Blue October-Hate me (Lyrics)

Blue October - Hate Me (Lyrics)
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[@chadsill9867]

Too everyone that has the balls to feel something no matter how much it hurts, here’s to you

[@Orphancrippler550]

Thanks man, that means more than you know

[@chadsill9867]

Alex Currie I’m glad I could help. Take care

[@mrmoviemanic1]

To you too man. Keeping being an awesome person even if it's hard to feel like being one.

[@andrewmeza5590]

Yeah, just found out my other half was messing around while I was at my grandmother's funeral in my bed and house.

[@karliahkingsley1280]

Thank you.

[@Hollowolfjas4014]

This song means something different to everyone. And it all fucking hurts. If you ever feel like for whatever reason your parents couldn't bring themselves to love you, just know you're not alone out there.

[@user-xu9jr9rz2e]

[@tashacanney2362]

I don't even know u but I completely understand and have much love for you. 💜

[@ShaDHP23]

It really does. I really feel my own hurt right now. Just know that no matter what, there is a stranger out there who wants you to love and feel love.

[@tashacanney2362]

@@ShaDHP23 Exactly. I firmly believe there is more good in the world than bad. 💚💚

[@existentialbane]

Thank you

[@BearHawks]

Addicts/addiction is one of the worst things for a person/family to experience. Hats off to the sober!! #STAYSTRONG

[@Werewolf914]

Facts, my Aunt died today and it's all because her heavy Alcoholism and drug use, I don't talk much to my Aunts on that side of the family because only 2 of them ever treated my family good, but my older Aunt got her smoking at 12, she introduced Alchol to her by 15 and I believe my Dad said she was caught shooting up heroin by the time she was 17, and my other Aunt who I don't talk to encouraged it and would help her buy the drugs and alchol and now the addiction got to her, she made it to 62 but had she been able to get help maybe she would've gone longer, I just wished I could've been a better family member and tried to help her or at least tried to talk to her more than once every few years instead of abandoning her, but it's too late now.

[@karlclin8401]

Been clean 4 year now and I'm never going back to that hell ever again and i pray for all those who still struggle with addiction.. there is hope. God Bless You all

[@stonedwarriorxx6000]

Addiction is the ONLY prison I know of that have the keys on the inside ~ John Sanders

[@adorabrown9696]

Im 3 months sober but my husband continues to struggle so It hurts me to have to love him from distance and just pray he gets better one day.

[@alphacoffeesins9197]

Thanks bro

[@RayvenTheNight]

"Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you" , this sentence hits so deep. My first love and I spent our whole teens together and in the end I had to force her away cause I knew I would only drag her life down with mine and cost her so much opportunity. It worked and after 10 years she still has me blocked and removed from her life but she's doing so wonderful in her life. It so painful to do and even to this day I still love her so much but I know I can never go back into her life.

[@ashleyadams8746]

As of someone who identifies more to this song now than ever bc of the guy I love ending things "bc I deserve more" let me tell you when you love someone never do that again if you think something is wrong talk and try and fix it. You may think theyre better off but trust me it is absolute hell

[@gautammoirangthem7005]

I have similar problem with my ex. Now she completely ignored me from her life and that breaks me apart.

[@kellybrook7032]

I understand more than you could ever believe I've done the same and I still think of him daily but I know I had to make him hate me for him to ever have a real life .....

[@kylestacks3292]

I know you're pain brother

[@pearlarchambault7154]

@@ashleyadams8746 best damn answer ever!!!

[@davidpietarila699]

Whenever I hear this song I just want to go kneel before my wife in the most profound gratitude for all she’s done for me to help me out of the darkness I’ve lived in. She has, and will forever have my absolute loyalty.

[@brooklyn7841]

That’s wonderful. Sometimes we do all we can for the one we love and they find things both real and lies to blame us for their use. It’s a feeling of pure hell. So good to know you love and appreciate all she has been for you

[@amyhutchinson7771]

That made me cry

[@rociolovesalex]

Just love her, be grateful and show it with actions....get out of your way for the little things she may want.... we do notice all the little things...

[@tiffanybrantley-lovelace818]

I really wish my husband could understand that I truly LOVE him and ONLY HIM! And that I'm completely sincere when I tell him that I would do ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING for him, and that I've ALWAYS been loyal and faithful and will ALWAYS IN ALL WAYS!!

[@Eclypse-rb1ch]

@@tiffanybrantley-lovelace818 Well I don't know if your husband or not in that really none of my business but I will tell you that from personal experience depending on what kind of drug is it can rewire your brain permanently and I mean that literally Ness is a big one and it was my drug of choice for 3 years. Now 3 years isn't necessarily long term use compared to a lot of other people I know who have been on it but 3 years when 2 of those 3 were spent with only a combined total of 8 days sober out of 2 years then It can have permanent effects and make you more jealous and paranoid really

[@dirtymikentheboyz5935]

Sometimes you have to let go, no matter how much you love them

[@pearlarchambault7154]

Very true even when it hurts . it hurts giving up on someone when you don't do that.

[@mindo4902]

Please tell me how cuz I haven’t been able to figure it oht

[@mindo4902]

*out

[@x9ine131]

This hits hard, having trouble letting go of my late father, seems like I’m gonna relive what happened every freaking day, never fails 😔 Whoever’s going through a rough time it’s gonna be okay, we’re all in this together 👊🏼

[@rhyanmiljak6391]

Truth

[@jasmingrzechowiak3286]

My mom showed me this song while in recovery but unfortunately lost her battle to addiction in March, I will forever scream and sob this at the top of my lungs just for you ♥️

[@sgtstreetmeat]

sorry to hear that.

[@phnxrose]

I'm so sorry your mom lost her battle with addiction. It is a miserable one. I am a recovering addict. I played this song for my mom 15 years ago because I knew how much I was killing her. No words can really comfort but if they could, I'd say them to you.

[@nicolemitref0719]

Sending you love. My mother was a addict. She passed two years ago. Shit hurts. She would be sober almost nine years. I miss her everyday. She used to love this song too. I hope your momma found peace. But I'm so sorry. My heart break's for you.😭💕

[@user-se9xs8im3k]

This song really hits hard I'm in recovery now since April 27th of this year and I know I put my mother through hell and she hates me and it hurts so much for all the wrong I've done I wish I got to do it and make it right

[@XBoxwolf]

My mom overdosed on heroin. *Hug*

[@klw314]

On July 26th, I will be 2 years sober. You just have to take it day by day. Never give up on yourself. The sun will rise again.

[@randomsomeone9410]

July 26th is my birthday. I'm glad it's a good day for someone, someone so strong. I'm proud of you and you're a complete stranger.

[@robinbutler4515]

God bless you! Congratulations on two years sober. I will pray for you that you continue day by day with sobriety. Thank you for sharing ! 🙏

[@eminum7777]

My birthday as well. Congratulations and stay safe friend.

[@user-tr9nj6ki8u]

I keep hearing that but fuck man. Idk what to do. At what point do you just say I’m so far down this hole I might as well let em bury me in it. But I really am happy for you.

[@jenny_ohh]

@@user-tr9nj6ki8u When you're thinking of letting it swallow you that's the sign to start fighting back. I wish you the best of luck, it's not easy that's for sure, but it's worth it.

[@stormylovely8912]

My girlfriend and I found this song the other day on a road trip to see my family. My beautiful partner who is a recovering alcoholic and I both cried hearing it. Thinking about when she was in active addiction and how that hurt me, our relationship, her mental health, etc. it almost broke us and she knew that. There was a time where she wished I could just hate her and leave her behind like the song says. But I never could. She realized what it was doing to us. Us as a couple, my well-being, and hers. After almost ruining us, just like the song, I’m proud to say that she has put down that toxic bottle. I just want to let everyone struggling right now know that it’s going to be hard, and it will take time, but you can do it. And it’s so fucking worth it. To all of you out there in recovery or struggling, I’m so fucking proud of you. And to my love who overcame these feelings in the song, I will ALWAYS love you

[@bryanwessel5046]

I'm in recovery right now🙂this song Hit's home on so many levels..99 days sober and counting.. 🙂 We do recover ❤️🙏

[@Griever78]

I hope it made you feel better to express this.

[@meeshel982]

Good post, just sayin. 👍

[@davidrohr2592]

No sarcasm intended at all- beautiful comment. Made me feel a bit better tonight. Hope all is well

[@stormylovely8912]

@@davidrohr2592 recovery isn’t linear, and she’s had some set backs here and there. But I’m still proud to say that she has NEVER reverted back to the way it was, even in her darkest moments since. Life is always hard, but we’re still here, doing better every single day❤️ if you don’t have relapses you’re doing amazing, and if you do have relapses you’re still doing amazing. This life shit is fucking hard, ESPECIALLY when you’re also battling addiction. So If you are able to pick yourself back up and keep going in the direction of recovery, you are doing AMAZING, and you should be proud of yourself. Always.

[@permatrackonblitz7399]

"When I was busy waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight"....heavy lyrics

[@carrieiverson5120]

May you never understand these lyrics...

[@FungalHarmony]

How do people not. It’s about an abusive depression addicted boyfriend who’s trying to get over everything do his gf will come back but he knows she will always hate him

[@harrisonh1054]

@@FungalHarmony I'd say that it's actually about someone struggling with addiction and seeing what it is doing to their relationship. Seeing how their significant other is doing everything they can to help but the addiction continues to control their life. Wishing he could stop and telling them that they should hate him because all he causes is pain. I speak from experience that directly relates to that very situation.

[@amrkein01]

I thought he went out of his way to let people know it’s not about a girl

[@Shellnae50]

The message at the beginning of the song is from his mother- reminding him to take his medication- he is battling mental illness w severe depression- wrapped into addiction- he is begging for his girl to hate him because he is always hurting her and he doesn’t want to hurt her anymore- and he knows that she loves him- he realizes he is not good for her.

[@1thelastmystic]

First verse I thought was about how she cheated on him... “playing reels in my head that make a porno feel like home” Second verse I thought was about his addiction. Idk

[@zackeriameier9414]

This song breaks me in every way. I was looking for a song to express just how I feel... i found it....

[@janelrobles6418]

Me too

[@theceoofracism8920]

you both got problems

[@chaosmadness4107]

Oh check there whole album they all express strong emotional feeling that we all relate to Listen to Into the Ocean or Ugly Side. Beautiful and strong right in the feels

[@jamessteele9170]

You are loved my friends, it may not seem like it now and the world is cruel. You gotta brush yourself off and fight for it, work for it and I promise you that everything will work out. Much love.

[@THESIXTHEGG]

Honestly, same..

[@sweyn8054]

This song always makes me tear up. Mom died when I was 14. I was already on drugs and not a great son. Wish she could've seen me clean and doing well. Most of all I wish she could've met the grandson she has now

[@jessicamarie3366]

Respect. I feel you.

[@sellmycarsnj4412]

She sees and knows. Keep being the best parent you can be.

[@janellesantana2796]

Congratulations !

[@aubreyodom468]

She did and she does

[@lillianmaryssa3423]

Coming from a momma, she sees, she heard, and she still loves you. Never forget that.

[@lizziefaith]

"you made me compliment myself when it was way to hard to take." That hits deep

[@robhouser6438]

Being bipolar depression this song got home for real

[@codeghost1111]

@Hammerschlägen M I mean addiction can 100% lead to extreme depression

[@markrandolph3235]

It hits me really deep rite now

[@slightlyaboveaverage2235]

@Hammerschlägen M music is interpreted differently by each individual, that's the beauty of it.

[@benjaminwebb5759]

@Hammerschlägen M it does'nt matter what the song is about exactly. The song could also be about someone with depression or bipolar or what have you.

[@jefferyminton2988]

The phone call tightens up my face and throat, the first verse I'm crying. This song is very relatable and so deep. I hope the fellow who wrote it finds his way. I hope you all find your way as well.

[@bibisdoesdance]

Justin is from the area of Texas that I live in. He lost his mother to cancer and that is why he wrote the song, for her. He was a raging addict and felt he needed to get clean when his mother passed. He did and like suddenly made it big with his band. He has the same struggles as an addiction but he is doing well these days. I wish him all the best and hope he can continue to write these incredible songs.

[@arianstiebs6619]

I'm so grateful I had the strength to be there for my son through his addiction. He is now the man he was always meant to be.

[@williamrickettsii7453]

I just despise myself for what i put my parents through in active addiction. It's been almost 19 months sober now and for me? The absolute hardest thing is letting go of that shame and guilt.

[@rochelleknutson8552]

That's amazing. I'm an addict and all my mother did was judge me

[@arianstiebs6619]

​@@williamrickettsii7453 they did it because they love you, so forgive yourself, you are worthy and and a better person because you're not there anymore. ❤

[@arianstiebs6619]

​@@rochelleknutson8552 you are worthy, so love and forgive yourself❤

[@menwithven8114]

I'm one of the lucky few that survived a serious heroin addiction and my wife stayed by my side regardless of how impossible I was to deal with. My own parents told her to leave me and she refused. 5 years sober now and we are the happiest we've ever been. Dont give up hope people there's always a way though the dark.

[@uncledan210]

Blessed 🙌

[@christiangilley527]

This comment made me cry, I’ve been clean for years but lately I’ve been so alone I might as well start up again right it will be all I have

[@jessicazeller7490]

Totally made me cry. I'm glad you have such a wonderful person in your life ❤️

[@user-wf7cu5kv4k]

@@christiangilley527 You manifest what you believe, believe in what you want out of life, believe in a better life, a better future. Just imagine you can have anything you truly wanted, what fulfills you, you just have to do everything you possibly can to increase the probability of it happening. Do your part, life is a balance in all aspects. And hey, if you did relapse you can self correct, understand you can't increase your wellbeing through decreasing your faculties. Devout the time and energy into your wellbeing.

[@joeehrenfelt6568]

Me and my mother never really got along.... had to force an I love you out of her. Found her dead from an overdose one day. She always told me she was gonna find me dead from the same thing. Been clean 14 years now and have a beautiful wife and daughter. But Justin and Blue October have got me through some very rough patches and I truly thank them for that.

[@Vaporvision]

In her own way, she did love you. I'm glad you overcame everything, and I'm proud for your accomplishments! I'm sure your children feel very loved and grateful to have a family like yours.

[@joeehrenfelt6568]

@@Vaporvision Thank you...this made my day.

[@rachaelbooth5332]

I'm so sorry

[@frankiestanky4908]

Congrats to u for being do strong

[@Ithinkiwill66]

God bless.....so much!

[@Dustybawls725]

There can be many perceptions to this song. It's a good song for closure after a toxic relationship. Either way, it's written well

[@Nothing-ch3dw]

For me it’s the toxic relationship, she was perfect, but I was absolutely horrible, and even though she didn’t know it I was dealing with alcoholism. Now she’s happy and that makes me feel better.

[@ahhwe-any7434]

For all the sober ppl: this ain't no save a hoe For all the non sober ppl: PS, for the ish I do for a living: y'all would be so proud. Prob not for my vocab but u know, I try Sigh rip mom/"mommy"

[@Dustybawls725]

@@ahhwe-any7434 I’m proud of you

[@wallacesachleben2447]

It hits diffrent when you know what the lyrics mean

[@deztiny005]

I know what they mean. I feel what they mean. I am living what they mean ... I cry with knowledge of what they mean 💙

[@aj3w3l92]

So much this 😢

[@rieleysanders6388]

It hits different when the lyrics are you

[@buzz3133]

It does

[@Tropyy]

yeah, you know it’s for the best for both of you

[@tylerbridges1330]

Jammed this at the absolute worst time in my life, deep in addiction, playing it now sober, and beyond happy it hits different. 3 1/2 years clean ,and i couldn't have done it without my beautiful girlfriend 🥰

[@nate2396]

Good job man rooting for ya 👏

[@jennahleigh4105]

I live with PTSD and BPD, this song hits home.

[@rebekkahbaker139]

Same here.. and I totally feel this song.. ur not alone my friend..

[@acarter5212]

Same here as well. Be strong and know that those that abandoned us do not define us.

[@amandalockard5269]

Same.

[@garyreed26]

Same here sis. combat ptsd and survivers guilt. Be strong and keep pushing forward. God bless you

[@geminiamber3552]

Same

[@sarah_drake]

"Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be. Then she whispered 'How could you do this to me?'" Yep... Four years of sobriety and it still echoes in my mind when I wake up.

[@douglab222]

God bless on your sobriety. I have been sober for 22 years now. Keep up the great work, and you are never alone.

[@pats4dawin106]

Hope all is well

[@matthewmelton6755]

It's always going stay with u Sarah but u think about it for a second because your 4 years of sobriety is a new better life

[@samuelmason8370]

God I want to cry hearing this. 13 years has gone so fast, im an adult... my best friends arent, my father is gone, I work a job i love... but I would give anything to go back. Back to the homework, back to my dad having a snack around.. back to before I used. Love your family. I dont give a shit how corny this is. go hug your mom, your dad... the brother or sister you're mad at... cousin you dont see. God damn it goes so fast. Love well, and live well. Enjoy your life.

[@CNYKnifeNerd]

Fucking this. Do it now, or regret that you didn't tomorrow.

[@dans9318]

Well said, i appreciate ppl like u left in this world that give 2 shits about others and not just YOURSELF! We are unfortunately a rare breed anymore

[@bradley1995]

I too would go back to the past to fix my marriage before it ended... Keep my family together... Keep your head up, well make it thru

[@williamglavin6613]

This really hit me. I need to be better.

[@buckmass]

Jesus, im in a very introspective state of mind and have lost people close to me lately, 2 people, and reading this is making me feel out of breath.... idk wher im going, ive fought addiction for soo long, i wana cry because i love my family so much it hurts...that ive fucked up and twisted myself into a helpless man, wanting to just sleep life away. But i cant. I have to fight. God give me the strength to fight.

[@WRMonger1]

This one always kills me... no matter how many times I listen, I cry...

[@victorvirolva8555]

@Hammerschlägen M It doesn't fucking matter what they are. If they cry they fucking cry.

[@massagegrad]

Same. My first long term ex played this for me when we broke up after 6 years. That was back in 09/10. Still makes me think of him sometimes.

[@jaquelynejones1351]

I'm sober now for three whole months that's one accomplishment that you helped me with the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again - mood

[@christianfinucan3115]

Crazy i been sober three months. .. .hate me

[@JimiHendrix989]

very relatable for me

[@hopestramba2462]

Beautiful array of words . Nobody can say it any bolder better perfect eloquently lol then this right here!. Cheers to the hell you all have pulled ur selfs out of. I dove in broken I'm coming out whole!.

[@glowinglife5120]

This song makes me cry even though its an amazing song. Who is listening to this in 2024

[@kennyvigotty8832]

😢

[@daniellew3260]

struggling with addiction since 13. struggling with depression since I can remember. I woke today and chose life. keep pushing to find a reason to take another breath.

[@joshuawoodson1032]

Let's go good job

[@jlpc2474]

I hope your doing better Danielle. I’m the mother of a heroin addict. I pray for you and all who are suffering addiction

[@Angrondies]

I wish I could do that

[@tanpopo25]

I’m very proud you!!

[@tanpopo25]

@@Angrondiesyou can do it I believe in you

[@kellyd220]

Justin, lead singer of Blue October, is my friend on fb.. It's good to see him doing well and being a family man.. Love him!!

[@volken5944]

No way

[@jontran4808]

Wow, I thought the song was sad, then I read through some of the comments. My heart breaks for each of you. I hope things get better for you guys. May you all find the strength and courage to love and live for others again.

[@thomasbauer1822]

Holy sh**... I remember when this came out when I was in middle school. I'm 30 years old now. Life has a really harsh way of changing a person. I wish I didn't grow to understand this song in the way that I do now.

[@zacallen2520]

Doesn’t this remind you of 2006 when this came out and how simpler times were and how much responsibility you have now. Look how much has changed.

[@andrew2393]

Time was never simpler back then. Look at 9/11.

[@VioletEmerald]

@@andrew2393 i think this person meant they were young so had no responsibilities then

[@andrew2393]

@@VioletEmerald Yes but it is incorrect say the times were "simpler" than today. Neither did I have responsibilities back then but I still saw many tragedies that occurred during that time period.

[@nonamesinenomine]

All the songs I heard as a kid have really real meanings now ..some I can't even listen to because they trigger some bad thoughts ha

[@michaelblack9018]

This is hitting hard . Mental health sucks

[@GypsyRock]

Mental health is good. Poor mental health sucks. But I know what u meant ;)

[@rocsanchez3244]

2020 anyone???

[@peterjohnson9077]

I'm 11 years sober now, this song saved my life

[@catievorndran6305]

All day bro

[@catievorndran6305]

@@peterjohnson9077 congrats my dude keep up the hard work I'm so happy that you beat that addiction and you're working to get your life back in order! good luck on the years and the best journey of your life❤

[@peterjohnson9077]

Catie Vorndran what a gorgeous response, Thanku 💋

[@tamerafarly7666]

Yes

[@angryartist3170]

This song makes me realize how truly toxic I am to others and the neverending ache for everyone around me to hate me. I'm too afraid to walk away and they're too kind.

[@Jen-lz5cr]

Hang in there.🙏

[@user-xm3wp7cz1i]

no matter what i do or what i say..no matter how hard i try i hurt the people i love. its the worst feeling. i deserve to feel so much pain for it..i want them to hate me the way i hate myself. i want them to kick me and punch me and scream about how awful i am because i know i deserve it

[@angryartist3170]

@@user-xm3wp7cz1i so right after I wrote this comment. I went on medication to help with my anxiety and depression. It doesn't fix everything, but it helps me get up in the morning and I'm able to forgive myself for the things I've done and I've realized that the people I love have hurt me too, but we all find people worth hurting for and live with them. And that self hatred isn't healthy. There was one point in my life where I wanted people to hate me so bad, I practically begged for a fight and that isn't something I should or would ever want again. It's toxic for me and the people I care about. I'm just trying to make a point that you should probably seek help from a therapist or psychiatrist. Meds aren't for everyone but it sure does help me. I wish you luck on your recovery journey.

[@user-xm3wp7cz1i]

@@angryartist3170 ive been on so many meds and no one knows whats wrong with me lmao im just fucked up yk..im really glad you're doing better tho,, i hope you keep doing good

[@angryartist3170]

@@user-xm3wp7cz1i I mean it's possible to get better without being on meds. I've done it before, but quarantine got to me and messed up my entire routine. I'm just tryna say is to just keep pushing. It's cheesy but it's true

[@inquisitorgrynthebandito2736]

This song was such a profound influence on my relationship with my mother, through my youth, my journey to sobriety, her struggles to navigate her own journey, and her death. This song means SO much to me for so many reasons.

[@trainerred1345]

God I miss the 2000's rock music. Songs that actually had a story to them and carried weight. I'm sure the music that comes out today is also good, but it's not something I can get into. I just miss early and mid 2000's rock so much.

[@GypsyRock]

I can listen to this song but every time I try to sing it a big lump forms in my throat and I can’t make it through a verse I cry every time. Heavy shit.

[@yeseniagarcia920]

Yes This one !!

[@carinarydberg1047]

I grew up loving this song, but never really FELT this song until I almost lost my son to addiction. My first born who taught me how to be a mother battling something I nor his father could make better. The countless nights praying he was safe and I would wait to hear from him the next day. The days I prayed he would eat. The time I felt relief when he was in jail because he wouldn't be out in the elements. The horror I felt when I got a text of him sharing his location "just in case" anyone needed to know the last address he was at. And now, the happiness I feel with him finally happy in his own skin, sober, productive, and about to be a father. I pray he makes the daily choice to be here for the people he loves and especially for himself and the wonderful life he's built.

[@nicoles3628]

I am so sorry 😭

[@dawsonbergeron7917]

This was one of my step dads favorite songs, rest in peace Bob. The more I grow up the more I realize why you listened to music like this🤙

[@kevinkirk8516]

Sometimes the people you love are the ones you hurt the most. This song is a great reminder that if you have the time to make amends, do it. Before its to late. But mean it.

[@williamglavin6613]

The voicemail in the beginning makes me cry.

[@jonathanwalter8683]

same

[@JohnWick54935]

My mother is 76 years old just battled cancer now is in the hospital with pneumonia and has a weak heart because of all the chemotherapy and my daughter 30 years old just died.... no matter how much I pushed my mother away she was always on my voicemail every single f****** day and still is my heart is broken so badly I just cannot fix it

[@mariet132]

Finally found this song. Been stuck in my head for weeks...I still love you.

[@ItsWolfPlayz]

I actually cried when my mom showed me this song because ive been suicidal and had suicidal thoughts. When i heard this song i actually started crying so much.

[@Dallys_doll-staygold]

I just stopped being suicidal a few months ago and I feel bad that I could have hurt others badly but the Lord helped me get through it and he'll do the same for you

[@PyrettaRiddle]

It been 6 months since I said my last goodbye to my mom. I hope she have found the peace I couldn't give her while she was alive. She never gave up hope for me and my addiction and demons I had. I love you mom, I'll be okay.

[@suupsayyinsayysoo2152]

When you admit your faults and feel someone else's pain it's one of the most beautifully bitter sweet experiences in life.....hold your heart to the heart of the world and let it beat for those in pain

[@rubyanaya126]

❤ still here 2023 ❤

[@suhtangwong]

I dedicate this song to my estranged mother. Never really knew her even though we lived together for most of my childhood life, she was rarely home but when she was, we would always bud heads. Really wish I was better to her back then because she was always out working trying to feed us but ig I was just mad she neglected us. Hope you're doing better mom.

[@thesomewhat.happyguy8229]

I’ve never felt with addiction or heartbreak in such a way, but the voice and the tone of this song speaks volumes. Every verse is full of heart wrenching sorrow, and it hits hard. To all of those who can relate to this song, I hope things have gotten so much better and easier.

[@DarMander707]

I'm just sorry it took me making my wife hate me to realize I need to get clean, off all of it, legit sober

[@uriahmartinez9454]

I pray to whatever God is out there that whoever is reading this never hast to really understand or feel what these lyrics mean

[@bluecarrotrm]

It is an unpopular truth that everyone should eventually know what this song means. We need this pain to grow. We become strong people by realizing that we survived when we lost and by changing ourselves when we weren't worthy of the love others gave us.

[@kikinhugs11]

prayered answered

[@craigmorrie]

@@bluecarrotrm Yes. Yes, Sir. I could never have put it so eloquently. I mean that. Not just a random comment on the Net. I wish I could have been able to come up with those words. Hats off mate.

[@shady_the_one]

Too late

[@jeanessafout1252]

Having a parent with an opiate addiction and several mental disorders this song hit hard i remember my mom saying this was her song to her daughters and its been a while since i listened to it because it always made me cry I never looked up the lyrics until now and i balled like a baby because i can see that my mom was hurting and needed us to guide her but when we did try to help her she would become irate and refused help until she got the call back home on April 3rd 2018

[@stephenlanouette6588]

Addicts don't ask for help. We do reach out though. For all who read this, please fucking help.

[@batnanaaa]

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. And I really am happy knowing you have been happy and achieving your goals all of these years. Thank you for everything. You have been my greatest teacher. Life is so crazy. Maybe in our next lives.

[@SapphireMoon91]

Thanks for uploading the shorter yet uncensored version of the song! There's a lame one labeled best version that's censored. THIS is the best version.

[@rhythmgamerguygrey2363]

Honestly my love for music came from my mom, having the ability to sit down talk and listen to music with meaningful lyrics. That she was always there for me, I honestly don't tell her "I love you" enough, but I love you mom thank you for the way you've made me

[@Crona858]

The VERY first Blue October song i ever heard, back in the 2000s on the alt rock radio! As i aged i had forgotten who they were and was re-exposed through songs like 'The Weatherman' and 'Oh My My!'. Makes me happy to know theyre still going strong

[@Ruouiji]

This song hits home in so many ways....powerful, painful, and beautiful. Much love, peace, happiness and health, maybe not for me, but for all of you.

[@janataylor2105]

Almost 2 years clean and man this song hits still..

[@3081e]

This is a bipolar persons way of saying sorry

[@chrisv1098]

I feel that waaay to much

[@ryanconaway9530]

Yup

[@karencarney7595]

Bipolar causes the symptoms of depression n addiction/self harm in order to cope n numb.

[@forgottenartform]

You're actually spot on with that, I've got bipolar and this song is way too relatable.

[@ryanconaway9530]

@@karencarney7595 exactly

[@KittyCass123]

Then she whispers "How can you do this to me?" 💔

[@CodyMODea]

and he replies, "So you can finally see what's good for you"

[@1nukkageorge794]

Are you real?

[@1nukkageorge794]

Pretty

[@alexiabratsch7864]

Honestly this hurts more than it should xoxooooo😅❤️❤️

[@brettsmith5903]

@@CodyMODea so she drives so fu**ing far away!

[@wanderingsoul2931]

Next week I celebrate 2 years sober form alcohol. I used to listen to this song when I was drunk. It was never fun for me. I humiliated myself constantly, I always was depressed with suicidal thoughts, crying, cutting, starving and hurting myself and everyone around me. It was the best decision I ever made to get sober and mend all of my relationships and lose the people who brought negative energy to my life. Please if you’re struggling stop now. There will never be an easy time but it gets so much easier. I never even think about it anymore. I almost forgot next week was my 2 years. I’m praying for anyone struggling ❤️

[@arturoreyes3360]

Im bery prud for you. Drugs and alcohol are not a joke. In june i make 13 years clean after 12 years of a heavy addiction. I dont want to do the same mistakes i made before! 👍👍👍

[@msleivinia]

this song is the song i've been playing for an hour on loop now. i love my husband so much, he's made my life so worth living and rescued me from my darkest time. his addiction wasn't an issue until I understand how much it is tearing us apart. i myself have addiction issues and end up hurting him too, but he always is by my side no matter how hurt he is. i don't know what I can do for him while I'm watching him fall apart and he pretends to be okay. he's truly the only thing that makes me know what happiness is like.

[@SGT_Frostys]

Sarah, im sorry for everything i did to you, i know i was everything to you and i tore you apart for 5 years, all the damage i did to you, you were still loyal to me till the day i left you. i wish i never did, but thats life. This song is a perfect example of what we were. " ill love you to the moon and back".

[@Eshkanama]

I’ve had a heroin addiction since my early twenties. I’ve relapsed so many times. And the one person who was always there who never judged me and always made me feel so strong, is my mom. She still to this day is here for me, and always checks on me and cares for me. This song makes me cry, thinking about all the pain that I put us through. I love you so much mom.

[@jamessteele9170]

Back here to remember where I've been and to tell anyone who might be in the same boat as I was that there is hope and no matter how helpless it seems to fight. Much love.

[@HLLPanzerShrek]

Grew up listening to this my childhood was filled with vile memories of sexual abuse and being beaten. I have listened to this song since I was 9 years old. Alcoholism & substance abuse are key chapters in my life. It’s easy to fill your heart with loss & hate but there is always something that can make it worthwhile, for me it’s my husband he took the time to help me to get to know me to look past the outside and look within. If someone you love can look within and see value you have value and are loved.

[@TheRealOne116]

No matter what happened in the past you can always come out of it stronger than you ever were I can say I never really had my parents in my life which I had a major impact on me I am still struggling with depression trust issues a fear of a abandonment and anxiety you have support no matter what stay strong and in this world.

[@matthewplymale8696]

I owe my life to my wife without her i wouldnt be here to see my 2 beautiful children growing into the young adults they are .. When i was so far down and literally lost everything and gave up everything i owned and worked for chasing that next high , she never ever turned a cheek on me when i didnt even deserve to be in her presence.She deserved so much more than what i put her and our family through and luckily i seen that and changed.. It was hardest thing ive ever done and still do but almost at 10 year mark clean and about to celebrate our 28th year anniversary together..Thank you cindi marie for never giving up on me..❤

[@arkangel32986]

I remember even this came out in 2006. You think you've grown until you hear this again and realize you haven't moved that far from what's hidden under the facade 17 years later

[@anissanolen5121]

praying for everyone dealing with addiction and all the ones who love them........ hardest and saddest love to have to walk away from 😭💔

[@goldenblue8991]

I remember listening to this when I was in high school in the early 2000s.

[@nuadasilverlance4252]

Golden Blue89 yea and it was my breakup song for someone that I was bad for , I loved her but I was bad for her I had to let her go .

[@cassielewis2567]

@@nuadasilverlance4252 I love this song

[@twalker37]

They dont make music like they used to!

[@MichaelWilliams-em7bh]

Me 2 man 2001 2005

[@hannahgates2994]

I’m sober now for 5 whole months!! Feels so good too!! My mom finally told me she’s proud of me the other day… this song gets me crying like a baby every time 😭. Love it so

[@privilegedwhitemale306]

After a month of withdrawal its just easier to keep using. Jealous of your perseverance.

[@hohkipohki]

@@privilegedwhitemale306 I hope you’re doing okay

[@stephenlanouette6588]

This nigga probably chasing that joy again

[@adamboughner681]

I've been sober for almost 5 years now. I needed it bad. Not 1 single person said good job or they were proud. Nobody understood my struggle. Such a lonely feeling.

[@HafizMohammmad-sd3zf]

@@adamboughner681you are awesome brother.m. A lot of people can’t make it even for 1 months. You the man my brother 🙏

[@mitchhesselink3706]

Man I've had a disturbed life. I've seen some effed up things, and unfortunately gone into addiction myself. I love this song, I know it applies to a lot of people but it sure hits home with me. Cheers my friends

[@lenamartin1053]

This has to be the song I've listened to most in the last two years

[@Chaosincarnate29]

The memories this song bring back hurt. But I rather hurt than forget.

[@aubreyibarra6112]

This band doesn't realize how much significance they have in my life. My brother died in the month of October. October has always been blue for me.

[@cindykelley569]

I'm so sorry😢

[@eagl3ye]

You can tell his mom really loves and respects him.

[@UrBoyMitch]

If you’re like me and this song hits too close to home, and you’re struggling, try and hang in there one more day. One day at a time.

[@daceyshackelford1578]

Thank u. So close. This has always been my mom's favorite song. I did not know why. I played it 2night and read comments, I had no idea. My mom was diagnosed w secondary liver cancer. Very bad stage 4 spread from another organ. Getting her call 4 days ago now has changed everything for me. I will never be the same. My mom is my best friend and she has a gbaby. My daughter, Ever is 3. I am so sad she will not remember her. I am so broken. What a shock. Now I am listening to this for her and I did not know the meaning b4 2night. Fuck.

[@InternetontheGuy]

This song hits different now that my parents are dead...

[@theearlyjuly]

Literally came here to say that

[@luisvelez6707]

I was once married but after 3 years she walked out on me , and at 1st I placed the blame on her , and carried resentment for years , until I had to take a real look at the part I played and I was big time at fault for our marriage failure, so this song I dedicated it to her , and ask for forgiveness for all the things I did wrong and didn't do in our relationship! We have 3 beautiful kids together so our relationship is better than ever, but after my life spiraled out of control because of drug addiction it was the best decision she could have made to leave me , so I thank her for giving that wake up call! So this song hits home big time, she even helped me get sober by taking me to the hospital and never stopped being my friend so this song word for word expresses everything I wanted to tell her! Thank you for sharing it!!

[@sethwoodward6022]

Brings me to a past I dont want to remember. Like a fever dream. The way things would be now if I was smarter back then.

[@noahlasseter]

Reading these lyrics made me shiver

[@fobro9023]

I dedicate this to my mom, ive been continuously relapsing and she's always there and always believes in me. I'm sorry I'm not getting better. I wish she could leave me and see how much she deserves. I love you mom. I'm sorry.

[@morganbyers5327]

"hate me so you can finally see what's good for you"💔

[@christianfinucan3115]

Truth

[@craigmorrie]

Surely the line is “loved”, past tense? When he sings… “And will you never say that you love me, just to put it in my face?” It changes the meaning a lot… And will you never say that you Loved Me, just to put it in my face…. Makes so much more sense to me…. And, obviously, hits home. I love this song. Thank you for uploading.

[@JaePinooyyhoooyy57]

Everytime I play this .. I end up breaking down Soo hard... 😪😪 Here's to the hurt. You're not alone...

[@kimmygeronimo1449]

This song was recommended by my ex and I was cryin when I listen to it. Hey I don't want to hate you and I don't want you to hate yourself too.

[@rosekansla9072]

2 months sober. This song hurts more than ever now 💖💔

[@ciscokid642009]

😢 every time I hear this song it reminds me of me on all what I’m going through right now but the grace of God I’m here every time I listen to this song. Remind me what I was gonna do but here I am a lot today thank you to my best friend Pancho, I love you man

[@kirstymoss9810]

For all of you , for the bravery and openness to share your experiences and your deep hurt , thank you , for helping to ignite understanding that we aren't always as alone as we feel . For all of you and myself, I wish peace.

[@user-zs9ji2tq7z]

This one really hits home

[@CodeE558]

Does

[@captainklay2373]

I spent 7 years with a girl who I loved dearly. We split up almost 6 months ago and I’ve been working on myself. I never realized how toxic I was to her how manipulative I was. I miss her so much. My heart aches every time I think of her. She was my rock and my foundation. She was there for me when my mother passed unexpectedly do to a blood clot. She has me blocked on everything. I hope she’s doing well. I still look back on those days and wonder how I let such an amazing person slip away from me. Why was I so ignorant and stupid? I know for a fact she hates me. It burns like a hot ash on my skin. We were planning on getting married and having a family. I just don’t know if I’ll ever be able to move on. She moved on so easily but that’s understandable due to what I put her through. The emotional torments I gave her and all of my jealousy. I hope one day she sees I’ve changed for the better. I know I’ll never have her again as my love. We were just kids when we got together. I feel so lost and when I hear this song it just reminds me of my failure of a man to her. I was supposed to trust and love her unconditionally and I couldn’t. My depression from the loss of my mother got the worst of me. She begged me to go to therapy. I wouldn’t. She begged me to stop hurting myself and I wouldn’t. She begged me to stop getting so upset at the little things and I just fucking wouldn’t. I was smoking weed all the time and wouldn’t care about anything unless I had it. I was drinking my sadness away every night. I’m sober now. Almost 4 months sober to be exact. I work out and seek therapy often. I dedicate my time and effort into bettering myself every day whether it be work or the gym. I miss her. She was my backbone and I let it all slip away. They say move on and try to find someone that will love me again but it’s hard to move on from your first true love. Her family took me in like I was one of them, we would spend Christmas and thanksgiving together and they didn’t necessarily love me the way she did but they accepted me for me. Now I’ll be spending it alone this year. The point of this rant is to love and treat your significant other with the care and happiness they want. Don’t let them slip away like I did. If they want you to change try to change. It’s truly one of the worst feelings in the world to lose the love of your life due to your own mistakes. I’ll regret it till the day I die. I miss you Jasmine. I’ll love you forever mi amor. I’m so sorry for everything I put you through.

[@manuteboler]

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry and I hope you are okay, I met someone I fell in love with for the first time in forever and she is doing so well and she caught me using, I think I lost her for good and the absolute agony I feel is unbearable, I don't know how to mo e forward alone again

[@pats4dawin106]

When we have a perfect parachute, we still tend to cut the ropes. Goodluck and grow from this!

[@Jimmylovesyou2]

This is to my mom, I love you for everything you backed my up for and being there for me. Rip mom ❤️

[@stephanieroll6114]

I’m a recovering addict almost 8 years sober and I think of all I did to my momma when I hear this song. It brings me to tears

[@LifewithRasor]

There's hope In a dark place. A light that shines that can bring life. Been through hell and back and took my loved ones with me. Glad to stand before the world 🌎sober and say there is Hope!

[@ravenfun7534]

I was an addict, not being wanted by my parents, family, girl, friends, I mean so far away from society, but this distance make me realized, how, lonely I'm snd I need help... With little courage I came up, enter rehab, and it's been many yrs I'm happy again. This song will always be my inspiration... Truly songs do change perspective..

[@thunderstud6701]

Justin said in a concert that this was an ACTUAL voice message his mom left when he was at his lowest and this was his apology to her...ALLEGEDLY =)

[@jacoblazar4909]

Every time I hear this song it reminds me of my ex, you know the one that knows how fucked up your life is and loves/d you anyway. The kind that you care so much about that you let go so they can find what in life makes them happy.

[@uncledan210]

That's real...

[@abbywences9686]

I have been struggleing with addiction since I was 21 n now I'm 31 been clean 4 mths on house arrest I have a beautiful 2 year daughter who is my everything my miracle baby I was told I would never bare a child so to a drug raged relationship I was beat pretty bad n I got clean for AWhile n God blessed me with her... I pushed my husband my 6 grad school crush I ended up getting married to years later away cus I was on drugs so bad I loved him enough to not drag him down with me n now I miss him so much and regret it n alot of way but at the same time hes doing so well now

[@Jonfootball4ever]

2:50 to 3:20 made me cry ....

[@CirerolOctavio]

Strong lyrics are strong

[@michaelmcroy5147]

Right,,,I need help

[@skeezerthegamer115]

Every time I try not to listen to this

[@pickledick4977]

Relatable

[@bigdaddy2343]

I'm ballin my eyes out. I'm sorry Lauren. I hate you won't talk to me ever again. After 18 yrs together and it's just over? I'm so sorry. We haven't spoken in 3 years. That part crushes me Brings me to my knees

[@mackinzeemackey8926]

My mom told me to listen to this song before she pasted away. I didn't really think about it until a year later. Now it hurts more than ever.