My Alcoholism - 5 Years In Recovery

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so much for such an overwhelmingly supportive reaction to this video. I’m not sure what I expected but I wasn’t expecting to be met with so much love! I’ve received so many comments, questions and people wanting to know more about my experience with alcoholism. Without sounding like I’m trying to sell my book here - it is the place where I’ve written down my experience, strength and hope. When writing about my alcoholism, I tried my best to write with an open heart and spent a long time doing so. So if you wanted to know the more raw versions of what happened then maybe consider having a read. It’s available on www.janetdevlin.com/store or even www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/1913172244/ref=tmm_hrd_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1587129869&sr=8-1

[@caramyers5198]

Hi Janet, I related to some of the things you said so deeply, I am still crying. I don't have a problem with any substance, I have a problem with me. I hate me way too much and I have to make a conscious effort every day to not loose control. It is so hard, and I am so lonely. Please, if you actually even read this post, please tell me how you got past those things? I have been screaming for help to everyone, and I am still alone. I am not sure why I even think you would care. I have always loved your music, and I would love to hear more. If you read this, thanx. Take care, and for what it's worth, I'm on your side...

[@SB-fm4vu]

You re such a strong person janet. Be proud of who you are and where you made it until today. Life is all about making experiences good and bad ones. And to know that early in life, that you have to be honest to yourself is the best experience you can make. Stay that strong and wunderful. And also stay safe. Greetings from Germany.

[@kristiantaylor2762]

Janet I never comment, but your video inspired me to. I am a 46 year old ginger who has lived a life of addiction, mirroring all your traits of self hatred and self destructive behavior. Your pain has mine for so long. Oh how many times I went AWOL in life and hit bottom. I figured it out 4 yrs ago. For me it was learning to love myself, unique flaws and all, forgive myself, a big one, and giving myself grace when needed. We've beat ourselves up way too much already. I can see how the pain is motivating you to become stronger. Pain is often times the best motivator. I just wanna say thanks for your bravery to become vulnerable with your storey to encourage others, and from one ginger to another, I think your hair is absolutley gorgeous.

[@bigstevie1690]

I have an addictive personality and was a functioning alcoholic and addict for all my 20s and drank 30 pints of tennents lager a night starting at 10am break with 2 pints in 10 minutes and 4 pints at a 30 minute lunch then after work a 24 pint can slab of lager every night till 4am go to bed at 4am then up for work at 6am and repeat the whole thing over every day for years until the doc said i would die before 30 so i said enough is enough the doc gave me these green pills and i never thought about drinking after 3 days and never touched a drink for 2 years i went cold turkey no help i could go to bars and drink soda no problem and now i can take or leave drink now, i drink a few times a year if i'm lucky, it has no hold over me now

[@chriskirsche4287]

Hey... im from Germany... and my english is Shit 😁 But i am a big Fan of you. Best Wish and Stay strong. ❤ ( Sorry for this english😀)

[@chang3227]

it's been so long that i genuinely can't remember myself without anxiety or depression. it consumes me and controls every aspect of my life. i'm so tired.

[@emmabless6647]

I remember being an anxious kid and getting depressed at 17. i'm 26 now and stronger!! All from the great wonders of magic mushrooms.

[@jordanlewis5666]

I'm going through mushroom infusion therapy, and I can confirm that it does work real good..

[@kristahutchinson6519]

Hello! It appears I have interests, I want to get some.. where do you get from?

[@jordanlewis5666]

𝖙𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖌𝖗𝖆𝖒

[@Ericbrown-se3kx]

He provides a variety of items, including mushrooms, LSD, DMT, and even chocolate bars.

[@itsrodiggityyo9946]

Janet, I'm a heroin addict for 10 years, been clean for almost 6 months, fighting to stay clean, thank you so much for sharing your story!

[@williamric-hansen3983]

You can do it..

[@itsrodiggityyo9946]

@@williamric-hansen3983 thank you

[@miumiu9105]

so proud of you! you can do it!!

[@dri622]

you can do this, girrrrl!!!! be brave! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@hadleysanders6682]

Keep fighting darling, we wish you so much love and greatness. Continue to see the strength in yourself

[@janetdevlin]

Woah, I’m completely taken a back! 🥺Thank you so much for your overwhelmingly positive response! I’ll be responding to as many comments as I possibly can but I hope you know how much your support means 💓 x

[@ANTONJBRMUSIC]

❤❤❤❤

[@Thatguy_91]

AA doesn’t need a response, 5 years is a major accomplishment and it’s impressive

[@Thatguy_91]

I like your newer videos and covers anyways

[@moriolocci]

Thank you for sharing your story, this is what helps. Go on :)

[@rickeppy2365]

I was born a day after you 13th November 1994 ur so pretty

[@ta9197]

I have been very heavily drinking for 15 years. I stopped drinking 6 days ago and I became SO sick for 3 days! I didn't know why...I then realized, I'm an alcoholic and I thought I was literally going to die for 3 days straight. Shakes, chills, nauseous, didn't/couldn't eat for 3 days. This is tough but if I can do it, anyone can do it!! Thank you all for sharing everything in your life. I've read them all!! We all got this fight! Stay strong!

[@Septa7Seven]

Hi TA, I see that you made this comment 4 months ago. I hope you are still fighting and doing well. And, if you didn't manage to be sober. I hope you try again and keep trying until you eventually get through.

[@Ms.Laterholmes5253]

Manifesting positive stay strong please don’t let this overtake you. You are much bigger than this. Please take minute by minute.

[@MsMixd]

Janet. The greatest drug in the world is love. If you ever feel that you're running out, we will be here for you.

[@raylangley405]

fantastic

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so much 🥺💓

[@MsMixd]

@@janetdevlin You are helping me get through a very rough patch with your truth. Thank you. We need more like you, not less, so please take good care of yourself. Lots of love.

[@williamwinder3466]

😭😭😭😭😭 How did all these onions get in here?

[@moodini99]

No, it isn't. The greatest drug in the world is ecstasy. But love is pretty amazing.

[@rustystick]

You realize this just makes you more of a real person? Just love you more

[@janetdevlin]

I love you too buddy, thank you so much for the support x

[@FrequencyGenius1]

PM HE UZ

[@FrequencyGenius1]

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[@moodini99]

You best go and buy her book then, mate.

[@soloscriptura7451]

I learned that I was an alcoholic at 19, I didn’t admit it until this year... I’m 28. I had my first drink at 8 and I have relapsed multiple times since I regularly started drinking. God has been very kind to me during this process and he’s guided me through the darkest of nights. I’m thankful for your story and sobriety, it’s a blessing.

[@pathlogic8650]

I'm 27 I think, honestly I've done so much escapism I dont actually know. my first taste of it was 7, it was just a beer, but you gotta start somewhere. I am diabetic t2 and cerotic, if I get a deep enough wound now I might just bleed out without suffering a mortal wound. and now I am in recovery. I don't know what to even use as a leg to stand on. Sometimes the thing that makes me care is only the fact that my mother would suffer. I have a large family, but I can only feel for her in any way.

[@tnttroy]

Welcome to the club. Ex military with severe PTSD. You can do it - one day at a time my friend. Love your voice - it brings me peace.

[@lauuraml]

Search about ayahuasca...sending healing your way ✨💗

[@TheNerdNinja-hy3bl]

I was alcoholic at 18 , there is nothing to be ashamed of. Addiction is a addiction. I’m 2 years sober now.

[@hadleysanders6682]

Congratulations darling

[@valo9346]

Proud of you 😊✨

[@moodini99]

Good for you. What were you addicted to?

[@moodini99]

We're you actually an alcoholic, or do you just like the label? Claiming to be a young alcoholic is like having a badge that reads "I'm interesting. Give me attention". How much were you actually drinking?

[@tsolberg4503]

I work with people with an a addiction, primarily alcohol addiction. I see a lot of young people every day, it is not about how much you drink.

[@Sam-ml5wt]

I’m 1 week sober today. Thankyou for sharing beautiful, sending love to you ❤️

[@Sam-ml5wt]

Ps. Never apologise for being emotional xxx

[@zuzkaberg]

Fingers crossed for you to stay sober! Be strong

[@valo9346]

Stay strong it’s worth fighting 😊🔥✨

[@arty04]

Way to go!

[@pacoramirez54]

stay strong Sam

[@vanessab.7679]

From one alcoholic in recovery to another, thank you for your courage, honesty, and strength to share the insufferable hell that is addiction. Thank you for sharing. I am in rehab right now and I have been drinking since I was 16 years old. I had addictive tendencies since I was very young as well. I am 32 years old right now and it's a miracle that I am still alive. The more we share our stories, the more we heal and help others. Thank you for your bravery. One day at a time. Love, a fellow AA. xoxo

[@ta9197]

Thank you for sharing!!

[@andries1704]

I am reading your comment 2 years after you posted it. I hope you stayed sober and you are doing well. You still have a great future ahead off you.

[@kathykolenda7517]

I’m a 67 year old grandma of 12. I just want to hug you and say what a brave, loving & wonderful young lady you are. Thank you so much for sharing this. You’ve got this girl🤗 oh, I am a huge huge Elton John fan and I loved your version of his song on your audition ❤️

[@Lanthanaas]

The wife and I are closing on 1 year sober. We struggled to get to sobriety for several years. We understand your pain and hard work. You're absolutely right about living in sobriety. It's magical how much better and clearer the world is when you dig your way out!

[@brentheid6002]

There are MANY alcoholics at age 20. Most people just are not aware enough to recognize it and DO something positive about it. Kudos, Janet, Blessings of God upon you.

[@dragondeal1675]

About a decade ago binge drinking going through media and a lot of people said "If you drink regularly so and so much, you're an alcoholic". Well, when I look back to the years when I was between 14 and 25 and those people were right, I was an alcoholic. And nearly all of my friends. And my parents. And nearly all of their friends. But for me those people are wrong. There's a difference between drinking too much and the necessity of drinking. I admit, it's just a small step from drinking too much to become an alcoholic and most people don't be aware getting close. Anyway most people don't make that last step, being aware of it or not. So I don't think there are "MANY alcoholics" at the age of 20, there are some. But for sure, it's something to be careful about. If you look in the mirror early morning saying "Ouch, that was too much last night." it maybe ok. If you look at that mirror thinking "Guess I need another drink" you need help, not a drink.

[@nobelj3137]

Janet I think we are the first generation of Irish people to actually recognize we were addicted to alcohol , you know our culture and how it can be seeing this made me wonder how lucky we were to see it I have family to this day that simply cant see alcohol as the crutch they are using it as I'm sure you do too , thank you for the music it really does touch that deep Celtic nerve and moreover thank you for sharing

[@narcissus6350]

“It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside I’m not one of those who can, easily hide” That’s how I met you, you’re very precious, take care of yourself. ❤️

[@basementboutiques8617]

Narcissus weirdo!

[@sandravt2168]

Narcissus is referring to the Elton John song she sang at her world famous audition. That’s how I got to know her too. So there’s nothing weird about this comment at all.

[@loft306]

Ditto

[@shannonwilson2253]

“I thought everyone was in on this joke that i wasn’t.” Yep, I felt that.

[@janetdevlin]

aw I'm sorry :(

[@shannonwilson2253]

Janet Devlin don’t be!! you just put into words something that I haven’t been able to for a very long time. Thanks for sharing with us 💗

[@unicornvggghhu4285]

Same it’s nice knowing other people have felt that sometimes

[@katherenann]

Yessss, I felt it too. I have said repeatedly that I feel like I'm just some big cosmic joke and I'm too stupid to realize it. Ugh. Horribly isolating feeling. :(

[@aikrichter5403]

@@janetdevlin don'T be. It's that Voice. It's lying,you know. Not your Fault.

[@Jo-ph9zo]

I’m 20 & I’m an alcoholic. I started drinking when I was 13. I have never said that...

[@justtotallygorgeous]

Please find support to help you ☺️

[@shinseiki2015]

check Wes Watson channel

[@moodini99]

13? Damn. That's too early. Good that you're not an alcoholic anymore.

[@Prince_Oli]

moodini99 wha? She is still one she just said that.

[@moodini99]

@@Prince_Oli She said it? Must be true then. Anyone can say anything. She's got books and albumbs to sell

[@kd42021]

No, thank you, you are a blessing to all of us to share your story, I don’t suffer from alcoholism, I suffer from depression. I have had many times that I wanted to end it all, I was tired of living at the age of 13. I started listening to Linkin Park, most people don’t realize this, but most of their music is about getting help for the pains your going through in life. I found music to be a great outlet. I’m now 32 years old, and I still have my moments that I don’t want to carry on anymore, it’s a constant struggle, but then I have such wonderful people like you to listen to and hear your story and your music, and it gives me hope, and it helps give me a reason to want to live. It’s very difficult to talk about, but I’m blessed to have you, and I’m trying to help my dad with his addiction to alcohol. Thank you for everything, much love from us in this small town of Waycross, Georgia!!!

[@MaryBHand]

I don’t know why this just popped up in my KZbin feed but I just wanted to say how much I admire your bravery and honesty. You are an amazing young lady and I wish you all the very best x

[@ThatJessKid]

I’ve been trying to comment for the past hour I just can’t find the words I need. I’ve always struggled to talk about this subject, my grandad died because he drunk so much his liver started to fail. I’ve been there on the sideline just watching and hoping my friend would stop drinking. I’d try and talk to them but majority of the time I’d get ignored they’d continue the only thing I could do was to be there. I need you to know that I don’t see you in a different light, my opinion of you hasn’t changed I still think you’re a bloody goofball and I fucking love and care about you to the moon and back! You can throw as many confessions as you want me at me and I’m still going to be there! We learn from our past and you’re not that person anymore and I’m so fucking proud of you. You’re one of the most amazing people I know genuinely you’re fantastic and brave and so so strong mate I could compliment you all day but I know you ain’t good with compliments so I’ll shh now. Thanks for saving me. 💙

[@banality1234]

Beautifully said Jess.🙏

[@quemeese]

totally understand that!

[@elliemarsh1]

I respect you for being so honest, especially to yourself.

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you Ellie! ❤️❤️

[@elliemarsh1]

Janet Devlin ❤️❤️❤️

[@basementboutiques8617]

You too need should meet up & have a drink! 🤷‍♂️

[@trevarnewighton2954]

@@basementboutiques8617 what an idiotic thing to say to an alike. Do you realise that this addiction kills Fool

[@thehourglassfan3515]

@@elliemarsh1 I hope you got the underlying message which is don’t drink. Did you?

[@tzouka4ever]

Professionals say that alcohol is harder to "escape" from than drugs or other substances, because you can find it everywhere...at the shop around the corner, it's not illegal substance and it doesn't cost as much as some other stuff. But the battle is the same for any addicted person using whatever... This video is a true inspiration for people to stay on track and people who are not there yet...THANK YOU FOR THAT

[@Brennan26Bartolacci1]

I'd like to thank you for posting this video. After many years of struggling with drug and alcohol addiction, your story inspired me to clean up. I sat here, watching this video, with tears streaming down my face as I watched and really listened. I was lucky, though. My rock bottoms were padded. I've had one friend continually catch me as I fell. My hardest fall was when I dropped over $30,000 on drugs, booze, and a little food in less than 4 months. When i was evicted from my apartment, that friend was there to put me up in their shop. Helped me find a job. That wasn't enough to make me want to, or realise that I should, quit. But, watching your open, sincere, and candid video stopped me in my tracks. I've now been sober for around two months. This is the longest I've gone without being out of my head on something or another. So thank you, Janet, for being the other hand that helped me out of my Hell. For that, you'll always be 'the other woman," lol.

[@hollybramhall1351]

congratulations on being sober for 2 months!! 💜 i hope your recovery keeps going well💜

[@NadineMiller1974]

It's truly amazing to read so many comments from those amazing people like yourself who are touched by Janet's story 🤗 Take care of you and LIVE YOUR CLEAN LIFE!

[@misfit29]

I'm also an Alcoholic. I'm so glad that I ran into your video. I've been struggling with it for some time, I know the feeling. I've also thought about offing myself. But your video gives me hope and courage to keep living life.I think that you are brave for posting this video. Thank You 🙂

[@uvl.g5611]

The fact you can talk about it so openly is most inspiring. I have a relative who's an alcoholic, and it truly destroyed her life, so I know just how bad alcoholism can get. Bravo to you for fighting and taking on it head on, you're such a strong brave person.

[@AngryVikingPkR]

Thank you for this as an addict been clean for 7 years this means alot this will help so many people thanks for being honest this touched me deeply and proved that you dont have to spend 10+ years useing to be an alcoholic/addict or to seek help i have the biggest respect for young ppl who get clean cause i was to proud to do it young i had to lose everything before i got help

[@TCubillas]

I don't think you realize how much you've helped many who are in dark spots and haven't figured out how to get out. This video is HUGE & IMPACTFUL and the number of broken lives its touched, and hopefully helped, is probably more than we all realize. I'm sure it hurts to go back to those dark days but, when you do, you offer many a light at the end of the tunnel that wasn't previously there. Kudos to you, Janet, and may God bless you. 🙏

[@ellamae444]

So very true!

[@lilbev1876]

12 years sober. Not alcohol but drugs. At the same age I was almost 21 when I went cold turkey and within 2 months I fell pregnant. And my son (now 11) saved my life so many times. He helped me through the dark times and the times I just wanted to go back not being sober. I think you are brave and beautiful and talented and I'm so happy for you and your sobriety 🖤

[@carolebuckle7977]

Vox Spectris well done you 👏🏻👏🏻xx

[@janetdevlin]

Congratulations on your sobriety!! ❤️🙏🏻

[@Rogdog692002]

I am impressed Janet. I was drinking like an alcoholic at 20, but continued on for 15 years. Now have 13 years sober, and couldn’t be happier. Good on you Janet, for dealing with your addiction and for your courageous honesty!

[@moodini99]

Doesn't have an addiction. She's just looking for attention to sell some books and music. Typical narcissist

[@frankiebartlett5880]

Hi Janet, I’m also 5 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story with young people around the world. The sooner we can identify the sooner we can reach out for help

[@jacobbaylis]

Everyone has their own personal issues but truthfully and honestly, you are an extremely talented person and would love to see you get further in the future. ❤️❤️

[@janetdevlin]

Sisters Gossip thank you so much 🥺💓

[@maddystarlove]

Hi Janet...I remember you from the X Factor and you sang, "Your Song" by Elton John. I am an alcoholic and have been sober for almost 23 years now!!! It was the best decision I ever made...I went cold turkey!!! I would drink until I blacked out so many times that I can't even remember and also tried to off myself a couple of times, just so the pain would go away! You have so many "sisters" and "brothers" who know exactly what you went through and maybe some still are. I just take one day at a time...it's all you can do! I am so so proud of you to have the courage to share your story because it is so hard to admit! I love ya girl!

[@mad3max3]

I see people talking shit about her, but she is speaking from her heart. She's being honest, not trying hide anything. Hell yeah you can be an alcoholic and addict at any age. There's no time limit on it. I think she's awesome! I know that many people that hear her feel the same exact way and it helps them to hear it. Thanks for sharing Janet!!

[@firemedictv]

As I sit here incredibly hungover. I loved your message. I am broken right now. I have screwed up so many things due to alcohol. Your story gives me hope. I cry along with you because I relate to you so much. I am powerless over alcohol. Thank you for being you and giving us all hope.

[@megan9481]

Oh same alcohol ruined my career my relationship with my boyfriend and my health

[@megan9481]

I really hope that you are better now I am hung over right now

[@jeff8ball]

just saw this...I'm 3 years sober, hope you are ok...

[@brendanm4179]

Being an alcoholic is A VERY COMMON thing, especially in ireland. Tell someone they ain't allowed to drink at the weekend and they'll show withdrawal symptoms straight away.

[@victoriaday7445]

Your voice broke my heart all them years ago. And once again im reduced to a tear but i promise you your voice is just as loud and the day i first heard an angle sing live on tv. And ive chased and look for voices like yours and it can not only be heard through your music and voice . Live isn't that we see. Life isn't what we chase it's a dream state of mind. A pint glass half full to float in andpainfully have to have no escape. Reality hurt reality is truth reality is a beautiful talented young lady with just a dream telling us shes human. Today i realised the brightest star ive ever seen shine is just as human as me. X

[@lilyhorsburgh8196]

You look like Merida on BRAVE

[@janetdevlin]

Lily Horsburgh haha thanks 😂💓

[@Rosebud1006]

Can come save me anyday 😅😅

[@cerseilannister7382]

And Saoirse Ronan lol

[@cheyology]

I’m sure someone says this every video

[@flacsmada]

@Janet Devlin I have worked with drug/alcohol recovery in the states, and have been in my own pits of despair. I am also a huge fan of yours, and love your music. You have encouraged me many times when I needed it. I want you to know, that you are amazing. You have many people who love you. You have a wonderful spirit, and voice. Millions have been impacted by you(and I am one of them). I just want you to know that you are special, and lovely, and have people in your life who truly care about you. I believe in you, and in your victory in the depths of your struggles. "It is in our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light." Thank you for your heart and your life and the joy you have brought to mine.

[@scottvincent184]

I'm 42 years old and just realized I'm an alcoholic, thank you for your story!

[@Cvnt_blvnt]

No offense but are you Self diagnosing?

[@ariksmo5852]

Sending random love , I don't know you but the fact that you are strong enough to understand such a thing about yourself tells me you are going to get rid of it !

[@Sara-gl8ue]

@@Cvnt_blvnt no offense but it doesn't take a doctor to tell someone they're an alcoholic for them to know it.

[@Cvnt_blvnt]

Sara D yea ig ur right

[@pgatskunk]

@@Sara-gl8ue well said.

[@ph3n1x1]

Janet this is incredibly raw. We all struggle, we all fail, but it is how we rise. Your struggle is but one step of your journey, and though i am sorry to hear you went through it. I am happy to hear you are rising and rising strong. Keep the strength. The journey is in eb and flow, godspeed.

[@forestcze8]

Hi Janet, I'm a guy who is 28 years old and I'm from the Czech Republic. My english is not so good to I could express everything what I would want to say. Anyway I'm going to try it and I hope you will understand it. At the beginning of the comment I have to say I follow you since X factor performance. You are incredibly talented and beautiful girl with awesome voice. Each of us may have a problem. The most important thing is admitting of the problem to yourself. Then you should face to the problem even with your loved ones. It's not a reason to shy, but it's the moment when you realize you are not alone, you have an option to solve your problem with someone who is able to help, because they love you. Success of this is - not be a hero, but to beat the problem. I appreciate that you have decided to share your experience with us. That's not easy at all. We are able to face to anything until we die. It's not easy to understand your vlogs. Your accent is hard to me, but it doesn't matter. I understood what's going on and that's why I decided to support you. I am so sorry about your experience. I love you as a singer. I wish you to stay strong. Never give up ♥

[@richiedoc7208]

Filip Němec Your English is perfect. Don’t put yourself down!

[@GOLDmartinaGOLD]

Krasne napsano 🙂

[@forestcze8]

@@richiedoc7208 Thank you! :)

[@forestcze8]

@@GOLDmartinaGOLD Děkuji :)

[@PsychologyWizard]

@@richiedoc7208 Yes I agree! (:

[@pbesso]

Janet, you are an incredible person, and I am so proud of the strides you've made in your recovery journey. As someone who has battled addiction myself, I have some understanding of the challenges you've faced. It's all the more remarkable considering the unique pressures that come with your talent and career. You've overcome incredible obstacles, and I'm really proud of you.

[@nickroethel3326]

My favorite thing in the world about this girl is how true she is. She's real. Even on AGT there is a clip of the show pepe asking her to change so more people will like her and she refused. She said (paraphrasing) "If they don't like me that's fine. That's their opinion. I'm here for the music." Since then I have always loved everything she's done. She's open about her sexuality. And her struggles. And with all of them she makes sure it comes from her. That way if it's seen elsewhere it's already old news. Also if it's from her it's the truth. You can't twist her story if she's the one giving it. All of that rolled into one makes her, in my humble opinion, far better than most of the musicians and artist of her age. We need more of this.

[@BabvBlues]

Proud of you! You’re helping so many people 💕

[@janetdevlin]

Universal Hobo thanks so so much lovely 💓💓

[@coreymitchell55]

Being an alcoholic is not an easy thing to admit but you're helping so many people, I'm very proud of you

[@veganforever9703]

@@janetdevlin keep it up you look amazing and are amazing

[@hotbambi2010]

@@janetdevlin I am a huge fan of yours and I am so far you have come

[@jasonmossop1007]

@@janetdevlin My name is Jason. I understand your message. Filling a void. The emptiness within... We need to fill this void. But because the void is negative we seek a negative solution. I can explain more if you need. Good luck. From a friend.

[@delaneyglinkin8335]

When you sang for the first time on X factor I was blown away by your amazing voice, sly smiles at the crowd, and most of all you were a soul that I wanted to know more about. You had this mysterious aura, but this big personality, I could tell you were strong. I'm not much younger than you and I saw this piece of myself in you that I idolized. Eventually, I understood you had the same special that I had, an ability to make people smile and feel genuinely good and happy. Thank you for sharing, this couldn't have been easy to get strangers comments on, but thank you it has been yet another moment you are helping to make someone's day a little bit better.

[@IamKnucks]

Janet, like so many your music blew me away the moment I heard it. I hope you're able to keep your sobriety and live a long and happy life. I'm 100% certain there are millions of people who wish nothing but the best for you.

[@jameynealey6555]

Hi Janet I'm a a drug addict I have been clean for a month and your honesty has been really refreshing and has helped me in so many ways! Thanks and I am now addicted to your voice and your smile! Thanks again!

[@hawkinsfamilyadventures5341]

I'm Sandra and I'm an alcoholic. Jack Daniels was my drink of choice for me also. So glad you got sober. I am 5 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story

[@janetdevlin]

S Hawkins congratulations on your sobriety 💓🙏🏻

[@moodini99]

5 years sober? So you're not an alcoholic. You're an ex-alcoholic. If you don't drink, you aren't an alcoholic.

[@hawkinsfamilyadventures5341]

@@moodini99 you don't ever stop being an alcoholic I'm a recovering alcoholic. It's every day battle to stay sober but yes I'm 5 yrs sober and loving life

[@moodini99]

@@hawkinsfamilyadventures5341 You're wrong. Alcoholics drink alcohol to excess. Given that you don't drink, you are NOT an alcoholic. It's nonsense that people are always alcoholic. Great that you are sober. And obviously never ever drink again. But you have beaten alcoholism because you no longer drink. You were an alcoholic. Now you're not.

[@FleurDeCersier]

@@moodini99 Interesting with what self-righteousness you are talking, yet you are wrong

[@itsmedave7815]

Well done Janet. I've been sober 26 years, and got sober when I was 27. Yes, I walked around with "a lot of inner pain". My soul was crying out for a different way. The sober life is that way. I've achieved so much that I never would have if I had continued drinking. Life isn't perfect, and never will be. The great thing is I can face it..with the help of others and accepting help and giving support too. Keep enjoying this life..the only one we have.

[@coletyler6140]

I don't think I could like, admire & love another human being more than I do right now Janet....thankyou for being you even though you did this 2 years ago I hope you stayed true to yourself and didn't let your demons define you...love and respect Cole x

[@PudgyPedalPusher]

“It isn’t comfortable but it’s familiar.” That is so real. I’m very familiar with that voice and it’s taken me to some bad places. Haven’t had a drink in almost a year and a half. I feel like I miss it but then get reminded why I don’t when I see others struggling. ❤️

[@eugenejackson9283]

So this is the second time watching this. Janet, thank you for coming out with this video. Despite the sadness of this, and the intensity of the video, it's made me realise something. I'm an addict too... Your videos always give me an awakening. Thank you for being you, thank you for sharing the awesome you alongside the sad bits. I love you so much, and know that I (along with all your followers, friends and family) will be here to support you through it all.

[@AlexanderBrankov]

This is one of the most human video I've seen on the Internet. Thank you and well done Janet. Love you and kiss you. All the best for the future.

[@norahanet5348]

To all you beautiful and exquisite people who are struggling and in pain…….may you all find peace . Sending kind thoughts your way.

[@liveforadrenaline96]

I’ve watched so many similar videos to this and read so many articles online.. trying to understand what my husband has been going through.. trying to make sense of how he can go AWOL and drink for days. You’re the first person to put it into the right words to click in my head. To sound so similar to what it seems he has been through. He’s not the best with words. Thank you.

[@janetdevlin]

I'm so sorry to hear about your husband! I hope he finds it within himself to get sober. Have you considered attending an AL-anon meeting? Just an idea. I've heard good things but I've obviously never been. I hope you're okay lovely x

[@explos____3987]

How wonderful life is, now your in the world.

[@calumarundale2814]

Ted Bundy Imagine Ted Bundy as an English teacher 😂😂😂

[@jah8875]

Perfect comment

[@moodini99]

Now go and buy her book

[@booshting3520]

I ended up with a drink problem that rapidly accelerated through my 20s and 30s. Looking after my mother after she got diagnosed with terminal cancer until she died hit me like a freight train. I rebuilt myself from that low point. It was either that or end my own life. Oddly, my drinking began as a mask for a lack of self worth, just not being enough. Life is great now. I wasted so much time, worrying about everything.

[@CorridorJ]

Boon Doggle what a beautiful message. Sorry to hear about your mother x

[@elijahdunmore7526]

I'm so glad to be sober after 22 years of drinking I am celebrating 1 year alcohol free Janet I never felt better I understand what you went through I appreciate you sharing your encouragement staying sober thanks for sharing stay strong 💪😄

[@phoebesuch4817]

You worded this perfectly, it actually made so much sense & I’m sure many people can understand & sympathise from it. Addiction is out of control & it takes so so much to pull yourself out of that situation. It’s normal to have many setbacks before reaching your goal. You’ve done so well & I have so much respect for you for sharing. Please be proud of yourself! Xx

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so so much for the kind words and support Phoebe, it really means more than you know!❤️

[@thehourglassfan3515]

Indeed. There should never be a first time.

[@ElenarMT]

It's often the most tormented of souls, who bring the most healing to others. The biggest tragedy is that they are often not able to heal themselves. I hope you find healing and frankly the life you have given to so many others

[@Thumper130]

I’m about to start my second detox, I’m a successful or was 33 year old alcoholic trying to hide from the world and pain. It’s scarier 2nd time around and thank you because this have given me some hope xx

[@janetmannis8042]

@@Thumper130 I’m praying for you god bless and be kind to yourself!

[@AnaSilva-sr9qw]

My heart... My dad died 2 years ago, he was an alcoholic. I never got to grow a relationship with him, but I miss him, and I needed and need him everyday of my life. It is way more destructive than people think...Keep up with the good work, you have a beautiful soul and I wish you the best in life, grab it and live it ❤ i loved your video.

[@missychevious3137]

You're a very strong young lady Janet. You've faced a lot of demons in your young life but guess who's winning. You are. I also started young. Had my first drink (in a bar) at the age of 15. Just after I turned 20 my spouse gave me an ultimatum. Give up the booze or give up my spouse and the kids. I chose the later. 45 years sober and I don't regret a minute of it. I learned very quickly that I had to take it one day at a time. I sometimes reflect on my past and that helps to keep me on the straight and narrow. Be true to yourself Janet. Use your past experience to draw strength from. Take it one day at a time and stay strong.

[@knightOOwl]

I've been sober for 15 years, I gave up alcohol at 21. My drink of choice was vodka and Jack Daniels, I would drink myself into oblivion on a daily basis. I was subjected to physical, mental and sexual abuse in my childhood and spent time in care. By the time I was 12 I was severely depressed, had PTSD and was self harming. By 18 I was homeless and living in a hostel, I had stopped talking to my entire family, most of my friends couldn't deal with my issues so they ditched me too. I was incredibly depressed and lonely so I turned to alcohol to numb the pain. After a few months I was drinking up to 3 ltrs of Vodka every day, I was waking up in hospital or police cells on a regular basis, I was constantly putting myself in dangerous situations and was physically and sexually assaulted on a number of occasions, which just made the drinking worse, i was hospitalised with alcohol poisoning at least a dozen times. I consider myself very lucky as I woke up one morning feeling dreadful and suddenly realised what I was doing and where my life was heading. I gave up drinking then and there, (I didn't know it was dangerous to do this) I was seriously ill for about 6 weeks, then I began to feel better, not drinking was a struggle for a few years but eventually got easier. I just wish I had asked for help instead of doing it alone, due to my childhood abuse and relationships issues I struggle to trust people and open up to them so I was so used to doing everything alone that I didn't even consider asking for help. After being sober for 8 years, I realised that I actually felt sick just thinking about drinking, smelling alcohol on people's breaths at parties made me gag and the idea of drinking was repulsive to me. I love that I feel this way as I'm never temped to relapse.

[@janetdevlin]

Your story is inspirational! Thank you so much for sharing it! congratulations on your sobriety! Long may it continue! ❤️❤️

[@Tomlifts2024]

Thank you for sharing your story. You seem like such a lovely genuine person. I hope many people read that who may have had to go thru some of the things you have and see that there is a light and a future and hope and love. I'm so happy you found your happy place even tho life hasn't been kind to you. Keep doing you and keep getting stronger.

[@fizzypop1249]

lisa gillies oh I’m so proud of you. Well done you. How strong and brave you are. 🙏😊

[@moodini99]

3 litres or vodka a day? So you were an actual alcoholic. Unlike Janet. She's just trying to get attention to sell her book and music. She is no alcoholic. Anyway, I can drink alcohol in moderation because I'm not an idiot. Might have one now, but no more than that.

[@sonias-k4050]

that’s so inspirational, and seriously congratulations on your sobriety! That’s a huge thing to overcome and as sappy as it may sound it’s proof that things get better 💗💗 sending love

[@danielabustamante4890]

My God, I'm just bawling my eyes out. Everything you just said touched me because I can see how much pain you've been through and most importantly I can tell you understand hopelessness. It's hard to find people who know exactly how it feels to be in a pit and see no way out. And want no way out because they just want the pain to end. That's where I am right now and I live each day not knowing if I'll live long enough to find that joy & purpose within but you inspire that bit of hope left in me. You're honestly so special and I'm so glad you made this video. Love from Canada. :)

[@ryantrue4844]

Seeing how difficult this is for you to talk about is difficult to watch, thank you for being so honest with all of us. Times can be so difficult and I understand the addictive personality as when I find something I enjoy I go all out with it. You've done so so so well to be clean for so long.

[@janetdevlin]

It's just hard to think that I was that person and how painful it was to exist at the time. Luckily, life's not like that anymore! Thank you ❤️

[@ryantrue4844]

@@janetdevlin I'm so so glad to hear that it's not like that anymore for you, the things you have done since that dark period is truly phenomenal and I can safely say that all of us are so proud of what you have accomplished. Thank you for being honest and open even though its so difficult to do

[@martynursell]

Thank you Janet for your honesty , when I heard your song by Elton John at sixteen , it's very brave of you to open up your heart, we are thinking of you in our prayers . We pray for your courage and determination to continue on the right path , we look forward to seeing you , the love which flows from your heart . There is so much in which you can achieve when we trust the direction of the heart . Never give up on this wonderful dream . Praying for you . Martyn 🌹🙏🏵️

[@kerry6449]

Huge huge respect to you! I’m so glad that you are talking about your issues because it will help others and most importantly it will help you. Even in your darkest days you still deserved kindness and do not ever think otherwise! You are worthy at your lowest and at your best. Recovery is a process, it does not happen overnight. I honestly wish you the best for the future, just take each day as it comes 💕

[@janetdevlin]

gosh, you almost made me cry! thank you for that, I needed to hear it!❤️

[@Ninkopi]

I remember seeing you on tv and I was completely enchanted. I thought your shyness was charming, not weak (and I still don't think of you as weak, I just realised you thought of yourself that way and you're not). I've suffered with anxiety and I know how that feels. I'm sorry that you were alone and that didn't get the right help back then. But you're still young and it's wonderful that you're sharing this now and helping others with your story

[@bigsismilena]

The fact that being on TV started off the whole makes me think that fame isn't a thing to crave at the end of the day. Anyway, I love the video and your courage to address the whole thing. KEEP GOING, YOU ROCK! ❤️

[@noellefraser5573]

I am 23 and became an alcoholic 2 years ago this has been the hardest and scariest thing that's ever happened to me thank you for being brave enough at such a young age. I only hope I can do the same one day.

[@thehourglassfan3515]

Just stop. It’s not hard. Save your money to buy you some clothes or something. Why would you even want to buy alcohol?

[@mandyylolo]

@@thehourglassfan3515 it’s not that easy, if she’s been drinking for 2 years, her body will withdrawal and I’m sure she has experience with that if she’s tried stopping. Addiction is a horrible freaking disease

[@Phantasia.Official]

Dear Janet, Please hear me out: Most alcoholics, do miss 'love' or 'attention' in their lives, if you need something of that, just read our lovely comments, where everyone loves you. At least, I love you, for who you are, the honest way you are. I trust you, I believe in you.

[@damianstark5362]

This is such a courageous thing to do. I admire your strength and honesty, and it reminds me (a long time sufferer of depression- so, relatable) to not hate myself for imagined wrongs. Thanks for the kick in the ass.

[@ivhristov6511]

I've looked this a couple of times and every single one of them I had tears in my eyes..So proud of you!And your audition, years ago in X factor still in my top 3 ever!Keep going, girl! Often life is hard, and not fair but we have it just once and that's the beauty of it..

[@stacypollock9289]

That took balls girl. Respect.

[@niallbell4]

I don't think I have ever wanted to just go for a coffee with someone to talk, your honesty and openness makes me wanna just talk to you, you are an amazing person

[@FrequencyGenius1]

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[@sableram1]

You're so incredibly strong and brave buddy, I'm so proud of you. You're more than what you were, don't forget that. You're stronger. I love you ❤❤❤❤

[@janetdevlin]

oh gosh, don't break my heart! I love you buddy! x

[@sableram1]

@@janetdevlin thank you for being so strong and continuing to try even after you'd "given up". You eventually found a way. I can't imagine my world without you there, you are a kind, strong, beautiful light in my life and I don't know where I'd be without you, but I know it wouldn't be as nice. You're a blessing. Love you ❤

[@rochellavanderwal9320]

As someone who has been there done that (also at a very young age) this reduced me to tears.. No reason to be ashamed of how you (and mainly your brain) tried to escape the pain to keep going

[@janetdevlin]

I'm so sorry to hear you've been through it too! Thank you so much for the lovely words of support, I really do appreciate it! xx

[@wilmanorman330]

You are a blessing to others, Janet. You are a beautiful, courageous human being. ❤️ All the very best wishes! Bravo!

[@JasonConlan75]

The most important thing about addiction is admitting you have a problem you did this in a very public forum and my respect for you is even bigger than it was before, this will help SO many people. Well done Janet xxx

[@theoriginalhexgirl]

you’re such a beautiful person, inside and out. this is proof that you never know what someone is going through. i’m really proud of you for getting through this, you’re so strong and brave. well done for sharing something so personal, this will help so many people feel less alone in their dark times ❤️

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so much for the kind words and support Liv, that means so much! 💓💓

[@theoriginalhexgirl]

Janet Devlin of course beautiful, take care. I’m sending love and light to you💗💗💗

[@giorgianicotra9778]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. You're such a brave woman. I admire you so much for your courage. You're really inspiring. Thank you Janet. ❤🤞🏻

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so so much for the support! ❤️🙏🏻

[@hollyaltvater4621]

Props to you not easy getting sober awesome that your realizing while you're young the damage being an alcoholic can do. My father quit when he was 20 years old he's going on 40 years this New Year's. Alcoholism does not discriminate I was an alcoholic addict by the age 20 by the age 15. Just wanted to say awesome job keep it up one day at a time. I was at a meeting nobody showed up so I looked for a recovery video and I came across this. I live on the reservation native reservation in Maine and there is so much desperate need for Recovery here. Very sad to just watch everybody dying that I love. I just turned 42 and I am going on 14 months over it's my first time ever being sober. Tomorrow is Christmas and I am just grateful to be spending it with my two fur babies and very grateful that I'm sober. Keep up the good work!

[@iandavidclarke]

I have to be honest and say at first, I thought, well someone is trying to sell her new book, but then, having listened to you talk and be so candid about what is a horrible addiction and how you have broke free from it, has really impressed me. The hardest thing to do in life is say, I'm a mess and I've screwed up. Nobody wants people to see a weakness and victims will cover it up and pretend that everything is just fine. It's only when you get that one chance to stand up and say, I have a problem, that life can really change for you. You suddenly realise that you are not alone and that there are thousands of people feeling exactly the same as you and fighting to survive. The hardest part is to speak up and not be afraid to face your demons. An addiction will grab you, hold you and stop you telling people it's got you. It's only when you get that one chance to break addictions grasp and say, no more. This break free moment came when that person gave you the AA card. Well done for taking that card and taking the next step. As I watched you speak so honestly and open it made me feel such a connection. Its nice to see the real you, as opposed to just another celeb. Carry on being strong and fight off any temptation that may try to present itself to you. The AA are amazing and are always going to have your corner, so if things ever seem like getting a bit hard, just call them again. They are your swiss army knife and will always have your back. Anyway, I've rattled on enough now. Best wishes to you. Keep fighting the fight. Dont let them demons bite. Stay true. Ian

[@HDRodger]

This was really brave of you, I can’t imagine how much courage it took you to do this. Thank you for sharing your story and for being so open and honest, I’m glad you’re taking the right steps and wish you all the very best Janet.

[@moodini99]

Brave of her to pretend to be an alcoholic to promote her music career? Not really.

[@AmeliaLilyOnline]

moodini99 you’re disgusting. Leave

[@mandross]

moodini99 arsehole

[@moodini99]

@@AmeliaLilyOnline Lol. Arrogant -ex-celebrity wanker! You don't own KZbin, love. Even if you are a decent singer. You Leave

[@moodini99]

@@AmeliaLilyOnline Hang on. Just looked at the channel. You're not even the real person. Just some stupid fan. Thanks a bunch. Fucking idiot!

[@missannaliese18]

why am i only seeing this now, and ohmygosh you literally havent aged. and thanks for sharing. i love what you said, "The pain isn’t comfortable its familiar" it totally sucks. i battle with mental health and anger issues, but i know that every day i have to choose to be happy knowing my mind will take over, and that sucks but choosing to be happy or at least starting your day right helps. We love you Janet, excited for where your music will take you now, now that its pure you and in a stable mindset

[@xila762]

We love to have you here, so you are not alowed to leave!

[@Lucy-gd9ef]

It really goes to show you never know what people are going through. I live in Sheffield and I wish when you were here I could have given you a big hug 😔 x

[@jimwilson6211]

Brave, so very brave for a young person. powerful, honest. I wish you well from across the miles and across from age. Be true to you. Respect.

[@DerLuk698]

I can totally understand you. I am not an alcoholic, but my Dad is one. What i has to learn in past years, was self-confidence. I thought for years that my must be like other persons,i felt that no one could never love me in my life. So i had a long depression and suicidal thoughts, well i tried it a few times but i never did it. Its very hard to realize, that everybody is different and to build up self-confidence and sometimes just open the mouth. I felt that you sad, that you sad you had been so self hatred, because i was at this time too. The best way in my opinion is to just "hunt" your dreams, in you perspective to produce wonderful music, and i would like to be someday a master electrician. (

[@Plan-C]

Your honesty is very refreshing. It doesn't make any difference how rich, powerful, big, strong, successful, popular, etc etc etc you are. It is a chemical dependency and it will crush anybody. Well done. You could have been describing me with the anxiety, the negative self talk, the imposter syndrome, the shutting the noise off, the anxiety attacks and that self doubt. Just remember, every time you face down your demons, they get weaker and you get stronger. You are MUCH stronger than you think you are. Well done.

[@CookieMunstaaa]

You have had the moment and the clarity that my own father couldn't even achieve when he spiraled at 30. Well done on taking the steps to become a better version of yourself and being able to take your experience and grow, rather than try to remove entirely from shame. If I hadn't have fallen pregnant when I had, I was in the middle of feeling that switch happen. From social to depending on alcohol. I will forever be thankful that I was given a blessing to take me away from the horrific path I would have taken. Thank you for this. I didn't come online today to seek out anything like this, but here you are!

[@yobtar92]

Never will give up on you janet, you are such an amazing lady and your so brave to be open the way you are, it’s really inspiring and beIng honest seeing you get teary eyed made me teary eyed and I just wanna give you a big hug now 🖤 Love you loads and your work. I can’t wait to listen to you album when it comes out and looking forward to Friday for your new single

[@janetdevlin]

Thank you so so much!! ❤️❤️ x

[@karenh7537]

My beautiful beautiful wee sister passed away from alcoholism at 29 and there was nothing we could do to help her, breaks my heart every day, stay strong xxx

[@nels9577]

I’m so sorry for you loss 🙏🏾

[@eigorenshiyu1212]

I " LOVE YOU",my sister! I know it sounds strange coming from a stranger but, I truly do! If you could feel this feeling I feel, you would feel unexplainably amazing!! So, I am sending you these vibes and praying that God will deliver them to the deepest part of your soul!!! You are so much more than what you know! You have just been lost. I pray for your path to shine bright for you to follow unmistakably! Thank you, my sister, for your rawness, for your truthfullness!!! May the God of all creation put a burning light in your heart! Shine girl, shine!

[@jah8875]

Hi Janet. I've watched your audition so many times and thought you seemed like the most amazing person. I realise now that I underestimated how incredible you are. Thank you for your bravery in speaking about your struggle with alcohol. I think that if other people can see that someone who clearly has such a good heart and kind soul can feel inadequate then they may realise that they should doubt the validity of their own self-hate. Thank you for doing this and for making the world better. (THANKS AGAIN - YOU ARE AMAZING)

[@AIMelodiessCollective]

I would have never tought you were in this situation and that's one the main problem of this thing! My father was but could never expressed it. You have a lot of courage, I wish you the best Janet!

[@lrcastoe]

Hi Janet...Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am sure it was very difficult to explain to others something so very personal. My mother died at 53 from alcoholism, and my sister died at 46. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out! Never doubt how wonderful you are! You are an amazing person! Every day, I miss my Mother and Sister. It is the worst feeling to have tried to save them from themselves, and failed. Please, never put that burden on your family. You have a long life ahead of you. Find something silly to direct your addictive tendencies, something that is not a health risk to you. Maybe it's video games...maybe charity work, whatever interests you, and that you could become addicted to. As long as you have some addiction, it will feed that need you have deep inside of you. We love you, and want you in our lives until our dying days. I want to see you on the stage when I am 90, happy and healthy.... Laurie

[@budgiespat7883]

Janet - you are such a sweet courageous "girl" - it is so touching that you dared to speak about the hardest years of your life and it is great that you dared to work hard and now dare to cry, to laugh, to be happy and sad and happy again and socialize without substances ... the darkness has been washed away with your decision to LOVE YOURSELF !! Move on, make music, love and embrace each single moment of your life ! ... THANK YOU, JANET ! ... many young people will take this open emotional revelation as a huge help for their own life and maybe can overcome their addiction too.