My "SPRING ROLL DIET" is WORKING!

[@pp-jt7mb]

Haven't watched you in a while, so it was heartbreaking seeing you cry first thing. I haven't been doing great mentally either lately, but things get better. Let's try to see the positive little things in everyday life and realise that our feelings don't defy us❤

[@feyrie]

Spring rolls has protein, herb/lettuce, your carb- all rolled up perfectly. I can eat sooooo many of thoseeeee

[@sincerelyjessiec0810]

Thank you fei for sharing with us. ❤ as a hmong girl i feel all those emotions. Everything you said was spot on. Now i look back and i feel foolish for thinking that. Our parents did so much for us, and yet we were embarrassed.

[@sweetiekancoral]

Definitely the beginning of this Video is just real if your a girl your gonna understand how much being hormonal amplifies our emotions little frustrations pile up and then all that shit seems to hit the fan all at once becoming a bit overwhelming…. We’re here fei we love you and relate to you especially on this ❤️🫂

[@JustJ-Me]

Man, I just wrote about what a S-idal and irritable absolute wreck I am prior to my cycle (which has been the last couple of days). I'm only reminded why my thoughts & feelings are likely as incredible as they are once I feel severe back pain and cramps, realizing "shark week" is coming soon. I didn't experience this much when I was younger, other than the dysmenorhhea. I feel as I've gotten older, the hormonal aspect has increased to the nth degree. 😬😮‍💨 It's so terrible to deal with, and I think that's putting it lightly. My doc and therapist alluded to potential PMDD (which seems very fitting), but I haven't quite nailed it down yet. I say "Shark Week" bc of a song by Blowj__ Academy referring to it as such. Kinda raunchy and also kind of relatable/ funny imo

[@Weirdness-rk7zk]

I think we all go through something similar, it's hard to be the one that is "strong" and it's a-ok to feel our emotions. Even tho we might hide or bottle up our emotions they'll come out eventually, and it's up to yourself on how long you want to feel that, its okay to feel them for awhile but feeling them for too long (to me) can create a loop of feeling nothing then those feelings again. That's when self care comes in, take yourself out or do something that makes you feel good ❤no one else can take care of our emotions besides ourselves 💗

[@khaula5558]

Don't be sad we are with you and we love you we are your fans and we are going to be all the time with you in a good mood in a bad mood I wish for you all the best and I love you from UAE❤❤

[@mizimashi_art]

But you should be also trying to be happy without fans as well.

[@lauragonzalez3175]

I feel you girl just take it one day at a time love watching you love ya

[@ilonataylor5833]

Same girl I came from an immigrant family and was born in Ukraine I came here when I was 9 it was pbs kids and food banks and food stamps and donated toys for Christmas here, there we didn’t even have branded items, so when ppl talk about the 90s I’m like gurl half of that stuff I didn’t find out until I was in America

[@wassupwe2ne1xbigbangxbtsxBPxG7]

You literally make my day Fei!!

[@livvie5287]

Same. Growing up I only ever got toys from the dollar store and most of my clothes were thrifted. I always tell myself when I grow up and have money I will buy every toy I want. I never did that. I have bills to pay now 😂

[@jujulovespink]

I get really emotional when it comes to Christmas because it does bring back childhood memories of the toy drives we went to. Your Nyab is so motherly! So lucky to have her!

[@J.eeeek27]

Fei, I hear you. Especially when you say when something happens, you automatically think “this is my fault, and so is that.” It just spirals. I don’t know what I could possibly say to try to encourage you, because it’s much easier said than done. But I hope days get better for you. I hope you take the time to get rest. I hope that you have a good support system to remind you of how amazing you really are. God bless you in your journey. You are so amazing. “Then call on Me when you are in trouble, and I will rescue you, and you will give Me glory,” Psalm 50:15.

[@phiengthirath]

WE MISS YOU TOO FEI!!!!

[@yakihachu]

i feel like i dont get hungry until late at night bc i dont really move or do anything all day maybe if i start eating a small breakfast id have the energy to like workout or even just to go outside and go on a walk, idk i dont have any breakfast ideas

[@JustJ-Me]

I'm like that as well. I've never been a "morning eater," and it made zero sense to me to eat if I wasn't hungry. Everyone's bodies are different, and I can't offer any great advice. All I know is that I fell for the "breakfast is the most important part of the day" bit in the hope of it helping me lose weight and be healthy. I also used to work so often that I would forget to eat if I was even hungry to begin with. I'm a nighttime eater as well, which I know can be terrible, but I'm also most active at night. I've had horrible insomnia for as long as I can recall. I feel like my sleep schedule or circadian rhythm is just the opposite of others. I've been hospitalized 3 different times for a month at a time, and even the structure of trying to sleep and wake up at specific times (10pm to 6am), being active from the time I woke up until the time I was supposed to sleep, and never taking naps still couldn't adjust my sleeping habits. Electronics also weren't allowed, so that wasn't a factor either. I've always been "wired, but tired." For me personally (not blaming Feiii at all, bc if it works for her, then I'm really happy for her), I feel it's been detrimental for me to essentially force eating in the morning and also the need for more/ different sleep. Because of others in the health field really pushing the idea that in order for me to be healthy I need to eat breakfast and get their ideal amount of sleep, it's led to me stressing over trying to do both. Now I have a very unhealthy "relationship" with eating and sleeping. Prior to everyone (particularly in the hospital) making me feel guilty about my habits & routines being different from I guess the masses, I felt okay with how I slept and ate. Now I've developed a sort of anxiety & hyper- focus on both. Since stressing over trying to change both things, I've actually put on a lot more weight. I imagine increased cortisol from stress doesn't help. Obviously, I have no idea if either of those truly contributed to my weight gain or if it's just a coincidence. In my opinion, it's good to listen to your body and, in certain situations, discuss it with a professional. It may just be more beneficial to change what you eat at night and so on. It's tough trying to figure things out. I hope you're able to sort out what works best for you.

[@yakihachu]

@@JustJ-Me yea i get thats frustrating even if its a weird schedule to eat and be active if it works for you it works ppl shouldnt push what they think is healthy if what your doing already is for you, i think ill hold off on eating breakfast but force myself to go outside and sit in the sun maybe go for a walk and see if that makes me hungrier at a earlier timeif not then eating at night might just be for me i havent gained any weight since doing this but i also havent lost any maybe its the lack of moving and excersize (its 100% probably that lol) good luck with your journey tho i hope it goes well

[@laceywilson1848]

What is that sauce for the rolls?

[@Banniegirl]

She shares the recipe in her first vlogmas video . No measurements lol measure w/ ur ❤

[@ashleyyjinxx]

maybe the dryer line is clogged??

[@JustJ-Me]

True, true. Could be so many factors, and some that aren't super expensive or are a relatively quick fix.

[@carrolltee5906]

Nyb zoo i am Burmese who knows hmong little please be happy want to be bff

[@j13270]

Coco powder with milk help lose weight

[@nhow4]

Stop. no it doesn’t either

[@bun.5448]

That’s legit just instant hot chocolate what lol

[@j13270]

@@bun.5448 keto hot chocolate or soy protein powder

[@j13270]

Pig and blanket

[@JustJ-Me]

@itsfeiiiday Besides having severe med-resistent depression since I was a 9, struggling during the holidays (especially with my mom who was "my person" dying 10 yrs ago), I had a few "freakouts" very recently and was having a ton of SI. I felt like I was white-knuckling it to keep myself alive. After eventually getting really bad back pains and cramps, I thought, "Okay, a lot of what I was feeling makes SO much sense now!" In the moments I'm in the thick of it, my upcoming cycle doesn't even come to mind as a possibility as to why it's so intense that I'm crying over everything and nothing. Those hormones are WILD! I compare it to what I imagine it's like to have a parasite take over your brain- same body, but you can't figure out why you feel so effing bad! I'm going to see a specialist to check my hormones and see if I have PMDD. My depression and SI are daily occurrences, but the week or so prior to my cycle, I'm an absolute crying, irritable, S-idal wreck. There are some things that can possibly help alleviate that, so consider discussing it with a doctor or psychologist or something. You deserve to not have to experience painful feelings so intensely if at all possible. You're not weird or awful for feeling the way you do. It's a legitimate way to feel and to also be concerned about. I just want you to know that ever since I came across your channel, I've binged your content (even 2 or more yr old content, lol). You say so many things that I often think about, and you discuss relatable topics that others wouldn't dare discuss or acknowledge. I really do appreciate how candid and raw you are. Not that it matters to me, but yes, I can see you're looking healthier since health is more important than size/weight. As someone who has also struggled with their weight- (mine has fluctuated up and down and way up in the last 4 yrs bc of medical issues, and I'm sure depression and anxiety doesn't help), it's been very hard to try to adopt that healthier mindset myself. It's so much easier said than done. Your hair is beautiful, and I think the pigtails looked cute w/o looking childish. Not that my opinion matters. You are definitely a light in others' lives, and as I've said before, you're my Feiiivorite. I have yet to put it into practice, but seeing you continuously strive to try to improve your quality of life does give me motivation to try to improve my own. I just hope you know that you being incredibly vulnerable isn't all for not. I'm sure it resonates with a lot of people and validates what they're feeling & going through. I wish you the best during the holidays and beyond. Others see your worth, and hopefully, 1 of these days you'll be able to know and *feel* that too❣️

[@TeeTao]