamilton]

I cried with you and for you Louise. I have so much love for you and anyone who is on a healing journey ❤❤❤❤

[@joeups72]

So happy you have Liam in your life when things come out of nowhere in relation to your abuse and so proud of you for all the work you have done with therapists over the last few years. It broke my heart to see the impact the memories had on you, you truly are incredible to be the kind and caring human you are today despite all her evil. Just wanted to hug you and remind you how amazing you are. Thanks for the Costco show and tell I’m an in and out as quickly as possible girl - and have to agree re the fruit and veg going off quickly especially that in the massive fridge area! ❤❤

[@films_by_jo]

That quote 'not my dirty laundry, not my dirt' holy hell that absolutely hit me, what a beautiful and poignant way of phrasing it

[@unfabulous912]

I've watched you for years and every single time, I think how utterly amazing you are. 💖

[@amandarose7874]

Louise, you are so incredible. You are vulnerable, strong and an inspiration. I really appreciate you showing yourself in such a raw moment. I'm so sorry for what you've experienced. You are not alone. People just don't talk about it. Thank you❤❤❤. Im so happy for you and Liam looking forward to celebrating your love and life together!

[@donttrustthegnomes]

Trauma is so tricky that way. It comes pouring out at the strangest times. I'm so grateful to you for sharing this moment of trauma and healing with us 🩷

[@bethanyfield6035]

Thank you for sharing your healing journey wirh us, your honesty, vulnerability and showing people that its ok to feel trauma emotions and process them in a healthy way is so important ❤

[@alexaburton2138]

Louise, I haven’t watched your videos since the early-KZbin-era days, but I came across this video and it was like a big hug. Warm, genuine, relatable, soothing ❤️

[@melaniec.8054]

I'm sending you a huge hug filled with positive & loving energy. That took courage to speak your truth & release some of the bottled up negative "dirt" that woman tried to keep hidden from the world. Sunlight is the enemy of darkness, you allowed the light to shine & defeat that dark shadow. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. It inspires me to have more courage as well. ❤️