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@hisgirl0411097 жыл бұрын
My birthday is Saturday and Our Numbered Days is one of the only things I want. Hope Neil makes more books too. Love his work.
@ButtonPoetry7 жыл бұрын
Stay tuned for news on that :)
@hisgirl0411097 жыл бұрын
Button Poetry ordered a copy. so excited.
@breckenalejandro30283 жыл бұрын
I know im asking randomly but does anyone know of a trick to log back into an Instagram account? I stupidly forgot the login password. I would love any assistance you can offer me!
@jeremiahmisael87233 жыл бұрын
@Brecken Alejandro instablaster =)
@rakshakannan9937 жыл бұрын
"Love how you hate yourself...because at least there is still something to hate." My eyes are leaking.
@MK-nw8yk7 жыл бұрын
Raksha Kannan thats my favourite line. but to be honest this whole poem makes me weep
@toshsharma53197 жыл бұрын
This is not to say you aren't special This is to say, thank god you aren't There lies so much depth in those sentences
@Emethegem7 жыл бұрын
Tosh Sharma and it means so much. I've found my identity in being different, being unlike everyone else in any way possible. So when I was diagnosed with depression, like every other teenager on the planet my age, and I wanted to kill myself, just like everyone else, I found no comfort in the words "you are not alone" because I was alone, and in some ways I liked it, I was unpredictable. This line hit me so hard..
@Emethegem7 жыл бұрын
I hope someone else relates to this
@fatinsakinah60337 жыл бұрын
Tosh Sharma
@Icareaboutyourapple7 жыл бұрын
"Isolation isn't safety its death If no one knows you're alive, you aren't." "Other people are the life to which you provide the meaning"
@missjaxsyn2 жыл бұрын
The exact lines that hit me
@cdusdrei8567 жыл бұрын
Hilborn, thank you for speaking for us: the broken, the lost, the isolated, the dying, and the surviving.
@nikascheepers15537 жыл бұрын
Marshall Frost Fuck, I hate how perfectly you summed that (us) up
@cdusdrei8567 жыл бұрын
Nika Scheepers I love the way you appreciated it :)
@rosaboer397 жыл бұрын
this comment itself alone is art, wow 💕
@Nillowo7 жыл бұрын
Marshall Frost agreed
@karmabelieverI4 жыл бұрын
This hits me even harder.😶
@vellaJuliana7 жыл бұрын
"This Is Not the End of the World” (transcript) I’ve been hearing that the world is ending I’ve heard it so much this days that I can either completely ignore it or never leave my house again that is if I actually left my house for things that don't directly enable me to keep my house see I’ve been thinking about driving nowhere I’ve been thinking about becoming a box inside a locked room inside a dark house at the dark end of the street I want to go away until I'm gone it take so much less energy to not exist than it does to exist and get burned I’ve been burned so much I am not me anymore I’m a stupid poppet version of me I got strings that lead to nowhere nothing is pulling on me I wish someone would drag my hand out of hiding and sign my name on the dotted line there are days when I can’t find the sun even though it’s right outside my window when getting out of bed feels like the key in the doomsdays machine so on those days this is what I tell myself whatever you are feeling right now there’s a mathematical certainty that someone else is feeling that exact thing this is not to say you aren't special this is to say thank God you aren't special I too have kissed no one good night I’ve launched myself from tall places and hoped no one would catch me I’ve ended relationships because suddenly I was also exposed but isolation is not safety It’s death If no one knows you are alive you aren't if a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it it does make a sound but then that sound is gone I am not saying you’ll find the meaning of life in other people I’m saying other people are the life to which you provide the meaning see (we are) wrong when we say I think therefore I am the more we say it the more it sounds like I think therefore I will be you can’t think your way into a full table you can’t think and makes walls and a roof appear around you I have thought and thought myself in a corners made of words and nightmares and what has it gotten me but more thoughts a currency that only buys more currency so please if you wanna continue existing do something learn to make clouds using only your breath build a house even if every wall leans to the left love it anyway just like a season just like a child love how you hate yourself sometimes because at least there’s still something to hate I know how easy it can be to think and keep thinking until you are the last person left on Earth until the entire world becomes no larger than the space between your bed and the light switch but I hear the world’s ending soon when we go and we’re all gonna go I will be part of it -Neil Hilborn Holy cow! Thanks for the likes guys!!
@regentanz73647 жыл бұрын
Juliana Ramos thank you :)
@linny30127 жыл бұрын
Juliana Ramos Thank you'
@marilainefourie9197 жыл бұрын
"If you want to continue existing, do something."
@bqwadseertg7 жыл бұрын
"I have thought and thought myself into corners made of words and nightmares and what has it gotten me but MORE thughts." ~I don't think I've ever related to a line in a poem as much as I do to this one.
@mayaa88217 жыл бұрын
The three people who disliked were crying so hard they thought the thumbs down was a thumbs up
@bob.ross3304 жыл бұрын
Maya A Thanks for reminding me to double check
@karmabelieverI4 жыл бұрын
I checked again...I guess I hit the thumb's up.🌼
@krazedshade18348 ай бұрын
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I can relate
@magdalenatuowiecka31867 жыл бұрын
"i'm not saying you find the meaning of life in other people. i'm saying other people are the life to which you provide the meaning" wow, this is something i need to remind myself everyday.
@nadasabry89024 жыл бұрын
Who else has this poem on his mind during covid 19 and self isolation thing? :(
@olivealexander58854 жыл бұрын
been the mood lately
@sirgeo14924 жыл бұрын
Been feeling this a lot lately:( stay strong though💙 we’ll get through this
@amberkennedy54483 жыл бұрын
Beautiful poem. I always listen to Neil when I'm in a bad place. If he ever reads this comment, I want him to know how much he's helped me. Thank you!
@Nounaoffline7 жыл бұрын
"I've been burned so much I'm not me anymore" THISSSS
@atronovum32127 жыл бұрын
damn yeah
@4amcuriosity1625 жыл бұрын
Thats how the Phoenix rises.
@darksun88146 жыл бұрын
“I wanna go away until I’m gone” This just hits me because sometimes I want to not exist. I don’t want to die, more like I wish I had never been even a concept, just never existed
@autumgrames40667 ай бұрын
I revisit this poem time and time again whenever life is at its ugliest. To remind myself I'm still lucky to be a part of it.
@sarapaolella96947 жыл бұрын
This is one of my favourite poems of Neil's book but listening to it instead of reading it is a completely different experience, it has made me shiver
@brandyngraves80297 жыл бұрын
Sara Paolella He has such a powerful voice.
@nika39207 жыл бұрын
NEIL YOURE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE
@kaylajude24537 жыл бұрын
Domi Mróz I LOVE Y O U
@Jayman28007 жыл бұрын
HE'S SO CUTE
@maddyk80227 жыл бұрын
This is actually my favorite poem of all time. There's an old video of it somewhere and it's in his book as "here and away" and I love the piece more than anything. In fact, I've been considering getting a tattoo based on it because of the profound impact this piece has had on my life. Thank you, Neil, for creating this.
@eminek85267 жыл бұрын
Madlyn Kates what's his book called?
@cauldronclique69297 жыл бұрын
tylerrjoseph His book is Our Numbered Days :)
@fluffypuppy07 жыл бұрын
Madlyn Kates same same same same
@CharlieArchelli7 жыл бұрын
Ahh I've been thinking about getting a tattoo from it too. I think I'm going to get a house with the walls leaning to the left
@marknutt78417 жыл бұрын
Alice B. Chamberlain I
@SmolHuman1 Жыл бұрын
“Whatever you’re feeling right now, there is a mathematical certainty that someone else is feeling that exact thing, this is not to say you aren’t special, this is to say thank god you aren’t special”💜
@rosaboer397 жыл бұрын
Honestly, I'm always coming back to his poems. When I'm bored, when I'm sad, or at night when I'm lonely, like I am now. I always find a way back to his poetry because I guess it's calming to know that you're not alone. He has such an amazing way of capturing feelings and explaining them onto paper. And after every poem I listen to, or read, I think: "this is my favourite one yet". But then I'll find another one and I will love it as much as the first. That continues to do so until I'm calm enough to sleep. So yes, I don't have a favourite poem of you, Neil. But I'm sure that I've found my favourite poet. Thank you for creating such beautiful art, and sharing it with the world (who clearly needs it).
@monpathomp7 жыл бұрын
You always speak truth. Sometimes it is truth I already know, sometimes it is truth I do not know. It is always truth that I need at that moment. Thank you, Neil Hilborn for sharing your truth.
@justaboveaverage80407 жыл бұрын
Neil puts so much power in his poems, for some it gives that cliche "spoken word poem" sound, but Neil just comes off as genuine every time. Great guy to listen to.
@ophylias21077 жыл бұрын
I really needed this right now. I isolate myself cause I'm a downer right now, and I don't want to hurt my friends further. Despite them telling me they want to see me, my anxiety convinces me that they're lying and that truly, no one wants to be around me. But... I shouldn't let fear stop me from existing. I'm gonna try. I swear.
@Sweet.peach217 жыл бұрын
"So please, if you want to continue existing, do something." Love this.
@_hiraeth_7 жыл бұрын
After being a shut in for three years I have finally been able to get a normal life back. I started to go to uni again, started to simply feel alive again. And this one means so much to me cause I can relate to every freaking sentence. And just knowing I wasn't alone in that Dark place makes me feel so much better, and it isn't because you know that someone else feels the same, but because you are kinda connected through pain. Thanks for this.
@kendallkieras16697 жыл бұрын
I love Neil Hilborn he always seems to say exactly what I'm thinking
@marilainefourie9197 жыл бұрын
Neil, your poetry has saved my life.
@Nounaoffline7 жыл бұрын
"Thank God you aren't special"
@samanthaproctor26657 жыл бұрын
I love Neil's poems, used a bunch of them in a poetry unit in English and the teacher even loved it❤❤❤❤
@ilyem9997 жыл бұрын
I think about the line "this isn't to say you're not special this is to say thank God your not special" a lot. not sure why it sticks in my head but god do I love all his stuff
@smw13005 жыл бұрын
My world has been the distance between my bed and the light switch for two weeks. I’ve watched this 5 times in a row now. I really needed to hear this tonight.
@quanzihe82477 жыл бұрын
Didn't believe i'd ever cry to a poem. But i just did. "If a tree falls in the forest and no one's around to hear it, it does make a sound, but then that sound is gone." This is so beautiful.
@SchmumpkinII7 жыл бұрын
His voice speaks with such strength and conviction. He gives a voice to those of us who, though we all have one, may have fear to use it, but may not know how. He makes me nod a lot during his poems and go..."THAT'S *ME*. HE GETS ME!"
@SeredipityFinch7 жыл бұрын
Every time I watch Neil perform, I cry. It's good to know empathy is not dead.
@eeveemakeralibi7 жыл бұрын
This is an older poem that he's done some editing on. It's interesting to watch how the poems grow and change.
@mayaa88216 жыл бұрын
"Love how you hate yourself sometimes, because at least there is still something to hate. I know how easy can be to think and keep thinking until you are the last person left on earth - until the entire world becomes no larger than the space between your bed and the light switch. But I hear the world is ending soon. When we go... and we're all gonna go... I will be part of it". It gets me every single time. This poem means a lot to me.
@uniquefreak373 жыл бұрын
For whatever its worth, this is one of the few things that has brought me comfort on the worst days. Thank you.
@jwanamari78283 жыл бұрын
my dear friend sent this to me on my bday. thanks to her, i learned how to love how i hate myself sometimes.
@randallvance12996 жыл бұрын
“A currency that can only buy MORE currency” One of my all time favorite lines in poetry, its so multiuseful
@ChelseaCameronMusic7 жыл бұрын
*snaps* quietly in my room, as I watch by myself with watery eyes.
@Lucas-ce5yc4 жыл бұрын
This hits so close to home for me. I have always been an over thinker and have thought way too much over the smallest things and worried myself into not doing anything, but I have to remind myself that thinking never accomplished anything. Yeah, it’s good to think things over, but you eventually have to do said things, or else everything you thought will be meaningless.
@vidhitiwari217 жыл бұрын
"There are days when I cant find the sun, even though it's right outside my window" :o
@_Quazar_2 жыл бұрын
I don't want to ever lose poets like Neil.
@hannahriley83837 жыл бұрын
God he is such a magical person. His poetry is so beautiful
@forkwarrior7 жыл бұрын
Why do all of the poems he recites touch me and make me want to cry? I mean happy cry. It feels good to know someone feels this way.
@nerlandjames6 жыл бұрын
I watch this at least 2-3x a day. Every word rings true. I love everything about this.
@katieblankenship6884 жыл бұрын
Every time I listen to this poem it’s a different line that helps me get through whatever I’m going through.
@maryhall6267 Жыл бұрын
This poem has been my safety net for so many years, I repeat specific lines in my head when I’m feeling “those exact things.” It has been one of the few things that make me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you for producing this, you help people feel understood.
@EpKEp6 жыл бұрын
" I'm not saying you'll find the meaning of life in other people... I'm saying other people are the life in which you provide the meaning " 👏👏👏that that hit me hard!!!
@katelynbranch2167 жыл бұрын
Neil's poetry is so perfect
@acediaethos44697 жыл бұрын
i've been watching his other performance of this since it came out and when i saw this i clicked it before i even knew i did this poem has been so important to me for so long i love neil's words and the look on his face when he performs
@weareallfritz43657 жыл бұрын
I'm not sure who I'm sending this to, but I'm sending it to someone
@roaatationhasgreatstuff75585 жыл бұрын
Gwyn Brady same . Too much risk
@chiranjitsamanta1611 ай бұрын
Came here again after 6yrs just to appreciate how well this is crafted and how it moulded my life, intertwined in it. ❤
@nadiaaiden32967 жыл бұрын
"If you want to continue existing, do something.. Learn to make clouds using only your breath, build a house even if every wall leans to the left, love it anyway. Just like a season, just like a child, love how you hate yourself sometimes, cause at least there is still something to hate!" Your words hit my heart, my head, my mind, my soul, my eyes are uncontrollably leaking.. The way your words touches me is unbelievable. Thank you so much Neil. Nadia
@danijomusic7 жыл бұрын
"Love how you hate yourself sometimes, because at least there's still something to hate" Fuck.
@lachlancampbell78384 жыл бұрын
This poem saves me every year. Thank you so much Neil
@_lostclub2 ай бұрын
'burned so much I'm not me anymore, I'm a stupid puppet version of me' is what gets me. trying and failing so much you don't care anymore and then just doing what everyone else expects of you to make them happy is so relatable.
@ButtonPoetry2 ай бұрын
That is one of my favorite parts of this poem as well. Really gets under my skin - both in the poem and when I find myself doing it in real life. Thanks for posting Lost Club!
@_lostclub2 ай бұрын
@@ButtonPoetry Thanks for uploading! I dunno what I'd do if I didn't have stuff like this to turn to in bad times.
@paballo35627 жыл бұрын
"If I actually left my house for things that don't directly enable me to keep my house " Neil's poems always speak to me
@anniewilliams65027 жыл бұрын
And, once again Neil Hilborn does, writes & delivers. Thank you, Neil!
@tiedyedowl83677 жыл бұрын
“If you want to continue existing, do something. Love how you have yourself because at least there’s something to hate.”
@Jon_Chhan7 жыл бұрын
i like how his brain forms his thought and how he expresses it in such a manner i cannot speak of!
@samevelyn4 жыл бұрын
This feels so relevant right now
@Ruby-Roo6 жыл бұрын
I heard this a couple of months ago and said to myself "I have to have this tattooed all over my body". Met Neil in Feb., and now I have "love it anyway" tattooed on me in his handwriting.
@f9gnjh4390gjer6 жыл бұрын
I love this poem so much. I keep coming back to it whenever shit gets tough.
@sararose77687 жыл бұрын
"I hear the world is ending soon when we go when we all go I will be apart of it" favorite line
@elizabethsmith64777 жыл бұрын
This has always been one of my favorites!
@carolalbuquerque9106 жыл бұрын
Neil, you probably aren't reading this, but if there's even a remote chance that you are, I'm gonna write it. You don't have idea how many times you've saved my life. This poem saved my life, and it's saving everything around me. Thank you for this, thank you for publishing it, thank you for the courage, thank you. Thanks to you I'm getting out of bed, I'm studying, I'm becoming. I still don't know where I'm heading, but I'm going somewhere and you have helped me a lot.
@martyvanderloop72607 жыл бұрын
Neil words always break me, always take every inch of me, then builds me back up into this hope of a heaven I never knew existed and then he breaks me back down, into a million pieces and let's me know that the hope and the love I have been search for has been there all along. fucking beautiful man.
@JUStCALLMEZIMM7 жыл бұрын
introvert poem. love this.
@crowsandrainbows7 жыл бұрын
he always makes me want to cry. beautiful. thank you.
@MK-nw8yk7 жыл бұрын
i listen to this almost every morning. reminds me to connect to people instead of shutting myself out of life again
@iamvernon456 жыл бұрын
@2:30 that last verse...till the last line. Amazing
@theEPICALbob7 жыл бұрын
I'm a simple kinda person, I see Neil hilborn I hit like
@sleepyzebra117 жыл бұрын
whenever I see a new Neil piece I think "ok, I know what I'm in for this time, I'm probably jaded and impervious to it now ". and then it sucks all the air out of me every time
@sage.anniex5 жыл бұрын
Every word, every sentence is profound. Beautiful
@cbramkumar7 жыл бұрын
Wow....passionate! Its takes so much effort to exist than to not exist any more! That is a torn expectation of a hurtful world, where we fail to love each other in a simple manner!
@adamloosle86287 жыл бұрын
this is why Neil Hilborn is my favorite slam poet. like freaking EVER!!!!
@paigeal-yamani7207 жыл бұрын
his poems always speak to me and bring me to tears...im so glad to have the pleasure of hearing and reading this man's work.
@psalm23sheep536 жыл бұрын
This poem is my favorite thing ever written.
@brandiwhitmore5 жыл бұрын
I always have and always will turn to this. Thank you.
@poppetanya7 жыл бұрын
neil... the poet who brung me to my love of poetry.. i cant wait to see him live when i can!
@jesusfreak82667 жыл бұрын
I've seriously watched this over 50 times and everytime it hits me hard
@hollytrethowen2887 жыл бұрын
This man, touches my heart, he speaks words i want to scream. every piece he's written is meaning full and real. he is the voice of some many.
@amitpatil87477 жыл бұрын
This is one of my favorite poems from your book!
@isabellevasquez74335 жыл бұрын
Me: I’m going to bed early so I’m not exhausted for work tomorrow. Me, at midnight sobbing to Neil again: I guess not
@amygillett73497 жыл бұрын
Neil is hands down my favourite poet
@xdark_galx4 жыл бұрын
This needs to be seen by billions. I love this. ♡ Beautiful Work. ♡
@pianoforte60487 жыл бұрын
I first saw this a month ago when I was relapsing. Now I listen to it when I go to sleep to calm down and when I can’t get out of bed
@adityaagarwal8137 жыл бұрын
Neil, just love the way you convey! A big fan of yours. Love from India!
@Xx1Lexxi1xX7 жыл бұрын
"I've ended relationships because suddenly I was also exposed" *snaps* I feel this so much
@julyrods7567 жыл бұрын
this is the poem I needed all along, I'm crying.
@ishaqa35697 жыл бұрын
God bless you man. Strong relatable men are important to any growing man and I appreciate your poems every day
@homicidehotelhelll7 жыл бұрын
Neil Hilborn will never stop amazing me with this writing, wow.
@feminist_politics7 жыл бұрын
Thanks for making my heart break and melting it back together
@agustinamagpie7 жыл бұрын
"Love how you hate yourself sometimes 'cause at least there's still something to hate". I closed my eyes tight and the tears began falling...
@maddie.bolland.77 жыл бұрын
This is so so good... there are so many tears.
@destinyheath65834 жыл бұрын
Literally listen to this so often. I love it so much.
@anthonymoyoproach69227 жыл бұрын
Neil is so gifted, I love the inspiration and passion he speaks with while sharing his poetry
@davidknickerbocker98057 жыл бұрын
Neil you're so inspirational. You have a profound impact on me and I'm sure millions others