Nothing changes if nothing changes

[@palsopanha3772]

" There's a lot of good people out there, It just some of them aren't good for you" woahh that's hit

[@Sam-4107]

exactly !!

[@Allencpa]

Finding good people is easy, but finding people who are good for you takes work. Embracing changes and picking the right people is part of our life for us to grow. Even if you change your videos, we will still appreciate and love it because we know that the real you will be on it and not someone who wants to be something she doesn’t want to do anymore. You’re not alone as well, Alex. Have a great week ahead🧸🌻

[@priyarai1191]

So does that means she won't film slice of life, productive vids anymore?? 😔

[@Lilo3080]

This is the first time I’ve seen you speak so openly. I haven’t watched all your videos, but from the ones I’ve seen, I always thought of you as soft. Now that you’ve shared this side of yourself, I can honestly say I love your personality. Keep it up! Don’t be afraid to be your authentic self.

[@meow-vb3xf]

I let go of a 10 years of one sided friendship, I'm almost over it , but I feel stronger and liberated, now i know how i want to be treated in relations in general , with respect , respect me ,respect my feelings, respect my interests ,etc.

[@omgso7]

🤍🤍

[@xnd19]

to be very honest and real rn, it's really great that you opened up and talked about your experience like this. i'm so proud of you for doing that, and growing as a person :). i wish and i hope you are able to keep growing like this, alex

[@Heartofionn]

Oh he is he is quite right

[@monia250]

When you talked about friendships and letting them go, I really felt that..I've litteraly been through the same situation. I totally agree with everything you've said because I also realized that some people are only here for us just for a while, we just need to let them go so we can move on and improve as a person..and there's nothing wrong with that. I hid my feelings because I've thought that it was no big deal or I just didn't wanted to confront with the problems in my relationship. After a loooong time I finally got myself together and let that person go. I relate so much to what you've said and thank you for speaking about it

[@khushichoudhary6088]

10:51 this section is the reason why you are so beautiful. The act of self-estimation, acknowledgement of change, respect and everything is part of your aesthetic too. I am glad I came across your channel Alex. ❤

[@alexbondoc]

☺️🤍I am sending so much love your way :)

[@niki_jungkook7]

Alex's videos are just my comfort place

[@taeya...5618]

Alex is older sister right?

[@Ereqa]

@@taeya...5618 yep

[@julitanotjulia]

oh my god, i'm crying so hard rn. Alex, you were always my inspiration and your videos are one of the few things that give me a lot of comfort. i feel really save here, like anywhere i think. i was watching you since i remeber that's why i am so emotional. girl, do what you want to do, we will support you 'cause you are an amazing person which deserve a whole world. i love you

[@stephphoo]

As a subscriber of yours for 4 years, and not missing a single video, this video means so much to me. Ngl your talk at the end makes me teary🫶🏻 you're always so real and down to earth, I always get inspired and motivated by you. Thank you for being you and we love you too!!💕

[@alexbondoc]

Thank you for your support, my love :)🤍

[@milliepede6715]

This phase resonates with me as of right now. It's such a struggle to work on ourselves for our own's sake without contemplating what other people might say.

[@angiemendez4260]

I love this part of you. Your content always makes me feel in peace, but you sharing this part of you makes me feel that I'm not the only one, I feel u as a friend♡

[@zzzaizai]

I recently cut out my best friend of 9 years out of my life. She was one of the closest people to me and that was by far one of the hardest decisions I had to make. She was talking badly about me behind my back for months now and I only recently found out about it and decided the best thing I could do for myself was cut her off. I was contemplating on whether or not that was a good idea because she was the only friend I had. After cutting her out of my life I would cry about it almost every day wondering if I made the right decision. Hearing you talk about your experience and how you had to do the same and cut certain people out of your life made me feel like I wasn't alone. Thank you for being so open it genuinely made me feel so much better about my situation and just realizing that certain people are just not good for you. :)

[@Gardenofanimi]

The moralistic value you carry is a lot like me personally. Hope you continue to stay in the light and spread kindness and positivity. Love you. 😘

[@natalier.6998]

Awh man I completely understand, I did literally the exact same thing this past summer! It was as simple as leaving a group chat, because they were all such surface level friends for the two years that I knew them that they didn’t even care very much or notice I was gone, even though they pretended like they did. Right after I left, I physically felt a weight lifted- my chest didn’t feel so heavy anymore. This past summer was the most productive summer I’ve had. I started a small business, selling boba tea! And made enough money to buy my first car. Letting go was so hard, as these people made me feel like I had a group of friends when I hadn’t before, but I never stopped to ask if I really liked them at all. Hope your new chapter is as exciting and freeing as mine was, Alex!

[@chumiichan]

its genuinely so refreshing to see someone with a huge platform to talk about this. as someone who tries her hardest to please people around me, i resonate with making friends with so much people just because i feel comfortable with the thought of never being alone. now that i've gotten older, i realized that most of the relationships i created are all shallow and not as deep as i yearn for it to be. i now have less than 10 friends but i don't feel as horrible as i thought i would when i was younger. i also noticed that the person i was now is very different from who i am currently, and maybe its because i decided to stop taking other people's pov into account and just stayed true to what i actually want to be :) i wish nothing but the best for you, genuinely. i've watched your videos so much, and i'm glad to see you unravel your authentic self to us. while watching this video, i thought to myself that you're the most humble and grounded person i know. thank you for existing, alex :)

[@justwatchingvideosLA]

Good for you Alex :) One of the best things about getting older is that you care less about what everyone else thinks, become more aware of what really matters, and it’s not that you suddenly become brave to be your real self, it’s more like you don’t feel like using your energy & time on other people who doesn’t really add value to your life (value can be love, laughter, goals, etc.). This allows more time & energy to spend on what YOU want or need. We understand 💕Looking forward to your new videos :) Your talks are inspirational & does make others feel like they’re not the only ones. Congrats!

[@Jan1ce010x]

Another reason why Alex is one of my fav youtubers, she talks about her joyful moments and about some that are not always happy and thats how life just is with up and downs

[@Swag1_697]

You don't know how this made me feel Alex...You are yourself a comfortable person...I really understand what are you trying to say thank you so much...Sending you so much love🤍

[@kiannedanielle]

11:43 i love you our Alex!! know that whatever you do in life, we’ll always support you 🤍 and i’m glad you find not only friendship with us, but also a little family of our own too!! sending much love!!! btw i love yapper Alex!! definitely loving this new style 😊🤍

[@Patthekitten]

to be pretty honest from my knowledge, I believe it's all part of growing up. We didn't know better when we were young but growing up, we could see clearly what exactly is wrong and we could do something about it. It's a meaningful lesson for a part of our lives. Learning and growing through that change and bettering ourselves in our own way is the only and the best way

[@asmajoe]

Wow! ❤️✨ This is incredible! Watching you grow on KZbin fills my heart with so much pride! You've finally found yourself, and I’m so happy for you! You’re no longer trying to be someone you’re not, you’ve embraced who you truly are - authentic and so real. It’s amazing! I admire your courage, your journey, and your decision to be true to yourself. You are truly yourself, and that’s the most beautiful thing there is. And listening to your philosophy, hearing the way you see the world - it’s so captivating and inspiring. It feels like your words speak directly to my soul, and every time I listen, I discover something new. 🎉🎉🎉

[@jood1412]

You are the only KZbinr that changes my mood for the better. Whenever I watch your videos I can feel your positive energy and it makes me feel better. Like how amazing your 10-minute videos makes me feel happy. And I really wish your videos were longer 🥹🥹

[@cloudffe]

Hi alex, I dont speak english but a try, im from México and ur videos are my safe zone, be yourself, its ur life and I so happy to see u in the future 💕

[@me_i__a1313]

Same

[@lingliing]

hey alex, thank you so much for talking to us in this video. ive never talked with others about how i truly felt and ive never had people that i felt comfortable with talking about my feelings to... so your talk near the end of this video really made me feel like i had someone by my side to comfort me. i didnt expect to cry , but i did.. i guess i just needed someone to to tell me this today. and although i hardly know you, listening to you in this video made me feel like i had an older sister or a friend that is there to make me feel less alone there is so much more i would like to add, and i didnt mean to make this comment about myself, but i wanted to let you know how much your words spoke to me today. thank you again so much alex, i really wish you and everyone happiness

[@alexbondoc]

Thank you for your words and thank you for letting this out :) I am sending so much love and support your way 🤍

[@AerisaNaeva]

Just want you to know that there are a lot of people out there that will love you as you are. I also like your videos very much and what's important is you're being authentic and real for yourself. Lot's of love!

[@syasyh]

Watching your video on December 1st felt like a beautiful start to the month. It filled me with joy and inspired me to embrace the endless possibilities ahead in my life. Thank you for sharing your light, Alex. Much love always!

[@alexbondoc]

Sending so much love :)

[@crzmil]

this is my first time watching your video, i'm tryna find a vlog that have a calm vibes, motivation, inspiring and then boom, I saw your video, I was curious to watch it and now I am inspired, the way you live and the way you talk to encourage your viewers etc.. thankyou for this Alex!🥰🤎

[@gracehanselsukiwa]

This video feels like a big warm hug to me and i really need it. I feel like i pretty much experience the things that you said, and after watching this video i really want to grow as a person like how you grow. I want to learn how to put myself first and like... yeahhh.. These weeks have been tough for me but i feel much much better now, so thank you Alex I love you so so so much aaaaaaaa❤❤❤

[@alexbondoc]

Sending so much love your way! :)

[@gracehanselsukiwa]

@alexbondoc aaaaa :((( thank you so much alex... much love to you tooo🥺🤍!

[@tulipcatss]

Thank you Alex for talking about this. This whole video was so comforting to me because I really feel the same way about the topics you talked about. I recently have been feeling really sad because of my friends who I thought were going to be there for me, but it turns out they aren’t and I’ve just been struggling to accept that we are growing apart. It hurts but I think it’s time to just accept it and let go. Time to go meet new friends 🥹❤️

[@keith8849]

Hello Alex I’ve been watching your vlogs for almost 3 years. and the message that you have said it is so real and important thing to do..

[@eymen_12]

You have your own style girl and this video is sooo healing. It just is like what I wanted. I really love this. This video is so relatable thanks for making me feel better :)

[@alexbondoc]

I am sending so much love :)

[@eymen_12]

@@alexbondoc ♥️🌷🌸

[@peanutbutter_15]

I think much & also am a super big people pleaser too. Your videos are truly satisfying, at some point I cried to your videos as it makes me realises the more simpler our life the more worry free we are. Thank you for everything Alex, you are truly a role model to me, xoxo ♡

[@alexbondoc]

I am sending so much love :)🤍🤍

[@peanutbutter_15]

@ hope you'll take extra good care too while always sending so many loves to all of us! 🌷☺️

[@uleyum]

I was lost and hesitant about doing something, but thanks to your words, I felt comfortable and courageous to do it. Thank you for having your valuable channel. 💕🍓

[@eclipsedq]

i started watching alex in my sophomore year of high school and now i'm in my first year of college. i would watch every single one of her videos, even rewatching some of them when i got too sad or needed some positive voice to be there. i became a more positive person as a whole just because of her videos. but at some point during senior year, i stopped watching them just because i was going through some things myself; i felt so negative i couldn't even bear to watch alex be happy anymore. this is her first video i've watched in months, and i wondered why i ever got off of her videos when i started crying from her talking at the camera. even though it's still a stretch, it felt like i really connected with her personally for the first time. alex always felt like this role model to me that i never imagined we could go through similar things. it's never that i thought of alex as this strict model of aesthetic positivity, but that i felt like i never knew her enough because she was that person on youtube. i wanted to be positive like her, but at some point it did hurt that i can't achieve a constant state of positivity like the her i see on media. this video felt really real to me, and it really got me thinking. don't get me wrong, alex, i absolutely love your usual videos - they were like a drug to me whenever i felt like i needed anything. they really pulled me through high school, and now this video is pulling me through again. i've changed since the last time i've watched your videos, but i feel like watching you again will bring back some old parts of me that i loved and incorporate them with the new parts of me that i'm still embracing. this was kind of like a brain dump, but i know i really like alex for whoever she is, and she'll always be my first and only role model.

[@reillanne]

this one felt like a reading a journal entry❤

[@serene.limited]

Well it's necessary and vital to set some standards in your life. I also let go of my 12 years of toxic friendship and it has been so many years after that incident. We were friends since 2 and letting it go was not easy but it was necessary. We have to take some serious decisions in the life to stay positive and happy. We know you are a strong human being. The thing is you will find a place where everyone will appreciate you and will make you happy and positive more than you think you deserve....❤❤Thanks for always being there for us. You and your videos not only makes us happy but also gives us motivation. Love you from the core of our hearts ❤❤

[@Purnii2wavyy.999]

omg yess I love this alex!!❤

[@7nariko]

the talks in this vlog is very precious 🥹 thank you for being our sister and giving us beautiful advices and sharing life experiences with us💞

[@alexbondoc]

☺️🤍🤍🤍

[@jjarchiveyuniberse6062]

I love alex because her yapping is so deep and yet you get completely focused on what she is saying. And when i feel i made a mistake and she talks about it, i always get reminded that we are all humans after all and we all have different views, history and opinions and that we have to accept and repect everyone.❤❤

[@Withloveeofa]

Oh, how I love your vibes, your videos, your positivity . Its okay sometimes letting the people go who make you feel that way is much better than staying with them it's for your happiness. You actually did well. I hope you heal from it. Sending lots of love, muah 🥺🫂💗

[@alexbondoc]

I am sending so much love back ☺️🤍🤍

[@naneunna75]

Thank you Alex for saying all these things. I can relate to them so much. Thank you for always be my comfort space❤ I love you❤

[@jmel-nw6pc]

i really really enjoyed this one. it felt like knowing you more deeply. knowing the realest version of you. and more than that, i resonate with some things you said. sometimes we need to let them go to stay in good terms with ourselves and that's okay. understanding that is a big step already. hope you're doing well 🩷 love ya

[@sukmadwianjani]

thank you, alex! i really love to watch your videos bcs i find it really comforting and i really love your vibes, the way you talked about anything is just sooooo calming. love you

[@sogladthatwemet]

whatever you do, I will always support you! I just want to let you know that your videos helped me a lot through my hard times, sending you love 💛

[@mochijams7793]

i completely agree and relate with you about how I wear my emotion on my face. There’s lots of time where people come up to me and ask me if I’m ok, are you mad or are you sad? and i wasn’t mad or sad. I was just fine and doing my own thing that i didn’t realize what kind of face or expression i was giving. I never notice that until i realize why so many people were asking me the same question on the same day. i know i can’t always give a smile everywhere i go but it’s tiring that only if i smile that means i’m happy or i’m doing fine. i understand why people would assume that i’m happy when i smile because i would often smile and be joyful. it was nice that you’re discussing these topics that i found myself being relatable to and how much never had a discussion about this to anyone. ❤

[@klaudkis]

Alex, thank you so much. I hope you continue growing with all these values and thank you for sharing them, hugs!

[@L.alqahtani0805]

WOOHOOO IM SO LUCKYYY just finished my classes what a gift frfr 🦋🦋 So much support to this new chapter of your KZbin channel I will be more than honored and grateful to tag along with you! Minute 4:50 really hit hard, I’m a recent high school graduate. I realized now, 3 months into uni, that I dont have friends or at least have any contact with anyone from high school. It was really hard because after I realized that I remembered my graduation day, I remembered how I wasn’t really with anyone it didn’t hurt me then but it did now. Although i’m a semi social person I dont have any friends I could reach out to, my phone was always dry, it hurt me really bad but I decided to not reach out anymore and just start anew, it will be hard and it is hard but I will thank myself in the future. An advice, you should do that too Lots of love!

[@rxiza_]

Im so happy, your videos are truly a motivation and a breath of fresh air. This video is going to 100% give me a push to prioritise myself . Recently, ive have issues with friendships and stuff- I really want to grow and be better to myself and im thankful you posted this video. 👏

[@elsi.moonbeary]

UNDER 1 HOUR GANG >>>>>> 🤍✰🤍✰🤍✰

[@vaishnavi_chauhan3429]

☝🏻

[@nnnhvn]

🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

[@toshijamir5540]

☝️🤓

[@Jam_Vargas]

Whenever I see Alex has a new upload, I immediately click on it!☺️ By the way, I've been a subscriber for a long time, even back during the pandemic. Your videos keep getting better and better over time! 🤭 (It's really tough being a people-pleaser; sometimes your kindness gets taken advantage of.)

[@marianeferreira6629]

I love you lots! I've been following you for about three years, I'm from Brazil, I identify a lot with the real you, I pray for you and I hope you live the best in this life, may God bless you and your family, I eagerly await the next chapters.💜💜💜

[@Рината-ч9з]

Alex, I know that feeling, too. I've probably been dependent on others' opinions about me all my life, I've always wanted to please them, make them happy, but I've completely forgotten about myself, about my feelings. It was especially evident with people close to me. I've always done what they want, behaved the way they want to see me. I seem to have ceased to exist as a person. It was painful, frightening to tell them about my feelings just because I was afraid to offend them. But did I deserve such a treatment? Is their life, their opinion about me more important than my happiness, my life? No, and not again. But I didn't understand it at the time. I continued to live by someone's rules, tried to fit into their concept of me. And in the end there was a completely different personality, I wasn't myself. And when my character, my behavior fit within their framework, it became little. They took up my appearance, told me what I should look like, how much to weigh. All this resulted in eating disorders. One word about my body could make me starve to please someone. One word could have gone into compulsive overeating because someone said I looked like a skeleton. It hurts me to remember this, but I wanted to show you what a desire to please everyone can do. Please be yourself, do not be afraid to express your opinion, your feelings. Put your goals, your dreams first, and no matter what others think.🫶 Thank you so much Alex! You are my biggest inspiration and motivation to keep going 💞💌(And please forgive my English, I'm not very good at it!)

[@lavei6724]

❤❤

[@0_day_co_lntl_]

After feeling horrible about myself yesterday, I just watched this video in the morning. The scene at 16:37 really made my day.

[@lyneyphilia]

Hi lex! I usually do not write comments in videos, but since I have watched ur videos since 2022, I need to tell you that it is so nice to see you growing up like that. I am a very people pleaser, and some of the thoughts you shared in this video were really helpful to me. xoxo :33

[@amanda-yf9dw]

this video made me feel like I’m not the only one who’ve been through this experience 😭I never knew I would ever relate to someone this much. Your advice helps me a lot. Thank you so much ily ❤️❤️

[@alexbondoc]

Sending so much love!! 🤍🤍🤍

[@JenisIslam-v6l]

Thank you so much. Its so relatable to me , really needed this and... a lot of love for you. Wish you that you'll lead a very HAPPY life. Again thanks.

[@nahdeenly]

Thank u for showing this side of u to us, Alex. So proud of u. We love u 💖

[@salonisharma1841]

Much needed deep talk ✨ lots of love from india alexx 💕

[@me_i__a1313]

I haven’t commented in a long time but I’ve been watching you since you were at 3k subs in 2020… I really really loved your content then and I’m so happy to hear you want to be your authentic self in these videos so I am excited what’s in store for your new videos in the future. I followed you because of how authentic and chill your content was. Hope you are well

[@o7zb_ar_]

I think I really needed this video, thank you so much Alex! We love you😽💞

[@yaniidunats]

i love you so much alex no words can explain how much i admire you. thank u for existing! may u continue doing what u really want and we will always be here for u. ;)

[@alexbondoc]

Sending so much love ^^

[@Sachikomarine]

been waiting since so many weeks and u uploaded, Alex is just the most realistic and comforting person to exist ,love u alexx❤❤

[@lovefromjenny]

Actually tho I was waiting for this change. Your videos are “aesthetic” and it’s really pretty and artsy but honestly I could really feel that it’s just a part of you. This change and opening up to us feels so raw and more of “you”. I really appreciate you for stepping into a new path and sharing your stories in the future with us. All the more reason to stay and watch your growth ❤

[@jeiiyein_]

Omg this video really touched me🥹 I’m also trying to embrace change and started to forgive myself for being such a people pleaser and i’m currently doing much better and healing now❤️‍🩹 Thank you ate Alex!💗

[@chyammyo]

Hello, I just wanna tell u that you did well and, as a fan and supporter I am proud of you Ate. Yk I relate to all the things you said there, especially about being a people pleaser and, I get that a lot that It's very hard to turn down people/to say no and find words that's not going to offend them. Realizing that, that was the thing that made us upset about ourself. But sometimes we just 'have to let go' of the words and people who brings us down and makes us feel bad about ourself. Im glad that u did it, it may took u so long and now you've never regret doing it ofcourse even tho it kinda hurts doing it. Don't be afraid of being urself always and always choose urself. Thank you for sharing your feelings here. Also even tho magbabago na content mo i will still stay bc ur always be my fav comfort, motivation, and inspiration in taking myself. I love you and keep being YOU.💗

[@ysves3_00]

alex’s words always touches my heart, we all appreciate alex being here with us. ❤ we love you so much alex

[@abiii2238]

embracing changes and growth with you ate alex!! looking forward to your videos where u can authentically express yourself without the need to fit in to the "aesthetic" ingat ka palagi :'>

[@holly7596]

I love your content Alex your a beautiful soul, I’ve been following your channel since day 1 and I’m so proud of you for learning to accept yourself and to embrace every emotional obstacle for what it is, and I’m also about to go through a huge change starting a new job in a new place where I don’t know anyone it’ll be scary but I know the change is for the better ❤️❤️❤️ Thankyou for everything you do love you Alex ❤️❤️❤️🤗

[@khadidjabouzid1396]

We need a podcast from you or videos like that Alex 😭💕 Take tack that seriously please 😭💗

[@computerok]

sending lots of love alex ♡ i recently have been learning i can't please everyone as well, i'm happy you are learning to take care of yourself too :) we are excited to watch you grow and we will stick with you no matter what ♡♡

[@duhnah]

thank you for your words, ate alex!! sending lots of love ~♡

[@k1ssushitee]

This was such a comforting video. It really helped me put my thoughts in an order. Thank you 💗

[@salmassbla]

I really like your videos from the previous years that I haven't seen yet, I'm always waiting for your latest videos and watch them when I'm eating. make videos as you like because I will always watch your videos... VERY THANK YOUUUU FOR MAKING VIDEOS ON KZbin, I LOVEEE YOUUU SOO MUCHHH ALEX 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@itssavannana]

you're forever be my inspiration, ilysm! keep posting, stay safe and love yourself 💖

[@ilarzigfatimazahraa6775]

Thank you for sharing this with us💕. It’s inspiring to see your growth and your desire to be more authentic in your videos. I love the joy and thoughtfulness you bring to your content, and I’m excited to see the new direction you’re taking. Your words mean a lot-they remind me that we’re all connected through our stories. Thank you for being here and for spreading so much love and positivity. Wishing you all the best on this new chapter Alex 💌💌

[@alwayskim4901]

i love this change! hope to see more of what you consider as your authentic self, alex. thank you for sharing with us 🩷

[@hanajang4930]

felt like you were trying to fit that aesthetic too (which isn't bad, there must of been a lot of pressure to do so). i been following for awhile- though loving ur videos I never really connected with you. subscribing because ur level of vulnerability hit home for me. think u and ur growth is amazing and hope your words that hit home to me will embody who i become in the future. thank you alex :)

[@cresialee2948]

ahhhh! alex, you always motivate me huhuhu. iloveyouuu!!!!

[@francine4417]

hello alex, i really love your videos!! thank you for being a comfort to me

[@khaylegarcia2347]

i love you, alex! thank you for living. ❤

[@biancakezz]

watching this for the nth time! love you alex!

[@alexbondoc]

So much love!! :)

[@biancakezz]

@@alexbondoc OMG THIS MADE MY DAY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! 🥹🤍

[@MeowLanddd]

It's better to be alone than to be with people who will make you question your worth. I hope that you will meet people who genuinely accept you for who you are. 💜

[@Nyispluie]

Thank you Alex !! I really needed this

[@UrviKalariyaa]

I think this is the best thing you will be doing for yourself and proud of you. Sending you love 🤍

[@shinmaxshin-gj5zk]

wow! the moment I saw that u uploaded a new video, I immediately click it to watch. Alex is literally my favorite youtuber, also munchi too! They are like my comfort youtubers, idk but there's something about them that I find peace by watching their vlog, I feel productive after watching their vlogs. I know that there are many youtubers that do vlogging the same content as theirs, but they are diffent for me. When I first watched Alex's vlogs, I never thought that she would be related to filipinos, coz i initially thought that she is japanese or korean, later by watching consistently to her vlog, I learned that she could be filipino or half filipino. And today, I am happy that you open up about this, because by now- as in very current, I am struggling with the relationship I had with my cof (circle of friends, met them when i was in 10th grade) and my old bestfriend from junior high (since we were in seventh grade) first, my relationship with my bestfriend (since seventh grade) she is pretty, as in very pretty but she is insecure that time. I find sisterhood in her; we have a lot of things in common, as in we vibe a lot. Then later, around when i stepped in 10 grade, we slowly loose our bonds, she kept ignoring my messages and there was a lot of times that she ignored me in her comment section under her post, there was a significant time where I commented to her post, then she ignored my comment, but she replied to the newest comment from her ''new'' friend. Trust me, there were a lot of times that she ignored me and made me feel shit. I feel so sorry that I kept pushing myself to our friendship, hoping that it will be fixed. The reason why i couldn't let go that fast to our friendship, because she will suddenly show signs that she still cares for our friendship, like there were times that i don't chat her anymore or I don't react to her post anymore, then she'll dm me that she misses me, and that she doesn't like her new friend or classmate because she doesn't feel belong to them, she is always like that. Recently, we talked, in chat ofc, and she said that she doesn't feel belong to her new circle of friends (her current friends now, in present) and there I realize, she will only dm me when she feel like she is left out, but she wouldn't even check on me if she is enjoying there company, from that, I didn't reply to her anymore, I even unfollw her instagram and I unfriend her in fb (she add me back but I didn't accept it) now, I am still thinking of ouw wasted relationship, but I kept reminding myself to never beg for their attention, and it wasn't my fault, I didn't do anything to do me like that. And i would like to add my little experience to my new circle of friend too. I and my new friends are in the same school, and we go home together, but last time (it happen again after that day) they went out together, without me. I was even waiting for them outside their classroom, only to realize that they left me, they didn't even bother to tell me in our group chat. Sometimes, I always wonder why i am so sensitive when it comes to my friends, whenever i am thinking of those, i realize how little those reasons are, but whenever i try to remember, and put myself back to that time, I only feel betrayal. I don't know, but im always hurting, that ig an indicator that it was not a small reason. (Sorry in advance if im not that good in english😘😘)

[@khadeejaehab]

Ok, new vlog and this is really great. We miss you, my angel. Don't be absent for long.

[@isaandhermind]

can't wait to see your new concept! ((not forcing u)) take your time bb :3

[@KrishnashreeChetia]

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us 🤍

[@louisem6248]

ilysm Alex

[@elmaar5480]

Awe, it has been awhile Ate Alex, we missed you. I loved that you are now vocal of your thoughts and feelings. And about my pre-final exams, I did my best (kinda?) but I'll wait for tomorrow, for the score results. 😬✨

[@Kittypearls]

I really love watching your videos, your videos are so comforting 💕

[@raksha4309]

hii Alex!! I'm sooo glad you included the talking section in your video🫶 there are a lot of things that I've realised about myself lately and sometimes there are things that I already know but I still need someone to talk about it so it's kind of like a reminder yk?? this video felt like that for me, I know i shouldn't care about what others think of me or want me to do and i usually don't even care but when there's just so much negativity around me that I'm not even able to ignore it, I need a reminder that it's okay and that everything will be fine, so thank you so much for the vlog

[@LaryssaSantos-i7x]

I really missed seeing a notification from Alexa, I'm from Brazil and your videos really motivate me to have a more productive routine.❤❤

[@edgeemaxxing]

the "i love u" at the end melted me 😊

[@jingzzxx]

i love you ate alex, your videos are really comforting and I really do appreciate it.

[@abcdefje7]

This is so comforting. Thank youu

[@Julia-so2mm]

Girl, I love you. Thank you for being.😢💖🥺

[@hayasma]

I truly truly love you alex, i will pray for you today🩶

[@jiminiemochiiii7190]

my comfort person thanks for making videos alex luv u