My history with disordered eating & how I'm managing it

[@laurenjhjh]

I think people believe that being a positive influence means only showing avocado toast, talking about a healthy lifestyle, and pretending everything is perfect. You’re a positive influence because you’re relatable - you have the same food struggles and anxiety issues as most of us.

[@joannaspicer]

Well I’ve never eaten avocado toast a day in my damn life lol

[@kellgg]

An analogy that is helpful for me when thinking about daily calorie intake is: It would be ridiculous for me to say, "I'm going to put 3 gallons of gas in my car every morning." Some days I only drive a few miles, so after a couple days my tank would be overflowing. Other days I might drive hundreds of miles, but if my rule is only 3 gallons of gas per day, I will run out of gas and be stuck. I think the same thing around food. You have to listen to your needs for that day ONLY. Some days you may eat a lot, and some days much less, all depending on what and how you've been moving. Our bodies are organisms not machines.

[@Richa.Shetty]

I love this, it makes so much sense. Thanks 🙏

[@CarrieDayton]

This made me feel more seen than you know ❤️

[@amandat8273]

Omg Carrie 🥺. Hi! And me too ❤️

[@Zoe-rf3ly]

Joanna, your transparency (in health and beyond) is more appreciated than you could know. I'm one of the folks who falls in the "I'm your size and you help me feel good about myself" category, but it's *because* of your honesty about your struggles. I have a pretty rough binging problem, and hearing about your experience felt like a big hug. explaining your mindset around feeling good > looking good really hit me, and I'm going to try to slowly adopt the mentality as well. thank you for being You

[@joannaspicer]

I understand you and I’m rooting for you!

[@portlandjetaime]

You have no idea how helpful it is hearing all this from someone in the “influencer” realm. I wish you the absolute best ♥️

[@sarahrose1122]

100% where I am mentally too. Most days I am exercising for health and not weight loss, but some days it really sucks still not to see results despite being consistent 4x per week since January. We’ve been beating our bodies up for a long time binging and restricting, so I guess it’s to be expected. I think the joy is only lost when comparing to other’s results though. We all have different bodies and they react differently. Consistency is key. Making a commitment to ourselves and loving ourselves enough to follow through on that commitment is key. I feel like higher self esteem will come from honoring that commitment.

[@joannaspicer]

Life is just too short to spend it caring about what size or shape our bodies are. Everyone is different and wonderful in their own ways

[@sarahrose1122]

@@joannaspicer I agree. I am just now starting this journey of intuitive eating and pursuing health over being “fit”. I have a lot of bad habits and negative thinking to unlearn. I celebrate small wins like consistency with my workouts, wearing bike shorts in public after not wearing shorts in yearssssss, eating when I’m hungry, and not seeking out my next diet. It’s all still new and uncomfortable, but I’m doing it. I know I’ll be better off for it in the long run. One of the most important takeaways as I delve into potentially trying to conceive later this year is to never pass this burden onto my children. Don’t put these food and body phobias on them. I’m definitely learning from the mistakes of myself and my parents.

[@tara8257]

Joanna THANK YOU for talking about this, seriously!!! I think for a lot of women now in their earlyish 20s - mid 30s, we grew up with such a toxic idea of diet culture and "health", where the only real marker of being healthy being *skinny*. Even my parents pushed this rhetoric. The whole culture of magazines taken as gospel because we didn't have any real resources on health, all the "fat free" fad foods- these strategies for selling product ended up poisoning an entire generation of women tbh, I have so few friends my age who grew up having a healthy relationship with food. I'm so lucky now that I'm in a position where I am able to really grow through education and to have support even just through positive influencers like you! I've been watching your channel for years now and it's amazing how I find myself relating to you more and more as time goes on. Keep at it! Love from Montreal

[@natjb101]

I needed this video. I've been struggling a bit with food and the anxiety it causes me, and JUST began tackling it in therapy and starting a conversation about it after years of struggling. It's a comfort to watch this and know I'm not alone (cheesy, but hearing about it from other people is so helpful) so thank you!! Love you queen.

[@Rachell.Elizabeth]

As a dietitian, this was so brave of you to share your story. I’m glad you’re having more of an intuitive approaching to eating and movement. You’re doing great!💪🏽 love your personality btw! it reminds me of me 😂💗

[@AlliesBeautyTips]

ufff I didn't know if I wanted to watch this video given my own history with ED and the fact that i'm doing pretty good rn, but I wanted to say that you're awesome, you're doing great, this is a journey and you got this!

[@lostinthedream]

You’re literally my favorite person ever and this video just solidified it. You’ve no idea how much this video helped me, I even teared up a little??? I love you queen

[@andriacohen933]

Favorite ramble evrrr. Happy belated beautiful. Come to Santa Barbara so we can stroll and cook and garden. Therapy rocks and so do you.

[@lavoixdevelours]

I feel like this starts as teenagers and follows us our entire lives unless we deal with it at some point and face it head on. Still working on it all myself.

[@andreamcneillbenestad3045]

I think it’s always difficult to acknowledge a want to change your lifestyle without perpetuating unrealistic body image ideas and conforming to societal standards (or the male gaze) of how we should look and feel, but I think you explained it wonderfully without adding those pressures, so thank you for being so real and thoughtful! Much love

[@JestineHeartsBeauty]

Thank you for posting this Joanna!!! I often watch people’s healthy routine videos and feel AWFUL like being thin and eating “clean” all the time and working out all the time just comes so easy to everyone but me. I felt everything you said!!

[@joannaspicer]

I feel that ❤️

[@shelbyshelton8371]

Joanna, this is a really beautiful and hard thing to share. I am so grateful for your vulnerability here--so many of us see ourselves in your story and feel seen and valued for who we are through you. Thank you for being you

[@merimadison5110]

I felt like I was having a little chat, heart to heart, with a best friend. I feel so seen and so valid. It’s a difficult and confusing journey to find our “healthiest version” of health for our own bodies and lifestyle. I too, find “all or nothing” mindset so destructive. We have to be forgiving of ourselves and seek balance without overthinking it all. I’m trying to figure it all out now, myself. You seem to be in a good place right now, I hope that continues!

[@Amy-qb4tk]

This video was amazing. I also just started to get back into regular exercise since gaining pandemic weight and at first I was so anxious everytime I was working out because I thought I wasn't doing it right and therefore would never have a "good body." once I wrote down what I actually wanted from working out: to be stronger, to have more energy, to calm my anxiety, to be able to go on longer hikes or bike rides, exercise became so much more sustainable! Exercising for a "good body" is discouraging cause what the fuck is a good one?? So much easier to go by what you feel. Thank you for sharing with us!!

[@gabbymullins2654]

I related soooo hard to your comment about being annoyed with everyone saying “work out it’ll make you feel better!” I felt so embarrassed any time I had to do anything physical with my body and it sucked! I finally said fuck it and started doing yoga at home by myself and it has made such a difference in how I treat and think about my body. Cheers to letting go of all the shit society forces on us about weight and body image!

[@eyeballgrl]

This video is right on time. I am having the exact same revelations about my own relationship to food and my body and the unrealistic standard of "wellness." Thank you for being so courageous and vulnerable-- this is the content that connects heart to heart with people. You're so amazing!

[@heyheyhey7988]

"I would rather be fat and feel good than feel how I feel right now". Yes! I have gained quite a bit of weight during quarantine and I just feel like the peace of mind I have being bigger and always working towards a healthy relationship with food is waaaaaay more sacred and important to me than having a portion of my life focused on food and weight. The mindset is so unhealthy and I don't want to keep living life that way. It's like losing portions of my life to obsession of food just to be in a smaller body?! No way!

[@AmeliaWilson-f5c]

💯❤️

[@jojogalban5157]

Joanna! I really relate to what you're saying, and hearing your story about that hike made me think of a similar hike I went on with my family and I felt so 'out of shape' and 'unhealthy'. Now I'm on the yoga with adrienne train and I haven't felt this good since before quarantine! I just want you to know that whether or not you felt like you were being truthful or completely genuine (which you're not required to, this is your space to use how you see fit), you've helped me a lot with self image and my perception of health and fitness and weight. Also, seeing you become happier through being good to yourself made me very very happy too. Thank you !!!!!!

[@kellgg]

I remember when I first started watching you a couple years ago you mentioned this in a few videos, which I loved, because not many content creators touch on the reality of disordered eating. Glad to hear you speak on it again, I relate so much. I had disordered eating for about 8 years. Society normalizes diet culture to the point that most of us grew up thinking it is natural for humans to monitor our food intake, have "no willpower" around certain foods, label food as morally good/bad, etc. To recover, I had to throw every food rule out the window, (even simple ones like eating three meals a day). I had to just tune into my body and feed it when it was hungry. I had to get my body to trust me again because my tainted mind was in control for so long. Binge eating is directly related to restriction (not just calories, but food type restriction, like if you restrict yourself to only "healthy" foods, that will backfire). You're absolutely doing it right, shifting your focus to movement and away from food/weight loss. The food works itself out when your body gets the regular movement it craves. So happy for you. Love your content and humor. Always keeping it real. Thank you.

[@emidain5963]

It's taken me so long to crack the code of food/fitness after years of insidious EDs. The less I think about it now the better, I eat what I want and what feels good in the moment, and work out cause I enjoy it and it makes me feel better. No rules, no restrictions, no high expectations on a fitness routine etc. Naturally I ended up on a really balanced fun diet with pretty regular exercise! And this feels sustainable for me because it's the natural equilibrium that my body arrived at and all I had to do was let go of diet culture and perfectionism (easier said than done) and my body intuitively took me to a really healthy place. Love you and your honesty xx

[@geminii_peach]

Home workouts have seriously changed my life no lieeeee, this video was so necessary in the best way! thank you for sharing your experience jo :)

[@TheBeckWil]

I’ve really appreciated your honesty and seeing you eat what you want in vlogs. Totally real to share how that makes you feel surrounding YOUR image of your body and I hope you keep sharing and feel supported here in the comments. Isn’t it wild how critical we can be of ourselves when we would NEVER let someone talk that way to someone we love (or someone we hate...totally nuts). Keep up the journey and thank you for sharing. Fave blogger forever and ever because of this type of stuff, the real stuff, not just the cute. But also the cute stuff is so cute, you’re new home is amazing and I will watch all the grwm makeups you can throw at us :) XO

[@caroocsa12]

Thank you so much, this is exactly what I needed, I also struggle with food and exercise. what you said about separating it from how we look and how much we weight and focusing on how we feel is so true!!! Love from México ❤️

[@JLynn4005]

Thank you for sharing this- I'm sure it wasn't easy. I'm also dying at you flipping Sydney the bird during your workouts, I can totally relate! I used to do BodyFitbyAmy workouts on youtube and I loved them. She gives options for beginners if the current move is too advanced, and focuses more on as long as you showed up and moved your body, then you've been successful. I've definitely fallen off the work out wagon during the pandemic and have beaten myself up a lot about wasting all of this "time" that we now have. It's so hard and everyone is on a different journey, good luck with yours!

[@21Poon]

I kept postponing watching this vid because it was actually not what I wanted to hear. But I'm so happy I watched it. I blinked and it was already finished. And I feel like you're talking about me 😂 Same periods where I eat a lot but feel bad, and others where I cook more and feel better. I worked out consistently from January to June 2020 (can't believe I worked out for SIX MONTHS). Then I stopped and started again last month. I've always been the curvy type and now I feel better and don't want to stop this time! Good luck to everyone struggling with eating or body issues. Indeed you're not alone! Love from France 🧡

[@21Poon]

Also, how do you keep your necklaces so shiny when you work out and shower in them? I have the same dot one from Mejuri and the chain is getting darker 😭

[@Dlibassi93]

youre literally describing everything i have been through in the last few years! but i just started working out again and i actually feel so much better getting over the anxiety and doing it just to fuel my body and live a long life

[@altheameer4469]

I just want to let you know that your workout routine video & this one inspired me to start doing a dance party workout every morning, and even though I’ve only been doing it for about a week I already feel so much better in terms of anxiety and mood (and physical health)! Thank you

[@Cmar1988]

If takes a lot of courage to be so vulnerable even if you are only talking to one person. Thank you for sharing your journey and perspective!

[@michelleholgate5230]

Joanna I just wanted to say thank you.. Thank you... Thank you.. I'm just like you always worrying what people think and feeling guilty about what I eat.. But your video just put a lot of things in perspective for me... You're absolutely amazing and such an fantastic influencer.. Thank you again.. Much love and respect and friendship xx 🙏❤️❤️

[@justinefusco2364]

I needed this!! I have been trying to transition back into working out and eating healthy recently, and have ALWAYS struggled with binge eating because of over restricting, and my biggest struggle has been changing my mindset of working out/being healthy. So thank you!!

[@alannajoanne]

I think you shared this in such a beautiful, honest way and I'm really appreciative of your willingness to be this honest with us. Everything you said really resonated with me because I've also struggled with disordered eating and all of the related trappings since probably Gr. 11 (I'm 31 now).

[@summerwhore19]

ok but this all or nothing mind set has been me for yearsssss! trying everyday to rework my thought process, we got this!

[@sarahyvonne8798]

You are the first person I have ever heard explain exactly what I struggle with. Thank you for this video.

[@zillamandy]

You have a following for sure, Joanna (that should be huge!) but we love you. I think it’s the opposite; you don’t need to be perfect, you need to be exactly like you are. There are so many people out there on social media and KZbin pretending that they are perfect and their lives are perfect and they never struggle. I have an anxiety disorder and issues around food, I’m 20+ years older than you are and I’m still working on it. So thank you for being honest. The exercise you’re doing is really important for health and energy, and I’m really inspired by you. I need to up my game. Because I have been there, when the family or friends want to hike. And I feel that sort of panic or doom. Thank you for being so real. Basically I just love you. 🙏🏻🤎

[@princess_trinket]

Truly, thank you so much for sharing this. I was diagnosed with ADHD in December (I'm 31), and when I started taking medication, my obsession with food basically stopped. I hadn't even realized that I had a bad relationship with food or any sort of disordered eating pattern, so it was quite a shock for me. I was basically addicted to sugar and junk (which is fine to eat of course, but I couldn't stop myself from overindulging). Now, I can MUCH better control what I eat, how much I eat, etc. And I still eat ice cream and "bad" stuff, but I can stop myself from completely binging. ADHD is essentially a lack of self-regulation, and now I am way less hard on myself for not being able to "control" my impulses. I literally could not help it!

[@emilydewenter6308]

i recently started taking medication for anxiety/depression/adhd symptoms and it has been life changing for me too. i have always been an obsessive worrier about everything and now i am so much more able to manage my thoughts and feelings. it's almost like the curve of highs and lows have smoothed out. i haven't had issues with disordered eating but i am for suuuuure a product of diet culture. once you realize it, you can't unsee it in everything. happy to see an influencer really confronting it head on because SO MANY people are constantly talking about diet stuff

[@haironthebrain]

Thank you for sharing this! This is super relatable and helpful. I'd love more videos on this topic honestly.

[@katef1384]

I really appreciate how thoughtful you are about how you talk about this topic ❤️ it's tough and complex and thank you for not oversimplifying it

[@annemarkstein6277]

I recommend movewithnicole she does Pilates, low impact hiit. And she doesn’t mention body goals and I feel pretty safe watching her in terms of keeping working out as positive thing!

[@soggybottommage6665]

I’m grateful you’re sharing this struggle. I very recently had to make the same realization. I used to be an athlete and when I stopped playing in my early twenties, my overall health took a plummet bc I had made the habit of eating whatever I wanted bc the practices used to keep me fit no matter what I ate. This year I realized that I really missed how nice it was to be healthy and in shape bc of all the fun activities I was missing out on. Now I run with the sole intention of just being healthy and enjoying my body while it’s young and able and I turned my attention away from weight loss. It’s been a really special change for me and I hope your change of mindset helps you bring some peace too. Sending happiness and good intentions your way 💌

[@MyFreakism1]

thank you so much for talking about this. we’re all so proud.

[@Truthseeker8791]

Gardening saved me. After a trauma suffered in 2017 resulting in depression, anxiety and PTSD, coupled with back surgery, I was at my lowest self esteem wise. I got into gardening and lost myself for hours at a time. I lost weight. I felt good. Then more back issues and steroid shots set me back. Then 2 pregnancies back to back had me at my heaviest weight. I'm now a year post partum and though I still have back pain and the beginnings of osteoarthritis, gardening has been my constant. Constant solace and constant therapy. Losing weight is just a bonus. I truly believe all things originate in the mind. Change your mind, change your life. Sorry for the ramble, but had to share.

[@fannygoldbee7660]

I think it’s very valuable to share your life story interns of the relationship with your body, body image and food and exercise and mental health.Everyone will have different experiences.. Its been one of the hugest challenges in my own life. Up down, up down. I believe all shapes and sizes of people are beautiful. For myself I have the most cruelest, harsh standards. I’m sure so many women resonate with you. What you share is important and valuable. Exercise for your mental health is life changing. I love it but I do it for my mental health not my appearance it’s taken me decades for me to get there. I’m so pleased you’ve discovered how great it makes you feel. I wished I’d known this when I was younger then I wouldn’t have waisted so much time denying myself and punishing myself xx

[@victoriavalenzuela4234]

i’m on the verge of tears. thank you for being so open and making me feel seen and heard.

[@JoeyGrace]

Ok, so, EVERYTHING you just said in this video is LITERALLY ME.

[@poobahone]

This was really great and good on you for being so vulnerable. It’s hard. As someone who has been working out almost every single day for almost 15 years - my body has been all over the place but I do it for my mood. Like you I feel so much happier, so much more even and think it “burns off” a lot my anxious energy. Keep it up, it will make you feel good the rest of your life 💕

[@joannaspicer]

Yes! The burning off all that extra anxiety has been light night and day

[@rosemarinetextiles]

You making this video means so much to me!! I have been on the journey of healing my relationship with food and exercise over the last two years after struggling my entire life with disordered eating and this is SO relatable. I had to take a really long break from exercising because I only tied exercising with working out and I wanted to be able to enjoy it without that pressure of going super hard and burning as many calories as possible. Since December I have been working out regularly again and it really is SUCH a mood lifter. I love doing fun workouts like dancing or biking or even running (never thought I’d say that) when I feel like it without putting pressure on myself to run the entire time or even any prescriptive amount of time at all! Also - I love And8 Fitness dance workouts, you should check them out! Thank you for sharing your journey and being such a positive influence! I recommended Christy Harrison’s book and podcast Anti Diet to you on Instagram and if anyone reading this feels like this is up their alley I highly recommend her work! It feels SO validating to have other people acknowledge that we live in an insane diet culture society that makes people feel bad constantly!!!

[@tommgirll]

You spoke about how so many people feel but do not get to voice it because others won't understand or there is some sort of shame attached to the feeling. Enjoy the journey. From experience, it has gotten better the older I get. It wasn't until I was 33 that I stopped attaching weightloss to exercise. In conclusion, you're great :)

[@jonathancarson1]

Thank you so much for getting so vulnerable and sharing your story. Sending love and positive vibes from Philly

[@annuhh1116]

Thank you for sharing this Joanna! I’m in a similar place in my journey. I always am reminded when my legs burn while I’m biking that it’s good to feel my body work and it’s getting me somewhere! Cookie or salad fueled :)

[@karpar384]

It took me being at my heaviest to realize it was never really about my weight. I just used hating myself as a distraction from other issues. I'm excited to shed these bad habits I've carried for years and heal/start fresh. Thanks for this video Joanna 💞💖

[@themindofmiranda]

Joanna has helped me so much in my self love journey. Somehow seeing her share her own private struggles and thoughts makes it easier to forgive myself for doing the same things. Self love rarely means waking up every day and feeling amazing about your body, it includes bad days, even for someone like Joanna who seems like she's always got her shit together. This might be too forward but I love you Joanna, you inspire me every day!

[@michellebelledejour]

My twin sis has struggled with her weight since we were kids. To this day she hates seeing old pictures of us from high school. When she lost weight, we had a few family members accused her of being too thin. It’s a never ending battle and I have been through it with her. I was never thin but it never bothered me like it did with my sis. Being accepting of our bodies and being healthy is a journey, and we all get through it 💗💯

[@Ponyosham17]

I needed this. This is my life story and it feels good to know I'm not crazy, that there are others who struggle the same and I have to tell you....I am using the same thinking these days where excersize and food don't need to compete and indont have to be all or nothing. It needs to be literally drilled into my head.

[@boxying1995]

Girl, your form in the workout at the end is spot-on! Good job forreal, it's so hard to know without a mirror. Thank you for sharing your journey. Sending you much love.

[@Meganfromabove1987]

Amen! My relationship with exercise changed when I focused more on the goal of what can I make my body do. When I focused on eating a certain way and moving a certain way to look a certain way, I became obsessed. And when I didn't see my body change into what I wanted fast enough, I would give up. Or if I had a donut, I failed. Focusing on what my body is able to do gave me tangible goals that I was able to hit. I can lift a little more today, I can run a little further. Eating turned into fueling me to meet those goals. I am in the best shape of my life and I have no idea what I weigh at the moment. And that feels great.

[@chai3406]

You seem so much happier Joanna, happy for you!

[@dfunkey4933]

thanks so much for this video, joanna 💙 i’m old enough to be your mom and this has been my story since i was a child...good on you for working on yourself and enlightening this old lady with this important convo x

[@FROBcom]

5:57 🙏 louder for the people in the back. There’s that dumb saying “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”, I remember my girlfriend in high school obsessively saying that at lunch. It’s complete bullshit. Different people will feel good at different weights. I say all this as the scarred brother to a sister who struggled with ED most of her life, take really good care of yourself and don’t mind the numbers

[@sarahbeliveau2466]

Joanna you're such a beautiful human being. Thank you for being so transparent and honest. I have been trying to build a better relationship with food for awhile now so I can relate to everything you've said. I'm glad to know there are other people on a similar journey One thing I have heard that has really helped me is that if one salad is not going to make me skinny, then why would one dessert make me fat?

[@jpullo]

Can’t believe I just found your channel this year. Thanks for this vid- more helpful than you know.

[@janealicekeachie3336]

Joanna this made me feel so seen! Thank you for sharing, I relate so much to everything you shared.

[@simpbiscuit]

Thank you so much for speaking on this so earnestly, as someone who went to residential treatment a few years back for an eating disorder and has had a lot of weight fluctuations related to my ED it means a lot. I struggle very much in the body that I have now and I did when I was smaller as well, I'm on a similar journey and I've watched you since before I went! Would you feel comfortable sharing links to your equipment?

[@monicasuttonstudios9780]

This timinggg was perfect ive been feeling my ED thoughts creeping back into my head for the past month and I don’t know why!

[@splendidsayruh]

This is why you’re my favorite KZbinr

[@mirandaharvey5893]

i have so much love and appreciation for you. you are such a role model of mine, and i relate to your journey so so much. thank you for sharing. this makes me feel like i can develop a healthy relationship with moving my body regularly. 💓

[@wrenktiff]

thank you so much for sharing, this makes me feel so seen and heard, ily and you're a beautiful strong soul

[@KW-up2ox]

Yesssss! I love Sydney too! 🙌🏾 Eventually I want to do Caroline Girvan’s program but that’s a whole nother level/ maybe for next year lol. Great video!

[@noelleursel7848]

ugh. I frigging love you. thanks for being you, joanna

[@londonhasfallen7786]

You look incredible and you seem liberated by this realization. I have felt the same way, but felt weird explaining it to people. I deal with gym anxiety HARD, I went during quarantine once and wore a mask the entire time, but had my AirPods in transparency mode and heard four guys around my age make fun of me, which threw me off from returning. I feel crazy lately! I am going to be a bridesmaid in my cousin’s wedding this October and am so stressed about being the largest in my life, I am moving from my childhood home with my parents at 22, and transferring schools. My mind feels like a hidden objects game right now! This helped give my clarity in my feelings, so thank you.

[@joannaspicer]

I’m so sorry about those guys. Don’t let them stop you from living your life the way you want to. And you’re going to make a beautiful bridesmaid!

[@londonhasfallen7786]

@@joannaspicer Doucheknobs eventually grow up and surround themselves with other doucheknobs, and hate their lives. I like the relationships I’ve built and that our topics of conversations aren’t completely vain. I am who I am, take me or leave me. It is simply a hectic time in life, but it will pass. You are a true inspiration of mine, that doesn’t mean I expect you to be superhuman and not feel insecure as well as confident in who you are. Thank you for the pick me up. Love and safety thrown your way!

[@sbeckymartin]

Thanks for posting. Some of your followers might like the podcast Maintenance Phase (sorry if this has come up before). It is really good.

[@emilycummo891]

I needed to see this today. Thank you for your honesty

[@snarfle123]

Thanks for sharing your journey with us. Glad to hear you are feeling so happy 😊

[@shanias6250]

this is so amazing joanna thank you so much. i feel like ive felt similar things to you across the years and im on the same sort of path to healing my relationships with food and exercise and this was such an honest and wonderful account of these feelings

[@StanleyJim]

I'm so grateful that you made this video. I have so much respect and admiration for you and other creators like you. Thanks Joanna ❤️

[@tunasushi123]

I started working out last August and I’ve been on off continuously working out. But I understand when you talk about exercising and mental health.

[@juxtaposition_and_dogs]

Holy cow. I’m so glad I watched this video. I need to relearn as well. Thank you for doing this. 💚

[@christinachic6589]

My gym membership was on hold during most of the past year but I just started going back and have barely gone. I think I enjoy working out at home more too because I feel less self conscious when it’s just me.

[@katherinehurt]

Wish I could like this video a million more times. Thanks so much for posting!!

[@the_real_margotsloan5244]

I needed to hear this. Thank you

[@magicrobot5299]

Im so glad youre feeling better. I could recognize sadness in your eyes for a while there

[@violethull7366]

thank you for being so honest. im with ya

[@meadthorpe9571]

Thank you for always being so transparent and insightful Joanna. It's always appreciated. Xo

[@crystalquinones2514]

I have the same mentality. Still trying to find the motivation to workout and work up the courage to go to therapy. Thanks for talking about this stuff 🥰

[@FERMENTORR]

Well said, way to go J, we’re all on this food for life journey forever

[@vcr6854]

Thank you so much for always keeping it real 💗 sending immense amts of love and support

[@tishabecker3728]

So inspired! Love your honesty

[@Noura-cu6ch]

i really felt this one. thank you for sharing - it means more than you know

[@missvinnet5507]

Thank you so much for opening up and sharing your journey with us. I appreciate how open you've been with us over the years.

[@becca1604]

this video was so inspiring! you looked so damn STRONG in the footage at the end

[@amandakiesling4610]

I relate so much! I've never had a good relationship with my own body, food, or working out and only recently have I been able to find a way to work out where I'm focusing on the way I feel instead of to try to lose weight (shout out to emkfit)

[@cecilegg]

I 100% relate to this!! So lovely to hear x

[@giannapasta8744]

Thank you for your vulnerability! I definitely relate and it’s so helpful to know that you are not alone.💖

[@molly___reads]

You are a gift. Thank you, Joanna

[@rubileija4488]

I know exactly how u feel my weight has always fluctuated up and down and when I would loose weight yes i looked great but i felt horrible but i would drink lots of soda so im on my journey getting more healthier little by little it takes time i cut soda out completely and no lie my stomach has been going down i do a little bit of weightlifting it helps alot I wish the best to everyone who is on a health journey remember you are beautiful no matter what ❤️

[@farfala2011]

Hey lady! Thank you for this video, it was very inspiring. Your experience resonated with me a lot, so thanks for sharing.

[@juliebomb01]

Thanks for sharing. Literally have been feeling this lately.