OPENING UP ABOUT MY BIGGEST STRUGGLE

[@annieee5642]

This is the most relatable journey I've ever followed. We fall, we get back up, we fall, get up, repeat. But we keep trying & keep getting back on the wagon... thanks for the inspo!

[@fayefisher9206]

same here thank you for sharing xx

[@d_efitones]

same for me this journey of Jac has been helped me so much

[@LeaNezz]

agreed

[@pinkrainbow1]

The thing is how can this give her a boost of confidence tho when she is providing this man a lifestyle he could never afford on his own?!? There has to be at least a small part of her that has the intelligence to understand he may have ulterior motives because of the lifestyle she is providing which is attached to this engagement / marriage! If she had absolutely nothing to offer him financially, then yes that would be a boost to her ego to say that this man wants her in spite of the fact that she were struggling financially, but when there is a $$ lifestyle attached to it you just can't flatter yourself & assume there's nothing more to it than love! If that were me & I had money I would not want the guy to live in my home or have access to my $$ lifestyle because that can create a lot of ulterior motives that attract a man to commit! If I were you I would not be at all flattered. I would question the motivation behind a man who wants to get all legally enmeshed with my money. One has to be intelligent enough that this should cross your mind.

[@pinkrainbow1]

You should never commit to someone who has an addiction or reliance on a substance of any kind.. whether it be drugs or alcohol. Unless of course you're able to profit financially & live a higher lifestyle..then you might say maybe this would be worth it for me to try to marry her & see if I can profit.. live the high life, get alimony &/ or child support in the future. Go Jordan!

[@nataliegordon3799]

Jaclyn could have gone back to doing make up but she’s using her platform to talk about hard topics that SO many people go through. Thanks for making us feel not alone. F the haters

[@TaylaMarie777]

LITERALLY. 😭

[@laamigademiguel]

Magnesium threonate crosses the blood brain barrier and increases GABA like alcohol. Supplements like it (GABA boosting) could help manage the worst physical anxiety

[@d_efitones]

YES!!! shes so amazing !!

[@Sarah-cz6zc]

YES ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@celiciabledsoe5157]

Period!!

[@amyb55555]

I'm so impressed with this woman. The bravery. We need more people having open discussions about anxiety and alcohol. This is so real and refreshing.

[@laurel1018]

100 percent. Everything she’s gone through I’ve been through as well. It’s really nice to hear I’m not the only one.

[@skylarmichellex]

Yes the struggle is real

[@mememe217]

LITERALLY

[@poeticlovee]

What I tell myself, “Depression/anxiety is my diagnosis, not my destination”. I’m here with you, hunny!

[@rachelwilt7767]

Best comment here! Love that so much! Keep strong and stay beautiful! ❤️❤️❤️

[@poeticlovee]

@@rachelwilt7767 💕💕💕

[@aidenbrooke6176]

Love this! Stealing it! 💕💕💕

[@RachASMR]

*I appreciate you showing the real, raw footage of emotions. I feel like not enough people on social media do that, and for me .. I want to see relatability. And THIS, this is real. Relatable.* I got clean off opiates 9 years ago and been clean off all drugs ever since. I share my story so others can relate and feel less alone. And I appreciate your transparency!

[@laurac86]

I used to not tell anyone that I had struggled with heroin addiction but now I’m so open with it. A lot of people say they can’t believe that I used to be an addict and that I don’t seem like that kind of person and I actually love that because it shows them that anyone can be affected with addiction and also that they can get clean and live a good life!! Anything that can help reduce the stigma of addiction is so needed in this world

[@amb8627]

Congratulations on your sobriety!!!!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU❤️‍🔥🔆🔆🔆🙌🏼

[@michellevaughan9131]

It's so hard I've been on crack and heroin for ten years and I can't stop😩 I used to have a happy normal life n it's all gone so bad. I don't know how ppl stop u deserve a medal.

[@jenjennyjenniferjamisonjoh8968]

@@michellevaughan9131 you are not alone! I’ve been addicted to heroin for almost 5 years now. I have been to rehab several times and has short periods of sobriety. I even did methadone and suboxone, all of which only helped temporarily. I feel like the 12 step systems don’t work for everyone. I don’t know what state you are in but I’d encourage you to seek out alternatives rehabilitation centers. Here in my state of Minnesota I found one that is “harm reduction” based. Meaning they aren’t punishing you for having positive UAs and they understand relapse is a part of addiction and don’t kick you out for use unless it’s endangering other patients in the program. Anyway feel free to hit me up if you wanna talk or if you need any sort of help finding resources as I’m a wizard when it comes to that stuff. And I won’t ever judge you or anyone! I’m in the same spot as you girl! Supportive peers can make a difference!

[@PamsPrettyPlants]

I wish you all the best. My brother didn’t make it out and I miss him every day. Don’t give up.

[@ikixazz23]

The fact that the whole lipsticks thing was the major trigger for your anxiety and then you didn’t completely throw in the towel and quit the cosmetics industry is such a feat on it own! You’re so strong!! You’ve got this babe!

Jordan's support is incredible, and I love seeing him love you. You two are made for each other.

[@serabera0]

How do u say that from seeing 2 minutes of them on a video?

[@LeaNezz]

so cute

[@pinkrainbow1]

And of course he has nothing to lose and can only gain from this financially so why not take the risk of choosing to enmesh himself legally/ financially with someone who has an addiction?

[@ramblinalirose]

As an addict in recovery who still falls off the wagon now and then. I see you, I feel you, I hear you. It's okay that it happened. Don't beat yourself up to much. You are loved. Your feelings are valid. The people around you will love you no matter what mental state you are in. I'm here for it babes. Love you so much. It's a life long struggle but the feeling of being non dependent of a substance is so freeing.

[@haleymarkham8952]

This made me cry. You’re so vulnerable and self aware. You’re not afraid to be human and that’s what we need on KZbin and social media in general. Please keep us updated❤️

[@dianna9609]

This made me cry . Literally I’m walking the same journey as you . With anxiety , depression , alcoholism, still working hard , looking like you got your shit together but you don’t inside . Having a great partner .. just everything I’m living your life . We got this mama im so proud of you babe 🌈

[@AmbsJamz77]

Dianna... I'm here for you. I'm going thru it too. I'll always be here for you! We need to be here for each other. And build up and help each other! Much love to you

[@amandamariepena]

When Jordan started talking about you I started crying. You deserve this love so much. You both do! 😪😪😪♥️♥️♥️

[@nancybarrett6266]

Me too

[@Maria2233]

I almost cried too 🥲

[@artemismakeup]

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@KristaBell626]

I am really happy Jaclyn opens up about her social anxiety, it helps me feel less alone with this. I've noticed I get that same anxiety when having to go somewhere alone for the first time, or having to meet with someone for the first time in person- it's refreshing to see someone else shed some light on it!!!

[@marialaaser8912]

Dude. Thank you for making this video. I can’t imagine how hard it was to make. People need this, I need this.

[@d_efitones]

dude youre in her storyyyyyy🥰

[@jennieslimm588]

This is the most pure, and humble version of you I have ever seen. I’m so proud of you and how far you have come! Love you girl and I’m here for the ride ALWAYS!

[@brittm2636]

It’s amazing that you went from saying “I don’t have a problem” at the beginning of the video to admitting you do. I love that you were able to verbalize that, that’s a HUGE step in itself. As somebody who has had bad anxiety and self medicated with weed, and as somebody who has worked with addicts for 10 years, the serenity prayer as silly as it sounds helps me when those urges come creeping back. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Saying this during high stress times has helped immensely. Good luck on the rest of your journey!!

[@okay621]

I love that prayer. It has helped me through some of the darkest times of my life

[@angelinebiswas7611]

It’s nice you’re so open about these issues. I’ve dealt with crippling anxiety and depression my entire life and lately it’s been at it’s worse. Having a partner who doesn’t support me or believe it’s real makes it so much worse. Thanks for sharing your story. You’re so lucky to have a partner who understands your anxiety issues 😢 that’s amazing.

[@cjrun2422]

It takes major balls to talk about stuff like this, so kudos to you Jaclyn, be proud of yourself & your own accomplishments. I know that’s something I needed to hear when I was going through it.💪🥳

[@pinkrainbow1]

It takes major balls to reveal you are an alcoholic on the internet. What Jaclyn doesn't realize is that's what she has revealed by the fact that she admitted she used alcohol to cope with stress, emotional stress & anxiety. This right there is called alcoholism.

[@michellecogdill6128]

@@pinkrainbow1 What SHE is or does is NONE of your business. Quit trying to convince everyone that Jaclyn has this wrong with her and that wrong with her. You also do NOT know Jordan and HIS life in 20-30 minutes either! None of us know anymore than what THEY share in those minutes on video! By the way Jordan has a very good career and his own money also. None of us "know" how big his bank account is and don't care. Idk why you care so much what they do in their life and how they live it. Why are you on HER channel for? This is for her fan's/subscriber's that want to love and support her no matter what.

[@pinkrainbow1]

@@michellecogdill6128 what I write in MY COMMENTS is none of YOUR business. I WROTE THE FACTS. SHE'S AN ALCOHOLIC AND HE DOESN'T CARE BECAUSE HE'S AFTER HER $$$ LIFESTYLE.

[@Cindy-dk9vs]

I had a “healthy” relationship with alcohol for years. And then this pandemic hit and my anxiety reached an unhealthy level and I started using alcohol to self medicate. I don’t consider myself an addict but I know I was on a slippery slope and going down fast. Someone in my group said it best “when I started drinking alcohol it was fun, then it was fun with problems. Then it just turned into problems”. For so long I questioned my “healthy” relationship with alcohol. I’ve come to learn that for some of us there’s no such thing as a healthy relationship with alcohol. Abstaining from it and lots of therapy has made a world of difference.

[@bratmari]

💯

[@j3nnibabi]

“There’s something about someone loving you in your lowest….” Girrlllll I totally know what you mean. The same happened to me. 🥰😭

[@thetastiestsunflower]

He's helping her love herself instead of loving her instead of her loving herself! and im so glad our queen has a great support system like him!

[@believestthouthis7]

Romans 5:8 - But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

[@michellecogdill6128]

@@believestthouthis7 Amen! 🙌🏻🙏🏻

[@nicolejanaye]

I struggle with severe anxiety and overstimulation. I can complete relate to your restaurant scenario. Especially since I passed out and we had to call 911 to rush me to the hospital from a restaurant. Needless to say, restaurants can make me nervous and be triggering. The reason I wanted to comment was how you both made the concrete decision to get up and leave and how it wasn’t even a blip in your mind that it was the right thing to do. And to the way and excitement you guys said you were going to get “tea”. Especially Jordan. Not even phased by needing to leave the restaurant in a hurry. That’s a man. That’s a partner. That’s your person for life.

[@karlatamez6257]

The way you feel about restaurants is how i feel about parties, weddings, birthday parties, its a nightmare, i hate being the center of attention and im very introverted and anti social

[@gothicbikerchick]

The message about loving someone when they have anxiety/depression is a vibe! How many guys I have dated that have said it's all in my head and me asking for attention. Which only makes it worse.

[@ronnie-lynn]

Yes! My ex of 6 years took advantage of my anxiety/depression. I laid in bed for 18 months. Completely gave up, while he spent my disability money on drugs. 😞

[@skye3603]

I used to have the same dependency on alcohol while going through severe anxiety and panic attacks. So thank you for sharing. It's a hard road but the more we discuss it, the more it can validate someone else's struggles and help them feel less alone. Keep up the great work of being so transparent Jac :)

[@kristinakeny4240]

When Jaclyn started tearing up about seeing close people in her life going through what she is now going through made me tear up. You got this girl!!

[@soularflarespromo1]

I’ve watched you for so many years now, and I love the growth you’ve shown as not only a creator, but as a human. This is so raw and vulnerable, and it takes a lot to admit to yourself AND millions of others that there’s something wrong. You’re someone I look up to and I really loved this video because you touched on something a lot of people struggle with. Thank you.

[@khaylajones5669]

This Jaclyn is absolutely everything.. I’m here for the vlogs I’m here for the stories the talks.. I love her

[@KellyStrack]

So happy you brought these videos back Jaclyn! Love watching them ❤️

[@amkov2473]

Jaclyn, we are perfect strangers, but I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you opening up! Anxiety and alcoholism are probably two of the most personal things to discuss. I wish you the best on your journey ❤️

[@MaryferDeBieber28]

i’ve been watching Jaclyn for many many years, u were one of the reasons i realized i suffer from anxiety bc of you sharing your journey. i really relate to using alcohol as a tool to numb my anxiety and lately i’ve realized how harmful that is to me and decided to cut back on it, so i’m really happy we’re going on this journey together!

[@whatdeyadoes]

I’m a nurse, & when covid first started I started getting anxiety attacks left & right because covid was something i was very fearful of back then since we barely knew anything about it. It got to tge point where i fainted in a Walmart once, & i was by myself. I went to the doctor and he told me that alcohol, caffeine, & sugar triggers anxiety. Its a toxic cycle because if you feel anxious you drink but at the same time its what may be triggering your symptoms. For me, it was sugar, if i had anxiety, I would eat like a brownie or homemade cookies for comfort, but tgat sugar could be the very thing that’s causing my anxiety. I cut back & it helped soo much. I hope this helped

[@twinklefire7241]

Try carnivore. At least watch a few videos before dismissing the idea.

[@michellecogdill6128]

Oh wow! I have bad anxiety especially in public around a lot of people too! I drink caffeine and never knew it makes it worse! Ty for this! Now I'll have to kick the coca cola's! 😂

[@LolaPopente]

rebound anxiety with alcohol is real and very scary.

[@kacieluebke4887]

@@LolaPopente Hangxiety

[@brando091121]

I struggle with anxiety as well. Turning 40 I woke up. Working out. Zumba class. Self care has helped. I limit my alcohol and caffeine. I quit smoking 3yrs in may.

[@keeksie7590]

Proud of you 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@marahelizabethh]

working out helps soooo much and helps your mental health!!

[@lizlizzy9567]

Omg! Yes! I just started working out & zumba again and it does help alot, just the first few weeks it's hard to stay on track but makes me feel good

[@aliblock2242]

As an OG subscriber, I love this version of you Jaclyn! It feels so genuine and real and it's so obvious how much you and Jordan love each other. Watching this journey is relatable and emotional and makes me feel closer to you. Alcohol is hard to navigate. I have many people in my life in similar situations who aren't addicted but lean on it to help them in different ways. It's so hard!!! Thank you for sharing and being open. Hopefully this can help someone and inspire others to be truthful to themselves and help themselves.

[@jessicadevine7255]

What I love about your relationship with Jordan is not only does he support you and is your biggest cheerleader, but he's also not afraid to be honest with you and hold you accountable! That is not an easy thing to do anyway, but especially with your partner. You're an inspiration for a lot of us struggling with our relationship with food, alcohol, etc. Keep it up! Thankful for you and this platform! 🖤

[@amberrauco3533]

Your drinking is relatable. I medicate with alcohol for my anxiety, too. It's also a trauma response. I hope therapy helps you work through this. Sending you all the love💕

[@sarabaldwin5598]

I grew up with an alcoholic father, and it affected my life in ways I can’t even explain. I’ve just come to terms with a lot of the unresolved trauma and by the grace of God, I’m on a journey of healing as well. My mental health took a complete nose-dive last year and now I’m doing much better than Thank you for being candid and open but the topic of mental health, and addiction, specifically alcohol. It’s something that needs to discussed openly more. Im so glad you’re cutting back and of all your progress in general! I’m proud of you and rooting for you girl!

[@ashleybeimford7177]

I’m one month sober! I’ve been coloring and trying new restaurants too! Ha I needed to find new places and new habits rather than going to the same bar all the time. And then coloring is so great to do at home and keep my mind and hands busy. The benefits of NOT drinking soooo outweigh anything you miss out on. Best wishes on your journey!

[@morganmiller2715]

Hey I had 30 days yesterday too 🙌

[@AmberrLynn13]

It is by definition alcoholism. And that is nothing to be ashamed of. Choosing to speak on it & address it is so important & will likely also allow other people to have that honest discussion with themselves, too. I noticed you also said you don’t need rehab. I agree, I don’t think you need to lock yourself away to face it head on. But I do genuinely think you could benefit from AA meetings. A lot of people struggle with this. And these resources are there to allow you to have a community to resonate with & overcome. It’s not a weakness to access these resources. Honestly, it’s a strength. You are strong & you will overcome it. Applauding you Jaclyn.

[@AmberrLynn13]

I just watched the ending clip & wow, I completely admire how candid you were. The internet needs more human & this was it. ♥️

[@nolagirl7082]

As an addict, it’s so nice to hear someone you look up to is having problems just like you.. it makes me feel not so lonely

[@bonitawilcox2909]

No@ Nola Girl, you are not alone, I'm a Mom and my beautiful Daughter is an addict....I pray alott🙏......just wanted to say prayers for you, and your not alone ❤🙏

[@nolagirl7082]

@@bonitawilcox2909 Hello! Thank you so much for taking the time to write such a sweet comment. It sounds like your daughter is super lucky to have you in her life. I lost my mom a long time ago when I was a teen. Looking back, loosing her so suddenly was probably the reason I got addicted to drugs in the first place. Loosing her was such a big loss for me

[@bonitawilcox2909]

@@nolagirl7082 Thsnk you so much , Im so sorry you lost your Mother, that is especially hard being a little girl, that's alot to try and deal with as a child...my prayers to you, and I turn to God, he can help us get through our trials, he brings us Angels, much Love to you, keep doing good, you can overcome and one day help another girl going through the same thing, that's what I tell My Daughter as well, much love. Message me anytime 🙏❤🥰

[@Mamadesigna]

I didn’t know you when I first heard about the lipstick situation. I remember tuning in and seeing everyone use you as a prop to relive their pain. Your company took full accountability and people should have given you a second chance. You’re so inspirational! You have gone through a lot!! I love your content and you!!!

[@theresamcbride9572]

Agreed!!

[@llllllllll9577]

Beautifully written out!

[@charlottegarneau1174]

Thank you so so much for talking openly about this Jaclyn! Im a counsellor and I can see how much your inner monolog is changing and it's beautiful to watch you approach the adversity you are facing from a place of compassion. Accepting anxiety and not making it your own is huge (we often recommend people name their anxiety something else to highlight that it's not them), having compassion for yourself when you're emotionally heightened is the best thing you can do. Turning to alcohol is just a coping mechanism, not a vice. The key is to continue having grace and compassion for yourself, all the while attempting to replace this coping mechanism with another coping mechanism. Reading about neuroplasticity and alcohol might interest you! Keep it up girl, you're so inspiring!

[@teagandunham4760]

I don’t why but I LOOOOOVE when you say “you know what I’m saying?” Cause my immediate response every time is “mhmm”. I have been watching you for years and honestly this is the most vulnerable you have ever been with us and I am so proud of all your ups and downs and just you in general! Thank you for always being a wonderful inspiration to me 🤗♥️♥️

[@originalmrgrta]

Me too.

[@kristincarter2513]

You look so incredible. Thank you for being so open and honest always. These help me so much especially because, I use alcohol to cope with my depression and anxiety. Just seriously thank you 💓 sending you so much love.

[@ThePennyDropsYNAB]

This felt like I was watching Jaclyn from 4-5 years ago… Such a change, proud of you and excited to see you continue this journey ♥️

[@autumnlove7482]

the clip when you’re barefaced and in the red sweatshirt, you look absolutely radiant!! so naturally pretty🤍 proud of you boo

[@HeyyitzAlyssa]

I thought the same thing!

[@leoanawitch]

My ex had always made me feel like there’s something wrong with me whenever I had anxiety attacks. Thanks for showing us that we need/ deserve partners like Jordan and there are partners who will support you like this. We need to see what healthy, supportive relationships look like and to not settle!!!

[@katekilgour4794]

Self-medicating with alcohol (or drugs or food etc) is SO common in mental disorders. Depression, anxiety, ADHD, OCD...THANK YOU for talking about it. Realising it and changing it is an amazing step 👏

[@laurentambini9749]

Try staying where you are when panic hits. I know it's awful, I'm also going through it. Hundreds of different physical symptoms, even when I'm not actively feeling mentally anxious. Staying in that moment will show your body that the alarm was false and it'll decrease over time. Congratulate yourself too. People don't realize that when anxiety is bad, sometimes we're just surviving, not living. I don't take anything for it either, but if its really that bad I'll take a beta blocker. It will get better, it always does.

[@bob1423able]

Yes half of the anxiety is the fear of the symptoms or the fear of the unknown but if you just sit with it you realize you are safe

[@christinapann1340]

Thank God for beta blockers- so helpful in those times for me too

[@Girlygirlemc]

@@christinapann1340 was going to say I wonder if beta blockers would help her. They saved my life w regards to social anxiety

[@kayabriggs3821]

Yes this!!

[@pannis72]

Anxiety is just a tiny portion of who you are, it doesn’t need to define you. Congratulations on your 💍 engagement! ❤️

[@allisonr3297]

Exactly. Someone once say to me ‘you don’t have anxiety. You FEEL anxious. When you tell yourself I have anxiety, you are claiming it’ and that really stuck with me❤️

[@AlissaWyant]

I’m so happy your being open about social anxiety because it is very real. I’m always the quiet one and people are always like why are you so quiet. It’s because I have crazy anxiety. I get really sweaty and my heart starts beating out of control, and my ears start ringing it’s really scary cause you feel like your dying.

[@gabriellelynnnn]

Totally relate!! I’m gonna try making “mocktails” in those moments of anxiety when I say I NEED A DRINK. Then I go through the motions and still get SOME release sitting down with a good lookin drink and relaxing.

[@bilingualbaby-english]

Jordan, thank you so much for taking care of our girl💖💕We love you both💖😍

[@laurenjett3226]

I didn’t even have to watch this all the way through to know the amount of respect I have for you has grown SO MUCH!!!! I’m a recovering alcoholic and this gives me so much hope! Also, like I said so much respect for you!! PROUD OF YOU!!

[@AQueen2aKing]

I’m almost 3 weeks sober. Thank you for making these videos. I also used alcohol to help with my anxiety. I found that once I stoped drinking my anxiety god better. Proud of you.

[@crystalskylight9327]

Well done. 👌 You're right, you have better quality of sleep when there's no alcohol in your system which means way less anxiety through the day + clear thoughts + more energy.

[@AllieDawson]

I was the same way with alcohol, it was my clutch when my anxiety got so bad. So hearing you say that makes me feel like I wasn’t alone. So thank you so much! I’ve cut back so much but it’s just nice to hear I wasn’t alone ❤️

[@rileys1065]

My anxiety is the worst when I drink alcohol 🥺

[@617SHA]

I've been here since the beginning and I just want to tell you how proud of you I am!!! Realizing an unhealthy relationship with food or alcohol and then trying to change it is so incredibly hard. You have such an amazing support system, we're all cheering for you to succeed!!! Than you for being so honest and real. It's comforting to see that we don't all have out shit together and it's okay!! Can't wait for next week's video :)

[@ahomesteaddream]

I’m living for this journey! I have the same ups and downs, EVERYONE DOES. It’s insane that people expect such perfection from you. Like why? You never claimed to be perfection???

[@AliKissinger]

You’ve always been Jaclyn, but I feel like the Jac we fell in love with - the unapologetically herself, vulnerable, contagious spirit is back and I’m so excited for this next step for you sis!!!

[@mememe217]

THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[@bradleybauer7411]

Every time you post now it’s a more authentic version of yourself and I appreciate that so much! Have loved and watched you since the beginning but damn girl KEEP THIS REAL SHIT GOING 🖤

[@alyssahamlett]

🤣🤣🤣 my God if u think this is a genuine person I've have no faith in humanity

[@bradleybauer7411]

@@alyssahamlett Sounds like a you problem. You don’t have to watch it. Please no confrontation here

[@keekess]

@@alyssahamlett you have 21 negative comments on this channel 😭 ur obsessed with jaclyn lmaooo jealous or what ?

[@rachelalexander685]

Jordan's support is so amazing. I love watching him love you. You guys are so perfect for each other♥

[@hailielathrop1840]

The end of you admitting you it was an alcohol problem is so amazing!! You are making huge steps. I relate to this a lot. I am so excited to see your progress. 😁

[@jesscopacia25]

I 100% relate to this journey in every way! I too have anxiety and use to have a normal relationship with alcohol. Then went through a hardship in my life and found myself doing exactly what you did. The crazy thing is alcohol fixes the “in the moment” anxiety but then causes what I call “alcohol blues” the next day, which causes more anxiety. It’s a very hard cycle to break and you are amazing for realizing you needed to change and doing the hard work!

[@ambermorton5030]

Thank you Jaclyn for opening up about such a difficult subject. I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder in 2017 and I also experience social anxiety so I understand relying on alcohol when going out to restaurants and any new social situation. One thing I figured out a couple of months ago is that I had to figure out why I was anxious, its great to know that you are anxious but asking yourself a lot of questions to get to the root of the issue was super helpful for me. Hope this helps!

[@mikaylanowakowski7215]

I'm so proud of you, I also struggle with the same relationship with alcohol. This was like listening to my own battle in my head. Thank you for sharing and helping normalize feelings most people don't talk about. You are strong, beautiful, and brave! You got this girl!

[@mariiexo]

Quitting anything unhealthy is super hard honestly but anything is possible! 16-20 I was drinking a tonnn, I was in a toxic relationship with a drug dealer, drinking a 2'6 every party night between a friend and I, shots after shots on the weekends, within that time frame I started doing coke, shrooms, molly etc. I woke up one morning and just said enough is enough, deleted a bunch of people, left my ex a few months after realizing it wouldn't work if I was focusing on myself. At that point I didn't even think about drinking, I'm almost 30, been with the same man for 9 years and we have a beautiful daughter. I haven't touched any drugs (besides weed) since that day I quit and I probably drink 4-5 times a year, if that. Now I'm focusing on my food habits, changing that for me has honestly been harder then anything else but if I got through all that, I can do this, you can do this, anyone can do this ❤

[@ryannegarcia8478]

I lost everything to addiction. Thankfully, I chose to live. I've been clean and sober for 7.5 years now. I'm proud of you. One thing I've learned is, for me, it's all or nothing. And life is beautiful sober. I'm proud of you 👏

[@gabrielapadillaesperanza]

Jaclyn it feels so good to see people like you speak about anxiety in a open way !!! I really appreciate it ! I'm so proud of you !! Anxiety doesn't define you !!! xxx

[@maddieholden6904]

Jordan has such a calming manner/presence about him, I love it. I feel like he helps reason you through the hard points in life in such a healthy way. ❤️

[@nataliesoutlet]

Jaclyn haha you are a full show and I LOVE it! The scream, Jordan walking in and just YOU! Loving this energy 🌈😚✨

[@_locallee_]

It breaks my heart to see the ramifications of how horrible people were to Jaclyn during the lipstick drama. We never notice how powerful our words are. Glad to see she's in a state of healing and empowerment!

[@Itsfeliciababy]

When he talks about you, you can tell how much he adores you and he is definitely your soul mate. My husband is mine, and it truly helps when we are in the situation with aniexty.

[@dorothyabernethy360]

The end bit really got me, when you got choked up over admitting you had an alcohol problem. I’m so happy you’ve been able to recognise an issue in your life and tackle it head on - and that you have the support to do so! It’s such a blessing to have a supportive partner and I’m so glad you two have found each other ❤️

[@ashleysanchez7]

Hey Jaclyn, thank you for being so transparent. I love your vulnerability and honesty. I have anxiety and struggle with trying to manage it, I finally decided this year was about me feeling the best about myself physically, and mentally. I also have some hormone imbalances that I am trying to find out about and just seeing you push through and be realistic role model helps me not feel alone. I love you and Jordan and wish you guys the biggest blessings.

[@Tiffany_a.s.m.r]

I've followed you since the beginning and I'm so proud of you for putting yourself out there! You're amazing, never forget it! We all have set backs, but luckily you have such a supportive family and fiancée to help get you through it all. ❤️

[@heathermoehle8080]

This is your journey and don't let anyone bring you down. You're beautiful regardless!! 😍❤️

[@michellecogdill6128]

@HIBA TV Troll. 🛑

[@IsabellaDozzi]

This is bizarre. This is literally my life right now too! Ive also gained weight the last few years and have struggled to lose it; ive been using alcohol for anxiety since covid started; I just got engaged and it made me so much more motivated and feels so good to be loved dispite my “flaws”; my fiancé scares the shit out of me whenever he walks in the room… legit this is me in one video lmao 🤣 I also get horrible anxiety when I go to restaurants and often have to leave cause it gets so bad. I 100% relate and you’re not weird for it! It happens to so many of us

[@twinklefire7241]

I don’t know how to say this without being obnoxious. I was almost vegan, basically plant based. I suffered the same problems. Anxiety, depression, weight gain. Something clicked in my brain, and I decided to try the opposite. I went full carnivore. Lost a bunch of weight without trying, anxiety gone. Maybe it’s worth a shot for you.

[@krystenbiedscheid5624]

Same for me! My anxiety has been increasingly worse, I’m engaged now, and often have to leave restaurants because I get too anxious 😬 I don’t drink but I 100% understand the feeling of wanting to do anything to feel less anxious. It’s the most scary feeling!

[@teresawest1787]

@@krystenbiedscheid5624 thankfully you do t drink bc that’s when alcohol becomes problematic. Have you considered a therapist? I’ve suffered w anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember and have been in treatment for years. Please look in to it 🙂

[@TimberBlitzen]

I'm proud of you. I love Jordan's cooking channel, BUUUUTTTT... coming from someone who has been sober from alcohol for over 7 years... I've heard your story from dozens of people and Jaclyn with peace and love, you are suffering from alcoholism.

[@hwoods-kg1jf]

As a recovering alcoholic myself with a year and 42 days sober today, I will have to agree with you. This is definitely sounding like pretty textbook alcoholism. I'm not trying to be mean or put her down in any way because that's the last thing you need when you're struggling but I'm just calling it like I see it and this is what alcoholism looks like. When you're drinking to cope with anxiety and depression that is an issue for sure (that was what I was doing for most of my life honestly) and I justified it for so long! Now I have permanent health issues (mostly liver, kidney, blood and spleen issues) now because of my alcoholism and addiction issues (I'll be 39 this September) and it wasn't until I put the drugs and the bottle down did I realize exactly what the hell I was doing to myself. I was stuck in a toxic cycle and it does feel good to be free of it! I hope the same for Jaclyn but she needs to get real with herself and realize that she does really have a problem if she is drinking the way she's describing. She's got plenty of money to go to a nice treatment center and it could be good for her mind, body and spirit! Also having Jordan as a support will help her! I have a very supportive boyfriend I've been with for 12 years and he doesn't drink at all and understands my struggles and is very supportive of me! So she's got some support which is important!

[@Sha_NaLeaaaa]

@@hwoods-kg1jf For both of you, I have a question/something to add… don’t you feel like she has a food addiction too?? And trying to just insert eating unhealthy again and making excuses to why it’s fine for her to do as as way to cope with not having a drink is just trading one crutch/addiction/problem for another one… right? And I feel like Jordan says all the nice words to support her, but it’s doesn’t really show up in his actions. She has all these “yes men” around her that just hype her up and confirm what’s she’s saying and doing all of the time, and it just adds to her bias when she looks at herself, her situation and her actions. No one is strong enough to hold up a real mirror in front of her, in my opinion. Also, Jordan gives the vibe that he doesn’t care and is actually happy when she is eating like crap again bc that’s how he likes to eat and he doesn’t know what’s else to do together when she’s “dieting.” Going to all these restaurants and ordering multiple plates of food, ice cream every day, and his cooking channel where he cooks nothing but unhealthy, cheesy, greasy junk every episode and he is constantly wanting her to taste and try everything he makes is like constantly dangling a shot of heroin in front of an addict. I truly think she has a food addiction as well and if you even ask someone like that to taste something, you are triggering that addiction bc she simply can’t moderate like an average person. And she’s too busy making excuses for herself to see that. I’m not saying he doesn’t support her or love her, but she’s never going to get better if someone doesn’t really tell her what she’s doing. Everyone in her life, her fans, etc are always praising her every move and thought, and she doesn’t have healthy or realistic ideas when it comes to these things, in my opinion. It’s just a constant cycle with her of excuses. There’s always a reason why she’s falling off or doing something or regressing. I don’t think I’ve ever heard her truly own up to a harsh reality and it’s worrisome bc she’ll never get better that way. She’s constantly got the blinders on and everyone telling her that it’s okay and it’s not okay.

[@taytertot8688]

Yall can go mind your own business and leave your "suggestions and input" at home. She has an amazing support system and she's in therapy and has reliable doctors and sources to help guide her through this. It's not your place to say anythong like that when she didn't ask for other people's advice. You should know better as a human, let alone as addicts yourselves... to not place your judgements and accusations on someone you don't know that DIDNT ask for your help.

[@hwoods-kg1jf]

@@Sha_NaLeaaaa to be honest, she might just have addiction issues period. Food included. It is also common to go from one addiction to another. I was what they call a "poly substance abuser" meaning I used more than just one drug. I was an addict and an alcoholic for most of my life. For over 20 something years. I had my first drink at the age of 4 or 5 by the male baby sitter that molested me. He tried to give it to me to I think try and "make me forget" what he was doing to me but I remember most of it unfortunately. I think that and A TON of other traumatic things that happened to me in my life as well as having addiction/mental health issues in my genetics on BOTH sides of my family was what the root of my real issues were. Addiction is a symptom of a bigger problem basically. She's trying to mask some kind of pain/depression/anxiety like she said so yes, she very well could be doing the same with food. I feel for Jordan because there is a very thin line you tread with an addict/alcoholic and I agree he needs to quit being such a "yes man" and maybe talk her into getting some professional help. I mean she can afford the best medical professional help money can buy so I hope she gets it because she really needs it badly! This is exactly how I was before I got sober! I also struggled with my weight when I got sober and it's still a struggle for me so I can empathize with her on that.

[@arlyjade9344]

It’s a hard world to live in. Having an addiction to anything is todays norm. What’s your guys addictions? People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones. I have a recovering parent yes she stopped using prescription drugs but she also has an addiction to coffee, adrenaline based activities. Etc etc. an addiction is an addiction. I have addictions to food my phone overthinking etc. humble yr selves people before you call out jaclyn. Take a look in the mirror

[@jackydoggie]

It’s so true, having someone love you at your lowest means a great deal.

[@Sydney-vu1fu]

You posted this at the most perfect time. I’m dealing with the same thing and my anxiety is on another level. I generally use alcohol to cope with my anxiety to take the edge off. I just got engaged as well and love coloring books😅

[@maggiewilson184]

congrats

[@pancakek2397]

I do the same thing and it’s such a hard habit to break :/

[@cindystauffer3242]

Completely relate as well.

[@kayleigh2760]

I lost my dad 2 years ago due to alcohol. We all watched him struggle with it for 30 years it was so so hard, I will never touch the stuff anymore but thats my choice. I'm glad your taking control, I get how hard it can be 💖

[@sl1274]

sending you love and positivity 🥰

[@kayleigh2760]

@@sl1274 Thank you 💖

[@sondra4516]

Love this series Jaclyn! So proud of you for being so vulnerable and real, it’s admirable. I’ve also struggled with anxiety, coping mechanisms, depression, body issues, eating disorders, etc. It really helped me to not only talk about it but also the spiritual aspect! Reiki, past life regression, and meditation helped so so much! I recommend.

[@Raey521]

When you guys were talking I’m the car after ice cream, and talking about the more you push through your anxiety, the better you feel. It’s called exposure therapy and I think you’re amazing girl. Still here after all these years! Ride or die!!! ❤️

[@beautybydoua]

I am so proud of you Jaclyn!❤️ Don’t be so hard on yourself when you do mess up. Shit happens and you just get back on track. You being aware of this issue is doing more good for you then not even noticing it at all. Keep it up and let’s overcome this mental health together!

[@roxygaitan83]

Omg, I’ve had the worst week and I’ve suffered from anxiety since I was a kid and it made me cry watching your intro and discussion about anxiety. Thank you for opening up about it and it helps to know I’m not alone.

[@dmomma2010]

I love how supportive your circle is. You can do this ❤️.

[@lisasmalls5062]

To be quite honest I've seen a few of your older videos and I wasn't that drawn to them… However, you won my heart in this video and you are most definitely a strong and motivating individual i know that I don't know you but I'm literally in tears I'm so proud of you! I struggle with substance abuse anxiety and depression and when you see someone be so vulnerable yet so strong it's inspiring and I am definitely 100% a fan at this point keep up the good work!

[@MariaRivera-en4wd]

I felt this but with 🍃 and not alcohol, I noticed I was doing it every single day and it was to numb myself and just relax but I’ve been one month clean and I just want to enjoy it on fun days and not because “I need it” . Definitely understand you , so proud of you ❤️

[@jackeline9168]

Yes me too, being dependent on weed sucks I haven’t smoke in over a month and a half and I feel so much better

[@borderlinepersonalitybarbi573]

Good for you guys! I don't know that I can ever or will ever quit smoking. I have crohns disease and it helps my stomach so much! I hate being dependent but it's better than taking pills all the time.

[@jackeline9168]

@@borderlinepersonalitybarbi573 thats okay you actually need to use it cause it helps you! me I just used it to deal with my problems in life but in reality it just made them worse especially my anxiety, depression

[@MariaRivera-en4wd]

@@jackeline9168 yes exactly! ❤️ and my health was awful because of the munchies , I feel so much more in control in my emotions and eating

[@99bulletsarescene]

I can totally relate to the alcohol thing! I feel like ive been wanting to drink almost everynight to mask my emotions.

[@katieb3929]

JACLYN!!!!! seriously thank you so much for being vulnerable. I think more people can relate with you than you can imagine about dealing with anxiety. Especially when you talked about leaving the house and what if scenarios playing in your head. Thank you so much 💗

[@Lynn-zx3th]

You are truly amazing for being so open and honest about self medicating. So relatable. I think Jordan makes you feel so loved that you feel free to totally be yourself and that’s so awesome!

[@Ayvonne614]

Baby anytime you are CRAVING alcohol and see it as a “fix” or coping mechanism to certain areas in your personal life it has become an Addiction. Hate to be completely honest but please get into a program and handle this as an adult, as humbling as it may seem, YES you are Absolutely DEPENDENT on ALCOHOL and cannot do it on Your own or with a therapist . You need a professional who Specializes in alcohol addition Not friends, family, or a Fiancé to say “you’re fine” .. ❤️ Because baby ice cream and delicious food isn’t the alternative to stopping anymore, and I think you know that . Be smart, get yourself together . ❤️

[@ChickieK8T]

Yup

[@Sha_NaLeaaaa]

Finally someone else said it. 💯

[@katieostrowski5486]

the beginning of this video was EVERYTHING. you explained that perfectly. ilysm and you've got this ❤️

[@paigepope9525]

I feel like this is so important to shed light on the grey areas of addiction, you can have a problem with something or know you’re depending on it without being a full blown addict but still a problem that you needed to address with yourself , you obviously have no obligation to address it with the whole world but I believe this helped a lot of people . Love you jaclyn ♥️

[@AlexNarra]

Jaclyn across this video I could literally see the swelling going down in your face seriously!!! Indeed, alcohol, aside from the mental issues and the health issues that alcohol can give you, girl, you look so good!

[@yaneliperezg]

i thought the same!

[@OhHeyShy]

I can’t tell you how happy it makes me seeing you post about your weight loss journey. You’re so open & real and the world needs more of this. honestly it inspires me. I have PCOS and Hashimoto’s & my weight has always been a struggle. From your first episode till now I can’t wait to follow along. I even started a weight loss journey as well on my channel and you literally inspire me. Thank you for being you❤️

[@chelseanichole5158]

I have PCOS too. Her talking about her weight struggle makes me feel better about mine. Like, I have something in common with Jaclyn!

[@OhHeyShy]

@@chelseanichole5158 same❤️ and ugh PCOS is the worst!

[@jasminelynn9573]

So proud of you!!!!! I used to be an “alcoholic” when I was going through a lot of anxiety/depression. Only I would literally drink from the morning until I closed my eyes at night. Sadly, my “awakening” moment was when I got an OWI 4years ago & got put on probation for a yr. now, I can hardly even touch a drink & when I do if anything it’s like a couple white claws & that’s it. I honestly don’t even love the feeling of being drunk anymore now. My life has improved SO much since then! Love your journey

[@sheaslover6442]

This is real. Raw. Beautiful. I’ve loved this series so much and appreciate your vulnerability more than you know. Thank you for being a real one, Jaclyn Hill.

[@C-U-Never-Troll]

Thank you Jaclyn for sharing so much of your journey with stress and anxiety and cutting out drinking. I totally know the feeling but honestly once you get there you are gonna feel amazing!! Keep up the good work gurl

[@rvgymnast13]

I can’t imagine how difficult it was to be so open and vulnerable about a difficult subject. Sending all the love❤️ I know it means a lot to so many people to see this being talked about.

[@brookeari]

So happy to see you back 🥰 thanks for being real about this whole journey

[@chelseanunley1390]

I truly admire how vulnerable and open you’re being. I’ve used alcohol as a coping mechanism as well and I’m so proud that you’re able to notice it and try and stop. You’re truly amazing 💞

[@georginaurenda8991]

Her fiancé is literally an angel 😇 like how he copes and deals with her is super admirable. I can tell he is truly in love with her. Shout out to all supportive partners it truly makes a difference. Thank you Jaclyn for sharing.