My Life with ADHD: ⚠️Depression and Suicide⚠️

TEXT OF VIDEO:
You are strong even if you deal with depression. You are strong even if you deal with anxiety. You are strong even if you are sad, even if you cry, even if you rage. You are strong for existing, because this can be a hard world to exist in. You are strong if you need to take a haitus, you are strong if you need to stop what you're doing because it's hurting you. We are adaptable creatures designed to learn and grow.
That said, people often act surprised when someone who seems happy, famous, popular, or strong commits suicide. None of these elements mean you aren't depressed- it just means people don't KNOW you're depressed, or write off your depression because you're too rich/famous/fulfilled to be depressed.
But depression, like a parasite, doesn't care. It feasts on the weak and the strong. It feasts on those who have it all, and those who have none, and everyone in between. Depression doesn't care who the victim is, or what they've done or haven't yet done. Depression feasts regardless.
Depression can be situational. It can be diasphoria. It can be hormonal. It can be chemical. It can be all of the above. But it doesn't make you a bad person, or a weak person. And it doesn't mean you have to be strong to carry others. We should carry one another.
Comics is a hard life. Isolation. Instability. Lack of income. Lack of emotional support. Long hours. Physically grueling work. Comics will eat you alive, just like depression.
Conventions is a hard life, for artists. Much of the above applies, but we're expected to be 'on' at the convention. Friendly, approachable, funny. Infinitely interested in others, but not pushing the sale too hard, despite our income depending on it. We have to be liked- conventions sales are a lifestyle purchase. Our products have to be good. We have to offer excellent customer service. We're expected to be it all- product designer, manufacturor, and rep. Little slack is given when a sale is lost in an instant, and loyalty is fleeting.
This is a hard road, and I see you. Even if you aren't ADHD, and you struggle with depression, I see you. I see you especially if you struggle with ADHD- constantly feeling one beat off, manic when everyone else is somber, tired when everyone is upbeat. Always too much, yet somehow never enough- I see you. And you are not alone.
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Suicide Prevention Resources: www.sprc.org/

[@reddeath4206]

There a lot of things I want to do and my ADHD stops me from doing stuff I want to do

[@camtonyray666]

You know how some people act like robots by the way they know how to do things automatically? Like their minds can't stop doing something right after having done something. We're the opposite of that. We think like robots by the way we know to think things automatically - Like our minds can't stop thinking something right after having thought about something.

[@Mrbananas371]

Born to be a loser

[@rwitt3vloggs]

I have ADHD, High anxiety and depression. I have no clue what the hell I want to to with my life because I am very ‘limited’. Just graduated high school, need a break from school but I can’t just be sitting around doing nothing. All I want is to start a family of my own someday and I’m not sure I am going to be able to even find a partner because of how my brain works. I am so sick and tired of going through suicidal thoughts off and on, it wears me out and I am done. No matter how hard I try, when I try to talk to people about it I can’t get the words out of my mouth or I don’t think that they’d understand . I am 19 with no clue what I want to do with my life and I fuckin’ hate it honestly. I am so tired of feeling suicidal off and on.

[@Duha_01]

I feel you bro

[@Duha_01]

You can contact me on telegram @Selflessness2

[@Pxa111]

Same age, same problems.

[@SKRILLA777]

Exactly the same problem here

[@Fenderstratosphere98]

I’m 23, same here.

[@noalkuzio7983]

Thank you so much, I feel I can't relate to anyone. Not even my partner.

[@Mrbananas371]

Otherwise they will just see you as a lazy guy bro you need magic tricks need have a booster everywhere. You goo for the people can’t know about it you just go to the toillet take the booster and go on tdah are very inteligent if they can concentrate and temporary answers definily exist for you

[@MissJanaMac]

I know you delivered this message year's ago(I recall thinkin to myself "wow, so I'm not alone & a complete stranger knows me better than close friends/fam do") but I often find myself comin back to this video wen I'm in 1 of my ADHD moods. It never fails to remind me that today is today & 2moro will be different, lol or 4hrs later on in the day. I've never thanked u 4 posting this video & I'm doin so now! Thank you so very much 4 reminding me of the important things I should focus on instead of the shoulder weight, the torment, the negativity that comes along w/ those of us who have adult ADHD & know nothin of what is like to live w/o it. So when I'm feeling down, I listen 2 ur words & they usually get me outta my funk. U have no idea how much this video had helped me in the past 4-5 yrs...or however long ago u made it. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. ❤

[@kirsten1007]

Thank you. ADHD and depression are so hard. It is very cyclical when it hits me again for no apparent reason

[@emmanueljuma5420]

I had all adhd social anxiety and depression it really sucks

[@DaedalianAbilon]

i feel like adhd is an issue with the serotonin in our brains not properly being released to balance our emotions, due to the amount of thoughts we get i feel like the serotonin that does get released isn't enough for our brains to function properly, because i used to micro dose mdma which is basically the same as the adhd meds but it works more on the serotonin receptors rather than the dopamine and it made me feel like i didn't have adhd or any of my other disabilities, but i still say that it isn't the answer or the cure but i feel like something with the serotonin receptor could help adhd and adhd ruminating. ADHD CAN MAKE US FEEL BURDENED

[@Mrbananas371]

Forgot venvanse and Ritalin you need maoi A not B. Maoi A you will be fine take cold showers eat more meat organ meat like thong and liver. You will be 100% heal temporarily Then you will meet the hell because you will become other person THE YOU WITHOUT TDAH and after that super angry with everything why you are like that etc but just do this you will fell much better

[@kirsten1007]

I think you are right. I need to get back on Prozac for my ADHD/depression

[@Mulejaw]

Thanks for that. I'm 62 years old and I'm much too familiar with struggles of ADHD and depression. I've actually been thinking a lot about Anthony Bourdain lately. My wife walked out on me 3 years ago because of all the struggles with depression and other comorbidities related to adhd. I have been living alone and pretty much complete isolation for the last 3 years. I have been an artist but I have never been able to get it together to do something even remotely consistent. Despite the despair, I keep on keeping on although it is often difficult to find a reason to keep doing so. Right now, my main reason is my dog. Who would take care of him if I wasn't around ? I have one single friend who lives across the pond and who also struggles. We text almost daily and prop each other up as best we can. There are a lot of big reasons to want to keep going, but often it's the little reasons that do keep you going. I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. It's excruciatingly difficult. And yet, here I still am. Thank you.

[@ChristinaOstil115]

I am this person with adhd, anxiety and depression. I want to be some but I have no support from government, friends and church.

[@drcam6162]

I have ADHD and am a medical student , being a Doctor is my dream but i don't know if I would made it cuz my grades don't show that , to be honest i can't see my self not that one , furthermore i have planned my last night in this life my brain will never give the chance to succeed i have tried to do everything I could but nothing works Plz prey for me .

[@thezzach]

Well said Becca. i was seriously considering killing myself when i found your video. I’m still not ok but i really appreciate your honesty. i have friends but none of them struggle w/ depression & adhd like i do. i feel like i have no one in my life who can really relate to how I feel. I wish I could meet people like you.

[@sena_2341]

same ugh im at a very low low

[@emmanueljuma5420]

I had it since childhood it really destroyed my life as I couldn't pay attention even to a conversion now i have adhd no more but really there is nothing left there in my life

[@Portal_Mel]

@Melly its hard, but if you can hold out for treatment then it can get better. A few things can help. Reaching out to friends or family. Getting a GOOD therapist. MOST IMPORTANTLY, seeing if medication works for you, and which medication works for you. Theres also tons of online communites that can help you!

[@tebohosefatsa6627]

I feel you...

[@pudgeallday1265]

I lost my son in august so i cant watch your video Becca but Iam thankful you posted. People really need to take anxiety and anxiety disorders seriously too bc anxiety killed my son and I will never be the same. PLEASE IF YOU EVEN THINK OF KILLING YOURSELF THINK OF THE HURT YOULL PUT ON EVERYONE ELSE. its all i can do to get up everyday. the reson i didnt follow my son is bc i dont want to hurt my kids the way my son hurt us. you can get thru anything. reach out. someone is always there whether it be a stranger or not. i promise

[@s.m.abusufiansunny1635]

@Leeanne Vavra, sorry to hear about your son. The fact is everyone loves their mom, their family and more importantly loves themselves. Think about it that how much pain could cause someone to leave all these behind and choose death.

[@idahosprings2224]

It was his choice to end it. Sounds to me you sucked at parenting.

[@berchy2111]

You are a selfish parent for making a statement like this. Mentioning your kid hurting you and your family and not saying anything else about it like it's not a big deal, I agree with the comment above, I bet that you are not a good parent.

[@LostMemes86]

I tried and I even have talked to my dad about it multiple times but he doesn’t care and nor has anyone else in my life. Trust me, I have tried.

[@jillwiswall5386]

Well said. Thank you for being brave and speaking out.

[@lolly93420]

I have no words😢 thank you for saving my life! I wont forget to click on that video nezt time im bk to this place 🖤🖤🖤

[@trainerpsw]

Thank you this is the first video I've seen on your channel and let's just say you've really helped me tonight, thank you for this video, I don't know you but I feel like the world should probably have more of you in it.

[@ariawoods9146]

I am a artist im also 14 so yeah i might not be as experienced but i do struggle with some of the judgement issues on artist. And with being expected to smile all the time. And be like other better artist. Anyone who's younger like me dont listen to the idiot's who say you can do better or spend your money on other things then art supplys. Do what makes you happy not what they want you to do. I love you whoever you are stay 💪 strong 💚❤❤💚💚❤❤💚

[@CircaInfinity]

I've suffered through the same thing with depression and ADHD. What the big pharmaceutical and food industries dont want you to know is that ADHD along with most mental illness is caused by a compromised immune system, the majority of which is in the gut. Our modern lifestyle which is fed by big drug and food companies is destroying the state of our guts and thats leading to an increase in disease. I've always suffered from ADHD but in the past few years I developed a debilitating leaky gut which has made me very sick and has given me an autoimmune kidney disease. I've since found the book Gut and Psychology Syndrome by Dr. Natasha Campbell-Mcbride which goes over healing the gut through a GAPS diet. I started on GAPS a few months ago and a lot of my symptoms have dissapated and my brain feels clearer than I can recall it ever being, along with my depression and anxiety also lessoning. I would recommend giving that book a read.

[@westcoastwildflower]

Very hard I quit drinking and it’s soooo evident now like this is how I become a alcoholic...I feel very weak

[@STEINYY]

Thanks darling! ❤

[@McGuire123100]

Thank you, beautiful girl. I needed to hear this, especially today. Adderall shortage, which is my lifeline and I had to wait 38 YEARS TO HAVE A LIFE THAT LOOKS A LITTLE MORE LIKE LIVING, but it looks like those days are over, at least temporarily,, and I am back to being severely depressed, anxious and terribly ACCIDENT PRONE. I am a little woman who somehow becomes a bull in a China shop nomatter where I am, and I can't help it, unless I have my medication. So go get your crash helmets and safety gear,, bc right now,, we got a HUGE COMMUNITY of MY PEEPS who are bulls ready to bust up neurotypical- owned China shops. So treat us like we matter and maybe we'll have mercy on you and keep our distance when possible, but that doesn't mean u should forgo your helmet. No matter how silly i look. Don't say u weren't warned. We are never treated like we matter. Thank you, sweet girl for reminding me and our tribe that WE DO! WE DO MATTER! Well, all those years of existing in a state of confusion and chaos has DEFINITELY made me a fighter. And FIGHT I WILL, until I breathe my last breath. We may get knocked down more often than neurotypicals, but NOBODY CAN KEEP US DOWN! Much love to you, Tribe. Soldier on, chin up! Our day WILL COME!

[@JAllen-tx3di]

💛I love you, thank you for this.

[@emilianocarrizosa1921]

Thank you for this. Really needed this

[@trinitygaskins2401]

ik im hella late to this vid but damn shit girl I loveddddd your message!! well said! I'm v grateful to have heard it and have a completely different life but your rawness in speech is powerful!! so again thank you for this!!❤

[@vijaymurugan3376]

Wierd thing is im 13, im having suicidal Thoughts for like the past months and 2week from now is my birthday...

[@ElementsWisdom]

The problem is that people get tired of being strong. Unfortunately, we are decades, possibly centuries away from evolving into a society that is accepting and supportive of neurodiversity.

[@dunnyboy3444]

I have adhd and its hard to deal with

[@Mrbananas371]

Meat and cold shower will reduce significantly organ meat basically heal temporarily . Thong and liver

[@Mrbananas371]

Look for food mao A like Onion and wine is good also cheers I hope you don’t kill yourself like I’m pretending to do I love u I desire the best to you. Be in peace bro

[@nirvanic3610]

Allah bless you

[@dderacademy]

Keep going

[@greg9069]

Stimulant medication saved my life!

[@jsmalles]

Thank You 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

[@domy8627]

Everything gets better :)

[@deanhuman3121]

Shut up fool.

[@Mrbananas371]

F0ck you don’t gets better if we don’t struggle a lot really a lot to make better so go to the hell

[@rafaella9700]

Thank you I feel so alone

[@medicenchente1173]

Thank you.

[@lilgorgo]

Love you all

[@DawnGrinage]

Love you

[@Mrbananas371]

Just looking to your eyes I see the tdah this makes me so furious. I know all the pain that come with that shit I want you to be heal so much I want you fine like the same way I want to myself I hate this. I don’t accept this I will never accept you all should Do the same should find a fucking solution for that shit

[@olubolaoyeniran7068]

Adhd

[@craig243ful]

the problem is your creative and intellegent if you get rid of that you'll be able to function in socity