My Mom Told Me I Have Autism

[@DforDocumentary]

Forget all those scientific terms.. You are a normal person.. everybody is different.. there are different types of people like different species of birds You are beautiful person.. and everything you think that is different about you is normal. Just exercise everyday morning, do Meditation in Mornings and Evenings. Do regular prayers. Drink lot of water, eat healthy food, like fruits and veggies. Associate with good people and be happy. Life is beautiful! ❤

[@sweetwillow]

That’s actually great that you have support from your mother because my mom went with me to get tested in 2023 (I’m a 43 year old, so very late diagnosis) I was diagnosed with ASD level 1 and she still doesn’t believe I have it 😂. It’s great to have a professional diagnosis, but even after that there really isn’t much help. You are still navigating things on your own and trying to understand what you are capable of before having a panic attack. It’s not easy, but there is hope.

[@cjhatesu]

I was diagnosed with ASD at 36, your stories and experiences definitely align with my own. For the longest time I just thought I had really bad social anxiety and depression, and that it would go away after I hit some certain milestone in life. But after graduating school, getting in relationships, starting a career or whatever that next thing was, I just felt like things never changed - I never broke out of that shell. I had also played with the idea of ASD before getting diagnosed but always talked myself out of it since my perspective of the disorder was so skewed from the way media commonly portrays people with ASD. Though after getting diagnosed I could look back at so many failed relationships, moments where I melted down publicly or were just extremely awkward and really started to see how ASD was the cause for those moments. And most of all it made me drop a lot of my anxiety with fitting in and stop trying to force myself to fit in. I think it's great how much you've pushed yourself, but probably also felt the extreme energy drain that comes with it. And I hope you keep pushing yourself to experience new things, but now with the understanding that you should listen to yourself and give yourself the personal time and rest you need to recover. I really hope this helps you feel more comfortable with yourself.

[@Sarah_L-j3t]

I can't stop thinking about Katherine Ann and how misunderstood she was by society. Her death really hit me hard, especially after I discovered it following your video about her. I used to watch her content and always thought she was unique and kind. After watching her videos, and then seeing her mom and sister living their best lives on TikTok after her passing, I couldn't help but wonder why people with autism and mental health struggles are so often misunderstood and overlooked. RIP Katherine Ann. P.S. I really enjoy your videos.

[@winstontobias8752]

I imagine this must have been a lot to process and it's completely understandable how hearing this has caused some feelings of unease or distress. Please remember to be patient with yourself as you continue to wrestle with these emotions. If you're like me then sometimes it can feel frustratingly slow, but keep the bigger picture in mind can sometimes help. What we know is that you are an amazing person and you are helping others by sharing your experiences. I'm sure it's not always easy to do but I find your content very relatable and very thoughtful. I know I'm not directly addressing the subject of autism in my comment here but I may hold off on that for another time. For now, just remember that you rock!

[@FarazFarooqui-s9o]

You are not alone I have felt exactly everything you described 😢

[@johnfisher7757]

I have autistic tendencies for sure, but never been diagnosed. I hope that you find your peace 🌟

[@iexist7408]

Thank you, this means a lot to me 🙏

[@Mdavid_]

You remind me alot of myself. Ive been misunderstood alot, struggled to learn, and had a hard time responding to situations. The world is so cruel and Ive been written off as having a character flaw or not caring, but this isnt a reflection of my character. Im in my 30s now, Ive adapted alot through trial and determination, but I still very much struggle.

[@greygiant9646]

I'm autistic unemployed just like you :( and i had chronic migraine which has healed but now i'm dealing with insomnia,and i have just a high school degree and live with my mom

[@indigoblue4791]

Look at Adhd and auditory issues. Get assessed for adhd and autism, which by the way you need a Psychiatrist to diagnose. Thats probably why less qualified school staff missed it. I was diagnosed this year with adhd at 51. Don't delay. I'm still waiting for my autism assessment. I felt different and that there was something wrong with me. Actually theres nothing wrong with me. I'm nerodiverant and need to do things in a particular way to thrive. Who happens to live in a World who organizes life for the majority of people who aren't wired like me. Make that plan and do it because you will feel anxious if you don't do it too!

[@philcarson6731]

After a life of struggle with relationships and work etc and being diagnosed with depression and anxiety i paid to be privately tested for autism and yes i was diagnosed with it, it explained a lot about my past and in a way stopped me blaming myself for everything. i am seeking some form of help now and at least i know what i am dealing with, go for the test

[@thiscorrosion900]

I am 56 now, a guy from LI NY, a published writer/essayist/critic in various fields since 1981 or so, as a teen! Meanwhile I never had any idea (a lot of people didn't in the 70s and early 80s) of my Asperger's until 2001 when my mom brought me for some eval. in NYC and they definitely diagnosed me with Asperger's. This is apparently a common story. I had some mild learning disabilities back in elementary school, but always scored high on verbal, English, Social studies, Sciences, but math was a struggle. My school kept evaluating me, negatively, for math in particular, and my mom had to get me math tutors a few times. I have some memories of my parents being very concerned by the time I was in jr. high or even before that, due to my academics suffering, and I had bullying and other distractions so my academics just turned to crap for awhile. My parents brought me for some kind of testing at Hofstra University with a private grad. student or counseling person. This was also decades ahead of my diagnosis. I recall being a bit resentful and cranky about going for the testing. I can't even recall what was on it anymore! Same thing in high school, though by then I did better academically and socially and things weren't too bad. I had a FT and PT job at a library, paid for music and movies and audio gear etc., and that was great! It was a social anchor away from HS. Later in college which I had some false start with, I worked a couple of years of retail sales and made $, had a GF, and then went back to another school by 1989. But my actual BFA college career was delayed a bit. Once I got into that it went just fine. I mainly had no issues making friends and socializing at NYIT. Anyway, I mention all this because in retrospect I had a lot of adversity growing up, not financial, but my parents had divorced in 1977 so that was a tough thing to get over. I had some troubles later working in NYC in publishing and other things, I would sometimes have to deal with bullies, bully bosses, and other annoying jerks. I stormed off a few jobs, threw things at few jobs, and got canned numerous times. Meanwhile I was always involved in the weird fiction/horror fiction world for decades, published my own fanzine, and I'm now in books on the likes of Thomas Harris, William Peter Blatty, and Robert Bloch, also a huge Supernatural lit. encyclopedia that came out in 2007 or so from Greenwood Press. I prefer working freelance, and luckily I have high up connections in that field. That's all I meant to relate, I think a lot of Asperger's people tend to work best on their own, and spend more time on their own, but it depends. Then again I spent 26 years going to various fantasy and horror cons. and hobnobbing with some name authors and artists, etc. I met Stephen King, Clive Barker, Anne Rice, Ramsey Campbell, Skipp and Spector, and many more. Peter Straub! So maybe I can work a room better than most with autism, but I am "high functioning," and all that. I can drive very well and have been since 1986.

[@danielasuncion9991]

Interesting. What is it about an autistic person, that makes them easier to talk to? Do you find it easier to focus, when talking to a person that you know is autistic?

[@amasvodka]

@@danielasuncion9991 Autistic people don’t judge you for expressing traits of autism.

[@YTPalace-c3w]

I think you should test for the peace of mind, but no matter the results, you are a great person and will be an absolute success in whatever you do.

[@rabbityogaforest]

I was diagnosed with ASD and ADHD at 39 but a remember it being mentioned when I was a kid. There were so little resources back then anyway that they probably couldn't do anything about it other than throw me into special ed which could have been a disaster for me. I first saw your "loser" video and thought you were autistic too and that it was already addressed in prior videos i hadn't seen. Your mannerisms and story are similar to mine.

[@hermanshinn3271]

I have had depression since I was about 12 years old......didn't start on any meds until I was about 30 yrs old. I am 72 now, you will be fine. It's like have any chronic medical condition. Counseling has help me and having a wife that is very very understanding. I know I had to make a decision on whether my depression was going to call the shots or not. For me depression is not going to rule my life. I still have it, but it is not my main focus anymore. I do what I can do and move on on a day to day bssis.

[@Jonkidd98]

Always knew there was something off about me growing up as well. Many people in my life have said I could have autism (especially back when I had my old channel) but unfortunately I was never really diagnosed with it as I never really got checked in for that so I can't really say officially that I have autism But there is a possibility that I could have some characteristics of someone who has autism

[@nateabruzzese7433]

Ive been diagnosed with autism when i was in high school. Im 25 now and still dont really look up autisic things or know how to spot one. Honestly idc i cant change it i just accept it like when i replay songs on replay i just dont think about to hard and i just trty to accept the tendency of being autisuc

[@robertlopez1088]

I think you are very bright beautiful young woman. We all struggle in life. Give yourself some credit with the things you have achieved. God Bless. ❤

[@markb3721]

I'm autistic myself, and having watched some of your videos, I feel like you could be autistic too, so it's better to find out, even though you are nervous, it will be ok! 😊

[@MikeVibing]

Now i’m kinda questioning myself if I have any signs of autism because when I was in elementary school I also had a learning disability, I was evaluated and stuff but myself too also had a tough time learning how to socialize and be outgoing. As my previous comments in your past videos, my family was always super protective over me and spoiled me way too much and I feel that’s what caused me to be the way I am, having a hard time trying to focus on finding a passion for myself. Sometimes it does seem like the reason why families do the things they do / act the way we act is cause they see us different from regular people, they always think we can never do anything for ourselves and think we need help with every single thing in life or always end up doing every little thing for us instead of being good mentors and teaching us how to survive and function in this world, sadly everyone is different and stuck in their own world once again we are on our own in this world…..

[@Mio248]

I got tests like that in school too. You make me want to dig through my transcript and reports again. The last time I viewed them, I became upset, chucked the papers across the room and laid back on the floor looking at the ceiling crying. I visualized my younger self in school and wanted to hug him due to all the 💩 he had gone through back then. Knowing that he felt that he was different, out of place and less.

[@markx1126]

My perspective is that we are all individuals. So it’s best to focus on what goals you want to accomplish in self-improvement, rather than focusing on what the “correct label” is for your condition. If being diagnosed Autistic helps accomplish your goals, either by providing you with insights that help with self-actualization or by offering more appropriate therapeutic interventions, then that is good. But just remember these labels have changed over time (Asperger’s is now considered part of autism spectrum), and they will likely continue to evolve, as scientific perspectives change. But regardless of label or diagnosis, You remain You.

[@Square_Peg]

I'm 47, I didn't learn that I had a mild form of autism until I was in my 30s and it explained so much. I wasn't diagnosed by a professional, but using online tests and that was enough for me. Maybe you could try them first before seeing a professional to see what they say. In watching your videos I already thought you were mildly autistic like I am, it seems pretty clear to me. I also just watched your video from last week about being an unemployed loser and how you like to stay home and struggle with anxiety. I have a suggestion for you to try. This may seem weird, but if you are autistic in anyway you might find a lot of comfort in this. Have you every tried spending time in a small enclosed space? Something like a closet, cupboard, cabinet or a box? Many people who have some form of autism including myself find a lot of comfort in small spaces like that. You can add pillows and blankets to make it feel extra comfortable and then just be in there. If you have never tried it maybe give it a try for an hour or so and see how it makes you feel. It certainly won't solve all of your problems, but it can help you feel better at times. If you try it I'd love to hear how it goes. Just make sure that you have good airflow and that you don't get trapped. Test door knobs of closets from the inside before closing it to make sure they work.

[@sofiane6042]

Autistic or not, i think you are a normal person just like me ! I totally relate to your struggles but i really believe in your potential ! Your potential is huge but you don't see it yet ! I hope next year, you willfinny reach your full potential and shine ! I supprt you and don't worry, things will get better ! Take care and happy new year ! 😊

[@kenermineskin5200]

Much love you are gunna achieve great life ❤️

[@Mél-ange-t71]

Vous savez, ce sentiment que quelque chose s'en va de vous comme de la lumière qui s'éteint je l'ai éprouvé souvent. Je l'avait appelé CAFARD ACIDE ou AUTARCIE CACHALOT. Comme cet animal qui s'en va au plus profond de l'océan sombre. Je connais parce que ce qu'il y a au dessus de vous est tellement lourd. J'ai finis par me laisser porter par le courant. C'est moins pire, plus facile. Ce n'est pas non plus une victoire mais si un autre jour arrive c'est quand même bien vous ne trouvez pas. Prenez soins de vous. Affectueusement

[@scottadcock550]

You may have answered this before, but have you sought medication for anxiety? If not, you should at least try and see if it helps. The one thing I like about your channel is your honesty and transparency with your issues. It seems the worse part of dealing with complex mental health issues is when these issues are kept hidden. Support from NJ!

[@jbozz5977]

well you know where your mind is when people are talking don't you? if you're not focused in, it's not your fault, you're not obligated to be on the same page as other people, sometimes it's not important to you to understand something because if you really wanted to, you wouldn't be "autistic" anymore because you would actually be interested, follow your interests and you'll see that there's actually nothing wrong with you, you were just trying to adjust to conditioning and other peoples standards. Much love sent your way ❤

[@BF-ge3ul]

I think you are a very beautiful person. I had the same problems as you. Keep going!!

[@markfisk9359]

I was diagnosed with autism in my early 20s. I never received any help at school.

[@ziegunerweiser]

no one said it would be easy you have a history of holding down a job and being able to support yourself so you know you can do it again tell yourself you can be good at your job and be valued tell yourself people like you for who you are you have to believe you can do it before you can do it you've done it before just need to believe in yourself I believe your destiny is to be a mother one day the words of a loving nurturing mother all the money in the world can't buy it I think you will be a great mother one day don't underestimate what you have to give to this world

[@parthoroy9141]

Be careful what moms tell you - mine told me to drop dead! You might want a more professional evaluation, if needed As always, everyone is rooting for you - be safe, and Happy New Year 🎊

[@hermanshinn3271]

Listen you are going to get a handle on things, with your guys help and support

[@clivenimmo3155]

To be tested or not, it doesn't make any difference to you as a person, because I know this i was born with disabilities, and so therefore education, but since then I know we all change and grow as people becoming more emotionally mature, because if there's anything I would rather have it would be that, anyway I think your going to handle things really well. You've got the caricature for it. So keep your strength fighting for you, hope, n love and many good blessings come your way.

[@Aya..19]

Off topic but, didn't you have a video called "The Pain of Being Missunderstood"? I'm sad it disappeared from one of my playlists cause it was very relatable :(.

[@iexist7408]

Yes, I did. Thanks for your remembering. I’ll publicize it again right now. I removed it because I wasn’t too sure about it. The Pain Of Being Misunderstood: kzbin.info/www/bejne/hWqcioiDndOGgMU

[@Aya..19]

Thank you so much! 💛

[@beku2283]

Hi! You shouldn't be nervous about getting tested. If you find out that you have Autism, it's one step closer to getting the help that you need. Take care!

[@steelybeatz6382]

It can't be easy to have questions about your mental health. I wish you the best and hope you find peace!🙏🌻❤

[@taresy6789pp]

May god heal us amen 🙏🙏

[@OmarAabed-l2b]

i feel like you always right but their is sadness that kept you Unlock to the world ❤

[@ramzi1979]

God bless you

[@4stringz.]

she’s so pretty

[@xTrengo]

there's nothing wrong with you, you're fine. nobody's perfect, doesn't mean we have "disabilities". we're all on the spectrum, really, but most of us, like you, are really on the very high functioning end, not dissimilar to shyness. there are many other difficulties, a proper diagnosis will help finding an alleviation. best of luck to you, happy 25! festas felizes :)

[@shortfuse3776]

no matter what you will be ok you have come a long way just try to stay positive

[@NathanKefyalew]

You have brilliant mind than any healthy person ❤

[@queenboudicaradiant9639]

One of my good friends has autism, or at least that's what she has told me, I have no idea. She speaks and acts totally normal to me, so I can't even tell. You also sound perfectly fine, girl. I've watched like 3 of your vids so far, and if you hadn't mentioned this I never would have even known. You are perfectly normal, so don't worry about it.

[@seuratguy]

Treating autism in adults primarily involves a combination of therapies like cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), social skills training, occupational therapy, and counseling, focusing on developing coping strategies, improving communication skills, managing sensory sensitivities, and navigating social situations, all while working with a specialist who understands autism spectrum disorder (ASD) to address individual needs; there is no "cure" for autism, but appropriate interventions can significantly enhance quality of life. -- Autism Speaks

[@jasherdollsunited]

i posted this video to my community tab and tagged todd thundercock. i hope u might livestream with todd.

[@janoss-zk5fk]

You keep bringing up similarities that I feel I’ve had my entire life and I’m almost twice your age. Unfortunately we didn’t have much testing for autism spectrum when I was younger. In fact it was very rare. But learning about it I feel many similarities of the symptoms. My first thoughts were when Daryl Hannah (the actress) mentioned she was tested positive for Asperger’s Syndrome and I learned so many of the symptoms she had also had. My wife tells me if I ever tested positive for autism she’d leave me. I’m like 👍. 😂

[@SirLightHouse-n8g]

I've had that too. I was dating this girl for several months. And as soon as I revealed to her that I have an autism diagnosis, she told me that she never wants to have children with me, because they might end up autistic. This is the reality of the world sadly.

[@michaeltiza232]

It's trendy, everyone and everything has autism. It's the new ADHD. Wouldn't it be profitable to prescribe the whole world the same expensive medicines? A lot of people became extremely motivated to suceed when others kept telling them they were disabled.

[@arturbabajev7936]

Happy new year! You look very tired, I sincerely wish all the best for you and I hope that you manage. )

[@CameronGraves-ly2ih]

People have low B12 levels, etc & are in a fog. Avoid processed foods while going for walks outside in the sun, perhaps lifting weights, playing tennis or something helps alot.

[@rheymanda1074]

Out of nowhere, I was just recommended a video you posted a year ago, and five minutes in I was going to comment that you're probably autistic. Before commenting, I looked through your videos and saw this. I was diagnosed autistic at around 35 years old. It had a profound impact on my life, because for the first time I felt as if the reasons for my struggles were not my or anybody's fault, but simply the consequence of having being given the wrong instruction manual for my brain at birth. Keep in mind that our understanding of autism if changing rapidly, and what we knew twenty years ago is light-years from what we know today. I strongly, *strongly* urge you to look deeper into this. Looking in the from the outside, it appears obvious to me that your struggles are very similar to the struggles I went through. And if that's the case, I can assure you, things can get better. I sincerely wish you the best. I recommend you reach out to others on the spectrum, community can be very helpful.

[@Michael-it6gb]

A person can have autistic attributes/behaviors but not enough to get a diagnosis. I got my asprgers diagnosis when I was 26 back in 2012. I live completely alone. Socializing is very difficult.

[@angelozapp]

Your perfect sister

[@funky_monk_9796]

Hi, my gut instinct is that you are indeed somewhere on the autistic spectrum. I was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome aged 34. I'm 52 now. If you are autistic, and have lived with it undiagnosed for many years, that can have a big impact on your mental wellbeing (anxiety, depression, OCD, all the way up to CPTSD and worse). Family background and upbringing are also hugely important factors to consider. Seeking a diagnosis as an adult (even If it turns out you're not autistic) can be very helpful and give you some clarity going forward, and help you make the best decisions for you. My parents were both covert narcissists, I now realise, which was in fact the root of all my mental health issues, not my autism. Everyone is unique, with unique family dynamics and history. I wish you well on your quest for healing 💗

[@louisbetten]

you dont have anything wrong with you. you are a beautiful woman, natural worries like anyone else in this world.

[@DanielBragdon]

My mum likes control to. I do also...you are getting sleepy, sleepy . You are now under my full control .

[@rockyrojas88]

Comedic gold right here 🏅😂

[@mariamj1449]

Anxiety and autism are different things..The fact that you are shy and calm doesn't make u autistic. You are a normal person - fact. Stop thinking in another way.

[@crandonborth]

Exactly... two completely different thing and honesty quite the opposite. The people that i know that are Autistic dont suffer from anxiety at all but are kinda blissfully unaware of the scope of things vs people that suffer from anxiety are typically overthinkers and over tuned into what is happening around them.

[@michaelxz85]

I just recently had someone make the same comment to me. I have always been a quiet person and not very social . But i am who l am, and dont like when people judge other people, because they may do things differently .

[@frankducky6130]

I exist has gorgeous hair😍

[@iexist7408]

Thank you! Maybe I shouldn’t cut it then

[@frankducky6130]

Apologies to anyone who doesn’t agree with me, but women almost universally look better with longer hair🙂

[@Leonardo-id6tm]

​@@iexist7408 You have a beautiful face, so anything would probably look good on you, but If you're thinking of cutting it short, I'd go for a Mikado, definitely not shorter!

[@KendallKiddComix]

​@@iexist7408Let it grow long honey

[@sofiane6042]

Doesn't matter the hair, all womens are beautiful !

[@maedero05]

This feeling being lost or anxiety to interact special eye contact. Male autism isn't so problem, female socialy you are expected to be. Mask it by behave normally it hurts your feeling being safe. Talk about it, testing think about you wish to know. If you feel OK your bf treat you, don't worry otherwise take a break from events your uncomfortable with You are still lonely there, decide what friendship are Wirth to persue special those without a forged urge to succeed!

[@petergriffin383]

I'm weird af, although I've never been diagnosed as anything. I'm sure I'm on some spectrum somewhere... I like it because it keeps people away. As an introvert, I'll play along with whatever if it keeps people away.

[@andersonsystem2]

The best way to know if you really have it is to get diagnosed by a professional to find it if you really have it especially if you suspect it. We are diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder. With that said once you get tested and know the answer then it all makes sense.

[@jbozz5977]

understand autism is just a label, once you believe that you have something, it's hard to change because your beliefs reinforce your state of being, believe in yourself girly, you don't have to be diagnosed with anything, and even if you are, anythings possible and it could change

[@kenermineskin5200]

I SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU BOTH ARE REALLY REAL PEOPLE LOVE WATCH ❤WEN I NEED OK MUCH RESPECT 🙏 🫡

[@frankducky6130]

My Mom always asks my Dad once a week, “what is wrong with him?” In reference to me. I believe what is wrong with me is i have undiagnosed autism. Something that raises a red flag is whenever i have encountered other people, who are for lack of better word “different”, they have always seen me as kindred spirit. That means weirdos are attracted to me because they see me as one of their kind. (For example i use to go to the arcade with my cousin who speaks with his eyes closed all the time when i was a teenager) P.S. the fact that i exist is so relatable to so many on YT leads me to believe she doesn’t have autism, mostly because she seems to be very good at communicating.

[@Saifmansour95]

Hallelujah to your mom and all disease can be cured by remembering the light and diversity

[@tedhazlett]

The best time to plant a tree is 10 years ago. The second best time to plant a tree is today. I had a severe speech impediment throughout grade school. Only the kids I played with in my neighborhood could understand what I said. Classmates laughed when I talked, so I learned early on to keep quiet. I was blessed to have a father who had a strong work ethic… former Army drill Sargent and Construction foreman… who forced me to work hard every day. In my parents house, anytime my mother saw that I was idle during the daytime, it was her job to find me something constructive to do. Now at 67 years old, I look back at my career as a union plumber, my time as chairman of the administrative board and trustees at church, and my years as a prison ministry volunteer, and I praise God that I…always the smallest and least confident person in any of my classes in school…was able to do ANY of those things. I realize that you did not ask for my advice, BUT everyone has handicaps and challenges in life and if you just get out of your room and try, you probably will be glad that you did.

[@glensims7959]

I don't think there is anything "wrong" with you. Not all people are the same. You are a unique person. I think that maybe you just need to accept that you are YOU.....and just be ok with that. 👍

[@Quick-g7s]

More extrospection and less introspection is all that you need. Do more for others and you will find peace

[@TheBestLife2184]

Philippians 4:6,7 6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

[@WokeSpokes]

Yeah, get tested. There's something querky about you. Would be good to know for yourself, and we (you're audience) want to know. The study of autism, anxiety etc has progressed so far over the last 10 years. I find less normal people easier to talk to/relate to, so I probably have something too, though I don't think I'd get tested. Keep us posted!!

[@fefefefe56]

My dad said I played too many video games when I was 16 so I developed autism😂. People say the stigma is getting less intense but it feels like it barely is.

[@4-a-e]

Cat-scan M.R.I will show any neurological adaptation. Its a neurological condition not psychological. So an M.R.I is really the only way to tell. The spectrum is not a sliding scale of severity. If you Neurological adaptations from the neuronic deficient at birth then toy are on the spectrum. Neurological adaptation in the amygdala might account for life long anxiety.

[@BenBoltok]

You seem like you are highly observant and very organized. I have a friend from Denmark and her husband is high functioning autistic and he is super smart and has a good job but he has trouble connecting with people. He also Says I look like Charlie Chaplin too so haha 😂 Maybe autistic people make funny observations 🎉

[@GranularSpeck]

Definitely get diagnosed and start working with a therapist. And take some time to listen to or read Gabor Mate's work. He has been amazingly helpful for me processing some of this kind of thing.

[@GranularSpeck]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/bZPNp4uKjcSloa8&ab_channel=YourInnerChildMatters

[@brahmadevyoga9923]

Even the Gorgeous Daryl Hannah has autism and is a Hollywood super star. But you should check it again now if you are not sure. But will one test be enough? Maybe double check it in different psychiaters or whoever is making this diagnosis. I dont believe you have. I would date you anyway! He, he. But i wish you and your fiance all good and a happy new years Eve. Feel loved cause you are and it helps. You have friends here from all over the world.

[@EmOrganically]

There's nothing wrong with you. I used to feel that way too though so trust me when I say I do get it. We definitely all have different learning styles though. And, I totally relate to the feeling of wishing I had gotten the help I needed during school. You're not alone. There were and sometimes still are times I feel very, VERY alone compared to, the way other folks work and get along in the world, if that makes sense. I know it's easier said than done, try not to worry quite as much lovely. Take care of yourself and hey have a Happy New Year 🙏💞

[@amasvodka]

I sympathize with your situation, but not getting professional help for autism if that's what you're dealing with is not good advice. Why would you waste decades of your life trying to figure things out when the autistic community already has a deep understanding of the problem?

[@fefefefe56]

I noticed some of your word choice like "nothing wrong, something wrong w me...". You shouldn't look at it that way so much, moreso it being a status effect. Everything can be "right" and one still has autism or vice versa. That's why I always support people to get tested by a professional so they can formally accept it and soon themselves.

[@Richardwestwood-dp5wr]

My point of view as a young man, just believe in yourself and put some light makeup on 💄

[@JSFGuy]

Mom is going to know that's true, you do need to get properly diagnosed. Everybody thinks they have something, that may be. Even I need to be diagnosed.

[@thomastoseland7113]

No wonder you seem a lot like me, because I'm autistic too. I'm just an autistic working man.

[@bryanhale3310]

the problem is you listen to your mum all these years , shes held you back and is the causes of half your issues, just live

[@Professicchio]

I think I was the one who might have mentioned possible autism to your struggles (I am Asperger so I should know). Autism doesn't have to be an "illness", there's so many things we can do as well, and others even better, than so-called normal people. Unfortunately the world is not quite catered for our way of thinking and doing things so the impression that you are an alien accidentally abandoned on the wrong planet is bound to stay with you from birth.

[@ghazikutbi3206]

you don't stutter. You say what you intend to say. Other than you is what your respected mother uttered in front of your innocent face!

[@aszusmc]

If you ever are lost and scared, and you want help, talk to Jesus. He is full of love and compassion. He’s here for you when people can’t be.

[@iexist7408]

@@aszusmc amen 🙏

[@GullibleIgnorantGreedyIndiffer]

How ya doing with your “secrets”? Have you found a way to share any of the secrets? I got a few of my own. But I don’t think of them as secrets as much as I think of them as something’s I’m holding for just myself. I agree, you MAY have traits of autism. You are suffering from being allowed depression to exist without treatment. Simple as that. As painful as your life feels, you think you deserve this in some way. I’m guessing your depression has gotten ignored and continues to exacerbate life’s challenges. We learn to get comfortable with it. Change feels feels very uncomfortable, even positive ones. You are soooo young… don’t keep choosing suffering like I did for decade after decade after decade. I’ve only seen a few of your videos since stumbling here a few days ago. The first must have been many months or even more than a year old. You sound a little better. You are looking better. You moved away from home to Cali. Huge !!! If it don’t work out, it don’t matter, the fact you tried is YOUR SUCCESS. Lower expectations. Do the occasional expensive makeover to show your disbelieving self how gorgeous you really are. Plan some away from home activities around the makeovers. above all else, HOLD YOURSELF UNDER SACRED MINDFUL LIGHT. keep reframing the negative thoughts. Give yourself OPTIONS. Bigg Higgs !!! Wishing all the best.

[@BF-ge3ul]

I didn't realize there were more people like me!!

[@MemeinAndDreamin]

We've been telling you that for years.

[@ishaansingh7378]

Lmao I don’t know why the hell you got on my recommended. For starters, the first thing that struck me when I clicked on your video is your beautiful soul. Man, you’re not autistic (really don’t care if you “medically” are, what a useless diagnosis for a fully functioning adult), you just grew up thinking something was wrong with you, that you were just somewhat inherently different than everybody else, and you just kind of went with the flow. I know exactly the feeling of fitting into some sort of niche of “antisocial”, and not knowing any other place you can fit, simply because you were too self conscious and self aware at a young age (or maybe it was some other reason, I really don’t give a damn). I have seen your work of trying to transform yourself over the years, and I know it feels like killing your past self and ultimately feeling lost, useless, and a nobody, which I believe is where your anxiety is coming from. Your anxiety is coming from having too many options of what to be, not knowing how to become someone, which “someone” you want to become. You have so much potential, and it would break my heart to see such a beautiful person see themselves as a “nobody” for the rest of their life. I think instead of trying to figure out who you want to become and becoming that person, a good way of “falling into your place” would be finding meaning in your life. Go out and help people, help the world in whatever way you can. Maybe do volunteer work. It will feel like throwing yourself out there, giving people a chance to criticize your “lack of identity” when you interact with people, but I promise you that you have no obligation to “become normal”. Showing your beauty and kindness to the world is the most noble pursuit, and your identity will fall into its place in the eyes of others, although it may not feel like it to you (you should realize it eventually). This comment may have been a little too long, but I see so much potential in you that could make the world a better place, no matter how fucking lost and useless you may feel. My apologies if this feels too much like me telling you what to do. The world has always needed the woman you could become. Good luck. (Btw if 3.1k people are listening to what you have to say, you are most definitely in the same boat as a lot of others)

[@hermanshinn3271]

Do not listen to people who do not know what they are talking about.....only people who have real knowledge about in particular autism or and other diagnosis of things....peoples opinions so many times are just that...other people don't have A vote in your life....maybe nothing is wrong with you!....only that others project things on you..

[@laioren]

I'm pretty sure you're autistic. Delayed processing and speech fatigue are common for people on the spectrum. However, "getting tested," which is a good thing to do, is mostly worthless if you don't find a good therapist. I think you'd prosper a lot better if you found a therapist that you like who specializes in working with autistic women. Bonus points if they have a focus on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, or CBT. Whatever path you choose, I wish you good luck and thanks for sharing your story with us!

[@mrgoat5820]

Look into high dose fish oil... Also would benefit you to do neuro feedback if you're able to

[@BoReads]

I'm not surprised.

[@genemartinez2833]

I always “assumed” that you were autistic. However, there is nothing wrong with having autism! Please don’t think less of yourself. There are plenty of ways to learn about autism and maybe what supports might work for you. And there is a chance you just have an anxiety condition. And that’s okay too. And you can move forward there are ways and resources.

[@srobbins-ukraine]

Unless your mom has an MD or PhD in psychiatry (or is passing on a diagnosis from a real doctor), this is nothing more than an opinion. If you are concerned about this (or any health question), see a /real/ doctor. Arrange for a second opinion if it gives you confidence. Lay people can't diagnose, period.

[@kivoe]

What's your age? I'm 34, and got diagnosed with Asd at 29

[@andrebighach]

people say that to anyone they want to bully.

[@Leo007619]

You're so beautiful and nice to listen to. Talk more about positive things. Life is gorgeous

[@AIC5150]

This girl is taking us for a ride and I believe she knows it

[@24tommyst]

whatever helps you sleep at night lol

[@Dathom1986]

Maybe ? ...trust no one.