My Worst Alcohol Rock Bottom & The Beginnings Of My Recovery

[@stevekozle7247]

For some reason I love hearing stories from alcoholics who had/have it as bad as me. I’m not sure why these stories make me feel so good inside, but they do. I don’t think I get off on hearing the misery, so much as I feel a little more complete inside knowing that I wasn’t alone. Knowing that someone else understands what I experienced in my darkest times of rock bottom alcohol withdrawals and Delerium Tremens is comforting to me. I look back on my decades of active, uncontrolled alcoholism with some confusion and a whole lot of shame and regret. My years of sobriety have been soooooo much better. Thank you for this.

[@_BatCountry]

Steve that is exactly it, I couldn't put it better myself. That perfectly articulates my own feelings to this stuff. Thanks so much for saying that, I am pretty nervous about how this kind of thing is received so this is reassuring to read. Congrats on your sober time mate.

[@janpen78]

Those histories from fellow alcoholics are always a hoot at AA meetings. I myself came to meetings just for that more than once, always felt better after. Bat County, thanks for the previous video. I also have uneven irises and suffered head trauma. That could explain it. Thanks for Your great work.

[@_BatCountry]

@@janpen78 Ah thanks Jan, I appreciate it!

[@kristinesanta6971]

I feel the same way. It helps to not feel alone. Alcoholism is such an isolating disease, feeling that other people don't understand or "get it", this is so helpful.

[@seanmccabe5619]

Probably because we can rationalise to ourselves that "it wasn't that bad" goes away when you hear about how horrible it is for others. That's why I like watching them. Good reminders from someone other than our own fantasies.

[@bartstarr2371]

This is the most hardcore rock bottom story I've ever heard in my life.

[@_BatCountry]

I'm not sure a 'thank you' is a appropriate, but thank you :)

[@IvanNiebla-dw7jc]

I relapse after 18 months and I drink heavily for 10 days, I stop a week ago to face delirium tremens, I was having alucinations filled with paranoia, basically having a psycotic episode. Now a week later am still straggling with shame, guilt and regret but your stories are helping me to feel better. Thank you so much sir, I really appreciate your content.

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Ivan, thanks for watching and for the comment. I hope things are getting better for you, I know how much it hurts to reset the clock after such a long time sober. How are you today?

[@IvanNiebla-dw7jc]

@@_BatCountry Am feeling a little better each day but also dealing with people's disapproval, it hurts but I have to make peace about the fact that some people don't understand addiction. That's why your channel it's so important becouse I can relate to your experience and learn from it. Once again brother thank you so much.

[@Toimeentulija]

Parts of this story actually moved me. Esoecially the kindness at the embassy, like damn, my eyes started to water up too man. A crazy story for sure. Addiction can be complete insanity at times

[@blde_grypr]

Out of all the delusions alcohol can cause during extreme abuse and withdrawal, I think the most telling when looking back on my own struggle at least is just how long the general denial of having a problem goes on in the face of such dire rapidly escalating consequences. That delusion sets in at the beginning and gives way for everything else to come. Thank you Bat Country for sharing and helping me stay on track.

[@_BatCountry]

A thousand percent. That's the big one: convincing yourself you're ok. Thanks for the comment, and for the follow on instagram!

[@proboscideank.7069]

Thank you for being a part of my sobriety journey and for providing a beacon of light to myself and countless others. May all who are lost in the darkness find their way home.

[@_BatCountry]

One day at a time buddy.

[@markoswatch]

Oh Brother… What a story! Being from Central Asia myself I can attest messing with the police is a no-no, good thing u got out of that unscathed… But overall an insane story… Been a heavy drinker myself and recently sober. I suppose some of us watching may think “I haven’t gone to that extent”, but man oh man does it escalate without a person noticing… Best wishes to you brother, thank you for sharing your story, stay healthy and sober

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for the comment brother, and apologies for the slow reply. I wish you'd been there to tell me not to F with the cops in the first place, but I had to find out the hard way.

[@trangledangle]

One thing I've learned about my alcoholism is that my favorite way to drink is set in stone. I like a liter of vodka a day, not unlike you. Sure as I'm breathing, if I start drinking again it's only a matter of time before I work my way up to a liter a day. And every time I relapse that window of time gets shorter and shorter. Thanks for your note about selfishness! I get the sense that the alcoholic knows they're living selfishly and they suffer silently with a nameless cognitive dissonance whether or not they're presently aware of it-- you encountered it with the guy who had been giving you money; you realized that you had been taking advantage. That realization is coming for all alcoholics in time. It was a hard realization for me knowing that I'm alive not due to my own resourcefulness, but rather the kindness of others.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks Seb, it's good to see you here again. You picked up on what I think is the most important part of the whole video, that interaction with the couple, and how it forced me to recognise my behaviour. Maybe that's why that has such with me more than most of the really dramatic stuff. I hope you're doing good today!

[@Dr9000]

Clearly, this is an exceptional life experience, narrated eloquently by a gifted storyteller

[@troyrubb6350]

My man....nothing you do is bad. You are an intelligent bloke. I almost have to listen to your brilliant wisdom...thankyou for everything you have done brother.❤

[@chazmo1981]

These stories, and your presentation are just amazing. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@_BatCountry]

That's very kind, thank you!

[@Slayer-7373]

Glad you’re here to tell the tale brother. Thank you for sharing this story. It’s absolutely insane the situations we put ourselves in because of our addiction. Though I’ve never had a story like this, there are definitely parts I can relate to. Keep up the good work bro. 💯

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks mate! Plenty more to come. Hope you're doing good today

[@ashleyfowler1776]

You can’t imagine the sigh of relief that I had in my brain after stumbling upon your videos. I believe you every bit. Deeply. Thank you.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you Ashley, that means a lot.

[@trioxin2114]

After part 1, I took a google map tour through Aktau. Brutal. Baku looks nice though. Glad you made it home, reminds me of Psalms 116:6. Recounting past experiences that had this much potential for disaster has to be terrifying, I can't do it.

[@_BatCountry]

Oh wow, they've mapped the entire city on streetview now! It actually looks nicer than I remember. And to be fair, I could probably fill another video with all the pleasant and good people I met too. I might actually do that in the future, for balance. Thanks for the comment, it's much appreciated and I'm grateful you followed along closely enough to want to see it for yourself!

[@_.Sparky._]

What an incredibly harrowing ordeal. So thankful u lived to tell the tale. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to publicly retell such moments of utter despair, insanity and selfishness. Thank u for your bravery in sobriety to share.

[@EddTheDuck-skad4life]

I am also a wild binge drinker, 55yrs old, been around the block, relapsed many times, hospitalised many times and close to death many times, God only knows how Im still here, think its the irish blood in me 🤔 Currently 44 days sober today. I stumbled accross your posts and normally I would skip past posts to do with alcoholism but for whatever reason I was drawn to your posts and felt compelled to watch them. And without doubt your vids give the best descriptions of alcoholism and the horrific effects and consequences therein, by that I mean not only the terrifying withdrawals and DT's, mental and physical damage we inflect on ourselves etc but also the damaging ripple effect it has on friends, family and even just people around us when in the heart of the abyss. You describe everything so eloquently, simply, graphically and honestly. Keep up the good work my celtic comrade. ODAAT 🍀

[@odorlesslebs8055]

The most brutal story ever, your posh accent adds to the intensity.

[@_BatCountry]

Hahaha thanks Odorless! Being a bit posh has its advantages sometimes I guess :)

[@averieway]

​@@_BatCountryit gives me some serious OG deja vu. :) Thank you for sharing your experiences. 🙏

[@baiyinadotcom]

Could’ve taken a flight home and avoided hell on earth. Amazing story telling tho

[@_BatCountry]

That's exactly what everyone wanted me to do :)

[@boxingmonkey8621]

Definitely the best anti alcohol contributor on You Tube And I’ve heard most of them Your core audience certainly resonates with you 100%

[@_BatCountry]

Aw thanks! That's quite a compliment, I appreciate it.

[@juliegerasimenko200]

You’re such a good story teller!! I was on the edge of my seat the whole time. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much! I really appreciate that :)

[@j2626-u2g]

Thank you for sharing -- such a poignant, compelling story very inspirational -- for me and for many -- stay sober & happy & wonderful You told it beautifully & Love your Microphone ~~~

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks J! Yeah I love that mic too, it makes me feel important :)

[@pietiebeyers5237]

You are an EXCELLENT storyteller. Amazing video. Thanks man! 🙏

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much for that mate, I really appreciate it!

[@Romanov3579]

Could be a movie for real

[@bestimmaa]

Mate, I love listen to your stories. You have a way with words and a lovely voice.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much, that's very kind!

[@JB-Holly10]

Wow what a man to put this kind of hellish experience out to the world..I held onto every word..Iam determined to knock this utter crap on the head! Thank you so much for your honesty ❤️

[@_BatCountry]

One day at a time, Janet.

[@Harryavida]

Interestingly - you cite the gory image of the self-stitching prisoner as your ‘rock bottom’, but in its truest definition a rock bottom is that moment when the illusion is broken. I’d argue that the attractive middle-eastern couple’s scorn at your repeated begging lies was possibly THE ‘psychic shift’ you experienced, something necessary for all fundamental metamorphosis….

[@_BatCountry]

I tend to agree to be honest. I tend to tell people about the worst *place* as my rock bottom rather than the worst *feeling*, but you're right, and you highlighted a really important distinction.

[@brendanbehan-mc9qu]

incredibly touching video. thank you for sharing. i hope this is cathartic for you-- i feel your pain and your joy.

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Brendan, thanks for your comment. It really was cathartic for me.

[@samuelhumphrey5908]

So unbelievable I believe! Glad you made it...keep smiling! Take care Bro. ❤

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you matey, you too!

[@davidlafond8327]

You’ve been through some serious stuff, man! Fascinating story! It’s a miracle you survived all of that! 😇

[@benjaminciotti3462]

This is a great story (and it's well-told). I watched and fully enjoyed Part I as well, and am glad to hear its continuation.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you Benjamin, you must be one of the few people who took the the time to take the whole journey with me :) I really appreciate it! Just purely out of interest, you need to answer if you don't want to - are you a sober person?

[@WiredAndStoned]

Amazing channel. Professional execution. Inspiring storytelling. Can’t wait to see your channel blow up! Instant subscriber here. Gonna listen to all your content now, brb.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much! That's such a huge compliment coming from people who radiate such positivity :)

[@ShadesOClarity]

Very good video and story, man. Had a hell of a time getting on that airplane. That made me laugh. Sorry. It always gets worse before it gets better. Coincidentally, when I started my channel on New Year's Eve, my third video was all about alcohol withdrawal and I think it's the video with the most views (8.8K) It got me a bunch of subs quick and it's the one with the most comments. My channel kind of ebbs and flows. I'm now six subs shy of 300. You were sub 200.

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah withdrawal seems to be a hot topic, and that's good for me, because I like talking about. Maybe 'like' is the wrong word there, but it's the most interesting to talk about for me. Hope you're good today meet, catch up soon.

[@discoverliterature5800]

Amazing video as always. You said in your hallucination video that people who have your kind of insight into the deep rungs of alcoholism are more often than not …insane or dead. I think that’s why I find it so fascinating. I am an alcoholic myself and have been rescued from Spain by my parents. But have only ever had auditory hallucinations during withdrawal. I suppose you make me feel not alone

[@_BatCountry]

That's why I'm drawn to these stories too - if we're honest with ourselves, we're all drawn to stories of the extremes of human experience. If we weren't, movies would be pretty boring right? Being rescued from Spain by your parents must have been a low point, but I'm glad you're out of it and congrats on your sobriety!

[@Alohasnackbar86]

thank you Stu for your stories and experiences, you're a inspiration / Will

[@cjh0751]

I find your honest experiences with being an alcoholic informing and inspiring. I went into withdrawal on the Mon 29th April. I spent a week in hell but came through the other side. The Kindling effect is real and this was one of the worse i'd ever experienced. This coming Monday is going to be 2 weeks sober. I'm feeling optomistic but cautious. I know that just one can of beer can start me on the road to drinking a litre of spirits a day again. I can't let that happen. Drinking has cost me too much. I nearly lost my freeedom recently because of it but somehow by the grace of God i was given another chance. I won't throw that away. Too much is at stake. I'm taking it day by day and i feel great but i don't want to get too complacent. Keep up the great work. Videos like yours are a lifeline to someone like me. Thanks.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much for the comment CJ, when I saw I'm grateful that people take time out of their day to watch I really mean it. And congrats on two weeks: you're over the hump. Optimistic but cautious is exactly the right attitude. Keep us posted on your progress, we get through these things together.

[@harrybaker9044]

Thank you again for an incredible video. It was unexpected to see you getting emotional, but completely understandable. Sometimes in the depths of our addiction its easy to start losing faith in not just ourselves, but other human beings aswell, it must have meant so much to be treated with dignity and care by others when you were at your lowest point. The "animal" comment from your landlord brought back memories of times when i had heard that kind of comment from my own mother after she had entered my room and seen the kind of state i would often leave it in. Whether its from a stranger or someone you know, that kind of comment stings, because you are feeling extremely vulnerable and soft in those moments, so criticism hits you twice as hard as it normally would, but its not just that, its that you know they are right. And of course the truth hurts more than anything.

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Harry, good to see you again! Believe me, the emotion caught me by surprise too, but haven't really talked about that before. And absolutely: the truth hurts

[@Fanfan30303]

I really appreciate you sharing that. You’re an inspiring person. Thank you

[@OJP1993]

I've never had an issue with alcohol. I often choose not to drink because I hate hangovers. I shouldn't be interested in your channel, but I somehow stumbled across it while putting myself through caffeine withdrawals and lying around distracting myself with KZbin. Not to compare the withdrawals at all - stopping caffeine just involves a headache for a couple days and a lack of energy/motivation for a week or so. Just wanted to give props because you're a great story teller. Although these videos aren't particularly relevant to my life I find them very interesting and there are parallels in the way addicted minds work. If you had another channel that explored other topics (assuming you want to keep this one focused on alcohol) I'd definitely check that out too. Cheers!

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you very much, that's very kind of you to say!

[@joshuabear7735]

I think I may have seen your bike packing posts on social media back then, or it could have been another badass bearded dude. Incredible story.

[@_BatCountry]

We do all tend to look alike, but yeah, I was posting regularly for a while. Nice to meet you in a different part of life.

[@ASIF_M1934]

Bravo Stuart. Funny, emotional, harrowing and so so interesting to listen to your adventure. Thank you and please continue the great work.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks ASIF, good to see you here again!

[@ELPeeDubYou]

I love your content, bro! Im an alcoholic, too! A friend of Bill's 😊

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you! Good to meet you :)

[@thebenefactor6744]

As a non-alcoholic, this did make me realize there are parallels between non- productive behavioral patterns. The medium of addiction, and the ensuing wake of consequences may not be the same, but the things we tell ourselves, and the resulting deviation from a constructive, productive path bear an eerie resemblance. Thanks for parting the veil.

[@SpotlessLeopard]

Wow. This is rock bottom and drilling to see what's below. You've done well to come back up. Stay back up.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you Leopard, that is really succinct advice. I appreciate the support.

[@SpotlessLeopard]

​@@_BatCountryNot a problem Batman. Excellently engaging channel by the way.

[@Goosemancan]

I'm surprised you are alive bro. Prayers 🙏

[@_BatCountry]

Me too brother. Me too.

[@Livinglife20255]

I find your voice so soothing. I hope you continue to make videos. I also think you could make a career creating/recording sleep stories.

[@_BatCountry]

Awww that's very sweet, thank you so much! Pretty happy with my actual career right now, but maybe I can make time for a side hustle. Thanks for the comment!

[@mellissahoyle5594]

This has moved me so much ,, thank you so much for your videos and stories you are inspiring 😊

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks Melissa, good to see you here again! Hope you're doing good?

[@Helena-ix8wx]

Did you actually gain 3k subscribers since this morning? I swear it was at 7.9k this morning when I subscribed. Love your way of storytelling

[@_BatCountry]

300 yeah, not 3000 though. The channel's growing really fast right now! Thanks for being part of it :)

[@AlexxxGrrr]

That is an incredible story and you are a great storyteller...

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks so much Alex! Feels good to finally put that stuff on camera :D

[@AlexxxGrrr]

@@_BatCountry I am dead serious, I already commented on a previous video, batsh*t crazy story. I am quite fond of longer bicycle trips myself and have done quite a few, all across Europe and know how demanding it is to bike 100K+ every day for days and weeks and that "just" on modest european roads and trails and when you are in top physical condition, well fed and hydrated. The idea of biking across whole of ASIA with its vast deserts and steppes with no civilization for hundreds of miles while drinking liters of hard booze every day is insane...

[@_BatCountry]

@@AlexxxGrrr As scary as I made it sound, Kyrgyzstan is an incredible place for long bike tours. If you're in control of yourself, than it's safe. If you're looking for your next adventure, I recommend it a thousand percent. It's the world's best kept secret.

[@lxamexam]

You are amazing. I love you. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching!

[@TomFittock]

You are an excellent storyteller. Keep on carrying on with your sobriety. I’m struggling with my relationship with alcohol at present, so watching your videos really resonates. Keep at the sobriety man. You deserve it.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching and for the comment mate. It sounds like you're close to taking the next step yourself. Do you know how you're going to do it?

[@Deepb1000]

Love your podcasts...Sterling work. X

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks Dee, I'm really happy you like it.

[@hettybl]

You help me so much, you make me 😂so much aswel.....and I'm still thinking about getting sober !

[@jamesgorden5072]

Great upload as always. I always get drawn in and find it fascinating to hear your journey and stories of your past and how you had to deal with everything to end up where you are today. They are stories that any alcoholic struggling now or have struggled with in the past should hear. Look forward to more videos!

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you James, good to see you here again! And thank you for the compliment. If one single person looks at my stupid face and thinks "if he can do it, I can do it" then it'll be worth it.

[@PeterZ873]

Great story and great storytelling. I am glad to see this channel growing. Listening to your story, I wonder what kind of long term physical consequences you still experience from your alcohol consumption. Seems like lost teeth is are one consequence…what else? And how’s your head injury playing out these days? Maybe you can share in a future video.

[@_BatCountry]

I'll do that, I'm always looking for video ideas. To give a quick answer though, there are quite a few physical consequences. I've broken a lot of bones, spent a lot of nights in jails, been medicated on and off, etc etc. It all adds up and I have to work hard to keep ahead of the consequences. Yeah, i'll have to do a video. Thanks Peter, always good to see you here!

[@Glassandcandy]

Your description of your delusions while in the hospital sound exactly like what my uncle was like in the hospital after getting savagely beat and left for dead after a weeks long bender. He clearly had full on DT and would try to rip his IVs out and shout and try to run away because he was hallucinating that evil men were coming to get him and my dad. They had to strap him down to the bed physically, straps on each arm and each leg.

[@alexg1686]

Love your videos buddy and trust me you not the only one with the wild stories. I gave done insanely crazy shit myself. Healing takes time, there is philosophy to it and one thing I can tell you that it does get easier. I've gone a year and a half without any alcohol and had about 400ml to drink on a plane as felt bad. I thought let's do an experiment- didn't feel the buzz, it was different... and the next day I just shrugged my shoulders and said, oh well there is nothing to it and happy that I've realised that you don't need alcohol in your life. My point is do not let alcohol become the "superior" power over you, it's nothing, it's just liquid. (Hence you must quit by you own conscious, not AA or any defeating type approach - it's your battle and you must face it and come out victorious!. I don't believe alcoholism to be a disease, it's a use disorder and means you need to really do some work on yourself. But yes first few months (to a year) best not to touch it at all. Fact I'm still staying sober as I just love it and that's the way life should be. No need for it. It's a pointless activity. Stay well and keep strong my friend. Tryst me, you will be surprised about how strong you are.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for the comment Alex, and for your positivity. I appreciate it!

[@alexg1686]

@@_BatCountry keep up the videos, you do have a talent. I will be watching your greatness evolving! 😉🇬🇧🇺🇦 P.s. you did make me laugh with the adventures in Kazakhstan but I know just how dangerous that soviet world is. Damn, lucky you!

[@katizzle92]

Keep the long videos coming! We love them

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching, and for the positivity :)

[@thomasoconnell6325]

Hi there. Well done on surviving. You've come a long way. Keep on keeping on. I enjoy the narrative style. One question: do you think you might have an underlying psychiatric problem driving the alcoholism or is the alcoholism the origin?

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Thomas. Good question, and I know the answer. The alcoholism is just a symptom of a much larger network of problems. I think that's probably true of a lot of people.

[@orovilledamwatcher303]

Sending love and encouragement. Be well and at peace. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜♥️

[@travisclymer4481]

Great story and video! I should do a similar one about me landing in Yosemite National Park’s jail and then homeless for the weekend in People’s Park in Berkeley, CA lost and detoxing hanging with two hitchhikers I picked up…..it’s a decent story. Keep ‘em coming! Thx! 💯👍🇺🇸

[@_BatCountry]

Totally! I'd watch that. As much as we're chastened from exchanging war stories, I like 'em.

[@JeffGush-pu8fy]

Really honest and emotive real experience. Such a powerful story of the battle you are going through. Keep up the good, and strength to you brother. Thank you for sharing, as I see myself in much of your story and this solidifies the will to stay away from the abyss.

[@bleedchamber]

Love the video as always brother!

[@junkequation]

Damn man. I never thought of it before, but I initially got addicted for the reason you've said, "to live an interesting life, have interesting stories, be an interesting person." I thought of it as being cool. I read William s Burroughs and believed that shooting up heroin was like, super bad ass. I found something almost religious in his enduring the suffering of withdrawal. I wanted to experience all of it. It's a horrible mistake, insidious because it's not entirely wrong. Your stories are really, fucking compelling. I'm so glad you're sharing them. I've always thought, and I am a heroin addict, so please no one listen to me, but I've thought that, to be an artist, at least to be a really good one, you have to sacrifice yourself to the gods. I think of Charles bukowski, whose poems really make me feel something, something terrible and beautiful. But in order to write it, he had to live his life in rat infested hotels, hang out with losers and prostitute, just living a life of pain. It's not worth the price, honestly. It's better to be a boring nobody, mercifully ignorant of how horrible being alive can be.

[@Stacey0909]

I call it: The Love I hate. Is ignorance bliss? Truly? I thoroughly relate to all you described as well. Godspeed! 💝🙏💕

[@AidenBlack93]

I haven't consumed much sobriety content, Delirium Dirk (RIP) being the only other channel I have watched other than yours. I have to say your story-telling, setting and honesty keeps me thinking about the monkey on my back, the one I am never safe from. I, like many others, see myself in what you say and your experiences (maybe not to some of your extremes but I can certainly draw parallels in the desperate, rough struggle of it all). I am curious as to the direction you go from here with the channel as there is only so many stories you can tell about your own experiences and how you got to the point of sobriety. Do you plan on exploring what worked for you and what didn't for getting you on the path of sobriety ( and what keeps you on it today)? Or does this seem like such a subjective process that you can do more harm than good with it? It's a space that is fraught with some ethical consideration that I don't envy. I do hope you continue and I am sure whatever direction you choose to go, you have a talent that will ensure you make a success of it. (Also you should shill the shit out of that book dude! How do I read it?)

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Stones! And I'm glad something about my stuff resonates with you, even though taken in its entirety it's not a particularly relatable story. As for the future of the channel, while I own a camera and a microphone, there's no stopping me. I think I'll stick with personal information but you're right about ethical considerations: people often ask me to talk about AA and that's a landmine. Even small channels like mine have an outsized influence in the community, the community is small but incredibly engaged, so I have to be a little restrained in what I say about things. I'm in no rush, it'll be whatever it becomes :) Thanks for the comment.

[@shakinghell1318]

I think my alcohol counsellor has relapsed. I can’t get in touch with him and I’m worried. Couldn’t make it up 😢

[@reptilewithsadhumaneyes]

Any update?

[@shakinghell1318]

@ he’s good! I bumped into him at an AA meeting about 2 weeks after I posted that comment. Was a really cool moment cos up to that point I never knew he did AA and I was totally new to it. He hit 10 years sober recently 🙂 best wishes to you.

[@Radio_Freedom]

The random, contemplative,1920's steam-driven wireless music is most therapeutic given such a terrible recounting of your rock bottom. I do appreciate your transmissions BC, they give me a sense of perspective.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching, and for the comment. I like the music too, it just fits somehow.

[@rayhanes630]

Wow, great story, thanks.

[@Adrian78]

Another great video. Keep up this invaluable work! I noticed there are now YT commercials at the start of your videos. Perfectly fine for you to monetarise - heck, I would even pay for your content. But please never go down the route of putting commercial blocks into the video. It would spoil your narration. Keeping them to the begging is just fine. 🙏👍🏽

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Adrian! Thanks for the feedback. Out of interest, did you actually see ads in the middle of the video? I don't want that and I don't know how to turn them off. I'm in no great rush to make money off this content, ya know.

[@Adrian78]

@@_BatCountryNope, didn’t see ads in the middle of the video. Very grateful for that. I understand that you could enable this function as a content creator and I appreciate that you don’t. 👍🏽

[@Lc-vv4it]

God bless you. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching!

[@MrOspi]

is binge watching your channel kind of a compulsive addiction as well - or you are just a damn good story teller?

[@MrOspi]

You should consider creating a playlist in chronological order for somebody who wants to hear your story on youtube. I got hooked big time because of your apparently true honesty and action movie like plot twists. I feel sorry for you, angry, hopeful and sad. Thank you.

[@frazerg8303]

This story is way better than any Indiana Jones tale. If the Holy Grail is a cup, it could be a rough night.

[@lindarobinson8381]

Hi from Dublin i just found your channel. I find these stories helpful as i have a serial relapser. How do you stay sober now? Did you try AA or 12 step meetings? I tried AA but it didn't work i am not good at speaking in public sharing or listening to othere stories and also labeling Alcohlic even when spber many years. Great story but very harrowing. My poison was white wine and lager mostly.

[@_BatCountry]

Hey Linda! I've been sober a while now. I was three years sober, then had a year or so of relapses, and I've been sober ever since. Like you, I have a difficult relationship with AA and 12 Step stuff. It's still in my life, but I have a umber of other things that I uses day to day. I'll talk about it in a future video I'm sure. Thanks for the comment, it's good to meet you!

[@lindarobinson8381]

@@_BatCountry That would be great thanks and i am sure it would help others . x

[@FONEternal]

Brother I don't understand addiction at all and this is an unbelievably extreme life you've led. I am rooting for you all the way

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you brother, I appreciate that. Onwards and upwards.

[@morgoth1946]

Thank you good sir for sharing your pain, maybesome day we will vollab for rock bottoms , not a competion lol❤ peace and love

[@smudd71]

I had some quite eventful adventures myself and I to am mindful not to over romanticise them but this makes mine look shit lol 7 years sober 1 year married xx

[@_BatCountry]

Congratulations on your sober time, and your marriage! Thanks for watching mate.

[@smudd71]

@@_BatCountry thanks mate great videos

[@westonblanchard5404]

Watching this while getting drunk. I said that first to be honest and ill say this second. I don't want to stop, how do i get to the point of wanting to stop?

[@_BatCountry]

If you're watching MY videos, you already know the answer to that.

[@westonblanchard5404]

@@_BatCountry I already know the answer in general but yeah

[@morgoth1946]

Brother god bless u 🙏

[@phillolo230]

Must be so scary sleeping rough and blackout everyday..

[@Elizabeth.C.Holmes]

I’ve listened to a few of your videos. Over and over I kept asking myself what your rock bottom would be….death?

[@keithbentley6081]

I think the punishment if you hadn't got on the plane might have been some kind of drunk tank prison sentence.

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah I guess. Another withdrawal in a central asian prison cell does not appeal. Once is enough for a lifetime.

[@ELPeeDubYou]

Thats like the story "Treasure of the Sierra Madre" where the character Dobson, panhandled from the same guy in town, and didn't recognize the guy who kept giving him pesos

[@_BatCountry]

I thought I'd replied to this but I guess it didn't post. That is an AMAZING reference, it brought me out in goosebumps. Thanks for taking the time to make that point, it really hit me.

[@janpen78]

Thanks for this.

[@domsonshuneson6754]

At least you saw some of the world lol. Too bad it was always smashed and most of it probably remembers like a bad dream. ur body is a beast surviving all that. My guess is u will be fine.

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks mate, I hope so.

[@danneal6510]

crazy story wow !

[@rmcpolin1987]

This needs to be a film man

[@_BatCountry]

I agree :D

[@bevanhoy6265]

Cheers fella. Cin cin. X

[@EdwinHeijmans-rn6fb]

Comrad stu how long did your head aches took ? You had them for a long time you said before.

[@_BatCountry]

If you remember what I said before, why do you keep asking? Mate, please see a specialist.

[@EdwinHeijmans-rn6fb]

@_BatCountry i am going.i only wanted to know. Just for reference

[@michaelsiengo1]

War stories help… one of many disagreements I have with the AA philosophy

[@Mid-TierBrad]

This... is... WILD!!! 😂 Boyo... as messed up as this rock bottom story is, at least it was bad ass AF 😅 Could be a movie or something Are you at least able to look back and laugh about all of this? Sometimes part of the healing is to be able to look back and laugh about the ridiculousness of it all.

[@ananda_miaoyin]

Wow. What a tale! What a ride. Glad you wrote a book. You should try to self publish. This shit sells.

[@_BatCountry]

You can pre-order it on my site, or get it on Amazon.

[@ananda_miaoyin]

@@_BatCountry Good move. We have been selling books on Amazon since 2011. Not getting rich but its a monthly check!

[@mind.archives.]

I prefer long videos, especially when they are interesting as yours.

[@ashleyfowler1776]

I also meant to add that I’ve had the grand honor of trying out a Polish….”police hotel”…they called it…

[@derekcampos5403]

Is it bad that i pour myself a drink while listening to this stuff?

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah, and it's bad that you told the internet too.

[@derekcampos5403]

@ waking up at midnight to see that i commented this on a sobriety channel is also pretty bad

[@derekcampos5403]

@@_BatCountry keep on the good fight comrade

[@mrmegamikes]

You could do audio books mate.

[@smudd71]

This is y as Jim geoffys says people who don’t drink shouldn’t tell stories cos they always end with then I went home lol

[@calbraid3328]

What happened to Dirk?

[@_BatCountry]

That's not for me to say, but the informations out there

[@natascha.anastasia]

🙏

[@robking4853]

me,me,me,me.me.me.me

[@rosscampbell1173]

People know they have a problem long before it reaches this level.

[@_BatCountry]

Nope.

[@KimPhilby203]

Worst part of alcohol is the wankers you meet ..

[@rossthemusicandguitarteacher]

Gripping story

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks Ross!