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[@AdamWong]

The pooping pants story is actually true. This is just to deflect attention.

[@leomonz]

I think so, he tried to cover up the embarrassment

[@meyrlansuirkhanov1358]

Adam Wong 😂😂😂

[@callmechocolateboy]

If that's not true then why he deleted that video ?

[@TheFootballPlaya]

I thought pooping your pants on the spot was part of the job.

[@halim6150]

I've actually looked for that video and it doesn't exist. I wonder if he deleted it. And if he deleted it... why ? :)

[@cloud5887]

"Im not crazy!!!!'' - said every crazy person ever. xD

[@damiengates7581]

"Bullshit!" - Dr Phil

[@davidpham6330]

I was obsessed as hell for my Amazon final round as well. I studied months for it, developed horrible health problems that I believe are now chronic, and just got super depressed after finding out that I worked so hard just to fail. Listening to your videos on why these tech interviews are broken and hearing from your other videos that not working at FAANG is okay really got me through bad times. No interview is worth your health or sanity. Thanks for the indirect encouragement and support!

[@KevinNaughtonJr]

Dope vid and totally agree you gotta have a healthy balance in all aspects of life becoming too obsessed about anything isn't healthy

[@TEDBET622]

I really appreciate you having the guts to share this. I started my own KZbin channel partly because I was inspired by you and to track my own internship application process so I really empathize with feeling that stress after flexing and working hard for so long for something. You are the man, happy to be a subscriber.

[@subhambanerjee6334]

Same thing I feel I could not even sleep at nights getting nightmares of having a problem which I can not solve in an interview. and watching all those success stories of people getting placed in google, amazon and what not really putting extra pressure on me I love coding but this part is making me unsocial and like a robot

[@shreeram_kulkarni]

I'm literally suffering this same issue

[@T_tintin]

I am stressed too but mayb not that much but I too get dreams about problems I couldn't solve

[@gto11520]

you have that developer/engineering mentality that gets overly obsessed when you are trying to complete a task . It is a really great trait to have when solving problems. Love your videos and keep up the good work. We are all crazy.

[@chishikiendeavourer8663]

I have that too.

[@zaketenyu1932]

@@chishikiendeavourer8663 I have syphilis

[@t6hp]

@@zaketenyu1932 Hey congrats!

[@quinlanalaynateague5338]

At first I wanted to work at one of fang places but hearing everyone talk about their experience makes me feel nervous about it. This type of stuff makes me anxious too, and it really takes away enjoyment take technology . I just wanna job where I can create and I’m good. Thanks for your story man.

[@TheKhalid1]

I really do appreciate you being so vulnerable and honest with your audience. Interview prepping over the last couple of months has made me incredibly anxious, videos like this are just as helpful as your coding videos. Thanks for all you do Nick, I'll definitely continue to be a Patreon supporter!

[@Gilgamesh827]

Can 100% relate. And you have taken a step in the right direction: just being glad for the way things are now. If you can properly ingrain that thought, you can aim for higher with the confidence that if things don't work out, everything is still okay.

[@NitrixTech]

Hey man, I've been in a similar self destruct phase before. Nothing is worth being there. Glad you're happy with where you're at now!

[@MrFrazerz]

@Nick @Nitrix Yo, I just graduated with a CS degree, and I swear I am going through a self-destructive phase right now fueled by fucking anxiety even though I've had internship experience and did well in college. Please fucking help me. How do I escape from this? It feels like every day I fall into the same habitual self-destructive actions that continuously set back all of my hard work. I even started looking up articles about self sabotage. I've never experienced anything like this. How the fuck do I escape this? Should I just walk away for the computer for 3 months and just forget about everything and take a break?

[@NitrixTech]

@@MrFrazerz I don't think anyone here can give you an straight answer to this. Please remember that there are way more important things in life than a job, especially your first job right out of college. If you're dealing with mental health issues, consider getting professional help. Good luck friend

[@orlandorojasmoncada9110]

4:50 this guy has more flow than tekashi

[@Ck-ir8ts]

More like a song x)

[@jessvaldez601]

Needed this man after a beat up all day coding interview. Thanks for all your videos.

[@sukhrobgolibboev]

I had a similar situation, I can relate to it. I reached out to my recruiter multiple times and never got any response but never went that far like you did. But you know what now I know I am not the only inpatient candidate when it comes to the hiring process. BTW your videos were so helpful to prepare for my interviews and now I got an offer.

[@jennyh4156]

Honestly, for the past 2 months I was in the interview process with a startup, everything went well and recruiter told me I’ve passed my interviews, but a few weeks ago they told me that the position was cancelled due to the pandemic. I can relate to the whole anxiety thing as that’s exactly what I went through during the time when the recruiter told me that I passed to the point when they told me the bad news. All I can say is that what I’ve learned through the experience is to not dwell on a specific thing. Just treat it as a reject and keep moving on with the interview process. That really helps to keep your mind off of things.

[@alexandercao129]

Thank you so much for releasing this video. I just got rejected after an interview today. This video was a reminder to not to let the job search consume you. I'll always remember this vid ;)

[@shikharpilania3290]

When you started guessing their usernames, I guess that was the point where you should've known you went crazy 😂

[@lagseeing8341]

Bruh I'm saying

[@garrycotton7094]

I've gotten insanely anxious with similar parts of the interview process before too. Not so much with waiting for the offer but with the whiteboard interview parts. This part of the interview is the unholy grail of anxiety-inducing horror. It combines anxiety of the following types: - Public speaking. - Being judged. Harshly, at that. - People whispering. - Being anxious (you know, that vicious exponential loop of getting more and more anxious about the fact you're anxious). And you're meant to somehow operate at reasonable capacity while handling all that.

[@afternoontiger9319]

Damn sorry to hear that. Glad you are learning from your mistakes.

[@shankysays]

Dude that's just creepy contacting like this. I'm shocked you couldn't see it through how crazy that is.

[@kiradomochi4961]

He's got his quirks ya lol I think it comes w the big brain 🧠 and overthinking. My ex was like this lol but yea knowledge and wisdom are two different things. Nick grew wise at the end of this and realized important life lessons and how to be happier ✨️ that's what we're ultimately chasing in the end anyway happiness

[@carriezhang1999]

Sorry to hear your story, take good rest and best wishes!

[@juliahuanlingtong6757]

Loveya Nick!!! The video really makes me think we are a pair. I did 2month+ studying day and night nonstop. The whole journey is nothing but excitement, follwed by Obsession and Depression, and body aching. The waiting for feedback period is indeed grinding and torturing soul. What i have tried is , whenever I was about to text harrasse my recuiter and pushing for feedback, I stopped myself by getting up to code somethng, or do something else to kill the impulse. Sometimes, you just have to tell yourself deliberately and repetitvely to overcome being carried away or to prevent your mind wondering and drfiting further.

[@PythonCodeMan]

I am currently going through the same thing bro! But it is great you are settled and doing well!

[@kylemanley915]

Haha man, no regrets. I have definitely done stuff like this. You are insane but insane people make the best programmers!

[@apoorvadave1621]

I could so much relate to this! I interviewed at Google as well and cleared all rounds. The duration between my interview to getting result that I got rejected, I was so anxious and depressed wondering what will be the result. And it felt so bad after being rejected and I didn't want to interview anywhere else. But then I start making coding videos myself and applied to other places and landed a decent offer. This pressure to get into these big companies is real.

[@SailaMaham]

Can confirm, I too went crazy preparing for the interview. while completing a research internship. in a foreign land. amidst COVID19.

[@kimchitacos]

Happiness in life is subjective and defined by your metric (how you measure the quality of life). I am glad to hear that you realized FAANG is not the answer to happiness and found yourself in a place where you feel content and comfortable. I consider FAANG as just one of many different options/paths in life. You can choose to take it or not. Keep up the good content mate! You might be weird but I feel like it'd be nice to have a friend like you :)

[@Scarsofevil]

I feel you. It's fucking stupid how you have to live day by day waiting for a decision. And for them, it's just a process.

[@tanker242]

This makes me think how important it is to read the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. They touch on the idea that you shouldn't put all your eggs on a single basket, mentally, physically, or emotionally. So it was easier for him to loose his cool because he literally put everything into this job hunt to the point the rest of his life was unbalanced. I am glad he is happier at where he is in life and it's a lesson for us all to do the same. This doesn't mean we shouldn't strive for great things, but it means to do it with humility and balance.

[@grim.reaper]

I have anxiety too 🥺 and I have the same tendency to email people, but I take my meds and some sleeping medication to help me sleep and relax... Sorry to hear that you had to go through such tough times 😔😔

[@kimsung2384]

A similar thing happened to me when I got to the final stage at JP Morgan. I was upset for a while but other stuff comes up. In the grand scheme of things, what matters most are your family, friends and your wellbeing.

[@YnMillion]

Coming from someone who messes up all the time when things are good or don’t need messing with and ends up regretting it, I appreciate your honesty, it’s really hard to bare the facts of the situation so straight-faced

[@MrZsGames]

You're preaching the truth man, the whole process is so amped up as if not working there makes you an obsolete programmer. I'm sure if i apply myself and grind out algos i can make it into FANG. But why? Why burn out when you're young, and then if i were to get in, what's next? Do people really think working at these companies give you happiness? It's an achievement yes, but most people blow up the idea in their head hence the anxiety. Good on you for noticing that. Anyone with a bachelors in CS or engineering from a reputable university definitely has the potential to get into google, some people hate themselves because they can't and that is also a source of toxicity. Subscribed.

[@abdullahsaleh5968]

Apprecieate n love the transperancy! Keep doing you gangsta!

[@iliyanangelov]

Just found your channel, absolutely solid content! It's miles ahead of the more famous SWE "look at me" youtubers. Needless to say, subscribed right away

[@imagineexistance4538]

The real story

[@savethedeveloper]

Nick, you are a wise man to learn at a young age the lessons you have shared

[@quinn479]

Sorry to hear about your anxiety. You're a very talented engineer and a very entertaining content creator. You will find yourself in a position that is great for you, wherever that may be. It's good to have high reaching goals, and eventually your natural talents will lead you to a place that makes you very happy and fulfilled.

[@jose-lael]

Great timing. Just got rejected today after my onsite. I was having anxiety as well (although I already have a 6 figure job at a huge tech company) , now it's over I feel so peaceful.

[@faisallikespotatoes]

The avatar the last air bender music got me

[@angelalfaro4207]

Dude LOL fr

[@TheMisterKoala]

I can relate to that sort of anxiety, I did a second undergraduate degree after doing a PhD in maths because I wanted a chance to become a doctor. Ended up getting interviews two years in a row. First year I did poorly in the interview, so I thought that was probably why I was low waitlisted. Next year practiced ~ 200 hours for the interview, it went well. The doctor on the panel as much as said so. I ended up low waitlisted again. Waiting to hear back that second year was tough. Everything worked out though, I landed a job as a data consultant. Now I've upped my skills and I should be heading into a new role as a data/software engineer. This career has allowed me to move into the mountains. Things have never been this good. Love your channel buddy, keep it up.

[@spongechameleon6940]

It’s whatever man we all do dumb shit and attach our self-worth to stuff until it blows up in our face and then we either sulk, or like you have, own it- and then move on. Big props for that dawg. Owning shit saying “oh well” and gettin’ back to the grind is simply the most mentally freeing way to be eh

[@Xyvier]

I can totally relate to that. I believe the main drive is impatience and probably insecurity induced by lacking of self confidence and a little bit of imposter syndrome. On the other hand, you possess a great amount of self discipline and determination for you to work on that vision non stop for 3 months. Even though you screwed it up(kinda), the grind sets you up for a different path that you didn’t know was there until you found it. I think that’s the best way to think about it. 😊

[@aaronalmeida1696]

subscribed and liked for honesty, the tech interviews are hell

[@jameteelon8126]

Nick thank you for this video, I can relate so much to this, right now I am studying like crazy and I am having severe consequences with my health, I have basically anxiety all day, most day I puke when i wake up due to anxiety, actually I don't even use an alarm anymore because as soon as I am semi conscious I wake up due to anxiety and my mind starts to race, I am becoming paranoid, my hearth pumps like crazy all day. After all this I honestly don't recommend to anyone going full time (and when I say full time I mean morning to night sunday to saturday) because you'll regret this choice as me. Have a good day :)

[@franh3452]

You are not crazy. all of this is understandable. There is a lot of pressure to be the right kind of dev and it comes with a ton of expectations that can cause anyone to crack under pressure. I have done a similar thing because of anxiety and tunnel vision. I feel a little less weird now, so thanks for sharing.

[@scriptkitty3327]

Thanks so much for sharing this, I struggle with anxiety too and have similarly imploded stuff in my life. Made me feel I'm not alone!

[@edag1994]

I went through something similar during my amazon interview prep. Software eng day job from 9-5, interview prep from 5-11 pm everyday for 4 weeks, didn’t do anything else. Was overly anxious the whole time up until the interview. Got the offer, but yea I don’t even know if it was worth it for all that stress

[@Yarrler]

Kudos to you Nick for putting this out there. This is very brave of you to do. I don't think I would have the guts to make a video like this if I were in your shoes. We all mess up sometimes and it can be hard to own one's mistakes like you did. Good job!

[@Yazzzur11]

Keep your head up man I dig your videos. Extremely helpful content.

[@samymovassaghi6439]

Hey nick, I totally feel for you. Stay strong. You are such an inspiration! I am so much similar to you

[@Arthurgarzajr]

It takes a lot of guts to share this. Thank you for doing that. Shows a lot about what these interviews and preparation can do to your mental health.

[@gleep23]

Yeah dude, I know anxiety. I've had some times where I felt one thing hanging over my head was going to make or break my entire life. Waiting, and sitting with my own thoughts, within four walls, with a keyboard and a phone. I've harassed people to just end my waiting! At the time I felt I'd rather hear "NO" than have to wait one more hour for a "YES." Seems like you have learnt from your experience. Hey, no matter what the emotion, but if it feels bad... There is a really easy way to make it feel just a little less bad for a few minutes. That is to put on your sneakers/runners, and just run down the street and around the park for 15 minutes until you are exhausted. Your mind will be too distracted catching your breath and wanting some water, you'll forget your troubles.... if only for 15 mins. Good to hear your story man.

[@anthonycuevas252]

Thanks for sharing this Nick. Don't beat yourself up about what you did. You made mistakes but you can learn from them. You are a very talented guy. You have a long career ahead of you. I am sure you will accomplish alot. I wish I had half of your talent and your drive.

[@OfferoC]

thanks for the honesty and putting yourself out there; very valuable to others.

[@frzpop]

Hey! You seem to have a lot of self awareness which is good. I think a lot of people have anxiety, the difference being how you deal with it. It takes practice and introspection and some people might even need help to get the tools for how to deal with it. Glad you're doing good now.

[@-0-__-0-]

I love how that cup never leaves any programmers hands.

[@sparkplug8763]

Those eyes are darker than mine. Watch your health, man. Lots of love.

[@mightyshenanigans2607]

LMAOOO The Avatar Love song!!

[@GodsNode]

So embarrassing and real man, thanks for sharing. We all do "inappropriate" things when we're young and still very new to the "real world" customs.

[@ph4z0n18]

Hey man, I've been watching some of your vids on leetcode problems, but I didn't subscribe until this one. You're really brave for owning up to this in front of the entire internet.

[@Brlitzkreig]

Nick I wish you would make more videos. You're my favourite coding KZbinr

[@madao4024]

I absolutely understand the anxiety you went through waiting for so long!

[@abhishekchaudhary2189]

Emailing them might seem too much but being obsessed is real. I had a interview after clearing tests for a FANG company and absolutely obsessed about why they didn't contact me back, which obviously was very toxic. I moved on and focused on making myself better. Thanks for putting it out, things go wrong a lot of times and people should know this, because they think it's only them. *You're not the only one, we all mess up*

[@whheaton]

I feel for you man. You will do great things. Believe in yourself. I can really relate to both sides. Was it inappropriate? Yeah, ngl. But I can totally see your side as well. When you are really really excited about something, the anxiety can be terrible (and generally I don't suffer from anxiety, so I can only imagine if I were predisposed to it). FYI I've been rejected by google twice. In the end I've had a much better experience in the biotech industry. I've been a part of a successful startup and luckily came out the other side with above a mil stock and the credibility to get a phd position at Cambridge in the UK with a prof I've looked up to forever. But at the same time I didn't even get an interview at MIT/Harvard despite some very high level profs trying to sell me on coming there. Do I know what happened? No. Will I see those ppl at conferences? Yes. I will not ask. Whatever it was, it is not about my true ability. So fuck them. But at the same time I don't blame them too much. I don't know what pressures they were under. So I would caution you to try to always be professional at least with people you don't know well. But I get it. That sucks. I'm so sorry that happened to you.

[@justinlee4949]

Thanks for sharing the story nick youve got youself a new sub

[@0x00A5]

Bruh, you are not alone. I just accepted an offer from FANG. And ever since then, I started refreshing my email waiting for what are the next steps constantly. I guess I am just too desperate to make a change in my career. Thanks for sharing your story (whether it is true or not this time :D). I will stay cool while waiting.

[@MsSWAGboss]

Happy for you.Been watching your algorithm videos for about 2 years now...I'm still bad at them, but... yea

[@shibairui982]

Been there my friend, from college application to job application. Those rejection never leaves you.

[@marcoalanis2466]

Getting an internship at Microsoft made my mind a mess. After not getting the return offer I got depressed and dropped out of school. I just started to get back on track. Feels so good to relate to the anxiety and depression. After many painful reflections, I know that it was no one else's fault but my own. I hope I can seal my memories and move one with my career.

[@swagatochatterjee7104]

I got rejected at Amazon, when I saw your joke video in search of some hope. Well, I am glad that you made an actual video about it.

[@faiqarif5765]

Relatable. Sometimes its a better option to take a deep breath, take a step back, and reevaluate your physical and mental priorities. Sometimes we get so lost in our struggles that we start losing the sight of why we started in the first place.

[@lukamilosevic3166]

Nick, I kinda have the same problem in terms of focusing too much on one thing and anxiety. Not an easy thing to handle but in the end, the important things that you said at the end of the video are the most important ones more than working at FANG. Too much ambition sometimes can backstab

[@jayshree7574]

i really appreciate your channel nick

[@xinzhang5877]

Hiring process from top tech companies always is simple. Follow their rules and play as they wish. I couldn't more agree with your feeling when waiting for result. Cross finger to every fighter in interviews. Good luck guys.

[@matthcw8745]

Mad respek for sharing this!

[@fernando-loula]

Dude, take care. Hope this video helps you go over this anxiety issue, it sure takes a lot of courage.

[@kuelf123]

Totally relate to this. Felt like this was really important for people. especially myself. going through the same BS..

[@richbrescher6544]

Nick your not the only one especially if it's a huge company. I know I have anxiety especially when I interviewed with Amazon sadly didn't get the job in the technical interview I noticed I study the wrong material but for week of study I couldn't get no sleep and emailed my recruiter I few too many times but tried to play it off cool in fear that they might not accept me if I bothered them too much. Personally Nick if you can pass all the trails that FAANG makes people go through I personal believe you should make your own startup company. The first year for myself after college didn't get much tech interviews mostly because I became a Jack of all traits and I was a novice at many languages but not a master of one thing. So for the past few months I'm just focusing on being a master at one thing by tackling projects relate to my field and relearning data structures and hopefully I land my first tech job I really dont care about money it the ability of making nothing into something that I love to code. Your a genius and I'm glad Google missed out on the next Elon Musk!!!! At the end of the day there nothing wrong with having a coding job at any company or startup because who knows you'd be stressed out. Me personally I have the Impostor syndrome that I don't belong in software engineer but I keep fighting because I don't give up. Personally I promise you mike in a few years Google gonna want you back that a fact if you still want to because you'll have experience and some awesome projects you've built you might have a project you and a few friends build that is the new Google. With me a drink coffee it relaxes me when I'm stressed have some anxiety or some weed depending on your state and watch stupid adult cartoons like rick and Morty or solar opposites or trailer park boys and it seems to make me more relaxed. Do what the smartest man in the universe does Rick Sanchez- Just dont like about it 😎😂

[@UCS_RheaRaviSharma]

Hi Nick, I completely relate to this. In the final year of my college, I am getting FOMO and feeling like I am not a good engineer if I don't get to Google though I love my current company. The anxiety is as real as it gets.

[@HexagonalClosePacked]

I don't interview alot for the anxiety reason. I know that actually interviewing would help me get better at interviewing for higher pay job. But my mind cannot stop thinking about the company I interview with and my performance while I have an actual job to perform well on. I personally think interviewing, especially with multiple companies at once, is a stressful process. I never understand how others do it, and I'm glad to see this video and comments to know the true feeling of many others out there.

[@420_gunna]

this is cool man buts whens the mixtape

[@omniversal4739]

Just jumping in to say Hi. Somehow, you landed on my recommendations list.

[@XusTalk]

I think Google is making a big mistake to reject you. If I was Google, by just looking at your passion of making gazillion algo youtubes along I would be begging you to join my company. it’s clearly their lose not yours. You made me start not hating leetcode questions any more and I think thats a greater accomplishment you achieved already rather than hired by Google. and I sincerely would like to thank you from bottom of my heart. Keep it up Nick and some day you will build your own top tier FANG company!

[@fannnatic]

Dude I feel you. I had 9 (!) interviews at Apple, got a message from HR back saying that all of the feedbacks were positive, but they interview some other candidates. I waited 1 week and it felt like I ate a cactus. And they hired someone else. And did not give me any feedback. Did google ever reached out to you afterwards? I mean if you did good, is there any chance one can have another shot?

[@mahdykhayyamian6167]

Thanks for sharing your story, I think it happens to all the candidates to some extent including myself. Don't beat yourself over that.

[@shikharchoudhary7639]

Hey man i think you are crazy in a sense that you motivate me to become a better software engineer and not just to.get into faang but to be better where ever i am in my job.

[@bg357wg]

I mean you did the figurative equivalent of pooping your pants in terms of over-neuroticism backfiring, so you actually weren’t lying or really joking, but good on you man and thanks for sharing

[@micguo2000]

You are the best, thanks for all the videos. Keep being crazy :D

[@malipetek]

LoL imagine gettin into google and working on gmail product. You deploy something, think is it broken maybe, phone calling random gmail users, "hey ya is your mail working, I emailed you can you see it". They be like blocking your number and you call their moms to say sorry. That would be good.

[@garyadamos]

feel like your community doesn't appreciate your comedy enough man I fucking die laughing whenever I watch your vids hahaha you're the goat!! also, Avatar music !!! !

[@dhananjayan281]

5:00 I have youtube, friends. Good Phrase💯♥️ You missed a thing and that's discord.

[@sase1017]

It s ok bro, you are smart and good at coding with good sense of humor, I m pretty sure you can try it again, or work any big tech company

[@NadyaPena-01]

What an intense experience. I don't know what I would have done in your situation because I've never been in that position but as long as you're at peace with life now that's what matters.

[@a_l_o_k_1991]

Today 28 May 2020 i got rejection email from Amazon.... and I am very frustrated and I am feeling same as you. But its part of life we have to accept it. Every time I watched your videos i learn something new.

[@pallavigoel1436]

I did exactly the same Nick. I mailed the engineers , that i was too excited to join.

[@yinghao91]

Thanks for having the courage to say this in public. I think you are not alone with having anxiety issues.

[@goldfish8196]

Love you. Nick, you are AWESOME

[@Saif4u2]

Nick. I really liked your videos. Good job!

[@arturfil]

Damn anxiety is a hard topic. I feel anxious everyday, it probably comes from what you think people expect from you or the way you want to be perceived I guess. I, unfortunately, am very self conscious and try to be nice/respectful in every way but I also tend to focus in way too many details in the way I behave. It has gotten better, trying not to be so empathetic I guess, I still try to be nice and respectful of course, but I try to be less self conscious. Other ways I also tend to get anxiety is me having the notion that people will think I'm not "good enough" to be in C.S. (I am studying CS). I also got better in this sense, I got more confident by doing well in some classes, I've gotten my A's also gotten some F's (due to being lazy tbh) of course B's and C's too. And I know that I'm able to get and A in every class now if I put the time so know I don't tend to be so anxious in general and I'm just normal like everyone else.