Memory Loss, Schizoaffective Disorder, and Me

[@JacquelineFalls54]

My memory loss is so severe I forget events for years then suddenly remember them. I used to like to read but now I have difficulty retaining information. As soon as I read a sentence it goes away.

[@Chrismgj]

I thought I was the only one that felt this way. I can read something but not retain anything from it. Maybe it’s a thought block or something like that. I noticed this after my first psychotic episode with schizophrenia.

[@ArielAndrésCorralesRamírez-s8m]

i have the same problem and maybe our problem is tachypsychia

[@pikohn]

As a schizophrenic, the hardest thing for me was losing my memories. Like you said, you can't pinpoint events, but you remember how said events made you feel. It's also hard for me to talk to people because of this. I have nothing to say because I literally don't remember what happened during the day or week. There's no story to tell, and that took some time to get over. It still makes me feel like there's something wrong with me.

[@dariapoklemba2150]

A suggestion??? Take your cell phone and snap some pretty pics of what you are doing...walk in park, see a single leaf, (talk about that, symbolic) a dog, kids in swimming pool, an old car(1960 Cadillac, something with 5 different colors on the car body). I had that issue except my entire M-F all year was drs appt, bloodwork and mris. So if I were to go someplace fun, I'd take a pic. In the details (3 dots upper right corner, android phones) tells you the date. So if you're woth a group, someone says, "what exciting thing did you do?" You might say, "I took a short walk and found thr cutest squirrel. Would you like to see the pic?" Or take a pic of the movie poster or the cover of a book you're reading. I went 4 yrs stuttering and lost my entire vocabulary. I spoke better Spanish than English (I'm not spanish)Spanish. Very scary. I quit smoking and started walking every other day for 30 min. It lifted. I was terrified. Both of my parents died of alzheimers.

[@postrigorvigor]

I can't remember all I have forgotten.

[@SchizoKitzo]

If this isn’t the most relatable comment I don’t know what is.

[@jeniroberts]

This was a well done video. I have mentioned on some of your other videos that I have schizoaffective disorder Depressive Type. I usually am depressed but sometimes I am just kind of ...well...nowhere. Not up not down just down the middle somewhere. Some kind of Euthymia I guess. Anyway, for me my memory is compartmentalized. When I am having a normal mood, I don't remember anything that happened when I was depressed. And when I am depressed, I don't remember what happened when my mood was normal. So all the time half of my memories are missing and unaccessible. That is my take on it :)

[@SchizoKitzo]

Oh wow thats so interesting! And sounds super disorienting too. Thanks for sharing your take!

[@NancyBrock-h5i]

My 27 year old son got diagnosed with esquizo affective disorder a month ago. I'm beyond devastated by this diagnosis. It gives me hope you seem to have a normal life. Thanks for the info.

[@calebwuollet513]

My memory has also been hamstrung by my schizoaffective disorder. I often have to check and double, even triple check things because i just cannot remember often. Thanks for your videos, its good to hear from someone who can relate. Cheers!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Yes!!! The triple checking is so real!!! For work I have to do that to make sure I”m following the steps of what I’m doing properly, and it can be a little nerve-wracking, but I’ve just learned to trust myself, especially if it’s something I’ve done hundreds of times. Cheers to you too!

[@Gothy_Guru]

Your videos help me. I thought I was the only one who started losing their memory. I used to be known for having a fantastic memory. Now, people will mention things that happened in my past, and I have no memory of them.

[@heavymetalrehab]

I stumbled across your channel looking for something that had nothing to do with mental health. Must have been fate! Something told me to check your channel out...and I am glad that I did. My mother has schizoeffective disorder and it seems to be a topic that is hard to find reliable information on. I have Bipolar disorder, so I struggle at times myself, but recently my mother's memory has gotten so horrible that at times she cannot remember certain things that happened the day before. It had really begun to terrify me. I feel better after seeing this. I needed to see this. Thank you.

[@SchizoKitzo]

I’m glad my video could be there when someone needed it. Stay strong, and whatever happens, you got this and you ARE enough.

[@robertagarrison8944]

You are a Godsend! My son, 38 yrs old has had Schizoaffective disorder for his entire adult life. I never understood why he constantly forgets things. Extremely frustrating to me. I thought his meds were making him drowsy, or lazy, or …. Thank you! Can’t wait to hear all your videos.

[@kinzhe83]

When I was hospitalized one of the things doctors were telling us patients is that every time you have an "episode" you lose some of your "abilities", and that should be one of the reasons why one shouldn't stop taking meds. I'd say after my last manic episode 14 years ago my short-term memory was damaged but not terribly. By the way 14 years later I'm 120 pounds overweight and constantly tired and catatonic but I still prefer that to being manic or depressed, but that's just me. Thx for the video and Happy New Year to you and everyone here :)

[@SchizoKitzo]

Happy new year to you too! And that really is a great reason to stay on meds, because that’s kinda how I feel about it too. I don’t want to lose anything else, ya know? And I’m glad you’re at a good place with meds and treatment. One day I hope to go that long in between episodes!

[@leofire31]

@@SchizoKitzo It's not necessarily true that every episode of schizoaffective disorder results in a loss of cognitive abilities. Schizoaffective disorder, which features symptoms of both schizophrenia and mood disorder components (like bipolar disorder or depression), can impact cognitive functions. However, the effects on cognition can vary greatly among individuals. While some research suggests that repeated psychotic episodes in schizophrenia-related disorders might be associated with declines in certain cognitive functions, this is not an inevitable outcome for everyone with schizoaffective disorder. Factors such as the severity and frequency of episodes, the effectiveness of treatment, and individual differences in vulnerability to cognitive impairment play significant roles. Effective management of the disorder with medication, psychotherapy, and supportive services can help mitigate potential declines in cognitive function. Regular treatment and support can often stabilize the condition and improve overall functioning, which may include cognitive aspects.

[@BooHoo-it1ir]

I was working in an architectural firm i printed out the drawings then sort them, architects kept saying they were not in order from 1 to whatever .... That was in 2007. Im 40 now in 2024 and my cognitive function is to the extreme where i read books but cant process the recollection of the story and my vocabulary is poor as well. I also have social anxiety disorder and my meds humiliate myself with tremors in the hands in public. I try and remain positive as i still try my best to cook which i have a knack for. Thankyou SK for your sharing and reality check for everyone out there and commenting on this channel, im not alone, youre not alone, we are not alone 😊, thanks again SK and Crew👍 Peace, Hope and Love to you ALL!

[@joro8986]

When I’m manic I play the guitar a lot. I record and write. And then I’ll stumble across something and be amazed and blown away. And then spend an unreasonable amount of time trying to relearn and teach myself what I did. It’s a gift and a curse. Thank you for your videos.

[@ChristoferEllis]

Thanks for the video, Its....reassuring to hear someone who is going through the same things.....describe them and still be positive. So Thank You again.

[@SchizoKitzo]

It’s so easy to be negative, and sometimes I am, but if I can be positive it helps so much. I’m glad I could reassure ya, I’m not alone and neither are you!

[@JellyBean-bx5oj]

I realized that of my psychotic episode in December-January that lasted about 6 weeks, I only really remembered a handful of things. I remember people asking me what I had been up to around the Holiday season and I just couldn’t respond because I didn’t know. I don’t really remember what I did, what I got people for Christmas, who I celebrated with, and all sorts of important details. Sometimes some memories will come back, but really solid memories I only have about 3 or 4 from that time.

[@Kaovi3]

You opened my eyes. We have same diagnosis but I'm depressive type. I really can't watch back in the past. For me is literally only now. And it's a mystery how can it be. I know what I have to do but I can't recall anything from yesterday. But like you I'm very emotional and I can remember moods or smells or texture but not the events. Thank you a lot for taking about this. The time is now lo😂

[@SchizoKitzo]

Glad I could help you! I wish this awful disease didn’t take our memories, and maybe one day they can find a way to reverse it, but I feel the damage is already done. Regardless, thank you for sharing this!

[@lazarmitrovic180]

Ty for this video, no one on internet talk about how this symptoms can affect your social life, your career, relationships...... By the way what improved my cognition enormously are cold showers and exercise. Returning blood to my brain started turning my thinking processes back to normal. I still cant remember words in the middle of the conversation sometimes, but that is it. I am not socially awkward , I can go out with friends. It is just better...

[@SchizoKitzo]

Im so glad you’ve found something that helps! Exercise helps me as well just in general, so I’m sure it’s helping cognition as well! And yeah, SZA can really affect so many aspects of life, like I’d say it affects everything to some degree. And that’s okay! Just gotta work with it :)

[@danallshaw1131]

Thanks, your the very first on in 20 years I've heard about (memory loss). It made higher education very hard to complete.

[@SchizoKitzo]

When doing research for this video I found it hard to find information on it. But memory loss is such a big thing in more than just schizoaffective, and hardly anyone talks about it. Thanks for this!

[@danallshaw1131]

@@SchizoKitzo YW, look forward to you making the next 25 years a blessing for all of us.

[@Waldemar_la_Tendresse]

I actually came by my insatiable interest and search for answers. I noticed that you have wonderful taste in color and placement of details. I love the green sky with the stars in it. And yes, I found the video interesting too.

[@markreamer5113]

It is difficult to process information spoken to me! I need to read slowly and deliberately, but that may be the fact directions were always hard to follow! It was an ongoing occurrence where I was told to put my name at the top of whatever test that was being taken and I never remembered! I think it wouldn’t be much of a surprise that I grew up with an emotional instability that interfered with my learning ability!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Oh interesting! Thanks for sharing!

[@gckinsey]

Thank you so much for opening up about your experiences with memory loss, and sharing your insights into how and why they happen. As an Avatar fan, I loved "everything changed when the mania attacked." XD With what you described about manic episodes, with your brain running faster than your thoughts can keep up, it makes a lot of sense that you would have gaps in your memory during them. Also that short story assignment sounds so scary - I would have cried too if something like that happened to me, because it's such a stark way to realize that your memory wasn't what it had always been. It was great to hear about how both your medications and your record-keeping in Notion/your calendar help you counterbalance your memory loss. I also love how remembering the feelings you experienced in certain moments, even if you don't remember the details, makes it easier for you to cope. It's awesome that you've found ways to live a fulfilling & enjoyable life with your memory loss, & I think hearing about that is going to help so many other people who deal with the same thing. :)

[@SchizoKitzo]

Memory loss is something that I don’t really hear much about online or in mental health circles, because while it is a big thing with schizos (affectives and phrenics) its also a problem in those with depression even and definitively bipolar, and people just don’t talk about it! Yet another reason WHY it SHOULD be talked about! Memory is such a fleeting thing anyways, and I definitely go through my life trying to commit things to memory that i know I’ll forget, and it’s okay, it really is. Because all I can do is keep moving forward. I still remember big stuff, but I can’t always say what I did yesterday. Thanks so much for this GC!

[@hietakissa2510]

I just found your channel and really enjoy your content! I recently got diagnosed with epilepsy, which affects my memory and since my diagnosis I have just generally been very absent-minded. It mostly affects my short-term memory and I often forget "smaller" things. I've always been absolutely terrified of forgetting things or losing big chunks of my memories. This video really helped me with the fears regarding all of this, even though we don't have the same disorder.

[@SchizoKitzo]

So glad I could help you and welcome to the Hive! 🐝 memory issues suck no matter the cause, we just gotta try our best! 💪

[@GennaBrunet]

Thank you for sharing. I keep seeing resemblances to myself in your videos… learning so much. Thank you and you’re amazing

[@BaddeGrasse]

Thank you for taking the time for this 🧡

[@SchizoKitzo]

Of course! Love doing it

[@Laeshaangellala0510]

I have I think either residual or undifferentiated Schizophrenia I love your videos, please post more and longer vids daily!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Thanks so much! Never going to be daily, I don’t have that much time, but I appreciate the interest!

[@Laeshaangellala0510]

Ok.

[@BareBohemianBeauty]

i didn’t know a lot of this. it makes so much sense as to why i can’t remember big portions of my episodes but also, i’ve been dx’d with cognitive impairment. i also used to be in all AP classes and was in a gifted program as a child. my memory was near infallible. now i can’t even trust myself bc my memory can get so bad. thanks for this video x

[@WWS322]

I saw a video on KZbin about memorizing notation. She is a guitarist. She said she doesn't use one method but all methods. I play classical guitar and I've only got one song memorized. I find it easy to follow what you're saying and I like that so I memorized your channel's name. You might have burned out your mind by overloading it. I call myself an intellectual burnout because I feel reading did that to my mind. I also weathered the storm of mental illness until it decided it had gotten enough of me.

[@atlasnaiad_]

this helped me understand my aunt a little better. Thank you

[@SchizoKitzo]

Glad it helped

[@xronald619x]

I was manic just two weeks ago now I'm depressed 😔 and I forget things too.... I've been supposedly diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic with bipolar but I think id fit in more in the schizoaffective diagnosis with panic attacks and extreme anxiety..... I think my depression is due to my severe sleep deprivation these past few days when I don't sleep I can't function.

[@moehrengruen1196]

I do have problems with auditory processing as well but the worst thing is my orientation. When I was hospitalised I could not find my own room and so on. 🤷🏽‍♀️ Learning new things helps me a lot and I think will regain my skills because of neuronal plasticity.💪

[@SchizoKitzo]

I have such issues with orientation too! I have to use a GPS in my hometown and I’ve lived here mostly my entire life! And yay for plasticity, I hang onto that too. And there’s actually imaging studies done on people with psychosis that show that the brain CAN HEAL after a psychotic episode damages it. It’s actually really cool, and gives me hope for myself.

[@joshuabarnes9668]

Thank you for talking about notion as a strategy for memory. I desperately need that

[@SchizoKitzo]

It’s an awesome program!

[@discutotodoeltiempo]

I had a manic episode that took me out to Alaska. I barely remember getting there. But I loved being there.

[@SchizoKitzo]

I have like, one memory of the plane on the way to Japan and back, and that’s it 😂

[@josecogdill6901]

I was just diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type thank you for your video. I do have memory loss.

[@21nickmac]

Love your insights Kit.

[@ChrisAllendestroysall]

Holy 😭😭😭 I'm crying right now. Someone understands.

[@SchizoKitzo]

You ain’t alone!

[@q-perspective8989]

crying for what, Her parents obviously can afford to give her A normal life, or Being a Woman with mental issues is easier than being a man. Because men will still Date those women. If you want to cry , cry for poor people really poor men with mental problems who are homeless and have nothing, not even a place to shower, and are completely isolated

[@LivingDead53]

You're such a good person. Since I've always been somewhat disabled, I'm used to this. I don't have strong emotions and can mostly laugh and cry. My memory has been whack for a while. I know that an average person will get like 70% of the material, and I will have to work harder for 30% of the material. I'm still learning. Yes, there are times when I think about the ocean or a group home that had a nice garden. I am annoyed that I am harassed about getting a pension. They have no low. I'm a "parasite," but I'm also not allowed to do anything that brings success. I must live in poverty for insulting Zheani. Your sin? Do you have any fucking idea? I chill in an adult facility. I'm not allowed to shine. I'm used to it. The ones who say they're fixing us is even worse. They all know about the brain now, but they won't share. We're in that phase.

[@lindotimo]

I have problems with my memory, but it may be linked to my age. Particularly bad my memory is, if I have slept well. Luckily enough, I am already retired, and I don't have to remember many things at once in the mornings. - Still I long for this total relaxation of memory and a sort of cleaning up of the memory and garbage annihilation. - I do not have particular 'episodes' of mood swings, unless these sleep disturbances are counted. - I enjoy listening and wathing your videos! Good luck to you!

[@James3478-r4n]

Just went through a battery of test that involved short term and long term memory. I didn't realize how bad my memory short term and long term was. Like you i couldn't recite what was told to me. Thanks for the vid kit, it helps me understand this diagnosis better and how to accept it.

[@SchizoKitzo]

Acceptance is key!

[@nelliephelan1358]

This is the most relatable thing I’ve watched in as long time. Immediately subscribed ❤

[@SchizoKitzo]

Welcome! Glad to help ^_^

[@bunnsssarebest5610]

This is a bit pessimistic but one thing I find really annoying about the memory loss part is how other people see it. At first people think I’m just trying to be cute and quirky, and I’m certainly not. Then as time goes on and they realize I’m genuinely struggling with memory and they think I’m stupid. Then people doubt nearly everything I say. It’s especially difficult when I occasionally do remember things other people don’t. On a more positive note i really enjoy this channel. I haven’t watched a lot yet but even its existence is comforting. Actually getting to see that there’s someone else who knows what this is like is nice, sad that we both have it, but nice that someone gets it.

[@GoddessLaurel]

You are such good vibes! Thank you for sharing your experience and ideas. 💖

[@mjlove6574]

Thank You for Notion i will try it! Great video!

[@SchizoKitzo]

ITS AMAZING!!! Have fun :)

[@kristinhall7574]

Good video. I use to have a steel-trap memory but that is gone. My long term memory is still good but short term memory is awful. I thought it was the medication. I can’t remember important things but I sure can remember stupid stuff. I read somewhere that schizophrenics have a smaller hippocampus then normal. I also heard that exercise can help enlarge it. Thanks again for making these videos. They really help.

[@SchizoKitzo]

Oh man if exercise helps I’m going to do way more than yoga… I’ll look into that. Thanks for telling me, and I had no idea about the hippocampus thing. Theyr’e learning more and more that schizophrenia is more of a brain disease than a mental disorder, so it’s going to be interesting to see where science takes the disorder in the coming years…. And where schizoaffective fits into that mix.

[@kristinhall7574]

@@SchizoKitzo I forgot to mention that the study specifically said that aerobic exercise increases the hippocampus

[@beatcause]

This was really helpful 👏 🙂 you are making great videos and are a great soul. ❤

[@SchizoKitzo]

Thank you so much for letting me know!!!!

[@ieshaanderson2289]

I forget events. And details to a conversations. But I thank God I found your channel because I didn’t know why I was losing my memory.

[@SchizoKitzo]

It can be so scary!

[@LucidLuci666]

I have amnesia on manic episodes but not all of them there's some that I can remember ridiculously well delusions and connections included every little triggering thing I can remember and what it meant to me at the time . Either that or nothing. The ones I can remember seem to be really episodic for lack of better words like if I'm starting to get unwell again it's like it's continuing on from these really well rememed episodes

[@colt5189]

A doctor put me on Lithium a couple of decades ago for anxiety. And it had a bad side effect where for a couple of days, it felt like I was moving in slow motion. It was very weird and I'd have to go to work like that. They told me to just keep taking it, but I just couldn't live where it felt like I was moving in very slow motion.

[@JeffAiken-ui6hk]

I agree with what you say causes memory loss and like you I write everything down in my diary including my Zyprexa dose

[@CamboTriton]

Great video! You are such a brilliant young lady, wonderful to listen to.

[@SchizoKitzo]

Thanks! I try!

[@lisatomihiro3488]

This was incredibly informative and helpful. Thanks Kit!

[@SchizoKitzo]

No prob!

[@Shmoo22420]

Wow I'm so glad you made this video. I have bipolar type schizoaffective as well. I feel like the more mania and psychosis I experience the worse my memory gets. "I don't remember but I believe you" is a sentence I use a LOT now when people ask me if I remember an event. It's so frustrating. I have to watch movies over and over for them to stick. I also have extreme trouble telling people apart and remembering faces. I don't know if that's a memory issue or something else. I didn't even recognize any of the male actors in the Les Mis movie and my husband was shocked because I've seen those actors so many times. Do you experience facial recognition issues as well?

[@SchizoKitzo]

I am mildly faceblind yes! Hard for me to recognize characters in shows when I first start watching them, especially if they change outfits a lot.

[@raissamarking-fg9wl]

I didn't even know how much I had forgotten until one of my brothers whom I hadn't been around in years started asking me about some of the big family events--brother's weddings, famiky members funerals, places I've lived, etc. I didn't know what I didn't remember until I realized from his questions that had zero memories of these events and places. Very strange to realize how much my memory has been affected by schizoaffective disorder. I feel like a person without a past.

[@SchizoKitzo]

I’ve forgotten so so much and it’s hard to accept. It has gotten better since my psychotic break took most of it from me but I still hate that I forget little and even big things

[@Miranda-x7p]

This may sound ridiculous compared to what you’ve experienced, but I forget the lyrics to songs. I recently had to listen to the same song over fifteen times to try to remember thr lyrics and I still don’t think I know them all. Some songs I remember quite well but I get the verses in the wrong order when I try to sing them, like Christmas carols.I also have huge concentration problems that started in high school. Sending you best wishes from France!

[@wobina]

I have schizophrenia and my theory for why my short term memory sucks is because I'm constantly hearing voices all day long and its fuckin distracting LOL I also used to love reading (before I heard voices), now i can't really read any books because the voices will get bored or distract me.

[@Omicronthewiperofyouknow...]

A friend once told me that depression is about people not liking you. He was a pharmacist. You get really really stressed when the people around you don't like you.

[@Omegared_o]

happy new year!!!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Thanks so much! You too!

[@robertdaniel1234]

Thank you for sharing

[@YanaZakrevska]

I have this too! I noticed my memory got worse after my 3rd hospitalization that was 2 years ago. It's getting better though. Or maybe i just got used to it, who knows xD I often don't know if something is a dream or a memory. My dreams are very bright and realistic and I remember them really well (probably because of my medications) and sometimes i really struggle distinguishing dreams and memories. It feels like my brain just keeps them in one folder and doesn't bother to organize them xD I also forget about many little things, I have to be reminded or i won't ever remember about them on my own. It's like graphics in video games, if things get too far away they simply disappear haha

[@winkus8586]

My memory is still relatively okay. But i do have problem when i have to recall them during conversation with people. It is the autopilot mode and social anxiety that are so severe.. And i am in a super depressed and frustrated situation.. living as a schizophrenic is so hard. I am not taking any antipsychotic out of fear of the long term side effect and due the the current situation of my life indicating that it is too late. I try to cheers up my self, but every time i met with people, it fall apart again either by my own mistake or pure bullying.. Now i understand why people with schizophrenia tend to be flat.

[@lindotimo]

I have some memory issues which a usual in this age. - Things which happened long ago are remembered, but newly happened things, particularly names dissappear in the darc corners of the memory. - Retrieval times are extended considerably. - Sometimes the name pops up the next day. - In one of our universities they try to do 'brainwashing' in a literal sense. This is thought to help in severe cases of dementia.

[@JimiSurvivor]

Those of us with Bipolar 1 also have cognitive impairments. In some ways, it is more frustrating than the mood swings.

[@vazzaroth]

Very interesting. I have had a terrible, seemingly clinically deficient memory for a lot of my life, but it's the opposite. I can't remember numbers... EVER. Under almost any circumstance. I never did and never will memorize times tables. I still at 35 kinda think that everyone is lying that they can just DECIDE to remember a big stupid grid of meaningless numbers! But I do remember text and words and concepts super well, but never events or facts about, like, people. But I have the same thing: I can recall with basically perfect clarity how I FELT about things in the moment and that's about it. I've wondered about maybe being schizoid, autistic, or schizophrenic but I don't think I have 'real' hallucinations even though I do tend to have a super critical inner voice that pops up and is 'othered' by my psyche. It's not a common situation but happens about twice a year when I'm at my lowest. Anyway, ain't nobody got money for healthcare so it's not like I can do anything about it!

[@mentalhealthwithalana]

I relate, I have Bipolar too

[@ariannesmum]

This is great many drs don't tell you about this but its happening

[@SchizoKitzo]

They can’t cover everything

[@russ-t2c]

You make a lot of sense to me. Your aura and speech. It's weird, to me. I feel like I know you. Weird I know; but I accept that I am disabled too. So maybe I'm weird. I subscribed. I have massive memory blanks. Super manic, with drugs during college. Spent 20 grand on a Star Wars phone game... It sure felt good hahaha 😆

[@theboringbiker]

Memory loss effects me a lot too, it's been a struggle

[@nikoteardrop4904]

So here's my laundry list of co-morbids-- OCD, ADHD, Tourette's, schizoaffective, central pain syndrome. My memory is hilariously bad. If I don't write something I need to remember down, it's gone when I leave the room. Tic storms treat my brain like a shaken Etch-a-sketch. Honestly, I'm still working on the best solution for a surrogate memory. Definitely going to give Notion a shot. Frankly, if I lost my cellphone or internet access, I'd be deeply screwed. Solidarity, sister.

[@nikoteardrop4904]

One of the major ways my symptoms feed off each other is pretty wild. Both my OCD and ADHD lead to rumination. I have entire conversations entirely in my head, and I often dissociate during these hallucinations. If I don't register that it was a hallucination by the time it's over, then it's just stored as a memory, and it's impossible to tell the difference between the memory of a hallucination and the memory of an actual conversation. I'm sure the multiple untreated concussions I've had over the years don't help.

[@johnsantavicca5016]

I feel you on the memory thing.

[@puke116]

Have you made/would you consider making a video about how you use Notion? It'd be awesome to get some tips on using it for memory!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Oh it’s totally on the list! I have to figure out logistics but ABSOLUTLEY

[@puke116]

@@SchizoKitzo Yay!!! :D

[@Lipolimtown]

This is why KARxt will be a verrry important medication

[@SchizoKitzo]

I looked this one up, and it looks pretty interesting. Hopefully it WILL help the crappy situation so many of us are in.

[@Lipolimtown]

@@SchizoKitzo I’m a big fan of it and have been studying it and the few others that are coming out for negative and cognitive symtoms. It seems very promising. Hang in there!

[@robertstone8056]

good video kitz!

[@SchizoKitzo]

Thanks as always!

[@katienunya]

It hasnt been to to long since i was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and definitely recently my memory has been horid and didnt know schizoaffective could cause it

[@SchizoKitzo]

Make sure to talk to a doctor about it if it concerns you, but it’s such a common complaint by those with SZA and I hate it for all of us.

[@elysemattocks1495]

This is a biggie for me too. I take a small dose of donepezil this is an alzhimers med but there are studies that show this can help those struggles with memory issues while diagnosed with a mental disorder. Each person is different but maybe talk it over with your drs my psychiatrist prescribed it for me in my case.

[@JulianaAndersson]

I adore your hats! I think I asked before, but what is this stitch? Is there a pattern?

[@SchizoKitzo]

It’s the diagonal rib stitch in knitting and I made up the pattern. Wish I remembered it!

[@JulianaAndersson]

@@SchizoKitzo it’s so cool!

[@JulianaAndersson]

@@SchizoKitzo isn’t it just knit and purl?

[@shnaslam]

How about your long term memory? It seems the problem is specifically with short term memory, but have you noticed any sort of change in your long term memories? Have they changed? Do you ave any issues with recall? Happy New Year and also pls start selling knitwear it's very cold where I am from.

[@SchizoKitzo]

So this is a hard one, because I feel that since I don’t have a good short term its hard for memories to even get to long term. However, I have noticed that the memories I’ve made BEFORE my manic episodes got bad remain largely untouched. For example, I was playing Halo for the first time in years about 10 months ago, and I remembered all aspects of that game in perfect clarity because I used to play it all the time in high school. It was… a little wild actually, like I’d opened a time capsule or something, because I was recalling far more than I usually do. And most of my high school memories are like that-like I remember all the theater productions I was a part of, things like that-while I have very few memories of college and after. However, these days, if I do manage to get something into long term storage through repetition etc… then it’s in there and will stay there. In terms of recall, its hit or miss. I either really know it or I don’t know anything, there is rarely an in between. Hope this helps an that it made sense!

[@shnaslam]

@@SchizoKitzo Yes totally makes sense! Thank you for the in-depth response! It feels like there's a demarcation between memories pre-mania and post. I also think it's interesting that you had an eidetic memory, and now your note taking is like the physical analog of that with how meticulous they are. Goes to show that the "spirit" of a person is very hard to diminish!

[@SchizoKitzo]

@@shnaslam oh my gosh you’re so right about the note-taking!!! Never would have thought of it from that perspective. Thanks!

[@angelpizza7892]

I have it to but my memory is so shock that i cant evem remember my childhood amd what i did just a few moments ago. No epidose need just forgetfully all the time

[@atura5502]

When I‘m in a depressed episode my memory could get so bad that I forgot where I parked my car or how to get back home. But it has not happened ever since I got on medication.

[@SchizoKitzo]

It’s crazy how intense memory issues can get with mood and psychotic disorders. And medication does help! Glad you don’t have to deal with that anymore!

[@flyingskyward2153]

It's bizarre how similar some of your symptoms are to what I experience around memory

[@alsbigsmoke]

It's just easier to call schizophrenia and others of the sort a bastard it really is, schizophrenia has ruined me but I'll keep trying and hoping.

[@charlesjdickerson1010]

i am diagnosed schizotypal, and find myself having memory issues. the clearest and most easy to define was years ago, i was home alone doing some kitchen cleaning when the microwave dinged. i looked in and some food was ready. i had to be the one that put it in there, but i had no memory of doing so. the doctors dont seem to believe me, and have yet to find anything that confirms what i tell them. it's a strange life. 😂😮

[@SchizSoAffective]

Bro I have memory lapses a lot and I forget everything that happened before the present moment. I didn’t put together that it could be bc of my disorder

[@Omicronthewiperofyouknow...]

If you get involved in academia, there are people around that work with all sorts of substances, and some of them are kinda clumsy and forget about stuff.

[@johnsantavicca5016]

Food Lion! I haven't heard anybody talk about that store in decades.

[@hnp706]

I was diagnosed SchzAffective disorder 3 years before. I had 3 manic episodes also. I have memory issues and i have difficulty to speak continuesly. For me It is difficult to get words from memory. I dont know what to do. Please help

[@LivingDead53]

Well, I took an IQ test when I was spitting my pills out, and it was grim. I received a 116 on the IQ part with serious issues. Some of the global tasks were too difficult for me. I do guard some of them to keep my dad away. I study, read, and write for my brain. I take meds and am watched. Lithium and the others rewire the brain. plus, depression and other diseases like to damage the brain, so we don't know fully, which is which. I'm not sure it causes growth, just new pathways. I'm allergic to lithium, it turns out, so... Anyway, I was in special ed . I guess I mostly made Bs in High SchooI, even though I was so behind due to special ed. I was also pushing my body to the limits abuse-wise. No, I wasn't on drugs. I couldn't stop moving, didn't sleep for days, starved or feasted. I did laps around the city. I should have competed in cycling because I am a cardio queen or was. If I wouldn't have joined the army, I would have probably gone off in a few years and just medicated or watched by a doctor. Unfortunately, I have the face of my mom's abuser or did when I was thinner. I had issues with one of my sisters who I tormented after I came back home in sixth grade from dad's. She got her revenge. I said sorry. Her doctor doesn't want us together or for me to bring anything up for a while. she's too busy with a family now anyhow. Most of us do commit a crime and then they figure it out, which is sad. Mom tried to have me committed, but my dad stopped her, and the rest of the family said they'd cut off funds if she did. I love my mommy. She doesn't love me though. It's not something I cry about. She wouldn't let me in at night. She had no problem with babysitting. She made a big deal about me taking meds when I came back, or I couldn't see my siblings. Look, it was a mess. Hey, she pickled her brain with alcohol and had no problem when it came to draining my bank account. wah, wah. I love you, mommy. I hate you daddy.

[@KevinChristensen-h8x]

Ya i was told when you stop taking meds by a mednurse that every time you go off your meds you get worse and learn to like taking your meds until your medicine takes no more effect. I went off my meds afterward now im used to being off my meds. I take them now because i live in an adult family home and im given them everyday. Im going to be on them when i get married using call scripture so ill be on my meds from then on to make her happy.

[@marlo2919]

My mom in the hospital for schizoaffective disorder and.bi polar mania. My mom is unable to recognize she has anything wrong... She thinks she is in the hospital illegally. Does anyone know if at some point she will recognize she has something wrong and needs to take and stay on meds? I'm afraid.she never going recozie and have to be in a mental institution the remai of her life.

[@nikicarrie4071]

I don't remember anything people say, but I remember looking at/ reading. I'm not auditory learner .people have said I'm stupid for this a lot. But I just can't. They'll be like I just told you 😡😡

[@nikicarrie4071]

Love you ❤

[@jonf.3931]

I have cognitive deficits but it is from autism spectrum disorder and Clozapine

[@SchizoKitzo]

SO many things can cause them, hang in there!

[@marypoole6064]

Big Pharma Drugs ?????

[@jaydearien8624]

I use a Franklin Planner. I have a system that most (normal) people consider “OCD” or such. I want to make a comic book to document my system for other people who sufferer from conditions like mine. If anybody would like to help in that project, I would welcome it!

[@Wezryx]

You made a reference to Avatar that you'll not be getting past me.

[@Blu52-j9l]

I've no memory till 16,,, is all pictures till then

[@JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe]

Dungeons and dragons should be acted out in steam tunnels at University. What game did you mention?

[@YANDEX30V]

I have SED .. I'm not sure how this streamer can be so cheerful tbf. Its out of place. However, for instance.. I can be affected in this way..apart fro. Many:-- I can go to a place I've been a thousand times and still not know where iam. It's a weird one. But again highlighting this streamer..I've no idea why you can film yourself and be so happy doing so. Behond comprehension.

[@charlesjdickerson1010]

she might be one of those people that always amaze me with their exuding cheer without due cause.

[@savidgepups]

I find after an episode to me it almost looks like my hubbies brain “resets” after a episode

[@SchizoKitzo]

Oh interesting!

[@qpf000]

Have you tried galantamine? I helps with memory loss. My psychology and psychiatrist says memory loss is the not a concerning sign of anything, due to my complex history they I'm mostly likely cluster A but they can never dyicsnos my with anything at moment for me time is so dilated 1 minute = 30 minutes from my postective's as so there's a echo chamber effect everything is very loud and I'm sort of getting suck in infinite awareness loops with myself there alot of paraiting both my sisters are bipolar at lest everyone can hear and interact with each other's really helps for abstract maths mixed with soundtch and chemistry if I get very bord stay way from DLPA it makes everything so much worse, I've got to point we're my dangerous meds and chemicals like Zopiclone which will always make memory losses worse for anyone if you take it long enough is at lest locked behind two safes and if I can remember we're the keys are I should be taking the Zopiclone I should be the Quetiapine sory this is way to long, just before I Finsh this do ever find it really annoying when people allows ask you if your all right after to have a interaction with people do other people see me doing or saying something that I'm not aware of

[@rashidafurniturewalla985]

Very difficult to understand your post, maybe you can edit it. Hope your taking your meds ❤

[@qpf000]

@rashidafurniturewalla985 Sorry about that. I tend to ramble a bit when I'm talking about chemicals, I remember this posts sometimes I get delirium when I'm dealing with blood noises, It's actually really funny this popped up this week, turns out you can turn NAC into H²S if temperatures get above 70c and hopefully I will never be do it again and always look at the side reaction 😇

[@justbayandaofficial]

Such a cool person.

[@Dou253]

I have manic loss of keys disorder does that count?

[@lisanancollas2330]

Does anyone else in your family have your diagnosis?

[@AtheistBassist]

I too need lists for everything nowadays. Back in my nuke school and prototype days, I had to memorize countless amounts of information to verbally regurgitate to somebody. However, those days are long gone along with the memories of the acquaintances I made. Like I can remember some names, some faces, but that's it. You referencing food lion did bring back happy memories of living down south tho, get some Waffle House next time you're out for me.

[@royclevenger9817]

Thank you Kit. My photographic memory was destroyed in a simple hospital mistake. I was left for 6 days at 106 degrees fever. Haven't worked 1 day in 9 years. Memory continues to deteriorate, especially short-term memory. None of my immediate family members understand, which makes this worse. I have no good solution except to try to disguise it.

[@SchizoKitzo]

100% gonna go to Waffle House now I haven’t been in a while. I too forget people pretty easily if it’s been long enough, even if I hung out with them pretty regularly. I’m also partially face blind which makes things even harder, since I can’t recall faces at all. Eventually everything will be forgotten, it’s just a little sped up for me.

[@carolmussotter8439]

Hi Kit! I have a humble request here…Please don’t refer to us as “schitzo”. It’s pretty derogatory and to me really emphasizes the stigma we are fighting to break. Also, your soundtrack/music is extremely distracting and I have a hard time focusing on your words. Maybe don’t use a soundtrack or turn down the volume so it doesn’t complete with your voice. A neurotypical person may not have an issue…but perhaps for those of us prone to hallucinations…everything competes with our perception. Most KZbin video discussions have no musical score perhaps for this reason. Sorry to sound critical but really had to share. Otherwise, great perspective. Keep up the great work.