My Snow White Crisis

[@abigailbostic2198]

Your song "Poison Apple" just brought me to tears, I had to pause the video to take a second. I'm so glad you're choosing to share you work and your thoughts and experiences, I was delighted to see this video in my subscription feed

[@Mushroomelixir]

This is actually beautiful. You were one of the reasons I survived 2023 and I'm so thankful for that. I hope you have a great year and eat some good apples. Thank you Marlene, this made my day. ❤❤

[@pocky1624]

As a Feminine gay boy Snowhite was always held very dear to my heart. She's still my favorite princess even today because she taught me to continue to be myself and show kindness even though people will try to bring me down. She taught me to work for what I want in life, to be okay to ask for help, love and being feminine doesn't make you a weak person and how to survive both society and life itself. She even helped me to understand I needed to assert myself and I could use both my Masculinity and Femininity in life and the best way to live life is to have courage and be kind and always smile with a song in your heart even if times are hard. When I hear people talk badly about her because she's more kind and femme than others I'm both disappointed and sad because they didn't even watch the movie correctly. But if there's one thing snowhite taught me, it's that even though they'll hate and duke on others just because they see themselves as better snowhite taught me to forgive them and move on.

[@illmamnim]

I love this mix between academic research and personal takes, they gravitate one another and the whole thing feels so real; I truly admire your work. Can't wait for more

[@helenemelon]

best "where have I been/channel update" video imaginable

[@babs_babs]

oh heck she’s really back. bless ❤

[@Ag8844]

it’s really THE quintessential fairytale, it’s always meant so much to me and hated how people almost willfully misinterpret it. it means many different things to me, at my lowest i used to think about the castle in the sky in the end, the choir coming in, the “they lived happily ever after” and just bawling my eyes out.

[@wallylimwicks4534]

Welcome back

[@bean9786]

I haven't finished the video but I just can't stop thinking about 'poison apple'. it's perfect, i adore it! i love it! i havent felt this swooning 'oh, there it is, my favourite song, im getting to hear my favourite song for the first time' love-at-first-listen in so long. my heart is fluttering.

[@sonofaspyder3000]

Haven’t finished the video yet but your analysis of Snow White sort of being in-between is so accurate. I’ve had two people blow up at me for sharing my takes on it, one who thought I wasn’t being progressive enough and one who told me I was being triggered and sensitive. Both of these encounters baffled me, but they are a testament to how surprisingly polarizing this film is.

[@thomgoblin8725]

Your husband's analysis of that painting and why he saw it as reflective of your lives was incredibly beautiful and moving. Thank you for sharing all of this.

[@SylviaRustyFae]

26:20 This is extremely wholesome and i love everythin about it; its the perf little display of love that was so clearly done as an act of love without any consideration for it as smth done for you... Its smth he did bcuz he loved you and he wanted smth that symbolised that in ref to the now out you he gets to be with

[@evelynmoore3766]

Ok first off! ALL THE GOOD VIBES AND PROPS to you for stating your truth in a KZbin video like I can’t imagine how anxiety inducing making a video essay so personal was! But yeah omg did you do an AMAZING job! Not only did i learn so much interesting stuff about churchhill and Disney but also you really put into words why I love this movie with all my heart even though I feel weird to love Snow White and I love Snow White because as a queer and trans person! When I was closeted she was my rock! I perfectly saw my experience as a closeted trans woman in Texas through her story! I was a princess but trapped in rags and was literally living with an evil queen that actively hated and wanted my death because people were awful to me and yeah so I always feel weird for seeing Snow White as a trans ally (or trans herself) because she’s so old and so traditional how can she be queer? But anyways thank you so much for your amazing video and you inspire me! And that’s what a Disney princess does! It inspires so thank you! And just have a good everything! You’re amazing 💜 and kind hearted!

[@searchingfororion]

I think your queer metaphor (although obviously unfortunate that it's a very real experience) is spot on and an insightful perspective I've never heard before. I genuinely feel it's worth sharing on a larger scale if you ever feel comfortable enough. Expanding on your thought: I can even see the cottage as "going stealth" ect and the dwarves as the community and/or allies (they're already chosen family). On sidenote: I hope you are living your best life now and are safe. -A fellow queer in TX.

[@averyeml]

I hate that “she doesn’t get saved by the prince” is the takeaway that people thing is the thing to change. That a “modern” princess or “strong female character” has to be a girlboss who is more interested in, idk, reading or a business or something than in romance, and that having to have the help of someone, especially someone male, is inherently awful. And I find it hilarious that I am on this side of it as a questioningly aromantic person who is very much more interested in reading than romance. I’m not writing off the new one yet- the thing I liked most about the new Little Mermaid wasn’t any of the surface stuff, it was that there were two significantly more flushed out main characters with actual chemistry and reasons for falling in love. If they could make Snow an actual interesting human, I could be interested. I’m not interested in a lot of other parts and the interviews make me wary though.

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

I agree, I don't think the things that people associate with Snow White (and many Disney fairytales) are as harmful as people make them out to be. And in contrast, I also don't really see changes as them ruining stories and in general just accept them for what they are, different versions. I think the way Disney goes about making changes (i.e. making a big deal out of modernizing stories either in interviews or in the movie's comic relief) can be a bit silly, but it makes sense and isn't much different than what Disney has been doing since the beginning, adjusting the stories for the context of the time. I think (as someone who has made so much content about Howard Ashman) people were expecting me to rip into the 2023 Little Mermaid last year, but I loved it and didn't think the changes were that big of a deal, let alone anything that would tarnish Ashman's legacy. I didn't think the changes were necessary, but it became a different thing and between Halle Bailey's amazing performance, the new material, and even unused Ashman lyrics that surfaced, I fully view it as a separate thing that I also enjoy for different reasons. I hope Snow White goes in a similar direction!

[@wish154]

I experienced something similar with old Disney movies affecting my life and view of it, but in the opposite way. Two of my favorite Disney movies I loved to rewatch as a kid were Pinocchio and Peter Pan. I only recently realized how much those movies mean to me. Wanting to be a real boy and struggling with what it means to grow up. A Lost Boy in more than one sense.

[@3dnygma]

Lovely video with stellar music and editing ❤ you did such an amazing job Marlene. I love the running thread of the movie as sth that can mean so many different things at the same time. For me, this movie reminds me of my grandparents. They were born in late 1930s/early 1940s Austria so that might influence why they had it on VHS and showed it to me religiously when I was a kid 😂❤

[@skittycecil9786]

Welcome back! So great to hear your lovely voice again.

[@danielgudinojuarez6729]

Lovely new for Sunday, so blown away by the end results

[@gota7738]

In a bit of a rough patch at the moment, this made me feel a little less alone. Really grateful to be reunited with your work and thoughts further down this creative and personal journey you've been on.

[@MajoraWaffle]

PLEASE tell me you are gonna release the covers and songs in this video separately; your voice and instrumentation brings me to tears 💛

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

I don't think I'll put the covers up, but if people want "poison apple" on streaming I can upload it!

[@MajoraWaffle]

@@DreamsoundsVideo i'd love both of them on streaming if possible! the "whistle while you work" cover is absolutely gorgeous, probably the best interpretation i have heard of the song 💖

[@eleanorsherry4620]

plz do!

[@cassandramiller4477]

I don't know why you saying, "I feel like a Disney Princess" made me cry. It might be because that's a little like the way I felt when I went to Disney World last year, for the first time since I was a child, and the first time since I transitioned. (I wish I felt safe enough there to go back.) Thank you for this beautiful video, from the bottom of my heart.

[@carlos412]

Very lovely video. I Love the decoration in what I assume is your home. Snow white was always my favorite disney movie as a kid. I Watched it countless times. The scene with the dwarves crying over snow white's "corpse" is one of the most heartbreaking, emotional and beautiful scenes Disney has ever done. There is such a sense of purity, innocence and hope that the film exhudes. I'll never forget that when my grandma died, my mother told me the day before the funeral, to imagine that it was going to be like the dwarves watching over snow white's coffin.We were both bawling our eyes out, it's been 15 years and I have never forgotten that

[@SylviaRustyFae]

I shared this vid with another queer creator, Matt Baume, and he said it was wonderful in his response thankin me for passing it along :3

[@mk-aka-morgan8386]

This is the kind of quality I’d expect from a fully funded documentary, this is such a well-put together video 💕💕💕

[@SylviaRustyFae]

Inb4 watchin cuz i came to get those timestamps; and i just wanna say thank you sm for puttin these kinds of warnings, from the flashin lights thru to antisemitism, and any others Im particularly affected mostly by the flashing lights one and this quick warnin lets me prep given i exist in a very dark room with a TV on prty low brightness due to my sensory processin disorder and preferrin darkness over light cuz its more comfy Flashin images can ofc be the absolute worst in such situations, so just knowin when theyre comin i can either turn down the brightness to a preset zero on everythin or turn my picture off til theyre thru and be fine just hearin things

[@TalysAlankil]

Welcome back! Missed your insights, hope you're getting better :)

[@abee948]

You always hit the nail on the head with how I’m feeling! About gender, about change, about Disney. Thank you for making this!!!

[@SteveJubs]

You are the Snow White to Natalie Wynn’s Evil Queen

[@sycastells1212]

Oh good I'm not the only one who saw it

[@TheCouncil-zg4vp]

This was such an unexpected but welcome surprise. Your videos have brought me so much comfort and knowledge over the years. The past year has been quite rocky for me as well, and there's so much comfort for me in hearing your voice, your perspective, when I thought I would not again. I've been here since that first video, and it's been a wonderful ride. Wherever the future leads, I am excited to hear your voice and the songs and stories you want to share.

[@KieranCraft]

Beautiful video, so glad you'll still be here for us to follow along with what you do

[@samwef6682]

your story is so beautiful. I have a similar obsession with snow white, and what you say in this video gives me hope for my own journey :D

[@BryonyClaire]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us 🤍

[@booksvsmovies]

this video inspired me to finally watch Snow White for the first time. It was a lovely experience so thanks for pushing me to finally get to it.

[@danielgudinojuarez6729]

Great video for Sunday 🥰🥰🥰

[@hazel2759]

Its so good to hear your voice again! Thank you for this 🫂

[@Hopelessdigus]

Ive never been happier to see a video on my explore page, i had loved hearing your videos that were closer to video essays in the past, along with hearing your singing segments in different videos. I cant wait to see how you continue to grow and thrive in this new direction!

[@ArisReputation]

This video has brought me to tears. Thank you so much your one of the reasons I’m here today thank you for making me feel better and happy about myself.

[@defygravityXD]

Really glad you’re continuing to make videos after rebranding instead of just leaving the channel. I love hearing your perspective. And there is something healing in it for me as yet another queer person raised on Disney, learning that their version of love and happily-ever-after is really just fantasy. Re-framing Disney through queer experience has been really important in holding on to my belief in goodness, joy, and some version of ‘true love’.

[@risaswonderland]

Great video. I never knew most of this. Love is a song is one of my most favorite Disney songs. ❤

[@sarahvanorden670]

Beautiful video - I often find myself having a bit of a difficult relationship with the movie Snow White - I love the movie and the story, but at the same time I have dwarfism and many people in that community consider Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs to be one of the reasons to this day, people still think it's okay to laugh at people with dwarfism, and that we aren't fully accepted. Peter Dinklage is a very famous man and said that the dwarfs shouldn't be in the live action movie, which a lot of people in the community disagree with because those are 7 jobs for people with dwarfism that others cannot do.

[@jamie1602]

Brad Williams is a bit more reputable to me and not because he'll take a picture with Snow White every single time when he's in a Disney Park. His explanations, even when littered with sarcasm and comedy, come more from a perspective of someone who knows people with dwarfism who will have to work their entire lives and will be stuck to these parts. Peter Dinkelage got a part playing Cyrano de Bergerac. A lot of famous actors have played that role, even in contemporary retellings. Regular people don't get that role, let alone with people with dwarfism... or even POC. It's very much pulling up the ladder behind you in his case. While he earned his role, he doesn't remember where he came from. A huge problem that he forgets there are others who are, unfortunately, as talented as he is (if not more so) and he just happened to be in the right place at the right time. It made me lose a lot of faith in him. Plenty of other actors and personalities with dwarfism that I do love dearly, though. What I find with Disney's Snow White is the dwarfs in that piece, not other ones, are the heroes. Sidekicks, sure, but they're willing to commit regicide out of grief and rage. This is not true in other retellings and it's vital to remember this. Most people don't rewatch Snow White after they're three years old and hang onto incorrect criticisms. Most people just don't remember their cartoons and will cling to things they've read on the internet in a bid to be cruel. Someone was particularly nasty to me for sounding like Betty Boop. But I know what Betty Boop's cartoons contain; some bad, some good. So that insult fell pretty flat for me, simply because I remember what a Betty Boop cartoon is like... and the person who attempted to insult me can only remember Mae Questral's voice being iconic. Their attempted cruelty may as well have been a comment, snide attitude aside. The long conclusion is people are morons and we have to realize that there are that many people existing on this planet. Enjoy what you enjoy as life is short and you deserve it. There are much worse things you can enjoy and relate to in this world.

[@sarahvanorden670]

@@jamie1602 I think the situation with Peter can be summed up as… he’s so rich and famous now he can turn down any roles he sees as degrading, and apparently thinks he can for any one with dwarfism

[@davidalbee5039]

Thank you for this beautiful video. Right before my first Disney visit, I rewatched it for the first time in over a decade. I was shocked at how I’d missed it as a teenager/child. It’s slowly becoming one of my favorite animated films. As it explores her trauma, and sadly we don’t always have control over our life..

[@AlienBear420]

I'm so happy you're back, I adore your content

[@daviddyster4145]

Glad to see your getting back feet.

[@searchingfororion]

I mean this in the kindest way and upmost respect: The way you worded this comment had me read the statement literally at first - which then conjured associations to The Little Mermaid. While I understand what you meant, considering how much she's spoken on Ariel and the significance that film has for her - I think the misread version has equally powerful sentiment.

[@averyeml]

When you come back you come back STRONG. Glad to see you whenever and however we can get you but this one really just slaps Edit: hi John! Yay John! John sightings make me happy. He’s always so thoughtful. Y’all continue to be couple goals. 💙

[@CthulhusBFF2]

🎉 so glad to see you back in my feed ❤

[@audjusushi]

What a beautiful metamorphosis. Your content before was similar to many video essayists, and now it is something wholly unique with the addition of your own songs. A very smart move on multiple levels. I sincerely hope this brings you all the success and accolades you deserve.

[@hanahyperfixates]

I originally was going to wait until the end of my work shift to watch this, but I simply could not wait, and watched it over lunch. What an incredible piece of art. The music! The editing! The obvious knowledge and research behind the script! I felt so many things watching this, but above all, pride. I am so proud of your journey and your growth. I felt the power and pain it took to rebuild yourself from the pieces left in the wake of transformation. This video is a snapshot of transgender joy, of self-reconfiguration, of the bitter-sweetness of metamorphosis. This documentary is different from the content of yours that I've seen, but your voice is unmistakable and rings through as strongly as ever. The same way that Churchill's music remains the foundation and backbone of Disney's brand (even through its ever-evolving optics and artistic vision) the things I love about your work are still here. I'm so glad you're back.

[@ReturnOf2008]

I’d love to hear your thoughts on Wish whether formal video essay or informal video thoughts!

[@chameleonhrt]

Love the video. While Snow White wasn't my favorite princess growing up (mine was Belle), I always loved the aesthetic of her. In fact, she's so far the only princess I've dressed up as in my adult years. And I think a big part of it might be that she was secretly the ideal that I wanted to be physically. It was probably never possible for me, but I still love her look even now. Also, I'm excited to see where this channel goes. I don't know what else you will tackle other than Disney, but that wasn't the reason why I subscribed to this channel last year. It was your insight as a trans woman that I related to, and the way you looked at history and media as well. I'm glad you're back. ❤

[@hunni_dew]

Your videos are so soothing and elegant, I can see and hear the thought you have put into each frame. I speak for everyone when I say we are so excited to continue following you on your journey ! 💕💕

[@blahsrah]

I was expecting a deep dive on Snow White lore, but this was so much better. I hope that you remain a strong soul through your life. You’re a light

[@johndoe1053]

11:37 timestamp for myself cuz ur song is so good !! :) i had a phase at the beginning of my freshman year where i went back to rewatch the old disney classics and i think your vids helped with my rejuvenated interest in them at that time. i adore this movie and am so glad to have finally heard your words on it,, that final song always brings me to tears and is part of why its become such a comfort film to me

[@skylinesandturnstiles9595]

im so glad you're back. thank you

[@rosesinthegard3n]

i watched the poison apple song the first time and now seeing it in this context... you are incredible. what a fantastic song and what a way to phrase it all.

[@Kit-np7gv]

Marlene your video was so incredibly interesting and heartfelt. I've been watching your videos for ages and you came out as trans roughly at the same time I did. Watching your journey as a person really helped me to grow as well. Your style of videomaking is very artistic and earnest in an inspiring way. Do what you love and take care of yourself

[@barbarafernandes6557]

So good to see you back!

[@NostalgicEditor]

So incredibly happy to see this video in it’s fully completed form. Absolutely loved watching the final product and will be coming back very soon to rewatch it again. Sorry to hear your bottom surgery wasn’t a smooth experience but I’m glad that everything turned out okay in the end. I rewatched through all your videos when I was recovering from my top surgery, and they were a great comfort to me in a trying time, so thank you for all that you do. ❤

[@snakemanstongue]

Shoutout to the algorithm for recommending me this. So immersive and a beautiful essay and song

[@austensg9596]

I'm so grateful you're here! Your art is gorgeous, as are you.

[@MadderCommotion]

Im so glad youre back, thank you for sharing your story too ❤

[@xjunkxyrdxdog89]

Saving this to watch for later, but I wanted to say welcome back. We missed you.

[@queerlybeloved257]

this is a wonderful vid. thank u so much for making it and sharing it with us. wishing u a wonderful 2024 :)

[@sycastells1212]

I'm SO glad you're back.

[@littlescavengercoyote173]

Absolutely beautiful. I've missed your insights very much. ❤

[@loghorn-feghorn]

Fantastic video as always, I’m glad you are back ❤️

[@beetlejuicesgraveyardrevue]

this was beautiful. thank you for sharing.

[@karacoconutag]

This was beautiful and taught me a lot. Can't wait for more content!

[@vanessaarzate8463]

Welcome back

[@chloemcginley8275]

Beautiful video 🍎❤️ welcome back!!!

[@VonPatzy]

I don’t know how I ended up here but 4 min in and I’m a subscribed. I can already tell you’re amazing. ❤️

[@gjhartist3685]

Wonderful vid! Great to see you again!

[@AoiUsagiOtoko]

your voice is so soothing and comforting to listen to, especially when you sing 🥺💕 welcome back, happy to see you making content again! you are a beautiful and talented woman and i hope your day is going well

[@Camila-cd7xe]

your videos make me feel at home, I've missed your singing, this video is beautiful

[@heylenareal]

Thank you for this very beautiful video! As a fellow trans woman, I really appreciate you sharing your feelings about the process of transitioning and how that's affected your relationship to media that's been important to you before and after the transition itself. I hope you keep on publishing videos like this in the future 😍 🖤

[@pasaniusventris4113]

The gall to say Snow White wasn't a revolutionary character- my girl set standards for the next fifty-odd years when it came to Disney alone. She was quite spunky for her time, and her influence cannot be overstated on the world of animation and on the minds of little girls ever since her movie. I didn't get her when I was young, I thought she was just sweet, and yet now, at 31, I go back to her movie over and over, taking comfort in her resilience and gentle nature.

[@laitama]

girl I missed your voice so much. beyond happy to see you back

[@rachelkiesser5406]

Your music gave me chills in the beginning🙏💖

[@Emmathelady]

Hello there beautiful. I am so proud of you!

[@warmslurm]

beautiful song

[@Sedgewina]

I'm really glad to see another video from you!

[@amany2241]

That was beautiful 😢 Welcome back!!

[@atotalfiasco4213]

I'd give anything to be able to stream Poison Apple, I wish I could forget it just so I can listen to it for the first time all over again

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

I released an album in June on streaming services and “poison apple” is the first track! The album is called “how to lose someone fast” and it features songs from my recent video essays, it’s under the name Avelo

[@Ambwosia]

what a beautiful video. so excited to see what you do in the future, marlene.

[@dubitataugustinus]

The editing on this is fantastic!! Great video

[@feleepe]

It's amazing to have you back. I love how you mix personal with film analysis in your videos, both tinted with a queer point of view. I loved Poison Apple and the video was so touching and insightful as usual. Thank you for sharing your art with us ❤

[@austensg9596]

Also, Avelo, gorgeous, I’ll be checking Spotify daily until your poison apple song is up 🎶🎶🎶

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

I have another video coming out in a few days but once that’s out I’ll put “poison apple” on streaming!

[@austensg9596]

@@DreamsoundsVideo aaaaahhhh yay I can’t wait to send it to my friend!

[@smellslikesparkle]

I'm so happy you're back!

[@lexidarling]

Your words about transition and the gender binary are so very relatable and soul-touching. I am also a very binary trans woman. I am married to a cis man, I present very femme, many of my hobbies and interests are those that are traditionally thought of as feminine. And being the way I am, I have had similar thoughts to what you expressed in the segment around the 25 minute mark. And I think I came to a similar conclusion; this is me, this is what I like, what I chose, what makes me happy. I don't do any of it because it's expected of me as part of stereotypical femininity. I just like it. And that is a very empowering thought. Thank you for this video.

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

Thanks for sharing your perspective! I think navigating the world as a transfem person is complicated, especially when pretty much everything about us can be demonized. Anything perceived as even vaguely "masculine" can be used against you, but expressing yourself in a way that is perceived as "too feminine" can also be used in a similar way. I think there is beauty in comfort and as somebody who used to think a lot about my relationship to gender, it's been interesting to let my guard down and see how I act when nobody else is looking. Having the agency to do that and choose one's own expression is what trans and non-binary liberation means to me. I'm glad you've found solace in being yourself.

[@falconeshield]

We missed you! Welcome back.

[@egg_bun_]

I'm so, so, fucking happy you're back 🥹

[@searchingfororion]

After much anticipation since your announcement near the holidays you (of course) put yet another jewel in your crown with this one. There's a novel's worth of things I could say, but for brevity let's just leave it with: Brava. Welcome back, and wishing you the best in all things.

[@DreamsoundsVideo]

Thanks for the kindness and supporting my work since basically the beginning :)

[@searchingfororion]

@@DreamsoundsVideo Aww. You're amazingly sweet. With the flood of fans I'm amazed you can keep track of anyone... Let alone remember lil' ol me.

[@alyssa-lt9kh]

I'm so glad to see you back! I had just started watching you right before you announced you were leaving. I love both Disney and queer history so your channel is one of my faves. Thanks for introducing me to Howard Ashman btw lol! Looking forward to watching this video when I get the chance!

[@princessjellyfish98]

YEESSSS AVELO TIME

[@hannalengeling3362]

Your best video yet!

[@sampeacaml9307]

So nice to see you again, Marlene.

[@paulinetrivago.7540]

As a trans woman yet to transition due to fear, this video truly struck a chord, not only do to relating to you, but also in relation to Snow White. I have been slightly obsessed with it over the past year. I think theres something to be said that Snow White is a feminine and queer icon, from its music to it characters to it deep routed trauma and story. The fact that this movie was once many a favorite to young girls, women, and queer people of various ages speaks to its influence. I mean this movie spoke to the preachers housewife to Alan Turing, Snow White has that power and i think when all is said and done, she'll be the last thing standing in Disney's empire once everything withers away

[@plaguedfrost1753]

WOAH WELCOME BACK!!! ❤️

[@SylviaRustyFae]

25:18 "Things I previously found restrictive can feel revolutionary in another light; when i can pick them for myself" This! Sm this! This is exactly how i feel about a lot of my own transfem nonbinary journey, and even more widely my mental health journey On the trans side spec, i feel this sm about many aspects of my own body bcuz im not just transfem; but im also intersex Many aspects of my body felt restrictin before i understood my gender truly and came out shortly after, and they felt such very much bcuz of the way id always viewed these parts of me in a spec light; that of bein seen as ways i didnt fit a mold i wasnt meant for... The ways i didnt feel normal, the ways i felt not like the other guys One of the big ones for me was my beard which id been mocked for it bein so sparse and not fillin in on my face, but in the 9 months after my egg cracked; i started to let it grow out and started to see it in a new light... Esp aftrr my friends showed me thru a lucky coincidence (i swear they concocted this cuz they no doubt knew i was an egg) i got to wear a dress and have pigtails alongside that beard halfway into my figurin myself out; and everyone treated me as a girl bcuz thats the role i was playin for a quest at LARP. Its silly, but that rly sold it for me that this was what i wanted; i just spent the next months figurin out how i wanted to go about it Andcsince comin out my beard has only felt more and more right and in yet new light i see it as a mane, no longer a neckbeard; and i also see how i love that it nvr filled in on my face... It kept my prty face unmarred save a moustache that thankfully grows at a snails pace (like i shaved it around early january and its still only barely startin to show back up beyond the tiniest fuzz, these last few days) So much more i see in a new light and its so amazin how simply bein able to pick this life for me; even if the life i picked is essentially to be a domestic housewife for a guy i love deeply, its still revolutionary bcuz this isnt forced on me... And in choosin it we stand against a torrent of hate particularly in the state we live as of now Sure sure, theres likely more visibly revolutionary things i do, but its cool that these things like becomin someones stay at home wife; they can feel amazin to us simply bcuz its ours to choose, we had to resist so much to be able to choose such too

[@SylviaRustyFae]

on whistle while you work... This inevitably got me tryin to whistle only to remember "oh yeah, i dont know how to whistle without my top teeth" xD I managed to finally get a bunch of broken teeth removed and i used to whistle thru my teeth, and well; no top teeth means that it just sounds like im breathin funny when i try whistlin the way im used to im still tryin to figure out how to proper whistle now ive no teeth, tho i may justve to wait til i get my partial dentures made xD All my attempts at whistlin sound wrong to me, but thats cuz ofc theyre gonna be diff than im used to

[@taydrabrookshire347]

YEAAAHH YOU’RE BACK LFGGGG