My Worst Experience With Cocaine

[@EricBZink]

Therapy plays a huge role in recovery and life in general adhdonline.com/ericzink/ to get tested for ADHD and more, along with getting connected to psychiatrists and psychologists in your area.

[@Puxi]

Erik Zink, in Germany this wouldn't have happened, come back you belong to us. It's just Kilometer and not Miles, PAL not NTSC, Euro not Dollar. You'll be fine.

[@MikelBrown-e7c]

*Psychedelic definitely have undeniable benefits to deal with PTSTD,ADDICTION,TRAUMA AND DEPRESSION ETC.The experience gave mw freedom.I was Able to get shrooms,dmt,edibles,lsd etc from this licensed mycologist who ships to my location without hassel*

[@MikelBrown-e7c]

Dude is on telegram as:::::::::::::¿¿¿

[@MikelBrown-e7c]

@Fawlshroom ¿¿¿

[@Max-c9e]

Please do a video on liteflake their coke is top tier you said you were going to do one last month but never did it.

[@noahackerman3245]

"Cocaine makes you a new man. And the first thing that new man wants is ... more cocaine." - George Carlin

[@islandbreeze414]

#facts

[@edwardelston]

George Carlin was a wise man, that’s why the CIA assassinated him.

[@steaustin8789]

Not me. #Opinions

[@johnphantom]

@ Only if you've bought enough.

[@billyoung2823]

I was a weekend user for 15 years . That drug was the best at the beginning but super dark at the end

[@DavidJKubas]

How dark?

[@RonniePickeringMate]

The bad times start to outweigh the good times. In my experience, you start to get anxiety before even doing it - like you’ve anticipated the comedown before it’s even arrived. I don’t think you ever get to really enjoy it like you did when you were young then.

[@joski9030]

Depends if you’re talking about a cheeky line with the boys or smoking rocks on your own. I’ve been at it since I was about 18 after the e days me and the lads can take it or leave it.

[@RonniePickeringMate]

@@joski9030 A cheeky line is never just a cheeky line though 😂. Fair play to you if you can resist the urge to fully commit. I’ve tried it many times and it’s always ended the same way - doing a slug at 6am and hating myself.

[@imemine8605]

​@@joski9030this sums it up when your doing your chosen drug slone seek help because youve got a serious problem

[@abrahamramirez7239]

“We’ve created our own trauma through our use of drugs” man I will always remember that, thank you so much for sharing, I hope life is a lot better for you now 🙏🏾💯

[@zombietwostep]

I live in the UK and am at the point where I'm beginning to think about my drug usage. These video that you'd are making are so helpful, you've genuinely prevented me from doing the next line. Appreciate the honesty and it takes real strength to talk about it, especially in the context of your loss. Thanks again. Stay safe, and please keep going. Rich

[@Lee-z3d1k]

Cocaine nowadays is shit it makes you paranoid as fuk years ago it never made you paranoid

[@Popskull_666]

Man this guy is real. I am so sorry to hear about your wife . Glad to hear you got sober! me too!

[@MrMenoupload]

I never realized your wife passed away, really sorry to hear that man

[@EricBZink]

I have remarried since but head was a rough time and still healing

[@oooooooo4963]

Plot twist , we re all dead and she s the only one alive coz she was standing by the door

[@tommysherman7155]

You can go to rehab for alcohol addiction because it can kill you and is physically addictive,. Cocaine including crack cocaine is psychologically addictive, no physical withdrawals at all and for that reason in my country they will just offer you talking groups. Pointless drug not found in any pharmacy or hospital. Cannabis is used for anxiety, depression, pain, insomnia. Mushrooms, ecstasy and LSD for anxiety and depression, amphetamines for ADHD, ketermiene for local anaesthetic before a medical procedure, heroin for pain, end of life care and for diarrhea. Basically every drug especially heroin/opiates is found in every pharmacy or hospital in the world. Cocaine and crack are not and not even physically addictive that's why you don't go to detox off them, pointless drug no pharmaceutical purposes to it whatsoever and before it's in You're hand's it's been bashed up lot's of time's

[@deeeeeee988]

My husband took his life .he was only 34. . Functioning weed and sometimes meth user .. worked a full time job and paid our bills .just ! You don't have to be hard core ,train wreck,in the gutter addict to fall victim to suicide .. every one is different as in mental ,emotional,and physical Resistance to drugs .. and yes when drugs are cut with extra toxic ,different substances ... It can do damage almost instantly to your brain which is how my man found himself puting our dogs lead over the second floor balcony ....and hanging himself..just metre or 2 away from me .. from high to bye in a matter of hours ..tragic and shocking .

[@toddprater14]

2- 8 balls for 500? Damn… that’s 250 a ball…I’d bet them for 125/ball or 450 for a 1/2 ounce….this was back around 2004…

[@hyperpuppy2]

I remember the time travel with cocaine. One minute it was 1:15am next thing you know it, it’s 5:30am and the shame birds start singing.

[@papabilby8855]

There was nothing worse. Seeing the sun come up after being up all night, knowing that I wasn’t Gna be able to just fall asleep and was most likely going to have to sit up the full next day in a horrible depression. Now I love getting up early after a full night sleep. Turn tables, 🤣

[@amandapearllitchfield2842]

That part!

[@gamerpaulista]

I believe I just had one of the worst comedowns yesterday. I've been trying to quit coke and alcohol but being alone at home triggers my addiction. Went to a local rock concert, everything was amazing, but I thought I couldn't have any fun if I didn't drink and snort. I wouldn't even go there without getting drunk. I've never used as much as I did yesterday and spent all the money I had. I had such a breakdown that I was just bawling my eyes out for more than an hour out of guilt, embarassment and everything. I just want to stop this shit and all the lies that come with it, I have someone to take care of and I'm just throwing my life away. It's like I'm a completely different person now, I don't even know who I am anymore. I hope this was the last time. Thanks for the vids, they always help me.

[@Corey.K85]

I’m also an alcoholic and cocaine addict. I’ve been in recovery for 4 years. I know exactly how you’re feeling because I’ve been there countless times. I would routinely snort my paycheck within 2-3 days. The shame, guilt, remorse, anxiety… it’s fucking horrible. The good news is that you can stop man. I promise you can. I won’t sugarcoat it - it’s not easy. You have to want to do it. Admitting you have a problem is the first step and it seems like you’re there. I recommend letting your plugs know that you’re done. I would also delete their phone numbers. I had one plug whose number I memorized but I would purposely try to fuck it up in my mind and I eventually did forget it. Good thing, too, because about two years into my recovery I had an incredible urge to get some. I tried like hell, but the friends I knew who were still doing blow all knew that I was sober and no one would get it for me. People, places and things - you have to be willing to change all of them if you really want to get sober. I know meetings aren’t for everyone but they really helped me out. I’d even say they helped save my life. There’s also a really great subreddit called r/stopdrinking that has thousands of people in it that are just like us. Remember - you don’t have to commit to never getting high again. Just commit to not getting high today. When you wake up tomorrow, do the same thing again.

[@gamerpaulista]

@@Corey.K85 tks a lot man, and congrats on your improvement. I'm trying to put locks on the doors that lead me to addiction, kind of like trying to prevent this monster from escaping the cage. Engaging in new hobbies has been a positive thing and expressing my feelings through art too, it sort of fulfills the needs that I'd otherwise be trying to cover with alcohol and drgs. Stay strong anyone who's reading this and be kind to yourselves.

[@newbeginning3571]

Repent and trust in Jesus. You can't go through life without him it will always be hard without him but once your given the holy spirit everything changes.

[@JT0007]

Start exercising 🫡🇺🇸🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

[@eggos77]

I went through the same thing my friend, I was told about hypnosis. So I went and tried it and it turned my life around.

[@BEACHDUDE71]

I stopped smoking at 19, last year I stopped drinking. I don't do any drugs. I am 53 single no children or pets and it's fine, may the force be with you

[@JoãoSantos-c3g]

May the force be with you brother... Always

[@Tinfintytin]

Different folks, Different strokes. More power to you mate. My wee family is the most fulfilling thing

[@msergio0293]

May the force be with you

[@devonreid1646]

And your probably miserable

[@BEACHDUDE71]

@@devonreid1646 nope, just lonely sometimes, I am healthy and free

[@MrSleep-id5bz]

I could never sleep after cocaine, i would rarely take it but on a night out when i did, i would take 1 gram and be up till 6-7am. Then when i would go to bed, i would be rolling around unable to sleep and just sweating profusely. Very surprised to hear you could sleep like 15 mins later.

[@FlabbyAbi]

This is really interesting to me. Trying to find as much info as possible. Someone I know is a coke addict but can very quickly fall asleep after taking it. Was wondering if it was cut with something... They can be getting ready to go out in the morning, disappear for some lines and then conk out. Maybe that just happens to some people?

[@BenThrockorton]

Possibly they have ADHD. It is a big reason I thinks some of us loved it so much. Coke made us feel normal. Some stimulants actually shut our brains down enough we can get some sleep. @@FlabbyAbi

[@marcd2743]

@@FlabbyAbi No, it's just because they are fd up on it and their body can take it.

[@morganborzelli8942]

Yup then you hear the birds chirping on a workday and you know your fucked lol 😂 fun times but don’t miss em

[@ItsMia19]

@@morganborzelli8942I hate that part 😂

[@jesusserrano9975]

Holy sh*t, man. The fact that you are still here is impressive. Thank you for sharing your life experience. I hope you have a good, peaceful, rest of your life.

[@jeffrobe405]

I've lost 3 friends to suicide in the last 45 days so this video really hit home. Although my partying days are behind me and I was lucky to be able to snap out of my addiction days in my mid 20's, many of my friends weren't so lucky and I've watched them deteriorate. Its very sad.

[@joshuawesteros5345]

That’s horrible bro. Share their stories when ya can. It’ll help.

[@HybOj]

@@joshuawesteros5345 one of my friends commited suicide like 20 years ago. It was similar as in this video story. At those times, we partied at underground techno... at one of these parties, he did too much and was never the same afterwards. And thats when I met him. I never knew him before this, as a normal man. Only as this new state of mind. Ppl were making fun of him. Me - not. I was the only person taking him seriously. I have a clean consciousness now. Contrary to others, who always made fun of him, including his bro. One time I got into the issues in a pub, and he vanished, 5 minutes later, the guys in the pub started to beat me up real bad - thats when he returned. He forsee this, he returned with 20cm kitchen knife, to fucking save my life and thats what he fucking did!!! Damn ./ Anyway. We played as a DJs for a moment at one pub, had one succesfull night there. Everybody loved it, we were invited for next week. Agreed on that. I stashed my DJ equip at his place (just a smal DJ needles for a turntable) and agreed he will take it next week. That never happend. Next week, he was a already dead. Hang himself. What the fuck mate .... still hurts. He was like 20yo and me as well. Now Im 40.

[@eXquisiteNoise]

sorry to hear man, sending you blessings and strenght

[@dextermorgan1]

Yep. All of my old friends are either dead or clean. There's no in between(unless they're in prison)

[@Etcher]

Jesus dude 3 friends in 1.5 months - I know your comment was 10 months ago but hang in there

[@paullabile6175]

thanks friend i was about to buy some then this video popped in my recommendations and ended up deleting the guy's number. thank you!

[@nanpanini]

Eric, I’m so so sorry for your losses 😢😢 Stay strong, we need you!

[@joshdance9959]

Stay strong mate. Having an addictive personality is a tough thing to deal with. You've just gotta find healthy addictions.

[@chrism4008]

Addiction itself is unhealthy, it is a *disease* Find a hobby, not an addiction

[@estancianews7837]

I enjoy hearing the stories of others in recovery. The stories remind me why I stopped years ago. I remember how bad I wanted to be clean and how hard it was to stay clean. What he said about causing ourselves trauma is the truth. I still feel traumatized by crazy things I did or close calls I experienced. It feels great to be nearly 18 years clean.

[@paulbrown5839]

PTSD from drugs is surely a thing.

[@dwade6322]

Can u give me a typical example of ptsd from drugs?

[@icey3787]

@@dwade6322certain smells, places, songs will bring up that feeling that you used to get when using. Not always, but sometimes

[@Teenywing]

I will absolutely 100% agree. It absolutely can mirror ptsd and I’m certain there are many cases of diagnosed PTSD from the experiences from extreme drug use. Your comment actually really interests me…it might be a new study for me. ❤

[@Teenywing]

@@dwade6322I think he means the experiences from extreme drug use have caused ptsd. Not the actual consumption of the drug. ❤

[@thewaywardgrape3838]

@@dwade6322 Example: Before my friend took his own life, he was with drawing from weed. He spent years hiding his habbit and lying, to the point that he never knew what was completely fabricated to cover for his drug usage, was real or a delusion and even the realisation of years wasted. This broke him. He begged for help from the NHS and was turned away. In reality, his perception on reality was recalibrating due to sobriety. He wrote to me explaining how he felt like a broken man, unsure of his reality and who is actually is. He isolated himself and died from exposure and starvation.

[@roadwarrior7401]

your talking of these experiences is healing yourself !

[@EricBZink]

It definitely is I’m going to be sharing more of my experiences

[@Quintana88]

As some point you gotta let it go , reliving it helps at fist , but eventually thinking/talking about it triggers your inner addict.

[@GrubbySalad]

​​@@Quintana88speak for yourself and not for others

[@LadyMoonstar6601]

You have my full respect for your honesty and how open you are. Congratulations on recovering and may it continue.God bless you. I’m so sorry to hear your wife passed away,

[@liamburns8554]

God, in my deep coke addiction I had a 100 nights worse than this! Shudder to recall most of it

[@bobhope4949]

Yeah I almost assassinated a ninja and another time got ran off the road by some girls jealous boyfriend, wasn’t a bad experience though cuz I was high as tits and really don’t remember it lol

[@werksguy]

Thank you for doing this videos. I am 37 and been clean for 210 days. I use to go on benders for like 5 years.

[@EricBZink]

Feel that and all the love

[@janmik11]

A five year bender is mad

[@Bigbillkelly]

Your honesty is admirable.

[@Winstonchurchill-t5i]

Your helping a lot of people! Keep up the good work warrior ! Greetings Portsmouth England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

[@JT0007]

🫡🇺🇸🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

[@manmaje3596]

My hometown and still were I live! :) Greetings.

[@alfie7871]

So very brave and honest. Thank you Eric.

[@1neel888]

congratulations on your sobriety , insanely motivating 💜 seeing these videos have given be more than enough of a reason to put an end to my tobacco usage

[@elisabethbun]

Many people have to be helped by your honesty. Thank you

[@damienbojorquez]

Bro the way you’re breathing as you’re telling the story, I can tell it was a traumatic experience. Gives me anxiety just hearing you talk about it. Happy you’re doing great now though 🙏🏼

[@Jawedgani...]

i get my sniff now from Liteflake instead its just safer

[@NateHollins]

I appreciate your videos dude. Still getting over my shit. Nowhere near sober. But seeing these vids recommended daily really is making changes. Obviously I’m not in recovery or anything like that. I just wanna say keep this up dude. I already know I’ll be coming back to your channel pretty soon.

[@georgemorrison1522]

Worst experience is when you run out of it. And the dealer won’t answer

[@philipaltieri107]

Watched this on 7/25/24. Want to first off say, I’m sorry for your loss. Also want to say I hope and pray that today is 7 years for you bro! Happy birthday!

[@encorempw]

I came here by accident… not even on the topic I was looking for. But you did say a few things that are helping me in my current struggle. Thanks for your bravery and sharing.. jp

[@newbluerugby]

I’ve never heard of anyone being able to fall asleep after doing coke all night. Once I started that meant I’m hearing the birds. To this day, if I happen to be waking up early enough that I hear the birds outside my window it brings me back instantly. Massive anxiety. I’m guessing my brain doesn’t want me to ever forget how bad that sucks

[@plutoloco2378]

Watching the sunrise to this day can sometimes give me massive anxiety and deep depression.

[@topbanana4013]

real coke addicts will wake up snort a line and go back to sleep. that's fukt up but i have friends that have this habit

[@alwaysstrapped814]

Holy shit I thought I was the only one!! 😂 everytime I pull an all nighter now my anxiety sky rockets

[@AJ7471]

People with adhd or add are affected differently by psychoactive substances that’s why kids who are properly diagnosed and prescribed stimulants become zoned out zombies

[@Imhereforfun-jz2lu]

Benzos

[@nicolasbeaudry6158]

Your testimonial sends shivers in my body. I m an ex coke and fentanyl alcohol recovery addict. And man , when you said that we all had one experience that is our worse , I totally agreed with you. Hope you’ll find happiness in your life, and every day is a struggle. It’s worth fighting ❤❤❤❤thank you for being you 👍🏻🏆

[@Hpscopezz]

Once a smackhead always a smackhead

[@nicolasbeaudry6158]

@@Hpscopezz what’s that supposed to mean I’ve been clean 11 years dude , and that etiquette don’t mean shit now. If this defined you , good be a junkie

[@JamesHarries85]

Coke an alcohol always been very problematic in my life also ! Good to hear your story - but also sorry to hear about your wife and father , I am at the stage of still having little relapses on it but hating myself for it - I go more than a week or 2 an I will slip up only for one night but it really not enjoyable anymore - hate myself it’s soo ingrained in my social culture as a thing to do when out . Hopefully I can find the same strength you have had to do and get completely clean but every step is a step an compared to what I was like it’s a total different stage soo can only keep trying to progress the brain is a really tricky thing to control - that’s for sharing your video

[@roypoyner8028]

Recovering coke , valium and tablets ( codeine) . I can relate so much to your videos and currently going na meetings. It's hard and in my experience I still get to the point of relapse but have to remember how this drug made me after...not at the time (asci always felt comfortable and im my bubble) like you I always had it on my own.... I try and focus on how it made me feel the day after and the days after . When I did relapse the urge to want it increased so much that I had a dealers number ready to ring ! I respect the way you explain your story my friend.

[@PS-en7wn]

I'm sober but my brain still plans times to get drunk/wrecked. I sceme ways to do it and things until I get enough mental clarity to shift the thoughts to something else or stay physically busy. It sucks...hope it's not like this forever. I like your channel and your honesty. Subbed. Take care Eric from over the pond 🇬🇧

[@dwade6322]

I really appreciate you sharing these stories of your experiences. I battle my own addictions. After 30 years of heavy partying i have def slowed down a lot. When everyone you know loves to drink an party it's hard to stay clean. Thanks again.👍

[@fuelfireiron]

You sir are an absolute badass. Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope with us. ODAAT!

[@br-dj2ti]

I remember those days very, very well. I think about it now, and it makes me sick to my stomach. It really does, I've been clean now for going on 15 years. I am thankful everyday for it My life was when I was using. I just makes me sick. God, Bless you my friend.

[@nicholaswronski628]

This is such a heartbreaking but honest and true story. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

[@bungle3912]

People who do cocaine and meth without downers blow my mind. It’s like jumping out a plane without a parachute.

[@HybOj]

alcohol is that downer for many

[@kristianhumphreys]

Whisky, but you pay a heavy price with hangover

[@bungle3912]

@@kristianhumphreys For me, it was always Xanax, Valium or heroin.

[@JohnMartin-re4jg]

Marijauna but it honestly makes the paranoia worse

[@PaulCarsonProducer]

Hope you are doing well. Great honest insight, must have been hard to video.

[@dianagerard1573]

Thank you!! I am very inspired by your story My sobriety date is 2/1/2016 Appreciate your honesty

[@sylkelster]

Not endorsing drug use, but I used to wash my coke with anhydrous acetone and let it dry in a coffee filter. Coke won't dissolve in Acetone, but lots of 'cut' will. Made it 100% better. I don't do anything these days except craft beer when working in the yard.

[@FlabbyAbi]

Someone I know is addicted to cocaine and I'm worried it's cut with something. They're falling asleep a lot on it so maybe cut with opiates, do you know if they'll dissolve? Could do an experiment....

[@jimmystrickland1034]

Except that acetone eats the shit outta your sinus cavity

[@tzldrummer]

@@jimmystrickland1034Not if it’s dry. It completely evaporates and leaves no residue.

[@HxThomison]

good man.

[@garywickmiller8167]

You wanted lab grade ether not acetone. That's heavily controlled by DEA. The 80s had the best ingredients

[@forgivenatcalvary]

I’ve never used drugs and am utterly amazed that you have such vivid memories of what occurred when you were that drunk and high. I’m so sorry you lost your wife. Congratulations on your sobriety. You are making a real difference now by sharing your stories. God bless you.

[@traciharris]

I still miss it even after 3 years without. But never again 🙏🏼

[@MrManKunt]

I appreciate you coming out for this, thank you

[@JasmineRodjeep]

l'll refer this mycologist who helped me treat my depression and anxiety, check him out he also guide newbies on proper trips moments.

[@JasmineRodjeep]

He's on Instagram

[@JasmineRodjeep]

@novatripps

[@WithASideOfFries]

Thanks for your honesty, man.

[@jeffreyfitzgerald7762]

I overdosed on cocaine 5 days ago and ended up in hospital...was very similar to what you said. Got a lot out of this video...thanks for sharing. Been using it for over 20 years along with alcohol...finally knew this was my big wake up call to make changes otherwise next time I might not be so lucky! Starting group counselling tomorrow 🎉

[@anitabowdon9932]

I'm so sorry for your loss! Sending you lots of love and positive vibes ❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

[@JoshCollins-b8p]

Love your content man 👏👏👏

[@guelsvision]

I used to watch your videos high on cocaine . I’m now 11 months clean , thanks for sharing

[@JamieBay]

I can tell from your face how much it brings you back, im afraid to respond below your vids with my story, im at day 4. I hope following you might help. I gained tinnitus, from a night like that.

[@elprimo4336]

Worst experience is when I couldn’t get it up

[@DannyGsDeadDog]

What about when your uncle blew your back doors out?

[@mindaellis5054]

​@@DannyGsDeadDoglmfao

[@ElijahJohnson-v8u]

Big facts I couldn’t get up in a threesome

[@henrykerry4150]

Thanks very much pal for sharing 22 months clean and sober my self

[@kdc6884]

Thank you for this great video.

[@kjkalways8470]

Thank you so much for sharing and for your vulnerability… I am truly sorry for the loss of your former wife🙏❤️😞

[@patriciab7297]

I’m old so I remember some pure stuff early 80’s. But I also remember how ugly it got, real quick. I carry SEVERAL horror stories that haunt me to this day. God bless us all!

[@russelljconquerslifehawkey]

I’m really sorry for your loss. Kind of went through the same incident with my wife. We were both addicted to drugs but one night she walked out and was walking the streets and got hit by a car.

[@BigSteveFairchild]

It’s good to have someone being honest

[@EricBZink]

Helps to be

[@geometricstranger7198]

Hey Erik, thanks for telling your story. A real eye opener that I’ll try to keep with me. I’m not an addict, but your experience is still really important

[@thejanglezclan]

Snorting coke and playing Wii games sounds like a waste of cocaine. I was bored just thinking about the experience.

[@up2me967]

That was kinda heartwarming. Thanks for sharing.

[@Bertha-pm4xt]

Not the cocaine from the 80s that's for sure. Escobar could have been a bad dude but he made sure his coke was clean that's for sure.

[@rollakosta6554]

Sorry to hear about this tragedy, but I am glad you are standing strong and sober. God bless and take care 🙏

[@nickydaviesnsdpharms3084]

I'm an intravenous cocaine user recreationally and someone who's extremely interested in pharmacology, and there's a fascinating thing about Cocaine when it's taken at the same time as alcohol. The two drugs mix together in the bloodstream to form a third drug called Cocaethylene, which is much longer acting, and psychoactive in it's own right. This metabolite is cardiotoxic tho. I don't drink at all, but I experience intense paranoia every time I use. So I totally get what you said here. THE PARANOIA A COCAINE USER WILL EXPERIENCE, IS ALWAYS AN APLIFIED PARANOIA OF THE PERSON'S EXISTING FEARS.

[@PHS.44]

Yep.

[@bobbynicole10]

Thank you for being so frank and for making this video!

[@tobyking5197]

I love it. I wonder if this kind of honesty makes kids think twice befor doing any kind of drug... Usually it's drugs are bad, they will fuck u up. And when they try them and feel super good, they think its a bunch of bull...

[@SardaukarX]

That’s why channels like this one are so precious. Never did drugs (not even weed) but I want to be able to explain to my kifs WHY drugs are bad for them, what they can and will do to them. Eric’s doing a hell of a job explaining what addiction’s like. I have a ton of respect for the man.

[@jakeg9372]

@@SardaukarX😊 ppl

[@yeezkneezz6861]

I know this is a bad experience but at the beginning picturing yall butt ass naked playing Wii bowling railing lines brought me a good laugh. Terribly sorry for your loss and I’m glad you’re sober !

[@Daniel-cm3xh]

Im 20 years old, addicted to weed and alcohol, and recently started doing coke and meth at parties, I’ve had an amazing life with amazing parents, I’m destroying myself, but I can’t stop…

[@Michael.0106]

Try stop now before ur proper hooked brother

[@jaredgibson7462]

❤🙏

[@therideneverends1697]

break it down incrementally, what goes through your head when that spark gets set off?

[@Daniel-cm3xh]

@@therideneverends1697 A desire to lose touch with reality, I’ve always been a disappointment to everyone especially my parents. I got help with everything in my life from my parents but I still didn’t do anything with it. I just don’t want to feel anything anymore.

[@dyyylllaannn]

just stop hanging with the people around you

[@WAYGULOLBEEF]

Losing someone you truly love in the midst of drug addiction is the worst.. its just too much to deal with all together

[@nicholasrosebush6182]

Coke sucks. I used to snort and smoke a lot of it. I never seek it out anymore but i will confess once in a while i will do a key bump if it’s around. Lately i have been trying to turn over a new leaf and stay away from beer as well. I feel like you hit a certain point in life where you just physically cant party anymore.

[@goon1ops]

beer is the gateway drug i stopped drinking and going out and my health is better i hope you can do the same

[@Josytt]

Thanks for sharing mate, and sorry for your losses

[@tulpamedia]

That's very unfortunate. I have bipolar 1 disorder with psychotic features and a meth addiction and this has definitely happened to me before. I have definitely been permanently affected by psychosis from both manic episodes and meth. Hope you're doing well man, that shit is not fun

[@billybadass5112]

Really sorry to hear about your Wife and your Dad. A loved one's Suicide is something that changes you forever. A good friend of mine took his life about 20 years ago and it still haunts me to this day if I really think about it. Congratulations on your sobriety. Keep going....one day at a time brother.

[@adriannahp1833]

I concur with this statement. You never recover from someone committing suicide. My person committed suicide and post toxicology, we found he was a cocaine user to our surprise. Never would have imagined but this video especially talking about hallucinations really hit home.

[@eamonngreene7594]

I pray to God I get sober some day. Best of look to you sir.

[@1877Freebird]

I've had at least a dozen cocaine induced seizures/overdoses and am grateful to still be here, clean, today. 🙏1 The high right before going into the seizure was what I kept chasing, despite knowing the likelihood of dying. I hear people talk about cocaine overdoses, but haven't heard many people talk about cocaine induced seizures/their experience of them. Maybe because not too many survive past that point?

[@david-csmhaltero77]

Terrible experience, a few secs after a big slam massive nystagmus, loss of balance, panic attack then quickly falling on the ground convulsing

[@seanjoseph6106]

Id be pissed if laundry soap was in my stash

[@d.mcpherson7519]

Man that is a powerful testimony

[@aarondodson1261]

Some people are never the same after heavy drugs

[@noahandmick9646]

Most*

[@bobhope4949]

I find it’s not the drugs but being in a bad place and thinking nonstop about your problems, good way to go crazy, makes ya feel better but does nothing for your problems or your wallet

[@hanibalsmith2116]

no one is the same after heavy drugs, just different degrees.

[@matthewcase564]

Hi Eric. My sobriety birthday is 6/26/17. We are pretty close. Keep up the good work. Sobriety is an amazing gift!

[@Kazwell111]

I did so much stupid shit when I was drunk, I am haunted with these memories every day.

[@Joe-d3t1t]

Same. It’s so shameful and embarrassing to think about.

[@davidfippinger7095]

Hi! I wanted to thank you so much for making your videos and putting everything out there. You’re incredibly brave & your videos are very healing & help me a lot.You’re a blessing to everyone out there. Your Fellow Addict - Dave 👍👍

[@__J23__]

bro I been doin it for a year now, found some super pure yay and I just sat in my room and did it for hours by myself to the point I thought I was having a heart attack/overdose. Called the ambulance come to find out I had my first cocaine induced anxiety attack never again 😭😭😭

[@dimitrinibbee9649]

Def earned a sub don’t blame your self man head up one day at a time ❤

[@z0zy404]

Mine was sitting on my bed thinking I was dying that’s why I stopped

[@readmelancholystrumpetmaster]

12 years sober from cocaine and alcohol addiction. I still have crazy cocaine dreams from times to time.

[@Nathan_EIRE]

Bro i no that feeling of paranoia thinking everyone is listening to you and people are outside. Horrible.

[@stalag14]

You're still kicking dude 👍. One day at a time.

[@monkey7707]

I was addicted to coke, booze and opiates.... I NEVER thought I'd be able to kick the cocaine... it's been 10 years and I still dream about it everynight

[@Kas1645]

So the dreams don’t go then? 7 weeks clean and I get dreams I’m picking some up

[@monkey7707]

@@Kas1645 I still dream of it almost every night... I'm either looking for it, calling my old dealer, snorting it, or looking for a place to bust it out... It used to bother me, but I've gotten used to it now.. I can use all the cocaine I want while I'm asleep and it's totally free and won't ruin my life 😊

[@SoulforSale]

Hate when my connection is unavailable

[@paulorlando9395]

@@Kas1645six months in still dream about it maybe three times a week

[@drdoom246]

Coke was easy to kick. Opiates...not so much.

[@rockyboterro2165]

Thank you for sharing 🙏 it's helping me on my journey

[@mr.iforgot3062]

I started doing drugs at 5 years old. I didn't quit until I was 56.

[@Scottadamsfan3481]

That’s wild , can you share some of your story ?

[@sebastianoflament9012]

You are talking about everything bro, you got a lot of courage.

[@jamespeters2859]

Coke paranoia’s horribly intense!

[@Elguapo93]

Meth is brutal

[@jamesjazzy8040]

​@@Elguapo93I can imagine i've never done that, but I can imagine... Done wheelbarrels full of Coke, though.

[@Elguapo93]

@@jamesjazzy8040 I love coke haha had a bit of paranoia off that but nothing a benzo won’t fix.. meth paranoia is like a true nightmare. I’ve got like ptsd from years ago. Never been a big user of it, but have had a few goes on it.. I called the police one night because I swore people were running on my roof trying to get inside. That’s nothing though.

[@matthewcooksey5411]

Your addiction sounds like mine was. I'll be a year clean from everything in a few days and every day I struggle with the bad memories of being on Coke. :/ it's difficult to blend in. If anyone in these comments needs help right now I'm here for you reach out please.

[@Nitodvd]

I'm proud of you Matthew.

[@inutero10]

Ive done them all. The only bad experience ive ever had was with weed. It sent me into a tailspin. Massive panic attack. Go figure.

[@stevenjamesgiurbinojr6893]

yeah, same here, Marijauna is the worst, causes panic attacks and paranoia and anxiety like crazy for me, don’t know why ppl think it’s so great, lol 😂

[@alimctaven7417]

@@stevenjamesgiurbinojr6893Its because now a days its too strong honestly. Back in my days we smoked mid grade mostly sometime reggie, sometimes we ran into some kush and the kush would literally have you like you ate an edible. Now everything is so strong a first time user is going to be turned off for a fact.

[@VRO911]

@@stevenjamesgiurbinojr6893Thats greening out aka getting way to high where it hits like a train when you don’t have a tolerance & it’s happened to me many times and has a strong impact on my life honestly, leading my onto even harder drugs due to panic attacks, agoraphobia and depersonalization all from a few VERY intense experiences just from bud, now I may get anxious but I’ll never get high like that again unless I completely stop for years, I dab and hardly even get high now where when I first started weed was so intense it a gram lasted me a month.

[@Baghuul]

I took only one hit which was enough to spiral me into a nasty panic attack and derealization. Anxiety which lasted for months.

[@TheFingolito]

I had a very similar maniacal psychosis of paranoina that all started in one of my runs with amphetamine when I was about 18 years old and it took me well over a year to get back to normal. I had the same paranoia with police breaking into my apartment and hiding in different parts of my flat. I couldnt go to the bathroom without a knife and when I sat in the bath one night with two knives it just fell off like water that it wasn't real, if they wanted to come in and take me it would already had happened. So myblesson from that was to get out of a psychosis like that you must figure it out yourself. You got into it and you're the only one who can get out of it. ❤