My Full Psychosis Recovery Process

I have had a lot of requests for this video so here it is! In this video, I go through the whole process of recovery that I went through starting from the psychosis itself to becoming integrated back into society again. I hope you find it helpful!
E-mail: [e-mail]
Instagram: @justbeinghayden13
Website: haydenmoreau.wordpress.com
Donate: www.paypal.com/donate/?cmd=_d...
Music: Out of the Skies, Under the Earth by Chris Zabriskie is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (creativecommons.org/licenses/... chriszabriskie.com/reappear/Ar... chriszabriskie.com/r/Artist: chriszabriskie.com/

[@danieljones4648]

The part about feeling like you lost something that you had before psychosis spoke to me the most I feel like I've lost my ability to process my own thoughts well and I feel like my mind was very organized before and now it seems out of sync I don't feel like myself and its a strange feeling I'm also stuck in a depression and I don't know how to get motivated to get back into life but thanks for the videos man helps to know that someone's made the transition back to reality so at least I know it's possible for me aswell

[@justbeinghayden9451]

How long ago was your psychosis?

[@danieljones4648]

@@justbeinghayden9451 it happened in 2015 it was quiet severe I had visual and audio hallucinations and I was delusional for about a couple years after it thinking that what I seen and heard was real and everyone else was wrong I couldn't and still can't understand how something that isn't there feels as real as the reality we're in now and what does that say about our reality itself so I've kinda left it as a mystery and tried to forget about it but my whole world view has changed aswell and I don't know how to move forward with that

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@danieljones4648 have you had any coaching or counseling?

[@danieljones4648]

@@justbeinghayden9451 yea I had a mental health worker from 2015 to 2018 which helped alot just to talk about everything but I haven't seen them since

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@danieljones4648 From the small amount you have spoken with me, I think that having someone to help you work through some of these things would be really beneficial. I offer coaching, but realize that not everyone can afford it. If you have insurance it might be worth finding someone who is covered under your plan. Psychosis recovery is very challenging and most if not all people who go through it need guidance to work through it. I'm still going to counseling now. Regardless, I wish you the best and if you decide you'd like some coaching you can email or message me on Instagram.

[@layotheleprechaun]

Having that safe space for recovery is so important

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Couldn't agree more! Hope you are well!

[@layotheleprechaun]

@@justbeinghayden9451 hope you're well too brother!

[@saminabukhari7336]

Your awesome, well done 🙏🏼

[@emiliohurtado8185]

Yo man im very happy to see you better! As you say, rather than seeing this episode as a bad thing it always helps to perceive it as a transitory phase you will eventually come out of... for some people it is faster than for others. Time, discipline, reflection, a positive mindset and help from others are extremely useful for recovery, but most importantly, the DESIRE for change.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Very true thanks for sharing!

[@garytroxell7763]

I sincerely appreciate your videos I have learned a lot in dealing with a close family member that has been through a very similar situation approximately eight months ago. Regarding medications in dealing with the marijuana induced psychosis I strongly encourage folks to research the dangers of these medications.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Thank you for sharing! I can understand the concern with medication and it's definitely something to keep in mind. I am a big advocate for an active relationship with medication, meaning communicating with the doctors and adjusting the dose depending on how recovery is going. Some people may not need medication and others might need it to help them ground, some may need it for just a few months other for a few years, it really depends. When using them there is always a cost benefit analysis that needs to be done regarding if it is helping symptoms and how many side effects it produces. I appreciate you sharing 🙂 I am glad the videos have been helpful for you !

[@layotheleprechaun]

Love the new Tibetan bowl intro👌🏻

[@loriejohnston839]

What kind of help did you receive? Did you go to counseling with a psychologist or did you go to a first time psychosis program? My son who is twenty two is still recovering from psychosis that began in 2019. I tell him to watch your videos because they are very helpful for the family to understand what an individual goes through and helps the ones experiencing psychosis. We have gone through ditching the medications, lack of insight and just trying to find a provider that is experienced in psychosis. I am glad you are doing well and thank you!

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Thanks for sharing. I'm glad you have found my videos helpful! After the hospital for a week, I was with my parents and had counseling once a week. I was able to find counselors that I really resonated with and it helped a lot. Otherwise, my parents were a huge support for me and I was always tinkering trying to find ways to improve and get better. I try to share what helped me on this channel, but there is only so much I can share in videos. I also do sessions with people to give them direct personalized plans to help them recover. I wish you the best in the recovery process, I know it can be hard on everyone.

[@loriejohnston839]

Thank you so much! I may email you and see if you could talk to my son sometime and I would compensate you for this guidance. I think he is gaining insight and now we are trying to find a good counselor to work with him. Thank you so much!

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@loriejohnston839 I would be happy to help! My rate is $30 for 30 minutes and $50 for 60 minutes. Feel free to reach out!

[@aew234]

There is a great resource for cannabis induced psychosis. Johnnys ambassadors. Our 22 year old has cannabis and vyvansse induced psychosis since October when we noticed his early warning sign symptoms. He had been a heavy daily high thc user for three years. We were finally able to force him into help through 911. Multiple streets failed bc he wasn’t always in an acute state but mostly in a low level psychosis where he could hide symptoms. He was continuing both substances so psychosis didn’t wake completely. He was admitted to Yale for 15 day psych ward stay now at Newport institute for young males. There are programs that specialize in CIPD I feel inpatient saved him with my husband and I were involved in his delusions of being tracked and he was still experiencing residual psychosis he could not come home - not safe for any of us upon admission to Newport institute he was anxious and still paranoid. But as the substances came out we saw our son coming back. He is on week 3 in treatment and is getting a structure to his life and his health back. He looks better than he has in years. Though we are to amazing and grateful he has come out of 8 months of living hell for our entire family he still is struggling with insight that he has psychosis and that the has any negative impact on the developing brain. We feel because of this. He isn’t even at step one of recovery and continuing residential treatment or IOP has to be the next step. We feel having our son home out of a structured environment with professional support would risk relapse within a week. If he accepted he has a substance abuse problem and accepted that thc had detrimental effects on him it doesn’t have on most people and he shows us he wants to get better and is open to help he needs to overcome the addiction we would have him home and receive treatment locally. Hayden you must have had enough insight to motivate you to accept help and support Our son won’t accept it bc he thinks there is no problem other than the fact thc is demotivating. He remember parts of his delusions and says we took what he said the wrong way etc exaggerated it but we know what he saw and heard and he was out of touch with reality and not just “ joking around” with us. He doesn’t acknowledge he was in psychosis but admits thc makes him paranoid but that it’s not bad enough to stop. We feel it just takes time to gain that insight and he has been stuck in a delusional thought process for over 6 months so we feel intensive therapy to challenge and restructure his belief pattens is needed. We are offering several options for the next step of recovery with labeling his stay at Newport institute as stabilization PACE recovery in CA Foundry in CO ReCo in Florida Johnnys ambassadors has a large listing of resources. Parents Check out first episode clinics near you. Some don’t take patients if substance use is behind psychosis some do. Also providers that do cbt for psychosis is rare but out there. We just pray out son agrees to continued help. Yea come a long way but has a long way to go still in building a new foundation. We pray he gains insight into how destructive thc is and never turns to it again. Best of luck to all those out there struggling with psychosis. It is treatable and reversible with the right help !

[@lizbethgarcialopez6091]

Thank you for your content! I know exactly what you mean by feeling like you lost something after psychosis. I feel like I lost my life and spark after my marijuana induced psychosis and now my personality is more dull and i don’t even recognize who I am anymore. I feel like the cup i spent filing up for so long was knocked over and everything spilt out. Do you feel like that happened to you? If so how did you cope with it? Were you ever able to get back to the person you used to be after the 3 years of reintegrating ?? I feel like I really really fucked up a life I once loved and I can’t move forward

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Thanks for reaching out. This is a really common theme that I have seen with people after psychosis, so you are definitely not alone in feeling this way. I will say recovery looks different for each person and that part of moving forward is letting go of wanting to be the same as before. The main practice I focus on is accepting where I am, knowing what is in my control and what is not in my control. Accepting what I cannot control and working on the things I can control. It sounds simple but is challenging in practice, but living a life worth living is possible after psychosis. If you feel like you want to talk more about what you are feeling or need help with this process feel free to reach out to me on Instagram or my email which are both in the description of my videos. I genuinely hope you feel empowered again and would be happy to help you in that process . Thanks again for sharing 🙂

[@loriejohnston839]

Curious about what other medications besides, Risperidone that you needed while recovering from psychosis. My son takes Lithium, low dose Clozapine but they have never put him on an antidepressant in which I feel he needs because he seems so fatigued and he has lack of motivation. Thank you and I am so happy you have recovered from psychosis.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

I only took risperidone for treatment. I tried a couple of other antipsychotics, but they didn't work for me. Medication is very unique to each individual, so that's something you should talk with your psychiatrist about.

[@jamesmay4789]

I'm recovering from psychosis on Risperidone and antidepressant feel same as your son but also have no happy or sad feeling no emotion at all making hard to remember life and hard to make a future worth the effort.

[@DouglasDrouillard]

@@jamesmay4789 Especially for Children. Letting them navigate the ups and downs is what living is about. Blowing it out with meds is damaging. Especially if the issue is performance at school. Kids sitting around being forced to learn things they aren't interested in (no motivation) is the real problem, not the kids.

[@aew234]

I think you would be a huge asset to Johnnys Ambassadors foundation

[@andreimarian7140]

Thanks for the video. Did you take your medication during the depression stage?

[@justbeinghayden9451]

I was on risperidone, an antipsychotic, during the depression phase, but no antidepressants or anything like that.

[@0oooooo0]

My husband has had two episodes of Psychosis and I am really struggling to know what to do. He is in the locked wards for around six weeks and he is saying he doesn't want to take medication and even says he wants to stay in psychosis. As a carer of someone who has Psychosis I am really lacking in resources and have no idea how Im supposed to support someone who refuses to take medication....any videos or tips on the perspective of care givers and my current situation would be appreciated.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Thank you for sharing. I can understand why this would be a stressful and difficult situation. Honestly, in these situations the only thing you can do is take care of yourself and get the help you need. If someone is not willing to take care of themselves you cannot force them to. I would suggest reaching out to a coach and/or counselor to help you through this time. Your husband will have to figure out his path, you can still be there for him if you choose to, but he has to be willing to change and come out of the psychosis to recover. It's kind of similar to when an addict doesn't believe they have a problem and doesn't want to seek help. My heart goes out to you and your family, I know its not easy.

[@lisa-hq1np]

Thanks Hayden. A friend goes into psychosis every time they use but this is only recent. What does it mean if you keep going into psychosis? Xx

[@justbeinghayden9451]

It probably means that whatever your friend is using is triggering psychosis. It would probably be in their best interest to discontinue use. Usually, this kind of thing doesn't get better with continued use. I wish them the best, it can be challenging for a number of reasons.

[@abdulrahmanalamri2473]

I had alcohol induced psychosis about a year and half ago... I'm wondering when will it be possible for me to drink alcohol again? I'm planing to start drinking alcohol in 6 months from now, but I'm afraid of relapse

[@justbeinghayden9451]

If alcohol induced psychosis for you, then I would suggest thinking about whether it's worth the risk of going into psychosis again. I tried using cannabis again and went back into psychosis. There are other ways to feel good other than drinking. Maybe try finding something else that could replace drinking for you, like lifting or a hobby? Wishing you the best!

[@abdulrahmanalamri2473]

@@justbeinghayden9451 Thanks a lot Hayden!

[@eparsells]

Stop drinking dude

[@nvskishore4658]

I am having schizophrenia after Astral projection practice, taking medicines of schizophrenia but still no passion in life just living with no purpose please guide me

[@SpankyJR007]

It’s tough dude. Time heals

[@justbeinghayden9451]

I would need to speak with you more to know what is going on. It's tough to know how to guide until I know where things might be coming from. Feel free to reach out to me on Instagram or my email [e-mail].

[@jamesmay4789]

I'm in same boat and just can't seem to figure out how to change. Life is same every day now with no reason to achieve or enjoy the now or future. Past seems like a lost experience of learning that doesn't help me now.

[@Slidehhy]

​@@jamesmay4789it's a horrible disease

[@eparsells]

Has anyone compared feeling or thinking that they are high functioning autistic after there psychosis ? Also being diagnosed as that by a therapist after your psychosis but having no symptoms of autism as a child from birth to 14?

[@User98681]

Yes I totally relate to this. The healing possible. Pscilosibin mushrooms has helped me tremendously

[@user-mm8rb1iz6s]

What are some examples worldviews you had to reframe?

[@justbeinghayden9451]

My biggest one was looking for signs that I was on the "right" path. And making decisions based on perceived or interpreted signs instead of making my own choices. I also thought I was Jesus, among other things, and that all kinds of dramas were unfolding around me. Maybe I'll make a video about it! Good question!

[@user-mm8rb1iz6s]

@@justbeinghayden9451 You definitely should! I resonate with your experiences and I'm glad you're making these videos as they've been really insightful for my own recovery. Did your friends experience you while you were in psychosis? If yes, how did you cope with it coming out of it?

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@user-mm8rb1iz6s That could be another video lol. Glad my videos have been helpful for you. I did not really have any friends at the time that made it difficult for me to deal with afterwards, I did have some people see what happened to me but I never saw most of them again. I think a lot of it boils down to self judgement. If you can learn to accept what happened to you and forgive yourself for it that's the only thing you can really control. As far as other people you can educate them about psychosis and your experience, just know that it's ultimately their decision what they decide to do.

[@amaralzaier5032]

Do u had any delutions in phase 2or3 ?

[@justbeinghayden9451]

Yep they lasted a while for me. They were not as strong as in phase 1, but they were still there. Some of them got deeply embedded into my worldview. It took me a while to work through it. I still make changes to my worldview today, not because I'm delusional, but sometimes I find things that aren't helpful to me. Good question!

[@amaralzaier5032]

@@justbeinghayden9451 does it go away or its permanent ?

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@amaralzaier5032 Yes it can go away, but it's a practice. At some point, you have to become aware of the delusions you are having and choose to not believe or follow that train of thought. It takes time and trial and error, but yes with time, it did go away for me. And you may need outside help to help you realize what beliefs are delusional and which are based on reality. Hope that is helpful!

[@amaralzaier5032]

@@justbeinghayden9451 thanx alot .👋

[@greenapple-nr5yz]

I know you said risperidone worked for you what other meds did you try that didn't work for you? Also do you still take risperidone I know some people taper off safely with the help of a doctor.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

I tried latuda but it didn't work for me. I still take 0.25mg a day of risperidone. I tapered off after my first psychosis, but have found it helps my mood swings to be on a little.

[@greenapple-nr5yz]

Hayden howcome latuda didn't work for you? I'm currently on latuda, my doctor said I might have to stay on medication for life.

[@justbeinghayden9451]

@@greenapple-nr5yz Latuda gave me akathisia, so it was not a good option for me. I know it can be overwhelming when a doctor says something like that, what has helped me was to focus on what I can do right now to feel better instead of thinking way ahead into the future. Know that everyone's journey is different and you can always communicate with your doctor as your recovery process goes along to figure out what would be best for you. I hope that is helpful, wish you the best in your recovery.