Nozibele Qamngana-Mayaba : On Forgiving yourself, living with intention & Purpose

On today’s episode Mpoomy Ledwaba sits down with Nozibele who openly shares on her journey of pain, forgiveness and self discovery.
Nozibele Qamngana Mayaba is a self published author, HIV activist, award winning KZbinr, podcaster and TV host.
Diagnosed with HIV in 2013; Nozibele faced her hardest decision of maintaining her “good girl” image while hiding her secret from her staunch Christian family and dealing with the rejection from her then partner.
Nozibele has made it her mission to hold open conversations about her journey living with HIV. Her KZbin channel was named as one of the Top 15 HIV KZbin channels on the web.

[@NozibeleQamngana]

Thank you so so much for all your kinds words dear friends. I’ve read every comment and I appreciate each and everyone of you. As I said, “konke kusebenzela ukulunga. All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” I will never want to deceive anyone and claim that the journey is easy. I’m still becoming. But God is still good! And He is faithful 🌺❤️

[@langelihlesibandankiwane1528]

thank you for sharing your story❤

[@SuzetteKhiba]

We love you sis, we appreciate you and thank you for being a voice for this generation 🥰🙏🏽

[@laniaquaccoo1214]

I needed to hear your story today…. God is so good!!!

[@jackiemphinyane2425]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Ms.am_]

I love you ❤

[@vunwemakwakwa984]

I’m 22 right now and I’m just thinking how lost and alone she must have felt. I wouldn’t have been able to do half of what she did. She is such a strong woman 🥺

[@dimairoleone3493]

she sure is heyy

[@hunadimakgatho3403]

I'm 28 right now and even at this age I still wouldn't cope. She truly is something special. The hand of God is protecting her

[@luyandamvubu1441]

​@@hunadimakgatho3403 yhoo

[@lighthut4052]

Hey

[@achatwithgoitse]

@@hunadimakgatho3403 It can definitely only be God. I was also still a baby at 28.

[@GodsTreasure]

"Accepting the apology I never received". I felt that🙌🏾

[@njabulozulu6027]

This channel is so great. Born with HIV and been living with it for the past 28 years. Aspiring to become a health advocate. Seeing this is gives me life

[@khlomane]

Mpoomy Ledwaba is Africa's Oprah Winfrey. You can not listen to her episodes and not be impacted.

[@hunadimakgatho3403]

I know a lot of us were craving this combo for so long. Sooo happy🎉🎉

[@Rain_Therapy]

Say that again ❤

[@Zimkhitha]

Right!!! I'm so happy!!!🙌🏽

[@ChatswithNene]

I know right!

[@anganazo85]

Definetely ❤️

[@nofanelosithole5752]

Wena say that again!!!!!!

[@thokozilenhlapo6503]

The pink and the purple shirts blended so perfectly together 😍 ... Beautiful video 👌🏼❤️

[@ayandawesi1221]

Thank you so much for this. Nozi is such a breath of fresh air, I love how she's so care-free with a young spirit, she is so motivational, her life story is so touching and also how she doesn't victimise but defines herself beyond her life story and how she takes accountability. I'm 22 and it's so breath-taking seeing beautiful youthful women breaking barriers and inviting more uncomfortable conversations. Mpoomy I pray God locates your helpers, your platform deserves to be bigger than this, may more opportunities flood your way . Thank you so much ladies❤.

[@andyzitho9625]

Nozi’s ability to be BARE and RAW is a gift to many of us. Also, might I add, God gifted her with the wisdom and ability to totally take a different perspective in understanding circumstances in her life. This is my favorite episode of all❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@boikgantshomohlala2698]

"Sometimes the need to serve and help other people can pull us out of something".❤

[@_Lolo00]

“ the first thing I needed to accept, was the apology I never received” & “apologising to myself “ #triggered. Thank you for such a teaching video❤

[@aobakwegaoshubelwe5014]

#triggered makes the both of us. I need to accept that apology that was never received. Powerful women to witness 🙌❣

[@_Lolo00]

@@aobakwegaoshubelwe5014 I cried hearing those words. I did not know how to move forward but her words brought a new light in me that I don’t mind following for my healing ❤️‍🩹

[@letticiacecilialibhongocol4947]

I felt this so much

[@tshedzarahulani9926]

I've heard Nozi's story so many times, yet I still get astonished everytime I hear it. What a beautiful testimony ❤️. I just love how God handles us with Grace, now her story is reaching multitudes all over the world... Thank you sisi for allowing God to work through you🥺❤️

[@achatwithgoitse]

Yeah it was different for me this time as well, and Ive been following her for the longest time.

[@nosiphomtshali5788]

"The need to serve and help other people can pull out of something" Yhoo that hit deep😭😰

[@letshegomancoe4481]

Nozi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't get tired of hearing Nozi speak. She's amazing

[@ziziphofrancis6070]

Oh Nozie I relate so much to your story cause I also fell pregnant when I was 22 on the first instant having been a faithful Christian all my life😭having to navigate life as a single Mom I had hard time forgiving myself and to date I am still battling forgiving the baby daddy as he continues not to support the child😢 These talks are so liberating may I find healing one day❤️🙏

[@Glorious263]

Wow exactly what happened to me. Exactly

[@siphokaziluzipho4197]

It happened to me as well. Church girl who fell pregnant at varsity. Dude bailed out. He is more bitter than me though, strangely.

[@ziziphofrancis6070]

@@siphokaziluzipho4197 Hi bbe, very strange hey may you find healing hun and may God be your portion ❤️💐🙏

[@siphokaziluzipho4197]

@ziziphofrancis6070 thank you so much love.

[@lulufierce01]

Oh Nozi...ive heard her story so many times but it never gets old....ever...her testimony is beautiful ❤

[@hlelolwenkosi751]

Nozi's story is a confirmation for me that All things really do work together for the good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose ❤️ I love you Nozi

[@sisandumo9864]

Nozi you were obedient in serving your family and God made you to escape the suicidal trap and today you are seated with queens , you are exalted👸

[@athimapapu4367]

Nozi's stories still touch me and make me realize ,everything that happens to us can also be for us.

[@preciousdokwana]

I couldn't help but notice how good you look together

[@akhonaqokolwana5201]

Ey Nozi " Accepting apology you never received" U STRONG

[@promisemunenyiwa9472]

Sho the blue earrings with the pink lipstick Nozi🥹❤️ absolutely stunning 🔥

[@kamogelomatsemele4549]

The beauty of vulnerability is that you get to regain your strength back. Pain and purpose🥺🙌, yeah God has his ways really ❤️!!

[@tumitoloane5998]

"We are human and we make mistakes" Got tears in my eyes as I'm listening to you. Thank you so much Mpoomy

[@lesegoyv]

Matching sisters 😍 Can we have more talks about this more often bafwethu, like even today majority girls are more worried about pregnancy than HIV then catch both 😔

[@thabilemofokeng420]

Nozi's story is moving. How one choice, just one moment can change one's life irreversibly. I am so proud and in awe of how she lives so unapologetically and purposefully. I love how happy she is and how much God has blessed her. I for one, can attest to how paralysing living with shame can be. To Nozi, you are a star sisi. Continue to shine.

[@khanyisilexulu8328]

This lady makes me cry a lot, because I'm struggling with something,sometime I feel God doesn't listen my conversation with him, it pain full

[@Rele_M]

SIS NOZIIIIIII!! ❤😩 I love this woman so much!! Thank you for having her!! 🥺

[@Senkoe_]

Next time she should bring Skhu❤

[@VivianKuvare11]

I clicked this notification in a heartbeat. My favorite KZbinrs together ❤️

[@ntokozocharmaine9526]

Yoooh🥺🙌🙌

[@Senkoe_]

Nami yazi ❤

[@DzunyB]

Me too, I've been waiting for this for the longest time. I wish to see Steph Ndlovu next

[@VivianKuvare11]

@@DzunyB that would actually be great.

[@Senkoe_]

@@DzunyB same😭😭😭

[@sips_mkutukana]

Nozi and I are the same on so many levels. The relationship between my mom and I is so tricky. I couldn’t even tell her I was pregnant. Someone else had to tell her. At 31 (almost 11 years later) I still wouldn’t be able to do it. 😩😩

[@keketsombhele9290]

I received great news yesterday. I should be happy but a lot is going on and I’ve been hurting the whole morning. I opened KZbin and this was the first video I came across. So I watched it. I was in bed, crying myself silly but after listening to this I got out of bed. Thank you Nozibele ❤️

[@aviwentseu1516]

I just shed a tear when you talking about mother and daughter relationship and I think as black or African people it is really difficult to have or creating that bond. Most of the times there are topics that we are running away from that we do not talk about and we really longing for. I just pray that we get to have a mother a daughter relationship.

[@nonhlanhlamlangeni1519]

I don't know anything else but God, mhmm

[@luyandandlovu8851]

Wow, it’s so wonderful how God is able to turn your pain into something monumental!! We are very greatful Nozi for sharing your story 🫶🏽

[@vuyokazinofotyo5115]

I will never get tired of listening to Nozi's story.

[@siwemz5102]

Listened to the whole podcast on Spotify but still here to watch

[@anathinkenku2411]

You me both 🤣🤣

[@rakgadim.mohlala1324]

I love this lady. Her story continues to save me❤ALL THINGS WORK FOR GOOD FOR THEY THAT LOVE THE LORD.

[@sebabatsomollo5229]

I needed to watch this podcast. I have just been feeling so worthless. I never thought that there could be a day where i have no hope in getting married cause I just feel like no one would accept me. Thank you Nozi , you story heals us and grants us hope that God can use our stories for good no matter their ugliness. 😇😇😇

[@lebohangrupondo6534]

It will eventually get better. You will get married. Never settle for less. Love and Light

[@Ubuhlebentombi_Beauty]

This is a manifestation that One day I will sit on this podcast and also share my story😊. Im leaving this comment here cause I know it will be easy for me to go back to this comment cause I will never forget that Mpoomy once invited Nozi. For now let me do the work. See you guys when Mrs Mom interviews me😊😅

[@kmags8065]

Waiting to here your story dear ❤

[@likamva_mtshofeni]

wow the way I am happy ngakhona to see Nozibele Qamngana-Mayaba in this podcast😍😍guys Nozi is such a beautiful soul and a blessing to many and I am inspired to see both of my lovely influencer together ,not them not knowing that i love them and their families a lot☺😭yhooo I am really excited and kind of emotional about the things that are being said here😭I love watching your channels guys

[@nonkanyisondlovu5069]

Thanks Mpoomy for bringing Nozi 🥺❤️

[@tlouabigailngoepe7599]

These conversations are so life giving. I love what Nozi says about the importance of admitting the roles that we play in our stories wether good or bad.

[@asiphejohnson6543]

Sis Nozi is such a breath of fresh air. I feel inspired by her words to work on myself and forgive all those who've wronged me for my own happiness.

[@seboleloseutloali178]

Did yall discuss outfits because you ladies look so beautiful 😍

[@makgotsoramuhulu7613]

It’s the first time hearing about your story Mrs Mom💔 may the good Lord continue to strengthen you ladies to heal others who are going through the same struggles ❤️🫂

[@RealTalkWithNthabi]

This feature made my 2022 Love you Queens

[@MpoomyLedwaba]

ahhh so glad to hear that. love you sis

[@adahsiluma5876]

Everytime when I listen to Nozi’s story from her vlogs/ interviews, I feel as though she is literally telling my story. Sis Nozi you’re one of the reasons I’m this strong. I like how you’ve accepted and willing to tell and help another life out there. God is the only way maker that we have. I love you and keep allowing God to use you ❤ As for the relationship with your mom😂 We’re in the same boat, I don’t have the same relationship with my mom. Yoh sana! It’s not that easy and I’ve accepted that I can never be that open to her but I don’t want to give my daughter the same type of relationship, I want my daughter to open up to me about almost everything, to be a friend to her even with little things.

[@tshimologonsibande9998]

I love how outfits go together, pink and purple shirt 😍

[@tadiwamatongo9972]

Thank you so much Mpoomy for inviting Nozi. She came with such a beautiful and amazing inspiring story. I wish many of us should learn not to discriminate but rather empower and set a comfort space for people who are facing a hard time to accept themselves. I've learned a lot. Thanks to young beautiful ladies for such good work you are implementing in our lives. May God continue to pour into you so that will learn more from you. So much love🇿🇼🇿🇼🇿🇼🇿🇼

[@dimakatsompofu4844]

Beautiful conversation 😍 Mpoomy not so sure about the “sick” word you keep using, not attacking but doesn’t sound ok.

[@vuyomtshali]

Right 💯!!! It doesn't sound right at all.

[@ChatswithNene]

Yoooooh I can’t wait to watch this. 2 young people who are being used by God to impact many lives. Hebethuna 🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥

[@Senkoe_]

Screeeeeaaaaaammmmm ….my two favorite people in one video 😭😭😭😭😭 uThixo uyeva imthandazo heee ❤❤❤❤❤

[@noleenleyland6238]

How do I get the full podcast? I was diagnosed in 2009, I was just 22... I just "moved on with life" but I see now, 13years later that I never forgave myself! This hit me... "God it was one mistake, how could you punish me so harshly"

[@mamellomphahlele6965]

Love love Nozi! Thanks for inviting her! 🙌🏾 💗

[@ncumisandungane8651]

What a conversation! How amazing of God to use you in this way Nozi, so many women/people shrink from such experiences. Your laughter, honesty and humility truly makes you, you. Shine on my lady

[@sinakomgudlwa5218]

Just can't get enough of Nozi's story. Please invite her again. 😭

[@kudamapfumo9316]

She has a you tube channel

[@Nayyknights]

Looove Nozi's voice bandla. This episode was nothing but amazing. She's so calm and a bright lady. Enjoyed it.

[@EverHopeful555]

Nozi! Your vulnerability is a gift that keeps on giving to so many of us…we thank you for being unapologetically you in all aspects of your life 🙏🏾💕

[@nompenduloshabangu4722]

Hearing Nozi's story is always such a reminder of God's grace, redemption and restoration. Just a kind note, I keep hearing Mpoomy talking about "being sick". It's not right to keep referring to it that way. They have an infection, yes. Sick is something else. I know we are all still learning language and don't mean to be insensitive. That, on its own, brings in a sort of unintended stigma. This wouldn't be our choice of words with people with other illnesses, and the same should apply for HIV. Thank you for lovely conversation ladies.

[@nocawenogqala8710]

Oh my God, I felt that "accepting the apology I never received" 😢😢 You are an amazing human being Nozi 🥰

[@saneliswamagagula9781]

This conversation is so real. Love Nozi❤️

[@evanaftali7943]

Beautiful story and podcast ❤❤🇳🇦🇳🇦🇳🇦. I could continue watching even if it was 2hrs 😢❤.

[@nomvulatshabalala591]

"My mom was so apologetic to Skhu because she thought ii had infected him"... Eyii, it took me straight to Fezi's mental state at that point😩 She was also carrying that "shame" with her daughter! 😢...your story has Power Nozi

[@nonsikelelomthethwa5594]

"Accepting the apology I never received". Yho😣

[@mihlaligwama1268]

Gosh I love this lady I just can’t stop listening to her story ❤

[@palesahoring2880]

Only 2 minutes into the video and the ladies are already dropping gems 🔥👌🏽

[@gracehlatshwayo2789]

I love Nozi so much, such a superwoman,an inspiration and so much more. The love and realness between her and her hubby is so pure and It just shows they were made for the people, they were made for us🌷💕💕💕

[@ayakhasalukazana6261]

Listened to the full podcast on Spotify then proceeded to come here and watch it like its the first time. Thank you, for your voices, your platforms, your stories!

[@heathermbambeni529]

Seeing uMpumi embracing her Grey hair likethat, it gives me confidence...I have 1 or 2

[@nonjabulodladla3803]

My two God fearing women🥰u both look amazing🔥

[@azasiphenolutshungu]

This is gonna be a great watch! Love it

[@pontshisom8573]

I didn’t want this to end, thoroughly enjoyed it

[@likamva_mtshofeni]

I love you sis Nozibele , you are such a inspiration to many and the way you are It`s like every time I listen to you It`s my first time knowing you❤❤I`m always learning from you

[@patiencemlinganiza2945]

Felt so much better after listening to your conversation. Life is full of so many things that break us but through all that,there is always a WAY of moving forward if only we forgive ourselves and accept the apologies we have never recieved... Powerful indeed.

[@avelamalambile1124]

even me i felt so much better

[@aphelelesibali6355]

I'm literally out of words. This conversation was deep. Thank You Nozibele for sharing your story and being vulnerable with us. You really inspire a lot of people to let go of the shame that is holding them back

[@anittanxusa]

Lord I pray and a claim to be at a point in life where if I did nothing for rest of year, it would be enough wow 🥹🙏🏾 I love that.

[@Mummygorgeous]

😭Can’t stop crying , it made me feel the pain l had wen l was 18 and pregnant ,

[@zinziswagumede1317]

Nozi is an amazing courageous woman. You both are phenomenal.

[@nandiphayona6578]

My two favourite KZbinrs. Love this ❤️❤️

[@yolz555]

Wow you finally sat together. How I have been waiting for this moment. Love it, you work guys it truly inspirational. You are changing life.

[@zama1509]

We love this! We love Nozi!❤❤❤❤❤

[@gloriakma5047]

Oooh I enjoyed this so much. Nozibele - God really sent you for this generation. Thank you for your life. Thank you Mpoomy

[@buhlendaba3514]

Loved this episode so much!♥️ uSis' Nozi is such a strong women. She's amazing.

[@amandadwane2939]

Just can't hold my tears back for so many reasons listening to the story... and thank you Nozee for sharing.

[@mphomashane3602]

This needs part 2....I have truly enjoyed the interview

[@melissankala]

I so much needed this conversation 🥺oh my goodness.

[@Letty902]

I love Nozi so much I think she’s so strong to get through all she went through. And again she’s so intelligent and accomplished so much.❤

[@DzunyB]

The joy in my heart to see the both of u in one room😍😍😍😍

[@monicamatsose2080]

You’re a Strong woman Sis Nozi Thank you Mpoomy ❤ it’s channels like this that keep us hopeful 👌

[@PhaelloTshabalala]

Nozi's story is so educational! Loved this.

[@mbalikhumalo921]

This was so beautiful and enlightening.

[@phumzilemasilela9092]

Ahhhh🙌🙌🥂the 2 dynamites together ❤️ what a blasttt. Thank-you for such an awesome show

[@tendaichantellenhoro455]

Finally!! two of my favs❤️

[@sinethembalanga7436]

I cried through this. Thank you ladies😭

[@natashanamfukwe154]

I have been waiting for this since forever love Nozi so much and mpoomy you guys your vulnerability is🌹

[@queenrammym]

My Two Fave people, I am so excited💃🥰😍

[@nicolletnyoni4371]

Listened to the full episode on Spotify and came here. Insightful conversation.

[@fihliwekubeka2565]

Real world. Thanks Mpoomy and Nozy.

[@rethabilekanela3355]

Thank you very much for sharing your story Nozi!❤

[@gail_hlatshwayo]

t time hearing her story and wow man, beauty for ashes is what came to my mind. Thank you Mpoomy and Nozi for this beautiful conservation, my take is mother-daughter relationships are very important and can save us from a lot. God bless you queens 💞💞