Love you Mac,I want you to know ,i never judged you when you came out with your truth,I was molested by my father,long story,but I ended up forgiving him before he died,I understand how hard it can be to love your father but hate some things he did,I know I mentioned this once before under a fb post I think and you liked it but your Dad was my 13th cousin once removed through my moms fathers side and your dads Mothers side ,I pray for everyone in your family by name every day,I follow Chynna on Cal Preach too :)....I love what you said about" hands",have you heard Jewels song Hands?I am definitely a Empath too,and sing songs to my pets all the time and make up songs about them lol....I keep adding more the longer I listen :),I thought things would be better once my Dad past but thats when it all started hitting me,and most of my family are not in my life because I confronted my Dad and brought it to light,but I still pray for them....my mom was an alcoholic also,she drank the whole time she was pregnant with me,I was born with fetal alcohol syndrome.I am one who doesn't care to drink,never could really,but my ex husband was an addict and I have lost so many friends to drugs and alcohol :( so I can relate to so much that you say