Midlife & starting over. And over again.

[@anagoldberg]

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[@guyal2332]

I love how you expressed yourself in this video and your quote of Brene Brown in her comment on midlife and death. This I feel must be absolutely true. You have great courage and resolve....especially for only being 41! Please keep bringing us your feeliings and observations. We need your viewpoint in this rough and tumble world. All the very best to you and your partner. Mary in Montreal

[@cmst6408]

It's great you have a set on this app, Ana. ❤ your videos and things you create. I will look into...nice conversations, I empathize w/ anxiety related to $ and have my own. I feel it should be talked about more. Thank you again 💓

[@gingermcintosh6545]

I have only this: entering old age is also a death, and a rebirth. There comes a point where you must resign to certain things. Perhaps you can’t dance anymore, or hike. Or knit. Your hands fail, or your knees. Gradually you lose capability. But new things emerge. More patience, more kindness, more focus on details. I imagine it is preparation for the day when I won’t have a body at all. No 5 senses, no emotional ups and downs. Just understanding and knowledge. And that is all I will need.

[@anagoldberg]

Such a profound insight ❤️ Thank you for sharing it, dear Ginger.

[@MyLifeInTheDesert]

Beautiful

[@elizabethp17]

❤

[@SimplySheilaB]

I’m 56, newly divorced after 25yrs, downsizing and moving into living between a tiny caravan and a static caravan on a country park. Feel totally destroyed but also liberated. No longer interested in things, just new memories ❤❤❤❤

[@anagoldberg]

Dear Sheila, I'm sending you much love and support❤️ Yay to new memories!

[@SimplySheilaB]

@@anagoldberg thank you my love and all the best to you 🥰🥰

[@classifiedinformation6353]

Freedom awaits you Sheila.

[@cherylhuger8447]

I am 65 and divorcing. I do not have much. I live with my Dad for now he's 86. I will be a nomad living in my vehicle when he passes. I do believe I am looking forward to the freedom.

[@SimplySheilaB]

@@cherylhuger8447 sending love to you 🥰🥰

[@tereclemmer7923]

I emigrated from my country in my late teens. I lived in Germany, the USA, Turkey, and back to the USA. I am from Latin America, and I have always been able to visit family and familiar places often. While I enjoy going back, my home is now the USA, and the place that I miss and want to return after my travels. When I go visit the country of my birth, I notice how I have changed as well as the people and places that once were home. Home is where you make it with the person you choose to be with. Yes, you will always miss the old life/place, but they have changed, and so have you. I wish you all the best in your transformation and finding joy in your new life and home.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for sharing your story and your kind wishes, my friend ❤️

[@ExLibris-Alys]

“I miss the past which no longer belongs to me”, such a desolate statement. I admire your strength and resilience SO much Ana, you’ve been through such a lot and have accepted whatever has been thrown at you. Acceptance and resignation are powerful tools when it comes to overcoming adversity.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear Alys 🌸

[@venust.4119]

Ana, I recently discovered your channel and I enjoy your work and resonate with you on many levels. I'm Russian living in the US, you and your husband have a similar story with my husband and I. I respect your privacy and that you guys keep your plans a secret. If the BIG move across the pond is on your radar sometime in the future, make sure to collect as much documented "married life" evidence with your husband as possible: photos together at home and public places with timestamps and famous locations; plane tickets, theater tickets, museum passes etc. It's the official dated evidence that will really matter when the time comes. Good luck, and much love.

[@LillianHenegar]

I'm an American who immigrated to Canada and I experienced what you are talking about! It is hard being an immigrant, exhausting. Thanks for sharing about learning to be a guest. That feels really true. It's helpful to keep that mindset, especially for us loud assertive Americans.

[@marianne8280]

Feel with you Ana. Without family and relatives, I feel like I am on an island all by myself and it´s hard to reach the mainland. To be rootless no matter in what way it´s hard and empty but att the same time you have to do the best of your situation and life. I try to be stoic and just get on with life in the best way I can.

[@anagoldberg]

Sending love to you, Marianne ❤️ And yes, we have to make the best of our life.

[@SchneppFlute]

Just the fact that you DO keep your heart open to whatever life has to offer you is what will allow you to succeed in this ever-changing journey. There's really not going to be a perfect place or life, but we can find contentment and peace as we go along if we're open to finding it. Sending you joy! ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for such a kind encouragement, dear Gayle ❤️

[@jeanniebenfaida9370]

Ana I’ve missed you for many months! Just stumbled on some saved videos that I hadn’t had time to explore. It’s so nice to hear your voice and perspective. I’m now 72 and lived in several countries- know first hand how longing for a sense of belonging is a very sad state of affairs. It took me years to finally accept being an interested observer and never accepted as a participant is the way the world turns. Love and kindness for our fellow citizens where ever we are is the best path forward. The love of Allah and His purpose carries me through each day. I feel grounded no matter where we are living. Keep creating your content. Enjoy your journey. Best wishes.

[@nenazecevic7067]

Dear Ana, Hvala vrlo ličnom i dirljivom videu. Normalno je da imaš strah zbog novca.U stranoj si zemlji i bez konkretnog posla,mada je i to danas relativno.Selila sam se više puta u životu.Svojevoljno zbog školovanja u drugi grad a protiv svoje volje zbog rata u mojoj zemlji. Uvek sam tu seobu shvatala kao izazov i tako sam se i ponašala. Odlazila sam povremeno u zavičaj,da posetim rodbimu,da sredim dokumenta i da me prođe nostalgija.Shvatila sam da se sve promenilo i ljudi i ambijent u kojem sam nekad živela.Samo je more i kamen ostalo isto i svi oni mirisi Dalmacije.Sad imam posađene biljke koje me mirisom vraćaju u to doba.Gledam napred i pokušavam da se svaki dan nečem obradujem. Puno pozdrava iz Srbije.❤❤❤

[@anagoldberg]

Draga Nena, what a beautiful way to remember your home through the smell of plants... Thank you so much for sharing your story, it's challenging yet inspiring. Much love to you and Serbia ❤️

[@bettybotterbutter]

As always Ana, a beautiful, poetic and insightful reflection of what you have bravely confronted these past few years. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@galebecker3487]

Hi Ana, thank you for making your voice heard❤. I am now 64 and in the process of unraveling. Not sure where it will take me.... Your videos have always inspired me. You are a truly wonderful person. Regards to Bryan. Take care Gale x

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear Gale ❤️

[@brunehylde]

What a nice video ! I have been moving a lot through my life and lived in other countries or borders... I manage to settle everywhere but I was always missing something frome every place I went :) ! I'm glad from time to time I get to order some of the things that can travel, like a special tea or some cosmetics (I love german products from the DM so much!!), I watch photos or cook myself a nostalgic meal !! It's the way our life are written... like rivers, sometimes quiet, sometimes tumultous !! But we can be grateful for good sides : our mind are wider and open because we have met diversity of people and opinions, we know lots of things, words, dishes, cultural facts, cities, landscapes... and made lots of memories !!! There was a book I loved when a kid, with a young man deciding to go for a walk and walking through many unexpected adventures ! Then one day, still walking, he finds back the woods around his place and his house !! He then lives happy with some magic objects he gathered through his journey helping others!! The journey in itself is a way of living and interesting, we can make this safe place in ourselves so we never lost it !! A few items like a cup, a beloved pyjama, a book, are enough :) even if we can have more and be happy with cozyness !!

[@michelecraig9658]

I always so look forward to your Sunday videos. The part where you talk about being a "guest, " really made me feel a lot of emotions. Partly because where I live, here in California, we do not treat many of the foreigners as guests, especially Spanish speakers. I like the idea of native peope treating foreigners as guests versus "aliens," which is such a common word here. But also my heart was breaking from seeing it from your perspective, because trying to be a good guest, always means being on your best behavior. Home is the place where you feel truly relaxed and like you can be yourself. It makes me wonder, what becomes the anchor for belonging in nomadic societies, as so many societies were/still are. Is it the tribe/family? Do you have more a feeling of your own identity being in different places?

[@annebowman474]

I was also thinking we are guests on the planet and should behave as such.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your thoughtful sharing, Michele. I think now my identity has expanded a lot, and I prefer to think of myself as a human first of all 😊

[@ooousuario]

Thank you for sharing this, the timing is perfect❤ I left my native town in Russia last year to be with my non-Russian husband in his country. I had very few savings when i left and had to quit my main job. Now I have to rely on my husband financially till i get back on track work-wise. It's the first time in my adult life that i am financially dependent on someone. Also there's a new world to adapt to. And I miss the snow. It's like learning to live almost from scratch. So, live like a guest and enjoy it while it lasts🫶

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, I understand so well your challenges... Hope very soon things will get smoother. I'm afraid, we'll stay forever-foreigners for good, but it's not the worst feeling in the world! 🤗At least we get to be with our partners.

[@UppityRib]

Right on schedule, the old picture falls -- making room for a beautiful new one in its place. Thank you for the lovely video. ❤

[@anagoldberg]

You've put it in a beautiful metaphor! Thank you, Rachel 🌷

[@Anita-rq9ev]

Hello Ana, thank you for being so honest about your life, experiences and fear. Fear can drain one to the point of exhaustion (it did for me). I also, as you do live day by day, because looking further ahead is not good for my mental health. Besides that we can't control everything, one need to let go. Money is safety and important of course, but "safety" in general is an illusion in my honest opinion. I'm not in your situation, but my parents left countries twice (Ukraine, Israel) and went to Germany. As you know best, it wasn't easy. And I admire everybody who does move to another country. Whatever your path is dear Ana, I wish you and Brian well❤. P.S. don't know if I mentioned, but you look lovely with your new cut 🥰.

[@anagoldberg]

Dear Anita, thank you for your kind support and such a thoughtful sharing ❤️I agree with you, safety is just an illusion and the sooner we understand it, the freer we'll be. Also, I take your compliment thankfully 😊 Sending love!

[@Anita-rq9ev]

@@anagoldberg ❤️❤️❤️

[@neginsarrami7909]

Despite the differences in our logistics in our lives, somehow our inner worlds match up every time. Every time you post something, the title alone makes me laugh. It's been such a gift that you always hand me a little bit of validation each time I need to move through a different stage of midlife transformation.

[@anagoldberg]

Dear Negin, thank you for saying this, it's a very important motivation for me to continue sharing ❤️ Much love!

[@HelenaHovorkova]

Dear Ana, I have been following your journey from Siberia to Georgia and I can hardly imagine how stressful it must be. I wish a lot of happiness to you and Brian.🍀🍀🍀

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your kindness, dear Helena ❤️

[@lyric8006]

You always inspire me. 😘

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you ❤️

[@barbarabruce7648]

Hi Ana, put simply ,you are living a good life. You are experiencing so much. I admire you so much. We all have a different path that seems set and not what we expected. My life in Australia is very different to yours. Safe and settled but full of lifes challenges too. Very different to yours but internally probably the same obstacles. Have you considered Poland. I know you have Polish heritage you mentioned in an older video. Polish people are so friendly. It is my heritage and I was visiting there in January. There were many Russians who had fled the current crisis and I feel they were well recieved. I mention Poland because it is close to your old environment. Pine trees, snow. It is also extremely vegan friendly. I just love it there. I strongly feel that you and Brian would be very welcome and could establish roots. Maybe some if your Polish viewers can back me up. Are you in contact with you dear brother in Siberia? I hope so. And your dear 🐈 cat. Lots of love from Australia❤🦘

[@aniwee17]

I am happy to find your channel again. I was one of your earlier viewers when you were living in an apartment in Siberia. I feel that you were more tune in with yourself at that time. I hope that you can regain that feeling of peace and contentment in your new home. It seems that you have been through a lot since the war started. Viewer from Alaska.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your kind wishes 🌸

[@chelleward5116]

Thank you for such informative & inspiring content 🙏💜

[@kgt9925]

Such a beautiful and hopeful video. Thank you, Ana.

[@moldypotatochip]

I lived in Japan on and off for 5.5 years. It was hard, especially when I lost my job, visa, and apartment all at once. I've been living in my home country now for over a decade and I sometimes miss Japan terribly but also feel so much relief at the stability in my current life.

[@jillmcaleese6514]

What a useful and interesting topic … such a universal one which I think we all face to some degree in our lives as we pass through different stages/places/people/countries etc, even if it is a temporary change. It can be very comforting to find other ‘guests’ where you are, so you don’t feel isolated. The other theme, about giving up (financial) independence and living in trust is also touching. Thankyou for your lovely video. London

[@karoana8759]

I do get you,Ana,i moved to the other side of the world once ,it does feel strange and takes time to find your place again ,but does happens 🙂

[@nyckolaus]

You are always inspiring, Ana. Thank you.

[@liammcweeney1674]

Another great video Ana have a great day

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, Liam, you too!

[@simplemom8522]

"I miss the past that no longer belongs to me." This resonates so deeply with me. At 43, I think I, too, am experiencing my own midlife unraveling. Thank you for sharing your thoughts along with the article.❤ -Sandy

[@MyLifeInTheDesert]

Hi Ana, I downloaded the Aura app using your code. I had never heard of the app before. You have been through so much the last several years but I am thankful you decided to start making KZbin videos. I enjoy them. ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you so much for your kind presence here ❤️ I hope you will enjoy Aura! It's a great app truly

[@kayerains3513]

Thank you so much, Ana, for letting us see the realistic day to day life of someone living in a Foreign (for them) country. Too often it sounds exciting and romantic, but in reality not so much. I hope you are in a good place right now, and can relax and breathe for awhile. I feel for you having to hand your financial stability over to someone else, even if you love that person. It's not easy for someone who has grown up in austerity. Take care.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your kindness and understanding, my friend ❤️

[@ChrisSaenz13]

Thank you Ana for the inspiration and heartfelt message! I've been grappling a lot with changes since December 2023 ... and I don't want to stay down I'd rather chance the rebirth. I'm 60 now and I'm seeing so many things differently. ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Wishing you smooth changes with a delightful rebirth. Much love, dear Chris ❤️

[@jennieeklov]

Dear Ana, left my home with my son and starting over in a new city. No relatives but I feel inner release from a situation i almost died during pandemic. Such a relief to have left now. To see you, feel empathic and compassion sent you way. Stay strong and make one day at the time. One minit at the time and sometimes one week. Staying present helps💓💓💓going outside the comfortzone is a inner gift that you transformation will adopt too. Much love💖💖

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for being so kind and understanding, Jenny 🌷 Much love to you!

[@p.enikő]

I have been following your journey from the beginning and the channel has really grown on me. I love the content you share, I deeply resonate with you and I travel a bit with you as well. I am rooting for both of you a lot. Big hug.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear Eniko ❤️

[@arrow1-b2v]

This video is really inspiring and comforting 💗🙏😎

[@coco85949]

Dear Ana❤thank you for your honest words🙏listening to you is so inspiring to me❤you have a special gift to find gentle words for feelings which are sometimes hard to express❤sending you love and appreciation❤

[@anagoldberg]

It's so kind of you to say this. Thank you 🤗🌷

[@dalenjurgens6751]

Thank you for your video. I enjoy learning about different perspectives and new ways of thinking about hard things.

[@sharonshmuel3386]

Hi Ana ❤ yes I can definitely relate to your feelings-it’s amazing how life turns upside down all of a sudden but we still survive as we have no choice but to move forward !!!!! Wishing you & Brian success & happiness ❤ Praying for Peace here & worldwide 🙏🙏

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear Sharon ❤️ Let it be peace everywhere as soon as possible

[@renatawawrzaszek5423]

Brilliant! Sei stupenda. Sei un raro esempio della persona che ha avuto grazia di essere capace di trasformare gli eventi della vita in qualcosa di bello e valido. È un piacere di sentirti. Un' amica come te è un dono. Grazie per quello che fai! Renata

[@cherylhuger8447]

Dear Ana, I am 65 and often find myself dwelling in the past. Thank you for your sweet and kind video. If cones as a reminder to me to live each day to the fullest, doing the best we can. Thank you dear friend.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for resonating, dear Cheryl ❤️ Sending love to you!

[@sinegugundlovu1984]

Ana, you have such a beautiful way of expressing yourself and your views on life. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your creative soul.

[@anagoldberg]

You're so kind, dear Sinegugu ❤️ Thank you!

[@rogercrettol7166]

Ah, precious woman, I really like your introspective posts.I have spent nearly all my adult live outside my french speaking native area, in a german speaking area of my swiss country. Not quite like your life experiences, but still, I think I have a feeling of not truly belonging to the place I'm lving in ... Well, it may originate in experiences of my childhood, or it may just be my character . Aynway, I tend to smile at foreigners, because - deep inside - I am one too.

[@anagoldberg]

My fellow forever-foreigner 😊 Thank you for sharing your story, dear Roger.

[@negarsoley]

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! that's all I can say for now

[@Maiden_Warrior_Crone]

Oh, Ana, I love this! I'm 52, a disabled pensioner, living between countries where I don't have citizenship (my boyfriend lives in one). I am a constant guest, even staying in hotels. Thank you so much for sharing your perspective and experience! Lots of love to you! ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Love back to you, my friend! ❤️

[@a.e5220]

thank you for sharing such beautiful thoughts. i was particularly struck by your passage about being a guest. I wish all of the people currently gentrifying my hometown would acknowledge their place as a guest. instead they abuse its resources and see it as a place to use and then leave when it's all used up

[@swoonyg.1987]

Thank you Ana!🙏 Even if I'm not living somewhere else as a foreigner, but I'm living in my own country ("against my own will", as I would describe it), I think that "living my life as a guest" would make it more bearable, at least for now. And it's probably a good advice for everyone wherever they might be to accept their circumstances. That will become my new motto. Take care.♥

[@kamidsjournee]

A guest-Ana, you always have an incredible way of stating life. I am a believer, and you eloquently described my life here on this earth. In my opinion, there is no better way to express my feelings about being a stranger in a strange land. ☺️

[@tammiepulley7167]

Thanks!

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you so much for your kind support, Tammie 🌷

[@maureencasey7500]

I understand the feeling of not being in your home. I was lucky to be able to come home! You will too, in time. ❤😊

[@Booboonancy]

This was an interesting talk which really resonates with me, especially about the difficulty of being a foreigner. I am 66 and have now been slow traveling with my husband since 2015. I have also not lived in my home country for 25 years now and feel that I cannot go back as it has changed so much. I basically feel homeless. I still enjoy traveling but I also feel exhausted from being on the move every few months and miss just being able to function in my own language. It’s a journey for sure.

[@margarettiedeken1805]

Your kindness, gentleness & wisdom always overwhelm me. You are a beautiful person & wish you the best of everything always. Much love from Texas.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, Margaret ❤️ Love back to Texas 🌸

[@beeheart6324]

Well done , you arrived at the starting point of a new phase or new life. I can relate to what you are saying. Starting over can happen to everyone suddenly and it is hard but it can be done. Things often change unexpectedly and when walk through it we learn through what we experience. I started over when I was 45 and had 3 children to look after. Then, some years later, I emigrated and started all over again. I was over 50 and still had family responsibilities. It was never easy but there was also an urge to find out how it can be done in the new situation or country. I am glad to see you smile when you talk about your story and that you now feel you can accept what is and enjoy life more. It's good you don't have anxiety any longer! Many Blessings for your path! ;-)

[@catherinewheatley1493]

Ana, your message resonated with me. You are amazingly resilient. Thank you for sharing.

[@kbrandt4015]

I'm in my eighties and I have contemplated recently that each decade of my life has been a death and rebirth. I am who I have never been before. I've never been in this decade before. It's new and I am new as I explore what my life means now. I've been long at the party and grateful for the time because I've seen and been so many things. If i could tell my younger self one thing only I would have nothing to say. I hope when it 's almost over I'll be able to say I was glad I came.

[@JP-nl4dp]

Interesting that the picture fell when it did. I feel you’ve found strength on your journey. With age comes calm because you know yourself better. Hugs❤

[@foroutdoorsouls8064]

Thank you Ana! Always great food for thought. Ps. Siberian nature looks so beautiful. Reminds me of home in Finland

[@CAT-Anne]

Made me think about those people that move to new locations. I hope you finding some friends helps with your home sickness. Hugs~

[@sandrabentley8111]

Thank you Ana for reminding me that the past no longer belongs to me. Perhaps I was a visitor there also. I do want to let go of the past and have it only as a memory, not as a living, breathing thing. Because I simply cannot change it. This moment is all that I have. Oh that I could really live in it! You always manage to bring out a piece of my life I'm trying to hide. Thank you for that. Facing our fears, naming them, is so satisfying. Once again Ana you have outdone yourself!

[@anagoldberg]

I'm wishing you all the best, dear Sandra! Letting go of the past is hard, and it's a very personal process that is different for everyone. Thank you for your kind presence here ❤️🤗

[@AccrochezVosAiguilles]

Dear Ana, I moved away from my birth country and lived in 2 different countries after that. I understand the feeling of being a guest. But still, I hope that at one point you'll no longer feel like a guest and you'll find a country where you feel at home, or at least something close to that. In my experience I found that creating a nest, knitting, sewing and crocheting were a way to create home inside my house. Focusing on my family is also very important, knowing that the place where we live might change, but we would stay together. Yes, we change. We keep some of the old, adopt some of the new, and that's essential. It never ends. I hope you'll have loads of good new experiences and ideas, and be happy.

[@anagoldberg]

I can relate a lot to building a nest wherever you are! I'm in love with homemaking and it's something that keeps me more grounded and happy each morning I open my eyes to a new day. Thank you for your kind sharing and inspiration, dear friend ❤️🤗

[@shirleymcmurtrie7853]

Thank you, Ana, for sharing your experiences and the wisdom you have gained in your journey. ❤

[@wolfc8755]

Thank you, Ana. I'm more than a couple decades older than you, but change never stops. And we never stop needing to be able to find a way to go forward and continue living as well as we can in spite of all the changes. It takes wisdom and courage and an open heart and willing mind to be able to let go of what WAS, and to find new comforts and beauty and pleasure in what IS. Because the only other real options are to waste all of our time fighting change and being unhappy, or to withdraw completely. You are brave and smart and capable and talented and have already dealt with SO many things in your life. So take strength from all that you have already gone through and managed. We each have, inside of us, everything we need. (p.s. the "rav" in "unravelling" rhymes with "have" ❤❤❤)

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your kindest words, my friend ❤️ And yes, I did have some troubles with "unraveling" 😅 Now I'll be more attentive!

[@YT247Now]

You express yourself so beautifully through the words and visuals of your storytelling. So much of what you talk about in this video resonates with me through my very different experiences and has provided me with a great pause for reflection this Monday morning. Thank you ❤

[@anagoldberg]

I'm so glad to read this! Thank you for being here and resonating, my friend ❤️

[@katrussell6819]

May prosperity come to you and your spouse in the near future.

[@LeniFinn]

Dearest Ana, thank you for such lovely video and for sharing your insights. You inspire me so much! You have a beautiful soul! 🌸💗

[@anagoldberg]

You're so kind! Thank you 🌸

[@micellecoetsee3483]

Thank you once again, Ana for your open and honest video, sharing your thoughts and life with us. You indeed have been through a lot of upheaval the last couple of years. Hats off to you for persevering and pushing through and forward time and time again. Thank you for sharing your insights and wisdom gained. It has great value for us across the globe where humanity finds itself in the midst of tumultuous times. You are precious.

[@anagoldberg]

You're so kind, Micelle 🌸 Thank you!

[@margarettownsley9500]

Wow Dear Ana you have spoken wisdom in it’s full Glory I can testify to your knowledge that every word is worth it’s weight in Diamonds thank you

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for being so kind, dear Margaret 🌷

[@soniaalam6278]

Ana I truly value your thoughts and thank you for sharing them. You’re right about it hard being a foreigner in a different country. I’m of Asian descent and have lived most of my life in the UK, integrated well (I think anyway) and straddled two cultures so that I don’t feel myself lose either aspect which makes me, me. But it’s tough, and navigating it through the lens of midlife, heavily pregnant with my second child and anticipating the rebirth of myself after my daughter arrives…..there’s so much to unpick and restitch together. It’ll be hard but wonderful to be able to experience it all. And interesting to see how our children of mixed heritage navigate their way through the ever-changing world. As always, wishing you and Brian the very best, Sonia x

[@anagoldberg]

You're inspiring, dear Sonia! I'm wishing all the best to you and your family 🌷 Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️

[@willowbei]

I am pleased to see how well you have weathered the ups and downs of being displaced from your home. Change is not always easy, and it almost always has some challenges that help us grow and understand ourselves a bit better. I have found that relaxing into change (as much as I can) is a pragmatic way to move through life. Learning to be more comfortable with myself and with change is allowing me to live a life that isn't as stressful as it once was. All the best to you and Brian. Peace.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for this insight, Willowbei, I resonate with it a lot ☘️

[@raggedblossom508]

I'm deeply touched by your description of missing Siberia. I've never been there but I sense that it is a place where life is lived deeply. And you've managed to carry that depth into your life in new places, and your heartfelt videos. Best wishes for the future to you and Bryan.❤

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your thoughtful, kind words, dear Rowanne ❤️ Sending love!

[@debj9680]

Beautiful video Ana as always. Thanks for sharing your vulnerable side. I believe you are a messenger sent to heal the world with your wisdom and beautiful soul. Your words resonated so much. Be safe and happy darling Ana X

[@anagoldberg]

You're so kind, Deb ❤️ Thank you!

[@Clauduh.art96]

I just can say that I love you, Ana. Thank you for these inspiring videos

[@anagoldberg]

You're so kind 🤗

[@NamidaDreams]

Спасибо, что поделились и продолжаете делиться своим опытом. Я слежу за вами уже много лет и всегда нахожусь под глубоким впечатлением от вашей простоты и искренности. Вы вдохновляете, спасибо!

[@anagoldberg]

Спасибо вам большое за такие добрые слова ❤️ Мне очень приятно, что вы продолжаете следить за моими видео!

[@NamidaDreams]

@@anagoldberg ❤️❤️❤️

[@loves2spin2]

I have not watched one of your videos for a while Ana. This was so nice. It is good to see you and hear your story. I know that everything is going to work out and be alright. Take care. God bless you.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your kindness, dear Yolanda ❤️

[@Instrukcija4]

This video really made my day and touched my soul. Your channel is the only one I continue to watch for many years - I really enjoy your life-journey and very frank, not over simplified outgivings. It seems to me that your insights are getting deeper and more insightful year by year. Good luck! Talking about myself... It's still hard for me to leave the past behind even though it's a necessity for me now. Suchlike videos give me a little bit of optimism, thank you for sharing. 🙂🙃

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for this thoughtful message, dear Jūratė 🌸 It's precious for me to know that my sharings are heard and resonated with.

[@SuperMomMac]

Hi Ana! You are such an inspiration to everyone! I admire your ambition and diligence! Have a great week!

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you so much, Marcia! you too ❤️

[@grady4757]

❤❤❤❤

[@pansyflowerboy]

This was very touching and it made me happy and sad to see the parts of your life in Siberia that you shared with us. I'm one of the many who have been with you since before you left your home country. This may sound silly but there is a song from the cartoon Adventure Time that goes: "Time is an illusion that helps things make sense So we are always living in the present tense It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends But you and I will always be back then. You and I will always be back then. Will happen Happening Happened There we are again and again Cause you and I will always be back then." ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Lanen, thank you for citing this song, it made me smile and brought some joyful lightness to my heart 🌷

[@helenamoraes9049]

Ana, you’re amazing, thank you for sharing about your life and thoughts with us ❤️

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear Helena 🌷

[@rochelled7785]

Very well said. Thank you

[@Betty-JoD]

I always look forward to your videos! I hope you have a great week!

[@martinafreyjakartelo1852]

I love your calm energy and can relate to your story as living in a country which had war and also living as nomad and immigrant as neurodivergent creative. And this theme should be talked about more in mature and calm way....midlife "crises"....good video, again:)!

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, Martina 🌸I agree that we need a calmer approach to some challenging topics.

[@nancyb.9759]

Thankyou!!!!

[@annea7526]

Thank you Ana.. Beautiful and Inspiring.

[@jeanettekays1954]

You are amazing.

[@SimpleHealth83]

😊😊 thank you for sharing your life experiences with us

[@mammaditobia]

You're wondering 'how' this channel works?? Because of YOU and your beautiful, shining soul that reaches us and conquers our hearts ❤ Speaking about midlife... I recently turned 50th and I'm really scared. Time to reflect deeply about life and death. Thankyou for your thoughts ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dearest Chiara ❤️ And these reflections at midlife can be scary, but liberating too!

[@mammaditobia]

@@anagoldberg I completely agree! I need to embrace the change!

[@etta0840]

My heart goes out to you Anna!❤ My husband and I had to make decision not to travel back to our country of birth again as it is so costly to do and it is not a safe place anymore. We have been in our adopted country for 27 years now and still feel like visitors. And we feel só sad about it all.

[@anagoldberg]

I'm so sorry you can't visit your country, Etta... But I understand you so well. Sending love ❤️

[@dannysmith2794]

Thank you Ana....

[@sassycat1825]

Thank you so much for this video. Topic comes at a moment I needed it the most. I am saving it for when I need to hear this again in the future. Still trying to heal myself from everything that you talk about, still unsuccessful and down. But one day, when this madness is all over, are you planning going back home, to Siberia? 😊 Do you get any news about your kitty? 🐈‍⬛

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for resonating, my friend 🌸Of course I want to visit Siberia again, with Brian. My cat Ulysses is doing well! He's well taken care of and loved. Can't wait to hug his furry self again...

[@summerrain7466]

You have certainly proved to be more resilient than you ever believed you could be, my friend! In growing we learn many lessons, about life and about ourselves. From one survivor to another, never give over control of your finances. I don't believe it is your anxieties that make you not trust in this area, it is lessons well learned. Anyone who cares about you should support that decision, even if it were only to make you feel more secure. Anyone who would not give over control of their own finances should understand.

[@anagoldberg]

I will get more control over my finances once I'm allowed to open a bank account with my Russian passport without the immense stress and humiliation, or once I get a new citizenship 😊This is the reality of my current position.

[@ooousuario]

I really hope ypur channel grows so you can have a stronger safety net✨

[@anagoldberg]

Спасибо большое за добрые слова ❤️

[@itsLindsayJean]

I love your channel and insights so much. You help me feel peaceful and grounded. ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, Lindsay ❤️

[@m.f.richardson1602]

Interesting Thank you❤🇺🇲

[@classifiedinformation6353]

Ana, in your video I noticed what looked like you were selling your art. Is this true? It would be a great way to satisfy two important things with one effort; Benefiting yourself through a creative activity AND making money. This has been a satisfying way of life for me. John in Bethel, Missouri. USA

[@anagoldberg]

Hi John, that footage was from last year when I took part in an illustration bazaar in Belgrade. It was fun, but not that profitable 😊

[@411sergey]

nhank to sharing with...

[@DaSiAnZi5359]

Can you put a link in to the Brene Brown unravelling article? Thanks Ana❤

[@anagoldberg]

It's in the description section to the video, but in case you can't find it: brenebrown.com/articles/2018/05/24/the-midlife-unraveling/

[@Magdalene777]

Have you considered researching less expensive countries like maybe in Asia or South America? I'm not sure about travel permits but some countries might be less expensive to stay in.

[@anagoldberg]

Georgia is enough inexpensive for us while we work on a longer-term plan. But thank you!

[@mariojane8188]

Thise earrings rock 🤘 so super cool. Yeah !! I live in Texas, I’m a jew from Venezuela and wherever I go I feel super weird, like a I do not belong. I click a lot with lots of your perspectives you express on your channel. Love it. I wanna send you the best vibes 🎉 Cheers! You are amazing!

[@mariojane8188]

My dad was a foreigner from north Africa and I had to leave, repeating the same as he did. I’m an artist and I feel what you say. Thank you SO much! ❤❤

[@anagoldberg]

Aww, thank you! I'm gladly accepting the vibes 😊🌸