My eating disorder: Day in the life of an anorexic

My eating disorder story: Taking you through thoughts I had and things I did while suffering with anorexia. Unexpected crying does happen!

[@kittymcmeowmeow1]

I've seen a lot of eating disorder videos on here but i feel like yours is the one that's truly the most touching and relatable to me personally. you're so honest and you can see how you go through these different emotions and reflect on your legitimate past feelings and it just feels so much more personal than anything else, you really are an amazing person just because of the people that you might've helped through this video

[@Erik-Slash]

+sasha Bonilla I am just now seeing this but I wish I could tell you how much that means to me!! Thank you for telling me these things, they have really encouraged me! I didn't know if anyone was really watching my videos because they're so long, but your comment alone makes it worth it!!

[@maiblue48]

wow I can recognize with you in so many ways. I was suffering with anorexia for 5 years, addicted to sugar substitute too and putting it in everything, thinking that within love and relationship my ed will be gone.... I feel a bit less alone now. its a horrible illness. p.s you are so beautiful

[@lauralewis6336]

Thank you so much for sharing this video, you are so brave and incredibly beautiful both inside and out, when you read in this video what you had written in your journal I’ve never before felt such a connection with just exactly how you worded this, I feel I sometimes wish I could just slip away and not wake up because this miserable pitiful existence is just continuous, for me it’s bulimia then to starving and back to binge and purge and I was the one that willingly started and entered this hell basically 😔but once again thank you so much for such an accurate and honest description of eating disorder existence, you’re inspirational x

[@VeganogaHome]

You're very brave for putting yourself out there and revealing the raw uncensored truth. Inspirational!

[@Erik-Slash]

+VegaNoga thank youuu!! I'm trying to create the kind of videos the old me would have benefitted from to help other girls still in my shoes! =)

[@VeganogaHome]

I'm sure they're fulfilling their purpose ♥

[@nurblue574]

i felt that, i started to cry so much. you are so strong now that you have battled your demons, your own cage. I would like one day to feel like that but I just feel so regretfull of all the pain that I caused, I no longer see any light. I really empathize with those emotions you talked about

[@lanazon4045]

Gulden’s on everythinggggg (by everything I mean cucumbers and celery) ♥️✨Thank you for sharing your story 🤍✨

[@exh-hm2sm]

I don’t need a man to make my life sweet I’m glad you’re better. 💜

[@MelodyFox15]

You're way strong! Thanks for sharing with us

[@renemorris1632]

I remember always seeing you and botchy in Walmart bunches of times like at night and you were really small but I think you look beautiful and alot healthier but u always have looked beautiful I don't really know you but I'v seen you around and knew your name but I never knew what u was going threw or the reason you was so skinny but I'm glad your getting your getting it out there for other people to understand and hopefully help other people with the same problem u had struggled so hard with keep your head up girly and keep trying everyday your success may be the reason for someone else's to

[@Erik-Slash]

Thank you so much for that, girl! I know your face and name, I've probably seen you around too and on Facebook. To me it'll all be worth it if I can help someone else change. =) thanks again for the love!

[@LinGin91]

That journal entry...girl can WRITE! Hope you find a more positive headspace to use your talent from.

[@PaulHosey-u3l]

Sometimes I sleep too much rather than the other way around. It's like my body is sleeping for energy to make up for not eating. I also tend to have a reasonable amount of energy in the morning and by the end of the afternoon I feel like death. I won't get into detail about what I do eat. You get it.

[@kelcirussell7324]

you are so freaking gourgous

[@Erik-Slash]

+Kelci Russell awww thank you, love!!

[@sunnyamarex3460]

This is so beautiful

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

I feel the same with fitting my hand around my arm

[@katiegrundle9900]

I would wear a cardigan all tge time so I don't have to look at my arms, I still do, if that makes any sense

[@lenas3124]

you and your videos are amazing ❤

[@pandamacika21]

Huge thank you for sharing

[@michellepalaguachi8656]

I suffer from it now it is horrible i can't deal with this bs every single day of my life

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

Michelle Palaguachi me too. Had it for a year now. Relapse, recover, relapse recover....

[@renemorris1632]

your welcome ;)

[@tmaxwell6033]

Damn you get people leaving some ignorant ass comments on here huh.

[@jessicacrowley2555]

omg....... you got to have breakfast AND be tiny!!! how many calories would you eat...? i mean i personally try to eat like 300 or under but then i binge and then i feel like crap and yeah.... anyways you are awesome and inspirational and i hope i get as small as you one day xx

[@Stinky_Suzie]

Just eat food you nutter And turn your phone around

[@Erik-Slash]

Obviously you didn't pay attention, I am recovered now talking about the struggle I went through. Your ignorance is painful. Someone with this illness can't just eat and get better, the problem is all in the mind.

[@Stinky_Suzie]

Erika The Tiger If you are recovering that means that you are now eating. This is exactly what I am advising you to do.

[@Erik-Slash]

I am fully recovered, being recovered from anorexia nervosa is not simply eating, many girls gain weight and eat a good amount of food but are still miserable, hate their bodies, think they fat and still want to be thin and have a constant desire to lose more weight until they are sickly thin. Just eating does NOT equal recovered. Recovered is a mental state, which I have thankfully found.

[@ex797951]

Erika The Tiger ur amazing

[@HelloHello-hk4sx]

Course...just talking, no showing. 😒

[@ainsleyhart1394]

Dude wtf. Get out.