GRWM in my *new* NYC apartment as I cut my hair and overshare more than i ever have before...

[@maiphammy]

AHHH I MOVED! so many updates in this video... i dont think ive ever posted a vid this long. I MISSED MY POOKIES. sign up for the MF ALCHEMAI DROP YALL PUH LEEAZE. alchemai.world BTW IM READING ALL MY COMMENTS RN SO PLZ COMMENT ❤❤❤ I missed yall sm

[@EnotE.13]

I knew she was busy this whole time and I am have been waiting patiently like a good subscriber 😅😊 have a great day 😁

[@Jandlescandle234]

Thanks for posting this Mai ❤ I am in a really dark place right now and you helped me so much, you always have. I can’t wait to buy a hoodie and thanks again. You are truly making an impact. Thank you.

[@deangelakhan5415]

@@maiphammy watching twice through because omg missed you! So glad to see you thriving and in your element.

[@khdb.8ja]

I’ve started watching your videos since the euphoria routine one and I can’t believe how much and how fast you’ve grown since that, I still remember the first New York vlog and how that video made me discover Jaded London and how you made vids in your LA kitchen talking about how you loved plates with those china prints. In a way even if it seems stupid so many of these tiny details affected my personality and the way I carry myself . I loved how unhinged and loud you expressed your thoughts and it made me feel more comfortable to do the same since you didn’t care about doing it infront of thousands of people. I related to you in so many ways. So even if you feel like we changed your life so so much in very small ways you changed us too. Love you Mai xx, your hard work pays off in many ways even if you don’t always notice it because even if you never read this, it won’t change how you impacted my life❤

[@YasmeenMO]

I miss the mai vlog Monday

[@genekay5940]

I’m autistic and your clothes are so comfortable for me, I struggle with hating the feeling of being perceived and those hoodies help me feel okay when I go outside, literally feel so good in them

[@maiphammy]

AWE wait that’s so amazing thank you for trusting me to buy one and I’m glad u love it!

[@Haiokbai]

Ahhhh shiet I hate the feeling of being perceived too and can easily wear the same outfit everyday lmao I need a huge hoodie now….

[@amaraezeoke8312]

I feels this so much 😭

[@genekay5940]

​@@maiphammyyour stuff is true girl! So excited for future alchemai!!

[@almeoww]

Phew. You’re back.😂 stop doing that thing where you disappear ! (Jk )I love your videos

[@natalynoemicabrerajimenez5341]

I just love when she goes MIA for a lifetime, and then comes back with a thousand life updates 😭❤️

[@anjanaasrinivasan]

mai i just wanna let you know that your videos are literally so healing. that entire "rant" that you went on about alchemai literally proves how much this truly means to you and it's not just another brand that another influencer makes. you inspire me everyday and you're so loved always

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!!!! And yesss u watched till the end of the video

[@mengisch]

as a content creator myself I AM SO GLAD you talked about brand deals. like soooo many times i spent HOURS on a script and a promo video, sent it in and suddenly i have to FULLY re-do it. like it is so discouraging and tiring!!! and also i used to think brands hit me up because of my vibe because the only thing i offer is being authentic but i came to realize they dgaf they just want their polished, fake ad.

[@maiphammy]

Frrrr

[@user-yz2tz4pu9j]

This might sound extra but you don’t know how badly I needed this video, I’ve been watching you for YEARS (since you had around 200k followers) and you’ve always been my comfort KZbinr. Ive been going through a slump lately and it’s been really hard for me to just get out of bed, but today I really just pushed myself to get dressed and do my shit and I needed something to watch while I was eating and I saw your video. I don’t know what it is about you but I can just listen to you talking for hours, and the stuff you said in this video about how just implementing little things in life can help you mentally was so eye opening. I’m not someone who comments normally but this video just really made me feel so many things.

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!!! And thank you for watching for so long

[@miavianne2325]

Can’t imagine anything better, than to listen to Mai for 50 minutes straight! Love it

[@maiphammy]

I LUH YOU

[@JPGW201]

Mai, the brand deals was a means to an end and now you’re at a place where you don’t need them. Truly self sustaining and powerful. I hope you soak in your accomplishments.

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!

[@mimsy1111]

MAI - THE BRAND DEAL TEA ‼️ Im SOsosososoooo proud of you for sharing your honest feelings around that. #1. YOU RIGHT -influencers def dont be talking about it so its nice to get a lil peak behind the curtain #2. You are absolutely right to turn down the money in order to preserve your mental peace and YOUR LOVE for making videos. And that is SO admirable and Im really really proud of you making that decision. #3. Your authentic self is so beautiful, THANK YOU for always sharing it with us. EVERYTHING YOU WANT WANTS YOU MORE !!!! ♡

[@maiphammy]

Awe thank youuu!!!

[@torridmess]

Mai, you are literally the realest KZbinr I've ever seen. You just let your emotions out to the people relentlessly. And it's absolutely beautiful. You're healing and finding yourself and that's all that matters. You've had to grow up too fast. And it shows. I would never guess you're 21 (other than how young and youthful you are) but your wisdom and life skills show. You know what you want and you're striving for it. And I'm proud of you.

[@GMAYAB-s1u]

I love how confidently and well spoken Mai is about her purpose about Alchemai and how much she truly cares. We are so excited for these 7 video’s coming out!

[@userliili]

guys pinch me right now. MAI POSTED FOR THE FIRST TIME?? WITH AN 50 MINUTE VIDEO???

[@Tagging_Swag]

🤏 Omg I started a chain. Also it must hurt now 😭

[@sleepingforeternity]

🤏

[@kristinshank2257]

🤏

[@Not_Cora15]

🤏 🤏 🤏

[@klodybolduc]

🤏🏻 Yeah... the first time...

[@mikaeiladominguez1267]

Hearing Mai speaking so passionately about why her hoodies mean so much to her, is the same way I feel. Big shirts and big hoodies are my comfort zone and no one can take that away from me. Love you Mai🌸

[@zkcitap]

I genuinely love her rants because I feel connected with her realism and bein raw with herself and her audience, which makes me want to be that vocals and honest with myself. Thank you, Mai!

[@maiphammy]

Thank u!!

[@hollyj2565]

Ugh Mai I love you. I’ve watched you literally probably since your first few cleaning videos and watching you grow and become so self aware at such a young age is just amazing! You’re still growing and changing but you’ve come so far, and watching this video just shows that. Your ability to verbalize the changes you’ve seen in yourself and your emotional growth is so heart warming. I wish you all the best now and in the future because you’ve helped change so many people’s lives with your videos including myself ❤

[@jovanbajkin3252]

you’re the realest content creator i’ve seen on the social media space in the longest time. you’re so truthful and open to everything and it honestly cleared my mind listening to this video. love you mai, keep doing what you’re doing ❤

[@tenzintsomo7170]

Mai you’re literally so articulate with your speech. I 100% get taken in when you speak and I can understand and visualize everything. It’s crazy how good you are at conveying emotions and as a viewer I completely resonate with what you say.

[@maiphammy]

Omg this is the best comment ever

[@sleepingforeternity]

@@maiphammyFr

[@justvictoriawolfe2871]

This is so true

[@demigreen6495]

So true, I was just thinking that when she was talking about her enlightenment journey, I wish I was a yapper😂❤

[@emilyneigel4405]

Not me crying with you Mai 🥺 We can feel how passionate you are about this Mai. My Alchemai hoodie is my comfort hoodie. It makes me feel safe. It makes me feel okay again. ❤️

[@maiphammy]

ahhhh I’m so happy you feel that way

[@gigakaya626]

32:23 i relate to this so much there was a year in my life where i just didn’t have the energy to take care of myself in any way, specifically i neglected my curly hair, throwing it up in a bun for sometimes up to two weeks. im good now, and actually find hair styling and hair care very therapeutic, but this part of the vid made me tear up cuz i know what u mean. i love u mai, thank u for being real, it makes many ppl feel seen 💕❤️

[@maiphammy]

you get ittt

[@megansmementos]

girl why was this so raw and therapeutic?! i love these family phammy facetime sessions soso much ! you need to start a podcast mai, i could listen to you yap for hours ! thank you for always keeping it real 🩷

[@maiphammy]

Yessss

[@sophiestrike2311]

i love you so much mai i’m 20 right now been watching since 15 growing up with you and going through similar struggles and watching u has been a lifeline and has helped me get my life together as well. i’d be up at 2am cleaning my depression room with you girl. so thank you girl , for always being here ❤ and don’t be sorry for taking breaks . you deserve it, you’re human too

[@artygurl7097]

Mother has served us and I’m ready. I needed this yap session. Love you mai!!!!!!!

[@plantingnebula]

Crying thinking about how good life is because of you, thank you for being vulnerable. It means the world to hear how things can get better. You are amazing.

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!!

[@hahaheu]

this video had me bawlinggg. ive struggled with my mental health since i was 8, (now 16) and this video really inspired me and actually made me think about my future for the first time in a while. i feel so so seen and not alone hearing you talk about your childhood, it resonates with me so much. its so so inspiring to see how youve grown and how you deal with your mental health throughout your life, leading you to this AMAZING life where you are definitely making a difference. also the hoodie thing is so so real, its literally a safety blanket for the days i feel like absolute crap loool. im hoping to get one your next drop! thank you so much for everything you do, thank you for being there on my worst days, this gave me a lot of hope and gave me a new perspective on my life. THANK YOU

[@maiphammy]

I love you❤ I hope it gets better for you❤❤❤ focus on all the good you wanna attract in ur future :)

[@limesus8205]

Ngl the hair , that length looks AMAZING on you. Also mai thanks alot for sharing ur story , when u said "life can get better , i didnt have rich parents, i didnt have anyone to give me money" That sounded raw and genuine unlike some random crap motivational videos, like man idk if u get it but I FELT THOSE LINES and the yap rlly makes it more natural and genuine. THANKS!

[@nunu1o4]

although you apologize for being inconsistent, i can’t help but feel that’s the most relatable part about you! seeing someone coming back from the dead gives me the encouragement i need to also reset, clean up, do my work! thank you mai🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@yueverse]

I love the fact that you are so transparent and honest about everything, including your work behind the camera and with brands, which is what makes me like you and trust in your content on KZbin ❤

[@WalkOnGrass01]

You are every girls mind spoken out loud and I’m so here for it I’ve never been sucked into a video so much

[@maiphammy]

Omg thank u

[@kaylacoul7098]

i’ve been watching your videos for yearsss now, seeing you grow so much has really inspired me. i used to pretend “film” cleaning my room videos bc of your videos lol. and hearing you talk so passionately about your business is exactly how i felt when i first started mine a couple of years back. i posted my first video today for my brand and who knows, maybe the bit of hope im holding onto right now might turn into somthing huge too. sending all love as always 🫶🫶

[@maiphammy]

Ahhhh ahahaha we were kids fr filming cleaning my room videos

[@rufie8345]

Honestly girl keep talking about ur business it's really interesting and also it makes me feel more productive and more excited for the future

[@zfitaus]

I really appreciate how Mai speaks about her followers and how they have influenced her success. Some other social media influencers need to be reminded.

[@lewisballard9765]

Just seeing you post makes me INSANELY happy, I love you queen

[@love.vante_]

As somebody who did a few brand deals. THEY ARE SO TEDIOUS AND NIT-PICKY. I absolutely agree with Mai. 21:48

[@maiphammy]

I’m glad u gettt it

[@luciannelejarde4363]

you are so real mai. i’ve never seen anyone ever talk about how brand deals can put such a strain on your mental health. i am so proud of you for putting yourself first and prioritizing your mental health. you deserve everything and so much more. you got this mai❤️

[@hannah-leilafarred8156]

You have always made me feel seen in a way not many other content creators have and I know that sounds crazy but seeing someone else speak openly online about struggling with depression and mental health has always seemed so brave to me. From the tiny details like your room becoming a mess because of what you’re dealing with to speaking about family issues and then still being able to succeed gave me so much hope that I could do the same. Watching you progress from when you ran away to travelling to bali for the first time to renting your first house and getting a dog I always looked up to you as someone that proved that no matter how bad things are, they will always get better. Ik this is such a long message and I’m seriously not trying to just be an ingenuine fan I’m just trying to be so real when I say that I have never in my life cried because of a video that has made me feel so seen and formulated my experience in such an articulate way. I genuinely love you so much and want to thank you for giving me hope that my life can get better and that we are not defined by what we go through. (Ik it sounds like I’m glazing but I mean every word and I can’t WAIT to buy my first alchemai hoodie if you ship to South Africa ofc)

[@bxtterfly06]

This video made my whole night! Hearing a different persons life story when I’m trying to start my own is very inspiring especially since I’m in a depressive episode. Thank you for making me feel heard. 💗

[@colleenmoroney1854]

I’ve been watching you for almost 10 years, and I just have to say that, even though I’m a few years older than you, I look up to you and you are such an inspiration to me. You truly motivate me to battle the negativity in my mind. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability and continuing even when it’s hard ❤

[@maiphammy]

wow that’s incredible thank u

[@samantha.m-o9e]

Honestly Mai I could deeply relate to you like how it’s a comfort hoodie which i 100% agree on , ever since I got mine from the last drop it’s all I want to wear during the cold days and it makes me feel warm and comfy even if it’s cold . But your brand and products also bring us together as a family this is because the other day I was wearing my alchemai hoodie to school and these two girls that I didn’t know came up to me and were asking me how your hoodie was and we were honestly bonding over your hoodie and I felt so much joy being able to talk about how amazing it really is. And honestly I can’t wait for your future items to come out keep doing what you’re doing. I love ya 💕

[@maiphammy]

aweee wait what the heck thank you for this comment. Fr thank you I love hearing stories about this thank you!!! I’m glad u love it so much fr THANK YOU for trusting me to buy it thank you

[@paulavillalobos8555]

mai. i think this is one of the best videos u have posted in a while. u are actually my favorite creator just bc of how real u r with us and just helps people be seen. i literally almost cried all through the video i cant even lie. i love u so much and im so excited for the moving content!!

[@yaritzagarcia379]

Last time I commented I thought I was going homeless and listening to you about going solo, learning how enjoy ones own company, and enjoy the world while exploring gave me so much hope. You do make my day, you do inspire me, and you do motivate me; so no THANK YOU Mai!!

[@lovs_helo6713]

I can't believe she made a video that was almost an hour long!! Oh my god I love you Mai

[@alexispotterr]

Talking about the comfort of a large hoodie in hard times meant so much to me. I have one of your hoodies, and I got it two years ago. It is my go to comfort hoodie and I always feel is safe when wearing it. I wore it all throughout my toughest times and I always feel so comforted when I have it on. You and your video mean so much to me, and I literally love you so so much♥

[@maiphammy]

Thank u!!!!!

[@ddailybianca]

I NEEED more 1hr videos. they are so relaxing and hearing you yap about something that you care about (and also something very very true) is so healing. we love you, we’re here for you and we missed you so much!

[@maiphammy]

Eeek okkkkayyyyy

[@luciannelejarde4363]

you have no idea how seen you make me feel. i would always just put on an extra large hoodie to do anything and everything, but once alchemai was released, they became my go to hoodie. alchemai hoodies became that safe space, allowing me to truly be me. alchemai has allowed me to flourish and given me hope that better and the best is coming. your brand has given me hope again. you, your videos, your alchemai company. you have motivated me to keep pushing and do my best to become who i want to be. you have taught me how to find the peace in all the chaos and putting myself back together. thank you for showing up for yourself, because you have taught me by leading through example. i love you mai❤️

[@z_mrkvanovaa]

Mai, you are such an sweet soul who has a huge impact on other peoples lives. You inspire and motivate others to keep going and when times get rough, people can find a comfort spot in your content. You are always there for everyone else and you give yourself to others to make them feel loved and valued. That’s how i see you as a person and it’s really rare to find someone like you in this community. I just know you are the most genuine and clear human being on earth and it’s crazy how i sense that energy through your videos. And that’s how amazing and elaborate your content is and it never fails to make me laugh. I know u are the most hardworking human but still very grateful for all the things you achieved. I never found this much of comfort in a content creator like i did with you. In my head we are basically besties💓 I absolutely admire all your hard work and dedication, it just goes to show that you really enjoy doing this and find comfort in this. I hope all the love you spread to us returns to you in form of sweet comments and people enjoying your products. I love you so so much and never give up!!

[@m_20000_]

my BEST 52:14 mins of this year !!!

[@robayatabassum]

so true

[@maiphammy]

lol

[@m_20000_]

@@maiphammy omgg!!! am i dreaming or mai just replied to me 😭😌🫶

[@AmandasBuns]

What a refreshing video!! I cant wait to see all the content you have stored up for us! I love hearing you yap so, it really gets me thinking about my own life and it’s so inspiring!!! 🩷

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!!

[@stargirll1l]

please never disappear again !!! like I always check KZbin to see if you've uploaded any videos , BIG LOVE

[@maiphammy]

I try not to just for u girl

[@lorna7019]

I'm actually crying watching Mai talk about her past and how much a hoodie means to her, I relate to her so much. I'm gonna buy her hoodie when it gets launched because I know she puts her heart into it guys!!! Mai just wants us to feel good guys

[@jst_hanni]

Your my comfort youtuber because it crazy how much I relate to you and I know this sounds weird but its like there is actually someone who gets it. ❤❤❤ After 35 minutes I literally started crying so hard i swear i could cry river but the worse part is I had to be so quiet so my parents wouldn't hear just like every night. You saved me , I wouldn't be watching this video if it wasn't for you ❤❤❤

[@JasmineBarco]

these videos mean so much to me, i see you struggling to figure it out and then succeeding and then being so real about life and I am so happy that you share it with us, we love you!

[@experimentno.626]

you inspire me so much. keep doing you. you’re light shines so bright

[@jhong.a]

Listening to Mai talking for 50 minutes heals my soul 🙂‍↕️

[@marixrose3272]

Seeing you talk so passionately about your brand and your hoodies made me lowkey tear up and i am just so proud of you mai ive been watching you since i was a kid and you truly are my idol

[@Paulisdiaryday]

Mai I love you I cried I dont wanna spill there But you saved me one time when I was really low I watched you everyday and it really helped me I was not feeling alone and now Im even more low I dont watch that much yt and today I convience myself to watch it and Im so greatfull for that You really my comfort person and give me some hope. I hope one day I will get one of your hoodies cause I feel that will be my amulet kind off my safe space Kind of cringe right here But I wanted you to know youre big support for me 🫂 thank you

[@hallegustafson2823]

Literally tearing up listening to you talk like Mai you’ve helped me so much bc I feel like have someone to relate to and like im on ft lol. I appreciate you so much and so proud to see ur success love!!💕💕

[@eviesg3432]

How do you always post when im mid breakdown, thank you gurl saving me 😭💕💕

[@betty509]

WELCOME BACK QUEEN WE MISSED YOU 🥺🥺💗💗

[@Jeylovesme]

Words cannot explain how much I love and and adore you Mai….watching your grwm videos where you talk about your feeling and depression and things in general always feels like you’re stripping me naked(in a good way) and making me realize things i never want to and also feel things I should let myself feel but I never do Literally thank you❤️

[@phaanieee]

MAI BABAY I SCREAMED AFFTER SEEING THIS SHE FINALLY POSTED GUYS THIS IS NOT A FRICKING DRRIILLLL!!!!! I LOVE YOUUUUU

[@FayeHabes]

CENTRAL PARK!!!! Mai I’m so proud of you!!! I’ve been watching since we were both 16 this is so huge💓excited to see the next vlogs

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!! I’ve been loving it here

[@nataliesoutlet]

Hi Maiiii, First of all SO freaking proud of you for having stuck with youtube since 2010, what an accomplishment and to LOVE itttt the way that YOU do, that inspires anyone!! Also I had to say you mentioning “im not like a Paul brother etc etc” MISS GOOOORL…. You are MAI PHAM!!! you are so authentic and such a sweet gentle soul and I love hearing about you retiring your parents and reconnecting with them. Please don’t undermine YOU, because you’re a hugggge inspiration to so many girls IF NOT the next generation of youtube girlies!! Finally, cannot wait to pick myself a hoodie. The way you spoke about what it meant to you and WHY you created what you did, so so proud of you!

[@maiphammy]

Awe thank you. You always been so supportive thank you!!!! Frrrr thank you. Karen has also been so so amazing so thank u for everything

[@adelaidekent]

i got goosebumps from this video. the amount of effort and time you put into your job, your fans, and especially alchemai. your hoodies impact people more then you know it. alchemai is the brand i bring up to everyone i know. if someone asks where to buy a good hoodie i say alchemai. you are giving people a home in a piece of clothing. this brand is something you put your all in everyday and you can relate it back to you and that makes it so much more special. you are so strong and amazing. with everything you have been through and where you are today. 14 long years of youtube. wow. your youtube is a safe place for me. when there is no one there for me i come to you. you are so amazing you inspire me and all your followers to get out there, do it, not care what other people think of you. and even if there r ups and downs its all a journey. you have changed my life. we made the right person famous. you deserve the world. i hope you know what an amazing person you are. never stop doing what your doing. life will always get better. everything you have done you deserve you have worked your ass off for everything you have now. all your ups and downs have lead to the person you are today. i hope you know you can always yap to us! we love these vids. we are your family. thank you for everything you do❤️

[@maiphammy]

Thank you thank you THANK YOU❤

[@ayapapayasalad]

Watching this on my lunch break and started balling in my car cause girl you are just so relatable. You're just a girl. You are so raw and real with us and you talk about problems that are just so relatable as ironic as it sounds. I feel like just hearing you voice them out opens my eyes to my own inner turmoils and it just made me feel so emotional. Mai, thank you for being such a real creator. I feel like even if you aren't posting every week, every month, 24/7 365 days a year, I feel like these 1-hour videos of life updates is like a deep breathe and new chapter to talk about and honestly so satisfying. Like a long-distance friend you go out to have dinner with. DOes that make sense? lol Much love girlie

[@anerd8334]

MAIIIIIII IS BACK AT IT AGAIN also spam pham saw the house first 🧙‍♂️

[@zukohere7935]

OMG MAIIIIII your baccckkkk...but for how long girl lmao, i clicked that notif so fast

[@Idk-px8rc]

Oml mai thank you for blessing us with a 50 min video after a MONTH ❤

[@synygirls]

mai you've always felt like a big sister to me, it's so comforting and inspiring to see your life and how far you've come, watching your videos helps me see that there's more to life than my grades and that everything i'm stressed about now won't matter in the long run. your so motivational and inspiring to young girls like me and it's so refreshing to see and independent woman with her shit together that is also able to admit that she's not perfect and has off moments. you're so real and that's what i love about this channel and you. thank you for helping me see how big the world is and how much you can do with your life. you're truly so inspiring.

[@bllluuee]

you opening up about your feelings and low points felt like a hug to me which i’ve been needing, i love you mai thank you for everything

[@uhmanywaysz]

Ughh I missed these yap sessions so much🥹 So glad she’s baaack

[@ashlynyates4690]

3 minutes ago is crazy!!! love you mai!❤️ been watching for like 5/6 years now⭐️❤️

[@SabrinaL73]

HI MAI SO SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU... it's ok if you needed some time off don't worry about it❤

[@sassi2873]

You’ve grown so much in the like 3/4 years I’ve been following you. You are an incredibly interesting, fun and kinde person and I can’t wait to see your new place and just having you back. This yap session was needed and appreciated. ❤

[@natcheeryy]

my response to your question on 40:52 is i’ve been watching you for years, even before i even had my own phone to watch you because i see myself in you, i’ve been thru very dark times very young too and seeing you go thru all your hardships and always getting back up and going further and further, being better and better, stronger and wiser and that helps me stay motivated and believing that I can too get better and do better, that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and that believing in myself and my dreams really is the way to go, thank you for that and for your vulnerability in this video, i really appreciated that and im thankful for that reminder, love you girl!!

[@LeahLandryy1]

52MINS, ITS A MAI MOVIE ❤

[@SidnieTang]

YESS!! YOURE BACKK! Cant wait to see the new upcoming vlogs 🫶🏼

[@Brainjoy01]

hi mai's mom!! so glad you got into your apartment, mai. i'm going to miss the old one a lot for the roof shots. i hope they weren't too mad about the wall lol. i hope we get some good cooking with mom content here, and some more mom and farmers market vlogs. miss u guys! cant wait for the decorating series

[@elanise]

you’re my favorite youtuber because of how genuine and authentic you are

[@danielleschmidt2954]

Mai, I just wanted to say I am so thankful that you truly enjoy sharing with us on youtube. I would miss you greatly if you ever decided not to keep doing it, but I know that you need to do what is good for you. I am so proud of you for everything you have done, and I know it can feel scary and crazy, but you are doing awesome. You have done things that most people can't even dream of doing. Every time I recommend your channel to people, which is often, I always emphasize that you are 100% self-made. Not like Kylie Jenner, you really did do all of this yourself. And that is so inspiringly awesome. Don't be too hard on yourself. Take care of yourself. We all love you so much. You can do this.

[@jaylo2210]

MAI FINALLY UR BACK🥰 WE MISSED YOU!!!

[@charlottekieu]

OMG I AUDIBLY GASPED WHEN I GOT THE NOTIFICATION YOU POSTED🙏 SO HAPPY FOR YOU BABES❤❤

[@KazandraVon]

Letssss gooooooo! Hahaa I kept refreshing all day just peeping if Mai dropped a video already😂❤

[@_sophiapeck]

by 40 MINUTES IN,, im LITERALLY crying 🥹🥹 thank you mai for being so real and srsly being my comfort youtuber ☁️🦋🥰 everyone says that but I’m from a small midwest town and moved to the city (east coast too) and am living a life a couple years ago that I could never have imagined !! things do get better 🤍🤍🤍 thx for posting and inspiring myself and so so many people. 🧙‍♂️

[@benyboinoname9274]

Mai your just the best and you rock the short hair, I just love your videoss girlyy. Keep up the hard work P. S my birthday is black Friday so I'm going to try to get some alchamia

[@maiphammy]

Love youuuu and happy early birthday! 🖤

[@choi8266]

mai, first of all i just want to say that the feeling is mutual. WE are also grateful that you vlog as you are grateful to us watching your vlogs. we’re not watching you js bcus you think it’s aesthetic, blabla. YOUR VIDEOS LIGHT UP OUR DAY, it makes us feel validated bcus you always stayed authentic and real to us, you inspire us that things DO get better and we can have a big sister like you. you mean alot to us in ways that you dont know. whenever i feel like im sad or hopeless i always go to your channel to feel better. it’s those little things that matters to us alot. we relate to you in ways we cant explain. i feel aligned to you everytime. you will always be my fave youtuber and comfort person. WE LOVE YOU, MAI. im so grateful to live in the same timeline as you and u became the big sister that i never had. im happy and proud of you always🥹🥹

[@maiphammy]

Awe thank you!!!!!! THANK YOU for commenting and letting me know u have no idea how much your comment means to me and thank u for taking the time to leave comment

[@maiphammy]

I love u❤

[@chloejones8619]

I’m sorry but this video is basically 50 minutes of you talking about alchemai, going on a short tangent then straight back to alchemai again? Its jarring

[@maiphammy]

Rmmmmm maybe because alchemai is a massive part of my life

[@maiphammy]

which is a massive part as to why I’ve been away, so it’s me updating on life, which I always do

[@chloejones8619]

@@maiphammy oops time of the month and got no patience lmaooo, trust you to reply to the one comment where I’m being a bitch

[@chloejones8619]

@@maiphammy sorry queeeen it wasn’t personal lolol

[@sanss555]

You say you are doing youtube for yourself and for your self expression, but you don't realise how much it helps people. I've been looking up to you as a big sister and I'm always waiting for a new video or watching you while I eat. you're my therapy

[@maiphammy]

Thank you!!!

[@cxxx08]

you serious help me so so much. i have been really struggling mentally and its gotten to the point where i look for things to look forward to, to keep me going and watching your videos, watching you be yourself and live your amazing life keeps me going because i hope that someday i'll be like you, and live my dreams. i watch your videos every single day because it gives me a sense of happiness. i love you so much

[@maiphammy]

I love you!! I’m happy I can be that for you. You got this girl I believe in u ❤

[@Mckat23]

0:58 yes trust issues fr

[@itsmae6087]

Firssttt 0:11

[@lenevaroseboom7555]

I have been watching your videos since I was 17 and I am now 24. I watch your videos not because they are aesthetic but because you got me through my lowest times. It has been amazing to grow with you and be apart of your journey! Thank you as well❤️

[@thediaryofthewimpykidd]

40:47 no thank you for saving my life. i somehow know ur gonna read this and i was debating writing this because what meaning would it have? but i want you to know, 3 years ago (i was 13) a fire happened in our house and it was all gone, and i was in a really dark place back then, so many internal scars mai so many, ur first moving to nyc vlogs appeared and i decided to watch it, i just kept on watching ur old videos and ur new ones, u taught me that there’s something called healing and that i could do it, so i started it, literally, i started journaling, forming healthy habits, building my knowledge, i was also suffering with insecurity up until june, i was like stop no we gotta get to know ourselves, so that’s what i did, and whenever u posted i would feel happy and like i would need someone to tell me that just keep going maybe u didnt say it but u showed it, u kept going, u did it, it was my motivation for everyday, and recently i started my own youtube channel also because of you, you showed me all those things mai, i dont know what else to say, just know u saved the life of a 13 year old and now she’s living her best life because of u.

[@savhebert]

growing up i was insecure and im 19 and still to this day i get insecure. you talking about alchemai made me emotional and i can relate so much. one day i hope i can afford some and will be able to get my hands on it!!

[@brynniehenry9093]

The best KZbinr. She genuinely the only person I loveeeee watching and will binge watch all her video over and over.

[@nadialeyva4462]

mai. i am a new subscriber but hearing you talk about how helpless you felt at a point in your life brought me to tears, i have also experienced that feeling. but also hearing you talk about the positive outcomes gives me so much hope and inspiration to want better for myself. i believe you truly make an impact on peoples lives including mine. thank you for being you❤️

[@sophiadekanozishvili5271]

I want to tell you that I love and am grateful for you! I've been watching you for years. I remember the first time I watched your video, I felt your energy, your love for your work, your honesty and most importantly, you gave me motivation. You changed the most difficult four years of my life and will continue to do so. I send the greatest love to each of you viewers because you are my people!💝

[@wassupwe2ne1xbigbangxbtsxBPxG7]

I love how transparent and honest she is!!

[@susan5474]

thank YOU for posting the video. Your yap is not boring to hear coz it’s for growing up not for looking down that’s why I could listened to you for 50 minutes straight. Thank you I love your videos

[@maiphammy]

I love uuu :)

[@brookeburns4626]

We love you so much MAI!! We recognize your pure genuineness to provide for others things we did not know we needed. Solutions to problems we did not know were available. You have perfectly articulated the anxious and depressing feeling that so many people experience constantly. Not even daily but hourly. Our battles with our own minds. Thank you so much for providing your videos of comfort and now your products of comfort. I have not been able to get a hoodie over the years due to not being able to afford them, but I will be setting aside money for a hoodie!! Cannot wait!!

[@isminetta]

This is the first comment I left on KZbin, but I couldn't hold it anymore! You have an impact Mai, you touch my soul and I strongly and wholeheartedly wish for you to be happy and have a beautiful life! Thank you Mai for the energy you bring to the world

[@maiphammy]

Awe thank you!!!!

[@maiphammy]

I am honored