Why I disappeared

[@irelandbrianna1649]

Your transparency about being a parent is appreciated and respected

[@jakobha3768]

Wtf

[@soundscape26]

@scottccyoutube Maybe the reason not to go extinct is compelling enough?

[@Nalijay]

@scottccyoutube People have children for different reasons. Children are hard but they are the best and most rewarding thing you will ever do. You can't understand it if you don't have kids, but you love them more than anything else in the world. I would die for my daughter, but fuck yes she drives me crazy sometimes hahaa. The good parts, the love, fun and joy of having children in your life, definitely outweighs the stress. If you don't want to have kids - don't have them! But that doesn't mean it doesn't make sense for ANYONE to have kids just because you want to prioritise yourself and your stress over other people.

[@JennHayden]

@Nalijay "you can't understand if you don't understand ".... while this is true, it's also bullshyt. I say it is bullshyt you make it seem as if it is a given. Like every parent gets it. They don't. My journey as a parent is nothing like yours or anyone else. I something feel as if you and others just repeat shyt you have heard over and over again without understanding what you are saying. So yes, you won't understand unless you are parent, but not every parent understands. Stop pretending otherwise.

[@gianniclaud]

Grateful for these top comments. Saved me 17 minutes.

[@thebunsenburner]

Sleep deprivation from parenthood without support absolutely wiped the floor with me. Glad you're talking about it.

[@marieescaped34]

Same here. I have a picture of my baby when she turned 10 months. I remember that feeling when I realized I'm alive. It was another 2 years before she slept through the night and didn't call us to stay with her. But those first 10 months were brutal.

[@gabriellafaithmckenzie]

I just got out of that phase with my twins. I don’t wish it on my worst enemy 😂

[@reinadellasschizas]

I haven’t slept properly for 2,5 years. I am so glad my son is nearly 5 now.

[@vanessabarbosa3681]

me too

[@Bulldawzer]

I burned out because our daughter was colic. I was on 3-4 hours of sleep maximum for the first 6 months, while working a stressful 9-5.

[@earthangel4166]

Thanks so much for not editing out the crying. It’s so important for others, especially men, to see that it is ok to cry, it’s ok to not be ok.

[@KayKayBayForever]

Yes!!!

[@kaliyuga1476]

Cwinge

[@kaliyuga1476]

I mean your comment, not the fact that we, men, are free amd should express our emotions, including sadness or joy through crying

[@JTDIYM]

Don’t tell men what’s important

[@mehrdar]

Yesss

[@Wil_Dasovich]

Damn that’s the first time I ever heard someone be that transparent about a negative experience in fatherhood. Appreciate keeping it real!

[@jeremygolez1866]

My greatest of all time Pinoy Vlogger in the comment section of my greatest of all time forenjer vlogger?! 🤯 Now it’s time for your comeback too, Wil! 👀

[@patdennis2586]

Yeah, women have been saying these things for fukin EVER!!! And historically they’ve done it all alone.

[@elle3944]

Hoy Wil naa lagi ka diri ahahahah

[@teaMmMate]

Watch David Lynch's Eraserhead

[@rhyfalta9697]

In Germany i cant hear anything good about fatherhood. Everyone is complaining, a part of this kept me away of getting kids but now, i love it an appreciate every single day. I assume you can have luck or not. But not getting sleep is torture and changes a lot.

[@SidneyDiongzon]

As a dad of 3 kids, I promise you it gets better! You're doing great Matt.

[@habibaroyees]

Wait from my experience teenagers are the most challenging so far 😮

[@victoriar8668]

I’m convinced people who have toxic positivity about parenting just want people to be as miserable as them.

[@Thestephanieway]

I wouldn’t say that it gets “better”. I would say that the stages of parenthood changes. It’s ALWAYS hard every single day. As the kids get older, they grow into who they’re going to be and you have to roll with it whether you like them or not… and a lot times, you’re not because teenagers SUCK!

[@jessip8654]

@@victoriar8668 I don't think parents supporting and encouraging each other through hard times is "toxic positivity." I don't even have kids myself, but some people's opinions that all parents are miserable and hate their lives is just tiring. My friends who are parents love their lives with their kids, even through the hard times.

[@innerspearmusic]

​@@victoriar8668 There is nothing greater or more rewarding in life than having children. I have three. Sometimes it's hard, but keep in mind that his experience is extremely atypical.

[@narratedclips7]

Never have I clicked so fast on a video before. Welcome back old friend!

[@narratedclips7]

Also instant like on the video, like in the old days

[@selleos]

I got the notification and was like YES!!!! 🎉

[@guiOchagas]

Yes, so am I

[@allenwolfe5444]

Same.

[@open2417]

🏃🏽‍♀️ to the video!!

[@facepalmmute3619]

Dude thank you for your brutal honesty about being a parent! Everyone makes it out like its all sunshine and rainbows and never mention the hard parts!

[@zingara76]

“Everyone”? Lots of people, specially right now make parenthood looks like a nightmare. That’s why lots of people are thinking about not having kids. It’s 2024 things have change. Not having kids is the new normal.

[@MrPeanutButter1211]

Maybe for your feed it is. But on my social media feed it's all rainbows and sunshine, even if im not on the internet, the people from where i'm from has that "being a parent is the greatest thing in the world" mindset but never address the awful real stuff that comes with that price. If they do, they get labeled as a "bad" parent for just being transparent abd vulnerable ​@@zingara76

[@harmonyranay07]

@@zingara76because people are more honest now. It’s always been hard people lied to us about kids

[@soundscape26]

@@zingara76 Yes, things have changed, people are much more lazy and self-indulgent than before

[@XRando78X]

Who is making it sound like sunshine and rainbows? Literally everyone ive seen with kids says it's a nightmare and seems miserable

[@zenbrandon]

Hearing your take on parenting is something I desperately needed to hear as a new dad four years ago. No one ever talks about how fucking difficult it is, and you feel like something is wrong with you for not being happy all the time about it. And that just makes you feel worse and worse. I have two kids now, and it does get better. But hearing those words when you're in the thick of it doesn't help. Sometimes you just want someone to tell you, "yeah, this sucks. It's horrible. I have been where you are." So thank you for this.

[@nathanieldrew]

My favorite thing about your work Matt is your ability to be honest when things are not going great. This was beautiful to watch. Happy to hear you are feeling better! Sounds like it has been a hell of a journey.

[@meaganramundo875]

So happy to see you still staying current with his content. You’re both phenomenal creators and humans

[@mattdavella]

Thanks brother! Truly means a lot coming from you. I’ve been so impressed with how you’ve evolved as a creative and storyteller. You voice is truly unique my friend ❤

[@TheMcDeal]

The timing of video was perfect. My wife and i have a 14 month old and we haven't had a stretch of 3 straight hours of sleep since he's been born. The toll that takes on your health, work, marriage and well being is freakin rough. It's really nice to hear someone else's experience so you don't feel shame about what you're going through. Thanks Matt & Nat.

[@thebrandonvu]

Something about that coffee montage made me feel at peace with the world. Nothing like OG Matt back to deliver us some more wisdom.

[@strandrea]

This!

[@jakubdthomas]

I was looking for a comment about making coffee in a blender instead of grinder being really bad for the coffee :D

[@delinquents212]

I love your vulnerability. I can see how on-the-edge you are where you almost can't bring yourself to admit to your motivation video, or your tears, but you left it, and that to me is the greatest value here; the humanity.

[@benedekistvan2655]

Your vidoes helped me a lot when I was around 18-19(now I'm almost 25) so I just wanted to say thanks!

[@nessyfay]

Me too!!

[@luisfelipemartins5012]

Same w/ me! My English teacher introduced me Matt and it was game changing

[@pedrorneto]

Same for me man! Thanks Matt.

[@benjaoliva3383]

Same here man, this man inspired me so much at that time

[@ralstonawayan448]

Me too 😢, I’m happy he’s back.

[@yclein]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. Crying is not lame. You are brave.

[@curly_boerli]

You are the most genuine and down to earth youtuber I have ever come across. After all these years, I’m still so glad I discovered your channel. I don’t know what else to say except thank you!

[@vekr2037]

From one parent to another: hardest job we ever had. We feel you, especially the first year was so tough. I know you know this, but you're not alone. And it keeps getting better and now our 2yo started forming her first sentences and we are just filled with love and pride and joy. Lots of love from Germany, looking forward to your new projects!

[@badandbookiee9081]

First off hands down, this is my FAVORITE video you’ve ever done! 1. Your transparency about being a parent 💯 2. Your vulnerability about what “coming back” means for you and your journey figuring out doing something because you want to versus have to. 3. Trying to maintain your sense of self and not lose yourself while trying to parent and raise someone else. Im a single mom of a special needs child so I get the struggle of trying to “do it all”. But these points in particular are a breath of fresh air to hear it from a man and first time parent at that. Great job! 👏🏻 and you got this! 🙌🏻

[@moriuma558]

All of the best to you, single mom, from a fellow single mom.

[@pattilage779]

I’m sorry you had to go through that tunnel, but very happy to hear you are emerging. Parenthood is a lifelong journey for sure. Big hugs to you and Natalie and Baby.

[@wooziemiti8049]

This video really hit home for me. I've been feeling overwhelmed lately, and hearing your perspective on taking a break made me realize how important it is to step back and recharge. Has anyone else here taken a break like this? I love how honest and open you are, Matt thank you

[@juanjosevillegas19]

Wow! after years of being a subscriber (fan) and getting value out of your videos (not just lessons but also quality entertainment and coffee ASMR) I think this is my FAVORITE video so far. We appreciate the vulnerability and honesty you showed. We wish you inmense success in this new chapter!

[@ChoomW]

Glad to see you back, Matt. Your honesty really hits home. Looking forward to whatever comes next. Take care of yourself, bro.

[@chriszarilla9987]

I was just thinking about your vids the other day randomly this is perfect timing

[@arielfriedman7989]

Same

[@cdot.8492]

same here

[@pstanislawski92]

Same

[@mattdavella]

Good to see you again :)

[@omar_al-hassan]

Same , i have just checked the channel 2 days before the video , although that am not an old fan , but I love this guy and this channel

[@LaniakeaLeathercrafts]

My my close friend is dealing with their newborn's insomnia for the last 6 months. It's heartbreaking seeing the effect this is having on them. I'm grateful for your transparency as a parent as this a specific issue I don't see highlighted enough.

[@camifaschingbauer]

Effect?

[@innerspearmusic]

Why not offer to help them out?

[@LaniakeaLeathercrafts]

@@innerspearmusic why assume we aren't already doing so?

[@innerspearmusic]

@@LaniakeaLeathercrafts Fair enough. How did that go are they doing any better?

[@meaganramundo875]

Thank you for making this. As a mom to a 15 month old who quite honestly has been a relatively easy baby, it’s still hard. I can’t even imagine going through a such a difficult sleep journey. On top of that, I lost my career by becoming a mother. That was my choice, but it’s been so hard. I’m a stay at home mom now, so finding purpose in life outside of motherhood is extremely hard. I still feel lost, but it’s so encouraging to see you coming out the other side.

[@Tyler-ec5bz]

Thanks for being real on this - I remember commenting on a video a couple years ago of yours to the effect of “it’ll be interesting to see how this changes for you when/if you become a parent” Having kids does this to people and not something you can emulate until you go through it. I’m sure you’re a great dad

[@21cormorants]

Insomnia, from any cause, is truly hell. Having experienced it on a low level and witnessed it at a more severe level, it’s one of the most gruelling forms of mental torture a human can just naturally slip into. Appreciate you talking about your experience; I’m sure many can relate, and many more will never have heard anyone discuss it and would imagine it’s “not that bad” until hearing you discuss it and the resulting illnesses, depression, anxiety, sleep-anxiety, ptsd, etc., that can come as a result of it. I sincerely hope you’re all sleeping better now. I can’t imagine 10 months straight… If you do talk more about it, and getting your little one to sleep, I’m sure it’d help a lot of new parents, even if it might not resonate for your own regular audience in quite the same way. Glad to see someone calling themselves out on the BS “I Lost X, Here’s How I Figured It Out Again” when we’re all just still out here looking for answers, not having it all worked out. Love the short-form podcast idea! And always enjoy your bonus channel. And listen - you might’ve missed the opportunity (this time) to make an “I’m Quitting YT” video, but you can still put a teary-eyed thumbnail here and get those clicks!

[@wvilla84]

Being a subscriber for almost 7 years! This video felt like the old days, even the nostalgia of the Coffee Montage intro.... I feel I speak for a lot of people when I say "We Missed You!" Keep it up man, you are awesome and part of the foundation of who I am today.

[@rachena91]

I second this Matt 🎉. I found you around 2015 when I was 24. You’ve definitely impacted who I’ve become as a person for the better in 2024. Your playfully shot videos are always a joy to watch and I always gain something education or insightful from it! Stick in there, you are absolutely doing enough. Even if enough doesn't feel like it on some days. May we continue to get more nostalgic coffee montages as it sustains you in life, fatherhood and content creation ❤

[@alicethomass]

After the year you’ve had, shedding a couple of tears of relief because you’ve found your way back to you is nothing to be ashamed of. You’ve been missed and I look forward to seeing what you create in the upcoming year!

[@brendaowensvisuals3543]

Matt I have loved your work since 2017 and have taken several of your classes. Crying is just human. It's a natural as laughing. Anyone who enjoys your work is going to get it. Really. Be good to yourself.

[@melbournepluggedin]

Thank you so much for sharing this. There are so many parents suffering alone wondering why parenthood isn’t everything they thought it would be. Can’t wait to hear about your journey with different sleeping methods!

[@sunnyaz1508]

It's so hard to watch someone shaming themselves. Matt, don't shame yourself! You are clearly doing it starting at 12:27 - your reaction is not lame, what you are doing is not lame. Allow yourself to be your complete self - with tears and everything. You are a human with all the weaknesses and strengths that come with it. "I am not that kind of guy. I am not that kind of youtuber", not allowing yourself to cry... Accepting every part of yourself and not shaming yourself for being you and your reactions and emotions - this is what you should work on. It will help you so much with your recovery. Ironically, showing true emotion and being completely vulnerable (not surface / social media vulnerable) is what builds true connections, including the connection with yourself. With love, from one neurodivergent person to another :)

[@StevenYen]

This was beautifuly written wow

[@Jonathan.Bergqvist]

@@StevenYen 100%

[@mattdavella]

I have no problems crying. Been doing it a fair amount the last year. It’s more of the crying on camera in a KZbin video 😂.

[@sunnyaz1508]

@@mattdavellano, I got that. But crying any time you want is ok with or without a camera

[@RadElNew]

I remember pre-pandemic joining the workforce after college, wanting to work on myself, and stumbling upon one of your 30 day challenges. Since then your videos have been a staple & inspiration in improving my health & well-being, my productivity, my finances and most importantly, my biceps. Your vulnerability makes your advice all the more authentic. Much love bro

[@studiojo280]

Oh dude, the not sleeping...I feel ya. My son was born 3 months premature and did not sleep longer than 2 hours at a time for 9 months once home. I was the only one waking with him. I went insane for a while. It was horrible.

[@studiojo280]

I also got a PTSD diagnosis. Big hugs to you guys. One day he'll sleep in until noon as a teenager and you'll marvel at that lol.

[@zagin_kinomaniv]

I am so glad that you back! Your videos it’s real inspiration for many viewers and creators around the world! I am Ukrainian and creating videos at our circumstances sometimes could be hard. But your come back inspired me not stop Hope you will enjoy creating videos again!

[@mathunzimacdonald]

Welcome back! You are one of the people who put me on to watching KZbin! All the way from South Africa. All the best to you and your young family

[@hakimalfian]

Man, this is the first time your video has come up in my algorithm and I watched it. And I felt exactly the same way you did when you talked about being a new dad. It was just 2 months ago when my baby was born. Like you said: IT'S SO HARD! And I would say: Yeah, IT'S SO F**KIN' HARD! I had to reorganize my entire life. But watching your video was such a relief that it wasn't just my problem, and being honest as a new dad is so important. Thank you for making this video. Have a great life with your family!

[@AmyGent]

So, so, so happy that you're back!! Parenting is so hard, and I'm glad someone is sharing how hard it truly can be.

[@MiaCatAdventures]

Thank you for being so honest about adjusting becoming parents and how hard it is, you just don’t hear about it enough! Great to see you here 👋

[@Thestyleinsider.]

I feel all of this SO deeply. Especially the nightmare those first months as a new parent with a baby that cries ALL the time, doesn't sleep, no family support and living in a new country. Wow! This was me and while it was 20 years ago hearing you describe it all brought it all back like it was yesterday. Please know you will truly find your new "normal" and while parenting is never easy - it won't get any worse / harder than what you've been through. I'm very happy you're back and creating and as a KZbinr myself I'll really enjoy following your new channel too. Enjoy a Summer Christmas in my home town, the sleep you're now getting and a brighter 2025! x

[@milesmcannon]

I, and I assume many others, thank you for your sincerity and transparency. You're gleaming bro

[@EAJ1523]

Matt I met you in Newark airport about a year ago on my way to Japan. I’m certain you don’t remember me, but you just stopping to say hi and talk to me for a minute made my day. Welcome back, glad to see you’re here with your head up again.

[@mattdavella]

Hope I didn't smell too bad after a 23+ hour trip with a baby lol. And I hope Japan was great!

[@reumy]

I ILITERALLY made an asana project called "emulate matt d'avella' 3 hrs ago. And whats crazy is I just watched Keenan's video on his take of "why matt d'avella dissapeared' . Proof the universe is listening. I appreciate your authenticity. Thank you for being you!

[@Simply.Mariela]

thanks for the honesty about parenting. i'm more convinced now that life isn't for me haha. welcome back!!

[@Nalijay]

It takes a lot to put someone else's needs before your own. Don't ever feel pressure to have kids if you don't want them. It's a lot of work.

[@Simply.Mariela]

@@Nalijay definitely!

[@marceetaylor3873]

The coffee opener was everything I needed and more. I've been watching you since 2017 and LOVE your content.

[@Laelin123]

Thank you for your raw honesty. I cried with you there as I have gone through very similar experience and was diagnosed with an adjustment disorder in the middle of 2023. I am still not fully back on my feet, but I am hopeful!

[@Darkbillhook]

I really felt this, especially the parenting part. People tell you being a parent is hard and you think “yeah it’s gonna be hard I get it” - but it’s so much harder than you can ever realise until you do it. I developed ptsd, ocd & depression & I had what people colloquially term “a breakdown”. Then I developed multiple chronic illnesses as a result, which then made everything ten times harder. My son’s 5 now and I’m just about feeling like I’ve gotten myself back. Anyway I’m glad you spoke about this - people just speak about these things more. Welcome back!❤

[@WhatThePho]

Matt, I’d been through exact journey as a creator. Burnout is a real thing and I’m so proud of of you for showing up again for yourself and for your audience. We miss you! We’ll be here for you ❤️

[@GiftLee]

Your vulnerability is truly appreciated. Discovering your other channel reminded me how much I missed your videos. Welcome back!

[@garyleivers9194]

i absolutely love this guy..... so honest, humble and thoughtful.... all in one tightly rolled Burrito! Great to have you back Sir.

[@tommywadelton6305]

I've always appreciated your vulnerability Matt. Much love, and hope it continues to get better for you and Nat

[@Simply_Selina]

Thank you for sharing so openly, coming back AND for the coffee montage. Missed all of it 🥰☕ Also, tears are the sweat of the eyes. Both totally normal and fine to show in public, even though it might not feel that way. And also totally fine to use the same towel for both 😉

[@quadcom]

The world when your mom had kids was a VERY different world than the one we currently live in. We don't have the mental or physical capacity to handle the day-to-day requirements, let alone the needs of a newborn child. The good news is that it won't get better; you'll just get used to it, lol.

[@charliehunt6336]

Agree with this. Life is not set up to support dependents anymore.

[@AF2277S]

This feels really closed minded and filled with people who think they live in worse of lives than their parents. Most people who have kids seem to be able to function and be all good with them, even with a world full of stuff we think we should be doing. However you need to realise priorities, instead of doing everything

[@Palmundo91]

There was community back then. .... a true sense of it..nowadays there is none of that for parents

[@JasonCasey-mm2zc]

Also, at least in my area (rural MS) families lived closer and Grandma was there to send the kids to to babysit for free

[@Rattymischief]

And then your parents keep asking why you haven't had kids yet. It's brutal out here with the lack of community support and spiralling prices for the basics.

[@ChrisSh1984]

I remember leaving a video on one of your older videos where you were focusing on being uber productive etc and I left a slightly salty message saying something along the lines of "this is great but wait until you have kids". My daughter is 6 and we've worked with 3 sleep clinics and she STILL wakes up at 4-5am and wakes through the night. I feel your pain and it is literally the worst feeling ever and makes everything seem 1000 times worse.

[@strahinjamacesic3974]

Have you checked the work of Stasha Gominac, and her findings on vitamin D3 and B vitamins?

[@allie9462]

Have you totally blocked out her windows and any light in bedroom? Blue light at night is the culprit

[@ChrisSh1984]

@@allie9462 thanks but as I said, we’ve worked with 3 sleep clinics and tried all of that. It made zero difference.

[@ChrisSh1984]

@@strahinjamacesic3974 no but I’ll take a look. She is on multivitamins and does follow a healthy pescatarian diet though.

[@ChrisSh1984]

@IsakTougaard9 thanks I’ll take a look

[@Jeremy-vf7su]

Matt, your content has meant a great deal to me. I believe some of the things I’ve learned from you have made me a better man, husband, and father. Thanks for leading the way in showing what an intentional lifestyle looks like. Merry Christmas man.

[@taninaarab2894]

We love you and are happy you took the time you needed to take care of yourself! All the best to you and your family, happy to see you back

[@LilDeadHead1]

wait, you totally not crying was the best part lol. i freaking love honesty and authenticity! and the fact that you fully acknowledged how aware you are of how cringe it usually is when people cry on camera hahah. So sorry to hear that you had such a rough year! Life can really suck. But getting out of the trench feels soooo good

[@meganjamieson8082]

Welcome back Matt, it’s great to see your face again! I had hoped you would return. I only follow 3 KZbinrs, so I did miss you! I hope you keep feeling better :)

[@spicyrain4216]

I’ve never been so excited! Welcome back Matt!!!!

[@theiak3042]

Your videos always makes my day better, they made me to want to improve myself, I started some good habits being inspired by you. I owe you a simple Thank you, you are a great person, things will get better Matt!

[@ElenaDulea]

Thank you for coming back and keep going! We missed you!

[@enice617]

12:34 I feel you bro. I’m coming off the worst 3 yrs of my life. Finally on the rebound. I totally understand it. I’m finally coming back to myself and when I think back about where I was, I still get teary-eyed for past me. Everything is better on the other side. Glad you made it pal. Welcome back.

[@aliabdaal]

❤❤❤

[@mishachanchibadze]

Hey ❤

[@jacobloera4678]

I feel you on the sleep, my son did the same for the first year and now we're expecting a daughter and I hear they are much more kind and tend to sleep much longer than boys. I pray to God that holds up! Good to see you back Matt!

[@vidz953]

Haha! If you think that stuff really separates by sex then you might be hugely surprised.

[@gghhpuf]

I think It depends on the child, I am a woman and the first thing I did when I was born was screaming and I didnt stop for years. My brother slept súper well and was a very sweet baby

[@naintara6727]

Baby girl's parent here! Sorry that's a bubble to burst 😅😅😅😅 congratulations to you btw may you have blessed child

[@aspencordoba3204]

Thank you so much for your honesty! Parenting is so hard, especially when you’re depressed. Glad you took the break you needed, also glad you’re back man!

[@samantaricocad]

I love you Matt, since 2019 your videos have been a motivation in my life and being with you in this important moment makes me feel almost as a friend of yours. Thank you for all (ALL) your videos, and thank you for having the courage to record this one. Definitely, my fav video

[@kratosfire6908]

Hi Matt, writing to you from France (ye you've got pretty far dude). I've been following your content and your journey for years now and you inspired me so much. I know it's hard to be fully aware of this but you did improve my life and gave me motivation to live by my passion : thank you so much. Really. Parenting is like one of the final boss of life, I can see how challenging it is through my brother's and sister's experience, it is totally normal to feel that depressed when you can't get some sleep. Thank you for being authentical. :) I really hope things will go well for you and Nat, and the little one. Hope you get some happiness making videos again and somehow helping more people than you think. Go easy on yourself. :)

[@norijpeg]

OMG. missed your videos so much! I’m happy you’re doing better and happy to be back

[@inglescomrafarufino]

I wish I were close friends with Matt. Does anyone else feel the same way? You rock, dude! Welcome back!

[@mattderron]

Great to see you back. Thanks for sharing and most importantly congrats on being a Dad. It's the hardest, most stressful, least prepared for yet most important and ultimately rewarding job you will ever have. We're all learning as we go. Take care.

[@TechOutAdam]

Def the most refreshing and real perspective on being a parent, being a youtuber and really the stresses of life it comes with. Thanks for being vulnerable. I teared up as well. You the man. Appreciate all your work Matt.

[@mankey2919]

0:37 jesus christ he got better at videography!

[@respectkindness-oj6xz]

his voice reminds me of doctor Mike

[@Stallardjw]

0:10 - Are you grinding your coffee in a blender, Matt?

[@lparesse]

dad's gotta wing it when dad's gotta wing it. safe to say he didn't actually drink it (i hope)

[@Healthyfied]

Some blenders have grind mode

[@Lunaguidata]

😂

[@annaheya2109]

Improvising 😂

[@Whatsjonosaying]

Does it actually work?!

[@ChristopherRamos-l2b]

Welcome back and be strong…..meanwhile I’m favored and blessed beyond limit, our God is indeed a covenant keeping God, 2024 brought my household a miracle of $50,000 every month, God has been more faithful to us Now I can afford anything and also support the work of God and church

[@MiaKaroline-g3n]

Oh really? Can you Tell me more about this

[@ChristopherRamos-l2b]

This is what Melissa Jonas Richard does, she has changed my life.

[@ChristopherRamos-l2b]

After raising up to 50k trading with her, I bought a new house and car here in the US and also paid for my son’s (Oscar) surgery. Glory to God.shalom.

[@RoseGotze]

I know Melissa Jonas Richard, and I have also had success

[@RoseGotze]

Absolutely I have heard stories of people who started with little or no knowledge but managed to emerge victorious thanks to Melissa Jonas Richard.

[@Francesco.Costantino]

You made me start my KZbin channel and I’m so happy to see you back, the videos on the Bonus channel are not enough! :) And it’s so beautiful to see your transparency!

[@summieh]

We love you, Matt. Thank you for your openness. It's admirable how vulnerable you show yourself in front of the camera and us. I'm still working on that

[@igorgorbatschow]

Welcome back Matt! We missed you! ❤

[@Klondike4]

Thanks for posting this. I became a dad about 6 weeks after you, and found loads of reassurance from your videos on the experience - and that includes this one. Keep up the good work. Also: shocked at the blade grinder! Please invest in a hand grinder for your coffee!!

[@violetagetova9541]

You are incredibly brave to share all your experiences! The world needs more talk about how painful, heartbreaking and disabling parenthood can feel! I’ve been there myself and I admire you for your openness!

[@Digital_Spit]

Power to you Matt, a whole lot of what you mentioned , I feel you and I hear you. I experienced almost the same thing, new dad here + moved countries away from fam + burnout from work and what i like doing + lack of sleep. It took me also 6 to 8 month to get back on track and it was the most important lesson I got from life. I now have 4 pillars I prioritize (Mental + Physical + Emotional + Spiritual).. you are coming out stronger and stronger, in my down days (clincal depression > ur vids used to lift me up) just so you know :)

[@aleonidasruiz]

Thanks Matt, thats awesome you come back ! I really appreciate your content, transparency and all that your represent ! Welcome back bro

[@marih12991]

Welcome back Matt! Thank you for sharing your experience, it's nice to hear from you again and be able to learn from you. :)

[@joeshonmonroe]

We love you Matt! Thanks for sharing your story. Showing the world your humanity is what we need more than ever.

[@musiclaurenash]

Love your authenticity, content, and humor. Glad you're back and glad that you're putting your needs as a priority and listening to yourself. Hope you and Nat and Frankie are doing great!

[@ramirezpachecojosemaria1831]

you cannot even fathom how much this video made my day. im a fan since I was 13, im 19 now looking at life quite differently and with different priorities. one being starting my journey as an entrepreneur and taking focus on other things, however when this video popped on my feed while eating lunch it was like a christmas present, not only because its a new video or knowing about the new podcast, but your transparency with your life struggles made me relate to you in some ways and gave me huge amounts of hope for those moments when im felling lost or depressed even. don't wanna waste your time reading this but I thought I'd throw that out there for you Matt, big love and respect

[@alannahgraham__]

Thank you so much for this video. Just wanted to comment and say thank you for the honesty. I've been watching your channel for years (via this account and an old account), and I've always appreciated your sincerity and passion. Also, when you said "my mental health is deeply connected to my ability to create" -- this hit me like a ton of bricks! I'm also going through a period of change, particularly with work, and this has really put things into perspective for me.

[@Monderance]

I've seen a few of your videos and I think you're real with how you talk about things. Hats off to you for being so open about all this. It's appreciated!

[@mattbuxton]

Happy to have you back, you've always been one of my favorite KZbin. So excited to see your future content! I can sympathize alot with your fatherhood journey, I am a new father myself as of March. You're doing great.

[@katjasofina6773]

Thank you so much for beeing open in this video. Showing people your feeling helps to show thant when you're feeling bad you don't have to keep it to youself. Opening up really helps to overcome these feelings. Thanks for been a role model for me and others.

[@iisidorag]

I am so glad you are back on KZbin! Hope you never leave again, we appreciate you and your work so much!! So inspiring and motivating always!

[@TheBitcoinLambo]

Man is meant to build. Stay the course ser.

[@adamcha967]

We love you and your passion and we are glad to see you back but if you ever need a break that is a OK because we appreciate everything you already gave us :) thank you Matt

[@karlolsheski3319]

Thanks for being a real one Matt. Your authenticity is always relatable and refreshing. Won’t be the first or last to say this - glad you and your family are doing well.

[@satt3rthwait3]

I'm happy that you are back, you were missed. And thank you for being so honest. I felt you. All the best on your journey.

[@MichaelThomas2477]

Appreciate you being honest and vulnerable in talking about your experience as a father. I became a father 3 years ago and also became depressed. None of the other dads in our friend group talked about stuff like that so I felt like I was the only one who was struggling. Over the years I’ve learned that it’s a relatively common experience. I’ve also started connecting with my son in a totally different way now that he’s not just a blob! Anyway, I appreciate you opening up about that in front of such a large audience. Wishing you and your family the best!

[@tomwestern4952]

I really appreciate your honesty! Becoming a parent. Where a lack of sleep leads to a lack of energy, control and routines! As a parent myself, I can tell you it gets a little easier. Then other issues emerge! Keep up the great work!

[@jamesyourguru]

I was so excited to hear you were coming back. It feels like old times. 100% respect the authenticity and that is what makes your videos unique. I can relate so much and it’s good to know I am not the only one. Welcome back

[@BlueKnightGuy]

I’ve watched you from the very beginning on here, it’s been a great ride to watch you grow and develop as a person and creator. Glad you could make this video, and the family are doing well. Good luck with the recovery and stay true to yourself!

[@marymar3433]

Oh, Matt! New first-time mum here and in these crazy first-months while being a creative person. It is so damn hard. I am glad you are back, that you feel that you are ready to come back. Best of luck to your new creative chapter

[@SamKay-x9b]

Thanks Matt, been a huge fan for years, glad to see you back and I love the other channels

[@constelatians]

i randomly teared up with the timing, I started my content back up this week after a 6 months or so gone and feel the same exact way. Even down to why I quit, divine timing as always. Thank you