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Harm OCD is a type of OCD that causes a person to have doubts and fears about whether they are in control of themselves and if they could become violent towards themselves or others. Let's go over the obsessions and compulsions of one who suffers from Harm OCD.
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[@ocdandanxiety]

Do you struggle with Harm OCD?

[@alejandraarbelaez7199]

OCD and Anxiety thank you so much for this amazing video and channel. It’s hard to find trustworthy resources online that educate as much as you do with your videos. I as well suffer from harm OCD which has been a struggle because it’s not easy finding a therapist who is knowledgeable about it. I am now a fan of your channel and hope that you continue to make these videos that give people like me so much hope 🙏🏻 thank you!

[@ocdandanxiety]

@@alejandraarbelaez7199 Thank you so much for your kind words! I plan on continuing to post each week!! I'm glad it was helpful for you! 😃

[@williamsquires5980]

Can you do one about Schizophrenia fear OCD?

[@ocdandanxiety]

@@williamsquires5980 For sure. I'll add this to my list and see if I can do it sooner than later! Thanks for the suggestion my friend! 😃

[@everettlopez1234]

Im thinkin I don't take enough pills. I have suicide OCD. I always have. What's the cure for that? LOL. Seriously but also I love living. And I'm sure I'm my own demise. Why cuz the pocd? I guess partly but it's much deeper or not deeper just more quantity

[@starlined2351]

I’d just like to say to the person reading this: you are in control of your own actions, this can be scary, but is also a blessing. Feelings lie to you. If you actually wanted to do something to yourself or something else, the thought of the action wouldn’t have disturbed you. You are loved, you are sane, and you are not your thoughts :)

[@queenangelise7284]

Thank you star lined :)

[@mdougf]

Omg, thank you for this: "If you actually wanted to do something to yourself or somebody, the thought of the action wouldn't have disturbed you". I hope this is true. Thank you!

[@starlined2351]

@@mdougf Yes! :)

[@alexm.5510]

I love this quote ❤

[@driftingsoul7355]

@@mdougf but what if my thought is now telling me that I enjoy them?

[@cherrymilk5590]

Sexual and violent OCD themes are AWFUL because you feel like you cannot tell anybody out of fear that they will think that you ARE your thoughts. So many people suffer in silence. I have suffered with sexual and violent intrusive thoughts my entire life, it can feel like torture 😣😭

[@ocdandanxiety]

I am so sorry for what you're going through. I'd look for a therapist at iocdf.org. Hopefully you can find someone.

[@syazwanarif8004]

​@@queenangelise7284 i've suffered it too and im worried so much

[@mariopreciadosgirlfriend6521]

@@syazwanarif8004 Hey I'm UnknownPrincessLOL just different account but just remember ur not ur thoughts try to keep yourself busy and entertained and they go away or try to ignore them and not pay them mind. Wish you well.

[@syazwanarif8004]

@@mariopreciadosgirlfriend6521 thanks :) the meditation helps me too

[@michiganprotection]

Hey I deal with it too. It seems to make you feel this about those you Love the most. Out of nowhere. I think it bothers me because it's the last thing I WANT to do. So I think it

[@hollycrossland5578]

To anyone suffering with this horrible, debilitating condition right now... just remember that that you are not your thoughts and never will be, Harm OCD tricks your mind into thinking the worst possible thoughts and outcomes about yourself which are simply not true, trust me I’ve battled with this every single day since it started 💫 but as long as you keep doing exposure work and push yourself slowly at a time you will start to see the results of your hard work. Keep strong 💪 and believe that in time you can work with your OCD not against it because it may be stormy now but it never rains forever ⛈ 🌈

[@hollycrossland5578]

Yes this use to happen to me before I had therapy which I would highly recommend The thoughts can trick you into believing the worst version of yourself and obviously thoughts like being a psychopath or having schizophrenia are the most concerning and worrying for people so ocd takes advantage of that. But as long as you get a strong emotional response like feelings of discust or shame/guilt from these thoughts and you know deep down they are unwanted intrusive thoughts then you should understand that it is ocd tricking your mind This was a very big concern for me at my lowest times but I know now that it’s another thought trying to get attention, so what I would do is not argue with the thought as it would not solve anything and only create more anxiety but instead say ok, yes this could happen it’s a possibility but I know who I am and what I am and am NOT capable of and try to move your focus onto something else to help soothe the thoughts such as, I have the strategy ... 1, notice Okay I’ve been triggered 2, label that’s an intrusive thought coming from my threat system 3, move focus on to something else such as grounding techniques

[@hollycrossland5578]

It’s ok, I totally understand and the more times you do your exposure work and remind yourself it’s not you it’s your ocd it will become easier and the amount of thoughts you get will reduce, glad I could be useful! Take care ❤️

[@tommyvalenzuela4293]

@Skye Chey when you say "your thoughts tell you you like them", Do you mean like inner dialogue??? I'm struggling with harm ocd as well

[@vrushankkamble7862]

What to do with urges then? I feel that what if i wake up and do something my mind saying let's go let's go and i fear it so much that will it be really true? Is it just normal and never impossible to do and go through urges?

[@jokesonyou222]

💕💕💕💕

[@katiedubuque7481]

Finally someone who understands!! I thought I was just turning into a psychopath😭 These thoughts have been traumatizing me the past two days. I have no history of violence I love people and the sudden thoughts/urges to hurt them and the images cause me crippling anxiety i'd never hurt anyone Ever!! I'm newly diagnosed with OCD a year ago but I've been battling it since i was a kid. I feel like I'm constantly at war with my OCD.

[@Indi_Waffle_Girl]

I've had this before! Sometimes still happens. It's freaky and crazy! Cuz you like can't shake it! You got this tho, you are strong 💛 people with ocd are the strongest people

[@stillwaitingforgreatapocalypse]

Your not alone😭

[@stillwaitingforgreatapocalypse]

🤗🤗🤗❤

[@omanxer7275]

SAME I REALLY WANTED TO HURT MY MOTHER BUT IT SCARED ME I THOUGHT I WAS GOONG TO BE A MURDER 😨

[@cjsenpai6195]

Hi Katie! You're not alone. We can get through this soon in God's grace 😊

[@br1dgett]

“ocd likes to attack what the individual values most” thanks for this, i’ve had horrible thoughts about my family for the past few months and i was terrified why, as i’m very close with them. this helped me a lot.

[@xyj8204]

Sameeeeee, I get these thoughts about my father😢

[@melanie0223]

me too, i love my family and have built a close relationship with them that i didn’t have before. once this started i felt so scared to be around them in case of anything i “could” do. it can be so scary but in the end thoughts don’t create actions. you can think something and simply not do it. we are always in control of ourselves:) sending my love and i hope everything is alright for you in the end☺️

[@camiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii]

“ocd tends to attack the things the person values the most” i cried so hard hearing that, i never thought about it and it makes so much sense

[@rebegade_master]

I convinced myself the other day that I was an up and coming serial killer. I went to my psychologist and told her and she was like "don't be stupid" and now its eradicated itself from my mind. I was so convinced it was going to happen. I had no idea there was a big community of this. Comforting and also worrying for us lol.

[@The.Gemini.Sisters]

I shouldn't laugh at this comment but what your therapist said to you really made me smile. Sometimes we literally need to feel like someone is slapping us across the face in order to get a grip on our thought spirals lol.

[@rebegade_master]

@@The.Gemini.Sisters Yup!! That's literally it!

[@nightfuchsia]

I'm suffering from harm ocd because jeffrey dahmer triggered it because of my curiosity but your comment from 2 yrs ago makes me laugh. Thank you!

[@enlemen]

thank god i didnt watch that movie :D @@nightfuchsia

[@immortalqq2560]

@@nightfuchsiai’m going through it right now because of jeffrey dahmer, got tips?

[@tonyreyes3780]

I’ve had this since childhood. I’m 32 now. Majoring in psychology was one of the best things I ever did for myself.

[@LxtinDoll]

I would major in psychology but I hate English and reading 🤣🥲

[@soup4629]

It feels great to have someone that I can mentally relate with

[@Justaguy714]

Did you pick up ways to control it better?

[@melanie0223]

i’m a teen struggling with this right now and i plan to major in pyschology too. not only because of this but you can help so many others with the career! hope everything is going well for you

[@lauraa7994]

Another well done video! Struggled with harm OCD the past 6 years on and off. I'm the most loveable person there is! These thoughts also created the worst panic attacks on top of it! I thought I was literally losing it! I'm doing better now... guys! Be strong AF! The end of the day anxiety is a liar in our heads telling us stuff that is completely against our beliefs. We got this we are warriors!

[@chelzyramirez3663]

I’ve been struggling with this for the past 3 months since quarantine started! It’s very very hard I’m so glad you are getting better

[@lauraa7994]

@@chelzyramirez3663 thank you so much. Keep meditating every single day that's what helped me through the process and accept the stuff in our heads instead of fighting with it. It gets better, trust me.

[@chelzyramirez3663]

@@lauraa7994 gracias 😊 I know it will I would never hurt anybody and sometimes I get scared of being psycho it’s so scary but I’m glad you are better. It’s scary because ocd makes you doubt and think you actually want to like no I know who I am.

[@lauraa7994]

@@chelzyramirez3663 if I can recommend a book that's also helped me gotten better too it's called "you are not a rock" by Mark Freeman. This guy recovered from OCD and he wrote a book on how he overcame it and other deep stuff!

[@chelzyramirez3663]

@@lauraa7994 thank you and did you overcome it completely?

[@sphinx7647]

i was diagnosed with ocd a month ago and im going to therapy and taking meds. i feel like im going crazy. i never want to act on the thoughts, but my brain tricks me into thinking i can and will act on them. i hope i can get better some day.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for sharing! I hope you can feel better too! Trusting in the treatment and your therapist is a good thing!😋

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now cheers

[@sphinx7647]

@@jamesjohnstone1224 it got a lot better with time. intrusive thoughts got less frequent with time and i rarely get them now

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

@@sphinx7647 cheers man, do you suggest just carry on as normal and pay no attention to them ?

[@sphinx7647]

@@jamesjohnstone1224 if you pay attention to them they get worse. you gotta observe the thoughts and not engage with them

[@Jc-zq1tn]

in my heart i know i would never want to hurt anyone or anything. i constantly worry about it but my head can't stop thinking about the fact of what if. i think to myself what if i blackout do something horrible and wake up not remembering anything that i did. it truly makes my life a living hell.

[@stefanstefan2105]

Same here

[@hunnyhunny8612]

Same with me dear. I always thought of what if i go blackout and do something bad to myself or others without realizing it, and then i dont remember what I've done. Its very scary and I constantly feel worry about so many thoughts that appear in my mind. I feel like this is getting worse and im about to go insane when this continues

[@rulingvenus]

I stopped drinking because of this

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

@@hunnyhunny8612 hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@nataliarilling9178]

This video is so helpful. I started crying . I pushed my family away because I thought I would hurt them . And this video helped me so much .

[@its_jon_g6142]

Man, I almost had to do that. I can tell that your a loving person. But just know it's an Intrusive thought. You are not your thoughts. I'm still struggling bad with this. We got this!!

[@nataliarilling9178]

@@its_jon_g6142 thank you , I’m really glad we all have a community so we don’t feel so alone .

[@Musical.babexo]

Ive been struggling with the same thing😭

[@Arkingt]

@@Yana-vb3xd don't blame yourself for the bird or your cat it's not your fault stay strong ur amazing

[@abs-pm4uk]

i feel like i’m pushing away my parents right now. i don’t want to be around them because if i am i have the thoughts and i’m scared i’m going to hurt them.

[@emrebalkan4533]

Am i the only one thats scared asf that he would finally give in to these thoughts so they should stop? 🥺

[@tylarjayne7742]

You're not alone!!!

[@queenangelise7284]

@@tylarjayne7742 I feel this way too.

[@LordyT34]

Happens to me to! You've got this!

[@aadityatanwar5996]

🥺

[@ireland9393]

This video helped me so much 😭 I’ve struggled with (harm) ocd for a few years ow and recently it has been 100x worse than ever before in my life. It keeps me up all night long. It causes me more fear than I can put into words . But hearing someone say that this is not something I just experience. I am “normal”. I am not some crazy person all of a sudden. Thank you so so much for being so real in this video. So many mental health channels who talk about ocd and intrusive thoughts just breeze by how scary intrusive thoughts can actually be. Thank you so so so much.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for sharing your experiences my friend! I hope you can find some relief through your struggles. 😃I appreciate the kind words!

[@Ms-80035]

​@@ocdandanxietyDoctor, why do some doctors say that it is possible to apply these ideas to reality? I'm on the verge of recovery, and when I remember what they said, I feel like I'm on the verge of madness .

[@julianneloy6010]

I've struggled with so many intrusive thoughts, urges and fears throughout my life, and when one theme drifts out of my mind, another theme attaches to me. It's so exhausting and distressing. Thank you so much, Nathan! You don't know how many people you encourage to heal and change!

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thank you so much for your support! It really means a lot!

[@9871516690]

EVERY word of what you said, is what I have been battling for 20 years now. I was too ashamed to even type something like this on the net but the thoughts have been torturing me so much that I feel I am better off killing myself than living with them. I thought I am the only one going through this and that I am crazy. My thoughts are always towards loved ones like my mom, whom I cannot imagine a day without and love so profoundly. Any Harm OCD thoughts towards her are SO distressing that I pray to god to take my life than ever do something even close to harming her. I try to stay away from objects that show up in my thoughts. I keep on giving my self reassurances. In real, I can't even kill a fly without feeling guilty so thoughts like these are mentally and physically killing me. Saw this and the comments section to understand that it's not true and is just OCD which is treatable. I am so relieved to know that there are so many going through what I am. I am so scared to have a child cause I feel I might end up harming it. I am scared to be around my friend's children cause I think I may end up dropping them and I imagine scenarios where the world has turned up against me and I am serving a life sentence (and it makes me gag and cry). There are days when I am alright and I laugh at these thoughts and there are days when they seem too real, although I know they are irrational. I am just glad to know I am not alone and that there is treatment for this! I don't belong to the States and I hope help is available for this, in my country! Thanks doc!!

[@kat7860]

You are NOT alone. ❤️ I hope you are doing okay.

[@leiaboo9490]

This video and your personality is so helpful. More than you know. I've struggled with this since 15 years old. And thoughts would go away for a bit but then come back. During this lockdown was when it started up again and even worse. Just awful terrifying thoughts and worries.

[@antonioreilly8675]

Hi Leia. Me to. ☹️

[@jones264]

Me too

[@funandcooljokes]

im 15 rn and im experiencing these thoughts for the first time it sucks :(

[@maliataylor6757]

@@funandcooljokes me too! how are u now? did u ever overcome tbis?

[@jilln1006]

Will you add me on Instagram I could use someone to talk to who understand

[@ricksanchezito8972]

I told my girlfriend about some of my worst intrusive thoughts yesterday and she called me a monster. Today has been very hard, but this video has helped. Thank you for helping me to not feel so alone.

[@meow3264]

You are not your thoughts:) I'm so sorry that she said that, she just wouldn't understand but trust me you're not a monster, you're just a human

[@andreaaranda8352]

Hey she doesn’t get what your going trough but u can’t feel guilty because of your thoughts because you are not your thoughts remember this

[@Bambooty1234]

After watching a true crime doc, I started getting thoughts about wanting to murder or hurt someone, and it makes me real paranoid. The thought of being a killer and being in prison is terrifying. The fact that my OCD is like this makes it hard for me to continue to live. Even if I’m scared for myself, I hope that it won’t bother me anymore, and I can live a normal life again. To the people that are going through it as well, just know that we are in this together, and we can overcome it.

[@ChaymaeElkarkoubi]

God bless you I have the same problems and I hope we'll be ok sooner

[@prkdndnd]

I feel you

[@onmysecondjourney5510]

I had that thought about my mother.I love her and she is very caring but from last 4 yrs whenever she cooked me a meal or showed care and I also felt loved my mind would say crack her skull under your foot or hit her in the head with a machete.These intrusive thoughts were so disturbing that at one point I punched myself on my temple so hard that I had a blood clot in my eye for days.I lived far from home for work purposes and I missed her a lot but on the other hand I felt it's safe for her. As these intrusive thoughts became common I tried to counter them with some conscious thoughts like chopping my hands and feet off then feel that now I don't have hands or feet she is safe. During this covid time I returned home and this ocd would often attack me and I observed her.Sometimes she or my sister noticed me and asked me if there was something wrong with me. I would look at her head and imagine there is a shield protecting her or think my other family members with guns and if I lose control they would shoot me in the head and thus I felt good. I really don't knw why or at what point these thoughts went away but they were replaced with unnecessary fear that lead me check if the gas line is open 50 times a day or the electric cables, were those leaking and checking on her when she went to school and returned from school where she teaches in fear that she might get run over by a vehicle. Now a days I don't have all these intrusive thoughts or irrational fear.I don't know why that happened and how did they go away but those days were very much scary.I hope I never have to face that again.

[@mia-bj3ji]

@@onmysecondjourney5510 that’s what I’m going through with my dad :(

[@pnjodaro]

Mine started in the same way! We got this girl!

[@kitrosemary]

I'm only now finding out about H-OCD. I've started feeling it fairly recently (as of a couple years). I find myself often comparing myself to Film/VideoGame/Media characters and think "would I do that?" Then fall into a rabbit hole of pain.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thank you for sharing your experiences! I can be so helpful for others to hear!😃

[@Dusky-Bunn1e]

Same, it’s scary.

[@trinity6880]

Same

[@MsMeAndMyCat]

These thoughts appear due a natural and perfectly human process called EMPATHY. We see things, nice or horrible and due to empathy we put ourselves in that scenario. People with an existing anxiezy tendency or established disorder might freak out at that idea, get "fooled" and hooked into believing that it is our mind willing to do.

[@elizabethcronin3947]

I've never found a video that relates to me so much before. I honestly think I was the only one with these types of thoughts and I felt trapped. This video really helped me realize I'm not

[@ocdandanxiety]

I'm so glad this was able to help you! I hope you're doing well! 😀

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@urmom-qs9uj]

it feels like my mind has a mind of its own and they team up against me. they are against me, how do i even go on?

[@The.Gemini.Sisters]

You will be okay.🕊 This is exactly how I feel too. We can do this.

[@Arkingt]

Are you doing fine now?

[@jimnewt2138]

I feel you brother

[@nicholaspiper98]

It is people like you and these videos that are a godsend. I have never been diagnosed, but I am fairly sure I have harm OCD. It has been a recent thing, within the past 2 years or so. I think stress and anxiety on top of my depression has triggered it. Watching this really has calmed me down and reminded me to just breath and treat it like a bully by going “okay, whatever you say pal lol” anytime a thought enters. I know I am a loving person, kind, and caring. I know that I would never act on them because it simply is not who I am as a person. Thank you. You are blessing for the video!

[@lexer5405]

I’m not diagnosed with this but man do I relate to much. I had so much fear and I still do just not as severe thankfully. Things will get better, you just gotta believe and trust yourself. I thought I was alone but I’m glad it’s something that is known and that people can heal from. Praying for all of you, even in your weakest moments, you can get through this challenge. ❤️

[@jilln1006]

Can you add me on Instagram I could use a friend

[@EsponjosoPollito]

Me too, I'm still scared to tell my therapist about it. I know I truly need help on that.

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

@@EsponjosoPollito hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@jasontodd8487]

I'm 15 and just got diagnosed with this today after almost a year of dealing with this. For so long I thought I was insane and such a horrible person for having these intrusive thoughts. I found out what it truly was after coming across it online somewhere...and that was a huge relief. I still kept it to myself even knowing what it was. I was terrified of telling anyone about this in fear of not being understood. I finally gotten the courage one day to tell my parents to look it up, and they did research on it and understood. Telling someone about it can be very scary....but it really is the first step to getting relief. My advice to anyone dealing with this but afraid to tell someone is to tell your loved one(s) to look it up so they can truly understand. Everyone dealing with this you will get through this!

[@aidey8mph605]

I told my mom and I didn’t explain very well… that is what is so terrible about harm OCD. You are afraid of talking about it in fear of seeming like a psychopath.

[@kohnefilmkohnefilm5626]

@@aidey8mph605 are you OK now?

[@aidey8mph605]

@@kohnefilmkohnefilm5626 yeah it was just a little awkward. Sorry if I made it seem otherwise. It’s a good thing I found out about this though because now I know my thoughts are just that, thoughts.

[@melanie0223]

i’m 15 about to be 16 and have been struggling for a few months with this as well. its so hard especially when you think about how you should be enjoying life! but i’m super glad you reached out to your parents and told them what was going on

[@leiaboo9490]

Your personality is just awesome! I relate to the knife/sharp object thing so badly. I keep them to reassure myself that I can trust myself. Yet I wish to throw them out just to ease my mind and sleep better at night. I'm so very thankful for your video!

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for the kind words! It means a lot! I'm glad you're doing something to face your OCD. That's awesome!

[@deedevon7468]

Same here, a lot of the thoughts (not all) of mine relate to knives and sharp images. It stinks

[@antonioreilly8675]

Yeah me go. Knives and sharp objects. I hate it. I love cooking so it's hard for me to not be in kitchen. So I just use knives but my stomach is wrench.

[@-ocean-and-earth-]

Leia, was wondering if you wanted to share some thoughts about this with me?

[@antonioreilly8675]

@@-ocean-and-earth- I can share my experiences. If you want.

[@LordyT34]

It's so wonderful to know that they're are many others who know what this is like, and better yet, so many who have overcome it!

[@sunflowercloud9115]

I struggle with Harm OCD towards my children! I love them so much and it hurts me that I have these thoughts. I have recently left a church cult and childhood trauma was relived, which is when these thoughts started. This video made me realize i do have rituals that i do without knowing I do. I tend to do a lot of exposure since I still have to cut up fruit, veggies, meat for meals and when my kids are present, then thought comes up. I do say at times "maybe i will maybe i wont" and it helps confused my brain and the thought leaves for a bit.

[@suspiciousstar7547]

I am so sorry. Remember you are a GREAT mother if you are concerned for them! Your trauma is something no one should have but remember that things are gonna be okay.

[@theabyss310]

I relate to this so much...oh no. I usually get really violent, sexual, or horrific intrusuve thoughts about bad stuff happening to others others, and then I have to try and aggressively dismiss the thought or else that thing will actually happen to them. I had a suspicion that it might be ocd, but I wasn't expecting this to perfectly describe me.

[@afcaked]

Thank you SO MUCH for making this video. This is something that I have struggled with my entire life and felt so alone and so crazy for thinking these thoughts. I always just shoved it down as far as I could. Now I have a starting point with my therapy. Thank you again.

[@saigefeiner2532]

First, I wanna say I love your videos Nathan! :) They have helped me get through the toughest times yet. I have been suffering with harm ocd for over a year now since I had my baby, and I started having thoughts first “what if I want to stab my newborn?” The thought & fear kept coming and coming... I was so scared I thought I was going insane or needed to be locked up. Thankful for therapy & meds I was diagnosed with OCD and my theme has always been “harm towards my child.” It’s been some awful moments & times where I thought I needed to go to the hospital or a in-treatment place, but I’ve been so resilient and found the right therapy & med to help me out. OCD SUCKS!!!!! I relate to all of your videos, you have no idea how much your helping the OCD community

[@berenicesandoval269]

Hi saige the same thing happened to me after having my baby she's 2 now I feel like its gotten a bit worse I would love to hear from you. how you are whats helped you with the intrusive thoughts?!

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Just wondering how you’re getting on now cheers ?

[@TheDinosaur900]

My advice speaking from my experience is that you have to convince yourself that these horrendous thoughts are NOT a desire, not even an urge or temptation. My brain is torturing me with images of murdering my family and I don't know if I'm mentally ill or not, but I just keep reminding myself that they're just thoughts, and nothing more; which I despise. While they make me sad, angry and scared to think about, I remind myself that they're not going to happen. If this really is Harm OCD that I'm going through, it's by far one if the worst things ever, but it can be dealt with. Seeing other people talk here about their experience gives me some comfort knowing I'm not alone. Stay strong, folks.

[@kylescott169]

Same man, how are you now?

[@vrb340]

Oh my God!!!!!! Thank you sooooo soooooooo much!!!!!! I was so scared that I was going psycho! Sir, you don't know how much you're helping me. I was diagnosed with OCD and Anxiety (which causes depressive symptoms). I feel much better now.

[@rinkagamine3238]

Does anyone also overthink every time you get angry at someone and you instantly worry that what if you kill them and lose control and you get stuck in a rumination so you try your best not to be angry again?? Because I do 🤧

[@Bellestanford]

I dont even wanna say these dark thoughts to my therapist cos iim afraid i will discover something more bout myself that i cant accept

[@liquidsmoothxxo]

fr

[@kochedicoes636]

Let the thought in do not fight it, it's like a feeding machine the more you try to antagonize, fight, stop the thought bigger it grows, let the thought pass, it's hard but helps, you are not your thoughts and you cant control them. Our mind is a non stop traffic 24/7 even when you sleep so let the mind free and live with your values.

[@vohe89]

Nathan. This video could not have come at a better time. Thank you for explaining. I am now watching this video every time, I'm feeling anxious, because it made me feel better. Kidding. But again, thank you.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Haha. This made me laugh out loud! I was thinking, NOOOOO, don't use this video as a compulsion but it sounds like you know better. I wish you the best! 😋

[@vohe89]

@@ocdandanxiety Hi Nathan. I don't know, if you still get these notifications, but I just wanted to come back to this video to say thank you one more time. Your video really marked a turning point for me. I talked to a therapist about this and we were able to work these thoughts out and I tried exposure with her which really helped a lot. I'm feeling really well even in these crazy times. So again - thank you, hope you're doing well.

[@ocdandanxiety]

That is amazing to hear! Way to go having the strength to do this. That’s awesome!!👍🏻

[@9871516690]

I've already watched this video ten times to make myself feel better. Can't believe I've turned it into a compulsion now 😔😔

[@vladimirgeorgiev5462]

I suffered with terrible harm OCD for 4-5 months and as a result i developed insomnia.... Your videos helped me get over all those problems without no medication ! So ... THANK YOU !!!

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now ? Cheers

[@Strwberryace316]

I just cried to this video. It made me feel seen. I’ve been struggling for about 2 years now and this is the first time I searched up a KZbin video about it and I’m so glad I chose yours. Thank you so much for this information, I will use it to help myself battle this ocd.

[@travisscott3050]

Same I've been dealing with this for 5 years and I found this

[@Kaleidalee]

Your videos are literally so lifesaving and relieving. Thank you so much for these videos. It’s also a massive relief to see a whole bunch of lovely people in the comments who have my exact same concerns, and I can tell they are good people. I am not my thoughts. We are not our thoughts.

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this cheers

[@jakeplays1995]

Thank you for making this video!! Im so happy im not crazy. This explains me to a T. I cant stand being near knives or cleaning equipment, things i can hang myself with (wires), pills i could overdose on, and sometimes my pets, just from ocd harm intrusive thoughts. Thank you!! I realize i have them but then a few days later ill convince myself they are real.

[@hanthuya2441]

OCD had been hitting me hard for years until I found out Meditation. Mediation really pull me out of this deep hole and even freed me from taking medications. I think, the idea is that as long as you stay mindful of aware of your thoughts, you are distant from them and you will know for sure your are NOT your thoughts. Intrusive thoughts still pop up from time to time but I am better equipped to deal with them now.

[@jilln1006]

How does one learn

[@hanthuya2441]

@@jilln1006 Speaking for myself, the books: Snow in the summer and A Map of the Journey by Sayadaw U Jotika set me up for meditation journey. Then, I learned more of it through online guided meditation, reading books and listening to podcasts, and Dhama talks. I found "Judgement" to be main issue while dealing with OCD. When a bad thought came, instead of simply letting it go, I hung on it and judged myself for having this terrible thought. Judgement causes repetitive thoughts to keep coming back and this makes OCD worse. Vippasana meditation suits me as it allows me to simply watch my thoughts without judgement and sooner or later, they simply fade away by themselves. Then, as I become more present through meditation, I manage to leave the thoughts behind and no more ruminating on them. If you are a complete beginner, the meditation applications like Waking up or Headspace might be helpful. Try it and see if it works for you.

[@kohnefilmkohnefilm5626]

What is medidation

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers

[@hanthuya2441]

@@jamesjohnstone1224 Thanks for your comment. It has been over three years since I tried meditation. At this point, OCD no longer bothers me with my day to day activities. I can't say I am completely over the OCD. It still pops up especially when I became overstimulated while spending too much time on my work or entertainment and less mindful. Even then, what I realized during my meditation, about thoughts in my head not defining me was powerful enough to help me not dwell on my intrusive thoughts. This helps me let go of my thoughts easily.

[@thebanksfilms4426]

Anyone going through this don’t worry, it’ll get better. I went through the same violent intrusive thoughts and what made me “better” was just letting those thoughts come and just try to laugh at them. I’m not saying that’s the right advice but after medication and therapy, I had to do it on my own as nothing really helped. What made it worse was trying to block the thoughts because then that’s drive my OCD crazy.

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now ? Cheers

[@jones264]

Now I know the answers. I didn't even know I've been suffering with OCD for like years now and it became worse last month. I thank God and these people on the internet for answering my questions😭 I thought I was just going crazy or I am being a psychopath or whatever scary labels everyone calls it. I can't even hear or watch the death of somebody because it triggers the thought. I am currently recovering by my own because my family has a close mind about mental health issues. It's sad, terrifying and traumatizing BUT I know I will recover and not lose my self again because of these thoughts.

[@josefinar489]

hey!! are you feeling better?

[@msstephanie726]

i’m diagnosed with ocd, but i’m scared to tell my therapist specifically what i’m thinking because it’s so hard to get the words out about the horrible things you think. but i’m going to eventually.

[@jonathans.219]

You got this Stephanie. I’ll pray for you so you will have the courage!

[@Hasoondawood]

Stephanie, you can obviously tell your therapist about the thoughts.. trained professionals are so capable of differentiating between actual danger and calls for help, so when you tell them about this, they will probably shrug off the content and instead focus on the pattern of thoughts-anxiety-reassurance and how to solve it. Don’t you worry hope you are okay

[@sethryn1392]

I am in the process of trying to receive a diagnosis, but I never knew that violent intrusive thoughts were a symptom of OCD and I am always SO repulsed when it happens. I have a real visceral reaction to the images that flash through my mind without prompting. **TW: description of violent images** For example, I was taking care of newborn puppies and as I walked around them, my brain decided to show me how easy it would be to crush their tiny heads if I accidently stepped on them. I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT. But that caused me to spiral into questioning and preparing for that scenario as if it were absolutely going to happen. I had to leave the puppy room for over an hour trying to convince myself that that isn't going to happen. I do this All. The. Time. And it makes me sick with myself sometimes.

[@AWFULLOTTACOUGHSYRUP]

Much love brother get help and let’s do this together

[@thatsilveragegirl3137]

I suffer from this I had a very bad experience an now I've been battling with this, it kills me so much but I'm trying to stop it by allowing the thoughts in my head with meditation an breathing. I keep reminding myself that this is me facing my fears. That I am trying to become stronger. It's hard I see bad things happening to my loved ones. But we have to keep going we have to stay strong, I think this is working for me just meditation an breathing an just see it matter of fact FORCE yourself to see it, I think it's working like when I'm not meditating it seems like less an less. It's like one of those finger trap things you can't try to push your fingers out to ecape you have to push forward. I hope who ever you are readying this your not a bad person, I understand your feelings. We are not alone we can get through this together. We should all talk if we need too. I'm willing to. Don't be afraid.

[@everettlopez1234]

Honestly you are the best.... Señor. I've never seen such mumbo jumbo make that much sense. You have a point facilitating gift. Please do tell me more. I may sound argumentative in other comments but I think that I meant it facetiously it's hard to organize ideas and thoughts and points and facilitations. All these lives are terrifying. Every one that suffers from these types of psychological disorder.... You either let it take you... Or... you are the strongest person ever. These issues all seem to affect me. One after another after another. And start over and do it again. It's a horrible life (if u let it be). Its is not necessarily as bad as it feels.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for the kind words! I love your comments! 😃

[@rxhx]

From my experience having these depressing thought 'sessions', I think harm OCD, in a twisted way, actually points out things that we are worried about the most: the safety of the ppl close to us, or our own safety. But it does it in this scary backdoor way and it can be difficult to realize it's deeper intention. Paradoxically telling us how much we love and care for their/our safety. That's how I think about it anyways. Still feels like mental terror though.

[@user-zy6xd6fv6l]

For anyone struggling I want you to know you can overcome this. Recovery is 1000% possible and these thoughts/ feelings don’t have to bother you forever. Lead who to change your interpretation of your thoughts and learn some ERP practices though a consular or therapist.

[@linky764]

I have thoughts of harming my family even though I really do not want to. It keeps coming back to me and starts being obsessive and tries for me to do it. It actually keeps on coming everyday and never stops even when I leave it alone. This really stresses me out and does not leave me alone.

[@kochedicoes636]

Let the thought in do not fight it, it's like a feeding machine the more you try to antagonize, fight, stop the thought bigger it grows, let the thought pass, it's hard but helps, you are not your thoughts and you cant control them. Our mind is a non stop traffic 24/7 even when you sleep so let the mind free and live with your values.

[@nathanlopez5667]

I understand you you feel like it's something you can never tell no one because they would think but that's really the Way You Are and not want to be around you it's tough I know and you're not alone and like me you're probably not a violent person I just pray not to have bad thoughts and they go away for good

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now cheers ? X

[@warrenk9587]

Thank you for doing this video! The amount of information that you give in this short video is impressive! This part of OCD can be extremely destructive to a person. I know how scary and difficult this is to live with. I hope this information reaches those that are suffering from this so that they can push themselves to get help.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thank you for the kind words! I wish you the best! 😊

[@rileylyndon2886]

aaahhh it all makes sense now thanks for explaining it so well! these thoughts can be terrifying and a lot of people don't understand what intrusive thoughts actually are.

[@natalietimmins1]

Thank you so much for all your help. These videos feel like a massive big hug when i’m feeling so low. You’ve helped so many people out of darkness ❤

[@wde1978]

This may be the best mental health video that I have seen to date. You are extremely accurate and knowledgeable.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thank you! That means a whole lot to me!

[@wde1978]

@@ocdandanxiety About 15 yrs ago my harm OCD was so bad that I thought I was losing my mind. I remember telling my mother to call the hospital and ask them to strap me down, because I felt that I couldn't trust myself. I have to tell you I have never been so scared in my life. I am a loving person that is very empathetic to other people's pain, and the fact that I had these horrible thoughts running through my head was incomprehensible to me. I do not wish OCD on my worst enemy. It's people like you that give others hope and help them to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I owe my sanity to gifted people like yourself. Take care and keep up the outstanding work. William.

[@meghavi1000]

Guys It's So Good we share our feelings maybe we start a community Nd spread the much needed awareness we hope everybody loves everyone Nd everything is good Nd positive

[@ocdandanxiety]

I Agree!

[@lo2081]

Totally agree!

[@drewchee1744]

I’m going through this harms towards family and etc but remember these are thoughts not actions. You control your movements your heart and soul. Be strong very strong.

[@unreliablenarrator5093]

I try to laugh it off or just go "nah, I'm good" or I put on music and just let my brain run with it for awhile. Doesn't always work, but it can get it out of my system a bit.

[@andrewfuss2762]

This video is spot on. Just started experiencing this one week ago and it’s so scary. Makes me feel like I’m some kind of crazy person.

[@nickpnmac3162]

You're not crazy brother. The fact that these thoughts scare you means that your brain is absolutely normal. You don't have to be afraid about anything. I had it too 1 and a half year ago. I beated it. Hope you're doing well

[@scottmichael7099]

Its like having panic attacks and worrying you gonna die from it but never do Just stay calm

[@frankie_baker6409]

im 15 and have been struggling with theses thoughts and urges everyday for about 2 years and after seeing this video i feel a little more relaxed because ive felt like im going crazy for ages and i still do but i hopefully am not and yeah this video helped a lot so thank you

[@xtert2473]

bro same

[@stacysingledecker7288]

Yes!! This is me. Violent intrusive thoughts, feelings and urges. Finally got diagnosed and do erp. It works👍👍 sometimes they come back but I go and get help when I need!! Thanks for your videos!!!

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on, thanks for your time

[@lesbianaxolotl6671]

Holy shit this describes me I got diagnosed with OCD in September but I haven’t had therapy yet When I was a kid, until I was about 12 or 11 I was scared of knives Everyone thought I was just trying to get people to do things for me and that I was lazy but really I thought I would stab myself or stab a loved one This helps me so so much to explain it to people around me

[@alesia4611]

OCD seems to switch themes on me, but the one I struggle with the most is harm OCD. One ocd fear I struggle with is that I would accidently poison my family. Unfortunately, I didn't have proper treatment for a long time and stopped cooking for my family. Once I was properly diagnosed and in treatment, I started an exposure making "potion milk" for my 5 year old daughter. I would have my tea in a mug and get her a mug too. I put in a drop of food coloring (which was a big trigger for "poisoning") and stirred it up and sat with her as we both drank our potions that would make us strong or happy or whatever power she picked for that day. I started with having my husband with me when I made the milk, bc it was very emotional. I was too afraid to do it alone, in case I really did poison the milk. I slowly worked my way up to making it for us without supervision. Which was SO very scary. It helped though, and I've relapsed by not continuing exposures, but I'm working on it again. Just being in the kitchen is hard some days, but I'm doing it. Anyway, having our magic potion drink turned out to be a fun game for my daughter and I was eventually able to enjoy the game with her after I sat with the fear long enough.

[@chelzyramirez3663]

I had the same thing! I was so scared to cook for my family or give them a drink and I would feel way better if someone was in the kitchen with me while i was cooking just so I know that I didn’t put anything! Now I still have these fears but I know that I wouldn’t do such thing and I’m glad that you aren’t as scared as you were back then we are so strong!

[@mrdonotknow6554]

I had these thoughts and felt distressed for a week and then I managed to cope, but the fact that I managed to cope and not feel distressed anymore made the thoughts worse because I thought that the fact that I don’t feel distressed might mean that I think these thoughts are normal and I might act on them and it made me feel very distressed again 😔

[@9871516690]

OMG! SAME! But it's untrue. It's just the brain tricking you to think crap!

[@maytegonzalez6444]

@@9871516690 wait really I feel the same way but it all started when a friend told me she wanted to die and that day I felt scared like what if I feel like her but I don't wanna die and that day I talked to my dad at night and felt better but I felt scared of going crazy and scared that I would kill myself and I don't want too but then yesterday I felt like I got over it I didnt feel worried or scared and thats cause there was a storm. I wasnt scared of the storm and thats cause I usually am. I didn't feel scared I felt normal but then Im like wait what If I do something bad cause I feel normal and not scared. Then I went to the kitchen to made food and I got the knife to cut food and Im like what if I hurt myself cause of my mind and my brain was like do it but my hands like me I didnt want too and I didnt have the urge to cause I dont wanna die. Everytime I get a thought like that I tend to replace them with a happy one like I tell myself "Ima grow up and have a family and good life having fun" :D but I still don't like the thoughts when I get them :/ I get scared

[@9871516690]

@@maytegonzalez6444 the urges are not urges. I read up a lot about it. It's actually just intrusive thoughts making it all seem so real. OCD is opposite of what you want. So you don't want to kill yourself. My harm OCD is always towards my mother whom I worship like my goddess and I love obsessively. Obviously thoughts like these make me want to commit suicide cause they are SO fucking distressing. Also, I feel so ashamed and I feel constant guilt. I love her too much. Don't pay heed to the thoughts. I suggest checking 'Ali Greymond's channel on YT. She is fabulous and an OCD therapist. Listening to her really relaxes my anxiety!

[@PJ-lw6ng]

@@9871516690 this is exactly what i’m going through. i would never in my life do anything to my mother i love her to the moon and back. have you learned to cope with this? and if so, how? some advice would be really helpful during this time :(

[@9871516690]

@@PJ-lw6ng yeah, way better! It just faded. I engaged myself in work. Please DON'T pay any heed to these thoughts. It's your brain taking a fart. It knows these thoughts distress you. The more they distress you, the bigger the problem they become. You have to treat them like ants passing by. You are NOT your thoughts. The very feeling of distress means that you don't want to do anything like that and I can tell you with 100% guarantee, that you won't. Chill!!

[@motionshadow]

The way you spouted off about this at a rapid pace and with such accuracy was actually anxiety-inducing. The music didn't help. But at least I now have a term to summarize this dilemma of mine more readily to whomever it may concern. Thanks.

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for your support! I hope you're doing well!

[@KennyAlmendral]

I have this type of OCD, every time I wake up, I struggle

[@briannagiselle4509]

Thank you thank you thank you! I haven't been diagnosed but I've been struggling with these problems for a bit over a year now and its caused me to be so scared of myself cause I'd get random graphic thoughts of slitting my wrists or jumping off high areas but I dont wanna die so it always frustrated me because I never knew who to tell or what to do to stop them. I actually feel physical stings or discomfort in my wrists if the thoughts go on long enough. I've had to strap wrist weights on my wrists when home alone out of fear of slitting them due to impulse...I can't even shave without constantly shaking my wrist and repeating "you're okay you're okay" to myself from the fear of suicide...Im really relieved to find the possible cause for this...gonna discuss with my therapist this Wednesday :))

[@sameshajones1126]

I’m going through this 😥

[@sameshajones1126]

How are you doing this day, any better.

[@theblanketfortcohort7332]

Ah! The thought thing!! In my case it's not specifically harm, but I have a long list of things I can't think because I'm scared the universe will hear and be like "Ha! That'd freak you out, wouldn't it?" An example is that I NEVER start a thought with "I wish", I can't even say it unless I've thought through what I'm going to say to make sure there aren't any horrific loopholes that could put me in a "be careful what you wish for" scenario.

[@boombabri]

Dude this video was like a: A-ha moment, Its insane how this is exactly how I've felt since probably 8 years old. I used to ride my bike and suddenly think "Smash yourself against the ground" and everyday I would unplug everything in the house before going to school because I was afraid of starting a fire. As an adult I would go back home to check the stove was off and I would check it over and over 3 or 4 times, when I worked at a daycare I worried about hurting the kids, and I never have intentionally hurt anyone, and never want to. I used to want to chuck things out of windows of moving cars all the time, or feel thr urge jump off cliffs, whenever high up. i feel better after watching this. its been over a year since my ocd flared up, and now it has been lately. life is okay. its uncomfy, but im okay.

[@BobRocksGuitar]

Thank you man. I've felt like this and it's really relieving to hear someone reassure and hear that I'm not the only one. Thank you! This meant so much! 🤘

[@magnificent2646]

I know I’m late to this video but he explained something that I’ve been going crazy trying to figure out because I couldn’t find anything about it anywhere I think it’s referred to as magical thinking but I’m glad it’s a normal thing and I’m not the only one who experienced this. I get intrusive thoughts that are harmful about people who are close to me like family, friends co workers and so on and they usually start with “I wish this would happen to this person” or “I hope this person…” and it’s usually about death or other harmful things. I would never in my entire life wish anything harmful to come to anyone and it absolutely breaks my heart that I have these thoughts. I hope this helps someone know you are not alone. I totally get it. Remember you are not your thoughts and remember they are just noise. Stay strong friends

[@GarryLarryBarry]

I teared up when I heard 'what you value the most', as I used to have these thoughts about my mum, she died of cancer few years ago, looking back feels like such of waste of time I had with her, feeling anxious for no good reason.

[@wolfey264]

With my harm OCD I had vivid thoughts of hurting my family or myself. Like when I was at home, and my sister didn't wash the dishes correctly. I would have a vivid thought of saying "she did this incorrectly. So, what will happen if I hurt her?" When I am using a knife or if I see a object close to me that could be used as a weapon I would think "what would happen if I slit my wrists with this object, or what will happen if I hurt my friends and family with this object?" I never liked these thoughts because they made me think if I am a bad person. Also, during school assignments, if the assignments involves writing I would write down a story with very vivid details or descriptions of what my mind is seeing. Then, later on I would think that everyone would be judging me for writing this even though I just do based on thoughts. I am sorry to anyone who had read this.

[@brisadelabarrera2371]

I get this exact same thing, you're not alone. I thought I was losing my mind. I'm currently diagnosed with OCD. We can talk if you want. I need someone to talk about this

[@wolfey264]

@@brisadelabarrera2371 Hello, I would love to talk about this. I tried replying sooner, but it said I never replied to you. Sorry about that.

[@IsaacCamachoColourless]

Harm OCD is hell on earth. Your brain is certain that you've destroyed a life, and the agony and the guilt are unbearable. Even when everything and everyone tells you "you did nothing wrong".

[@markitah5340]

Exactly. It’s not real

[@Reddervetter]

I appreciate this breakdown. I've had some trouble mentally these past few years through consistent betrayals from close friends and family and have recently been in a state of confusion since graduating from my masters program. I looked to my childhood for an explanation and really do believe I might have cptsd as my upbringing was quite unstable and I was constantly dissociated. But my problem now more so is I struggle to get out of my own way, I do give power to patterns of intrusive thoughts, but realizing OCD plays a role in this has helped me make sense of things. My family always told me I had OCD even since childhood, but they were also very manipulative and violent, constantly drugged up people who I refuse to speak to. I often catch myself having fits yelling things like I have Tourette's, its always accompanied with thoughts of harm, and its hard because I do take a lot of responsibility for these thoughts because I do have a lot of built up aggression from my experiences and I have gotten physically violent which I think keeps me in cycles of guilt shame fear or regret.

[@davesmith9619]

WOW.. for some reason I feel a lot better knowing that there is a name (HARM OCD) for what I have and that I am not alone, I hate how that feeling ruins my life

[@loganandoreo4687]

I love this, I had an awful thought of hurting my mom with a knife and I didn’t want to do it. This helped me so much.

[@boxiin]

Bro it’s all good I don’t know why I think that I love her so much. Sometimes I don’t know why I think that

[@anubisiduna4640]

I suffer from this severely but cant afford therapy... Im doing my best to find ANY way possible to rid my brain from this curse but at times it feels that self ending could stop the never ending cycle...

[@johnathanblackmon1370]

Keep on going everybody in this comment section has delt and still is dealing with the same thing even tho u don’t feel like it but everyday u don’t give in u get much stronger

[@Pippin514]

These intrusive thoughts are VERY dangerous and take a while to shake them off...while panic attack/episode is experienced during these *strong and powerful* thoughts...and is usually combines with a compulsion to follow through with the most fatal or tragic thought. NOW...I do believe this is a result of *Narcissistic Abuse* by our family if origin...Probably from birth...and was ongoing for many years....maybe still is going on...unless you go NO CONTACT with them and get the help and education that is MOST required ...and fast. There is a lot of anger/rage buried in us. God Bless! TYSM for all of this, Kind Sir!

[@ruggerprogavlar8866]

I don't just get it with people, I bought a brand new TV and kept on having intrusive thoughts about throwing my remote through it .

[@bustingatdaseems]

A follow up on how to combat this would be great

[@ocdandanxiety]

Thanks for the reminder! I'll try to get this video up soon!

[@br3hbmc79]

Ive always had these violent intrusive thoughts and its made it really hard to socialize and be around people, I really dont like hugging or physical contact, even with my SO and it makes it very difficult. I think outwardly I am able to hide it quite well but it is very exhausting and sometimes I just get overwhelmed and need a place to let loose and relax and sometimes hitting or breaking something without bothering anyone else is part of it

[@doindaworst5824]

It’s so exhausting and people look at you like you’re a jerk, but it’s like bro, you don’t know what everyone’s going through. It’s good to hear there are others like this though

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers 13:42

[@dougyoung8733]

I had this 10 years ago and I recently had a relapse of this...and I finally got the guts to look it up...I feel relieved.

[@user-om8rz4nl4u]

Help me please

[@dougyoung8733]

@@user-om8rz4nl4u Hi. With what exactly?

[@user-om8rz4nl4u]

@@dougyoung8733 it's been 15 years with harm OCD it's getting worsi

[@dougyoung8733]

@@user-om8rz4nl4u the first time i experience it was a response to trauma and it lasted around a year and a half. Once high school started up it just went away and was completely normal until 3 months back. Sadly its a bit worse this time and im seeing someone next week. All I can say is the thoughts aren't you. It's a brain glitch and these thoughts are more common as you think, you have to embrace the thoughts and not be scared of them, must think of them as insignificant then the power of the thoughts will decrease I'm not an expert at all and not officially diagnosed yet I looked it up and everything listed is what I experienced. But once the more you tell yourself that the thoughts have no meaning, they'll float away I'm so sorry that you have gone through this for the longest time. It is scary but you're strong and better days are to come ❤

[@user-om8rz4nl4u]

@@dougyoung8733 thank you so much i wish you a happy life

[@sophiaflores118]

i hate having this, when im alone and see someone sleeping the first thing i think about is hurting them. i hate also having those thoughts where i think to myself that at some point i will hurt someone or that day will come. or those thoughts in my head that tells me or asks me that what are you waiting for? you have an opportunity to do it. the thing that has helped me for some time is the consequences. life will come at you and karma is real. but im so relieved that this video is here, thank you so much!

[@ocdandanxiety]

I am so glad it helped!

[@meganswindle2385]

I have pandas harm ocd. I was 14. Tried to commit suicide multiple times. Scariest thing I ever went through and wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I’m so grateful my family could afford exposure therapy, and that we lived in the ocd capital of the United States. I’ll never forget the horrible constant thoughts and constant fear. If anyone out there is going through the immense pain that I went through please know that you can and will get through this.

[@tahsoccer1874]

thanks :)

[@arsiyahgurung400]

when it starts to triggers i come to watch your video it just so relaxing and make.me believed that im not the only one.my thaughts are really scary that feels so depressing i couldnot focus on my job,future plans,.whatever i see,things or objects or any person my mind automatically create harmfull scene like "what if i push him,what if i stabbed him/her ? what if i harm someones lil baby ?my life was stucked on "what if i ? but i believed those are just thaughts those are not based upon my nature.they just come to trigger you. its been 8,9 months I'm still suffering but. its okay its just a thaughts i dont have to belived in it ❤️more power and positivity to all the sufferer out there ! i wish everybody heals soon and stay happy in every situations Be positive! Be strong

[@jilln1006]

Will you Instagram me

[@ranadeepchanda9586]

I struggled alot from last three years and researched everything and tried everything to treat my OCD. From last 2 years I am practicing Meditation every morning consistently , it's a slow process but it's the only solution, now I am medication free, started gaining muscles 💪, more peaceful. But remember I still suffer from OCD but I have learned to manage the thoughts and the only trick is When OCD triggers try breathing awareness, inhale & exhale and beware. Practice it everytime. That's the formula ,, take care

[@dynagamer5931]

Thank you guys these comments every help me ❤

[@Deku_38580]

Omg I’m so glad I found this I thought I was the only one! It really helps knowing that others also go through this. I’m a good guy and I know they’re just thoughts but I’m trying to hard not to think these thoughts. Today I cried like crazy because these thoughts were driving me nuts and I called my mom and cried my eyes off. I hate these thoughts because it’s not who I an

[@raymondragnorkha6899]

When i do have thoughts i listen to music and be by myself. It works, for me.

[@ZenSpacey]

This is me in the Nutshell! It's exhausting. I literally felt you were exactly in my brain!

[@joeypetit1412]

I found this and honestly it relates to me alot, especially because I not too long ago had one of these thoughts, it helps alot and makes me relieved I found this, Idk how to feel about thinking about possibly (never gonna know till I see a therapist) having harm OCD, it feels off to say that.

[@arbenkrasniqi9271]

Thank you so much, Nathan I sincerely thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

[@liquidsmoothxxo]

My ocd is this nice little harm/sexual ocd smoothie that makes me obsessed with whether or not I'm a Bundy-like sadist. It's horrible. I worry less about whether I WILL do something and more about whether I WANT TO do something. It's worse for me because it makes me feel like a bad person.

[@tripwire202]

I'm similar. I know I'll never act on any of them but I'm scared I want to act on them but just don't know it/want to admit it. Digital hugs. Hope things get better for you.

[@liquidsmoothxxo]

@@tripwire202 i started meds about 1 year ago after posting this and stuff got so much better. thanks for your wishes

[@flipspearing]

Jesus christ. I’ve been dealing with quite a few things you described in your video for many years. Im 33 and today is the very first time I’ve even heard of this harm ocd. I’ve never told anyone about the strange thoughts that have popped into my head over the years because they legit seem so insanely irrational it never makes any sense. I need to follow this up.

[@jamesjohnstone1224]

Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this

[@user-hx7mi7ml8u]

I like your straightforward examples of harm OCD. They’re the truth but often hard for anyone to hear or except. I still suffer from it and had it first reared it’s ugly head 26 years ago when I gave birth. I didn’t know what it was and it put me into the stress center 3 times post partum. I only began to understand it recently because of KZbin. I have painful memories from long ago and when my ex-mother in law tried to deem me mentally incompetent on the court stand when my ex husband was divorcing me. They tried to take my daughter from me and I was not prepared to know how to defend myself. The psych doctors weren’t any help either and didn’t even diagnose me correctly. It’s an awful condition with guilt and shame attached to it and not understood by the sufferer or others. I hate it. My ex eventually married our babysitter and she eventually told my daughter when she was about 14, that I crazy when I never wanted her to know about it. The babysitter, my ex, and his mom are cruel people who can suck it. 😡

[@jonathans.219]

I do struggle and it’s so scary. But, I go see my pastor and it’s so relieving.

[@deedevon7468]

Religion is a huge help to me too

[@billpapadopoulos9442]

I have harm ocd and the moment that I convinced myself that I have to talk about it to my therapist I got so anxious that xanax could not calm me down, its been around 7 days and its a living nightmare ...... and in 2 days I have to tell him. Even now , that I know that other people have harm ocd I could not calm down, I could not eat , I am all day in my bed and I dont want to get out of it.

[@ocdandanxiety]

I'm sorry for your experiences. That sounds awful. We're all stronger than we think we are! Be brave, talking about it takes power away and allows you to become the boss.

[@billpapadopoulos9442]

@@ocdandanxiety First of all , thank you for your answer and especially for creating this helpful channel, secondly Can you tell me your resume and if you do skype sessions?

[@ocdandanxiety]

@@billpapadopoulos9442 I would love to be able to help. The issue is that it's illegal to see someone that lives outside of the state(s) that I'm licensed in. Which would be Texas or Utah. 😄

[@billpapadopoulos9442]

@@ocdandanxiety unfortunately , I do not live in the USA ... however thank you!