Chatting with an Old Boyfriend

[@marcgene4184]

"thank you for not giving up on me" that touched my heart🥺

[@romand.8514]

I was about to comment the same. 💔

[@TheFrasseF]

Yeah. It really touched me and got me thinking my current situation with a friend of mine.

[@abravegirl6613]

Mark, I’m a long-time follower. I’ve seen JP before and never knew you had BF history, rather he was just a good friend. This interview with him gave me all the feels. In just a few minutes, his realness touched me deeply. I’m mid-40s, a confirmed introvert and wallflower. Relationships are a fragment of my life I gave up on 6 years ago. I’m never treated like I deserve, but I don’t know how to be a partner either. Most days, I’m fine with it. A few minutes with JP and I’m questioning my entire solitary existence. He makes me want more for myself. Thanks for being you, making beautiful videos, being a great dad to sweet Olive, and for stirring inside me emotion previously dead.

[@summeroflove394]

honestly though if you feel like someone isn't treating you right like you deserve constantly then maybe it's better to be alone. Less drama and more 'me' time.

[@MarkEMiller]

I originally just wanted a short segment with JP for the vlog but as the tequila deepened itself inside of his homosexual veins the conversation really began to flow. it made me happy seeing him open up about our past with you guys and share what he’s learned about dating over the years. he’ll always be apart of my life, so I’m sure you’ll be seeing more of him. if you enjoyed this one be sure to leave a like as it really helps the channel

[@martinuribe4402]

I really love this and all of your videos. I love you Mark, you’re such an amazing incredible man ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@germancardenas1525]

Thank you MarkE! JP seems like a cool dude and I really like your friendship. Take care, love you both :3✨

[@Chelone95]

Oh! It was cool to see how far you've come. I appreciate you sharing this with us, It makes us get to know you more and see the growth that you've had as a person. I 'm happy for you, Mark! ❤️👍🏻👏🏻

[@yosuesoler6483]

Keep being an influence. Keep in mind that every person that enters your life teaches you a lesson. It can be positive or negative depending on how you take those energies and use them to better improve you. Hoped to had met you on your AK trip years ago. In all honesty this is the type of content I value a lot from a blogger just plain sincerity. Too many great vibes and blessings. 💕 🏳️‍🌈

[@jaqenhghar2446]

We need more JP!

[@quoc0dile]

"Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don't shoot their husbands, they just don't." - Elle Woods, Esq

[@derekboom2410]

I say that all the time! 😂

[@warhola86]

Thank you for posting this and normalizing being friends with your exes. This is exactly the type of male friendship I want and we all deserve

[@sufyanlowel4631]

male friendship? is there different kinds of friendship depending of ... what? male, female, hetero, homo? non-binary friendship? non-binary bisexual friendship is a totally different than a trans-lesbo friendship. and whos 'we all'??? isn't a real man gotta speak for yourself, not some 'we'? kinda yo bro r u a real man wanna yo real male c'mon friendship bro for real man yo not some chicks friendship yo but real male friendship bro just hold on a second, sugar I need to text my friends right now and ask them what kind of friendship do we have, I'll be right back, sweety, don't go anywhere

[@robm7449]

We all need a JP in our lives. Keep him close he's a good guy 👌

[@dougl945]

I’m lucky to have met my husband at 30 (he was 24). I’m 61 now and we are still together. There were ups and downs in the first few years. It takes awhile to really know someone, but I’m glad I was patient. Most people have no patience. Relationships take work. But the payoff is huge.

[@sufyanlowel4631]

but most people is in relationship, isn't they? besides if you lucky to meet THE RIGHT person there's not so much patience you need, everything comes along by itself

[@mclefferson]

I really loved this video. It was a very honest moment of reflection for you. I’ve watched this channel since I was in a wee baby gay in high school and I’m now in my 20s and it’s nice seeing a reflective side of you who is open and honest about your feelings experiences. While I also love when you get excited about your present and future projects and adventures, it’s nice to see this side. Thank you for choosing to share your life with the internet and willingly being vulnerable in a public space!

[@derekc4503]

JP speaks very naturally and eloquently, I really enjoyed listening to him. Please bring him back often, if you can. Your home is looking great, nice mellow mood lighting at night, and love the green accent wall.

[@pppmanly]

This video was very interesting. I could have watched a deep conversation between Mark and JP for a whole hour.

[@bitume]

Right!!!

[@Unpotted]

I’ve heard it and lived it: The greatest temptation in life us to settle for less than we want. JP has learned this, & like me, would rather be alone than settle for less again. 👏👏👏 Standing ovation!! 😸✌️

[@EricosVlogs]

What JP told about you and himself just touched my heart. SO SWEET! 🥺❤️

[@5thdimensionliving727]

JP is a brilliant friend - a great role model for friendship. We all need a great friend like JP. Thank you Mark for bringing JP into your space 🙏🙏

[@kevinh811]

After dating my latest boyfriend for 4 months, I just realized that I have no idea what I want from a guy in a relationship. So jealous of JP being in a place of greater self understanding.

[@andrewdeakin7078]

Thanks very much for this. I’ve always been a JP fan, and to finally hear him talking seriously was great. I could have listened to a conversation between the two of you for a couple of hours, not just 5 minutes. Lucky Marke, having dated him.

[@mitchelpou]

I LOVE how JP expresses himself…

[@lelandpeck4585]

Excellent interaction . JP seems like a great, level headed guy. glad that he's again in your life. Do you live in the same town? I too would have liked a longer, even deeper, conversation going on between you two. Looking forward to hearing more from JP.

[@happilyjack1240]

This video is such an interesting video! I love how raw this is and honest. Great job Mark!

[@redlady935]

The green wall looks amazing. I think just leave it as that one wall personally

[@buiewynn6975]

Love the color you chose! Remember though that color on every wall makes a room appear and feel smaller. I learned the hard way. JP is cute and seems to know who he is and what he wants, which makes him a good friend and or boyfriend.

[@matte_finnish]

"thank you for not giving up on me" made me tear up. I was a very closed off person for a long time and I had a friend that helped me open up and be myself. Truly changed my life! Thanks for the video Mark!

[@87Dinero87]

:(

[@marccheban194]

This is one of the most authentic and inspiring boyfriend chats on KZbin. Mark: JP is a keeper. JP: You have the wisdom of the Ages....

[@jadduck]

(As Cheesy as this comment may sound…) The conversation you both had was really insightful to me, someone that is definitely reserved and closed-off towards other people. I’m too private of a person, and it’s taken me until this video to realise that. The journey to self-discovery is hard, but this vid has given me some new directions to consider. I’ll remember this video for a long while because it’s struck a personal chord with me. Thank you, JP & Mark.

[@stevec404]

"Thank you for not giving up on me." I sent that very same message to a friend of mine earlier today!

[@rickshearer]

Wow! RESPECT! The humble honesty and willingness to be so vulnerably open shows awesome strength!

[@a32tl]

How is it that some people have multiple relationships throughout their lives and others, like me, never have even one? Once I hit 40, I pretty much knew it was never going to happen. I'd just settle for some close friends at this point.

[@davidanderson1074]

Try the church as I have many close friends their my family

[@matthewhall1062]

For me, the secret was moving to the big city. Gay male life is still concentrated in big cities.

[@motjon]

@@matthewhall1062 expensive...

[@matthewhall1062]

@@motjon I'm worth it. Are you?

[@motjon]

@@matthewhall1062 I should add crowded, high cost of living, no family nearby, high rates of homelessness and crime. But if it worked for you good.

[@silkedavid8876]

JP just talked and ignored that there is a camera on him and several thousand will watch it. That was refreshing. Would be nice one day to hear your friends talk what it is like to know a famous YT person.

[@princeleonel2691]

I’m 20 years old and I feel bad because all of my friends have had relationships and I’m never been in one, but I know is gonna come at the right time when I grow more as a Person, I’m getting there soon....sorry for my English Latino here lol. love you Marky🤍

[@robbycharmed]

I'm 26, and still have never been in a relationship either. I'm still healing from past trauma, and also it can be hard to date as an LGBT person, however, I do agree with people when they say don't rush, figure yourself out. It sucks though.

[@kevinb9146]

JP is precious! So, so glad you guys have remained friends.

[@marcelofg1119]

There's one thing that JP said about knowing what he wants from a partner, or the kind of person he wants. It doesn't work like that, unless we're talking about extremes. No one is perfect, we all have vices and habits that are annoying to others. Me and my partner share things in commom like our love for nature and animals, still we're a completely different in personality and mood. But along the 28 years together, we have learnt to adapt to each other and the magic word I heard from my Italian grandmother "rinuncia", we've got to renounce, to cede here and there from both sides to make it work.

[@tallnlankyrn]

Me seeing the thumbnail and title: "JP and Mark dated?!" lol this whole time, I always knew they were good friends, not exes

[@dudleyhall5217]

Gosh, this video ended too soon. I was really getting into the things JP was saying about y’all’s dating history and his dating history. Will there be a part II?

[@teammmx]

7:17 was a powerful moment for me, and I'm glad to have heard you be vulnerable enough to say it. Beautiful friendship

[@selfhelpstuff]

This is genuinly one of the best videos, authentic and simple. We would love to have your podcast Marke

[@marcosromero3987]

This video really moved me warmed my heart its really nice when you have a good friend thats going to be there for yoiv

[@louisgoniva2504]

JP's story hit way too close to home. Thanks for sharing JP. I feel you

[@OuchMyNardz]

Sounded like a very deep conversation but I was mostly transfixed by that stick light in your window giving off such gentle candlelight. What is it? It's superb.

[@liveforyou818]

Sounds like you’ve both grown so much. Thanks for sharing 😊

[@Khikemax]

Your videos really give me peace of mind. Ive been watching your videos ever since the "x ways to kiss your boyfriend" one and i have always looked up to you, both as a person and also as an editor and artist. Thank you for your videos 💚

[@isaaclopez-eb6yg]

I can't express how much your video and that conversation with each other really put a lot of my own concerns and short comings into perspective. This genuine and honest conversation is what I think many of us including me need. I ve been struggling with my own concerns about relationships and being alone and also changing but for the worst. This video helped me put into perspective the importance of seeking change for my own betterment and value those things in life that are authentic not the casual thrills of life. Love you both and thank you for this gift

[@HamperedKnave2]

JP made me tear up and the things he said about Mark apply to me right now. 😭

[@TheLandOfJonny]

JP talking about Mark and not being a good friend really resonates with a best childhood friend of mine. They’re very closed off but much more open in person.

[@michaelkks]

Love this! I’m glad you two can still have an awesome friendship. Your videos bring me good vibes. As a guy who recently became single, and has gone thru lots of changes this year… I can relate to many things that you share.

[@wanderingmocha9767]

Thank you so much for posting this, Mark. Could you tell JP that if he ever launch a podcast or a YT channel just talking about what he learned throughout his extensive dating/relationships life, I would 100% listen to it all the time, please? I love how vulnerable and honest he is, and I feel that he has so much wisdom to share anything related to that topic. I'd really love to hear more.

[@GrotrianSeiler]

Steak friendship. What a great label. This was a great video Mark. Very nice.

[@zattart]

It’s so funny to hear JP mention being surface level because for the last year I felt like each video and podcast has had a nugget of wisdom and insight rooted in personal experience and then the video would just end. I love all your content and I have since 2012. I’m always left wanting to know more about how you view the world. I’m excited that we got that this video.

[@A2dy]

I hope we can get this kind of honest interview one day with Andy

[@chateau7]

So, are you going to do a "Chatting w/an Old Boyfriend Part II"?

[@4theloveofAJ2023]

Your energy is so much more relaxed and contemplative. I have taken up hiking. I can exist within my head and think through the possibilities while burning through calories and anxiety.

[@johnmartinec1007]

I would't have considered that color but seeing it on the wall it looks great. It shows well both day and night. It's great you are able to think out of the box and it works. Well done you.

[@danielqcallahan]

The green paint looks great, but I would suggest keeping it to just that accent wall. Otherwise, you may have to color correct each video more because all the apartment light will have a green tint.

[@ev007-m8p]

Hey Mark! Thank you for another positive Sunday video! That green wall looks lush 😍 love Evgeny xxx

[@Al3x_tt]

love the nice moss green wall tbh. Great to see JP again, love you both so much and the relationship/friendship you guys have

[@imkwuzn]

JP is a lifetime friend. A platinum friend is a sea of bronze. We all should be lucky enough to have a JP in our lives as friends(or more!) Awesome video.

[@hithere1590]

Love the new color on your wall. Great Vlog! Peace and love Brother! 😀🤙

[@josephmillraney1061]

Mark, JP is such a revelation. What a beautiful soul. Fantastic! You two are amazing. Another WONDERFUL video, Mark, as usual! 👍👍👍

[@panthrdude]

I was not ready for that Olive close up.... BUT I AM HERE FOR IT😍! and great video Btw. It was so great to see how much you've both evolved with eachother.

[@williejenkinsjr7090]

Hi Mark It's 3am and I'm watching your videos.. bc it's comforting and hopeful to my heart. I just wanted to say.. I can totally relate to the description JP gave of you.. and I was that person. I've lost a few relationships bc I was closed off and I guess I still am to some extent bc It protects my ❤. But it's not always intentional just happens. Anyhow I have been with you since the beginning and I feel like I've grown with you even though I'm 8 years older than you. Just wanted to say your pure heart, good intent and unbelievable cuteness 😍 keep you in my heart. Any guy that gets a chance to spend time in your ❤ is lucky, bc your pretty great. Hope your have a great day. Xo

[@jeffreyharris2495]

I say to you Mark and to JP if you're ever fortunate enough to share your life with a soulmate as I was, it is heaven sent!!!!! Unfortunately cancer took Him from me, and I haven't met anyone else that could come close to what I had, and I just can't settle for anything less!!!!

[@FranzrXclusivE]

JP knows his 💩! So well said.

[@abrahamboniface6305]

Ja love JP, there's always a guy like that in my life. I made lots of silly mistakes. Now 43 I realise its better to start off just as friends, no friends with benefits.

[@airofdecember]

I have been following for years and this one is different. You talking about and talking with your ex hit differently than your other videos. I don't have an ex per se, but I do someone that is no longer in my life. A person that I was seeing died tragically and very sudden. Way too soon. It has been hard since then and life isn't what it once was. These times of the year make it worse. I just wanted to say that you are lucky and blessed to be able to talk to those ex's. Never lose sight. You actually moved just down the street from me so to speak last. I thought of reaching out and hanging, but Covid hit and now here we are. oh well. Have a good and blessed Christmas.

[@joeyrocconasta902]

This is so sweeeet. Thanks for sharing. I talked to my ex yesterday -- we had a video call & it was nice.

[@francescacastiglione7094]

Aside from both of you being ridiculously good looking, you seem to have very deep appreciation for each other and yourselves. Maybe someday you’ll find that love again with each other. That would be truly beautiful 💕❤️

[@venusinconverse1763]

Living room looks stunning!😍

[@Avacnela]

I'm still friends with most of my ex boyfriends and will even chat with them and hang out with them from time to time. And my husband even met a few of my exes and was able to be friends with them as well. I really appreciate how I can remain friends with them after no longer dating them.

[@PeteLenz]

Mark! Level of vulnerability is sweet and wonderful. JP totally nailed it…. He knows you.

[@jadenkhor3523]

I swear I watching this video and right @ 7.20 just after Mark says “Thank you for not giving up on me”, my video froze. I’ll just take that as a sign.

[@jordanjohn01]

damn this is one of those conversations that is just like.. very beautiful to listen to. glad you both have mangled to come to the other side and reach peace with each other

[@williamm8240]

What does JP stand for? He is very handsome. The spark is still there. Good luck.

[@Not-Ap]

Usually it's short for John Paul.

[@Liam_29_T]

I don't know what it is about you, Mark, but you always seem to put a smile on my face 😊 I wish I had a friend like you.

[@Liam_29_T]

@@2004cyrus I think you may be right

[@lenkahrachova5233]

It was so intimate and I felt vulnerable in the good way so... guys thank you for the conversation, it was worth it. Maybe further than you both could think. love ya

[@transpirit20]

I like JP. Have we seen him before here? I can't seem to recall. But he seems so familiar. And he was so expressive about his deeper feelings, which is quite a change for the KZbin world where even though creators share their lives, they express their deeper feelings in a measured way.

[@George903]

Super good episode! I recognize some of me in you. I am a public person, out-and-about a lot! Mr. Volunteer. But, I am very closed off. I don't let people in. Last month, a friend was visiting from S.F. to attend a event in Sacramento. We attended several events together. Recently, in S.F. his car had been broken into. Nothing noteworthy was stolen. But, that day, he had his lap top with him. He asked, "Can we swing by your place, so I can leave it there?" I said, "Yes". When we arrived at my apartment, I realized, this is the first person (stranger) in my apartment in at least 5 years!! My apartment is my private space. WOW!

[@stevehofmaster7489]

I did enjoy this video a lot Mark you have one awesome e friend in JP!

[@jaredmessinese4688]

I love you, but you should have gone with a forest green. This green reads early 2000s teen bedroom *edit* I wrote this seconds before seeing the furniture with it. It looks good lol

[@Stevenpwong]

Always thank you for the transparency and honesty

[@KingShroomish]

They have such a beautiful friendship and all I can think of is how I don't have friends 😭

[@DarkHybrid7]

Definitely a video of uniqueness. Truly a nice video

[@toddwhite8850]

That was a great video. Thank you both for sharing. Love no matter the context is so special. Xoxoxo

[@TheGor800]

What a very good chat between two friends/former boyfriends.

[@vwsaiphone]

I have been subscribed to you for 7+ years glad to see you are doing well

[@ady8097]

Great post Mark. One of your best. Hugs.

[@bradfrank7645]

what an insanely refreshing & genuine talk with an ex!

[@robertbeining141]

The green looks great!!

[@JerryDechant]

Is it ever too late to find your lover companion? I turned 73 this month, and am still running solo. If he's out there, we haven't bumped into each other yet. I'm thinking it isn't going to happen in this life time. :(

[@JerryDechant]

@@dpnice7721 Yeah, this dam plandemic and all its nonsense has certainly removed a lot of potential encounters. :(

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[@jeremylawrence7756]

I love the green & thanks for continuing to share your life with us all 👉🏻❤️👈🏻

[@lambdastar001]

I have lossed all my best friends to AIDS , but also in school I lost so many best friends to Farm Accidents. I been alone for 40 years. . And I lost someone I loved to Murder. I wish you the best with your friendships.

[@d43v4]

so much quality talk!!!! Were we ready for it???? You got me by surprise that's for sure!

[@seethevolcane]

The old bf (JP?) is smart, dear and very handsome, someone of honesty (& sexy, too.)

[@sabastiantaylor7209]

After watching this video and reading the comments. I don’t understand how you guys think what JP said was so introspective. Wasn’t that just all common sense. Are people really this unaware? You have to self reflect look inside yourself and most importantly be honest with yourself. If you’re not a well rounded complete person who is happily independent and you don’t rely on others for happiness. How can you give or be anything to someone else. With that being said you probably have nothing to offer someone else either. So many ppl want others to complete them but they themselves are not capable of providing what they seek, to another person. How is that fair? One just takes takes takes. While another gives gives gives. Become the best version of yourself. If you don’t like you. No one of quality or substance will ever value you either. They will just move on to a better option to someone who is also more of a quality person.

[@josephholtz2630]

Putting that green on the small wall will really make the peacock print pop!

[@73pikachu]

You guys look great together. Hope you get some time to make more videos together. 🤗🤗

[@jamespayne80]

Loved the color! Great idea as far as feeling things out.

[@certifiedsukraw]

was anyone else low-key feeling a vibe toward the end there? like after the video was over I was thinking "wow I hope they love each other again and hook up"

[@carlosalenduran4630]

I love the wall color 🤩

[@AndresGarcia-qo8is]

JP's jawline is everything.

[@hireshjodhun6042]

I can’t wait to tell the person who’s out there waiting for me those words “Thank you for not giving up on me”

[@peteford2434]

SIRI 'What is the worst colour imaginable"? Ok.. I'll paint my wall that colour.

[@nikkilogan7726]

Its really good to have a healthy talk with your ex boyfriend, you can talk about anything - past love, relationships, love talk etc... This is healthy as long as your still friends with your ex, your good to go. 😎👍