My life as a Christian woman deep in alcoholism for over 20 years and my message to the church | LNN

There is no taking away from the fact that Carol Kagia is an incredible mother of two but she is also knows the effect of her first sip to red wine and the pain that single act would cause her 20years later
On this episode of LNS, she takes Lynn through her journey with alcoholism as a christian woman, the pregnancies and her father's unconditional love towards her
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[@LynnNgugi]

Good morning team LNN:) What are your thoughts on today's show? You can connect with Carol on [phone] or [e-mail] You can always connect with us on [e-mail] Thank you so much for watching:)

[@EKKiaiMedia]

Lynn topic imeniwai becoz yenyewe sijui how am here after burying my little bro 7 years ago juu ya tei, when COVID happened, mdogo mdogo wine manenos WFH before long 700 Ml in a day hard liquor 😔 😟 🙁

[@beckykenyaable]

where in Nairobi can i get AA meetings

[@belindandinda5966]

I like the character of the father. It has really taught me the best lesson about parenting. Lynn you are such a amazing person who inspire my life daily. Just know you are a mentor to me.

[@revjosephinemuinde3922]

Being a pastor for many years her story is a wakeup call for me for sure the church must open her eyes and face issues as they are with our congregations thankyou Carol and Lynn

[@aquivush7510]

I knew Lynn will reach out to her. Watched her on another platform.

[@willhector9478]

I wish carol's dad would give his version of parenting and what he went through as a parent of an alcoholic

[@josephinenjeri9489]

Check Engage on YT

[@faithawino]

Yes..for sure. He was with her all through

[@wambuikingatua3820]

I fear addiction. It takes over your life, strips you of your dignity, destroys your relationships, destroys careers...and wastes your life. It is a testament to you Carol that you have conquered this demon, may you remain sober for life.

[@ruthpearl2439]

I was a bhang addict for a good ten years, I chewed miraa and later graduated to muguka for close to ten years, o was drinking heavily for some years and all these years I was a teacher. The Lord heard my cry and delivered me. I am a born again christian now for 7years. Addiction is real. Let's speak and encourage those going through the same or those who have just stopped and don't know how to go about it.

[@naomiakoth2958]

This story has touched me before i got saved i use to drink like a shit and no body in my family has never known anything about it i used every thing alcohol chewing miraa using marijuana all those but the day i call it quit i said to my self enough is enough and i must change,i took a step of faith i went to church and i was delivered and from that day until now have never stepd in a bar again ,there is a God

[@Achieng1326]

Amen Amen ... awesome testimony ,🙌

[@sarahitambo]

Congratulations

[@willhector9478]

Congratulations girl I pray that you focus on the future 😘

[@naomiakoth2958]

@@willhector9478 thanks mammy 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@marionkusiima7581]

Hallelujah

[@graciegathua3172]

The hero here is her Dad. What a lovely picture of God the Father. Such unending, relentless love. ❤️ And Carol, you are also a champion. Sharing your story so candidly, so unashamedly. You have helped so many. All the best in your sobriety. Strong woman you are ❤️

[@bellaolum9768]

I love her oratory skills, yani she can keep you engaged all day. Her story will definitely help many people.

[@dineomocoach]

True that. Her voice is so engaging.

[@zipynami2522]

I love how she owns her story and is not scared to tell it.I aspire to be on this level one day

[@sharonkatushabe9218]

There's a lot to learn from this story. I was an addict a few years ago and my dad reached a point of giving up on one day he told me that he is just waiting for the day they will call him to come and pick me up from the mortuary . I made him go through hell I would drink and the conductors of kojja stage would him to come and pick There's no college I did not attend that is within Nairobi cbd, college was graffins college in town and I would refuse to attend classes and decide to go buy alcohol come and sit there opposite nation center there some seats where people sit near total. I remember one day I drunk so much till I blacked out to the point the chokoras wanted to rape me some boda boda guys called the police. Good enough I used to walk with my passport so behind the passport I had written my dad's number, They called him and asked if he knew me. Like I saw my dad suffer stress because of me and it never used to bother me. As long as I had a bottle nothing else mattered that was my life but I thank God I overcame the addiction

[@Kasweetie_254]

Any addiction Starts with just a sip or a puff... let's keenly listen to her and let her life experiences be a lesson to us. Jifunze kitu kutokana na hii story ya Carol Kagia.

[@judynyaga9043]

And then people will glorify taking alcohol and then they question some of us who never drink thinking we are the ones with a problem.growing up I watched my dad battle alcholism and it really took a toll on my mum. Being a first born I saw the pain she went through, they later separated, we suffered with no school fees, rent etc. As he used to spend all of it buying alcohol. Years later my dad is 9 years sober, looks much better and I'm happy that his life turned around for good.

[@amedeogikonye4694]

I strongly admire the kind of father you have. He never gave up on you.

[@omatsurisan]

That part where she pronounces blessings on her dad is a real tear-jerker! I felt like thanking him for being the kind of dad she could (and did!) run back to. Thank you Ms Kagia for sharing your story, and for lifting others!

[@bevmwallo1712]

Carol our CNBC Days in Johannesburg my goodness! That's how we became friends and I didn't even know you were dealing with all this. Anyway, I'm proud of the person you have become today and your story is amazing! What a testimony! God bless you more!

[@mariesoni7189]

Loving this conversation. Even in Salvation, we are still human beings. The greatest fear is being judged at the very place we would go to seek refuge and guidance.

[@gideongitau9800]

💯

[@janegithiari7196]

The church is deemed not to be doing enough to combat addictions. As a church worker,I'd like to learn of interventions that the church can embrace so as to do better.Kindly share

[@doreenmwenda939]

Thank you Carol for being strong and brave to share your story... We appreciate you Lynn for hosting her

[@WanjiruMuya]

I love Carol Kagia😍💕she's such a brilliant woman. Addiction is a desease. Addicts needs help not crucification.

[@fidelliswambui6217]

Thanks, Carol for being so bold to address this monster of alcoholism. You see addiction is a disease. I myself have struggled with quitting sugar. I laughed at a thought the other day thinking, "Am I not an addict in one way?" I've had withdrawal symptoms of quitting sugar, yes sugar from headache to anger and all that. When one knows better, one ought to do better.

[@MissT292]

I have watched Carol for 3times ,, can't get enough of the truth in her story,,,keep winning Carol,,,good job Lynn

[@juniormokom1406]

1)Real parents never abandon their children no matter the situation . Take home lesson for today

[@lilianlutukai517]

I'll never get tired of hearing Carol's story on all platforms... She's funny, so real and inspiring... I could just hear Donnie McClurkin "We fall down but we get up" "for a saint is just a sinner who fell down... and got up" "Get back up again"

[@jedidahakinyi9681]

Right!? I know I have watched her on Engage but still sounds new

[@teejayangel6638]

Wow! What a story! More power to you Caroline in your journey in freedom. I hope every man and woman who's going through the same struggle in alcohol will hear this story and seek help. Thank you Lynn for highlighting this issue of alcoholism. There are many kinds of addictions, there are Christians (believers i.e) who're suffering from addiction to pornography also. I commend Crossroads Fellowship Church in Mbsa who started a programme (CR) in 2018 that dealt with addictions, I don't know if it's still operational. But, yes the Church has been so lazy at dealing with REAL issues.

[@hellennjoroge6617]

This lady brought me to tears. Her Dad reminds me of my Dad he loved me this much but passed away

[@speakoutwithcarolinekagia.3873]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Hugs

[@BlazingImpact247]

I found out that some habits are walked out after salvation. Some habits may go away instantly , that makes the difference between a miracle and a blessing. To have a miracle you need to be in a crisis. A miracle cannot be duplicated or passed on and to experiencea miracle one wouldneed to walk from crisis to crisis. . A blessing on the other hand is a lot like a formula and one can help other people in similar situations when they are operating out of a blessing. No wonder we are blessed to be a blessing. Carol walked out her freedom and she is able to help other people. 'Kenyan salvation' is one that expects believers to change immediately after the salvation prayer. It is discouraging when a person trips. They feel like they are beyond help. God really wants us to experience his best and meets each of us at our point of need in His way.

[@florencekitonyi9686]

Can't get tired of listening to this girl she is so real

[@jlmchannel5579]

Listening to Carol and I say praise God . My brother has been struggling with the same ,started taking alcohol in 2018 at age 34 , through bad influence ,so at times he's like I quit 🙅🙅‍♀️. I pray God visits him .

[@mzuribeauty4287]

My brother too. He lost his job, family, car and moved back to shags

[@nazziwavanessa606]

Cheeeeiiii Carol!! You are re-telling my story! I was A SUPER ALCOHOLIC I tried 🚬 in school I failed completely failed!! So I never smoked anything I only boozed hands down!! My tolerance with alcohol was highhh too i would tank a crate of beer. All over hung-outs. .I'm also the 1st born, born and grew up from a born again family my dad a bishop. Liquor plus too much beers makes you look olddd kabisa I had darkened too, i aged terriblyyy but if you look at me today cheeei im glowing and I give my children my all. There is freedom in sobriety.

[@lucykarii]

I feel sorry to say this, my mom has been struggling with the same for the longest time but I pray that one day God will turn around her life 🥺🥺

[@quinterarembe9547]

He will,God saved my dad when he was drowning in alcohol.Alikuwa anapita tu karibu na crusade ilikuwa inafanywa kwa center yetu.

[@lucykarii]

@@quinterarembe9547 I'm so happy for you and your dad. Indeed God can change any situation 🙏

[@Kasweetie_254]

Ndo namalizia kuwatch, now lunch break, no matter how busy your kindly find time to watch what LNN is doing.🙏✌️ Sending love to all survivors of addiction 🙏💯

[@joycem47890]

The way Carol owns her story is superb. Lynn, you look wonderful. The colour of your dress... weeee! It gives you an aura of freshness, calmness and grace

[@Kasweetie_254]

True

[@Maryandrews44]

I understand how to be in church yet struggling with addiction..it's not easy 😢but God is good I got delivered!

[@suzannegrace196]

Thank you Caroline and Lynn, this has been such an intense hour and a half! Wueh! God is surely able and willing to help anyone and everyone. Do not write anyone off. Speak life. Make Holy Spirit your best friend..

[@KilifiKing]

She’s a great story teller 😅 - Power to Her 🙏🏽

[@lechemwende2351]

Indeed she is

[@KilifiKing]

I could wrap her up ♥️

[@florenceachieng]

Mapema ndo best,let's learn guys and we really appreciate Team LNS for bringing this amazing story.

[@LynnNgugi]

Welcome home Florence❤️❤️

[@njerikimiri9601]

Somebody once said that, our "weaknesses" are our greatest strengths because those weaknesses transform into books, podcasts, talk shows, careers and many more This is clearly evidenced by Ms. Kagia So, appreciate your weaknesses and transform them to strengths.

[@ThatGirlAkal]

I turned 30 this year, I have never tasted alcohol, never smoked. I am a very fun person,all my friends drink. Nothing happened to me it's just a personal decision... Beautiful story here...

[@Wanjamburu.23]

You are my twin. Alcohol is something I have never tasted or looked at I Don’t even know how beer looks like.

[@maisyshey6093]

Amazing

[@panafrican.nation]

Alcohol can lead to very bad decision-making. I got into a relationship which I wouldn't have were I sober when I met the other person. I imagine the impact in this regard is worse for women. I don't drink any more.

[@rachaelmwanthi8137]

Nobody is talking how Lynn is soo HARDWORKING❣ Nifikisheni 1k guys only 50 to go please 💕💯💥💫

[@kigururuth6917]

Here's how I rationalise... I only drink black label. I will never sink to her level...you should know the post I hold, I'm struggling but yet everyone thinks I'm so good. My dad is my hero too, I guess he suspects but loves me too much to tell mum. My hubby has realised and has started managing my activities but walevi...I hide so much from him. I will consider rehab Ngai...but in secret. Guys will be shocked.

[@aidahmuyanja7246]

Thank you Lyn, am Aidah from Uganda and I enjoy your talk shows. Carol you're such a great vessel that God is using to change His people.

[@lillianngwexana990]

God is good. "I can do all things trough Christ who strengthening me"🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

[@nyamburacathy1173]

Thanks for sharing. I identity with your story(Coming from a Christian family, loving God attending church and doing service)Then later drinking 🍸 and hitting the lowest rock-bottom bottom 🙏. Also in recovery (12step) Congratulations 🎊 Caro

[@teejayangel6638]

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏 keep going!

[@murithilinet9369]

Having been brought up in a home of an alcoholic father i have seen first hand what an alcohol addiction can do and how it can destroy families.

[@eunicekisha9280]

Same ...waaa it's a struggle

[@shirom4901]

Sad thing about addiction is until you are hooked completely is when u realized wait i can't get out, then the admitting that ur are addicted is another huddle

[@cheroobrigit8042]

This thing about "kupiga Sheree"is really killing us Youths and as a Nation...I mean 20 to 30 years to come where will we be...

[@karengrace5248]

This is the interview i’ve been waiting for. Thanks Lynn for bringing Caro

[@Cate861]

I saw this story at another channel I cried but when I saw on fb she will be here I said I hv to watch it again n again Love you Carol strong n proud of how strong you are

[@kenyaettahboss4240]

Wao wao!! Carol is so blessed. She has come out here to narrate her own journey of what alcoholism does! Many people won't do this for fear, their own ego e.t.c! May God open so many doors for you Carol! Mr Kagia, Carol's dad really supported her my my the dad is a hero!! The other fathers should learn from Mr Kagia! What a brilliant father he is and he has been! God bless you Mr Kagia for not letting go of your daughter.

[@lyn254]

God will use your story to help and lift those who are struggling.caro is a very good story teller, and am very glad how her parents NEVER gave up on Her .God is a God of second chance 🙏

[@sarahngugi2779]

Carol you are a strong lady seeing that you didn't cry all through the video like the man who came here before God got you and you are a walking testimony to many 🙏🙏.

[@carolynodiyo3675]

I have watched Carol(namsie0 on several occasions and I feel so proud of her. She had to go through it so as to serve her purpose in helping alcoholics/drug abusers to conquer. Caroline means "strong". Love you namesake !!

[@LynnNgugi]

She is such a strong soul:)

[@teejayangel6638]

Ooh nice!! It explains a lot! I've a friend called Carol, she's been through so much, I even tell her am strong but her level of strong is in another level, and she always has a smile and a kind word for everyone. An awesome soul!

[@everlynengiselabarakwe5862]

O

[@SweetCaroline10X]

I just found out that my name means strong 😅 I am super strong and resilient - tired of being strong though.

[@gracenyaboke8483]

Wow.After this convo,i support the law on bars n joints in this city n others.We must creat a safe haven for generations to come.Thanks Carol

[@nancyoduor9291]

Tuned. This is a wake up call to this generation

[@Jacko2009100]

I love the shout out to her Dad, blessing on you Carol.

[@Honey-rb9vo]

I watched her story on Conversations with Jasto na alinifanya niache pombe. On a break now but want to progressively quit because waaah! Her story is such an eye-opener because we get sulked into the world of alcoholism in the name of 'Sherehe'. Glad to see her on here. Hope other people will be impacted as I was.

[@olivenjoki2853]

Your attitude is positive. You will heal.

[@speakoutwithcarolinekagia.3873]

I'm so glad to hear this. Well done ✅

[@speakoutwithcarolinekagia.3873]

Congratulations 👏👏👏

[@leahmuriu]

So glad you’ve finally been able to overcome the resentment you had towards your mum and acknowledged her contribution to your life.

[@WanjiruMuya]

Apart from praying for people the church should be Empathic❤️

[@panafrican.nation]

You mean empathetic. But I get your point. It's strange how many churches lack empathy... they're in the business of judging. Jesus was a very empathetic guy -- he associated with rejects

[@panafrican.nation]

I take my correction back. Looks like empathic is a word. I had no idea. It must be newish because it wasn't in use prior to this century

[@esthermurugi4995]

This is second time listening to this story and I cannot get enough of it,we are all battling different kind of battle but afraid to talk about them not to be judged by society

[@Cate861]

Mee too

[@irenemartin4588]

Watching this made me cry, sad and happy tears. Hope my brother will one day realise what he’s doing to himself. About genuine rehabilitation centres in Kenya, it’s true that not all are genuine. Have pumped so much money into my brother’s recovery but no joy. It’s sad seeing him like this. My mum has been called on so many occasions even at night so wasted and blacked out.

[@boohookidscreations8003]

Love you Carol for telling your story. Your storytelling is outta of this world. Made me laugh, but learnt.

[@colletanyabuto3269]

You're awesome ❤️ beautiful and encouraging 🙏 Thank you for sharing this😊

[@ceciliamukami2521]

Carol I being an alcohol lover I understand you well from your stories I can relate thanks God he delivered me also from alcoholism 🙏💜💜💜💜💜

[@kawiranaivasha5699]

Carol is an amazing woman. Big heart and ready to conquer territories. I love her with all my heart. I now know why we didn't have a pianist at BSF Ngong on Monday.

[@vummymeela1091]

This girl anaongea maisha ya watu wengi sana' weeeeh; nashangaa vile anakumbuka every detal

[@sarahngugi2779]

Haki pombe wewe hukufanyia Carol poa those days but God is faithful he preserved your life 🙏🙌

[@zhegal1]

what a privilesdge and honor to have such a supportive father. Kudos to Carols dad for his support

[@graciegathua3172]

Huyo Mzee ni wa maana sana. Such a beautiful picture of who God is to us. ❤️

[@angelakaranja6400]

Brilliant episode Caroline-- thanks for being vulnerable enough to bless those who are struggling with addictions. May your doors open and your territory enlarge

[@speakoutwithcarolinekagia.3873]

Amen Amen Amen.

[@carolynesyokau1444]

Thank you Lynn for this story so timely, educative and an eye opener. Carol my namesake Carol means strong and you're a strong lady,that was a bold step you've taken to share your story God bless you for that and may you grow to greater heights, to be a change maker in this country and to the ends of the earth. Sherehe si lazima kukunywa pombe no, but sherehe yaweza pigwa na soda na juices. Kwa God ndio mambo yote na ni raha tupu.

[@octavialeepo1536]

My beautiful Caro, as housemates all those years ago and this journey till now. We can only give Glory to God, He was always in the details even when we didn't realize it. You are God's Jeremiah 29:11 personified and indeed He has called you to be a Prophet unto the nations.

[@sarahngugi2779]

Wooiye first borns kiyo 🪞 ya jamii may God help us 🤗

[@mamaketotos4414]

Thanks Lynn this show is so helpful to our teenagers

[@hottensiahwanjiku2550]

I do 💕 the courage of Carol she sounds so educated and she is going far may God bless her and her family thanx for the good job she doing

[@madelinekavuli9994]

Big hugs to your dad. He never gave up on you

[@Diana-Andi]

Also for addicted person out there "THE CHANGE STARTS WITH YOURSELF from your heart"

[@gracemaseure4054]

Thank you Lyn for this story it's going to help many people

[@jacintawanjiru2082]

Such a story ..I pray that one day my brother will change 😭😭😭

[@saumuhamisi1603]

I love her story I’m glad she turned her ways 🥰

[@everlinemangera7528]

lYNN that dress looks good on you! you look absolutely Amanzing!🌹🌹🌹

[@hakayi9130]

Wow! This testimony has touched my life and confirmed something for me. God bless you Carol. God bless you Lynn ❤️

[@JJones-oh3dd]

To God be the Glory🙏🏼Thank you Lord for Lynn she is such a Blessing to us🙏🏼❤

[@emcarsonem4072]

I'm a Kenyan living in the US and your story is my story. I need help

[@peaceandama4801]

I love this lady. Thank you for your honesty.

[@dineomocoach]

Alcoholism is becoming a serious problem in Africa. Caroline has been sent to assist those who are in need. Continue doing the good work.

[@kimaniesther2360]

I have listened to Carol starting from engage and for sure she is a good speaker. Hold on there Carol and you are beautiful.

[@jerusamunala7247]

Had watched you before on shared moments and I can't help it but do it here again...your narration is on another level🤣🤣🤣

[@pauline2604]

I love and give it to your parents (your Dad) he never gave up! God is taking you places Carol,

[@JUSTWANGUI]

Carol is so outspoken I love her 🥰

[@jannykavinya8373]

I pray one day to sit with you Lynn and tell you my story

[@ruthwaithera1065]

Thanks Carol for speaking so freely about these.Thats so brave of you.May the Lord abound His grace on your recovery journey mama and also as you reach out to the whole world. Thanks our girl for always bringing to us these amazing conversations.We need to be so real

[@sheilahendrich6995]

Hi Lynn Ngugi and your guest, watching from Kansas 🇺🇲

[@peterkebwaro4635]

Beautiful show and full of hope for us going through various addictions. It has given us strength to pull through.

[@antonysodium8381]

Whoa!!! It just hit me this is DNAs sister.ur parents are understanding and thanks for ur courage 👊🏿👊🏿

[@agnesnjeri8402]

Being addicted to anything is the worst thing and feeling ever..I pray than I never get addicted to anything, and to my Sons as well 🙏🙏..may God heal our generation 🙏🙏 at some point I think our country could go far if our youth can be saved from alcoholism..so far that's the thing I had made me love Saudi..even if some people are taking it.. it's illegal here.. with all the wisdom with people in our country..we could go far..I have been around addicted people so I know and understand what Carol is taking about

[@anastasiawamaitha3167]

its not damaging to the melanin, by the time your skin is gettin lighter (kumiuka) from alcoholism, its liver damage manifesting on the skin-its Jaundice. Juu wadau wengine wakiskia hivo watafikilia ni poa kulewa kuliko kupaka mikologo uso

[@priscillarnjeri7874]

Thanks Lynn and Carol for sharing your story. I thank your father for going with you all the way. I also thank God for giving you another chance so you may be the one to talk and give hope to the hopeless. I have my three brothers and my niece. Two of my brothers are being taken for a rehab and to say so one of them is in a rehab now. My niece was at rehab in February this year. The two never changed and continued drinking as before. What can be done to people like them ? May God think of those who take alcohol, it’s the worst drink I have ever seen destroying many people.

[@carolinewanjiku7609]

Alcoholism is the root cause of poverty and broken homes in kenya.

[@Kasweetie_254]

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LEGENDARY DIRECTOR EDWIN OCHIENG 💯🎊🎉

[@wanjirugakuo4387]

Carol you are one of a kind you’re beautiful 🤩

[@corazonodera7164]

Caro is a gem, a treasure, loved and valued. Be blessed, stay strong thank you for your story and resilience.Go far dear

[@Rubykim8636]

Wow your father Carol your father!May God bless him,he never give up on you.

[@jackychela4638]

I like the way she called out the church for their pretence... I love her spirit... She is vibrant and brilliant warrior. Nowadays gospel Ni prosperity 🙄 good conversation Lynn.. More of these talks is what we need. 👆

[@revothomas9343]

But the Church is stressed as well. The Church leaders are the most depressed.