Melancholy of the Literary Boy english ver. 【Oktavia】文学少年の憂鬱 【英語で歌ってみた】

(the other song I was teasing will be coming soon I just need more time to work on it- and I’ve been working on this in the background for forever so I thought I’d post it!)
and that’s how it will be, for eternity.
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Lyrics: bit.ly/2KlWQ5Y
Please feel free to use! Of course, they’re based on the translation by Hazuki no Yume: (The specific translation I referenced: hazukinoyume.wordpress.com/20... , their new work with TheBlackCero's subs: / theblackcero )
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If you’re interested in submitting closed captioning!: (kzbin.info_cs_p...)
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EDIT: Years late but I realized here I forgot to mention at the beginning the adlibs are from Akiakane’s album version of the cover… My queen… Thought I said that in the description but. I did not. So behold! Akiakane stan moment…
April is a pensive month, so if I was gonna upload this month I felt that I should sing a pensive song. Melancholy of the Literary Boy is a song I’ve been meaning to cover since I first started out and I wanted to use the lovely art I commissioned from Eru!
This is honestly such a sad song to me, because it’s just so honest. I always feel like this song perfectly encapsulates how thoughts like this feel. In depression, it’s not always you hiding in your room crying to yourself about how much you hate life (though it can be that too), sometimes those thoughts just hit you in public. Nobody can tell what you’re thinking, and your facial expression may not even falter but it hits you, suddenly. I think this song shows the perfect build up to how the thoughts keep getting more and more intense, all stemming from a simple thought: “What if I just left everything behind right now?”, and at the end, everything calms as it must, even if it isn’t well.
I could gush on and on about how much I love this song and what exactly I think it means for hours on end- but I’ll cut it short. Just know for that reason, and the simply breathtaking melody, this song will always be one of my all time favorites. I’m so happy that I got to share it with you all, and thanks for listening!
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♫ Credits ♫
Vocals/Mix/Video: Oktavia
Music/Lyrics: Nanou/Hoehoe-P (nicovideo.jp/mylist/34696796)
Illustration: Eru ( / ninki_0 )

[@give1ove]

There will never be a bad Oktavia cover.

[@mintycaramel7250]

I agree

[@feytales]

im speechless yet again god damn oktavia i can only be so gay

[@darwengwein3605]

Strap in boys and girls, we’re riding this Kinsey Scale all the way up to 10! ... Or, I guess, like, -3 for the boys or something.

[@outeremissary4438]

This is an incredible cover. It might be your best yet. This song dredged up a memory I hadn't thought about in quite a while- I had a coworker at a summer job once who was a kind of pedantic, well read older man who seemed really out of place washing dishes at a pizza place. He would talk to me a lot about books and classic movies because I was the honors student of the teenagers, and I guess he felt I was the person he had most in common with. Well, I remember once towards the end of the summer, he stopped me as I was heading back to the front and he said "You're a bright kid, but I hope you're careful. Creative types, writers and artists, they all carry a gloom inside of them. Watch out." It really startled me, especially because the year before I'd had a lot of trouble with just that sort of despair. I think about it sometimes when it's late and night and I'm drawing, or I've taken a break from writing. But I hadn't thought about it in a while.

[@averagechannelname9969]

I'm really glad you shared this because holy fuck it all makes sense now!

[@PK-uj8mp]

Holy shit

[@HeroAkii]

Holy fucking shit, you just uncovered the source of a lot of my issues. looking back it seems obvious since we see the world around us differently and express it through our chosen art.

[@demonswordsmancrona6589]

I always found that those who loose themselves in literature (me included) find themselves attached to that untouchable world in the pages, and often want to escape to it, and from the normality and hopelessness of everyday life. It is important not to get too dredged in that deep seeded gloom, or you might find yourself lost in it.

[@STaR_Ri]

It’s BoTW for me, but yes! I have a self insert AU where Urbosa adopts me/my self insert. I’m braver there. I wound up in a Shrine of Resurrection with Urbosa because I tried to fight Thunderblight when I got Urbosa’s SOS signal instead of Impa. I felt like I needed to pay her back for taking care of me and rescuing me from my birth parents. But irl, I’m scared of blood draws. I was terrified for the TMS treatment, and it turned out to barely even hurt. I can’t stand up to people unless I’m online. I’m sorry if this is too much, it just kinda spilled.

[@ThickDickDaddy270]

As a writer, I often find myself lost in writing. I once created a whole very detailed world in my mind that I could sort of escape to any time I was stressed, and now that I'm getting better mentally I find myself returning to that world a lot less. Back then I'd get really bad grades because of how much I got lost in that other world, but on the other hand it was my only way to cope with what was happening in my life. Escapism is a double edged sword.

[@StereotypicalLife]

hey it's the song that got me to read "No Longer Human" in high school and then I got super attached to it like the person in the song did, also holy shit the original song is almost 9 years old. good cover btw, you have a lovely voice

[@fallenstar780]

Out of curiosity, what is "No Longer Human" and what kind of book is it? I'm looking for something new to read.

[@yohann4048]

Fallen Star Dude! Read it! It’s a work by Osamu Dazai, a famous writer who committed suicide sometime during his career. “No Longer Human”, from what I understand, seems to be some sort of indirect autobiography of his own life and feelings.

[@indigosstabby9596]

Wish I could remind

[@rustyfisher2081]

What do you mean?

[@aj5973]

Often I’ve fallen victim to a thought or two Screaming “Just leave, you’ve got nothing to lose.” Shedding my friends, my school and my job, the only cost If I agree, then does it mean that I’m the one lost? Passing the masses at Keio alone, aloud comes a shout Calling a wallet gone is a tearful girl tearing around The train arrives and her cries quickly die to the crowd They’d rather worry, better hurry to an open seat As for me, I see the meaning found in meaningless now I play my part and march onward with these heartless machines Somebody call my name, it’s all that I wish to share Why is it each day I turn the page only brings on tears?* Spinning twisting head, let visions build while I’ve still space to dream Dashing from the dark up to the stars as far as they may be Before my pouring tears betray me Ah, my favorite author- please read him as well, each work has a world to spell Even if I falter as I’m recounting how he killed himself “My life was one big mistake that I couldn’t take.” “So many faults, they’re all my fault, I lied and lie in shame.” “God, what a gloomy man!” I tried to laugh, but deep inside, I don’t know- I just can’t get his words to go from my mind Somebody let me listen to your distant voice here On this shaking train, if silence stays, I may disappear I just want to sail beyond the rails to the moon’s side unseen Never going back, I’m going back so I can try to keep** The time when you were still beside me Dear Mr. Author: Will I follow in your lead? Until the ink runs out, bleeding words for someone else to breathe? Your life was “one big mistake”- we don’t share that take I find it false, ‘cause faults aside, we all recall your life And even if it were true, I’d still prefer to be you Over the boy seeking comfort from your words left behind Somebody call my name, it’s all that I ask to hear Why is it each day I turn the page only brings on tears?* Soon I’ll say goodbye to earthly ties, escape from my restraints If you have the key to set me free, then please unlock the cage So I can fly away Ah, away

[@fanfiction_reader]

Thank you so much for making this! :)

[@JellyfishVera]

I remember I read a book that said “Artists tend to be more sensitive towards the world compared to other people” that isnt what it said directly but the old lady who said it looked at the little girl. The words stuck with me for a while and I just found this cover and I honestly broke down in tears.

[@HelloAnon]

Well, thats a way to spell out my depression

[@opalwreck]

You are incredibly underrated! Your voice is like a goddess

[@CakesSakura]

Not anymore

[@yukishiro.5204]

@@CakesSakura nah still

[@CakesSakura]

@@yukishiro.5204 The comment was 10 months ago I thought she was but she isn’t.

[@yinyang-p9265]

I find it incredibly ironic that you upload a cover of this song literally a day after I'd finally managed to get over my most recent bout of depression... I swear, Oktavia, it's like you know which songs we need and when we need them. Your voice is honestly just the most wonderful balm for whenever I feel particularly down or depressed (which is probably why I listen to your covers 24/7 lol) and I am so thankful that you exist and that you've decided to grace us with your wonderful presence. I don't really know how to say this but getting a notification from you for a new cover always means so much to me??? Like wow I love you.

[@PancakemonsterFO4]

Yin Yang-P Don’t be depressed! There is so much worth living for we ofter just don’t see it because of our monotone live requiring us to always give the best. Visit your neighbor town at your weekends, go in the park, read a book and try to slow down a bit. Everyone deserves some You-Time ; ) (and avoid Tetris at all costs)

[@nanarana4646]

@@PancakemonsterFO4 wow, I can't believe you singlehandedly cured their depression

[@mewssauce]

im sooo proud of you.

[@milkeygirl]

The author that the boy in this song was thinking about is Dazai Osamu 😭😭😭.I'm crying now.

[@you_gullible_fucc]

MaxNeet Roku_Yuki damn I thought of him too

[@you_gullible_fucc]

And powapowa p rest in peace

[@yohann4048]

Oh! This actually falls in line with what I've thinking. I personally thought that it was about Akutagawa and the boy singing was actually Dazai. I think Dazai looked up quite a lot to Akutagawa and he was extremely devastated when he learned that Akutagawa killed himself, causing him to fall into despair and be known as how he currently is. Or was.

[@rondospectacle]

Lt. Leeyo It’s such a shame the two of them committed suicide, they had a life ahead of them. It makes sense from either perspective, which it’s quite sad.

[@ginundr]

@@yohann4048 The lyrics where the singer says his favorite author commited suicide are followed by quotes are from Dazai Osamu's book 'No Longer Human' so I dont believe the song is from Dazai's perspective. Just to clairfy, the actual lyrics in this english version are not the actual quotes translated from Japanese (they were changed a bit so they would fit with the song)

[@phaineinTV]

These lyrics flow so well huff huff

[@loli_cvnt5622]

DIdn't notice there's no english cover of this lol Love it, great as always

[@loli_cvnt5622]

You're like the english Akiakane to me rn, this is amazing.

[@BreadBoxVideo]

Man this is fantastic. The harmony work is great and naturally it plays into your strengths in the belty chorus. That said the best thing about this performance is definitely your acting and emotion in the line. The breathiness and vibrato at the end of phrases is just perfect. Good job~

[@osiasisacoolname5198]

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[@popcornbunches]

I've liked this song for a very long time now, I've always kinda felt like it's a love letter to Osamu Dazai. Thanks for covering it your voice is beautiful!

[@ray-chan5933]

Ok that song was more powerful than i expected and reminded me why I subscribed, vocaloids that are not that popular or have never got an English cover along with a powerful and beautiful voice Overall this has to be one of my favourite covers you have done, great job Oktavia

[@flawlesspiner1674]

me: [standing in wait for my package] my brain: "The train arrives, and her cries quickly die to the crowd. They'd rather worry; better hurry to an open seat."

[@knownevildoer]

still my favorite oktavia cover, thank you

[@c4cezar_magz]

I sang this song with these lyrics for my school's show choir audition, and I got in. Great song and great vocals. Love you Oktavia!

[@dariaesp3663]

i'm glad the algorithm always brings me back to this song at some point

[@ZALMusic]

so much power and emotion packaged into 6:00 minutes. it was so moving to listen to ;w;

[@howlt005]

Oh man I haven't heard this song in years, it's like being transported back in time (uh...but in english this time)

[@amydasilva100]

Hey y'all can we just not dislike this one just this one and I'll never ask for anything again

[@amydasilva100]

Thank you it's only been a day but I am just so proud of you guys

[@amydasilva100]

If you feel the overwhelming need to dislike this video then just dislike my comment

[@amydasilva100]

:(

[@diabonikae]

I'm so glad I subscribed to this channel, this is _amazing!_

[@catboy7395]

why why do you *have* to upload when i arrive at school where theres no service? *why do you do this to me?*

[@stararia9327]

use a vpn ;)

[@spirit9871]

Star Aria If she has no service then i doubt a VPN would do anything.

[@prophet3091]

spirit9871 If you can get access to the school wifi(just ask around, someone you know has the password) then a VPN lets you get unrestricted access to the internet at school.

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i personally recommend betternet

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

IM SORRY i usually like stay up all night working on my covers so its always an early morning upload rest in peace my dumb butt

[@birdyluv0]

Osamu Dazai, one of my favorite authors.

[@protomarien]

A queen has blessed me with her voice and lyrics yet again. you never fail to capture the meaning in your lyrics and i'm astounded by the beauty of this cover

[@gk21wolf60]

Idk how many times I've listened to this song and never listened to the opening lines

[@Hsecrpntr]

Sayaka on a train, what could go wrong XD But in all seriousness, amazing work.

[@msking1000]

I thought of that to.

[@flawlesspiner1674]

*oh gosh oh fu-*

[@darwengwein3605]

How did I not see that sooner?? Stupid, so stupid...

[@faithbeck2126]

@@darwengwein3605 I see what you did there...

[@d.c.40]

ONE OF MY FAVOURITE VOCALOID SONGS,, THIS IS SPECTACULAR!!!

[@insan8ty]

I will always love this song.

[@OboroHime94]

I am astonished to find this song in your collection of covers. Mostly because this is one of the few songs I enjoy but don't see many who've done their take on it. Such a missed opportunity it was until now... When I first heard this song, it was during a torrential time in my life. When things feel impossible and there's no one to really tell them to. So instead I would numb myself with the act of reading and avoid this feeling altogether. It worked for a while but it didn't fix the badness. Even now after moving on from that past, it still haunts me to remember these trying times when in reality it's never really stopped. But I digress, we all have our ways to cope with the sorrow that daily life brings. Sorry to ramble but I'm really glad I found your channel now, this was worth finding and the breath of life you spun into the words of this song made it feel new again. Thank you Ms. Oktavia! (^.^)b

[@Daphnisinhpad]

I love your voice so much Oktavia !!!! 👏🏻😭

[@cinnabuunn]

I feel like I never know how to properly leave a comment;;; hhhhhh I really love how you song sofly during the more mellow verses, and got intense with the chorus. It really fits with the lyrics too. An amazing Oktavia cover? On MY youtube? It's more likely than you think.

[@fallenstar780]

Hold up. Where is that from? The line at the end, I know it. Can't put my finger on it...

[@galdeveer]

I keep coming back to this even now

[@whittledraws]

oktavia i just keep coming back to this one. stupendous job, seriously; you're the perfect voice to cover this

[@Megafan96Owns]

A beautiful translation, a stunning performance, and the graceful flow. This is why I'm subscribed.

[@PickledThyme1]

Here's a sad theory to make you feel even better: The author was the boy's father, hence the words "I'm going back so I can try to keep the time when you were still beside me." You're welcome.

[@msking1000]

How dare you

[@SaleenSundria]

I feel like its more of a dynamic where you can feel an author through his/her writing, and like with many youtubers, the boy felt that he knew the author on a personal level and was greatly upset when he died.

[@atomato3830]

I mean, the author presented in the song is a real author and his novels have also been translated to English, though I unfortunately forgot his name.

[@yohann4048]

@@atomato3830 Ah. Is it Osamu Dazai?

[@atomato3830]

Lt. Leeyo His name was Yukio Mishima btw

[@melontrend6722]

I want to marry your voice

[@fallenstar780]

Bakadere Share please? Lol There might be a line... **gets in line**

[@shinigamik3027]

This song goes really well with Kim Dokja bruh- It’s also rlly relatable :< Bootiful song

[@pisidora1998]

Yeah, this song is so Kim Dokja coded

[@flashdelirivm]

WHY AM I CRYING IN THE CLUB

[@wingsly8406]

ohh my god this song is so beautiful already but your vocals! dang! made it even more amazing;;; beautifully written english lyrics and such a pretty voice, im amazedddd TuT such a sad yet true song too.. you really did an amazing job with this cover, really conveyed its feelings o(-( wooo

[@satourino]

Aaah this is so beautiful, i wish I could listen to this nonstop on Spotify quq

[@maggie3060]

KZbin mobile has a loop video option in the three : in the upper right corner

[@herofromthedark]

Lately, I've been feeling really run down and depressed. But listening to some of your music has been incredibly cathartic. I feel like my mind is a bit clearer, and my heart is just a bit more steady. Thank you. I really needed to hear a song like this.

[@tilki925]

You keep introducing me to new vocaloid songs that eventually become my favourites lolol Amazing cover as always! The art is so beautiful!!

[@princekat8915]

Shit, I love angsty songs like this. The art is wonderful too, it really adds to the atmosphere of the song. ovo

[@chillynight201]

I love the original song and I’m so glad you covered it because everything about this cover is beautiful, from your voice to the lyrics and the video’s art...

[@UsotheMarshmallow]

I love this song so so very much. The emotion is very powerful in a quieter way, and your vocals fit perfectly with the instrumentals, adding to the tone and beauty of the song. Thank you for creating this cover, I really enjoy it and listen to it a lot :)

[@pastelnightzz686]

I've recently heard about you from watching "i'm glad you're evil too." rachie's cover and while I scrolled through the comments I came across your's and oof I was shook, I was like "Wait wait another person?" Like, this song reminded me of my ex bestfriend and when I hear people sing it and it's so beautiful it just gets me balling, and I came across yours and was like "OH i wanna hear this" so I listened to it and GURL YOUR VOCALS, you really are an angel, the way you belt, just everything is spot on perfect, EVERYTHINGGGGG

[@rocksylvannia9398]

Ah yes, this is the crying part of the internet.

[@lemonle8038]

soo happy you did a cover this is my favorite song eveeeer

[@xSorarikufanx]

this is beautiful!! i love how you've adapted the lyrics, too- using a direct translation for the same intended feel is always impossible, especially for song, but you've absolutely given these lyrics the same tone/meaning, while keeping them unique at the same time (if that makes sense r i p) your voice is gorgeous!!

[@ladyofthesith1943]

Your covers continue to amaze me, and this one is already one of my favorites that you've done.

[@walnut_raisin2621]

I love how well your voice covers these songs. *Great at showing emotion*

[@evraetal2493]

I keep coming back to this song. It's so beautifully sung, and it just pulls at my heartstrings. What a wonderful cover!

[@isaacmcdade4420]

I keep listening to this song cause it’s so calming - thank you for picking this song

[@simonbb2084]

great cover as always you never disappoint! it's always songs i've been excited to hear english covers of. god bless u oktavia

[@lainiwakura8560]

Been waiting on this one for the longest time ever. It is so good, you never disappoint. Thank you so much for your hard work. Found this channel only recently, I enjoy your covers a lot, already listening to some on a daily basis. So glad you covered this song. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

[@gracegrrl007]

whAt tHe hECK why is this song such a sad beautiful b o p it is always good to hear from you queen oktavia all hail and bless you for this beautiful gift this song is so gorgeous and your voice is so gorgeous and the art is so gorgeous and I will be crying over this for a while thank

[@stararia9327]

this cover is something i never knew i always needed. you did a fantastic job!

[@Tannycatkimi]

Just discovered you today. Your covers are all absolutely gorgeous. You're probably already my favorite vocaloid cover artist.

[@graceforrest3024]

This song is incredible, the music itself and the lyrics are both very powerful, and you totally nailed this cover! It might be one of my favorites!

[@howtocry8129]

After 2 years came back to my all time favourite cover, and it still doesnt dissapoint

[@madkneeandthepethyn5186]

This song is so beautiful! I can't get enough of it! You just make the song even better with your amazing voice. Keep up the astonishing work ^^

[@dogeseddy5513]

Your covers has help me through a lot of tough times Thank you oktavia

[@plague9818]

This is quite heavenly. Amazing job Oktavia!

[@SarcasticAsexualMegane]

I was just listening to some of your stuff last night wondering when there might be a new cover! This is just beautiful, like all your covers. I think I'll be listening to this on repeat for a good while now ❤

[@DontIntoMyHistory]

God somehow you just manage to make the BEST covers of all my favorite Vocaloid songs, you have such an amazing voice that I can't find in any other cover artists

[@jaydrawz53]

there's something special about this cover... I'm always coming back to it

[@nearlynight]

Aa, I found this song not long ago and I’m so happy to see you cover it ♡ this is the best notif I could’ve gotten right now aha, I’m in school and your covers always make me feel better. Good luck on your SoS cover, there’s absolutely no rush ^^

[@stormoftara]

Aaaa, this is so beautiful, your voice is magical. I just love this so much thank you for covering this song!!

[@jaxsz260]

Probably one of my favorite songs now- Keep up the good work

[@Jeremy-se1kp]

Im actually starting to really like your covers lately tbh #proud

[@FlameThecCat4]

This is the first video I’ve seen from you, and your voice has created quite the beautiful feeling in me. Truly beautiful is what you have sung here, thank you.

[@random.ars0nist_410]

is it bad that I've been here so many times I've read all 256 comments?

[@k-onenthusiast5234]

nah me too

[@Sours56]

Took me multiple watches to realize the person in the PV was Oktavia and not VFlower. I kept wondering why they had a skirt. XD

[@missy6649]

Obsessed with your voice! You're so good!

[@flores6352]

I used to hear this cover on my way to high school, back in 2020. Something about your voice and choices through the song just... resonated with me. In a time when I wasn't able to put my feelings into words, hearing this was something akin to catharsis. This January I got out. I was living in depression, but I got out. As I now listen back, words can't suffice: thank you. Thank you.

[@yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Oh worm?? I've always loved this song. I'd blast it whenever I felt those weird uh oh spaghettio feelings. Just how raw and powerful it is at the chorus??? Thank you so much!!

[@Kohaku_Ryuu]

Holy shit this is amazing I love this song too. Thanks so much for covering it and doing such an amazing job.

[@Zenon707]

I click on all of your covers because I'm thoroughly convinced you can never upload a bad one. All the hard work you put into this really shows and inspires me as I continue my own musical journey. I love your soft, lyrical, but powerful voice, and I can seriously listen to you all day every day. Just become my ringtone already lel But in all seriousness omigod you are so amazing and I look forward to everything you do

[@hauntingurmom]

I love your voice in this song so much 💙💙💙💙 I listened to it after a long time and fell more in love!

[@hongli2631]

love this cover, great job!

[@feralfauna_]

Damnnnn Oktavia that belt!! :OOO Soft verses as well ah you never cease to amaze me

[@stephanietse534]

This cover is stabbing me in the feels ;w;

[@pakparker9264]

I finally found a great cover of this song in English 😍😍😍 Good job!😃👍

[@chairkun9139]

Wow this song is old, i used lo listen it a lot back in high school

[@westie27]

I got to this a bit late, but I wanted to say that this sounds absolutely amazing. Your voice works really well for this song, the lyrics are great, and you managed to fit the flow of the English lyrics to the song really well.

[@cryingtea9288]

Aaaaaah, this is amazing and you're a goddess!

[@user-mw2yz8lp4i]

待ってました！！

[@elleryseadust458]

this is really awesome!! finally something good in my very bad Monday thank you Oktavia.

[@DontIntoMyHistory]

I'VE BEEN WAITING MY ENTIRE LIFE FOR THIS

[@haia901]

Your voice is so smooth and soothing to listen to!

[@howlt005]

God I must have listened to this a thousand times by now

[@how_to_be_invisible]

Sister just found this for me again! Beautiful!! Thank you for sharing! 💛💛💛

[@valo99yuki]

wow, it was so great, really great, love your voice

[@thegoddessofstrange_8231]

Oml your voice is like a freaking angel! I'm so jealous how you can sing so great.

[@dri6603]

I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THIS GOOD WORK AS ALWAAAYYYSS!!!! 💕💞💓💕💞💓💕

[@dri6603]

ah and such a GOOD song choice, smth i know old voca fans can remember from way back when!!

[@PhantomThiefXI]

i love it, thank you very much

[@HarukoSan]

I've made it all the way back here and wow. This was iconic.