Our Infertility Journey | Brandon & Michaela Keilen

It’s hard to put into words the grief and pain that have been part of our journey, as well as the hope and grace we have experienced through our seasons of sorrow. In this video we share about the dark times we encountered while battling infertility, where questioning God’s very goodness rose in our hearts. In this struggle-filled journey of repeatedly asking God “why,” we eventually realized we had been given a gift that was sustaining us through our deepest valleys. It’s hard for us to adequately express our thought and feelings on this topic, but we wanted to share with those on a similar journey that you are not alone, and that there is hope in the midst of pain. #infertility #loss #hope #grace #faith

[@nmrn672]

Could everyone who has watched this video stop for a moment and say a special prayer for this precious couple?

[@sca965]

Done, In Jesus Name! 🙏

[@teresa_twin_1211]

Praying now!

[@dianagray702]

Sending prayers

[@patriotmama]

Praying right now in the name of Jesus!

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Praying

[@jsears541]

We will celebrate 19 years of marriage next month, and have never conceived a child. Sadly, that door seemed to close more and more as we got older, and the last bit of hope for a pregnancy vanished last year when i was diagnosed with endometrial cancer and had to have a hysterectomy. Thankfully, we chose early in our marriage to become foster parents while waiting for pregnancy to happen, and we fostered 6 children, 3 of whom we were able to adopt as babies. The girls are now 17 and our son is 13. I won't say that i don't still grieve being able to give birth myself, but God had a plan for our family and i am so grateful to be my kids' mom. I will pray for a full home for you both, however God decides to fill it. You will be amazing parents!

[@kymberlyrose6747]

I only noticed how he looks at his wife with love, and he is listening. It's beautiful

[@jennifervos5830]

Many tears while I watched your video, we went through seven years of infertility. I stopped when we had to do gift or in vitro, I physically, mentally, emotionally and financially, could not keep going. We decided to adopt thinking we were going to wait 2 years - six weeks later we got a phone call that we were picked, seven weeks later, our son was born. Thinking we were going to wait two years so that we could save up for the adoption because we did not have the money we unexpectedly received a bonus from my husband‘s work that we didn’t know was coming and fully covered our adoption. When our son turned one I found out I was pregnant, in November our second son was born. When our first son turned three I found out I was pregnant again and delivered our daughter also in November. God has a plan, sometimes it’s not our plan but the outcome is bigger and better than you can imagine.

[@RebekahTeague]

I walked through a similar journey. My husband and I struggled with infertility for 10 years. I got pregnant with our miracle baby only to miscarry a short time later. Then suddenly, out of nowhere, we were approached about a baby boy, soon to be born, who needed a family. That baby boy is 22-years-old and the absolute joy of my life. When he was born, even though I hadn't carried him, it was like we knew him and had been waiting for him all of our lives. I always think about our first baby who we won't get to see until we reach heaven...but God's plan was something I couldn't even have dreamed up for myself. We are blessed beyond measure.

[@debbiebergstrom5215]

Adoption is a wonderful plan to make a family. We adopted our first son then I got pregnant at 41. That’s what God’s plan was.

[@betsybabf748]

My very good friend had a similar situation. They struggled with infertility for 12 years, including having surgeries and many IVF attempts, which never worked. They then adopted a newborn baby girl. The very week they brought their new daughter home, my friend felt very sick. She is a nurse herself and was nervous to be sick around their brand new baby so she went to her doctor. She was shocked to learn she was pregnant, and now their daughters are just 8 months apart in age and best friends.

[@jerrilynhenson9024]

That happens a LOT.. it’s said your body relaxes after a baby or child to care for.. ❤❤

[@naomi8097]

@@betsybabf748I’ve heard of this happening too 😊

[@elizabethsheppard5191]

That happened to my husbands aunt and uncle, they adopted two children and then got pregnant.

[@arianeprice3176]

it is deeply painful and this is most likely the wrong thing to say but it could be that God has another path for you so He IS actually putting you on a specific path. It could be to adopt a child who needs you. one of Hods children who would hugely benefit from your love specifically. pro life and pro supporting the lives of children whose birth parents couldn’t keep them. or to foster. the amount of souls you would change through this. the amount of paths. it’s so hard when God doesn’t seem to be listening to your specific prayers but all along He is actually nudging you toward a different plan that is His plan.

[@Lisa-ne5pd]

I had a hysterectomy at the age of 32. Never got to have a baby. I decided that God's plan wasn't my plan. So I followed God's plan and i become at peace. So I become a foster mom. I did adopt a 3 year old little boy. Who became the love of my life. He is now 26 years old and my best friend. Praying for you. God Bless you both.

[@dawnhash6068]

As a childless couple married 30yrs. We know how hard this was to share. You did it with beauty and Grace.

[@angelinadrobina5037]

Your testament of faith had me in tears the whole time / whoever the baby is that has your name on it is going to be so loved and so cherished and so so lucky to be able to call you mum and dad - I am sending you all of my love from Australia 💛

[@carolreis1610]

I, too, never had children and have been married thirty years - there were no children as I had to have a hysterectomy when I was 21 years old due to PCOS, Endometriosis, and MANY ovarian cysts that had to be removed. I remember that day so vividly when I woke up from surgery and learned that the only option was a hysterectomy!! Due to future health issues, the option to adopt or foster kids was not an option, either. I thank the Lord every single day for the man that the Lord brought the wonderful man that is now my husband of thirty years into my life. He was there for me when I learned that children were not possible and he married me anyway!! Nowadays, I’m a little lonely because I’m at the point in my life where I should be enjoying grand babies of my own, and, I have to admit, it’s so difficult, but I also know that somehow this is God’s plan for me. I feel so blessed that I have a man whom I will celebrate thirty years with on June 4 of this year, 2024. I just trust in Him that my heart will heal through this.

[@JesusPrinceofPeace]

A Christian couple I know tried 13 years to have a baby and was told by doctors that they would not be able to have children. God spoke to the husband a year ago and told him it was time, that they would have a child. Their baby was just born last month ❤ I know God can do a miracle in your life as well. I cried watching your video, I am praying for you that God will send your baby soon

[@JLRobbins]

I was adopted and we adopted all six of our children. It has been wonderful.

[@jillo1013]

I haven't followed the Bates Family in years, but Michaela was one I never forgot, and every time God brought her to my remembrance, I prayed for her to conceive. Their daughter lives, and they will see her again. Until that time, I trust that their family will be made complete, however that looks.

[@annie3343]

Oh Michael... I'm sobbing and needed this testimony today. We waited 9 years to conceive our son, a total miracle considering our infertility issues. Many years later went on to adopt internationally 2 little girls. Our son died last November at the age of 27 from skin cancer. I can barely face God right now, my God, who decided to call back the child we prayed and waited for so long. Our son was a newlywed and truly loved by all. I find solace in our daughters, my husband and my daughter-in-law who is the bravest person I know. I am blessed I have my family and blessed beyond measure for the 27 years I had on Earth with my son. But I cannot find solace in God right now - please pray for my Faith.

[@Donna-F]

Praying for your faith.

[@bezagebremedhine5102]

My condolences. Think of Mother Mary during this hardship. Her suffering of losing Her only one Beloved son ..in a such cruel way. She was alone most of Her remaining life. Alone and runing from one place to another bc of her enemies who killed her Son and our Lord. May Christ comfort you. From a Coptic orthodox Christian in the east.

[@paullaking8909]

I'll be praying for you as well, you have me in tears... I lost my 13 mo granddaughter I was helping my daughter raise, almost 11 years ago. We literally went from heaven to a walking, living nightmare in the span of seconds... so I would never wish that pain on anyone and my daughter, much like yourself is still struggling in her relationship with God and as I've tried to tell her, without God, we won't survive this. God is our last hope, without the hope of one day seeing that baby and my other family I couldn't even imagine lasting another day. The devil will use whatever hardship he can find in us to exploit and try to take you further away from God. Don't allow it, be mad, but talk to him about it until you get some peace back because you will get some peace again, nothing will ever be the same again but keep reminding yourself this is but a temporary time, a few minutes of the joy we will experience, our eternity is with our families and it's the end that really matters in the grand scheme of life... I will pray that God helps you find some peace, and if you would ever like to talk, you can message me anytime. Hugs and prayers from Oklahoma 🙏 ❤

[@mackenziekanis3096]

I'm so sorry for your loss! Praying for your family 💔 we lost our infant son 4.5 years ago and it was hard to face God. But I had to accept that God creates life and sustains life. Ultimately our children even our own lives do not belong to us they belong to the Lord and he sustain his children. He is our maker, our children's maker and he has the right to do with his clay as he sees fit. That's such a hard pill to accept. I will say although we are only 24 when Maverick passed as an infant the Lord never left us. He stood by us and sustained us. He is faithful and Good and unchanging. Even when our circumstances change for better or worse He is our savior ❤ He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Please Jesus! Losing your child is such a hard road; one I would wish on my worst enemies🤍 my heart breaks for you but I pray you find comfort in Him. Remember God is a big God he can handle your emotions, cries, screams, anger and pain. He has emotions and likewise he created us to have them too! I found the book holding onto hope to be the most powerful book I read. I recommend it to all the bereaved moms I run across. It's personal and gives hope and proclaims Jesus Christ Ben in the midst of the author being called to bury two children ❤ praying for you and all your family! This life is hard we can give thanks that God knows what it's like to lose his son, he gave him up for us sinners so we too could be made right and adopted as sons and daughters of the King. Just as he rose from the dead we will too! What a savior we have and what an incredible hope we have. Yet we still grieve even Jesus wept. He collects our tears, he hears our cries and he hates sin even more than we do. Look to him. Read the psalms. Read Job. Remember your savior will never forsake you, your son, your family. He will carry you when you are too weak to walk. 🤍

[@lauraC1082]

The loss of a child Is a grief beyond words. When my granddaughter passed I too could not face God, I still struggle. Give yourself time! I will keep you in my prayers

[@maritzarodriguez1547]

I am in tears for you. Michaela if anyone in this earth is near our Lord and Savior, is you!!! Your soul is pure and your faith is enviable 🙏🏻 God Bless you!

[@AprilOverseas]

Oh friends. My heart goes out to you. We have walked a similar journey. We lost 6 babies first trimester and 1 babygirl named Annabelle at 21 weeks. Mixed between the losses were years of infertility as well. After 5 years God changed my hearts desires to adoption and we brought home our first born from the hospital through the beautiful gift of adoption. Fast forward 13 years later and I have 4 children here on earth now...2 through adoption and 2 biological. All God's gifts. Praying right now for you all!!!

[@gkskforever6909]

Beautiful testimony ❤

[@crystalpritchard5738]

After 2 miscarriages, every test imaginable and years of prayers my daughter gave birth to my first grandchild in November 2023. We are so blessed and thankful for our perfect miracle and I’m praying that you receive your little miracle soon. I love that y’all put your faith and trust in God, the one true miracle maker.

[@annab6242]

I’m not a Christian, but as someone who has been through infertility, I wish you all the best ❤

[@cynthiawhitaker4538]

No one can truly understand the pain of infertility unless they have gone through it. I had cancer in high school and the chemo and radiation saved my life, but left me infertile. I was blessed later to adopt two children, and I taught school for 25 years and had amazing students. You are in my prayers, and your strength and faith during your journey is inspirational. Hold on, have faith, and keep moving forward. Know you are loved, and there is a divine plan for you both.

[@eaglea657]

I had my son at 45 after giving up and finding nothing wrong from many specialist ONLY GOD! Thank God he was healthy he's 21 and finishing college soon. After c-section OBgyn told me I had a uterus in the shape of a butterfly, maybe that was why but no one had caught that through scans etc. He's keeping my husband and I young now in our sixties.❤❤❤ Oh and we all love Jesus❤❤❤Life IS surprising and sweet!

[@pamelashelton580]

Liberty Godparent Home in Lynchburg, Virginia!!!!

[@cutteralyssa]

I could do relate to your infertility story. I took was never able to get pregnant. All I ever wanted was to be a wife and a mother and I loved God with all my heart. I remember all my friends at church getting pregnant and I was happy for them but I would have to go in the bathroom and cry. I had a dream that I adopted a baby boy. Without going into all the details, that is what happened. Tears were flowing as I listened to you both share. Praying God opens the door for adoption if that is his plan for you. Thank you for sharing.

[@meganarlow3950]

Thank you Jesus for giving this coupe the opportunity to share their experience with us. May the Lord continue to bless you and your family.

[@susanbland5082]

Thank you for sharing such a tender story. Praying for you. God is a good good Father. He loves you so much.

[@theresamcguire5078]

My husband and I could not conceive. Doctors could find no medical or obvious reason except that it just wasn't God's plan. We adopted 2 beautiful siblings 11 years ago this past December. God bless you both. Just remember this that we were told by our adoption specialist, some people are going to parent, some are going to give birth and others will do both. We were meant to parent. That's not a bad thing, that's an amazing thing. It takes a special person to love a child you didn't birth and if anyone can it's you two.

[@pick10tennisjacquelinebogg23]

We formed our family through adoption! One boy, now 23, and one girl over 20! Praise God!

[@AnitaM-10127]

I did not know the heart ache of not being able to get pregnant or of having a miscarriage, but I lost my oldest son to cancer, when he was a young adult. I have been a Christian for many years, but after watching your testimony of faith, through hard times, has given me an even deeper awareness of the Lord’s presence and comfort. Today, I asked the Lord to manifest himself in a tangible way and after praying a short request, God answered me in a very practical way through a total stranger. Thank you so much for sharing. Your witness will be a forever reminder of the Lord’s compassion and that we are not here alone. Many blessings upon you both.

[@lindsaybezet3517]

I am sorry for the loss of your son. God bless you 💝

[@user-hj6bf1bw9z]

Oh micheala my heart breaks for you guys, i know exactly how you feel because I have felt it all, infertility is so lonely and something so painful 🙏🏻😢

[@pennycowher6328]

So sorry for your loss😢

[@jukes243]

When our dreams came to an abrupt end, I was at a crossroad (contemplating which way to go) when the Lord spoke to my heart and said "you either trust Me or you don't". That's when I "let go and let God". Our situation has not changed, I have. I now choose joy. Life is too precious to be miserable. Thank you so much for sharing your painful journey with us. I will be praying for you. The Lord has a plan for your lives. You can trust Him.

[@kimkelly9046]

Beautifully said

[@Tj-TrustJESUS]

LORD BLESS YOU as you TRUST in JESUS!! What a BLESSING of encouragement you have shared, as there is nothing easy of your journey BUT You trust HIS plans for you!! 🙏🩷💙

[@nancyarsenault3876]

Why don’t they adopt?

[@JeanWebb-vg1fl]

My therapist told me it is ok to be upset with God. He has big shoulders and he can handle it. After I told him I had more peace. Praying for you both.

[@Cindy-pi5wv]

In times of darkness just remember God has a treasure for you in the end!

[@ammyreyes1910]

What a beautiful testimony!! My husband and I are celebrating 13 years of marriage this coming summer. Got married at 19 years he was 20 years. It was until I was 29 years old that we welcome our first baby girl. I remembered one day I surrendered everything to Him. I said to God I am going to not take any more pregnancy tests and told Him if your will for us is to just be doggie parents the amen!! 10 months later I found out I was pregnant. Six months ago I gave birth to our second baby girl that I was told had stopped growing and thankfully the doctors were wrong and she is so perfect no issues at all!! God can do it all and if His will is for u guys to be parents you will be one day!!. 😇😊🙏😇🙏

[@alcprek]

No one understands how lonely infertility is unless you have been through it. During my 1st IVF, a week before my scheduled transfer, I had just gotten to a monitoring appointment when I got a phone call saying my mom was being life flighted because she had a stroke. I remember crying in my car asking God, how he could do this to me, first the infertility and now my mom. The transfer happened a week later and was successful and my mom made a full recovery. But it was a very hard few weeks. At 42, I now have a 2 year old and a 10 month old, both ivf babies. I thank God every day for my boys. I went through the darkest times with infertility, but I think it made me so grateful to finally be a mom.

[@mymakersdaughter6041]

Oh, beloved! How precious the two of you are! Yesterday, when I was watching Lawson and Tiffany’s video, God put it on my heart to pray that he would open Michaela’s womb and I felt myself just wailing for her and Brandon. And then I see this video today. I am so grateful that we can be raw and honest with God. The psalms is proof that we can, and that he listens to everything and then he collects our tears in a bottle! I pray that God gives you the desires of your heart however, that looks! You two are a bright light in this very dark world! You are SO loved and seen by Him!! ❤🙏🏾

[@ciaraf4158]

I can understand how upsetting it is. It took my husband and I five years of marriage before we were able to finally have a baby. I even almost lost her when I was 10 weeks pregnant. Now she’s 18 months . We spent thousands of dollars on tests. My heart and prayers are with you and Brandon

[@NitaHamilton-sk6el]

😢As a woman who lost a child over 40 years ago there's so much sorrow but a BLESSED PEACE IN our prayers & KNOWLEDGE THAT WE WILL SEE OUR CHILDREN IN HEAVEN SOMEDAY.

[@SynnoveaLyn]

I’ve never commented before, but we have experienced very similar journeys. I too have a blood clotting disorder, and after years of infertility I got pregnant. But God chose to bring our baby home to him and at ultrasound there too was no heartbeat. It’s been 10 years now, and I am mama to 2 beautiful children that came to us through foster care. Being pregnant was the most amazing experience, but I wouldn’t trade my girls for the world. I have prayed for you for years, as I know the grief and hope that comes with this journey.

[@kimlivingston666]

I've been praying for God to open your womb and give you a child just like He did for Hannah and Sarah. I will continue to pray and believe for you.

[@yalandareeves3159]

I pray God opens her womb as well or at least place a baby in their life for them to raise and love

[@reginacurtis6861]

Same thought went through my mind too❤

[@miaa.garcia2649]

While I was going through my infertility journey, I got told one thing “you can question God, but never doubt him!”

[@randomroz545]

I love these two and have been praying for years for them and will continue to do so 🙏🏻❤ I teared up happily at seeing the pure joy on Michaela's face being pregnant with sweet Eden. Love her name. You will meet again, from one Mama to another. I've been thru the loss like that and it's surreal.

[@rebuiltgirl3263]

As a single woman who didnt start dating until 35 I find comfort in hearing you share this story. My Godfather just passed away. I always thought I would place my child in his arms. Now that both of my Godparents have passed I feel very empty. I went through the pandemic alone and watching your family's show made me feel less alone. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are helping me right now. I didnt grow up in a saved family but its to truly be alone in this life. I love you both for sharing this. I served in church for years and housed homeless children in my home but now Im in a new state alone finishing up my graduate studies to ensure that I may never be homeless again. On Saturdays while I complete my assignments Im watching a Bates' family member spread happiness and joy in Christ. Thank you all . I apology for this long post but I want you to know that you are very impactful with the laborers you are doing unto the Lord.

[@KeilenCorner]

Thank you so much for sharing some of your story. I’m praying for you right now! Thank you for encouraging us. ❤️

[@lauraheckman7386]

You both are so brave! I just want to reach out and hug you! Prayers that God puts your miracle baby in your arms!

[@pamelanurse273]

Praying for you both. Thank you for sharing your journey. I always wanted to marry a godly man but the Lord never brought one my way and now I’m retired. But He has comforted me knowing His ways are so much higher than mine . He has allowed me to share the gospel in 40 countries which would have been difficult as a married woman. He has given me a number of spiritual children who have led others to Christ so now I even have spiritual grandchildren! I praise Him for His sweet contentment. I look forward to the day He takes me home to heaven but want to shine as a light for Him however many days I have left on earth. He cured me of cancer 7 months ago. I’m excited to go to Europe next month for 6 weeks and share the precious gospel with those I meet along the way. I pray God will bless you with many spiritual children also!❤

[@jillyann4]

I understand your journey. It is so hard. Hoping you have a wonderful ending to your story

[@joannwood183]

You have touch my heart with your story. I will be praying for you and that God will open door's for y'all. ❤️🙏🙏❤️

[@deborareid524]

I was blessed with a son and we tried and tried to have another child but no pregnancy happened. We went to the infertility clinic and like you test after test. My doctor had said we had one child and there would not be anymore. So I counted my blessings with our one son. My Aunt encouraged me to never stop praying and if it was God’s will it will happen. Twelve and half years later I gave birth to my second son. The power of prayer is unlimited. I pray for you both to have peace with our Lord as you journey on with your lives together. God bless you both.

[@KeilenCorner]

❤️

[@reginacurtis6861]

I too was blessed with a son right away. Then 9 yrs later after a MC I was blessed with our second... Those nine yrs of waiting and praying and crying and asking God why others and not me, why is it harder the second time... Only God knows the answers to those questions and once I prayed Lord In order for me to ask of you for a baby I feel I need to give you something first, So I gave up smoking , right there cold turkey , and so I gave my Life back to the Lord.. Its amazing what happens when you surrender to the Lord, give him your all, and then He Answered our prayers and gave us the desires of our heart a beautiful baby boy,😊 sorry this is long..felt I needed to share😂

[@marciawright2600]

We had a similar journey. Our two adopted kids are grown and we now are grandparents. They are the Joy of our lives! In the desert, we could not see the Joy ahead of us. We are all connected and part of the family of God! 🙏

[@Odieboggs]

I know we don't know each other, but I have prayed for you all for many years! God is so faithful in the good times and the bad! I believe He will give you the desires of your heart! Still praying!

[@kristaholzworth120]

To Brandon & Michael, thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. There is never pressure to share with the public something so intimate and raw, but you encourage and provide support for other people who have or are facing the same. Your steadfast faith is commendable. On the hardest days, I pray that you are both given peace that wraps around you like the warmest and safest hug.

[@VictoriaS29]

You both have always been in my heart and in my prayers 🙏💕 After 5 miscarriages the doctors told me not to bother trying. I remained walking in faith. After years and years I had my daughter and shortly after my son. I also questioned God. It was a very dark time for me. Fast forward I now understand why. Everything is done in his timing not ours. In the meantime we remain faithful and pray. It's so important so we don't lose ourselves. My mother couldn't conceive and she adopted my brother. Shortly after she was pregnant with my sister and shortly after that she had me. Never lose hope. Our God is a God of miracles❤

[@andreamcdaniel5507]

A couple from our church went through 19 years of infertility before God blessed them with a baby. They now have 3 beautiful children. With God nothing is impossible! Praying for y’all❤️

[@paintingdefined]

Amen. So true.

[@mrs107]

My baby is in heaven as well. My season of having Children never came after that, but my God is bigger. Love your testimony. Will be praying for you.

[@alanawallace849]

Sweet Michaela, I was crying with you! I wanted to reach through my screen and give you a huge hug. My husband and I have not been able to have kids due to many health issues that I have had since I was young. I had to have a partial hysterectomy to overcome those issues. Even through all of this we never stopped trusting God. We both know what you are going through and how you are feeling. Please don’t feel like you are alone in this. I know God will bless you both one day with children. He always gives us the desires of our hearts. Sending you so much love and prayers. ❤❤

[@angiemurphy3693]

God bless y'all. I have been in tears watching this. Whatever God's plan is for y'all, God is good.

[@alexandrauvillus-ruales966]

Me too 😢

[@cherylvelasquez3220]

Thank you both for sharing this!! I know it was not easy to talk about, but I think it is healing to be able to talk through it. I know people who struggle with infertility and some have had children, some adopted, and some chose not to do anything else. Don't give up hope!! I am sure you have already heard of this, with all the doctor's and maybe it's not the issue, but just in case try resetting your hormones. Insulin resistant can cause infertility and there is a natural product called Maca root that can help with it. It's worth trying it. They have it on Amazon and it's not very expensive.

[@dougchapin]

(I’m Doug’s wife) I experienced both infertility and miscarriage and for years I didn’t know of anyone else who had experienced both. It felt so cruel to allow a miscarriage in addition to infertility. I questioned God & shed tons of tears! With medical assistance I did finally have twins who are now almost 19 years old. I pray that you are able to have a family either through adoption or naturally because it’s obvious seeing you with nieces and nephews that you will be outstanding parents!!❤🙏

[@suer6888]

Bless your hearts! Praying for you!

[@robineldredge4783]

Thank you for sharing! My family and I have been praying for you both! I’m greatful for you sharing so honestly the very real valleys we can go through as believers.. but Gods faithfulness to walk out the hard times hand and hand with us. Such wisdom you both have! I can’t imagine how difficult your journey has been and how beautifully you opened your hearts to share with others. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your precious one. May God continue to hear you and grant you the desires of your heart! Our family will continue to believe for a miracle as you continue this journey!🙏❤️

[@dob8240]

I was told l couldn't have children by my doctor. But God had provided them wrong. When l cast my cares and stop trying. I conceved. Focus on walking in faith in the spirit.. And praise him for your future miracle... God is the only answer! I did have a miscarriage in between my son's. They were triplets. I'm blessed to know when God calls me home . I have three little babies that we named to hold and love. ❤❤❤ Your never alone....

[@KeilenCorner]

Thank you for sharing your story! Heaven is going to be so wonderful! ❤️

[@bettyholder6963]

@@KeilenCornerYour journey through this season of life have encouraged me so much with my walk with the Lord. I have lost my oldest son and it has been hard. But God has helped through all the good memories while he was alive. It my prayer that you hold onto God’s unchanging hands because He is in control of our every being. Blessings, Betty Ann

[@dob8240]

@@bettyholder6963 He holds you in his hands. 🕊

[@MegRick77]

I understand because I tried for almost 12 years to get pregnant. Finally, we were blessed to adopt a baby girl! She is everything I ever dreamed of and more. I pray for your journey to end with a baby, however that may be.

[@tonyadirenzo771]

You are both so strong and brave. It takes real courage to share the hard pieces of our lives. I believe most of us go through times that we feel distant from God and question him but it’s not something we openly share with others. Praying for you to receive the clear understanding of what God has for you life and praying for your miracle. Thank you for the vulnerability of sharing your story!

[@1pfennig]

Thankyou for your testimony 🌻

[@AngelBluff]

This is undoubtedly the most powerful testimony I have ever heard. Your journey in faith and devotion to God's timing is a lesson for us all. I have complete faith God will bring the child that needs you two the most. Thank you for the bravery in sharing you painful but beautiful journey

[@tigerlily0719]

You both are inordinately brave for sharing your story. My continued prayers for you on your journey. I went to church with this amazing couple who were told that they would never be able to conceive. They adopted 2 children and their youngest was in high school when she discovered she was expecting. That baby is now 35.

[@angel042599]

Thank you for taking the time to be so open, honest, and vulnerable with us. I'm so sorry for your loss. It is the hardest thing to go from knowing there was a living being inside to a couple weeks later being told there is no heartbeat. My heart just breaks for you. I pray all the time that you will be blessed with a miracle.

[@debbiepickett6125]

Praying for you both! ❤️🙏🏼

[@StillHereInTheStorm]

I met my husband when I was much older, in my thirties. He was still in his 20s. He changed my mind about kids. We tried and tried, and upon reaching out for medical help, discovered I had cancer. Biological children aren’t an option for us. I’m still fighting for my life. Adoption is an option, but it is OK to recognize the pain of not having your own. I wanted a baby that was half the love of my life, and me. I wanted to see his eyes, my nose, a sweet little mouth. I wept watching the very real pain you’ve endured. I am there with you. I’ve watched your family for years, I have a similar faith, as a Christian. I wanted to be a mom. I fear not having a family when I’m older. I’m so sorry, Michael and Brandon. While children are a blessing, how many we have is no indication of our faithfulness or our worthiness. It is ok to rejoice and mourn in the things that happen to us. My prayers for you are continued. I’m sorry this happened. I ask God for your healing, and offer up my own pain for you. ❤

[@KateBee123]

I can’t think of two more deserving people. I’m sorry for your pain. Sending you prayers and love. 💕💕💕💕

[@masr346]

God bless you for sharing your story! ❤

[@theway2898]

Thank you both so much 🙏🏽

[@aliciamason2501]

I LOVE y’all. If there is ANYTHING we can do at all (financially or whatever) we would love to help in ANY way. Please open up a fund so we can donate money to help medically or with an adoption. Praying for your beautiful family. I very much appreciate your sharing your lives.

[@bezagebremedhine5102]

How beautiful you are. God bless you.

[@CarinaPiersay]

How very thoughtful and generous of you 🙏🏼

[@joellejese1747]

I also am infertile and wanted children very much. For years I wondered why because I had always wanted to be a mother. A few years ago I was watching "The Hiding Place" about Corrie ten Boom and her sister Betsy in the concentration camps. At one point in the camp a woman was questioning why would God allow this? Corrie's sister Betsy replied "If you know Him you don't have to know why." Even though they were not talking about infertility, It hit me that I will never know the why, and it is ok. I trust my Lord that he knows what He is doing even when I don't understand. Love to you both.

[@kristieleigh6847]

Both of y’all’s faith through this all is beautiful.

[@heysaysarita]

I feel this so deeply. My grief as been different but yet the same. Still single at 41 I went through that deep valley in the first half of my 30’s. The questions and grief is so deeply hard but when you come out on the other side of the valley and can feel God’s presence it is so deeply good in a way I never expected. The grief doesn’t go away. I sat here and cried with you so I definitely can still feel it. But at the same time getting that tiny taste of heaven because of the journey with God is life giving too. It’s so hard to explain but you did it well. Thank you for sharing! ❤

[@Cathy-qd1je]

Brandon and Michaela, 62 yrs old, a nurse for 39 years ❤Michaela!! I watch your channel alot. You both share true raw feelings al I ng with guidance and strength. This video has me in tears. The raw feelings you all have dealt with, the journies, no one else walks in your shoes but Jesus. Thank you so much for your thoughts, feelings. You both are precious examples of Godly hearts.

[@cindland]

Indeed they so brave to bare their emotions and to discuss this so openly. ❤

[@ashlieleavelle]

I want to encourage you. I had cancer and the radiation damaged my ovaries. I also have PCOS. After years of infertility, and all the pain, I just got to the place where i lost hope. I tried ovulation medicine, hormones....I was told it was under a 3% chance. The medication and hormones didn't work forme. At age 38, i found out i was 3 months pregnant. We had conceived naturally. I had no symptoms. I was told I was high risk. God gave us a beautiful daughter. My pregnancy was very easy....no complications. We have never stopped trying again, and i haven't been pregnant again. My daughter is a miracle. I truly believe God opens and closes the womb. I always wanted a large family. I dont understand why that dream didn't come true....but my daughter is a miracle. I know God can bring you a baby. Adoption is wonderful too. You will be a great mother. Sending love and hugs from someone who really understands. ❤

[@dob8240]

Beautiful 🕊!

[@beckybanta126]

......and Brandon a great Dad! I believe you 2 show God's love by your giving spirits & care for one another & others. Thank you both for sharing your spiritual battles & journeys; very brave for you to do so. P.S. I LOVE your clever & creative opening/closing!😊

[@ceezee9179]

God bless you both. I'm sorry for your loss. I will pray for you!

[@valentined.2510]

You both are so thoughtful and sweet to share this personal testimony with us. Thank you so much! My family and I go through a lot of trials, that include anxiety, depression, stress. But there’s joy in between the hard. But I still need to learn the peace and joy while going through hardship. I so appreciate your honesty and encouragement that God sees and cares. Praying for you both!

[@rebuiltgirl3263]

I love how you all ministered in such a bold way! This felt like a healing sermon for me! Thank you! I appreciate this so much!!! Glory to God for the kindness He has shown towards us all! I will never forget this opportunity to heal in Christ.

[@TheWeeberyl]

Sooo brave to share your story, your both beautiful people. This sharing will help and encourage others. Thank you❤❤❤

[@jilljohnson8396]

I’ve prayed for you both so much. Thank you for sharing this.

[@annalovette1670]

Praying for you both! 🤍

[@renemartinez8025]

i cant imagine the emotional roller coaster you both have been on. I have a close friend that experienced infertility for years. After exhausting traditional testing and procedures. They started looking outside the box.She looked into what is called computerized electro dermal testing.Basically it tells you what is not working properly in your system. I know that sounds simple compared to what you have been through,but i always feel that when it comes to the medical field ,sometimes it can only go so far,and you have to look outside of traditional medicine. Just wanted to share my friends experience. The best part is she did get pregnant,and carried the baby full term.They have gone on to have more children after being treated for what in her system was not working correctly.

[@donnalynn312]

Michaela and Brandon, you are both in my prayers! 🙏♥🙏

[@KeilenCorner]

Thank you so much!

[@candaceott8949]

you both are Amazing people. praying for you both. hugs.

[@charlottekandersson]

Thank you for sharing. I have not walked this same path, but I can take away so much from what you have shared in how I approach my own trials, the "no's" and "not nows" that He has given. The beautiful thing to see is that the Lord is using you. He is using you in so many ways to bless those around you and those across the internet who hear this story. I am praying for you. Thank you, Michaela & Brandon. Love to you all in Christ.

[@BostonSarah]

My heart aches for you both. I am struggling with being unmarried and childless at 45yrs old. I am a Christian, and have lived a Christian life, and have worked hard to be a biblical, Godly woman, serving HIM, and others, and caring for others as an RN. Years and years and years of prayers, and nothing. I feel like I am in this deep dark valley where He either can't or won't hear me, and I don't understand why. I imagine its similar to the deep darkness you felt. We are so similar Michael. Keeping you and Brandon in my prayers. 🙏✝️❤️

[@ChristineS-sf3rc]

May God answer your prayer in a beautiful way ❤. God bless❤

[@kimberlyeckl3471]

Thank you for opening up and sharing your very private story. May God bless you both and fill you with strength and wisdom. 🙏🏻

[@hayleywiles1775]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You've been able to put into words what I've never been able to. I know this will comfort others going through a similar process. Your openness and honesty can also shed some light to those who could never understand it but may know somebody who can. Your faith is an inspiration. Thank you

[@paolabeatricelewis2689]

Thank you so much for sharing!!!!! You are such a Beautiful example!!!!! ❤❤❤

[@autumthacker5688]

Thank you for sharing this, I have never been able to get pregnant and I am 41. I still have such a longing in my heart for a child but I also have prayed to the Lord to help me understand why. Sometimes I feel so very alone in this but I know I’m not. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you being vulnerable I cried this whole video. I hope God blesses you soon with a child if it be His will!

[@stephaniehenderson6631]

To be tested to a level where you surrender your strong, God given desire for a family of your own is one of the hardest things of all. You honour the Sovereign God to say, yes, you are right and good and just, though you slay me. This is never a path without intense agony and struggle and yet you have come to submit to this position. What beautiful witnesses you are to our Lord, it is an honest and incredibly powerful testimony that I am certain will speak to many, praise God!

[@kerryann2456]

I cried watching this, you guys are the strongest.

[@carolfurry1617]

Your bravery to share your story and your pain takes my breath away. I have followed the show and now the family and have prayed for you with each announcement and continue to pray for your peace. God will show you your path! In the meantime, your nieces and nephews have two incredible people that love them more than they could ever know. God Bless!

[@grandmashomemade9204]

Want to share with you a young lady in our church was told she would never ever be able to have children God said let me show you and 9 years later she had a beautiful little girl and she just got pregnant again but lost it Friday. God can do anything that no one else can.

[@Nunyabusiness82777]

Y’all are amazing! You are a blessing to all who know and love you and the rest of us who watch your family! Praying for you always! ❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@sarahgraham4272]

I haven't even made it half way through the video and I'm crying with you, because I can relate so much to feeling ignored by God and asking 'why?". I just want to let you guys know you're not alone in that. Thank you so much for letting us share part of your lives, we miss seeing your shows.

[@xyz2813]

Thank you for sharing your journey along this difficult path. When I lost my daughter at 39 weeks pregnant, that was the first time I had really questioned God and wondered if He was even there. Then I heard the Holy Spirit, not audibly, but as close as it could be to audibly if that makes sense, say, "If you turn your back on God, where is your comfort going to come from?" It's been hard, but I've been learning to trust God and trust in His plan. My baby girl would be 7 this year. I hope she's playing up in heaven with yours and I can't wait to meet her someday.

[@karithompson5621]

Hugs to you both. All my children are Adopted. I have 6 kids. I always tell people that Adoption is just a different kind of pregnancy and birth. There is no timeline which makes it emotionally challenging. Our family is a White, African American, Asian and Limb Difference Family. God knew from the beginning of time who our Family would be. Has it been easy? No way. Adoption brings loss and many challenges, but all families struggle. Keep clinging to Jesus. He is using you both mightily to Glorify Him and love and minister to do many people.

[@KeilenCorner]

This is just so beautiful! Thank you for sharing! ❤️

[@beckiholstine7436]

Always thinking about you and praying for you!!!! 🤗 You are going to be the most AMAZING parents some day!!!! I CAN’T wait to see God’s plan unfold!!!! Don’t lose hope and don’t let your hearts be troubled….God is with you WHEREVER you go!!!!! ❤

[@laurapope6931]

I am so so sorry about the loss that you have and are experiencing. God is good even though it’s so hard to see His plan. If we can’t trace his hand, we trust his heart. I’ll be praying for you and Brandon. I have been following you a long time. I feel like I know you personally. You both are the kindest souls.

[@juliewright2795]

Thank you both for being so raw. I have prayed for a miracle for you for years. I will continue to pray. ❤

[@pinkywilliams8063]

I never had any children and it was very hard to deal with... Now at 66 yrs old I wish we could have adopted but my husband didn't want that which made it harder on me. I cried the entire video, for my heart goes out to you both. God does have a plan for us all... Thanks for sharing

[@cleanqueen75]

I’m 66 my husband and I chose not to have children. We don’t regret it as we love our life style. I’m sorry but I can’t relate to what you’re going through but I wish you well.

[@nancygs4555]

@@cleanqueen75how is this helpful to OP?

[@cleanqueen75]

@@nancygs4555 if God didn’t intend for them to get pregnant that you can still have a happy marriage is all I’m saying. They have each other!

[@blazee3895]

@@cleanqueen75 Imo, the distinction is that while you and your spouse both decided against having children, OP’s husband prevented her from ever becoming a mother.

[@brandyboyd4579]

There’s so much heartbreak in this video yet so much beauty. Thank you for being so honest and real. You are encouraging more than you know. He is always good. Thank you for displaying that so faithfully.

[@annmariestakem3421]

praying for you both ❤🙏🏻

[@athomerestore8572]

Thank you for sharing. I will keep you guys in my prayers. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

[@marianbrinley4389]

This is my go to Bible verse! So true!

[@ninashouse4126]

That was so beautiful!! Your faith is the greatest gift you could ever pray for! I will include you in my daily prayers that God will answer your prayers in the way he knows is best for you! Thank you so much for sharing such a personal and private part of your lives! I am sure someone who is also walking through their own fertility struggle will see this and be so uplifted and encouraged because you chose to share!! God bless and keep you!

[@dorothydefranco6952]

God Bless you both!!!

[@nickyk703]

Sending you both and your angel a special prayer! 🙏😇❤️

[@susancumming7099]

All I want to do is just lightly hug you and continue to pray for you. You were so raw and completely honest with your journey. Michaela, seeing you so happy, just as cute as can be and over flowing with excitement was the best. I pray this happens again whether it is through foster, adoption or natural.

[@KeilenCorner]

Thank you so so very much! ❤️

[@andrathomas2497]

We have an adoption in our family due to infertility. A wonderful blessing to her parents and all of us. I realize you don't know me but I will be praying for you. Keeping walking by faith. May God bless you.

[@patriciarightenour7352]

Prayers for you both. Have faith and love. God Bless .

[@tammybogart3541]

Thank you for opening your hearts and sharing this painful Journey with all of us. It's such a beautiful selfless thing to do. My heart aches for you! But each and every time I think of you, over the last 8 years, I say a prayer asking God to give you a child, trusting that one day those prayers will be answered. You are such a blessing to so many and I pray this message reaches each and every person who needs to hear it. God Bless You!

[@bonniecrable-reed4217]

Moving. Touched my heart. Praying that God blesses you soon with the luckiest child ever!