I am a former police officer in recovery from PTSD, drug, and alcohol abuse. The emergency tone heard in this video is a panic or emergency signal that is still familiar. Strangely, I still get a little dopamine rush when I hear a tone like this. I have mixed feelings about my career and life. I was just “wired” to serve, wear a uniform, and wrestle with the darkness. However, I was not immune to the plight and suffering of the people I served…..even those I arrested. One moment earlier in my career I was sitting in my patrol car thinking, “wow, this is a dream come true, this is what I was meant to do”. Years later I was using alcohol and then drugs to bury feelings and pain that men are not allowed to talk about. There are images of violence and death that will never leave me. My chosen profession made me sick. It’s time I can’t get back. Leaves me bitter sometimes. However, I can’t tell you how much I miss it when a patrol car goes by me as it barrels down the road, howling at the night. I can’t go back though. In truth, a piece of me was sacrificed when I put on the uniform and I think it was the right thing to do to give that piece away. It comes down to a matter of honor for me. God just had a different plan for my life. Deus vult (a Latin phrase traditional Catholics use to mean, “God wills it”, I was baptized Catholic and Jesuit educated).
@Nasdaqbaby11 ай бұрын
May God keep you in the palm of his hand ❤️🙏🏻🤦♀️
@sigmarecovery69911 ай бұрын
@@Nasdaqbaby Thanks.
@scottleppard2885 ай бұрын
We get in looking, we leave by seeing. 25 years.
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
02/07/1997, then there was one. See you boys soon, 43:18, Lep.
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
If you have never served, please don't ask why we punch our fallen brethren's casket.
@Nasdaqbaby Жыл бұрын
It would be good for citizens to know
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
@@Nasdaqbaby Yes, Ma'am
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
It's a rite of passage, ma'am. Coveted in the blue line.
@Nasdaqbaby Жыл бұрын
@@scottleppard288I have many dea and police that live in my neighborhood- I see them leaving for work and after this video I say a prayer 🙏🏻 for them all
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
Thank you, ma'am@@Nasdaqbaby
@ceeveeniu9513 Жыл бұрын
Respect 😢
@king_tk.28623 жыл бұрын
Post the Video When i Just get Back Lmao Maybe you where waiting for me to get back lmao *Nice Video btw Great Job and Keep up the Greatt Work Man*
@YohnnyHUB3 жыл бұрын
Lol OF COURSE!! And thank you😂
@ThinBlueLineGuardian3 жыл бұрын
Great job mate!
@YohnnyHUB3 жыл бұрын
Thanks thanks
@notfound-kb5ot3 жыл бұрын
nice video
@scottleppard288 Жыл бұрын
Thank you, it's hard to establish a clear line of communication when this stuff goes down. God bless you, Lep
@AparecidaTeodoro-c5l8 ай бұрын
Panic room+
@Nasdaqbaby9 ай бұрын
i have dea agents and police in my neighborhood- whenever i see them leaving for work- i now say “ god bless.. and ty”.. after seeing this. my only interaction with police in 58 years was speeding ticket… i never dreamed of this!!🥲😢🥲😢😢