Recovery Semantics / Speaking to yourself right

[@minivegan]

One thing that helped me (a long time ago) was a therapist telling me to refer to it as "the eating disorder" or "the anorexia" rather than using "my eating disorder/anorexia", At the time it sounded like such a stupid thing to do that wouldn't make any difference, but it really helped me decouple myself and see it as not a part of who I am. Most people don't say "my cancer" or "my flu". They don't take possession of it and brain-based conditions should be no different. Thank you as always for taking the time to do these videos and Happy Anniversary!

[@lauraramosdelgado]

I think you are the only "recovery youtuber" that I still watch because I honestly love your personality so much. I feel I'm on the other side and nothing like What I eat in a day's calls my attention any longer. I guess that since the extreme hunger is gone, my mind/body don't fancy that content. But I still adore your channel. AND I live to watch your pets, they are sooo cute!

[@koanchung5072]

Even though having fully recovered from anorexia, I still look forward to every one of your new-released videos😂💕 I just have so many good memories with them. And you are really my superhero and lifesaver. I got anorexia two years ago. Among all the help I received (doctors, therapist, medicines….) your videos helped me the most. Literally, 90% of my recovery is your credit. Thank you sooooooo much for doing this. You won’t believe how much your videos helped. Wish you the best❤️

[@jenbolze9321]

I am late to the party since I just found your recovery channel and I can't articulate how much I've enjoyed your videos and how helpful they have been for me. I totally relate to everything you say and it has encouraged me to try recovery again after practically giving up after so many attempts. I don't have access to proper recovery help in my area so this has been helpful to me and I just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@BloomingLisa]

Really appreciate this video. Extremely helpful and insightful. Huge respect to you for ‘calling yourself out’ regarding past beliefs and opinions expressed on your channel. You’re a human being on your own journey and we are all perpetually learning, developing and blooming. You’re an amazing person Meg. Thanks again.

[@megsyrecovery191]

🥰😘

[@coreyallan5439]

Semantics are huge: my ED used the word 'serving' against me because of "serving size: we all know they're stupid) and simply changing to 'portion' (the amount someone actually eats) completely changed and helped my recovery SHARING TO HELP

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

serving sizes always make me feel greedy if 30g of corn flakes isnt enough for me!

[@coreyallan5439]

@@liverbirdxoxo1984 because it's an arbitrary amount decided based on what best marketed within the brands profits 💁 it reflects *nothing to do with the way humans behave*

[@megsyrecovery191]

That’s such a good point!!!!

[@MusicByEllaAndLucy]

Loved this video! One saying that always always helps me (that’s kinda on the same wavelength as ‘live the life you ultimately want to live’) is ‘don’t give up what you want the MOST for what you want in the moment’ - hits the nail on the head every time xxx

[@rubymatthews3682]

Hello Meg, Another fantastic video! I do think the apology was so unnecessary though. You have helped THOUSANDS of people, literally thousands! You taking the time and energy out of your life to dedicate to this channel and bare your soul even when it has been difficult and uncomfortable to do so but you have done it for the sake of your subscribers is so unbelievably admirable. You have nothing to apologise for! I think your wording throughout has been parallel to your journey “at the time” and I think that is extremely relevant. For example, I couldn’t use the mantra “if you gain weight, so what?” At the beginning of my journey, I would NEVER had got better because I would have been too scared to even consider that prospect. My recovery team would assure me that I wouldn’t gain weight on certain plans that they put me on in the beginning because I was not ready to face that fear, I was far to engrossed in my eating disorder, so I had to be reassured that I wasn’t going to “get fat” if I ate something. However, later on in my journey, those sorts of things can be challenged because you develop the thinking space to do so. Your world gets bigger and you become more able to look at things in a totally different way. I just don’t think you have ever said anything wrong on this channel and I would hate for you to think so, despite what anyone says. At the risk of sounding awful, I don’t think it possible to ever project a message that suits every single person, but your intentions have always been for the good and therefore I don’t think it is anyone’s place to tell you what you are saying or have said is “wrong” when to me it isn’t and I’m sure to lots of others it isn’t. Everything is subject really.. I just wanted to remind you that your amazing and you are such a beacon of light, so keep shining bright 😃😃😃😃 xx

[@megsyrecovery191]

Awww thank you. & that’s true, I’ve really changed my position on some things throughout my recovery 😘😘😘

[@rubymatthews3682]

@@emmamccarter4118 hi Emma, I think you may be confused by the context of my message. I was just encouraging Meg not to feel as though she needs to apologise for saying things in her previous videos as people (such as myself) have found her wording incredibly helpful. Choice of language is subjective, much like the conversation we are having now, Meg found what I said helpful whereas you have found it impolite. I have the utmost respect for Meg, I have praised and thanked her in pretty much every single video she has ever posted including this one because she’s been such a huge part of my recovery. I find her videos incredibly relatable and informative. She has been one of my biggest inspirations on my recovery journey. I certainly don’t think I was impolite? If I was I would expect to Meg to call me out on that and I would definitely apologise.

[@blondelass123]

You are the most helpful recovery channel on KZbin. Much love from Scotland, Shetland ❤️❤️❤️

[@megsyrecovery191]

I’d love to go to Shetland. Off to Edinburgh in a couple of weeks 😍

[@eleonoreconstant]

Liking this even before watching cause I know I will, and already like it! 😅 thank you so much for making those videos and sharing on IG! Super helpful every time!!! ☺️🙏

[@dylan-fy5jz]

You have changed so much over the years Meg and its amazing to see! I love your changed approach to recovery.

[@DuncanGardinerClassicalGuitar]

Thanks so much for your words and wisdom. I've been enjoying your videos for quite a while but I couldn't help but cringe each time you said something like ”it’s okay, you won’t get fat”. You explained yourself very well 👍 As you clarified, weight gain in recovery from an eating disorder is expected and necessary, and it's perfectly okay to become fat if that is what your body needs in order to recover. I love your videos; you're inspirational. Thank you ❤️💖🌟

[@brookegallagher7438]

Hi Megs I am currently in hospital trying to again recover from my long standing battle with anorexia ( 33 years ). I am finding watching your blogs so inspirational and helpful. Think you are amazing!!!!

[@silent_amy]

Good luck Brooke!

[@brookegallagher7438]

Thankyou Amy. Means a lot

[@teresaderstine5396]

Just read your comment as I was watching Megs video and I just wanted to encourage you to keep making the hard choices as each day they build and build on each other, one small step at a time!🙏

[@brookegallagher7438]

Thanks Theresa.

[@kmoy]

Great video! Thanks for the great insight on healthy body weight and food restrictions. You're so right. Why do we have in our heads an arbitrary number for our weight? Everyone is different. We are not robots. I'm doing better with food rules. I eat "dinner" foods for breakfast and "breakfast" foods for dinner now. I also am sure to have something carb-y at night because I find a slice of toast or bowl of cereal helps me sleep. Also, thanks for the nice scenic video towards the end. Congrats to your brother on getting married! I tried to plan mine for this year but we just couldn't do it because of the number of cases going up. Funny, how covid has become such a daily part of our lives now whether we like it or not. Glad you're staying safe. Good to see your pup and cat in this video too. Love how you accepted food for your neighbor who made yummy chicken and rice. Part of me would've freaked out as well. Now it's easier to eat unexpected food or food that was not planned. Have a great day!

[@catherinemccarthy885]

Hi Meg. Thank you so much. This video is super helpful. The healthy weight thing is big for me. I was very ill at one point and given the absolute lowest target on the chart for someone my height and as soon as I put on a little weight people, even doctors would say how “healthy” I am or that I’m out of the danger zone. This was twisted in my mind to mean I shouldn’t gain any more weight, because I’m healthy. Honestly, how do they know what my healthy weight is. I wish weight would just not even be discussed in recovery and it would just focus on properly feeding your body. I know healthy people of all shapes and sizes and unhealthy people of all shapes and sizes. The whole concept of healthy weight is flawed. I hope you’re feeling better! Colds are the worst.

[@shae279]

I feel this so strongly. Hope you’re well.🌸

[@catherinemccarthy885]

@@shae279 thank you! Hope you’re well too!🌸

[@megsyrecovery191]

THEY DONT!!! They don’t know what your healthy weight is. That’s your body’s business, & telling you you’ll be healthy at anything under that is doing you a massive disservice. You won’t, you’ll be eating disordered! Targets really annoy me because of that, they shouldn’t be more than stepping stones

[@kathywalton4273]

Please be kind and respectful to Megsy .💗💗💗

[@jags-gb4dm]

Oh yes 🙏🥰

[@megsyrecovery191]

Awww most people are GORGEOUS! 🙏🏻

[@Me-gq6xe]

I have been struggling with my ED for 8 years now and i am so thankful for your videos and so proud of how far you’ve come. It’s so refreshing to see someone talk about recovery in more of a “do recovery to get on with your life and to your goals” not a “recovery is amazing #muffin #goals life’s amazing and recovery is everything”

[@oksanakaido8437]

Maybe the “recovery is amazing #muffin #goals life’s amazing and recovery is everything” people already had an amazing life before they got sidetracked by ED. Yeah...you need to create the life you want to live, and if that includes eating freely among other goals, awesome

[@megsyrecovery191]

I’m with you, recovery isn’t a super fun game. It’s a tough thing to do, but worth it for a more fulfilling life at the end 😘

[@Me-gq6xe]

@@oksanakaido8437 i can definitely agree i just think you don’t see the other side as much. The #recovery type life is much more well represented

[@oksanakaido8437]

@@megsyrecovery191 that's encouraging) I'm just quite lost right now as to what goals I even want to pursue. I've lost interest in a lot of things and don't really want to go back to them anyway, but don't have the energy and time to pursue something else. Do you have a video about how you got to where you are (living in Dubai, working at the job you have, meeting Brandon etc)?

[@oksanakaido8437]

@@Me-gq6xe you sure don't see the other side. I do get tired of the recovery community sometimes, I'm finding it resonates with me now that I'm restoring weight but there's got to be a point where not everything is recovery, it's just life. I'm bad at pursuing my goals, haha, I let my own miserliness and laziness get in the way of that. Side note, I like Lilykoi's channel because even though she recovered from an ED in the past, she doesn't center her channel around it

[@sarahfretwell557]

Love this. It takes enormous skill to find words that get the message across clearly but sensitively. Huge respect to you for revisiting past content - which was already some of the best on this subject! I hope you have a lovely time back home 🥰

[@megsyrecovery191]

Thank you 🇬🇧😘

[@daffodil614]

Bertie running round in circles and chasing his own tail...feels a little bit like a metaphor... :)

[@megsyrecovery191]

🤣🤣🤣

[@sani4554]

You are an inspiration Meg to so many..... look after yourself sweet girl. Sending lots of love xxx

[@saskiafinnan4216]

you are so articulate and well spoken

[@megsyrecovery191]

😳 thank you xx

[@katespalding2134]

Thank you so much. I appreciate you posting these videos so much. You are so genuine and authentic, highs and lows, warts and all. Xxx

[@megsyrecovery191]

Awww thanks Kate 😘

[@sarahsiave2532]

I honestly love your vlogs so informative and relatible!! Ps your hair looks beautiful

[@megsyrecovery191]

Awww thank you 😘

[@nak223]

What is healthy??? FOR SURE it is to follow your channel and watch all of your videos Meg. YOU ARE HEALTHY- finally! Lots of love from Germany.

[@Lotusblume171]

I am from Germany too :) her videos are sooooo helpful 🙏

[@megsyrecovery191]

🤗🤗🤗 hello in Germany xx

[@kaylesandbean]

Hey Megs, once again another fab vlog. I say "my body's natural set point', although that was a bitter pill for to take, as I always wanted to be lower than that weight, now looking bk, I would happily stick at that set point. Xxxxx

[@megsyrecovery191]

I like that one too. & anything which takes the focus off your body’s aesthetics & into life. Have you listened to any podcasts with the Beauty Redefined girls on? You can literally just search “beauty redefined” on podcasts & find episodes they’ve been on. I love their body image message 😘

[@kaylesandbean]

@@megsyrecovery191 I'll go and have a listen as haven't listened to any of those podcasts xxx

[@gretanotgretchen]

Love to see fatphobia unpacked a bit!! Thank you!

[@marky_guli_]

hi meg. I just wanted to thank you so much. thanks to you, I started my recovery. I live in Czech Republic. I am eighteen and have been suffering from eating disorders for 5 years. and I don't want it anymore and thanks to you I realized that I have to do Challenge. you're just an incredibly inspiring person to me. I care a lot about you and you have grown close to my heart. I love you ❤️❤️🤗 you are the most amazing person in the world. Thank you So much ❤️❤️❤️😘😘😯 Wish you love And Health😘😘

[@megsyrecovery191]

Awwww bless your heart. I saw your instagram too & responded 😘😘😘

[@MT-mb3sp]

Megsy, I adore your videos. I take notes!!!!! !I send them to people!!!! However, I must say this one was all over the place. You really had some great things to say!!!!! The semantics part was huge! But I kept getting distracted by all the other things going on! Perhaps you could make another video on just semantics! I love you and adore you and can't wait to see your videos!

[@megsyrecovery191]

So glad the videos can help 🤗 this one being all over the place is probably a reflection of my life feeling very frantic & all over the place at the moment. I tried my best but it definitely was a struggle. Hopefully when things calm down the videos can be a bit more coherent again, but there we go. I’m human 🤷‍♀️

[@cazlovescakes]

I think the fact you’ve been able to cope with all the hassle around your car is great; when you were unwell, I imagine things would have been very different. What a nightmare! I’m guessing you’re going to two weddings (though your brother could be marrying your best friend!) and hope you can fully enjoy them both xx

[@saragill87]

This couldn't have dropped at a better time! Thanks Megs xx

[@alisonjohn]

You are beautiful inside & out! Lots of love. Ax🌹❤️

[@lalalaAli]

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts on All in recovery, I've had anorexia for 18 years. I follow Tabitha and Stephanie Buttermore, and the ideals that you have to go all in to recover just left me feeling hopeless, I could never go all in. It has given me hope to hear you saying that its not the only way, thank you xxx

[@megsyrecovery191]

I’ve actually done more of an all in type approach in the past, & this time I was more structured. I guess they just suited me at different times. This time a meal plan definitely helped me at the beginning 😘

[@lalalaAli]

@@megsyrecovery191 yes maybe at the beginning a more structured way is easier and then all in wouldn't seem so out of this world! Thank you 😘

[@allietitone9944]

I've been watching you from the beginning and your semantics are not triggering at all. Most I know want to remain ill and find every reason to be offended by those in recovery. They should be able to unsubscribe from your channel rather than making you feel bad about your semantics. It's truth, you will not gain a ton of weight over night. You've never told anyone that gaining weight won't happen in recovery.

[@goosegirl3424]

P.s. I heard someone talking about their interpretation of fear changing through recovery. It helped me see it's key to be working on changing one's experience & interpretation of fear sensations as a siren which is alerting to 'danger', to perceiving fear as a doorway, behind which is a possibility of growth, freedom and opportunity. I guess, learning when alarm bells are stifling rather than protective. I have to remember "don't believe everything you think/feel". In a way I think for many of us our fire alarm system is really old/out dated &/or over excited and going off at all hours and we/I need to learn to not respond to it every anymore and tune into a new system. Xxx

[@KikiKiki-do1fr]

Beautiful healthy hair. Wow 🤩

[@spinachme0]

Love your videos and your attitude, megsy! You're amazing and so helpful,thanks 🤗💕

[@Naphinel]

I love your longer vids :) I learn so many useful thing from you. Thx.

[@christabelmilner5818]

Another brilliant video to watch whilst I power through my night snack. Thankyou megsy for showing everyone an insight into the joys of living nearly fully recovered xx

[@megsyrecovery191]

💪💪

[@goosegirl3424]

Not at all strange a subject to focus on....words are soooo powerful and also I've learnt that we all 'carry' our own experiences with different words, so what is really helpful way of saying something/framing something for me, may be really unhelpful for others. There is a word I find really triggering, but have started working with a new hypnotherapist and she repeatedly uses it in such a way that her tone casts it in a positive role. After a few weeks I told her that this word is difficult for me (I did not disclose this to her before because I never want to control or shut someone down&feared if I voiced my discomfort she may censor herself which I did not want to cause), but how after listening to her recording everyday and hearing the gentle, non judgemental tone, I've become much more comfortable with it snd when she says it now, I am starting to interpret it with less distress and hold it much more lightly. I am determined to reduce this word's power over me. Also, intention is so important too isn't it?! The meaning one place upon a word when speaking. Sorry. So obvious and you say it all so much better!!! Thank you so much megsy and your hair looks SENSATIONAL!!! As does Malta!!!! Love to you all Xxxxx

[@yogybat]

once again, sooo helpful!! and can i also point out that you are glowinggg!!!

[@maitepassow8106]

Such an important topic!! Thank you, Meg💛

[@naduahLangkous]

Nice video! (as always 😊). I think it would be nice to see a video about how your recovery is going now: are you completely free? Do you still have a hard time eating? .... it's just a crazy idea, you do you and you are amazing! xxx

[@cw9452]

Your hair looks incredible

[@jennesset1102]

Love you. I definitely think angry rants are better with an English accent. 🤣. “A right pain in the a**!”

[@megsyrecovery191]

🤣🤣

[@eleonoreconstant]

So what?!? I love that and will def be using it every single day from now on 😄

[@stefaniaperego1602]

I used to think that I am allowed to eat and drink whatever and whenever I want until I was weight restored. But then I realized this should be the norm, even after I reach a "healthy" point. Still struggling to accept it.

[@jags-gb4dm]

Hi sweetheart, a busy time before/during your holiday a heavy cold & 2 weddings! (how were they?) Good luck with the car issue. Hope you can chill out soon, take care 🥰

[@megsyrecovery191]

Yes busy 🐝! Heading home today for the wedding on Wednesday. So exciting!

[@jags-gb4dm]

@@megsyrecovery191 Aww enjoy 😘

[@ritaconte9055]

Bless you Meg❤️sy 🙏🏻💙

[@angelaspielbusch1237]

Super helpful!

[@BittersweetMayhem]

Love your content. Always so concise and informative but compassionate. How did you find good alternative coping mechanisms? I have just rediverted from eating to other poor mechanisms

[@megsyrecovery191]

Yeh I’ve definitely built up a tolerance to just not feeling great, & allowing it & knowing that it will pass. I try to check that the behaviours I use now will ‘serve me in the long term’, as cheesy as that sounds. It quite often means they don’t work as well in the moment, but yeh, overall they’re probably better. I use things like puzzles, arts & crafts, listening to podcasts, being by the sea, being out in nature, being in water, reading, seeing friends, piano, hiking in the mountains. Being outside in nature & people are probably my best ‘coping mechanisms’. And me dog 🐶

[@lunarhealer6667]

what do you do if you order food and it's slightly imperfect ? like if your fries are cold or the bread soggy or whatever. that gives me horrible anxiety. i don't know if i should eat it or not.

[@emilyl1260]

Really good points sooo helpful. Do you have any exercise issues? Have you had any set backs or are you doing well and living your life ed free?

[@megsyrecovery191]

No exercise issues. & no ED set backs since we’ve been married, & we’ve been married for 3 years. I’ve had a few potential relapse situations too, but I think I’m finally finding new ways to cope with things & learning how to not ‘accidentally’ relapse

[@sivanshapira6710]

Thank you again ❤️

[@littleladylavender]

Thank you Meg.💕

[@kaitlinjohnson145]

I went all in and completely freaked out so now I’ve relapsed and just want to get thinner and thinner again. I think a meal plan and gradual exposure would have been better for me because as soon as I started to eat I couldn’t control myself around food so started to binge and now I’m terrified that will happen again because recently I tried to eat a bit more and I did end up binging and I felt completely out of control so I’m back to restricting once again!

[@user-ph4mg1mh9c]

Relapsing is all part of recovery, I wish you every success

[@kaitlinjohnson145]

@@user-ph4mg1mh9c thank you. I tried so hard yesterday but felt so sick after challenging having a bigger pudding and instantly feel like I’ve gained weight and fat round my middle!

[@megsyrecovery191]

Binging is a completely normal response to restriction & starvation! Your body is smart. It’s the restriction which has to go. Have you got a team who can help with a bit more structure?

[@kaitlinjohnson145]

@@megsyrecovery191 whenever I try and eat my mum always shouts at me because she says I’m being greedy and eating too much and I will ‘get fat’ if I eat all of that so then every day I go back to restriction. She locks all the food cupboards so I can’t eat. I have a therapist but there’s only so much she can say or do. She can’t change my environment which is just reinforcing my ED head to believing anything ‘extra’ is wrong. If I do ever pluck up the courage to try something extra I always do it on my own in secret because I’m scared of my mums reaction which again reinforces that it’s bad and then I’m more likely to and have binged as a result and then feel even worse. It’s an impossible situation 😞

[@katieb3059]

Honey, please allow the extreme hunger episodes to happen and stop calling them binges and demonized them for yourself. Your body is smart, when it asks for more food it does not do it to hurt you, or play with you. But does not try to compansate for it, never. And the most important thing accept that you can eat whatever you want to eat, whenever and and in any amount you want for the rest of your life. Trust me, the moment you accept it you will start to feel more calm around food.

[@angelaspielbusch1237]

Can you please tell me how I will know my unsuppressed weight? I am in recovery with a therapist but no meal plan or dietitian at this time.

[@atc35012]

I was trying to get a job. All I had to do was renew my license so I could do the background check. To fix my car or get a new one I needed the job because I am not rich. To get the job I needed the license and to get the license I would have to get a new car. I just said I would reapply when this works itself out.

[@megsyrecovery191]

Omg how do they make these predicaments?! Hope you find a way through 😘

[@ileneeo]

Thank you so much🥰

[@emilyl1260]

Are u uploading soon x

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

im at the point wer i need keep setting a chalenge but then it comes n i cant/wont do it... i dont want to keep living my life in the bathroom (im bulimic) but im scared to death of letting it go.. its my friend n enemy rolled into one... x

[@miguelperez-gb5kr]

Hi megsy

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

iv always been told about my bmi n weight but iv got a blood clot in my lung n my blood clinic av given me a new weight for my new tablets n my body n its so much higher than what the eating disorder hospital have given me... so confusing n frustrating

[@megsyrecovery191]

Ultimately the only person who can know what weight is right for you is YOUR BODY!!! Anything anyone else sets as a ‘target’ can only be arbitrary 😘

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

@@megsyrecovery191 thank u for all you do meg... ur a light in the darkness

[@miguelperez-gb5kr]

Next week I will give you a subscribe to you

[@katespalding2134]

I’ve had an ED for decades and I haven’t a clue what I like, want or need or have hunger queue so all in eating would be a nightmare. I have too many entrenched rules around food. A meal plan would allow me to ‘test the waters’ in a structured curious way. Thing is though I have no therapist and no meal plan! Any suggestions Xxxx

[@lenbrooke6745]

I totally agree..and have been trying super hard to gain weight for the past couple of months after messing up my natural appetite through anorexia in the past, with low bmi quasi recovered in between, and always orthorexic tendencies..’all in’ would result in no change for me,..I will always naturally eat too little…So I have made my own meal plan, including processed food, sugars and fats, and I am reassessing it each week, as I think need to be finding it a bit of a struggle as that means i am gaining, if it feels a bit easy to manage it all, I need to try and add more to my meal plan, to gain weight… also keep it fun if you can..it’s for the long term not short term.. megsy’s videos and also tabatha farrar videos are an amazing help and motivation (TB has written a book I am still planning to get when i need more motivation and has also recovered on her own), and emily Troscianko articles (on psychology today website)..

[@oksanakaido8437]

​@@lenbrooke6745 ​ @Len Brooke You sound very disciplined and proactive about your recovery:) A lot of it sounds applicable to me, with anorexia in the past, then I guess somewhat recovered ("healthy weight") but still with restrictive/orthorexic/miserly tendencies around food, then lapsed back into anorexia/orthorexia. Currently working on gaining weight and getting long-term mental health support. Also trying to avoid being forced into inpatient as I'm terrified of getting hospitalized. If you or @Kate Spalding want to talk more and just see if we connect and want to keep in touch through our journeys, I'd like that :) What do you think?

[@lenbrooke6745]

@@oksanakaido8437 That would be great, I am trying to do this on my own, although with the help of my husband..

[@megsyrecovery191]

Well the basics is 3 meals, 3 snacks. All good groups, & keep adding food to gain. Don’t worry if it’s rigid at first, that’s something you can work on later & it can get better naturally as you become less restricted & food becomes less novel / important 😘

[@megsyrecovery191]

Also… The Emily Troscianko articles are AMAZING!!! Good suggestion!

[@snacktivist]

It always bothered me in previous videos when you would say, "you're not going to get fat" ... I mean, "fat" is subjective, but what are we here for? We're supposed to gain weight in recovery.