my journey thru grief continues. staying home more... doing less...

[@robertzabick1030]

After 2 years I have less pain, but life has little meaning for me anymore. I find myself existing, but not living. Sleep is erratic, and food has little taste. This is what happens when half of you dies. I still trust God has a purpose for all this. So I continue on as best I can. Everyday brings different emotions, fear, depression, guilt, loneliness, and so on. All of you with grief know the roller coaster of emotions. With God's help, we will get through it.

[@MAvila744]

I know the feeling, Robert.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thanks for comments Robert, I still have all those same feelings. They bounce around no set pattern... God bless my friend...

[@rabick62]

I understand how you feel Robert, it's been 16 months for me. After 53 years of marriage she was gone. I was blessed for so many years, was walking around the yard the other night and I was feeling.......Numb. I thought yep, that's a pretty good description, add that feeling to all the rest of them. Remembered the song when Sir Paul sang " suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be". I'll keep praying and hanging on, like Len said, I won't have to let her go again. This temporary existence won't be forever, Heaven will be. Wishing us all Peace & Comfort

[@jwhite1974]

Right there with you brother. I pray God brings us peace and comfort. Stay strong.

[@brudyboy58]

The pain never goes away. Every day is a struggle.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I certainly understand,,,God bless...

[@myraloftis-ed1mv]

The quietness is never ending. I miss our conversation and touching. Laughter and smiles. I live in quiet country setting NC. You are right. Only by FAITH !

[@joanyoder5880]

No, it doesn’t go away. I lost my husband of 75 years a year and half ago. I too, stay up late And sleep late. Get very lonesome. Miss hugging, and talking the day over with my partner. I have his ashes on the nightstand so I do talk with him when I go to bed. I get some comfort from that.

[@PoetSkyMSA0227]

I lost my partner 13 weeks ago - I was his ft caregiver . He was 71 yrs old , I’m 64 . I’m am crushed - heartbroken , lost .. so lost .

[@shellyaubrey7048]

I understand 100%. I lost my husband 19 mths ago after being married 46yrs. Im completely lost i stay home and stay in pjs and do great job sitting holding couch down. Life is unreal and i have no idea how to live. I pray God holds us all and gives us strength

[@bride8305]

(HUG) Love your videos, thank you, I miss my husb so much it's been 2 weeks today. He was everything to me. I haven't been able to cry, just want to be alone with Jesus and thank Him for bringing him to me for 55 years together. I thank Jesus for taking my husband outof all his horrible pain, lung & brain cancer. Now he is in the arms of Jesus, with no more pain, can't wait to be together with Jesus and my husb .. God's power is made perfect in our weakness, we can do all things through Christ Who strengthens us. All things work together for good to those who love and serve the Lord.

[@Vga-kv8pj]

No the pain doesn’t go away it always comes back life not the same anymore, I know exactly how you feel take care everyone

[@sharonlee7107]

The pain never goes away, I'm 65 my husband past away 3 years ago before that my sister before that lost good friends, people say it gets better but it doesn't and I don't have family but one daughter she's all I have

[@lizgreco3611]

You are right Len , it doesn't go away, We learn to get through the days , but it's never without heartache, talk to your wife everyday, I talk to my husband ,all the time, I tell God everyday how sorry I am that I took so much of my time with my husband for granted, will never be the same, the tears don't go away, no matter who tells you it's gets better, for me it doesn't, we live in a world for many it seems easy to move on, but for some like ourselves our love was so deep, so devoted, we can't, we just function , I remember my great grandmother wore black from the day my grandfather died til she passed, and his coffee cup remained on the table, old school devotion, I now understand

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Liz, I guess we're not ever really going to get thru this, at least for a long time. It's difficult to find a new life without a best friend to share in it. Can't seem to have any desire to attempt to make a very new one. Your story of your gr. grandmother was amazing. Oh, the depth of love is without an ending... God be with you, Liz...

[@janicemcantyre3360]

Liz, Your words so true. It has been 14 months since I lost my husband. For some reason the loneliness seems worse with each passing day. I just go through the motions of chores I do everyday, but the joy I felt with my husband is gone. Thankful still I have our daughter and pray her grief of losing her dad gets better someday. Pray we both feel some real joy again. When you lose someone so special it is very hard. I know he is in God's hands and pain free and that gives me some comfort. Praying for you and the loss you feel also. God Bless.🙏🌻

[@lizgreco3611]

@janicemcantyre3360 all the little things done together seem so precious now, I go thru motions like yourself but the ache in my heart is there everyday, there is no moving on like they lecture. It's learning to wake up every day knowing your heart is still broken, only God can fix

[@jenmidwest2432]

Liz, I feel the same way... I will never "get over" this. Yes, many seem to move on so well, I wish I could be like that. But I suffer so much pain...I did not realize grief actually hurts. Oh to see my husband and child again. I can't wait!!

[@meninagreen5704]

Boy are you right. Me too.

[@jenmidwest2432]

I can't stop missing my husband. I have had so many horrible days of pain/sadness. I feel for you Len. I pray for all of us. I am having it rough too....just too many deaths.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Jen. I'm with you, one step at a time...🙏

[@carmenburnham1088]

Love that you are a believer. Thank you for sharing the true gospel! God bless and fill you with his love. Unbelievable the amount of loss you have suffered. As a therapist for 35 years and a widow going on six years (we were happily married 41 years) I can say all that you share and others comments are all experiencing the journey of grief. There are no rules.i still can’t let go of all my husband’s clothes. Yes please let it run its course. Only God has gotten me through. It is in times of suffering that we are to plunge deeper in God. He is the anchor of the soul as it says in the book of Hebrews.❤ 🦋✝️👑🙏🏻

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Carmen, Your words speak volumes. I would never have understood the depth of God's mercy and grace in His love for us if I had never had to seek Him as I had never sought before. I now understand my wife's words to me , Jesus 1st, others 2nd self 3rd. I have mostly always been a me 1st person in most of my life. Not so now. As I look backward ,I see a different person than I am now. Thank you, Lord, for your love and patience . God bless my friend. 🙏🏻🕊❤️

[@deannamagyar4384]

Sorry for your loss, I too lost my husband of 25 y rs and 6 months. Yes life is so different.God help us get thru I find one day at a time.Peace be with you.

[@fillyhart4222]

Just reading comments & so many of you hurting so bad. Please hang in there everyone. Wish I could reach out to all of you & hug you all so tight. Len you are doing God's work. Keep reaching out & let's all keep praying for those struggling. Please know you are not alone. God bless you all & keep you all safe. Xx

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Filly Hart. For your kind encouragement. So many hurting , all around the globe. God be with us thru Jesus Christ our Lord...amen...big hug to you...🫂☝️

[@rudykay5618]

I lost my wife two months ago sometimes I wake up and think she's still there then it hits me and its like she died again. Thanks for your words stay strong god bless.

[@PoetSkyMSA0227]

I’m so sorry for your loss . I lost my guy 13 weeks ago .

[@dianewilliams5271]

My husband passed away almost 3 years ago. I am still having those days like you are talking about. I had a rough time Easter Sunday and I was surprised. I thought I was over that kind of time. I guess you never really get over it. Thanks for your encouraging words. I think it does help just to know that there are others going through some of the same feelings that you are. We have to keep on going with our good Lord's help. I believe He cares and that He helps me get through each and every day. Take care.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Diane , Your comment is so true..... GRIEF........... Never really over,,, Always seems new,,, A love too deep,,, To pass on through,,, memories are with us,,, Ours to embrace,,, The strengths we need,,, To finish this race,,, I look to heaven,,, I look for a sign,,, The answer I get,,,,, One day at a time... . . .all we can do. God bless🙏

[@candidaherron6130]

No Len , does not go away 😔. Some days you feel no purpose , some days I feel useless like what is the point . I realize the brain has to rewire everything about life without your spouse ! It's a lot even though I know you have to move forward . I know that much . Believe me since Easter I've been calling on God even more for strength and peace . Eight months tomorrow my husband passed on and today is not easy !! Pray for me and I pray for you Len and all of us going through this journey of loss 🙏❤️

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Candida, I prayed for you in Jesus' name ,for peace, and Gods guiding hands to lead you into your new life. Yes , it's not going to be so easy as a prayer or two... We do have to try and make an effort, if we can... And we can , at least a little at a time. I have made some progress with this extremely difficult process of adjustment...it is not an easy task for me... Most of us will have to really make an effort, I believe. God's gonna help us, He loves us, He sees us, and what we need each day, or moment... God bless...🙏❤️

[@candidaherron6130]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 Oh my Lord ! Len I thank you for every single word you spoke to me , I thank the Lord for knowing I needed a strong positive word right now !! God bless you and keep filling your heart to keep spreading his words to all of us and everyone 💖💖🙏

[@KathyAlone2023]

Same here. My husband's been gone 45 weeks and I'm no better. It's comforting in knowing I'm not crazy, and that this experience is not unique to me.

[@Mariam-kg7fr]

I lost my 27 yr. old son on 11/20/22. I don't think I will ever stop grieving. I pray God brings peace to your heart as well as all of us who are grieving. We will see them again soon.

[@Kaytha.57]

Mariam, so sorry for your loss, I too lost my son 22 yrs ago this April. A mother's grief will always live so will their memory. Peace to your ❤️.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I'm sorry for your loss, Mariam. Our hope is in God's promises of a grand reunion...

[@Mariam-kg7fr]

@@Kaytha.57 Thank you for your kind words. Peace to your heart as well.

[@Mariam-kg7fr]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 Amen

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

Yes we will see our loved ones again, God Bless

[@rhondawilkins_]

Hi Len, I've been widowed 5 1/2 years after a 25 year marriage to my husband Keith. Keith fought stage 4 cancer valiantly for 3 1/2 years.He was only 55. I would NOT wish WIDOWHOOD on my worst enemy or yours! It took me 3 years of Complicated Grief because I was his Cancer Caregiver almost 4 years before he graduated 🎓 to HEAVEN. Keith was given 9 months but we used The Word Of God to speak healing over his body daily. It worked because Keith got 3 1/2 years versus the 9 months he was given. There are 108 scriptures in the Bible regarding WIDOWS.I use those everyday to walk thru being widowed. I live in Arkansas and it's finally turned Spring weather. I believe we are close to the Lord Jesus return to " harpazo, catch away" Believers ! I'm looking forward to that to be reunited with all my loved ones and with Jesus. Thanks for doing these videos.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Rohnda. Thanks for your comments. I believe in what you are saying about being caught up... I'm looking up every day.... God was good to give you extra time to be with your dear husband. Never enough time, to really satisfy. We will make up for it soon ,I believe.... GOD bless...🙏🕊

[@boonicholls6649]

It gives me comfort to listen to you Len. The pain never goes away. I lost my precious husband RAY. I am grieving so bad. He was such a good, gentle, hardworking, kind man. The best thing that ever happened to me. My everything,all that l ever loved. I can't stop crying for all that l loved and have lost. 48years with the love of my life. How can l live without him. I feel your pain for your beloved wife. I know how much it hurts. 💔I have been through so much heartache just like you. It's so hard to face each day without the one you love. He was only 69. I had so much more love to give.... He said we would be together forever. 😢I am so sad. My grief has a hold on me. So sorry for your loss Len. You loved your wife beyond words and l go through the same journey of grief as you...

[@patriciataylor1409]

You are a good person. ❤

[@lynnsmith9547]

Len, you are such a good man to share your grief to help others. It's not easy to expose your inner thoughts and feelings. I've watched your videos all year long and finally found the courage to post a comment. Thank you for providing some comfort to those of us going through this gut wrenching experience. Sending prayers for our hearts to heal.⬜🙏

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

LYNN, Thank you for your wonderful comment. It is a good thing to share and release your thoughts like this . I believe. Others ,like us, will benefit from them , now and in the future. There will always be someone who needs just one little word of wisdom from another who shares in your grief journey... Your courage to comment gives me a reason to believe in God's promises more each day... His will be done... GOD bless...

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Yes grief can attack at any time. Prayers .

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Cindy, Thanks...

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Your welcome sir

[@mrose4685]

I lost my husband of 20 yrs on Dec 1st 2023. Came home from work and he had passed. Now being evicted, forced to rifle through my husband's belongings. Fell in work in January and fractured my ankles. And today was let go from my job. Today was a bad bad day. Cried all day. I miss my soulmate

[@angelajordinson9019]

You're husband is with you,keep the dear things to heart,and you may have to sell things to survive, one day at a time,your husband would say you come first now,all the very best

[@dotthompson9146]

Thank you len for you’re kind words I am truly sorry that you are going through you’re grief right now I can relate to all the emotions you are going through right now as I am also going through grief this time last year I lose my son to cancer he was only forty nine I loved him so much he was also my best friend my heart as been broken in many pieces I feel lost lonely with no purpose to want to live also depressed each day life as become not worth living just want to be with my son he was my world but I am trying to be strong as I have another son to think about to lose someone you truly love it is the worst pain and torture you can go through I pray for you that god will help and comfort you at this time god bless you ❤❤❤❤❤

[@mom4peace919]

I’m sorry for your loss and pain. I think it’s healthy for you to make these videos and speak your grief out loud. I’d love to say it gets easier but after 6 years I still deal with the same things you speak of. I’ve survived but not lived/thrived. Grief requires a different kind of existence. I have a large quote on my wall that I try to live by “Just enough grace for today”. My Cindy’s name is Todd. He was my best friend, soulmate and biggest supporter and he is missed every minute of every day. I’m grateful he loved me enough in his lifetime to sustain me for the rest of mine. ❤☮️

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, mom. 4 peace, I can understand your griefs heavy weight upon you even years later. I don't cry as much as I once did but the weight of loneliness is still heavy upon me. I stand here today ,by the grace of God. Each day I need His mercy and grace... I can't do this alone. May God be with you and bless you...🙏🕊❤️☮️

[@MAvila744]

I’m sorry you had a rough day, Len. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere. I know. I went to the cemetery Easter and brought my husband flowers. I spent the day alone which is how I wanted it. I put on the tv regularly just so I can hear some background conversation. Silence is very difficult for me. Dealing with the loneliness of not having my husband and being alone is very painful. I went to the cemetery today and it was actually a peaceful experience. I felt connected to my husband, body and soul, and hoped that he could see me. All of us who are grieving walk a very painful road. The most difficult in our life that no one can help us prepare or fix. I have not touched any of my husband’s belongings. His bathrobe is still hanging on the bed post. I can’t remove it. I need to have it near me as if nothing has changed. God has a plan. I prayed for you, Len, and all of my You Tube friends who are grieving, while I was at my prayer group yesterday morning. We need to be there for each other because only we know what suffering the loss of our spouse feels like. I pray that when God calls me I will be in eternity in heaven with my husband. I know we all pray for reunion with our spouse in heaven. It is what sustains us. My family is not nearby but I do not know what I would do without my church and friends who have kept me going. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you. 😢

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Mary, Thank you for your wonderful comments and for your heartfelt prayers. Prayers help the receiver and the giver. GOD has to respond when we pray. It's who He is. Thank you...! . I know what you mean about your husband's robe hanging on the bed post. My wife has one hanging on the bathroom door. It is dark blue, and very warm... I have worn it a few times... It made me cry, but yet it made me get thru, a very bad day months ago... We do what we need to sustain our lives as we walk a lonely widower road. It is good to have friends who are true and willing to help you. I have a few. But most of my help comes from knowing the Lord as my savior, God..." I love Jesus." He is the reason I will see my dear beloved wife again. Many others, too. My heart breaks for some who have no hope in a heavenly reunion. Some never had one. Some have lost one. So many stories about griefs painful journey will have a profound effect on your own journey. They can both help and hurt. Help you along or cause you to think of nothing else, at times. I am learning to pray and leave it all to God's plan. My wife always told me to do this. And now I know why... May God be with you and always nearer... God bless...

[@MAvila744]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 Thank you, Len. I just returned from morning Mass. The other day I was sobbing and I told God I cannot do ‘this’ and to please help me,. I received my answer from the Lord. The next day the Priest who visited my husband in the hospital regularly and who had given him the final Catholic blessings 3 days before he died, called to see how I was doing. I told him not very good. He told me to give it all to God and I decided I would begin attending daily Mass. I just got back from Mass and sobbed all the way home. But, I know that my focus must be in giving all of my sorrow and pain to God. No human can take it away. I am also profoundly aware that we who have lost our spouse suffer immensely and must pray for each other for peace. I offer up my sufferings for my husband. Only those who are going through this grief can understand. I hope you have a peaceful day and hold on to the Lord who is your strength. Thank you for sharing your struggles and faith. 🙏

[@stevekaiser8826]

I lost my wife 7 months ago. I can relate what your going thru . We were married 26 years. She was my soul mate. Its hard for me I live over seas. My kids are in the US. I have good days, bad days. I do beleave I will see her again in heaven. This is what keeps me going. Stay strong brother.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Steve. Thanks for your comment . It is a journey like no other, as you certainly know. I pray The Lord keeps you safe and your kids and family in these trying times. May God bless ...🇺🇸🙏✝️

[@rmurphy3435]

I lost my wife of 30 years 7 months ago too. My heart goes out to you brother, l share your sorrow, but we will be all together in heaven one day soon. Take care brother.

[@patriciataylor1409]

We have the luxury of being able to look around. Nothing is forever. Being grateful to still be here and feeling love of everything. Living a simple life and appreciate what is still around. ❤

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

Hi Len, always praying for you my friend. Was so nice to see this video Len, i needed this.I am having many days like you Len. Trying to find my purpose, iMuss Jan so much its unbearable. And all of us have did things we wish we didn do.. God Bless My Friend.

[@doriswinskie7049]

Yes, I pray for you every day and for all those grieving. I’m old and have a hard time getting around but my daughter’s boyfriend built me a large platform which holds 15 plastic totes and that makes them waist high so I can have a container garden. It has lifted my spirits so much. I love to garden. Just some little thing like this can improve life so much. I still miss my Johnny so much but I remember how much he enjoyed the garden with me. God bless you.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Doris. I'm glad you can get out and do a little gardening. It was our favorite thing to do in lazy summer days. Thanks for your prayers ...God bless...

[@josephbologna2086]

Hi Len it’s Joanne from Jersey. I’ve been so busy moving so I haven’t been watching but now I’m watching you again and I’m glad you’re still there. I’ve been getting out with my sister a little bit just to eat things like that but when I see a couple I just can’t take it I feel so alone. not to have my mate, but I hear him sometimes snoring. It’s just my imagination I pray every day and thank you for your prayers and your beautiful flowers. I want to plan some nice flowers for my husband to. God bless you and thank you for making me so strong in the faith❤❤

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you for a beautiful comment, Joanne. I'm glad you are trying to do things again. It is not easy, but God will help you, Joanne...take care ,friend ...God bless...🙏👍

[@stephm-p2839]

Good morning Len, Cindy and John are in the presence of Jesus as the scriptures tell us in 2 Cor. 5:8 "to be absent in the body is to be present in the Lord" What a comfort that is for us. I still have lots of Johns's belongings, clothes, etc. I've gradually started to to down size but taking it very slow. As you said in our time we will do whatever we need to do regarding that. Springtime is so beautiful, thank you for sharing the flowers, down here in Florida spring has sprung weeks ago and all our beautiful fruit trees are starting to bear fruit. That makes me smile knowing we planted them together but I admit I get sad too that he is not here to share it with me. I keep looking upward and remember that this is all Gods plan! You take care Len

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Steph. I'm sure Florida is turning in a blooming paradise about now. I've only been to Florida once, on a spring break many moons ago. I was young and very different then. I remember that sunburn I acquired when I fell asleep on the beach at Fort Lauderdale... I think my skin is hurting just thinking about it. I love your comment about those very special fruit trees you both planted. A part of you both is in the labor of love, used when you worked as a team planting and nurturing them. I have a plum tree that WE both planted ...it is now a special thing to care for as well as her flowers she planted( bulbs). I'm looking up ,everyday... God bless...🙏

[@stephm-p2839]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 I am happy we can share our stories of Cindy and John with each other, It definitely helps me! I am thankful God led me to your you tube page, it has been a blessing to me Len.

[@kathypolomcak7760]

I was just thinking the same thing last night God be with all of us to have lost our love ones❤

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

God be with you too, Kathy...

[@kathypolomcak7760]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 This morning I picked up leaves out of the yard 😔 did a lot of crying a lot of praying I feel like I'm being held here hostage by God got some stain today to stay in my two ducks just something to keep me busy

[@CaponeCabin]

I lost my husband less than 30 days ago. I will never be the person i was because i was the person i was because of him. So now, I'm this different person. Moving through the days almost robotic. I constantly talk to him, it helps some. He had a massive heart attack, literally gone in a instant.... in front of me. I'm trying to figure out who this new person i am is

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

I'm sorry honey..prayers for you and all of us❤❤❤ there will be better days.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Sherry, thank you, I believe better days are on the way. Your words are much appreciated 🙏

[@janicemcantyre3360]

Hi Len, Really missing my husband lately. Don't think grieving him will ever go away. It was 14 months April 7. It's a deep sadness for me that is always with me. Some days better some bad. Miss his bear hugs and laughter. I am thankful he isn't in pain anymore from his cancer and in Heaven though. Just miss him so. Praying for you and everyone else struggling with their grief. My GriefShare group over, but we are meeting monthly at different restaurants. It helps some. Have a blessed weekend!🙏🕊🌹🌻

[@diannedean390]

Thank you for your kindness and sharing helping others like myself you don't have to do this but you do thank you

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thanks for the kind comment, Dianne...

[@Seeker_of_sense]

I am going through the same. Stay strong, distract yourself, go outside, go on a road trip. Maype we should make a social website for people like us who lost someone, are sad and feel lonely. I think this would help a lot.

[@karenjones7466]

Len, I watched this video and could see it was not such a good day for you. For many of us it was the same. I do want to encourage you to continue with your videos of your thoughts and feelings grief for your lovely wife. I am sure Cindy loved your musical ability of playing guitar and I would just encourage you to play in your videos even if it is not a complete song. Your music has such soothing peacefulness and can be of benefit to all who tune in. God has given you a gift. Also enjoyed seeing the spring flowers that are blooming in the video. A sweet tribute to Cindy!

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Karen, Haven't been well of late, feel I ng a bit better now... Grief has taken a toll on me . God's grace and mercy will see me thru.....God be with you...🙏🕊

[@justjoy7194]

Dear Len, this pain never ends, my husband has been gone over a year now, I miss him so much, it's my three year old grandson that keep's me going he makes me happy, he loves his grandma, you are very courageous to do all this on your own Lenny, I don't know if I could, I see God through you, You have a beautiful soul Lenny, and may God bless you and keep you strong!

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you so much joy..God bless...

[@francie1953]

I’m coming up on my one year anniversary of Kim’s death. I’m dreading it. Especially after reading comments from grievers talking about the second year and how much worse it is. That really depressed me but it’s all in Gods hands. I am still just taking it one day or one hour at a time, just praying to get through

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Yes, my friend, these new special dates on a calendar, once unknown, did become a mountain of anxiety and dread looming in the distance for me. I certainly do get it. The 1st was the hardest, at least I think it was. Grief has shaded and twisted my memory of these dates to protect my well-being, I believe. Survival systems in our broken lives begin to activate, and you start to heal your traumatized body, soul, and spirit. It is all by design, from a sovereign loving Father God. The second year was not as difficult for me as the 1st. In fact, the 1st of everything was a trial of willingness to move forward or remain in the shadows of a darkness that enveloped everything where the light of life once existed . I don't think I would have survived those early days. Had I not had a true belief in the faith I once took for granted. I have learned thru all of my journey in many years of grief to understand and accept my life as a gift from God, and I wasn't guaranteed totally happiness throughout my time here on earth. I'm thankful for the blessings of those special moments in my life that have given me the good memories that now sustain and help heal my brokenness. A life without hope is no life at all. Hope for a reunion in a new heaven and earth is what I long for on a daily basis. I miss my dear wife every day, but I know I will see her and hold her once more. Maybe soon. In the meantime, I will do what I believe is the best way to continue this journey with my steps aligned by the Spirit of the awesome God who lives in me, through his promises written in His Word. One day, we will all cross over the river to the side that has been hidden from our view. My prayers for you and many others are for the peace and guidance of our Dear Creator God to carry you through this terrible grief journey and show you His eternal Love in Christ Jesus. Nothing else matters in the end. God bless you and yours.... You can do this....💪🙏🏻

[@rabick62]

I am so sorry. November will be the 3rd year since my wife moved to Heaven. And for me the 2nd year was easier than the first. Now the 3rd year is a little bit easier, so time is our friend. I still miss my wife of 53 years, but I will be with her again soon. Looking forward to Heaven instead of the past sustains me. Wishing you Peace & Comfort.

[@LindaBrown-ut6dj]

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing.. I am where you are.. God Bless

[@teresawoods5719]

You have a blessed day too

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thanks 😊

[@laurenorce2240]

Hi Len , I'm so very sorry for the loss of your wife. My husband of 30 years died August of 2021 of COVID. He was only 54 years old ..... I miss him every second of every day. I'm never going to be the same. My thoughts and prayers go out to you .

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Lauren, I'm sorry for your great loss also. How can it ever be good again? Life. . Even activities of life's existence seem so different, and the loneliness never subsides . Even in a crowded room. People don't understand this ...and that's ok, we do , we help each other with our words of comfort in our understanding. May God give you the wisdom and love He so eagerly desires to impart to you and to us All. GOD BLESS ...🙏🕊

[@kamaldeepjohal9372]

I am so sorry for your loss, hugs and prayers go out to you.

[@chetappling8200]

Hi Len Jan (Chet's mom) - appreciate all your videos. Trying to be more active. Cooking & eating is just ok; but, not much joy without by sweet husband to eat what I cook. My son is helpful in my journey & I'm very glad I'm not totally alone. After 16mos, I am still processing so much. Definitely will never be the same for me. None of the people that I know have experienced the death of a spouse - yet. They really can't even begin to understand what has happened to me (they will when "it" happens to one of them). I pray U R improving in the best way for U. ❤ Jan

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Good to hear from you, Jan. Thanks for your comments they sound like mine. Hope you are adapting more ,a little bit at a time like me... all we can do... God bless...

[@jeanettebranco1910]

I know what you mean, i have my really bad days.and some good days,the pain is neverending,i feel all those things you are mentioning, i pray alot,i will pray for you , and all of us that are Having such difficult and sad times, i hope time heals us all, at some point, God bless you.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Jeanette. Thank you for your comments and especially your prayers. Bending God's ear in our direction certainly makes a difference for us all....God bless...🙏🕊

[@reginabyers5378]

God bless you. 🙏

[@lealugerlynch802]

Your videos are a blessing in my life. Just to know I’m not alone in this. Thank you. I could sure use a hug sending you my love prayers and a hug. ❤🙏🤗

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

You are so welcome, sending you a big hug, God bless...🫂🙏🕊...

[@fillyhart4222]

Love t-shirt Len & I'm gad you have family & friends for support. I too am trying to be courageous as i'll be making my way to UK for my older son's wedding in few mnths. I know his dad will be with us in spirit but it would have been so wonderful if he was with us. I see you got sunshine i sent with Cindy's flowers blooming. Spring must be beautiful in Michigan now so how about road trip again? Or nature walk? Big Hug & from CT xx

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Filly Hart, Thank you for sending a long-distance comment again. Always appreciated. It sounds like you will have a truly wonderful experience when the time comes for your trip to 🇬🇧, UK. I think you will find the courage when you need it... a very special blessing to you and your son and new daughter to be. In my prayers and prayers from many others who walk with you ... God bless...🙏🕊

[@GenaVuich-el5sj]

Hi Len. Miss seeing you in group and wanted to say hi. Still struggling with my grief and loss everyday. Been following you and it helps. Just wanted to let you know.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Gena, Yes ,I know you, and I still pray for the people of our group. I would like to start coming to this now and then again, but I can't ever remember what day or hours they meet... Hope you are doing OK. Say hello to everyone if I forget again... Thanks,God bless...🙏🫂

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

Amen... God uses you in marvelous ways .. we don't have to be pastors or teachers to be greatly used. God often chooses the "least of these" to make a difference in the world. I love what a youth pastor at my church once said - "God isn't interested in your ability. He's interested in your availability." As Isaiah said, "Here I am, Lord. Send me!"

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Sue. It's always good to hear from you... Yes, you're so right, God uses the foolish things of the world to confound the wise. The weak things of the world to shame the strong. God will use any who are available to be humble in His hands. 1 Corinthians 1:27-31... God be with you, my dear friend ,always... 🙏❤️

[@pamlewis2077]

Good afternoon Len, I know how you feel cause I feel the same way too. The loneliness is horrible and I try to keep busy with volunteer work and going to the gym, but it's not enough to fill the void that my husband's passing left (he has been gone 15 months). Sometimes I feel I'm going crazy, but I keep hanging on and praying. Take care and hope to see a new video from you soon.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Pam. Thank you for your comments. I feel blessed to be able to help anyone,,, thru this horrible journey. Your comments help me and many others too... God be with you and bless you...🙏🕊

[@maryannwhitten5123]

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I have my good days & still have plenty of hard days. Has been two years & 3 months. Sometime it hard to keep going, but somehow I do. God bless & keep you.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Maryann, As I'm writing this, I feel pretty good, but that can change without much warning if I don't stay busy. Sometimes it's hard to stay busy... Thank you for sharing, God bless...🙏🕊

[@NorthernBell4612]

Thanks for your videos Len. Beautiful flowers and lovely guitar playing!! CS Lewis wrote the following after the death of his wife Joy “The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That's the deal.” I have to agree with his sentiment. Although our journey with grief is experienced and navigated unique to each of us I would venture to say none of us wanted this or could even be the slightest prepared for the aftermath. As I age one of the things I ponder is what my purpose is now. Life is a gift not to be wasted this I know. There is joy in life that awaits and remains regardless of the heavy heart we carry. We just have to open our hearts and minds to see it, feel it and let in or out. They say time heals and it does to some extent. Really I think we just learn to carry and adjust to the load a little better because we do and must keep getting stronger to move forward. In the humble stillness of thought and prayer I pray for strength, resilience and direction. I have not yet been divinely given the direction or else the foggy grips of grief have deafened and blinded me to the answer pointing to the ah-ha moment of “Here it is, go this way”! (Humor intended) Like Len I feel it hard to be around family at times. It’s hard and for me triggers the reminder of the absence of my beloved. I am doing better with it now along with other aspects and acknowledge I have the remainder of my lifetime to go. Good days, not so good days and those in between. One step and day at a time. There is joy beyond sadness. I have found both can coexist at the same time. My best to all traveling this path of grief, loss and healing.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

So, beautifully written your comment is, ❤️ I've read it several times. Sorry for my delay in response... Was not well. Am better now , GOD bless you Peg....🙏🕊❤️

[@NorthernBell4612]

Thank you Len. I am glad you are feeling better!

[@thedecoratinghousewifecl1345]

Death is such a mystery….we can only find comfort in believing all our loved ones who are now gone are in Heaven and are new again. There’s no more suffering in paradise. Try to believe we will meet our loved ones again….. and that will be one sweet day that’s for sure ❤️🙏

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you for your comforting words, Heaven is our final destination, I hope all will be there... God bless...🙏🕊💕

[@sharynduran5993]

After 17 months of loosing my husband I still cry every morning. I'll never get over loosing my best friend, companion and lover. I have children 2 of them who think I should be over my husband by now. If it weren't for friends and neices I would not have made it. My life just seems so sad and useless.

[@tessurtado5474]

Len that's the biggest problem I have we ,( drop out of there life) but they are still very much here in ours ) and that is what haunts my heart 😢 I just love Gary more and more and no future on this planet with him and he will be my brother in Christ in the next , So just Gone 😢😢😢

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

I feel the same about my beloved husband... we had such a short time here on Earth.. and that is gone forever. I know that the relationship we have in Heaven will be even better - since Heaven is perfect and free of all sin.. but as a human being, I am still sad that I don't get to be married to my baby anymore.. and that there is no future for us as a couple anymore. Breaks my human heart so deeply. I know that there is hope.. but it doesn't take away the current pain.

[@debbiestowe1343]

The thought of our my husband and I never being together again on this earth is sometimes more than I can handle. I see all of the happy couples together and that makes me yearn for him even more. For all of us left behind is the hardest part. To know that our husbands have entered their next journey without us. When our time comes it will be Soooo wonderful to see and be with them again, even though we won't be married in Heaven! I was truly Blessed that God gave me him for 34 wonderful years!!! I'll just be glad when I can have him forever!!! We need to keep our Faith in God and continue to support one another!

[@tessurtado5474]

Guys it just sucks no matter how we sugar coat things , it sucks but Jesus is so awesome and he holds us through it don't he !

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Tess, I feel no different than you, I think. I don't know what heaven and our new relationship will be like. , but it has to be better. It has to be. So hard to make a new life here now, So strange ,so not right. , praying for you tess ,,,🙏❤️‍🩹

[@tessurtado5474]

Thank you Len

[@householdsix1307]

All the things, Len. I'm in month 4 since my husband died. Trying to keep everything going but looking and wondering the purpose of me being here, a speck in the ocean of life. Like you, I believe my husband is in heaven with none of those emotions etc like worry, anxiety, fear, confusion. He is just worshipping 100%.

[@SandraEtheridge-jd5op]

I have been a widow for 6 years. The grief is not as bad as it was. We were married 57 years. I had to find things to do to fill my time. I understand how you feel God bless y

[@dianemichel7824]

I found one of my husband's flannel shirts yesterday. I had his other shirts made into pillows for my grandkids and my daughter, but I didn't have one made for myself. Trying to decide what to do. I can't make a decision for myself. I always ran things past him first. Not having that back up hurts my heart. I want to believe this will get easier, just getting through one day at a time.

[@sunriseschubert4391]

Hi Len, nice seeing another video of yours. I know the feeling. 😞

[@myrtlegranger3443]

I lost my husband 3 & half years ago & last night my brother passed away. I’m so tired of hurting & grieving ❤️🙏

[@Kaytha.57]

Myrtle, so sorry for your loss. I have a heavenly bro too. It hurts. Too many gone. God bless.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Myrtle, I'm so sorry for your added loss now . Sometimes, we can't get a day off from grief. Praying for you, Myrtle , God be with you...🙏🕊...

[@Kaytha.57]

Life is tough but so are you... blessings to you, your channel. Thx for sharing. Love love those blooming flowers. Len when my son died he revealed in a dream to me a couple days after his passing or so that he was with the king... Those were his exact words I remember. I believe they are with Jesus, your Cindy my boy and our loved ones. It's tuff to understand like you say. We just gotta believe. Take care nice man.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello kaytha, I have to say, that is one very amazing dream you had. Praise God... ( One day at a time, sweet Jesus, ) Love this song... God bless...

[@anthonykukkonen590]

Had a dream last night with my wife (passed away 1/19/23) and our favorite aunt (passed away 8/29/2016), doing normal stuff and watching a football game. It was nice, but it cuts both ways, because then you wake up.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Your comment is so true, Anthony, Some of my days lately are only a dream.. I get thru this, though. One day, one dream ,at a time... I dream of heaven a lot lately... God bless...

[@hotrodhomefree]

My wife's clothes are still in her closet, her shoes are still where she left them, her pajama bottoms that she took off and hung on the towel rack to take a shower, 2 days before she died and it's been a year and 8 months.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I sympathize with you, my friend . Your existence is so different without your best friend to share it with. I know. Everything you say is me too. Only time can lessen the hurt. Thank God for those precious memories to help carry us through. God bless...🙏🇺🇸

[@ralphpussilano]

I understand 100%. My wife passed away on August 11th 2024 and I am shattered in a million pieces. I want to join her soon. We were married for 50 years and I knew her 5 years before.💔💔💔💔

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

I love the good news! Jesus is our salvation. Praise God !

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Amen,Cindy, Amen ...

[@kathykelly6045]

I am praying for you!

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you. God bless you...

[@suem1761]

Hi Len. My arms are wrapped around you, and all your subscribers (online friends). Agree, it doesn't go away, for me it is a continuous roller coaster of emotion. I praise God in that He shows me in small ways to get through the moments. But, there is no zest for living anymore, the color is gone and life is gray. Sleep is so difficult as most of us talk about. The last two nights I have been asleep for two hours at a time, what a gift, since my life was changed by death, thirty minutes was all there was at a time. A gentleman recommended putting a chair beside my bed. Imagine Jesus sitting with you (along with The Holy Spirit within us) in that chair. Talk to Him when trying to go to sleep. When you wake up in a panic, start talking again, until you fall asleep again. It is comforting to me. I pray it can work for some of my fellow grievers. Hugs.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thanks for your comment, sue. I can understand your griefs painful periods. Sometimes, it subsides for a day or two for me. But it never goes away ,never. I like the chair idea. I never thoughtvof that. May God bring you peace and guidance... 🙏🕊

[@rabick62]

I hear you Len, I'm sorry. I'm just trying to survive the best I can and keep my spirit's up the best I can and look forward to my time to go to Heaven. Just taking it day by day, it's the best I can do. But I know there is a reason I'm still here, I know God has a reason and I believe that. I know it's so hard, it is for me too. Praying the best for you and wishing us all Peace and Comfort.

[@tessurtado5474]

I want to say it's going to get better but at the end of the day same heartbeat stopped in this body that day.4/1/22😢

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

😥 same here...

[@Anondlynn]

How are you doing Len....been 2 weeks now since hearing from ya. I really hope you're doing well. Thinking about ya ((((🧡💛💚💙💜))))

[@wendysullivan1909]

To all of you god bless and keep well. You are not alone.

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

Feeling very down today..feel very disposable. Wish we had the option to go with our spouse..this pain is beyond imagination. Pray daily buf seems like people forget us.

[@chetappling8200]

Jan (Chet's mom) - Understand perfectly, Sherry. I feel "ghosted" by some folks, who I suppose can't even begin to understand the terrible loss of a spouse U til "it" happens to them. It's been 16mos+ for me. I will never be the same; tho, I'm bearing up the best I can. I definitely think about all the husbands & wives that are now without the spouse. The lives we've all had together went by so quickly. Anyway, God Bless & good health, peace to U. Jan

[@MAvila744]

So sorry, Lisa.

[@Pecan27304]

Amen 💜 God bless

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

🙏🕊 amen

[@kathypolomcak7760]

I feel the same way

[@patriciataylor1409]

Being alone is a choice. ❤

[@MegaPontoon]

Hi Len I think it would help if Cindy's family helped you if you have to let items go. I got my wife's daughter to help me sort through her mums stuff. No way could I have done it on my own. Everyday after I get home from work I put on Dawns favourite jumper which I kept. Very comforting

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Paul, Thank you for commenting. When the time comes , and it will, I have her nephew's and niece's and a few others to help,I think. I'm just not willing to start this... Everything has a memory... How do you do this ? . I keep her blue house coat on the bed post where she left it . I have worn it a few times and cried. I'm not ashamed to tell this... God bless...

[@janicemcantyre3360]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 I love that you wear Cindy's robe. I have worn one of my husband's robes and some of his coats. It gives me comfort and sure the same for you. I kept a pair of his blue jeans and a shirt he wore a lot towards the end to doctor appts. The rest were made into a beautiful full size quilt and 5 pillows with pictures of our life. My daughter has the quilt and 2 of the pillows. Praying for you Len.🙏💕

[@crazyoldbat7600]

Hyacinth and Narcissus, tulips.. all beautiful bulb flowers - perennials.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you for telling me what is blooming here. Narcissus is not a name, I would have guessed. Thanks for the info. 👋

[@MAvila744]

We haven’t heard from you and so just checking in to make sure you are ok.

[@nancyschaefer9748]

I am concerned for younger generations who will not accept Christ even if shown the Way. My prayers for all concerned

[@LisaRobbins-kr5uo]

Theirs a book called Journey of Souls by Michael Newton that has brought me to an understanding that brought some relief.

[@sandyjohn5837]

Me too, Lisa and the book, "The Realities of Heaven" was the one that gave me most comfort...I still refer to it four years after my loss!

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thanks, Lisa. I will check ✔️ out the book you mentioned. I still look for answers and understanding of griefs painful processes. 🙏🕊

[@Eva-k2b7h]

God bless you, I'm so sad for you, and your loss. I am overwhelmed with my grief and sadness. I just pray to Jesus to take the burden onto his shoulders, but I still hurt so much.

[@michelle5936]

May the Lord continue to strengthen, heal, and bless you. In Jesus' name. God Bless You. May I ask where you got the shirt? Would love to get one!

[@LisaRobbins-kr5uo]

I lost my husband whom I was with for 40 years 1 28 23

[@MAvila744]

So sorry, Lisa.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I'm sorry for your loss, Lisa. Praying for you... 🙏

[@salettamyers8845]

💙💙

[@rollinwitlrfam6848]

God bless you to lose my husband going 2 years

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I'm sorry for the loss of your dear husband... Thank you for sharing ...🙏🕊

[@patriciataylor1409]

❤

[@tessurtado5474]

Are you ok

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Yes, I'm ok Tess, thanks for asking... God bless you...

[@Julie-AnnFrancis-mm6md]

12.52

[@Smellybum1]

Hi there!…just watched your videos and they touch me exactly the same way….live in Canada…just lost my daughter last September!….can’t beleive the pain!…never want to get out of bed!…what for!…I’m sorry you lost your best Freind!…I will pray for you!…💔💔❤️❤️😘😘

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Colleen, I'm sorry you lost your daughter. I don't know what that is like, we didn't have children. But I can imagine, the pain of losing a child is equally as great as a spouse. Love brings both happiness and pain. Everyday now I still don't want to face the new day,but I do ,and so will you. God will help us . Thanks for your prayers...🙏🕊❤️ God bless...

[@patriciataylor1409]

❤