Miracle Baby After Failed Abortion

[@sandrasmith5577]

There are so many women who have kept abortions a secret. Thank you for sharing you experiences with abortion. It takes alot of courage to come forward and speak about it.

[@liwmld]

this is a sad and shocking video, but i am glad she had her son and did not go for a fourth abortion.

[@kristindowner3351]

Thank you so much for your vulnerability in sharing your life story. At 17, single, and silly, I opted to keep my baby. Tomorrow that amazing husband, firefighter, EMT, contractor, artist, and father of four turns 42 years old... Seldom do we stop to consider the mere human potential housed within a womb; let alone God’s gift of LIFE. Two years ago my husband of forty years and I were priveleged to walk with a young mother through the incredible journey of adoption. Life is a privelege when viewed from any angle. Children ARE a blessing, regardless of conception circumstances. Their love softens our hearts, if only we will allow ourselves to be changed by it...

[@tellmethetruth7950]

People are encouraged to be selfish, that's why so much recreational sex, or sec out of wedlock occurs these days and pregnancies. I want to be sexuality satisfied without any responsibility because... me me me. It's all about me. How dare someone else invade my me bubble, interrupt my plans fir My life Is very sad but this is so surprise that had come with the selfishness of the sexual revolution. I got pregnant at 19 out of wedlock but God blessed me with 6 beautiful children today. They changed my life. Children are beautiful and they teach us to be unselfish

[@sueschirling5721]

I chose abortion. To this day that is my number one regret. May God have mercy on my soul.

[@be7402]

God forgives

[@josephoso]

Sue Schirling idk why, but when I see this comment, all I can do is smile. Because I feel like God will really forgive you, you sound like you do repent.

[@paulakelly6457]

Sue Schirling : you are not alone in your suffering

[@loravipperman3061]

Me too. It was almost 12 years ago and I still grieve. 😔

[@josephoso]

Paula Kelly most of them don’t suffer, they do it out of spite for the responsibilities, unfortunately, most do not feel sorry afterward, and given the chance again, would make the same mistake.

[@fettslave]

Wow. So many people in the comments are missing the point she is making so very much. God bless this woman. I couldn't imagine having to live with this guilt. I'm glad she found a way to use her past to change a woman's future and possibly prevent her from killing her child.

[@undoubtingthomas3980]

It's always hard to determine a person's intent or perspective. Her using phrases like "unwanted pregnancy" appears to tell she does not see it as a sin or her part in it. I applaud her for not killing her child that was overlooked once she found out what had happened. Praise the Lord she saw that child as a person, not "a bag of cells" as many call an unborn child. I pray she has or will repent and ask forgiveness for her sins and be born again in Christ Jesus.

[@brandyrupert6341]

From my understanding, she was told she was miscarrying, so she had the DNC, which is what one would do BUT, its INSANE that an ultrasound wasnt done first. Id imagine the baby that survived was definitely traumatized by the dnc. This is very sad. I dont see this lady as at fault, this time.

[@franciehartsog1347]

Jill Last o

[@franciehartsog1347]

Jill Last I see my role as a Christian is to love her for doing The right thing and telling her story. Those who throw rocks best get the twig out of their own eye.

[@littledff]

Jill Last seriously? Guilt? She murdered three babies!!!! Fuck her guilt.

[@LW-ej6id]

Thank you for sharing your story. My husband and I got pregnant with our surprise 8 months ago. We have a nearly 18 month old son who we had to try to conceive for 3 years, so this was truly unexpected (we took precautions not to get pregnant again so quickly). I have had mixed feelings about this pregnancy. I have never had an abortion but I can see why misguided, uninformed women might choose that if the pregnancy is unintended. My next little blessing is almost here and I still feel a bit overwhelmed by the thought of 2 under 2. Your testimony really helped, though. God doesn't make mistakes and if I can just see beyond the next few years... Yes, the next couple years might be trying but this little life will be amazing to witness as he grows. It truly already has been.

[@madisonerickson9289]

Those first 3 years are absolutely wonderful. They go by so fast! Love and enjoy them. My last two were a little over a year apart and at times it will be chaotic and stressful. Just strive to be patient and present with every moment, good and otherwise. Those will be the best gifts you can give to you and your kids!

[@LydiaJohnson]

I love that Mom. So glad she found the truth. I didn't make my choice, I was only 16 and my Mom arranged the abortion and I delivered a baby that was dead. I wanted to put it in my pocket and run, but it was too late to save my baby. I carried that guilt many years until I finally was able to give it to the Lord. After all, I have 6 kids living today by birth and adoption and I love them all dearly.

[@judycoulter4556]

this makes me feel sick to my stomach. I feel so sorry for her son.

[@Georgia-d3o]

Abortion claims many victims. After a mother aborts her child she too ‘dies’. We should all be sick to our stomachs with how abortion is contextualised today. It is advocated as being a basic human right & somehow tied in with being being a function of a healthy democracy. As a society we are all sick and we only have ourselves to blame. As tragic as this story is it also demonstrates God’s great mercy. Hope in the face of great despair, let’s not lose sight of that very important message.

[@sarahlandreth1748]

How do people like this look into their child's eyes and say u were meant to be a twin but I tried to abort you not realising their was two?!

[@leewhy6238]

Sarah Manister I wish she had never told him! I am a product of a botched home abortion and my mother told me when I was 19 because “she” wanted forgiveness. Things like this need to be taken to the grave with you!

[@yary29]

The same way God looks to us event though we are all sinners

[@JamesBrown-vd8uz]

Simply because of the power, grace, and forgivness...the LOVE of Jesus Christ!

[@KS-se9jb]

Women like her have been lied to and brain washed about what they are really aborting. They are told it is not a baby yet. They are lied to about if they feel pain, if they have a heart beat, brain function, arms, legs, fingers and toes... they do not know what they are really doing. She didn't have any clue until she had an ultrasound what she had really done. This is one of the good ones who came to truth. Now she is trying to help other people with her story.

[@marieb.1810]

Those other two babies that were aborted? They wanted to come back again, so this time they came back as twins, and so sadly she aborted one. This is so sad. She could have had two twin boys or a twin boy and girl.

[@danidooley33]

When she said pieces of a child inside me made me shudder them poor babys

[@angelblue7779]

Actually, what was "meant to be" was twins! The Lord forgives and you should not be judged, but let us admit to what we choose to do and take responsibility .

[@ambereyedbabygirl]

Yes. Thank you.

[@davidwheeler9216]

As a man I tell my sons to be chaste. Don't ever make the women walk the walk of shame. Be courageous, be pure, wait on the Lord. I want my children to live the truth in love and to understand that chastity is not frigidity, it's proper affection. The real choice is freely chosing your spouse on your wedding day and knowing you love her so much you want to replicate her in your children. To see her eyes and her smile in them. I'm not some perfect man and I was raised in that generation where lust and stupidity came together. The message was, don't get married and don't have children. What a lie. And how stupid I was to believe it until I met my wife. A women of grace and courage. After our first child they would always try and scare us. "Your chiild has an 80% chance of having a genetic defect, do you want genetic counseling?" My wife would say to the doctor, "for what?" and then, this wonderful women, my wife said, " It doesn't matter, this child is a gift that God gave to us and God gives us the best."

[@MaryQueenoftheWorld]

Thank you.

[@heavenonthehorizon777]

Thank you for sharing your story. I also had an abortion at the age of 16 and regretted it immediately. I was ill informed by the women in my life. I had 2 children and then had my tubes tied after a divorce as to not have to face an unwanted pregnancy. Now both are adults and great parents themselves. I named my aborted baby, Willow, I do not know if it was a male or female. Willow because of the "weeping" willow and Willow for a girl and Will for a boy. I have struggled with emotions from that decision for many years. I am 49 years old now. I am also a follower of Christ. I am a grand mom of 4 little ones. I pray we as a nation support our women in having their babies with love, compassion and financial assistance. NO..I do NOT mean paying for a woman to have 4/5 babies with 4/5 baby daddy's...JS I BELIEVE WE SHOULD SUPPORT NO SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE, OLD SCHOOL WAYS, BIBLICAL WAYS of LIVING..problem solved...

[@sheilamalone3453]

Praise God for your first-hand experience that will help some people I'm sure make the decision not to have an abortion. Praise God I learned I was pregnant with my daughter 27 years ago at a Planned Parenthood and the person that I spoke with was not pressuring me to have an abortion. As a matter of fact she scooted right past my first two options, one being an abortion and the second option putting my baby put up for adoption. She watched my face for reaction, and when she got to health care and keeping the baby she could see that that was the choice that I wanted to make, she knew just by my face. That's what we went on to discuss, and that's what happened. I can promise everyone that there will never be a time that you look back and regret having a baby, but I can promise you if you have an abortion, you will look back and regret having an abortion.

[@Canadiangrammarpolice]

I’m glad I never had an abortion. I couldn’t live with myself.

[@noyes1973]

Strawberry Cat ok fucking “strawberry cat”

[@Canadiangrammarpolice]

b e O I see I’m not allowed to be against it? I am glad. If I didn’t want my child I would have chosen adoption.

[@lexibrandi3355]

Strawberry Cat doesn’t sound too easy to carry a baby for 9 months & delivery the baby, just to give them up. I wouldn’t have been able to give my son away after giving birth to him. That shit was painful and would have been for nothing

[@amyzamora9502]

@@Canadiangrammarpolice wth does YOU adopting have to do with YOU not believing in abortion? The stupidity is amazing!

[@aliyamoon80]

Until you are facing that choice, you can't say a damned thing. I was against abortion until my best friend had one. She was carrying a fetus with grave medical conditions that shouldn't have let it survive in utero. She had to abort during the week of Christmas, and had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't reach her for months. Later, she had two more healthy babies. I would never scorn her for aborting. It was the only choice she felt she had. She never wanted to abort. That experience was humbling. I had fertility problems. My pregnancies weren't easy, and I worried a great deal. What I didn't know was how hard my pregnancies were on my mother. She nearly died delivering me. She was terrified that I would die in delivery. I pray that you are NEVER in that situation.

[@mnmi2248]

Cynthia, You shared so much in such a short time. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Roman is truly your precious gift and your work now is a blessing.

[@The1967ssf]

This is so sad. I just pictured that poor baby swimming so fast to get away from anything it preceived was going of him too. Bless you for keeping him. I know it had to be hard not knowing if damage had been done to him as well. God has forgiven you.

[@Ocean40197]

S F123456 or the baby was glad it had so much more space to swim in after the d&c.....it's all about perspective. ..

[@marieb.1810]

This makes sense about the baby/fetus swimming around so fast , becuz it was scared it was going to be aborted too. Like when it felt the sonogram it probably thought it was going to be aborted and kept swimming to get away. That's amazingly sad and so profound.

[@clairericheda8017]

How do you know God would forgive?

[@reddnewmillennium]

Mannnn wow

[@smileandhope3381]

Claire Richeda Jesus dies for our sins

[@TBH13579]

I'm only 14 but I would never get an abortion (I'm also smart enough to not have sex, only when I am in like my 20s). My aunt is a teenage mother, she may have been terrible choices in the past and now, but she kept her son. My father had a daughter (who I hate with my entire being. She refuses to see my father and after so many tries to be there for her, he gave up) when he was a teen. Then my parents started just fucking then while she was pregnant with me, they got together. She did have a miscarriage before me, and four after. One of my brother's would of had a twin, she miscarriaged it. She would of had 11 kids.

[@cretians]

Would you kill a child? If you wouldn’t (and hopefully not) you should not kill a little innocent life, a heartbeat is a heartbeat.

[@Prancer-jr6qr]

Praise God! This woman is so sweet I’m so happy her son survived.

[@dovie127]

Thank you for this beautiful testimony of God’s love and forgiveness for our human ignorance and mistakes. God bless you and your family.

[@carolperry1434]

Hi I don't know why half of my message was deleted! I went back on fertility drugs and conceived twins! I lost Oneof the twins. Later on when I was 43 I got pregnant without Fertility Drugs! I lost that one to! But I did end up with a beautiful Baby Girl! I am so glad You kept this beautiful gift that Our Lord & Savior gave You! I am also very happy that You build a relationship with Our Lord & Savior! Along with keeping this beautiful gift from Our Lord! I am sure HE has forgiven You and is using Your story to get the message to other women! God Bless You!

[@christianstuff1278]

God is truly awsome! What this woman did was evil but god still loves and forgives this woman. And the child was saved praise God! And it is so sad how Christians in this comment section are wishing judgment upon this woman! Didn't god not say to love thy neighbor? Didn't god not say to love your enemies and forgive those who hate you? Didn't god not say that he is love? If you love good but hate thy neighbor then you are a lier! Remember brothers and sisters we are supposed to hate the sin NOT the sinner

[@megalopolis2015]

Amen, CS.

[@susanrimmington5067]

Let those without sin, cast the first stone, nobody knows what it would be like for them, until they are in this ladies shoes xx

[@elizabethhouser822]

I know what she means about acting out. I had an abortion as a young woman, not a believer, just no real thought about it I wasn't with the father, he never even knew. Someone had told me it wasn't a baby until you were 3 months along. After that I went through a period of acting out drinking, pot and promiscuity. I learned later that is common and really your body and soul are fighting your mind, the body wants a baby and your soul is sick. I didnt get it until I became a Christian 10 years later was married and was trying to conceive I was in the shower one morning and was just overwhelmed with grief. I sobbed and was in absolute agonyGod was gracious and I got pregnant right after that. My eldest son was born 3 weeks early on a Christmas Day. I have always felt that was a Christmas gift from God and proof of His grace and forgiveness.

[@carolmeasel5205]

Your story is one that young people should hear. The grief has to get out before you can be whole. Praise God you are free and you were blessed with a miracle

[@ladylwhite3309]

Thank You for sharing your story.

[@kathryngilmour3559]

That must have taken tremendous courage for this lady to share her story !!!! I pray her story saves many from they heartbreak of REGRET a regret that will haunt you all of your days!! And save the lives of so many innocent little souls who never got the chance to live .👼👼👼👼👼

[@Encourager-Purpose-Destiny]

Thank You for sharing your story. God is pro-life. God is love. God is a forgiving God. Abortion is not an unforgivable sin. I am a Christian. I personally believe abortion is legalized pre-meditated murder. God never said not to abort babies. He said thou shall not murder. Abortion is legalized pre-meditated murder. Abortion is not self-care or birth control, it is murder. God is the giver of life and only God should be able to decide when life ends. You have to realize these clinics make money killing babies. Abortion is an expensive form of “birth control” that keeps their doors (abortion clinics) open. But I find it very hypocritical when someone who is against animal cruelty yet promotes pro-choice at the same time.

[@strangetimes5724]

Her honesty is staggeringly brave

[@gabriellsbaby]

I am guessing there wasn't a whole lot of honesty in that story.

[@strangetimes5724]

@@gabriellsbaby Only a very injured soul would be able to hear this and not feel compassion and love for such a miracle. You need to consider your soul and eternal existence. Life DOES have meaning and it is a gift. And this place we are in now, is just the tip of the iceberg. Soften your heart and feel the love that exists. We ALL have things for which we need forgiveness. ACCEPT IT as you forgive others. Life is supposed to be so much more than we let it be. Life is BEAUTIFUL if we let it be.

[@strangetimes5724]

@Donald J. Trump Hey, I just subscribed. Post something please? The world needs more of thoughts like yours.

[@gabriellsbaby]

@@strangetimes5724 I am not an "injured sou"l thank you. Your religious views are yours, the rest of the world may not follow the same guru. I find it ignorant that anyone would follow any teachings that are exclusionary, it seems rather "unchristian" in my opinion. I am medically trained, worked 10 years in Labor and delivery and for an obstetrician. I don't think she needs forgiveness unless that is what she wants and needs to get closure. She was simply young and making some bad choices, maybe undeducated. She had three abortions, no judgment. My personal opinion is that she needed birth control more than she needed a bible. No baby is swimming so fast they can not get an image. I am glad she had an epiphany and she feels that her faith had something to do with that, if it is important for her personal healing, but in telling this story she is obviously still in denial. It was no ones fault she was getting pregnant but her own and the partners she was having unprotected sex with. In this story she blames her second abortion on her first (listen again). She is trying to resolve guilt by making herself "chosen" that is not forgiveness that is shifting responsibility. No doctor at any clinic tells a woman, "meh you are having some bleeding anyway lets go into the other room and knock this abortion out" Not the way it works. If Ultrasound was available (and it sounds like it was) it would have been utilized to determine not only the gestational age but to see if there was any other issues, fibroids, tumors, etc. This is a story meant to frighten women and prove that "God" had a hand in all of this, when really it was an incomplete D&C mixed with a little magical thinking. No problem with magical thinking until you start to believe that your Deity has made you "special" and now you go on to work in a clinic that tries to shame girls into keeping pregnancies instead of offering on birth control and education on how to prevent unwanted pregnancy. These clinics are staffed with fundamentalist church going women with a bible, some dollar store pregnancy tests and determination. I find it offensive that they are not medically trained and are not degreed therapists or social workers. Having a testimony does not make you skilled clinician (no matter what title you give yourself) it doesn't make you qualified to give medical or mental health advice and it can lead to damage intended or not. I do not believe that showing a woman a 5 week old sac and heartbeat in an attempt to guilt them out of a procedure is kind. Again I am not injured I am human.

[@nikki6784]

@@gabriellsbaby well said...thank you...

[@loriolson1143]

No excuse to do this multiple times

[@joanmcgee4145]

Y

[@SwaggaNeal]

Linda Muniz doesn’t make it any less fucked up

[@smileandhope3381]

There’s never an excuse to do many sins I don’t think we should judge her she’s sharing her story to help prevent abortions

[@persephona668]

Yes. It's always the woman's body and you shouldn't judge her. I repeat, it's her body.

[@persephona668]

Hehehe are you saying those things about me? Imagine me stating my opinion on a political topic that is massively backed up by science and you calling me horrible, horrible things. You sound like the Nazi here with your facist ‘The Bible should control the laws’. How old are you? 5? Get a grip.

[@priscillajones7046]

I wish there was a way to connect young women dealing with unintended pregnancies to the older women who waited too long or just can't conceive, because I have to believe that there are many of us who would financially support a young lady through her pregnancy and arrange to legally adopt the baby. Private adoptions are one of the only ways to be able to adopt in a reasonable timeframe. Many women like me would do anything to have the gift of motherhood, but the adoption and foster systems are stacked against us. There really are not any babies or even young children available for adoption in my area in the U.S. If anyone reading this knows of a resource that connects adoptive parents to pregnant women and girls, please let me know. So far, my attempts to navigate this have been futile.

[@anamunguiacoach7676]

In 2020, I learned of a girl who wanted to abort. Her friend (whom I helped to go ahead with her pregnancy) told me. She was decided to take the abortion pill. I told her I was going to pray. Long story short- she gave birth to 2 babies- a girl and a boy!! So thankful she didn’t end one of the pregnancies! They are growing and well! Very cute! She was already a mother of 1 boy! 🤷🏻‍♀️ Congrats for Roman! He saved your life! And blessed it immensely ❤️ love your story. I am writing my unplanned baby’s story too. 🎉

[@chikkachica162]

Wow!! I’m glad she shared her story because I have never heard anything like this! At least she is brave to tell her story! I’m against abortion n I think it’s terrible what she did but she’s brave for telling this !

[@vanessaramos354]

I had an abortion at 20 weeks & I just wanna say is I miss my baby girl so so much. But that I know she's in heaven with Jesus and that I'll meet her & be with my daughter real soon. I love you angel baby.

[@mercuryxyz7222]

Get a priest to give her spiritual baptism

[@henrymudd5235]

lol why do you think you'll go there?

[@urstrulii5932]

Im sure that decision was so hard on you. Make every moment count for your baby girl. Currently going through this.....

[@llamalady8700]

Only way to get to heaven is through Jesus and repentance.

[@bedeshahines9287]

thank you for sharing your story. it takes guts to call yourself a christian and admit to so many abortions, i believe that you probably were confused and unaware of what was occuring. i am grateful you woke up when they told you of the remaining baby. God forgives you. I am glad that you are using your pain for the good.

[@kidcitylynnwood6324]

As an athiest, it shocks me to see so many Christian's judging. I am very anti abortion.

[@josephoso]

KidCity Lynnwood you don’t realize, but I think you’ll understand. I’ll tell you as a christian, god has a plan for every baby, no matter how many cells it has. We Christians know that when you kill the baby, even if it can’t feel pain, you’ve ruined that child’s chance of life. Even as an atheist, you still have to admit it’s fuckin pathetic to take away someone’s life for your mistake

[@kidcitylynnwood6324]

Yes, I agree and I don't understand how you keep getting pregnant when you don't want to.

[@T2WAdviser]

@@josephoso I hope you realise that every sin is destable to God. She has not committed the unpardonable sin & God does not despise a broken & contrite heart. He & Him alone reserves the right to pronounce judgement or mercy. Please, before you hurl stones at another; you do well to work out your own salvation with fear & trembling. Grace & blessings to you.

[@undoubtingthomas3980]

KidCity Lynnwood, I was an atheist for 17 years but have repented and put my faith in Christ Jesus. I too did not like abortion as an atheist. However, I had (and you have) no authority to base that judgement. Although I never understood this at the time, but atheists have no moral authority. If we are a random blob of cells in a random explosion, we have no moral high ground to judge anything as right or wrong. It just is. Think about this for a moment. Regarding Christians judging others, there is a bit of confusion in the translation of scripture. A judge has the authority to condemn and punish. Using scripture to show another their evil ways is not a means of judgement in the Biblical sense. When Jesus intervened when an adulterer woman was in front of a crowd, they weren't only berating the woman of her sins, they were readying themselves to carry out her death sentence by stoning her. Jesus reminded them of their sins to stop them. We are commanded as followers of Christ to discern. Discernment sometimes means holding another accountable. That doesn't mean we are sentencing anyone. Only Jesus will be taking that ultimate role on judgement day. We should be wary of hypocrisy, though. Atheism is a belief system based on rejecting God. Whether you admit it or not, there is only one Truth and our Father has given us the most amazing gift of all… Grace. Jesus died with the burden of our sins on the cross, was buried and rose from the grave on the 3rd day. I denied this for much of my life and pretended atheism and Scientism held all the answers. I was so wrong. I spent 8 years seeking the truth, when I was given the opportunity. It ultimately led me to the one Truth, that is, our Lord Jesus Christ. I don't expect you to understand or accept this on face value. Blind faith in anything is ignorant, whether in believing there is no God or He exists. Investigate and let the evidence show you the way. Only then can you have real trust in your beliefs. Cheers.

[@kidcitylynnwood6324]

@@undoubtingthomas3980 I understand how you feel, but we all know right from wrong. I don't need a god to tell me.

[@amywest7041]

Yes, look back in regret. No one should think God wanted babies murdered in sin JUST so the mother can be a minister to crisis pregnancy young women later. God won’t waste sin if we want to help others avoid the same sin later, but sin is never part of God’s plan to use Christians later. People like to justify their divorce or child murder or drug addiction etc by saying it was all part of God’s plan...basically blaming God for their sin. The 2nd sin of humanity was blaming God. He is a redeemer, not a sin planner.

[@jennyanderson4796]

this womam could of ended her own life over her sin. She accepted Gods mercy & maybe it didnt come out exactly worded right but she had to carry on & give thx for her son that was spared. 5yrs ago ❤

[@rosemarykriegel3226]

I am so thankful to have baby sat babies and small children younger than myself when I was only 8 years old. I have valued LIFE for all of my days. Babies need adults to speak up for them since they have no voice and are powerless to defend themselves. Even in the womb this little boy knew his twin was no longer there and his own life was in jeopardy. That's why he was moving around so fast that they could not get a proper scan.

[@rolaine733]

Guys in the comments are evil. You don't know how God was dealing with her heart. It started at the age of 15 so that spirit kept with her for a long time. I don't agree with abortions but the Lord judges this women's heart. The Father had a plan, thank you for sharing your story.

[@GameChanger597]

My thoughts exactly! He used her bad decisions and hurt and pain to help others and he also healed her completely in the process. I also thought that there was a demonic spirit on her from the impressionable age of 15. She definitely had a demonic spirit influencing her, there's no doubt about that. But God had the victory over her life and her son's life too.

[@sandyvanperson3401]

GOD WOULD NEVER TELL HER TO ABORT HIS GIFT/ BLESSING/ CHILD! PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!

[@GameChanger597]

@@sandyvanperson3401 No one said that. We all agree God would never support abortion. I said He used her bad decision- as in, to teach her the truth about how He sees abortion and also to show others that abortion hurts everyone involved and to avoid it bc it's not God's will. I'm sure many women on the brink of abortion heard her testimony and chose life bc God's Word is powerful. He can take what was meant for bad and use it for good just like He did in this situation. No one uttered a word about God supporting abortion so I'm not sure where you're getting that from.

[@kathleenpollock9057]

What a wonderful testimony! Kathy Loyal member for Abanon - Abortions Anonymous Spokane, WA Don't know why for sure I really needed this tonight Thanks again for your story 🤗

[@wife97]

My dear late husband used to tell me, "Nobody's going to kill my kids." I could only agree, "Not as long as I'm their mother." Glad this lady finally chose life!

[@lauraanderson7358]

have you taken "the pill" ? if so, you probably have had an abortion.

[@rebeccasingleton4688]

Your story is incredible. God has forgiven you so please ignore these hateful comments on here. not one person has the right to judge you. God Bless you and Roman always💖

[@cathyreece9914]

Thanks for sharing! Your story may save many. So glad you have Roman!❤❤❤

[@terriruss3708]

Wow! God is the ultimate loving and merciful ONE......the Good Shepherd who comes to gather the lost sheep in his arms to lead it beside green pastures and still waters to give it repose, if we would but let Him!

[@incahenry1]

She still killed one twin.

[@amac2813]

If only more women realized that sex leads to pregnancy.

[@JennSGibbs]

People love to heap guilt and condemnation on other people.... Probably because they are perfect and sinless! Thanks for sharing!

[@rolaine733]

This made me cry Lord.

[@KimF1]

Many supposed "Christians" think they can do whatever, then get "forgiven by the blood of the Lord"... As an Agnostic who believes abortion is murder - I think you will have some severe Karma to deal with after you exit this earth plain...

[@brendaann727]

Kim F- If they are supposed & claiming that would definitely be a thing to question. Someone who deliberately does wrong who calls themselves a follower of Christ will be held accountable for only pretending to be. God can see through that....... Glad you speak out for the babies.

[@jamib1853]

You are so right. Fornication is a sin, and will not be excused. According to the bible those that deliberately continue in such a sin sooner or later their is no more cleansing from it. It is simply stomping on the blood of Christ that covers such sin. God is a righteous God, and christians should quit ignoring that.

[@Lana.N.7]

There's no karma in christianity, but there is grace.

[@elizabethhansen2889]

When I got to the abortion clinic, there was no one there to tell me otherwise. It was largely coerced. After it was over I then had someone come up to me but it was too late. I know Jesus forgives me. I know my child forgives me. I cannot forgive myself.

[@1557tina]

abortion is NOT birth control!!!! God will pay you all for your sins, too many people in the world would love tp give the babies a loving home.

[@speteydog2260]

Yes she acts like she was a hero for letting the second child who survived the abortion live.

[@karonxls]

I am happy that you turned your (D&E)'s into victories. (D&E)'Dilation and evacuation is the term for an abortion. Dilation and curettage (D&C) is a procedure to remove tissue from inside your uterus. Doctors perform dilation and curettage to diagnose and treat certain uterine conditions - such as heavy bleeding - or to clear the uterine lining after a miscarriage or abortion.

[@zolau7702]

That's why there will ALWAYS be abortions ^ the Doctors will just call it a D&C. ... (They've been doing it for years since the 50's ) probably before...

[@psychedelicpython]

Back in the early 1980s when I would go in for my regular exam (like women do) I remember the doctors would tell me that if I ever got pregnant they'd be happy to do a D&C on me. Apparently this happened with other friends of mine when they'd go in for their regular exams. We were teenagers back then. None of us were there for any sexual nature problems but D&C's seemed to be pushed by ob/gyn's. We didn't have the internet to look this information up on and we didn't know what a D&C was. I never asked because I didn't plan on getting pregnant. I completely forgot about this until I watched this video and I'm really angry the ob doctors were pushing abortions back then. They called it D&C's and never D&E's.

[@LW-ej6id]

@@psychedelicpython Same procedure, different name. They call it a D&C when it is an unintended thing now...like with a missed miscarriage. Even now, they seem rather eager to suggest this. I had unwanted bleeding with my son and it was suggested I might need a D&C. I didn't end up needing that...he is a healthy 18 mo. They, generally, do ultrasounds now to confirm this but I could see this as a go-to procedure back then.

[@lynbourasaa9477]

It shocks me how regret comes after a mind so set, So sure, not willing to listen to anyone .....followed by many decades of regret, grief and aching for the child lost. Grieving lasts many decades, a lifetime, for a child’s life lost.

[@laschell59]

wow, I ask myself where do I fit in life at my age. After watching you video It was heart felt. I might understand where my path will go. Thank you for sharing you life. God bless you and your babies.

[@maileeyang3065]

DYI-n-SAVE-FROM A-Z ....wow what a powerful story...thank you for sharing! ❤

[@Murtle777]

Wow - so much courage. You did not have to make this video, given your past. . ., but you did. Do not listen to others. Trust me, we ALL SIN - none of us ever stop sinning. Those people that judge you for your past do not understand the GRACE OF JESUS CHRIST. You are trying to encourage other women, and so many do not understand what the HOLY SPIRIT is trying to do through your testimony. It is so easy to judge others. . . the Pharisees did it daily. They could not see even see their Messiah in Christ. I thank you for your courage. You did not have to make this video. I myself have a severely disabled child. I struggle daily, because of her struggles, but I know who I am in Christ. I am a saint, Know your identity in Christ. I think you do or you would not have made this video. I love you, sister, God - the Almighty loves you, and His Son loves you. And you are right, "God's got this". Also, I can tell by your testimony that the Holy Spirit lives inside of you, so you don't need me to remind you of your identity in Christ, but I will, because I need it daily: I am alive with Christ (Ephesians 2:5). I am free from the law of sin and death (Romans 8:2). I am far from oppression, and will not live in fear (Isaiah 54:14). I am born of God, and the evil one does not touch me (1 John 5:18). I am holy and without blame before Him in love (Ephesians 1:4; 1 Peter 1:16). I have the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16; Philippians 2:5). I have the peace of God that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). The Spirit of God, who is greater than the enemy in the world, lives in me (1 John 4:4). I have received abundant grace and the gift of righteousness and reign in life through Jesus Christ (Romans 5:17). I have received the Spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Jesus, the eyes of my heart enlightened, so that I know the hope of having life in Christ (Ephesians 1:17-18). I have received the power of the Holy Spirit and He can do miraculous things through me.I have authority and power over the enemy in this world (Mark 16:17-18; Luke 10:17-19). I am renewed in the knowledge of God and no longer want to live in my old ways or nature before I accepted Christ (Colossians 3:9-10). I am merciful, I do not judge others, and I forgive quickly. As I do this by God’s grace, He blesses my life (Luke 6:36-38). God supplies all of my needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19). In all circumstances I live by faith in God and extinguish all the flaming darts (attacks) of the enemy (Ephesians 6:16). I can do whatever I need to do in life through Christ Jesus who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13). I am chosen by God who called me out of the darkness of sin and into the light and life of Christ so I can proclaim the excellence and greatness of who He is (1 Peter 2:9). I am born again-spiritually transformed, renewed and set apart for God’s purpose-through the living and everlasting word of God (1 Peter 1:23). I am God’s workmanship, created in Christ to do good works that He has prepared for me to do (Ephesians 2:10). I am a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). In Christ, I am dead to sin-my relationship to it is broken-and alive to God-living in unbroken fellowship with Him (Romans 6:11). The light of God’s truth has shone in my heart and given me knowledge of salvation through Christ (2 Corinthians 4:6). As I hear God’s Word, I do what it says and I am blessed in my actions (James 1:22, 25). I am a joint-heir with Christ (Romans 8:17). I am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me (Romans 8:37). I overcome the enemy of my soul by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony (Revelation 12:11). I have everything I need to live a godly life and am equipped to live in His divine nature (2 Peter 1:3-4). I am an ambassador for Christ (2 Corinthians 5:20). I am part of a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a purchased people (1 Peter 2:9). I am the righteousness of God-I have right standing with Him-in Jesus Christ (2 Corinthians 5:21). My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit; I belong to Him (1 Corinthians 6:19). I am the head and not the tail, and I only go up and not down in life as I trust and obey God (Deuteronomy 28:13). I am the light of the world (Matthew 5:14). I am chosen by God, forgiven and justified through Christ. I have a compassionate heart, kindness, humility, meekness and patience (Romans 8:33; Colossians 3:12). I am redeemed-forgiven of all my sins and made clean-through the blood of Christ (Ephesians 1:7). I have been rescued from the domain and the power of darkness and brought into God’s kingdom (Colossians 1:13). I am redeemed from the curse of sin, sickness, and poverty (Deuteronomy 28:15-68; Galatians 3:13). My life is rooted in my faith in Christ and I overflow with thanksgiving for all He has done for me (Colossians 2:7). I am called to live a holy life by the grace of God and to declare His praise in the world (Psalm 66:8; 2 Timothy 1:9). I am healed and whole in Jesus (Isaiah 53:5; 1 Peter 2:24). I am saved by God’s grace, raised up with Christ and seated with Him in heavenly places (Ephesians 2:5-6; Colossians 2:12). I am greatly loved by God (John 3:16; Ephesians 2:4; Colossians 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4). I am strengthened with all power according to His glorious might (Colossians 1:11). I humbly submit myself to God, and the devil flees from me because I resist him in the Name of Jesus (James 4:7). I press on each day to fulfill God’s plan for my life because I live to please Him (Philippians 3:14). I am not ruled by fear because the Holy Spirit lives in me and gives me His power, love and self-control (2 Timothy 1:7). Christ lives in me, and I live by faith in Him and His love for me (Galatians 2:20). Again, know who you are in Christ. I applaud you for sharing this story. God bless you.

[@stephaniedinaso4259]

Thank you for posting this!! You are kind.GOD BLESS

[@super66craig]

That's a bit long to read but it's encouraging to be reminded under constant oppression of what the Bible says to be true for us.

[@mariekiraly100]

A friend of mine had THREE abortions, that I knew of. This was many years ago. She never says she regrets it. She has no children and she's married (my guess is they couldn't) because she wanted kids 'someday'. She's on FB and very liberal and she posted, one time, that she had 'only' one abortion and doesn't regret it.

[@gabriellsbaby]

What does it matter, who is keeping track and why are you?

[@nightelfuser]

Your friend is mentally ill, and it's better that she'll end up childless.

[@reanamarsh]

​​@@gabriellsbabybecause those babies lives mattered each and every one. My body my choice crap is disgusting

[@MelindaSchaefbauerGrahl-oz5qk]

Thank you for sharing your story and your children’s story.

[@janicehales2958]

I hope for her sake that god does forgive her, but I don't see how he could. 3 times, really?

[@shelleymatyasz9120]

Jan Hales I agree with u when she said going for 4th abortion, and I was thinking u know how sex works by now, and using a condom is so much safer, just in case! 😢😢 Thank God Roman lived! 😊😊

[@cbell3922]

Well, you are not God. Thank goodness because your words are wrong. You have no right to condemn this woman for her poor choices and wrong doings. That is the lords job not yours!!!

[@lisabeam4354]

There is no such thing as a human God passing judgment. That is a crock. Some of us just live and others dont. Sad but true.

[@angelbowman4275]

This made me so sad for the children that were murdered.

[@beeteacups5125]

*zygotes *fetuses

[@rluc3634]

Babys w nerve endings .yes a life from second of conception. Bible says it Fetus is a living being

[@chericaponetto449]

Sorry. I tried to watch this with compassion but her saying "I loved the Lord but having sex without marriage and kept getting pregnant. " The selfishness is unbelievable. If you are having sex without marriage and saying you were growing in the Lord but thinking about a 3rd abortion? No, you do NOT love the Lord. The twin survived. She killed the other. So she loved the Lord but killed a baby.

[@denisejones7780]

What they don't tell you at the abortion clinic are the chances of carrying a full term baby go down with each abortion. Sometimes you can't get pregnant. My first daughter came at 32 weeks, my water broke, could happen to anyone, she had problems yet has been a healthy child and mother to two children of her own. Her sister was born at 29 weeks, due to early labor, even after 3 days of trying to stop my labor, due to my placenta tearing I had to deliver her. They never can tell you why you can't carry full term. I was just thankful that at 16 I thought I was pregnant and would have had a abortion without even thinking about it, then I would have forever blamed myself for my preemies. Each pregnancy is a gift, no guarantee promise.. Giving the gift of life to your baby is the best thing you can do, even if you can't keep them, they will know their mother loved them enough to give birth.

[@benniedavison7582]

Wow! What an awesome testimony that God will use to change lives. 😊

[@MrShimekelo]

God bless her for sharing, so many Christian woman have done this and arent aa brave as her to admit her sin to help us. Bless u honey

[@alishafantroy3330]

Thank you so much for sharing your story that took guts God bless you.

[@trenicejohnson15]

My OBGYN would've never done a D&C if I was only "probably" miscarrying.

[@psychedelicpython]

I commented above how the ob/gyn wasn't a good doctor. She wasn't certain if the woman was miscarrying nor did she know (or tell if she knew) that the woman had twins. The doctor didn't have her come back to do a follow up, the woman didn't feel right and went back on her own. Such an incompetent doctor.

[@LW-ej6id]

I was told by a doctor I might need a D&C when I had bleeding with my son. Instead, I tried progesterone. He is a healthy 17 month old (nearly 18 months). Progesterone didn't affect him in the way in which they worry it will...he is very masculine & already likes girls (lol). I had to take a smaller dosage of progesterone than what is usually given in such instances because it gave me seemingly dangerous heart palpitations so maybe that is why it did not have this affect on him. Only writing this comment so other women with similar issues might try it.

[@56beverley]

What a silly cow! What did she expect if she slept around without using birth control? Oh dear I am pregnant - again. How did that happen?

[@speteydog2260]

Right 😑👍🏻

[@lauraanderson7358]

if you have taken "the pill" you more than likely have had an abortion. "the pill" causes chemical abortion. inconvenient truth.

[@persephona668]

You shouldn't judge her. It's her Goddamn body. Not yours. You are disgusting for judging her.

[@cld-lol]

Persephona Use a condom you can literally get them at a gas station

[@persephona668]

AxisSpongeySnipez What if I got raped whilst walking home from school? Then what? Why don’t all guys just use condoms or - better yet - not rape women?

[@EricHarris2309]

Thank you for this. I am 49 years old with my tubes tied. I was assaulted by a family member many times, but this time I got pregnant. The doctors say I will never carry to term. But God says it’s going to be healthy triplets. God also said he doesn’t need any help to give me a miracle. God said sex is not what causes babies. God said sex would only result in a stillbirth if He didn’t give it a soul. God told me every animal and plant and human child that ever germinated or gestated on this planet is divinely given a soul and a spirit. Thank you for your beautiful story.

[@colleengibson4934]

I get what you are trying to say BUT...how do you live with yourself? You killed your sons twin. I was born prematurely with a surprise twin. My beloved sister died after 16 days because her organs didn't develop. I have Cerebral Palsy. My twin is missed dearly but a least my mother didn't kill her. I bet that was one tough conversation with your son. At 29 you really should have known better. What a disturbing story.

[@jamib1853]

I am so glad this woman has found God and peace about her situation, however, I too am a bit concerned about her denial. I was on heroin, and hard drugs, when I found out that I was pregnant. A million things sweep through your mind, but you would have to be in a coma to not be able to understand your condition, and search inwardly about what your going to do about it, especially after you have already had one abortion and are now 19.

[@luannebarlet-sloan8069]

That’s the point. She is well aware that she killed her son’s twin. And trust me, it isn’t easy to live with yourself after an abortion. I’m 63. I was 17 when I was pushed into the abortion by good meaning parents. I think about it all the time. Maybe not every day, but several times each month. And it’s a pain in my heart that never goes away. Never.

[@jeaninepetty4923]

She is quite aware of this. She doesn't have the power to go back and change the past.

[@cbell3922]

So she should kill herself for her poor choices? She should go about life feeling nothing but sorrow and depression. What a nice church girl you are. She isn’t right for what she did, and she already has to live with that choice she made. She doesn’t need to walk around living like she is already dead. If god forgives her one day, that is all that matters! Who are you to judge anyone? Your twisted.

[@jeaninepetty4923]

@@cbell3922 Hi. I totally responded to the wrong video. My bad. I thought this was a video I had just watched with a woman with a million kids and on welfare and wanting more kids. I have nothing but empathy for *this* woman, I don't judge, I had an abortion myself. Sorry about the misunderstanding!

[@Julie-Anne-Auckland]

A beautiful story of redemption.

[@alexmcgraw9382]

I’m pro choice but I would never get an abortion... let alone 3... I don’t think it’s a form of birth control at all.

[@alexmcgraw9382]

@Mary McCune not everybody believes in god so that’s not the only reason why people are pro life.

[@psychedelicpython]

The ob/gyn didn't know she was pregnant with twins....or if she did she didn't tell her. On top of that it sounds like the ob/gyn speculated the woman could be miscarrying but didn't actually know. She doesn't sound like a good doctor. Roman is a true blessing and a beautiful gift.

[@lisabrowner]

Hallelujah for Roman’s life!!

[@EcclesiastesLiker-py5ts]

Every life is precious, it's a tragedy every time a person is killed, and thus includes babies.

[@clairericheda8017]

I don’t know how she can live with herself. Once as a child you may possibly understand but not at 19 or 29, in my opinion. I was married and pregnant at 19, but with or without a husband I would have had that child. Eight years later I had a second planned pregnancy of twins but one of my babies died naturally in the womb. I would have done anything to change that. After four healthy babies but four miscarriages I am grateful. I could never gave an abortion as I’ve had loss. The sad thing is that initial bleeding was probably normal, it was probably the babies embedding. How sad that Roman will never know his twin, I wounded if he feels loss or a part missing? He may well protect his mother from this. It is my personal opinion if God does exist that I do not think he would support aborting a baby, especially not a healthy one with no risk to life.

[@gaylapruett4990]

Glad you let him live GOD BLESS YOU THAT'S BETWEEN YOU AND GOD

[@heathertaylor7260]

Just because God gives us a choice doesn't mean that is something He wants you to choice. God also wants us to seek His will for our lives and choices. Please choose your choices carefully and don't make a mistake like this. It will haunt you.

[@maura1686]

Heather Abortion is not a choice given by God, it is a devil's tool.

[@56beverley]

So you believe in sexism, racism, and homophobia? I just hope you don't want to progress in a male church in a male society who judges us woman as inferior?

[@kissesdelight27]

Not to be mean but condoms and not wanting to keep going through thus is a start to maybe not having to abort.Think first.Sex reaction later.

[@joebrown479]

My mom survived an abortion and her twin was aborted. Eventually she and my dad adopted my brother and me, even though they could have biological kids of their own. I’m now 51 and have three adult kids of my own.

[@kim7879]

these comments make me sick.

[@aliyamoon80]

Lots of sick as fuck zealots out there.

[@koolycat4643]

@@aliyamoon80 This is evil that we are fighting against. The fact that you hate the goodness of those that trying to fight for the innocent tells everyone you love darkness more than light. May God have mercy on your soul.

[@harmonybridge2740]

So how is it that if you kill a pregnant woman your charge with 2 murders, but yet if the woman decide to abort its OK? It's more wicked when the woman decides to abort because they are murdering there own flesh and blood. Beautiful story thanks for sharing. May God continue to bless you and your son. He is here for something great God saved him for a purpose. Love the part where you said he was swimming so fast to saved his life 😄

[@Chynab22]

Because it’s not their right to go killing pregnant women or ppl period it’s the woman’s body and her choice at the end of the day whether she wants to keep the baby or not

[@gloriaw1379]

I was pro choice until I really looked deep into what is actually done to the baby. It is absolutely heart crushing. I can not judge those that have made that choice. That is between that person & god. I was very fortunate to have been blessed with 3 beautiful children & when I knew I could not afford to care for anymore children I got a tubal.

[@gabriellsbaby]

In most abortions they are done very early. I think pro life folks like to push the narrative that abortions are viable babies severed, crushed, and poisoned. Not saying that doesn't happen sometimes, somewhere. I am not pro abortion but I am pro choice, that is every woman heart wrenching decision to make for herself.

[@aliyamoon80]

@@gabriellsbaby No one is pro abortion.

[@zaharaazure73]

In some situations sterilization is the best option not multiple abortions.

[@l9878]

What a wonderful story. His grace in enough.

[@bobbiegosden1418]

I wrote a book, "My Abortion My Regret," on Amazon. I turned my mess into a message. I hope to save millions of babies. Please share . 🙏

[@christinegreen3567]

how sad for your son to have lost his brother

[@DMR_2023]

She choose have unprotected sex. Should of accepted consequences. I didnt choose be raped an didnt kill.

[@aliyamoon80]

I'm glad that her story ended the way she wished it to end. I will never judge a woman for aborting a pregnancy. I will never judge a woman who carries a pregnancy to term. Every woman has her reasons. No one should tell a woman what to do when she finds herself pregnant. Her decisions are always right. I support that.

[@Србомбоница86]

Fuck off ,women have no right to kill babies just because they are in our wombs

[@elizabethshepherd7630]

This needs to be shown everywhere! God Bless her!

[@15-37tn]

Too many hateful comments in this section. If you are throwing stones go back and read the gospels and remember that the only people Christ ever yelled at were the self righteous religious people who thought they had no sin. God bless this brave daughter of the King who is doing more through her courageous story telling to fight abortion then most of us will ever have the opportunity to do.

[@juliataylorbryan149]

I get the point and am sick by her story! How must that son feel about her killing his sibling, grama of twins.

[@LaDrayia04]

Hi Julia, it's true that her story is upsetting to many. Sin is a horrible thing, it literally separates us from God. This is what sin looks like, you know what else it looks like? Lying, cheating, gossiping, not loving your neighbor more than yourself etc. God loves us more than we can ever truly know. Lamentations 3:23 says "Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning." Her son may not feel any ill feelings towards his mother, but in turn, feel great compassion for her, and grateful to be a living testament to how great God is! This beautiful woman could have continued to abort her babies, but she eventually did see the error of her ways. And how amazing it is that because of her own personal tragedies, she's now able to help counsel and encourage others who find themselves in the same situations. That's God, that's beauty, that's redemption! 💕😄 May you and your twin grandbabies be forever blessed and covered by the Lord. 🙏🏽💓

[@tinahoward407]

People are going to say what mean things their little pea brains can think of but this was an amazing video. Thanks for sharing!❤️

[@collegeboy362]

This woman's life is so sad. The subject of abortion affected the course of my life dramatically. I was madly in love with the most "wonderful" girl when I was younger. I thought at the time that I would marry her, and we would have children like everyone else. After several months, I was shocked when she told me she had an abortion a few years before she met me. She said she was not sorry at all. She said her father would have removed her from his will if he knew she was pregnant. My whole image of her changed after that. I couldn't accept that my "wonderful little innocent girlfriend" was so heartless when it came to a child's life. She laughed and joked about abortion when she hung out with her girlfriends. I couldn't handle her attitude, and we eventually broke up. I was devastated. I was crazy about her, but our views on abortion were very different. I met someone else several years later (a Catholic who vehemently was against abortion) and have been happily married ever since. We have a son. Thank you Lord!

[@Turquoise4eva]

She killed the 1st one not being cautious and got pregnant a 2nd time. She killed the 2nd one not being cautious and got pregnant a 3rd time. She then killed the 3rd one. Why didn't she just get a hysterectomy?

[@TerriKnoll]

so glad all the comemnters are foster parents!

[@susangrottke750]

Terri Knoll or maybe we are parents that didn’t kill our children

[@sarahfleming810]

Y did u kill your babies ? They r plenty of people who want kids & can't have babies

[@bonnierainwater650]

I'm sure she has had pain....Praise be she is a person with a testament

[@jessicaarrington2928]

THIS IS THE PROBLEM. Abortion should not be a choice. It's murder. I cry for those babies thrown away.

[@Vgp-rp4iu]

It's really sad that he could have had a twin brother but instead was aborted smh. 1 abortion is terrible but this woman had 3? And all we're out of stupidity and not being careful. Glad she has to carry that with her for the rest of her life. She will have to answer to that one day.

[@Moving_Forward247]

wow thank you for sharing. You will help a lot of people. May the Lord bless you and yes may the Lord help all women with unintended pregnancies to Trust Him and not choose abortion. He will sustain you and redeem your past mistakes if You follow Him and Trust Him

[@dpiroch]

An abortion provider is never going to tell you what you're carrying or even show you an ultrasound or what you carried unless required by law because the chances are you would keep the child. Thank GOD you still had a son!!!!

[@abc5456]

„Growing in my faith, loving the Lord, but still sexually active outside of marriage” - Cynthia just read these your words one more time and try to comprehend where is the illusion in it. However I am happy that you are different person now.