My AWFUL Inpatient Experience | Eating Disorder Recovery

[@SarahSmith-dx5kk]

I had a very similar treatment experience at an inpatient unit for EDs and SH. We were crammed in a tiny room (barely had room to walk) and were locked out of our rooms from 7:45am to 9:00pm. We had to sit in a chair the entire day and they were so rude and would threaten you with a wheel chair I'd you were standing. It was the same things with groups. Most of them had nothing to do with treatment and it felt like they were just trying to keep us busy. I hope you're doing good!

[@PaulHosey-u3l]

Jesus, it sounds like being punished like you've done something wrong. That's why my greatest fear has always been having the wrong person figuring it out.

[@elysiabronte]

four months and the worst four months of my life. just like a feeding farm that was competitive with others rather than making me want to recover...

[@PaulHosey-u3l]

Did they put you in there against your will? Because that's pointless. People will just pick up where they left off when they leave. I've managed to just lie about it lol but I've never heard anything positive about those places.

[@wendykrugman8195]

I really appreciate your story!! I felt bad about leaving program initially and now I dont. Thank you so much!!!

[@wendykrugman8195]

I agree with you 100 percent!!! I had same experience!! I didnt last 1 week. I had horrible gastrointestinal problems from them overfeeding me with too much food! among many other things it wasn’tnt for me. I was called out for really stupid things in groups. There was a girl that hated me too. I didnt do anything lol. I didnt feel comfortable talking about anything. They didnt let me exercise at all. I went CRAZY sitting around all day long.

[@cazlovescakes]

I think you being recovered is all the payback your parents would want x

[@ellarosecallow9077]

This broke my heart 💔your passion, heart and integrity shine through each video and that is so special!

[@kristimichelle]

Thank you for this beautiful comment ❤️

[@blessedmommy7349]

After having an ED for over 40 years, I have learned that you will get out of treatment what you put into it. I was very grateful for the therapy because too many don’t have this opportunity. It’s hard, but worth it if you see value in the therapy

[@PaulHosey-u3l]

This kind of thing is why I and many others would rather just keep it to ourselves.

[@soniczforever5470]

Id be in severe pain if i sat all day my hips are crocked diagnosed anorexic. I was allowed stay home but outpatient is scary all the same. I was told id been given tubes and anti psychotics if i didnt comply. I have a history of severe seizures so said i will comply with weight gain plan instead. Im just lean bulking. I was afraid that id get refeeding syndrome and die if i ate too many calories too fast. Fortunately im doing well eating more at home and reversing the muscle wastage. I want to be able to stay driving and be empowered.

[@Feverm00n]

I appreciate the balanced retelling, I felt like I could trust your story, if that makes sense. Hope you’re doing better now!!!!

[@elizabethter-sahakyan6692]

Dear, I just watched. I hope you are well now...be gracious towards yourself...every loving parent would do anything possible to help their child who struggles, at any cost...❤

[@aaa45028]

all group! no one on one and actually i was in a treatment with 24 girls and 12 didnt eat just scammed. so depressing. also yelled at and told what to do and told to stay impedes human rights.

[@aaa45028]

same with me left angry after three days, my shrink said she will get a court order to bring me back. Am thinking of going viral forcing me to stay inpedes on human rights. many things tht begin tohappen in their impede on human rights and dignity. am so cross. but ill let it go and move to a postiive state as in there i figured out iwasnt allergice to dairy and didnt have a mental illness tht was an amazing help.

[@louisasmith9388]

Now I’ve listened to most of your video (and will finish it). Money is a huge motive for these facilities.... they do not help, they hurt, and they charge so much money. I’ll say at least you were not force-fed or locked on a room where youhaf to sit still (thoigh its not healthy for most people gaining weight OR recovering from other types of EDs to move around and feel centered in their (often newly larger) bodies. I’m glad you wanted to fight when maybe your parents had felt they “had” to pay fir treatment (facilities often scare parents about EDs), ...for the fraudulent sounding misrepresentations (alleged- I say for solely lrgal reasons). Glad you fought: consider law school; I like your spunk! Or enter one if these “medical” fields (MD, PhD, MSW, LICSW, etc), and rise to the top and TEACH THEM WHAT YOU ALREADY KNOW! Or just try to “ move on and *don’t let it define you* “ -. though sharing it here is an act of great generosity and a very important warning. I’ve never heard of a good facility but it’s generous of you to allow that there may be some out there’s d individuals are unique....

[@brattrox2939]

I undeestand not wanting to rely on your parents income as you become more independent but it was your parents choice to pay for the facility and its only natural that parents take that on even well into our adulthood. Its getting harder and hardee to succeed at becoming fully finacially independent at 18 like our parents generation did. And good parents recognize that and help where they can to give you the best chances in life that they can afford.

[@teamTERF]

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[@kalaodonnell2390]

I recommend Rogers Behavioral Health in Oconomowoc, Wisconsin. They individualized the program for your specific struggles. Alot of my homework was based on my struggles from my childhood trauma that was one of the foundations for my eating disorder

[@dreamlesskid2]

Great video. Iv been through multiple 90 day drug and alcohol treatment centers. I'm finally working for one with 10 months clean. It is super boring but I did learn to entertain myself and I learned how to deal with difficult/weird/ cooky people lol

[@kristimichelle]

Congratulations that's a huge accomplishment!! Keep up the amazing work. Haha yeah you do meet all types of people that's for sure.

[@orangecreamswirl3078]

Glad you are feeling better 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@liashankland6139]

I went to a eating disorder inpatient treatment on July 2 got out on July 5 I was scared to death they would not let me go to the bathroom without asking after breakfast they through I was going throw up my food then they let me go to the bathroom alone in my room my roommate made me fell a lot better it has helped me a lot they were pretty strek

[@kristimichelle]

The bathroom situation was definitely one of the hardest things for me! I hope you're doing well now :)

[@wendykrugman8195]

Im proud of you for sticking it out for 30 days!

[@evjogkg344]

I’m scared to go to treatment cuz I’m one hand it’ll be good for me but I’m the other hand I can’t be around other people with them! I need individual counseling and holistic approaches to this just therapist

[@Mary-br8ox]

So then what treatment did you seek? I am running into this issue, not feeling the therapies, it's not that I'm resisting treatment, every thing is handled with kid gloves. I dont want to figure out my residential treatment by trial & error. I want to find a better treatment fit, especially in California,

[@louisasmith9388]

I saw your title and this needs more attention! I’ve not finished but the claim “just gethelp, just ask, etc” is worse than tiresome. I testified before US Congress about abusive tx of EDs, among other topics, and I was not alone!! Hundreds of witnesses about different places (& at different times). Seems like you are going to figure it out in your own (which not everyone can...) I really hope you are okay. I’ll come back to your channel - but just really really wanted to give you kudos for educating people that “just going inpatient” is NOT always good it is often vetybad, very harmful. And upwards of $40-$100,000 US easily, I’d self paying.

[@louisasmith9388]

*(edit) “IF SELF-PAYING.” Sorry about the typos.

[@kristimichelle]

Thank you for this comment! It's honestly really encouraging to know I'm not alone in my experience.

[@teamTERF]

Blaming other people for your thoughts actions and feelings is a very eating disorder type of behavior... I would have just ignored that girl who was blaming you for all of her mental problems.

[@silent_amy]

Really curious as to the name of this center. Sounds a lot like a place that I went to

[@kristimichelle]

Hi Amy, feel free to message me on Instagram :) I'm happy to share that info with you privately, but would prefer not to publicize it :) My Instagram is @kristis_day

[@aaa45028]

The time!!!! the money!!! the Bordem!!! you are me!!! exactly the same as me!!! bored omg. It was like 1215 and we had nothing but meals support alll day long. and also everyone was so constipated was so uncomfortable. anyways just go on a christmas holiday and gain weight like this is some bullshit I have to go to work to gym to my social ife !

[@annabanana6965]

Thank you for sharing

[@cardinnairn6345]

It's a real wake-up call when you think you're not even sick enough for the day program, yet they deny you cus you're too sick.

[@kristimichelle]

Absolutely this is so true! I don't know if I've ever met someone who thought they were "sick enough" to get help or go to treatment. But that is 100% the eating disorder talking.

[@RamonaGrafdotCom]

Sounds to me like you weren’t ready for treatment yet or the facility was not the right one for you 🤔

[@teamTERF]

FACTS

[@nikkifahey]

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