my worst nightmare. (story 51)

[@Tradewithkade]

Ahhh you were experiencing “stinkin thinkin”! Glad you were able to pull yourself out of it and have fun!

[@terrydantzig5276]

Every time I watch your videos...I end up in tears with compassion...I want your life!!!! Ter.

[@GraceHappens]

You can tell they’re good people by the way they treat Rio. They were all so good to her! What a wonderful event. Can’t wait to see it. Congratulations on making it thru!

[@walttramontana8320]

You're so awesome. The only limits that you face are in your mind. Anything is possible, you just have to believe. I can't wait to meet all of you at The Bus Fair. ✌️

[@Kat-n-Ollie]

I love the epiphany that you had and the most important moment! While scary, what a fabulous moment for you. I’m so proud of you and I hope you are proud of yourself. You rocked it! ♥️

[@JohnnyBeegood1]

Sweet tears of joy. You are livin the dream young lady. Congrats on becoming a star of the silver screen. Be sure to remind us when the Gutted show airs. 😃 😍 🚌

[@dianeschmiane]

That's a great lesson that came at just the right moment. Once we focus more on how we can be of service to others, versus obsessing about ourselves, it's like a light switches on, the anxieties melt away, and we can be present as our best possible selves, for everyone around us... :)

[@47CarolAnne]

I just discovered your channel yesterday. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so impressed with the job you and everyone else did on your build. It makes such a difference when you're able to work on it as opposed to just having someone else do all the work! Great job!!!

[@CRASS2047]

What an amazing lesson that is. For not only you, but your viewers. Beautiful story telling as usual. And Rio…..such a cutie!

[@melsmith5833]

I am also finding that the emotions don't have to run my life, I am actually in control, even when it's overwhelming and the panic is rising. This makes me feel empowered as I am making decisions instead of just dealing with what occurs. Love the team spirit on this episode !

[@REGRETLYSS]

This comment means everything to me. ❤ so glad you’re here Mel. Thank you for watching

[@melsmith5833]

@@REGRETLYSS I appreciate your realness, it will be a help too many people out here. 🕊

[@jerseydotcom7370]

Like our Pastor said at church last spring - "when the going gets tough, the tough get Thankful!" We don't have to let emotions and feelings control, especially when it isn't in the best interest for ourselves and others... ⚘

[@vcantumenil]

Wow wow wow what an amazing experience! I am just so impressed with you and your ability to be vulnerable and share both the highs and lows, and those learning moments with us. What an incredible experience it looks like you had. At the end not gonna lie you had me teary eyed as well as you’re rolling away from the team. Thank you for posting about your reality tv experience. Can’t wait to catch it on tv!

[@cliftonvanrheenen6794]

Yes she is great

[@alexpeshlakai499]

Wow! I'm amaz about how creator put each of us together with love your journey is amazing with the gift of love that you have.... keep up your sacred journey... many blessings...

[@jerseydotcom7370]

Thank you for sharing. You did a great behind-the-scenes look most do not get to see. Travel Safe!

[@lawrencestark8983]

Congrats on over coming your anxiety and finishing what you started with your friends. Y'all done a fantastic job on that bus. Great job and awesome video. Back safe

[@MG-om9qd]

Very emotional. Thanks a lot for sharing. ❤

[@bobburkett2910]

Congratulations. I was in an industry that had many time lines and deadlines. It was always stressful to make it on time but we all enjoyed when we did it on time and completed the job. People always asked me why I did the job... it was easy the Team Work that made it happen..

[@sherristell4747]

I have been involved in several similar group volunteer build/construction projects. Nice to see you enjoying yours, really appreciate your sharing this experience.

[@Pantherking916]

There are episodes in life when our darkest moments are actually our brightest times. Your truth is your reality. Your realness is your truth. You are an inspiration. You are a beautiful soul. You are a special person. Thank you for being you & sharing you with us.

[@dionoliveira4058]

You are such a honey and have a wonderful group of friends, clearly Ben and Charlie are your angels...... Thank you for sharing this journey and for keeping your heart on ya sleeve. Bless you beautiful soul

[@karlr.7342]

I felt like when you were talking about protection, that some maybe in the past or present were trying to force or condemn your choice of how you choose to protecting you... you do what you feel you need to do.. don't ever feel guilty about the way you decide to protect yourself. enjoy, thanks for sharing your journey. ❤️

[@LaurieStreiling]

Love watching your videos. So nice that you can sit down and share yourself. Love to see more.❤

[@Duchessjo44]

This is so cool! You have the best team (IMHO) Kels and Jay?!! Love them. ❤️ love all you guys. Thank you for this!

[@cq7415]

Alyssa……such a touching video of truly wonderful people. I love your team but I love the part where you also said your competitors were sweet too. Charlie is such a neat guy! Best of luck to him as well as all your team. I would bet it would be very hard to leave all those wonderful people not being able to see them again for many months or years, even though they will always be there for you. And I have to say again, you Alyssa are a truly a wonderful person. You have such a pure, honest heart and have so much love in you that needs to be shared with just the right partner. Thanks for sharing.

[@robertsvf]

What a nice story. Comparing can often be a drag on self-assessment. Be as you are. You have a healthy attitude. Keep it up!

[@kevinwheat390]

Chasing your dreams is the most important part of life. Keep doing it. Most people wait until they are retired yo do it. Congratulations on our courage Chasing your dreams.

[@gianinni2002]

Congrats, you are on the ground floor of a huge thing happening across the country. The nomads in vans and buses are really multiplying fast out there, and you make a wonderful spokesperson. Love following your adventures.

[@douglassloan6831]

The ability to conquer a panic attack is one of the hardest, bravest things we who live with anxiety face. That was no small feat and you should be proud of yourself for picking yourself up and staring it down and controlling it, instead of it controlling you. Well done, you!

[@jimross7648]

Regretlyss can still tell an engaging story about an event that she can't talk about. She bares her soul and decries her weakness. We viewers just see the strength that she has always displayed. Her team and friends celebrate her channels accomplishments, and Lyss still doesn't internalize how special and unique she is. Next Sunday's video is already too far away.

[@pamelahawkins6361]

What a value in life all of these friends places and experience of new adventures. This is something that is shaping you into the future. Most definitely memories to last a lifetime!

[@tomkallis1177]

71 you 0ld man again saying thanks for helping me to remember how to smile again. You are. Making a difference in so many lives . Stay safe, we all love you thanks

[@getfreethenrv815]

I deeply appreciate your awareness and you're ability to articulate your struggles and solutions/growth. Thanks for sharing. This, I feel, is what life is about.

[@gunner915]

I was at the Gutted event. It seemed like the bus team were the friendliest of all teams. Everyone was working their butts off and getting along getting along, except for the little drama with one team. You rocked it.

[@joannbarthold3032]

You write and process a story so incredibly well!

[@Sgt_MoDog_USMC]

Girl you impress the shit out of me more and more with every video of yours that I watch!!!!! Awesome job.... again!!!!! :)

[@darangemaster1]

im happy to see that you stepped up and overcame your fears every time you do you will get stronger onward and upward the reality is that you killed on the tile job and decorating is what showcases the hard work put into the build it would not surprise me if your team won

[@derekdal5185]

you are a very strong person... anybody should be glad to have you in their circle. I also understand your feeling at home in CO

[@kevinpetschow2146]

A 100K surprise party or bust on a bus is awesome. Thanks for sharing another heartfelt story. Keep it up. #ontheroadagain 🐕🙌 🚌

[@moonsbg]

thank you so much for sharing your story. your journey and your personal - I would almost say spiritual - progress is amazing it's fun, interesting and joyful to follow you 😊

[@margoburns9085]

You are lucky...and talented...and capable...and of course awesome! Great video!

[@breannaodell6321]

This thumbnail though!!! JOB WELL DONE! Proud of you girl, This build and the team!

[@NoTime-ToSleep]

Can't wait to see Gutted Season 2... I loved the first season (watched because I follow Stephi Lee but ended up seeing a couple of other YT'ers on there I recognized). Sounds like Season 2 is another star-studded event. Happy to hear you were a part of it!

[@susiestokely3528]

I am so glad you were able to share this wonderful adventure with your awesome community; you and Rio needed to be with the ppl you love and respect who so love and respect you!

[@curtisbegay493]

Hi there I like watching your videos and I'm behind you all the way on what you wanna..I'm so proud of what you're doing..God Bless 🙏🙋🌹❤️✌️✌️

[@MVictorDelgado]

I am a new subscriber. It’s only been a week and I have to admit that I can’t stop watching. You are truly amazing, and you inspire me. Thank you ❤

[@pamelarw58]

Lyss you are a strong person, keep telling yourself that! Panic attacks can be crippling but accept support as we all need it at stages in our lives. Your team were so incredible, can not wait until the results! Kels is a funny natural person, must have been fun to shop together apart from building Bus. 💜💙☺Love from Australia 🇦🇺🍻

[@FindingtheCenter]

Best video ever! Thanks so much for sharing this, we all deal insecurities, your ability to recognize and turn the moment into a life changing moment to benefit others is a testament to your growth and strength as a person.

[@tonykeane7524]

I am so honoured and grateful to be able to see your journey into van life I am in the process of saving for a van and then start to do the build inside on my own 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🤣🙃 I'm so exsited I have always travelled with a tent. I also wanted to take this opportunity to thank you Alissa as I to am on a similar type of self love and self discovery journey to find me as I'm so lost in this world and I need to find me the lost child! Keep going you should be extremely proud of yourself and how much and how far you have come God bless 🙏

[@kimyoungblood6711]

Just wow! What an amazing job you all did. Your a very special person with amazing friends.

[@williammullensarge]

It is totally awesome how you guys came together and pulled it off. And young lady I too have panic attacks along with my PTSD. You did an awesome job handling the situation, you recognize the trigger point which is huge. By the way is Chuck as cool as he seems? The future is bright for all of you and I hope to see you on the road as I am currently looking for a vehicle to start my own journey. Amazing! Amazing! Amazing! I cannot wait for the show to air.

[@robertmelter1286]

Great growth experience, stay strong you go this!

[@jimlenhart690]

No failure Lyss! The ones you try you're gonna win some and loose some. The ones you don't try you loose them all! If you're being dragged along & there's no joy, move on!

[@thom7440]

Your poor dog. At the end of day one she was sooo glassy-eyed and zombie-esque, but being a real trooper and trying so hard to stay awake w everyone else. She's pretty special

[@TheBellvueRanch]

Such a great video!! You never cease to amaze me. I look forward to seeing the series. To me, it doesn't matter who won. You taking us along on the adventure and seeing how awesome your team was and you having a moment when you realized, its the team. That was enough for me! Such an awesome group of people! YOU ALL ROCK! THANK YOU!

[@merlynnkoehn3971]

Alyssa, as I've watched you over time, I've been amazed at your strength of character as you've dealt with the good times and the difficult circumstances you've faced. Thanks for rising above your insecurities and learning that it isn't about us, but others and how we can contribute to the happiness of all. The show of emotion is not a sign of weakness, but tells me that you have a great heart ❤️ God bless you and keep you in the future. I'm confident that you will continue to rise to the challenge. Much love to you my friend 💞🙏

[@darcyks]

I’m exhausted just watching all the hard work & long hours you guys put in! The bus looks great, can’t wait to see it in it’s full glory❣️ What a cool experience for you with some amazing people. Be well & safe travels!! 🚎❤️

[@tinablair6262]

I kinda figured they would build it just like hers.

[@deastover898]

Girl you rock and are an inspiration to so many! Your insight and reactions are paramount to growth. And you have that in spades. I pray to find a rare gem as a friend like you someday. I cannot wait to see this and thank you for sharing the behind the scenes. In my book you guys won!!!❣️💝❤️

[@michelebartleson7971]

I'm so proud of you. I've been following you since you went off on your own and started the channel. You inspire me. In many different ways

[@TLJH53]

I just stumbled upon you Lyss and you are freaking incredible! I can not watch fast enough I'm jumping from one episode to the next then I have to go back and watch it all can't miss anything!😩 Fame! 🤩

[@shermanbegay9753]

Wow! That bus is from the Navajo reservation…my homeland. Locals refer to Dzilth-Na-O-Dith-Hle simply as just DZ. DZ is in northwestern New Mexico and Dzilth-Na-O-Dith-Hle means overlapping mountains in Navajo.

[@kc3989-l1j]

I dont see you failing at anything. I mean you could be the first vanlifer influencer to get on Dancing with the Stars. I can totally see that. 🤩❤💃💃

[@ChasingDifferentAdventures]

Agreed

[@mikercflyer7383]

That would be a great thing to happen.

[@FreedomRock44]

My gosh.......You have to get a still Photo of RIO in that hat in the beginning......It is GREAT!!!!!

[@HiltonT69]

HUUUUUGE moment, beautifully handled!

[@squigtonianmayhem4602]

I know I have just gotten on the bus, but, I'm down for what ever is coming. You surround yourself with good folk. Only good can come from that. Congrats on the 100K! I'm happy to be in that number!

[@randyjanssen5538]

What an incredible opportunity, had to be so much fun!! To get all of the builds done in a very short time ,amazing what people can do together! CONGRATULATIONS

[@DE-cz8ei]

You all did a great job!! Be happy for what you accomplished and bring on today!!!

[@geraldrodriguez1731]

You did awesome gorgeous. Can't wait to see the show. I'm sure y'all won. Y'all rock. 👊

[@jonc8179]

Amazing. Such a good video from such a great person! Thanks for bringing us along!! Personally, I'm really proud of you! BTW...you're good enough to be anywhere you want to be!! You are such a treasure to us your internet family!

[@paulutd69]

Looked like you did fine... Must've been fun just being there. Proud of all that showed up. Hope this Gutted series inspires others and gets this community more mainstream recognition.

[@vsavage_old_rockerz]

another nice video. glad you are enjoying your life. always nice to see your smile. peace

[@Lori.G219]

Awesome video and can't wait for the show to air! Such a supportive group ❤️. And Rio with the cap on! Such a poser!🥰❣️Congrats on 110K!!🎉🎉

[@chandanchakma1849]

I can't take my eyes off you anymore. You are just amazing... I wish i could explore with you.

[@TheStarPriestessTarot]

Thank you for sharing Your Light 👏🏻😇

[@michaelpayne1737]

Love the green tiles.That was a crazy,cool contest. Need a longer bus though

[@johnsauer9067]

Fun episode this week! Looks like a whole lot of great memories from the experience. Good for you!

[@veronicagreene2312]

Soooo heart warming I loved every minute of your video stay safe beautiful young lady and of course Rio Take care cant wait for your next and stay positive cause you are a very strong young lady and dont ever forget it doesnt hurt to cry keeps you strong God Bless

[@gentile-for-Jesus_Messiah]

Oh my delicate, sweet, tenderhearted friend,,, humility has a funny way with our emotions sometimes,,, your self honesty is what will get you through any objective, in the way of your solo(Rio) freedom... You've done amazing,,, kudos Alyss💗💖💞...

[@richardwallace1405]

srry, alyssia. i feel for ya. ive been suffering with anxiety and panic attacks my whole life. the first one i remember i was in third grade walking home from school. then comes the guilt and shame, then the voices in my head. Needless to say fifty years later, my life is fucked. i wish you the best.

[@Joseph-jt7cz]

What an awesome video. Literally stumbled upon your channel! Awesome videos!

[@richardhanley3411]

sometimes it's our weakest moments when we find our greatest strengths.

[@henryhill3778]

OOOHHHHhhhh I KKKKKKKkkkkkNNNNNnnnnnOOOoooooowwww....

[@fernandosandoval9306]

That's amazing!

[@noxtwilight_]

Always inspiring. Thank you 🤙

[@peaceandquiet7137]

wow. this was very exciting stuff! so glad you were able to participate, and learn some things along the way. you did great!

[@patc2515]

it's those rare moments of introspective clarity where we overcome something limiting and defeating to our souls where we experience the growth we're all trying to achieve. that is profound and worth savoring. what kills me is how insulting it was to have watched this video only to not be told who the winner was. super frustrating

[@REGRETLYSS]

Ugh I know Pat!! It kills Me that I’m legally not allowed to tell you until the show airs :( I’m sorry for your frustration.

[@charlesgrube2535]

I feel the same way too. I struggle with it my whole life but what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger and moving forward. I’m happy for you. Keep doing you.🍻🖖💪🤟🥰🤘🤗👋👍😍❤️😘💕

[@Victor.McCann]

Love you too girl keep taking us to see new place thank you for doing it for us

[@Victor.McCann]

I hope the winning is real and not a scam If this is really you girl please say yes

[@olivernash2240]

Way to go!!! You got this!!!🎉👍👍👍👏👏👏🤗

[@quinjesuis9187]

It totally looked like a very special beautiful 5 day, life elevating experience, moment in time, awesome job to everyone. A fan

[@CrysJenkins]

Aww you got me so emotional over here 😭I love you guys!! Looking forward to continuing to watch you all thrive ❤

[@toddwesley4352]

5 days , That's so incredible . Great Job Team . It was Amazing 🙂

[@Anja-LeonaLouise]

You are amaizing and so are all your friends ❤️ dont ever be insecure its not needed , life is a valey (god my English 😀) with its hights and lows we all walk true . Some days are good some are bad . U perfect the way u are , alow yourself to see it , make mistakes or not 🫂 Loved watching the team 😀 thanks for sharing 👏

[@colleenbalch328]

Alyssa, YOU ARE enough, you are perfect just the way you are. So sorry to miss the LIVE, hope you had a blast in the chat!

[@erichinkle5299]

It's nice when you find your people. I'm such a loner I don't have people. I had a group but they were the wrong group. I'd rather be alone than to go back through that again.

[@lordzeus1027]

congratulations for the work.👍💯

[@waynepeterson1061]

I am so happy you were able to participate in this build competition. It had to run the gammet of emotions for you: excitement, camaraderie, anxiety, the growth in the knowledge of teamwork, even if instances of self-doubt, and the realization that hanging in there, ends up building ones self-confidence, and the realization that these people mean so much to you, and also you to them, it's just such a positive experience and one to be treasured.

[@RhondaLeeAcoustically]

I was totally moved by the vast amount of love in this video! It was palpable. So proud of you all for the incredibly beautiful build you all pulled off!

[@kirkplane]

So proud of you to be able to recognize your insecurity and to get above it by getting out of your head and embrace the task at hand. You now have a technique to analyze and then decide the correct actions. The voices in our heads are truth or lies and you get to decide - and then some things you don't even need to think about because it is not important. Great pre=show video.

[@marlinmr7]

"Give the world the best you can and the best will come back to you" comes to mind Lyss. The whole thing from start to finish looks like it was a lot of work, sweat, & some tears but all worth it for both the short term for the show as well as for the long term - the relationships gained. 🙂 Looking forward to when somewhere -somehow can watch the show/episodes. Take Care; Stay well and stay safe......

[@kennycrowder1146]

Alyssa your journey in life is amazing your friends are the best it makes me appreciate the friends i had in life even more now there gone be safe and love to you and your friends and Rio 🌹💞

[@Krysb107]

So excited to watch the show and see the final results. Awesome group of people 🥰

[@kylekislingbury36]

Can’t wait! U look so good