my journey thru grief...len presley...

[@thereport4896]

Lost my best friend and wife of 39 years on May 19th 2023 .Thank you brother for sharing.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I'm sorry for your great loss, my friend. 1st year and maybe 2nd is still really hard for many. Self included. But overall, it has become easier to do the things that must get done. Peace to you, God bless....

[@mikeharris127]

I pray for you .and thank you for praying for me.I lost my wife on April 23,2024.

[@enniovarone1197]

Brother I know exactly what your going thru, I lost my wife of 47 yrs. 2 months ago in 7 weeks in the ICU ward. When your telling your story it's like looking at myself in the mirror. Thank you for having the courage to tell your story may GOD bless us and help us get thru this storm he's our only salvation. Stay strong we feel your pain.

[@simplyaj4006]

Thank you for sharing your wife's final moments. She is in heaven now. My husband passed 10 months ago. I know we will see our loved ones again. Peace and blessings to you❤

[@Kimberlea111]

I recently lost my only son and he was 21 years old. He was in a catastrophic motorcycle accident that wasn’t his fault and he was killed 2 days before my birthday. My son was having an autopsy done on my birthday. He’s my heart and I don’t know how to love and go on without my heart. We have such a close mother/son bond and always have and now he’s gone and nothing makes sense anymore. Life doesn’t make sense or seem right without him. I just don’t understand how or why he had to leave! I am riddled with grief and anger and sadness. It’s so so bad…. I can’t function or do anything right anymore. I am so lost and I have zero/no support system…. Except for my cat Kissy Boo. She’s the only one by my side thru it all….🤍🕊 I am sorry for the loss of your beloved wife sir✨🦋

[@dotthompson9146]

Thank you len for you’re video I truly feel you’re pain Of losing you’re wife I lost my loverly son going through my second year of grief my life as changed so much iv got no interest in life any more as my life was my son I died the day he died so lost and empty without him long to be with him to see him again I am so sorry len for you’re loss I can relate to every emotion and pain you are feeling but we will both see our loved ones again soon may god bless you and give you the strength to carry on till that loverly day comes when you will be together again for allways I will pray for you len you are a loverly person god bless dot xxx

[@itsmedee2342]

You have touched my heart.You’re such a sweet loving person .I pray for your strength.Keep on keeping on.Your not rattling your heart is speaking and what a beautiful heart.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Words can be very powerful, thank you...

[@gayscott1899]

It's hard in the beginning. My husband passed away 5 years ago. He was in remission and than he had a sudden heart attack. We were married 33 years when it.happen. in June it would have been 40 years and we won't be able to celebrate that. I totally get what toy are feeling. Just know guilt is a part if grief . .God will help you.fhrough this. God vless you

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

@gayscott1899 thank you for your comment. I have had much guilt at first. Getting a little better now with grief starting to understand it more now. God bless...

[@rickross6390]

First I want to say thank you so much for sharing your grief journey god bless you. I lost my life partner. Soulmate back in August and everyday is a deep struggle😢😢😢 I cry everyday the pain is so unbearable sometimes. May God bless you. Big hugs

[@sunriseschubert4391]

My mother used to live with me, and she went with the Lord in 2022. Is heartbreaking 💔 coming home and not seeing her here with me anymore. 😢😭.

[@patriciataylor1409]

So sad but you where there and you did the best you could. I understand what your going through. When you look back in time I hope you find that you have healed. Love is so powerful. ❤

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you Patricia ,,🙏🏻🕊

[@Julian.Castro]

I feel you're every word as I am going through these emotions myself. Husband passed away unexpectedly 3 months ago after what we thought was just a routine hospital visit. You're right, no one can understand unless they have been through it. Even people who have had family members pass or even children. Children grow up and live there own lives but in the case of a spouse ones daily life, everything you once knew is no more. I'll soon be visiting our happy place on the beach where we felt most at peace and free. I know it'll be very difficult but necessary visit to help with the healing process. My love for him has grown and seems to with each passing day as I move forward. I will miss him everyday until we meet again. I will use that to fuel my life and the work we started together. I see it as God's plan for me. Have to say it really helps to hear this from another man who is showing emotion and vulnerability. From one man to another, thank you.

[@oooops537]

I feel for you Len man person from Michigan, I be said a prayer to the Universe, to BLESS your heart, mind, soul...with peace...acceptance. Cindy and her ' Gang' in the " Room next door, are enjoying seeing Each others all the loved ones, furry ones too :) They are very in tune, with Cindy and she WILL announce her presence, around water and electricity.. Blinking of light bulbs, over sink. She gets it.... feeling your sad broken heart, right next to you. But, over there it s a party... Harder for her to enjoy. Take Good Care... Ken. (warm Hugs). .

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you for your comments. God bless...

[@boonicholls6649]

I lost my precious husband RAY a few months after you lost your loving wife. He was my world, my everything, my soulmate. I feel and know your pain. I have been through it all like you. My heart is broken like yours. I am on my knees with grief. I cry rivers of tears everyday. He was my rock. I am lost without him. I feel your sadness Len. I walk in your shoes. It takes someone like you to understand.... We will love them forever.... Yes and it hurts....

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you for sharing, my friend. Beginning a 3rd year alone is a very different feeling than I have ever felt before. On one hand, I'm feeling better, but on the other hand, the cycle of grief has entered a new stage , a separation from my past. This is both scary and necessary to continue to heal , I have been reliving the last weeks of our life over and over and over for far too long. I have stopped that. I am trying hard to make a new life, but it is not so easy. I can never be who I once was and what I once had. It will never be the same again, and i have accepted this in most ways. But not all. I feel guilty if I don't think of her often. This still really hurts bad. She doesn't want me to hurt , but how do you not hurt. I have seen all of your comments and I will leave a reply if I can. I hope and pray God will draw you nearer each day to His side, where peace and comfort reside. God bless ❤️🕊🙏🏻

[@boonicholls6649]

Thankyou for your reply. It is comforting to get a message from you. I can understand how you feel. Thankyou for your prayers and kind words. 🙏💔God Bless You

[@godschildyes]

I can not tell you how much I appreciate your willingness to do these videos. They are so genuine and so very deep and vulnerable. It's so difficult to find anyone who is honest and real about the pain of losing a loved one, especially a spouse. The fact that you make mention of the Lord is so refreshing and so very comforting and encouraging. And your videos point clearly to the fact that this grieving process is literally a day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment journey that God will see us through. That is worth far more that Gold or any treasure this earth can offer.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you for your encouraging comments. God bless

[@randolphgresham2844]

Please don't give on God. Joy will come in His time. I lost my girlfriend two years ago, and God is carrying me through. He will bring you through!

[@lindaevans2118]

I,s ok for you to cry .because you love her so much

[@Kaytha.57]

Len, I don't know if this has been my first video seeing you but after seeing ALL your journey videos I can say you have come a long way inspiring your audience with your wisdom knowledge daily that our mighty lord has put in your heart. I heartfelt wish you all God's glory to shine upon you and give you peace comfort daily. To your audience, myself , & you, "God strengthen our souls and give everyone a whole healing to the hearts". My sincere wishes.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I don't know what to say to your words of encouragement. you are an inspiration to me to keep trying to be a helping source for those like us who need someone to listen and hear their hurting heart. I never sought to do this kind of thing in the beginning, it just sort of happened. I was in a very lonely dark place and just needed someone to hear me, and feel what I was feeling. I have other videos I made from the very start of this journey, but when l've watched them I was crying most of the time...not really a good thing to display on any platform...I was leaving a message to any who would hear ,about the most painful expirence, I've ever endured, and still do. I wanted to die, I didn't care about anything but seeing my reason for living ,my dear lovely wife , once again. I have come a long way from day one till now. It has been a road many have walked before me, their words have been a life saver for me, and so many others. I only hope to keep that life line extended, to a person in a valley of hurt to grab hold of and know they are not alone...God is watching, He is listening for their crying hearts...this is His legacy not mine...thank you megarza57...🕊

[@Kaytha.57]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 " Leaving value to other ppl's lives you are leaving foot prints on the sands of time that live on, The greatest legacy anyone can leave behind... "You have my back for sure" ... 🍁

[@sandraleefuller]

I lost my mom and we were very close. She lived with me for 12 years and I cared for her on hospice until her last breath. I found comfort and practical ideas from other KZbin channels on grief. They helped me understand grief’s effect on the mind and body. I listen to them at night before falling asleep. There are many many channels. Try to find one you can connect with and relate to. It will help you just like your video helped me. Thank you for sharing this. You are definitely not alone

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

Your words have me pouring tears, Len. I am crying so much with you.... so much of what you are saying - I said the exact same words myself!!! SO many of the same words. I was so, so angry at God for not healing my husband. I had so many glimpses of hope that he would get better... and he didn't. I felt like God abandoned me and let us both down. My husband made it through SO many terrible things in his life... so much abuse... he got beaten up, stabbed, kicked in the head by a bull, bitten in the face by scorpions, electrocuted... and the list goes on... then he survived Covid TWICE.. and then God lets him die of cancer? I was like.. are You kidding me, God?!?!!? I am still so, so, so angry and trying to work through it but I know it takes time. I have cried so hard that I was scared I was going to die, too. I cried so hard I couldn't breathe. Your heart and chest feel like they are being crushed within you and you feel like your body can't handle that much grief. I have asked God so many times, "Are You going to kill me with this grief? Is this how I will die? My heart failing from being so broken?" And then, to add insult to injury - this first Thanksgiving without my beloved husband.. I wake up to find two of our beloved cats dead. One of them was a special gift from my husband... the first kitten we rescued together. Having her drop dead - with NO apparent cause or reason - it was just too much. Just too much. I felt like someone stabbed me through the heart. My husband always had such confident faith... and now mine feels like it is being crushed into ashes. God seems so, so cruel at times. But like Peter said, where else would we go? There is no hope outside of Jesus Christ. He has the words of eternal life.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hi Ana. I have a lot I could tell that I haven't yet said on this platform. It would not be necessary to give more expressions of my grief story at this point. But there is more, alot more. I think most of us have so much hurt inside, things we can't share for one reason or another. The story of your journey is very hard, not be touched by. I hope and pray that God will bring you a happiness once again. I fight the sadness every morning with the event of her visit by angels and the dream of her and I together in a beautiful place I call heaven. Before my dream and before I knew the details of her visitation by These heavenly beings I was still angry and doubting in God's goodness. I wanted to just curl up in bed and die. All I could think about was my beautiful wife dying in that hospital bed, and there was nothing I could do. Prayer was all I had, And pray I did, everyone except one person believed she would be healed of this terrible disease. The one person that did not believe it told me in private that she's never seen one at this stage of covid live. She was a nurse, a believer in jesus. I was terrified and ignored what she had told me. I had asked her opinion. I wished I had not. Was it my doubting in God's ability that cause the prayers to now seem futile in the back of my head. I may never know . I have to believe that God had or has a plan for a greater purpose, to bring more people to His kingdom in heaven. That is my Hope in this grief journey I am on. This process of grief has closed the gap much between God and me. Jesus stands between us. I praise God for that. Text anytime Ana, bye for now...👍🕊🙏

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 I know it is so, so hard when so many people are praying and believing for a miracle healing.. and you KNOW that God can heal and you are waiting to see those prayers fulfilled.. and then the person dies. And then come the waves and floods of confusion and hurt. I am glad that you are holding on to Jesus. I know that Cindy and Gerald would not want us to lose our faith in the Jesus that they loved so much. Thanks again for being there.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

@@WeepingWidowSueAna thank you Ana, the ups and downs are less frequent , but they will continue for awhile, my faith, our faith, will keep us walking in the right direction. Nearer my God to thee...👍🕊

[@rmurphy3435]

I was gone for maybe 10 minutes after being by her side for months, when l returned to her bedside she was gone. It’s so painful but it had to be in God’s will. The last comment l whispered to her was “go be with Jesus.” Her last comment to me was the day before as l helped her into bed as she was extremely weak. Lovingly she took my hand, kissed it and held it to her cheek, looked up and said “thank you for taking such good care of me.” Those were the last words l heard from her on this earth. So in retrospect, God is always sovereign, His will be done, His love is never ceases as my love for her will never cease. l plan on being with her in eternity as Jesus said he is the way, the truth and the “Life.” I’m counting on it. ❤

[@donnachatterton6298]

My cat is seeing me through the death of my husband. He died two days after Thanksgiving. God bless you to make it through your pain, l don’t believe we ever will. My journey is just beginning, still so new. My cat, our cat had a hard time after my husband died. She had become so close to me, she doesn’t let me out of her sight. She is a comfort to me. My daughter lives close to me. I have been blessed to have her. She has and is still helping me get through these days. I am truly blessed to have her but oh my nights are hell, being so alone , but my cat does help me. God bless you and all those going through the long nights. Jesus is with us. Pray and stay close to Him. He wants to comfort us.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Donna. I'm sorry for your great loss. It is a different world for you now. I'm glad to hear you have your kitty cat and daughter nearby. Being without any family near can be extra lonely. Like you said ,Jesus is always near, the same " yesterday today, and forever " Praying for you, Donna . God be with you...🙏🐈

[@kathryntaylor2170]

Sorry for ur loss of ur wife. But the Lord will carry u through this hard grief. I know how u feel i lost my husband 10 yrs. Ago. I went through all kinds of feelings. It is terriable! But hang on to Jesus and he will carry u through. Hold on to the Lord and he will carry ur burdens. It is so heavey at times. But joy comes in the morning. I will keep u in my prayers. God bless u!

[@Vga-kv8pj]

Hang in there i know exactly how you feel its hard , i lost my daughter and the pain is there every day we have to go on the best we can

[@reginabyers5378]

GOD Bless You 🙏

[@Ellie-rp8bh]

I’m sorry for your loss and pain! I am in Saginaw Michigan and my second home was on Houghton Lake! Hmm

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Hello Ellie, Thanks for your comment. We loved Houghton lake ,close to our cabin near moorestown, mi. Love fall the best.. Only been to Saginaw once. So different from Monroe mi.. God bless...🙏

[@patriciataylor1409]

❤

[@wendysullivan1909]

Mr len. Tender Mercies

[@Kaytha.57]

You know Len, I can relate to this, hubby was in hospital for 3 days and transferred to a rehab. Stayed there 21 days. He beg me to take him home. I cried to the lord to tell me what to do. Him being a big man I needed help with him so I called Va. Brought him home. Hospice kicks in, three days later he passes. I too thought he would be home and palliative care would continue. Maybe I just didn't want to except the fact he was dying. We never know the hour or day. 520 am feb 24 I gave him permission to go that I would be fine. He passed... No more suffering no more pain. Sucks we stay around to witness all this. Excuse my language. Take care... I should be going to a viewing this evening. A good buddy of his passed. See you ya and bless you man.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I can't hide my expressions of pain very well in my early videos. There are some I can not show. I was devastated. I was at the end of my existence. I did not care for much. Those first months are the worst for us all. I think. Although it gets better as time goes by, it is because we either accept our new life or we die in the old. Most of us have many reason to keep living. Making all things new, yet keeping the old, close in our hearts. Your story is one, that shows your strength in faith, and the love you had and still have for those you lost, and Son you still have. When you talk here you are creating a journal for you and others to lean on. And me also. Thank you Megarza, ...🙏🕊

[@Kaytha.57]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 I hear you. It sounds all too familiar. Just got home eating pizza at son's home. They wanted me to spend the nite and they made good fun of me biting pizza and a tooth broke ha. Told they oh no way. It was funny after some tears shed at viewing. Gotta go visit a good friend dentist soon. You have a goodnite. One day you will find a reason to live again. Don't lose hope.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

@@Kaytha.57 God bless enjoy pizza...

[@Kaytha.57]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 thx, watching hallmark movies, Christmas year round. Pizza was good. Toothache tough 🤦‍♀️

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

@@Kaytha.57 glad you ok. Hallmark my wifes favorite net work especially this time of year. I was just starting to like it it. Good morning. 1:10 am time for me to sleep for an hour...

[@MariaLandolfi-vi4wf]

Sorry for the lost of your wife. I too lost my husband recently. I totally understand what you have been going thru. To lose your life's partner is probably one of the worst pains we can ever experience. I know my dear husband is in a better place now but it's hard. this grieving process is not easy! We were married for 41 years. I lost my better half. so hard to live alone without him. But I know our Lord is always with us. It takes time. I have ups and downs everyday. No way to avoid them. Anyway, I wanted to say thank you for sharing your grief journey with many like me out there. God bless you and stay strong.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Maria, I'm sorry for your great loss. There is nothing quite like losing someone so dear and so close to your heart that has become one in the same. Nothing is so ripping apart as the sudden loss of your soul mate, your spouse. At least nothing that I have ever felt, and I have lost everyone. But, the painful process of healing has begun to dissipate, slowly but surely. There will be a scar for years, but one day ,maybe soon it will end. I will go to be with Jesus and see and hold my beautiful wife once again. One day soon, perhaps... May God give you guidance and peace as you journey on. God bless my friend...🙏🏻🕊❤️

[@MariaLandolfi-vi4wf]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 Len I've heard that it's not good to hold on to their belongings forever. I know it's hard to let go but please try to donate her clothes and stuff that you don't need anymore. try to change things a little bit around the house. Until God calls us home he wants us to be happy and enjoy life! Trust that our loved ones are enjoying eternal rest. I know my husband is. I'm not saying to move on but try to move forward. I feel this grief will always be with us just less painful with time. But I'm planning on moving forward. I'm learning to live alone for the first time in my life. and you know what? it's not that bad. I take walks every morning. The weather here in Tampa Florida is beautiful this time of year and I love to work in my yard too. Stay busy my friend!

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Thank you, Maria. I have begun to sort thru certain things of my wifes belongings. I just do one drawer at a time. It is still very hard to do this. Tears are unstoppable at times. But I know it must be done. It sounds like you have a beautiful place to walk every day. Keep at it ,it has certainly helped me. God bless ... my Florida friend...🙏🏻❤️🕊

[@MariaLandolfi-vi4wf]

@@lenandcindypresley....4830 yes it's hard it's very hard to go thru their stuff. It took me all day to go thru 3 of his drawers. I cried so much. I got sick too. I came down with the flu. I feel better now but coughing. I still have one more drawer to empty then comes the hardest one. his closet. All his clothes and shoes..... But it's one of those things that has to be done. And I know I will feel better afterwards. Seeing his stuff weights me down.... It's a constant reminder of his passing away. One thing I've learned thru the years is that we're all going to suffer sooner or later. That is how Life is. But Jesus is always there helping us all thru our life's journey, learn to Trust in him . Do not be afraid, the Lord is always with us. I pray for you and all who are grieving. Stay strong and try to keep a positive mindset. God bless you all.

[@MariaLandolfi-vi4wf]

sorry, I talk alot. lol I recently took the kids and grandkids to Epcot to celebrate his life. Disney world was one of John's favorite places. We are lucky that Tampa is close to Orlando. We don't need to spend money in a hotel. We spent the day there and drove back home at night . Yes it was hard. I think everything is hard the first year. but it was nice to finally get out of the house and do something fun. try to do something fun. It works wonders.

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

Hugs my friend..I found you in Nov 2022

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

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[@hannesRSA]

Surely believing in an afterlife makes it easier? I can understand why people do.

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

Yes, it does,,, mostly.. Thank you for commenting...🕊

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

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[@Kaytha.57]

You know Len when I brought my husband home from rehab he was already dying I called VA told them he wanted to come home to die. I never imagined my strong man he was once was going to die three days later at home. Immediately hospice took over well they just left me all by myself to administer morphine which I never did. I told them I couldn't do it. Eventually they came and did it. Looking back it was so very hard to see the love of my life detoriating right in front of my eyes. I gave him permission to go and he passed as soon as I said that. We are really never prepared. But here I am 4 1/2 years later all alone 😔. Life... Hope your doing well. My wishes.

[@juliancollins3280]

Thankyou Mr Priestly for your videos. You are saying it for all of us. Our minister here in town summed it up for me, this is our cross to bear , this grief. Thankyou again, stay strong. Xx

[@mrplumbingtechrooterservic7086]

How are you feeling now ?

[@lenandcindypresley....4830]

I'm doing better , at times much better. But those days still happen that things are just so different and very lonely. They will happen for a long time to come. Life is just not the same anymore. God bless ...🙏🏻🕊

[@user-hi1se4ms4j]

I understand your pain......you need to find a new wife........if you see this let me know....