My 7-year battle with panic attacks and why I've been gone

[@DylanODonnell]

Sounds hard man. I hope you find something that can help, whether that’s astro, or drugs, or astro on drugs.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thanks Dylan 🔭

[@C1sc0M4n]

Drugs and space, man...I like it! Antoine, I wish you the best brother

[@ChucksAstrophotography]

It's good to see you again, Antoine! Take care.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Chuck ❤️🔭

[@lukomatico]

Hey Antoine, man this was an impactful watch. I just want to say that I personally know what you're talking about, not with panic attacks, but depression and anxiety has been present in my life since 2007. I know the feeling of dread when it's bad, the pit of your stomach churning, dead weight feeling, and also just the day to day challenges it poses in life. It's hard! Respect for talking about this man. I also really empathize with what you hint at with Astronomy being a major help, I too get that so much. If you ever want to talk to a 'stranger' about it, man, just reach out! I'm here for you my friend :-) All the best, Luke

[@dumpydalekobservatory]

I never realised mate as you come across very confident in your videos Luke, wishing you well & take care :-)

[@lukomatico]

@@dumpydalekobservatory Thanks very much indeed for your well wishes mate, I am so much better now than I was back then! :-)

[@GalacticHunter]

Thanks man. Yes it really sucks. I'm putting all my focus on making a video about depression/anxiety and how astrophotography helps. In case you'd like to throw in a quick note on video explaining how astro helped you, email it to me and I'll be happy to link your channel in the video :)

[@lukomatico]

@@GalacticHunter Hey Antoine! - That's very kind of you, I think you have a really positive idea in making that video so I'd only be too happy to try and offer some input if it may help! All the best, Luke

[@SimonsAstro]

@@GalacticHunter Wishing you well Antoine, I hope that your love for astrophotography continues to help! And Luke, you come across so well and confident in all your videos, you do really well mate! All the best Simon

[@philrogers893]

You’re not alone. Very brave of you to share that part of your life. Let the process take as long as it takes. We’ll be here when you’re ready.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Phil, time helps for sure!

[@brucetracyphotography9879]

Hang in there ... I'm praying for you. I remember spending nights on the floor in the fetal position just trying to remember how to breathe. That was almost 30 years ago, so there is hope that you can put these in your rear view mirror. On another note, you have been an inspiration for me as I started in this hobby. Thank you for that.

[@gnashermedia]

I feel that Antoine. I had my first panic Attack when I had my burn out and my blood pressure went through the roof (250/140). I thought I would die. Since then I have panic attacks. I have them everywhere... At home, office, while driving even when chilling on a beach on vacation. Stay strong. There will be good times and bad times. But please don't stress about KZbin. We keep watching. Get well and keep the balance . Have a great time.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thanks a lot. Yes they are horrible, and like you said there are good and bad times. ❤️

[@paulmaybon4621]

I admire your courage to speak openly about what you are going through. Take care of yourself!

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you!

[@Tommyr]

Ant I know exactly what you're talking about. I've had a number of them over the years. Especially in the past 3 1/2 years. I'm now 63 years old and the past 3 years I've had one medical issue after another. The past issue was last year at the end of August when my left lung collapsed while I was just sitting here reading a book! Spent a week in the hospital, they shove a chest tube into you like it's a meat thermometer. Then I got operated on. A year before that I had to have my gall bladder out. Both times I freaked the fuck out. Hang in there buddy, I hope you get all the help you need ASAP. You're a good guy it seems to me, Take care of yourself FIRST AND FOREMOST. We'll all still be here.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Tommy. That sounds like a nightmare. Must have been really difficult to deal with these medical issues both physically and mentally.

[@brianfulda]

Proud of you for having the courage to make this video, Antoine. Mental health comes first above everything in life so take as long as you need. The stars will always be there. Wishing you the best.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Brian, and you are right, stars will always be there 🌌

[@ricklaird2218]

Sharing and normalizing mental illness is super helpful to everyone. My depression is better when I talk about it. Thank you so much.

[@dancingwaters1164]

I am so sorry for your struggle. You are very brave to make this video. Know you are not alone. I admire your skill with astrophotograghy, and I admire your strength in being able to talk about your struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. Two years ago, on September 1st of 2019, my son was hit by a car and killed instantly. I couldn't breath for 6 or 7 months. My chest hurt, my head hurt, my heart was broken and my soul was crushed. I've only one friend that I can talk to about what I was feeling. Time does not heal. It helps. I hope you know there are a lot of us out here that support you and your wife on youtube. But we also support you in your day to day life. Take care of yourselves. Know we care about more than just your videos.

[@GalacticHunter]

I'm so sorry to hear about your son, I understand how difficult it is to deal with this, as the exact same thing happened with my dad's brother. Thank you so much for taking the time to type these kind words to me ❤️

[@stacisrainbownursery7825]

I am so sorry for your loss ❤️🙏🏻 such a terrible loss

[@celestromel]

My poor wife suffered panic attacks following a serious car accident. I know what you are trying to explain. Truly frightening. Medication and electro-ablation of her sphlacnic nerve have been very helpful. Best wishes for resolving your problems.

[@ahkminlessr6777]

I have had panic attacks for 20 years. And I completely feel the absolute same way. EVERYTHING you said I have all the time. But we always get through it. I always have some things that are very simpe to do so that i can try to get my mind off it (puzzles, music, etc). But you're not alone!

[@ramesVR]

J'ai commencé à avoir mes attaques de paniques il y a 5 ans. Jamais été malheureux avant, toujours heureux, jamais dépressifs, jamais peur. Après 4 ans sans JAMAIS sortir de chez moi sauf pour consulter (et quelle horreur de devoir sortir, des heures debout devant une porte à se poser la question : Est-ce que je vais y arriver ?), je recommence enfin à avoir quelque chose qui ressemble à une vie. Pas de contact social, grosse difficulté à se rendre dans certains lieux, dès qu'une sensation de blocage arrive, c'est l'horreur, mais ça revient petit à petit. Un seul mot pour ça : Thérapie. Bref, bon courage. Les attaques de paniques ont changé ma vie du jour au lendemain et c'est toujours un plaisir de suivre cette chaine. Total soutien sur ce sujet ! Stay strong ! (Et vive l'astronomie :))

[@GalacticHunter]

Merci beaucoup ! Oui c'est effectivement l'horreur. Je n'ai pas encore trouvé de bonne thérapie mais je vais essayer bientôt je pense. Bonne chance à toi !

[@Astrobloke]

Its very brave of you to talk openly about this Antione and I hope you find a path to calmness

[@ojinerd]

Take all your time to heal Antoine. We’ll be waiting for you and your beautiful photos. Hoping for both mental and spiritual healing. You and Dahlia take care always 👍✨

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Clark.

[@astropot179]

This video is not depressing. It is honest and brave. You are such a sympathetic guy. I wish you a speedy recovery with all my heart. Meditation is a powerful tool if you really stay with it.

[@larryhibbitts2099]

Thank you for sharing. There is absolutely nothing wrong with sharing this. You have a community here who supports you, and is always willing to listen. Take the time you need for healing - we'll still be here when you get back!

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much!

[@simonmoore4939]

I have experienced what you have. It's not a life sentence. Thanks for sharing and all the best.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Simon and good luck ❤️

[@chevriersastrophotography1084]

Antoine, mental illness is becoming or already is number 1 issue everywhere. Some are treatable and some or not. I have family members who suffer panic attacks and have mental illness and it kills me to see them going through it and helpless on trying to make them feel better. I have depression but it is controllable at the moment. I have suffered a panic attack or two in the past, but that was from overwhelming stress. It is so important for everyone to address these issues because when they build up and when you don't get help...well...Houston, We got a problem. The one thing I found that helps is to watch TV or KZbin videos that make you laugh hard, because laughter releases dopamine which is a natural stress reliever. I use astrophotography as another stress reliever, except for those nights where you get shitty shots. :). Take care of yourself and find your way back.

[@keeplookingup911]

I had panic attack when we had Earthquake..... Breathlessly, numb, frozen & clueless with fear....thats what happens in Panic attack...😔 well can't explain the feeling in words... it's bad. Take care Antoine. God bless you.

[@GalacticHunter]

Sorry to hear and thank you ❤️

[@BigScope]

I have chronic gastritis that is caused by stress. I stress about literally everything in life, I stress about school the most. I vomit every single day at least 1 or 2 times in the morning and it really is a crappy life, but hey here I am I am still alive. Astrophotography is what makes me want to live.

[@GalacticHunter]

Sorry to hear :/ Astrophotography is also what keeps my head above the water, I hope you will feel better over time!

[@Sebastian-zf9ok]

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Sebastien! I'm thankful for my wife as well

[@humbugnh]

The communities we join are all different ways to explore being human. And there is no way to separate the astronomy part of that condition from all the others. So please don't ever be reluctant to share the different ways those parts of us connect. Knowing your favorite activity helps the more negative parts of being who we are is something we should all hear and take to heart. Thanks for all the joy your videos have brought me and others and look forward to all that's to come!

[@constellationshots3893]

Thank you so much for you honesty, I know how hard it is to talk about this and even harder when you talk about your own personal experience. I personally have also suffered from panic attacks, they are extremely hard to deal with, going through one is like you said, absolute hell. Astrophotography and wildlife photography has really helped me because it is an amazing way for my mind to focus/relax on something different and your videos have really helped me fall deeper in love. So please take as much time you need for yourself, we all care about you and dalia, I really wish you well. Again thank you so much for all you two have done.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much for all these kind words. I wish you the very best as well.

[@eyesoftexasskywatch]

Take care of yourself Antoine. Keep enjoying those open dark sky spaces, good medicine for you!

[@elospace]

I must admit that I didn't want to watch your video at first, because I didn't want to face your truth...like a reflection of mine. I experienced a panic attack only once but I have to face depression on a daily basis and most of the time for no reason. Anxiety is a part of me and I'm living with it. I can totally relate to your story. Thanks for sharing Antoine, it was an important step for you, you should be proud of yourself. J'aurais pu écrire en Français aussi, je suis nouille 😆

[@jinx0192]

My brother-in-law gets panic attacks. Not fun! I didn't know what they were until he got them. I wish you the best! Take care.

[@michaelgrimes3564]

Hey Antoine, Anxiety and Panic Attacks is nothing to shake our heads at....They are Real, and they exist....You are brave for confronting it, and also brave for sharing it...All the more power to you and Mad Respect for you... Astrophotography and Astronomy saved me from Depression, Drugs and Alcoholism....Been Sober 14 years now...We all have had our struggles, and we will continue to do so...That is just Life..... Do not feel you are letting us down, You are empowering us and bringing to light what effects many more than you think......That is a great way to help and affect change and awareness and how we can all help each other..... We are all here for you and Dalia.... We have followed your Journey, and like all Journeys it racked with ups and downs. It's never Easy. We are not going anywhere....You need to take your time. Get yourself back into a " Good " Place.... Do it... even if it takes longer than you think or want, take care of yourself First..... This Channel is Awesome... You and Dalia built this... and its Wonderful. It shows what truly is Good and Positive in your lives, Not The Astrophotography, but The Love you show for each other and the passion for what you love in life.....Lean into each other.....Be Proud of your Work, Be Proud of What your Doing, and Be Proud of your Courage to face your obstacles. We will be here...Waiting for the Next video....Do not rush it, Take it at your own pace.... My Better half and I Pray for you.....even if your not a believer, Just know we believe in you..... May you find your Peace and Tranquility Antoine.....Were here For You...Clear Skies are Ahead.....Count on it!.....Take Care Pal.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Michael for these kind words. 🙏

[@gregswank4912]

Antoine, it takes a lot to talk about it with others. I suffer from anxiety which really makes it hard to start new opportunities. I also meditate, but not often enough. I admire your courage to put yourself on camera and share your journey with us. It was watching your video about the 8” astrograph that inspired me to finally buy one and start my own astrophotography adventure. I dream of making photography a full time career, but sometimes I procrastinate processing my images because I’m afraid I won’t do it right. I finally got around to processing my Pleiades data from last fall and I’m really happy with it. Now I need to get over the next hurdle and start sharing my work online. You are an amazing person and I want to thank you for encouraging us to take that step into a new world.

[@djohnd]

Brother it is so hard to explain this to someone who has never had one. No matter how many panic attacks I’ve had and no matter what I say to myself like I’m ok I still think I’m dying every time. My chest tightens up and no matter how hard I breathe I’m still short of breath. My sense of noise heightens and colours almost intensify in my vision. It has been years and sometimes they are worse for unknown reasons but like you said they come back at times. I think it helps knowing others know my experience and can relate. I hope you get better bro 🙏🏼 God bless mate

[@StarlancerAstro]

I've been there man, was in hospital with Afib, and talk about panic. Astronomy helps me with my attacks, spending time alone with the sky calms me.

[@GalacticHunter]

That's awesome to hear (the part about astro) I'm glad it helps you as well!

[@andyrogerson3813]

Talking about mental health has such a taboo image. Thankyou for sharing your struggles, it adds s much to the story of Galactic Hunter. I hope Dalia is ok too. I can empathise with her role.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Andy. Dalia thankfully does not suffer from panic attacks but sadly she is no stranger to phases of depression.

[@WorthlessContractor]

Panic attacks are no joke. I thought I was having a heart attack. My wife took me to the emergency room I spent 3 days in the hospital. I knew I was going to due that day. I have had 4 of these in my life. It is the scariest feeling in the world. I think astrophotography has helped a bunch due to the calming. It can still get me when in large groups. I have to tell myself that I an not in danger and everything is OK and I have to say it out loud to get through it. Good luck and stay safe healing is a tough road.

[@Getitright23]

Panic attacks absolutely suck, it feels like your dying, literally. I’ve had them off and on for 20+ years so I feel for ya and what you’ve been going through.

[@GalacticHunter]

Yes they are terrible, sorry to hear you've had them for so long 😞

[@tommvf]

Thank you for your trust and honesty

[@GalacticHunter]

❤️

[@zambination11]

I feel you man.Same here for 15 years. Dont worry. Suggestions (i'm not a doctor): When PA starts ,Try, deep breathing - hold your breath for 10 seconds - exhale 10 seconds. After that move your eyes left right at a semi rapid "rhythm" for 15 seconds. Do this 2x or 3x times. You can also try do some pushups! Avoid coffee, alcohol and smoking. Avoid or totally cut toxic people from your life. Be less polite to assholes. Check if you have gastroesophageal reflux. Take some BJJ classes. Cut the fucking xanax and bullshit! Remember you are always the hunter not the prey!!!

[@aerialdronemaster7483]

I know what you are talking about, this is a horrible feeling , unable to control , you are doing great !!!

[@ingvar1996]

You are awesome man! You will overcome these fears, they are always temporarely. Talking about them is the best thing you can do. Much respect to you for being so transparent👏💪

[@benjiwhittle]

Sometimes life sucks so bad. Thanks for sharing and take care.

[@astroantonio007]

Take care and be resilience. You'll cope with it. Be patience. You're not in a hurry. You've got people around you who loves you. Keep on it...

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you!

[@ahmedfalih473]

Man I am watching this with tears!! you just describe the exact same situation I have. Had my first panic attack in Spain in 2014 and what you just said touched every part of me. Read a book called "DARE" it might be helpful. And NO, you are not alone! Stay strong we will get better!

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Ahmed! I actually finishing reading DARE last month, such an awesome book!

[@StevenBarnes-MrRat]

You're not alone. I couldn't even watch the video of that tunnel. I have to fast forward through stuff like that. 😵‍💫 Take your time coming back. Mediation is a great way to learn to relax. I often have to do it when my ASD gets triggered.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thanks Steven. Yes it was very hard for me to add / rewatch that tunnel video lol. Terrible memory. I do hope meditation will help in the long run.

[@joslin96]

Hi Antoine. I recently started struggling with panic attacks. Looking back I think I’ve struggle with anxiety and depression for at least 25+ years. I just lived with it as well. I recently started taking a medication and it’s helped with the panic attacks but not depression. For the most part I have isolated since the pandemic started and don’t like any social events. Photography is very isolating but you’re lucky you have someone who shares the same interest as you. I have been told to look into meditation by several people but never thought I could calm my mind enough. Also as I write this I’m sick with COVID. Glad I saw your video, maybe I will look into meditation too. Nothing wrong with getting this out there. Mental health is more talked about now. Im sure sharing this wasn’t easy. I started deep space photography but haven’t been able to get through PixInsight enough to process anything. Hopefully soon. I live in a great place for it. Thanks for the videos. Best of luck. I will be looking forward for follow up videos.

[@janschubert7098]

I didn't watch your video at the end because I can imagine what the result is. and i have no idea why people have such problems. But believe me, if I could, I would book the next flight to you, just to help you with a hug! Stay strong!

[@thecampingastronomer8554]

Hi Antoine, sorry to hear about your problems. I had a similar issue many years ago which started with a random panic attack a couple of days before I was going to go to Everest Base Camp. I felt like my heart was going to explode. I managed to do the trip, thinking I would regret it for the rest if my life if I didn't go. However, I suffered from panic attacks for the next couple of years. Eventually I stumbled upon a book called "Self Help for Your Nerves" by Claire Weekes. This book covered all of the symptoms of panic attacks and explained the reason your body was tricking you into thinking you were dying. It then went through what you needed to do to start working through the symptoms and eventually ignoring them. I can say that I read the book from cover to cover on the day I bought it and immediately felt reassured. I reread it many times over the next few months, and within a year I had got rid of the problem. Although I am going back some 30 years now, I see the book is still available both in print and electronically. Good Luck in the future.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much, I heard about this book many times, I think it is time for me to read it!

[@Dwayne_Green]

Sounds rough! As some encouragement, between you two, astrobackyard, and astrobiscuit... You all inspired me to purchase my own 'real' astrophotography equipment, and I've been seeing some serious progress in my own images! Thank you!

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Dwayne and awesome to hear your astro journey is succesful so far!

[@martynh5410]

Hi Antoine. Thanks for sharing your painful experience and letting people know the details. I’m sure that will help others who have experienced panic attacks. We are all hoping for the best and that you can completely overcome this terrible thing. Please take care and do whatever you need to do to heal. Stay away from scary places like Chernobyl! “Bonne Chance” !

[@henri-julienchartrand3387]

Hang in there Antoine.. thinking of you.. you have contribute so much to the world of amateur astronomy. Hope you will continue with us at your pace. Avec respect et déférence cher Antoine.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much!

[@ronbaldwin6382]

Hey, Antoine. Sounds like a tough way to go. Keep on working through it, but don't let it define you... Instead, you can define its role in helping you to become the man you have always wanted to be for yourself, for Dalia, and for astrophotography. Merry Christmas to you and Dalia, and make it an awesome New Year!

[@naninan2890]

Doug' ! Clairement, je m'identifie à ce que tu dis à 100%, la peur de la peur, l'appréhension d'être dans une nouvelle situation et d'avoir à combattre ça, la peur d'être bloqué, de ne pas pouvoir s'en sortir et de mourir... Du coup, on évite les nouvelles expériences par peur d'avoir peur et on se pourri la vie en sondant notre esprit toutes les 2 minutes pour savoir si "ça va". Y'a un truc qui m'a aidé passablement c'est de savoir que y'a pas un truc qui déconne chez toi mais que c'est une réponse normale de ton corps qui se prépare à lutter contre un danger de mort (que ton cerveau perçois comme réelle). Initialement, mon médecin m'avais mis sous benzo pour affronter les situations compliquée pour moi (agoraphobie) ce qui fonctionne bien mais on est déconnecté de la réalité, puis après il m'avait donné des bétabloquants (médoc que les snipers prennent pour éviter les tremblement mais qui coupent uniquement les sensations somatiques désagréables, coeur qui bat vite, souffle accéléré, sensation de vertige, tremblements etc... sans te shooter comme les benzos et sans accoutumance). Un truc à savoir aussi c'est qu'apparemment ça survient plus fréquemment chez les gens avec un taux de serotonine bas...

[@stepseldinski]

Your video is not depressing at all. It is so nice to see that you are facing that situation and i am sure you will find a way to get arround. After I had a terrible motorbike accident, my body started to give me panic signals. For example I am riding into a tunnel and out of nothing I feel like loosing control and there is a fear of passing out on the motorbike. That startet half a year after that accident. It took me a while to figure out, what was happening to me and .. as weird as it sounds, those attacks were triggered by shifting the weight to the front or the back while riding. So going up a hill or goin down. Or when clouds were covering the sun and all the surrounding changed in brightness. Or i am going arround a long corner on the freeway and there were little bumps on the street- means forces on the body to the outside of the corner and additional shaking up and down. Those stuff was triggering my sub conciousness and inducing panic attacks and the feeling of passing out. And now it comes. After a while I had this attack starting i was looking what is happening at that moment and I noticed that mountain.. or that brightness change.. or those little bumps. And in the moment I noticed those things conciously, the attack was fading away. I was struggeling half a year because of that, but now I am 99 percent free of it. Maybe for you things like that can also help. When such an attack starts, try to scan your surroundings for little changes, that might be the trigger. I wish you that you will find something that works for you also! All the best! Cheers

[@marcustiefenberg4980]

I have been watching your videos on off for years. I like your aproach to the hobby. But i only just stumbled over this very video. You are very brave to share this with us. I know what it takes to come public with this issue, as i myself have been battling with this. My first ones started in the Year 2000. I know what caused it. But to this day i am not free of it. You heal, and then something triggers you again. You have good periods of time, but in my case it usually comes back when i feel the most that i am over it. And People close to you don't seem to understand it. So often when it hits you, you isolate yourself. Well... You are not alone. I have huge respect for you, sharing this. This is not easy. Best wishes to you. And please keep up the great content. This hobby made a huge difference for me aswell. Merci from Denmark

[@fuadramsey]

Thanks for sharing. I totally understand where you're coming from. It's not easy to be productive or feel excited about anything when these kinds of issues come up. What helped me was staying busy, trying to do the things I loved, and recognizing what I had and what I could do. What I love about your channel is your passion and excitement for the hobby/way of life. Please keep that up; that inspires me to learn and share with others. And if you're ever feeling down, remember as you look up into the cosmos: how far things are away, how big the universe really is, how humans are around for just a blip in time. And then say to yourself, "everything is meaningless and we're all going to die."

[@azastro919]

I've never had a panic attack but I've been through alot of things that would definently cause one. When you do have them just remember you have a beautiful wife who is also your best friend she will always be there to catch when you fall. And you have a whole group of us who love you guys and love your videos. Take as much time as you need and all of us will be here when you do get back to making videos.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much. Sadly when a panic attack starts, every thought you have is automatically something negative and even if Dalia is right next to me it just doesn't stop. But I hope with time it will get better.

[@MrStacaz99]

Thank you SO MUCH for posting! It takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there. I, too, have suffered from this since high school (for thirty years off and on). I have tried lots of things, and I agree, benzos are not a good solution. I have found that regular exercise helps, since it releases endorphins that make you feel better (like natural Xanax).

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you. I exercise a lot (gym and now running, both several times a week) and honestly hearing that you can feel this way for 30+ years is.... very scary. But I guess that's something we need to learn to live with for life.

[@Anthrack.Records]

I experienced the same after taking too many drugs for years and started having panic attacks. They came back more often, even after quitting. The worst was yet to come. I was suddenly sick for a while, no doctor knew what I had, my blood and everything was fine. I felt like a zombie for at least a year. The feeling that I was breathing only with my throat, palpitations and the feeling that I was no longer in my body. I start meditating to calm my mind and body with breathing exercise. Of course, this didn't always work, but when it works, you really feel the redemption. It's not completely gone to this day but allot better! When I'm in crowded places, and it's hot or it's indoors it can come back. When I feel it again, I don't battle it, take a few deep breaths to relax you body and move on. All this has been going on for 5 years now. So don't give up hope, things will get better, but don't let these fears trap you. A healthy lifestyle is also very important in the healing process. It's good that you bring this out so that it gets more attention and can also reassure people that they are not alone. Peace!

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much for the tips. I heard that it was indeed a bad idea to fight it, and we should just accept it and let it pass even if it is difficult. Glad to hear meditation helped you, it gives me hope.

[@DSOImager]

Sorry to hear about your struggles. Thank you for sharing... it will help many.

[@GalacticHunter]

I really hope so, currently working on a nice video explaining how astro helped which I hope will be useful to some people too

[@DSOImager]

@@GalacticHunter Looking forward to it. :)

[@richards3192]

Antoine, I had anxiety attacks for a few years, usually when under stress from work presenting or public speaking. It got worse, to the point I would get them when falling asleep, terrifying when you wake up thinking you are having a heart attack, Hang in there, it gets easier. I never get them these days. Good food, diet, rest, avoid booze and coffee. Always enjoyed your youtube journey in astro, hope you sort it out

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Richard I am glad to hear you were able to manage it, I never drank coffee in my life but I know I definitely need to eat healthier.

[@AZ4Runner]

Thanks for sharing Antoine, sometimes getting it out in the open helps the healing process. Take care buddie. Clear skies

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much. Yes I believe it helps to not ignore it anymore.

[@markmoon8205]

All credit to you, hopefully this video is a step in the right direction. I, like many have experienced this, try not to put pressure on to yourself to feel better. It will come, it will take time, but you will realise moments when those fears were not present, then those moments of no fear will gradually increase over time. Like good Astro photography it takes time and work. Good luck.

[@writingjust4me]

Welcome back. Sending healing and positive prayers for you.

[@stevengibson9295]

That was a very brave video to make and I understand exactly the issues you are dealing with. If I may, I will drop you an email with some additional comments to reassure you that you are definitely not alone! Take care.

[@dinomonaco2665]

I think anxiety & panic attacks is more prevalent in the population than is actually reported. Many of us may suppress it better than others. I recall these attacks when I was a teenager. Same overwhelming feelings like you describe. Didn’t know what was going on. And dint have the help & meds back then that are available today. So, I just sucked it up. Not saying it was the right thing to do. I have to say that as I got older, wiser, and realized that all people suffer in silence in many different ways that I wasn’t alone in my plight. Now at 60, as I noticed that the attacks became less frequent, and less intense, and practically non existent, the single one remedy that helped me is when I finally released my ego, fell to my knees and asked God to help me….my only regret is that I should have realized this sooner rather than later in my life. Good luck Antione and it’s good to see you again.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much. I am very surprised to see so many comments from people who also experience them. I really did not expect so many of us to suffer from panic attacks. It's just so easy to "hide" and pretend everything is ok.

[@mrkutube]

Glad to see you battled this very well. Please keep it up and get back to astrophotography full strength.

[@ludovicb5691]

Salut Antoine, j'ai commencé à te suivre sur ton autre chaîne et j'ai basculé sur celle-ci pour continuer à suivre ton aventure. Je trouve tes vidéos d'astronomie passionnantes, elles pourraient même faire naître une passion en moi et je t'en suis reconnaissant. Je suis attristé de savoir que tu es en souffrance. J'ai moi même subi des périodes de dépression et d'angoisses qui ont commencées vers mes 13 ans, je te dit courage car c'est pas de la tarte et je connais que trop bien les conséquences que ces manifestations ont sur tous les aspects de la vie. J'ai pris des médicaments qui n'ont pas réglé mes problèmes, donc je me suis tourné vers les médecines douces (introspection, méditations, lectures sur le sujet, analyser mes actions qui déclenchent certaines réactions d'angoisse, analyser mon environnement de vie et détecter les situations particulièrement angoissantes). A travers ces difficultés tu grandiras, apprendra à te connaître et à mieux orienter tes choix de vie. Je me permet de te conseiller un livre qui pourra peut être t'aider : Guérir le stress, l'anxiété et la dépression sans médicaments ni psychanalyse de David Servan-Schreiber. Amicalement, un abonné.

[@MrGp3po]

So sorry that you have to endure this condition. I pray for your healing. Please know that you are loved and appreciated. :)

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much ❤️

[@pamelawhitfield4570]

Sorry to hear about the issues you've been dealing with. I'm not usually claustrophobic either but I feel similar about being inside MRI scanners for extended periods (unfortunately it happens quite a bit) - it takes all my will-power and self-control to hold it together in what feels like a coffin. Take care of yourselves.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Pamela and sorry to hear you have to go through MRI scanners often :/

[@3DAstroTC]

I don't even need to watch the video to say, respect, my guy. Had my first one a bit over a year ago now, no fun is putting it lightly.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you, yep they are terrible, sorry to hear you have them too.

[@thegeniusofthecrowd354]

I suffered from panic attacks for years. The main thing is - if you feel you're going to have one - have one. Tell yourself, bring it on! If anyone around you can't handle it, fuck em. Say it out loud - oh fuck! I'm having a panic attack! Don't fear them, embrace them. Also, avoid drugs and alcohol, take long hikes, read lots of novels and get plenty of sleep. Worked for me anyway.

[@corinlewis3073]

Hi Antoine, It was great seeing back on KZbin, I watched your video , all can say stay positive, take life one day at time, remember you have wife and family who are there for you and KZbin family here as well. I always say to my friends, " You know who your true friends are, not when things are good, not when they not good " . It took alot courage to share your feelings with us on KZbin, we are there for you Antonio and you well. Clear skies 🙂🌠

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Corin and yes I agree, it feels nice to see so many positive comments.

[@Cielosboreales]

Hi Antoine. I have felt very identified with your video. In 2012 I met that bad friend called anxiety and since then she has accompanied me in some moments, although thanks to the help of psychologists I am now much better and I am regaining control of my emotions. You are not alone, what you have dared to tell happens to more people than we imagine. You are very brave telling it.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you. I am so surpirsed by how many people commented they felt the same way. Wow.

[@afxfpv]

I've had panic attacks for 20 years now. Sometimes a few years go by, but then I'll have a really bad month. Sorry to hear you suffer from the same, you're very right about no one being able to know what it's like without going through it themselves. The videos of the tunnel really resonated with me, I had a vacation to Colorado 5 years ago ruined when I had the same kind of experience at Cave of the Winds, and I've never been claustrophobic before that. Meditation does help, you might also try a float center, sensory deprivation tanks. But hang in there, even if it never goes away it does get more manageable with time.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thanks Jeremy. I'm so afraid to have them for 20+ years... it sounds like a never ending nightmare but like you said, it can become manageable with time. And yep, I don't think I'll be going to any tunnel / caves anytime soon.

[@beatsntoons]

thanks for sharing your experience, mate. Many of us "creatives" suffer from this. You're not alone. Keep talking about it. We understand what you're going through. Take care man.

[@imduk1]

Thanks for sharing. I have struggled with this too. I have found reducing alcohol and good sleep has helped. Exercise too has helped I have found that this means no alcohol and more sleep. Hypnotherapy might help too. Im trying yoga now also. Astrophotography doesn't help much with the sleep issue 🙄 but i do find it gives me perspective. Best of luck with it antoine, you are not alone.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much. I am always careful with alcohol, I don't drink coffee and I exercise regularly, yet it's still there :( For me Astrophotography helped tremendously, but it is true that it doesn't help with sleep 😅 I've been tempted to try Yoga so I might give it a go. Good luck to you!

[@AzimuthAviation]

Antoine, I'm so sorry that you're experiencing such turmoil with the past that makes today so hard. I share your experience having a house guest leaving me meals as a kind gesture that were prepared with cannabis without telling me their content. My professional life has since unraveled around me making the future seem bleak. The events of the last few years in America and the world haven't made it easy to have good days. This isn't your fault and it's a tough background to work our way out of. I've been a long time practitioner of Theravada Buddhism techniques for decades in a Western world obviously coming off the rails. This isn't our fault either... It takes a while to find our way into the mindfulness exercise techniques through meditation that are several millennia old. We're still human through time with a different world presenting today but they work without modern drugs getting in your way. Your setting on the hill looking across our intrusion on nature shows you know where to find peace away. I'm over in the Coachella Valley near Joshua Tree NP and nearby bortle 2 skies. I find restfulness in the Universe above with a telescope and the Sun baked rocks under my feet scattered with life. Keep working with the meditation practice. I've never attended a meditation center but not far away there's one that seemngly has a good foundation from my quick read. They offer a 10 day course for free. Donate later for those behind you if you feel it is worthy. Should you venture this way i'll offer a day hike and a tour of Palm Springs to say hello. You'll find better peace and your story is ours. vaddhana.dhamma.org/

[@GalacticHunter]

Hi Roy and thank you so much for the link. I actually was thinking of doing some kind of retreat if things kept going down hill. So I will keep that in mind for the future. I am indeed doing my best to practice meditation/mindfulness. I promised myself to do 15m in the morning and 15m in the evening for 1000 days in a row, just to see how things go. Currently at Day 34 so I have a long way to go but I already feel more hopeful than before.

[@edwinsanchez1167]

Antoine, I watch your videos and I did not even imagine you would have this condition. You said “I think that I will live like this my entire life” NOT TRUE! I know how you feel because I suffered from panic attacks a long time ago, I was afraid of going places and avoided them at all costs. I isolated my self every day more and more for years until one day I said, well I’ve been telling my self that this attacks will kill me and after all these years am not dead so it must mean that my brain is just fooling me and am not a fool!!! So like you said, little by little I welcome the attacks, I said bring it, and my brain really gave up trying to fool me so don’t be afraid!! I am sure you will over come this but its you and only you that can help yourself! I know soon you will be well and keep enjoying the night skies and astro! Clear skies 👍🤝

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Edwin for all these motivating words! I hope it will be the same for me!

[@aw7425]

We are here for you our friend, life is precious, we know you will overcome this in your time frame. 🙏🙏💕💕

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much ❤️

[@aw7425]

Just checking in and hope you are all doing well. Your work inspires us

[@-di-8498]

You take all the time you need to get through this experience. No timetables, and let your mind heal on its own time 👍. We miss you and are rooting for you!

[@matthewpicklesimer293]

Bless Your Heart Sir..I understand completly what your talking about. Jesus Loves You Sir...God Bless You Sir..Im praying for you sir...Take care

[@AstroFarsography]

Like most of us, we had no idea you were fighting these panic attacks. it can't be easy at all and we all commend you for speaking out and sharing your battles. Like others have said you're not alone in this and I hope astrophotography can help bring you some solace and respite from these feelings of stress and negativity you feel. It's good to see you again, clear skies to you mate.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Ruzeen! Yes Astrophotography has been a huge help so far!

[@u0000-u2x]

I think you nailed it in the end. Let the fear pass thru you. And definitely meditation can help you be in the moment and let feelings pass.

[@AlexBecka]

so good.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you!

[@gregb5149]

Yes time heals all wounds. I'm in my 60's but in my 20's a traumatic event gave me similar experiences. The best advice I can give is whenever negative feelings grab you, remember that they will pass - this is a way of accepting that these feelings come and go. Eventually they will fade in intensity and stop coming entirely. Take care.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Greg, accepting that the feelings will come and go is what I am trying to focus on now. It does make things a little better to accept them.

[@markattardo]

Thanks for pushing to make and post this. Take it one day at a time.

[@ikbenvoetbal]

We love you Antoine. Thank you for sharing this. It is not boring at all. You opened up your would to us and I'm fascinated with it. I hope you overcome this and continue to inspire us.

[@77BlackKnight]

You are not alone with with panic attaks. That one of my reason with astronomy and social lite is through astronomy. To find serenity. Have alot of thouse like u discibe Wien u think u are think u are going to die. Takes time to process and get better. Stress is often one of the key that triggers panic attak for me. U are just human. Clear skies and thanks for charing.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much Andreas and good luck 🙏

[@77BlackKnight]

@@GalacticHunter Talking about it and sharing helps other people. Not many share it becuse we are somtime shamed of it. Astronomers Unitet in to help mankind and talk about it and shade Light on it building a better world. Clear skies and keep insire.

[@anthonybevis6939]

Antoine, I watched this with a very empathic heart and spirit, and offer my prayers and support. Having lost my father due to stroke and related health issues two years ago, and attempting to deal with people who persistently tried to take advantage of his situation, I'm very familiar with the physical aspects of stress and anxiety. It was to the point that I felt tight in the chest, my heart rate was elevated, and I dreaded waking up each day to whatever bizarre situation I would have to deal with regarding Dad and the people I was trying to protect him from, including himself at times. You're correct to seek help via meditation, prayer, positive activities, and the love and support of friends and family and hobbies! Knowing it and facing it will make you stronger and able to conquer it, and this video is a huge positive step in that journey. It's a process that takes time, but you will come out the winner! Always know and trust that you are not alone. Cheers and a Bro Hug from western Indiana!

[@GoOnBerlin]

A big hug from Berlin. thank you for talking about this issue

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you for the hug 🫂

[@bawalker0219]

I have panic attacks too... thanks for shaing your story! Plus I like your videos.

[@abdullahbukhamsin6033]

Stay strong and don't give in! You got this.

[@No_no83]

Salut Antoine. Courage courage. Il t'en a fallu, il t'en faut et il t'en faudra toujours. On a tous nos soucis et on souffre chacun à notre façon. Feels nice that you share your experience and how astrophotography and Diana helped you finding your way out of this. I'm here with you bro. Bon courage!! From Nantes, France

[@GalacticHunter]

Merci beaucoup Jean pour ce beau message venu de France :)

[@CarpeNoctem42]

You, my dear sir, are one brave individual. You have my massive respect for opening up like this.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Sander.

[@marcusa3177]

Hey, no rush on the new video. Take your time, find your center, and when you're ready, we'll still be around. AP people are used to waiting yeah? That said - meditation under the stars? Oh yes please. I do something like that on the beach; set up the rig to take x shots, use the intervalometer's beeps to guide me, then once it stops, it's the end of a session... then I manually dither the SkyGuider Pro, check framing, check focus, then fire off the next batch. Then stare out to the water and/or clear night sky again with a cold beer in hand, resetting my brain one beep and crashing wave at a time. Thanks for sharing; clear skies and mind to you and Dalia.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Marcus! Yes you can't beat meditation under the stars that's for sure :)

[@astroheartuk4623]

That's incredibly brave, and not a little inspiring. We're all quick to talk about a broken leg/arm/body part, but we still don't talk about our mental health in the same way. It's great to see you back again, and being so amazingly open and vulnerable. Thank you for this video and this openness 🙏❤️

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much 🙏

[@Mistr_A]

Good to have you back we missed you, please take care if yourself.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you Nick!

[@clungebucket23]

Sharing your struggles is as valuable and enriching as your astro content. Most of us suffer in silence and resort to various coping mechanisms... AP is so engrossing, mind-blowing and creative.. It helps me, I love the whole ritual and the isolation❤️. It sounds like you had a mild psychotic break with some powerful thc... Its fine in small doses but a large, sub-psychedlic dose without preparation and support can be pretty destabilising. Seek out some local anxiety support groups, maybe try some mindfulness and / or CBT.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you. So far meditation has been helping, I hope it continues until I am able to completely manage the random panic feelings.

[@NobleElite]

Nice to see you back Antoine! :) I’ve been dealing with Panic attacks myself since 2018, got diagnosed with Agoraphobia in 2019. I also find it difficult to come to terms with, too, knowing it’s not real and how it’s just a chemical imbalance, but my brain gets the upper hand unfortunately. Things that I’ve learned over the last 3 years are controlled breathing, muscle relaxation and distracting yourself from the attacks are the best forms of dealing with it (and do work in my case at least). Also, try and stay in the situation and let the feelings pass as much as you mentally and physically can, the longer you stay, the more achieved you’ll feel after. Practicing the controlled breathing or muscle relaxation techniques when not anxious can better prepare you for when you are. I also find astronomy & astrophotography, as well as gaming, reading and watching videos on KZbin, walks (short ones in my case aha) helps calm me down and takes the focus from myself :D It’s good to see you’re on the path of recovery though! Time definitely does heal, it’s just a long one, but keep your head up, think positive, and you’ll sure come out stronger than ever! :D

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much for you nice comment and tips ❤️

[@NobleElite]

@@GalacticHunter You’re welcome! Stay strong! 🙌

[@JRM671]

Well done Antoine, I think its great and will help alot of other people that have panic attacks. I know several people that get panic attacks. Did you ever go to where you got the cupcakes to see if that has happened before, drug-laced cupcakes? Sorry that happened to you my friend. You and Dalia have been a great friend to me so hope you get the help you require. Someone out there will have the right advice for you Antoine. Take care buddy.

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you so much! The cupcakes we bought were from some random girl on the Las Vegas Strip, we didn't think anything of it and bought a couple.

[@TheNnpatel]

stay strong, you will over come this

[@triangulumpubg6295]

As someone who got schizophrenia, I can tell you the most important thing in the world: You are not alone. You will always have your friends, family, us. Keep up the fight against it and eventually you will win. ( Yes ik schizophrenia is not curable. But panic attacks are)

[@GalacticHunter]

Thank you! And yes I realize now with all these comments and emails received that there are wayyyy more people affected by this than I thought. Wow. Best of luck to you!