I am a 26 years old loser too. I can relate with everything you said. I hope someday we can get a better life.

Thanks for sharing. You’ve got a lot of guts to share like that

It sounds to me you may actually be in constant "Overwhelm" and not even know it. This would explain just about everything you are describing. It is actually a painstakingly awful but sane response to a too challenging environment that most who experience this is invisible to them because it became their norm. I know this can happen when childhood developmental needs were circumvented and adverse conditions are masked and invisible including societal factors; let's face it our society isn't a healthy environment to grow u-p and live in. Until you seek & find the information and people who can help you see through the veil and see what is really going on; I really wish the best for you. Of course this video could be an elaborate scam to bait people but you sound so genuine! All the best finding what you need. You're doing a great job creating KZbin

Seeing beauty in the world is normal, if your a guy you can recognize a hot guy, if your a girl you can recognize a hot girl. In some cases a straight woman can be attracted to a woman and vise versa for guys. You are creating something out of nothing! Being attracted to a girl and maybe having a desire towards her might be curiosity, but it doesn't mean you're gay. You seem very lost, I watched an old video of yours saying I'm a virgin loser, and how you want to be kissed by a man, how you are looking forward to finding someone. You got what you wanted now it's not what you expected, I'm pretty sure I said it already. You placed your happiness on your fiance now you want out, so you are making up this "I checked out a girl" story. Seriously GIRL listen to this... no human is going to make you happy I'll tell you right now, only YOU can make yourself happy, plain and simple. I know that's not what you want to hear.

you have the spirit of introspection and with this one thing to start i think you are a winner and not a loser

You sure as hell gets bored easily. What's next on your journey? Trying to contact aliens or something 😂

You can be yourself and stay true to your original goals and dreams. Each you in the past brought the current you to where you are today. If your actions will bring you peace of mind in the future, they are wise. If they don't, you(s) deserve better.

What if just maybe instead of ditching women you find attractive, you ditch a religion?? It seems that is stopping you from being happy. I'm a guy and lately, I've been thinking about how cool would it be to have a lesbian friend that I can talk about girls with or potentially go to a night bar with. 😅 I've watched a few of your videos and you are very relatable. I hope you respond to this comment.

You're bi-sexual

He accepts you, no big deal after that

Your into women sweetheart don't lead this guy on! Break things off now before it's too late. There's alot of identity conflictions here.

For everyone saying, “it’s normal to check other women out”, that’s not what I’m talking about. I understand you’re talking about how the human species is observant and can recognize something or someone as being attractive or not. However, what I’m talking about is lust. Not envy. Not curiosity.

Your current boyfriend looks like a woman with his long hair and feminine demeanour, so dating with a real woman won't make much difference.

Oh, if she only could see our reaction on her

Atleast youre being honest with yourself god will admire that

Face your fears and don't break his heart everyone feels like that once in a while so don't be a creep and do it

For the last while, this channel feels like an alternate beginning to the movie Chantal (from 2007).

You’re a pig.

Does he smoke pot?

I like the third slide it's a lovely image.

You'll go crazy and snap if you keep deprive yourself on your inner feelings

Mine caught me too

Writing as a protestant traditionalist. ; I think feelings as such are not as big problem as actions. I am not gay in any shape, but the closest I come is, I have always had this sense, that I could reconize some men as "good looking". Theres even an insident with one girl whom we discussed with about both agreeing, that Ryan Gosling looks really good (xD) , I still think he does LOL. However - I dont want to kiss a man who is good looking. Probably some do, but I dont. That rather feels disgusting lol. But I could certainly see someone from same sex as "man this guy looks super hot". Now , even if you feel deeper ... even as traditionalist, I wouldnt shame the struggle. Also beating yourself super up with it - seems non-sense to me. Let it be. Even when I think that same-sex stuff is not right in my mind and my views - I wouldnt scould anyone just from thoughts or speaking of mind for it. I think its great that you told about it. I dont like the propaganda side of it, I also know one woman, whos a lesbian but whats interesting is that shes also not so keen about all this fuss that goes on with pronouns and who knows what else... and "if you dont call me a pink-choclate bar, im gonna sue you" or "I look like a human but Im actually cat" . But hey --- honesty is great -- I think its great that he recognized and its great that you had to talk about it!

Personally, I can't see what the fuss is about. Some guys in your fiance's position don't mind you checking other women out. Californian women are attractive and have songs written about them.

Simps in comments make me want to puke. This woman takes your heartfelt messages and sh*ts on them because while she may be a loser she still thinks shes better than an ugly dude. Compliments only matter when they come from a hyper attractive man.

You’re doing far better than the typical ‘average’ guy. As an average guy if I did this same video I wouldn’t be roasted, worst I’d be ignored. I’d have a handful of views only because someone accidentally hit the wrong button. Look at your comments, you’ve got 11k comments!!! The vast majority of them are average guy simps telling you how beautiful you are and how much you matter while not one of them would get anywhere near the response you get. And any response a guy would get would be calling him everything you’re calling yourself! No one in your comments is doing that to you. Yeah all I’m saying is be thankful for what you have as a woman because you could be a man and know what true isolation feels like, what being invisible really feels like. You’ve been called cute but never beautiful but endless guys in comments are calling you beautiful. The average man will go his whole life and NEVER hear a single compliment of any kind. So being a loser chick is far far better than being an average dude!! Scrolling through these comments make me want to puke in my mouth at how far guys will bend over backwards to simp to you and all that will mean nothing to you because it came from ugly dudes.

fifty seven year old virgin looking and steering 😎👁️👁️👀

This poor man is going to lose his woman to a woman.

Maybe, slow down some. Marriage is a trap if you are uncomfortable with it that can be desperate to get out of. Tell your boyfriend the truth. Most guys don't even consider his mate being with a girl as cheating. God forgives. I am Catholic -- have lived as a woman for 25 years. Don't get in a hurry. If you are unsure about what to do -- do nothing. Wait. The answer will come.

You are your own worst enemy and this is clickbait

You be you.

Oh oh.

I'm new to your channel, but it's clear to me that you have had a difficult time in life, and that it has affected you deeply. I suspect that most, if not all of it, was never your fault. Even without knowing your detailed history, and having only seen a handful of your videos, many things are crystal clear to me. I'll try to be brief: 1. You are a highly sensitive person. That's a blessing and a curse. 2. You are gentle, empathetic, caring, humble and principled. These are all traits for which you should be extremely proud. 3. You are extremely honest and truthful, even when it would be easier for you to hide the truth. Few people can do this consistently. 4. You seem to feel the need to please everyone else, at the expense of yourself. This is not only unnecessary, you deserve to be happy and fulfilled just as much as every other person on the planet. You matter. 5. You think you're a "loser", but the truth is that you're a hero, because even if a single person struggling in their life watches one of your videos, and your experiences, thoughts, feelings, revelations etc resonate with them, you could literally save a life. 6. Just because you are confused about so many things in life, this does NOT make you stupid, or worthless. There is no "normal" for learning about life. Everybody's history, upbringing, physical and mental health affects their ability to grow and learn. 7. Your preferences for men and/or women are not only nobody's business, except your own, but there is nothing wrong with them at all. You have every right to prefer whatever your preferences are. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed because of who you are. And anyone who tells you differently is gaslighting you. 8. You seem to be in a huge rush to "lock in" many aspects of your life, as if you're running out of time, or will appear pathetic to others if you're not married and living a "traditional" life asap. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks (they likely don't care what you think about them). 9. It's fantastic that you've found someone like your fiance, and that you both understand each other. My only advice would be that relocating, getting engaged etc. is perfectly fine if your heart is truly in it, but please consider both of your long-term futures before taking the next step. If you're both truly meant to be together, you will be. And there shouldn't be a time limit for that. To sum everything up, please try to believe that you matter just as much as anyone else, that you're a good person, that you don't need to please everyone else and that you don't need to be so hard on yourself. Just.Be.Happy.That.You.Are.

I’ve been doing this too lmao.

💩 artist but interesting channel in a surreal way

Its better to stay with your fiance peaceful, otherwise its dangerous 😮

Ok everyone has sins either sins of ignorance or deliberately sinning and God puts sinners in hell forever for every word deed or thought so guess what nobody is perfect trust Jesus his sacrifice on your behalf because he's the innocent who died for you the guilty if you reject his sacrifice you'll burn in hell forever don't go to hell simply believe the gospel and you'll be permanently saved from hell 1 Corinthians 15:1-4 king James Bible ❣️✝️❣️ 1 moreover brethren I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you which also ye have received and wherein ye stand 2 by which also ye are saved if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you unless ye have believed in vain 3 for I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures 4 and that he was buried and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures 2 Thessalonians 1:8 KJV in flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ

Having followed you for a while I am aware of your trolling. However if it turns out you are actually gay just do not worry: it's a normal side effect of being raised Catholic 😄😂😂

Lots of straight women check other women out, it comes out of envy on how that woman looks to the other woman, it might sexual or not sexual , women can be pervs too.

Guys, this is a severe red flag, she seems to be more attracted to women than men (as indicated in 2:43). I wouldn't be surprised if later on she dumps her fiancé to go rug munch.

the 4 phases of born , engaged, lesbian,single in a week

So many weird and misunderstanding comments. The situation you are in must be tough. You are in a straight relationship but aren’t completely straight. So you are probably somewhat curious about dating the same gender as yourself? Questioning your sexuality can be confusing and things like that can take a while to process before understanding them. I wish you and your fiancé the best for whatever is best for both of you. Good luck on figuring things out.

TLDR: you're bisexual. As someone from a half Catholic family, I understand you not being open about it, but there's nothing wrong with it. You are who you are; if you're attracted to both guys and girls then that's just how it is, there's no point in lying about it or refusing to accept it. As far as looking at other people goes, there's nothing wrong per se about it. We all do it, whether we admit it or not. The difference is whether or not you care about how it effects your partner or not. Jealousy and insecurity are a two way street; you likely wouldn't appreciate it if you caught your fiance staring down another woman either. Just something to keep in mind. Even if you know that you would never act upon it, it would be wise to not fill your fiance with doubts about you.

Not judging, but fyi I prayed for you.

orange county sheriff's department is going to go do a welfare check on her.

call off the engagement. you and poor bro aren't going to last. don't waste your time or his. you're not in love with him. end it, seriously. not fair at all. this is the problem with modern day dating. everybody wants to have their cake and eat it too. this early into a relationship and already having red flags. nahhh..

READ RINSE AND REPEAT! You remind me of a mentally ill young woman who's parents didn't know what to do with her so they kept her locked up in the attic because she was a danger to society and to herself. You are the most unhinged directionless waste I have ever seen. You are an energy vampire and a useless eater! You have zero identity and live your pathetic existance vicariously through the extreme abnormakcy of the sickest most socially maladjusted and you contribute absolutely nothing to society. Your parents are finally thrilled to be rid of you.

Its fine. Youre a woman. Its his fault somehow and hes an abusive, controlling misogynistic pig for not helping the two of you hook up. Do better, men.

Give me a few videos and they will either stop, or it’ll be a long pause and then a my domestic abuse journey lol