Kreia's Conundrums - Truly Tested

[@theriseofdaddypalpy7876]

“Never doubt what you have done. All your decisions have brought you to this point.”

[@sand5533]

I do love that quote.

[@Dionyboz]

It reminds me of Amor Fati

[@ulysses5340]

I really appriciate what you have been doing for this game.

[@PapitoQinn]

And I really appreciate all the support you guys gave me. Maybe one day more people will start discussing KOTOR 2.

[@AtheistBulldozer]

@@PapitoQinn I think you remember me. I want to offer help. Is there anyway I can communicate with you in which you would feel comfortable?

[@PapitoQinn]

@@AtheistBulldozer You can send me an email. It's in the description box of every one of my videos.

[@seanpawley6726]

I appreciate all of this. Both your and Kreia's words have reached me. They've helped, a lot.

[@Ancient_George]

None of your insecurities come across in your videos. You are a lot more than you seem to think you are, my friend.

[@PapitoQinn]

Maybe you're right. Thanks George.

[@feralchangeling97]

A few weeks ago I was emotionally crushed, but I survived. I don't know if I'm stronger as a result but I'm glad about the outcome. Stay safe Papito.

[@CeeCeeismadYT]

“Power resides where men believe it resides” ~ Varys, Game of thrones.

[@ashe274]

Well shit man, good luck with the coming war, friend. Keep a level head, keep your nose against the grindstone, and keep kicking ass.

[@totallynuts7595]

You are hands down one of the greatest youtubers, no matter what happens.

[@Tabby3456]

This video made me cry a little. as someone who suffered from depression and kept to myself due to how unplesant the pressures of society is,getting good Grades,getting a job, and my young self told myself "what for", I was a nervous wreck. feeling betrayed by alot of people even my own parents, nowhere to go and that my choices were already made by someone else. But with the videos i watched, the video games I played, the lessons I absorbed and the universe we live in now, i want to hold onto my body and mind as long as I can. I am not only ready to change my circumstances but human psychology and advancement as we know it. my first ever videogame was Halo:CE and i still play other halo games including CE, and just like the ending of Halo:CE "No, i think we're just getting started" edit: for anyone who doe- ...this part of the video explains everything 6:29 all until 9:24. Like that segment...i couldn't of said it better myself.

[@viciousrage5548]

Ay another kreias conondrums by my favorite Dutch islander. This is some real shit as I used to socially isolate myself since I didn’t feel like I belonged in the college I used to go to. Once I got a job all that changed and I made myself stronger. I’m in the same spot as you and I’ll always be here supporting you man till the end of the channel or time.

[@1992zorro]

He is Dutch?

[@viciousrage5548]

@@1992zorrohe’s mixed mostly Afro Caribbean but he said before he might have Dutch.

[@alexgamez7085]

"Die"? No - became stronger, yes. You carry the teachings of Kreia within you, friend. Her words echo inside you, through your words and actions. Every lesson she has conveyed has been made clearer thanks to you, at least for many of us. There is little I can do, but to deeply thank your efforts and your time into making the Kreia Connundrum videos. They have been a series of videos which I have really enjoyed and have made me appreciate how truly marvelous Kreia's philosophy is, for her words trascend the universe of Star Wars, and reach the deepest parts of our soul. Once again, thank you Quinn, for everything. I wish you the best of luck in these times and hope that you will be stronger for it. And, as Kreia said: "Never doubt what you have become. All your decisions have brought you to this point".

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks for all the support you gave me, Alex. Although I'm conceding just yet. If it does come to that, maybe sometime in the future more people will stumble on these videos. Who knows, maybe something'll happen that makes a mass of people search "Kreia" in google or KZbin. Until then, you're right, no regrets, it is what it is.

[@dr.calibrations7984]

Hey buddy, as someone who has also suffered from depression, low self esteem, contemplating suicide, pain, too much for only 24 years. Somehow, through some form of insanity I found a way to continue existing, a reason to go on and even happiness. I've gone from bitterly living because I felt the world wanted me dead and my pride wouldn't let me give up. I do believe that what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. But one thing, the best reason to me anyways, the one that stuck... was that I wanted to leave a legacy that someone ANYONE found worth defending. It keeps me going and has made me take to mentoring the next generation. These videos, the questions you pose, the people you have undoubtedly inspired to do... quite a number of things, from going into philosophy, debates, to keep existing in this difficult world, to never give up I their tasks to start a KZbin. You are a lot more amazing than you think. Hell you have inspired me to write a whole damn book on a 4 month old video. Point being. It's okay to set expectations high. But as my number one hero my father would say; sometimes it helps to look back and see how far you've come, how much you've accomplished rather than to dread what is left to do." Dont kick yourself all the time, your a pretty cool guy.

[@blackeagle041]

True Power is, allowing to transform, your own darkness, in power. I have lived a hard life due too a disability that forces me in a wheelchair. I have always seen all my struggles as the darker side of myself, a side to draw power from. I've seen myself as having had the fortune of appreciating life's true value, by having less at the start. I have failed sometimes, faced away from my fears, and that has only led to immense regret. But I realized a fundemental truth, about myself. Thanks to all that has befallen me, i have gained an insight that "Normal" people dont have. The darkness in my heart is not damaging, it is a reminder of who I am, and all that I accomplished. It is the contrast, that allows me to see how actually blessed I am. Don't be afraid of darkness, use it to protect the lights in your life. Power is to shoulder someone, after they rise. Power is being content with little, and not to pretend anything. Power is to give yourself, completely to those who deserve it. I dont know why i commented this. But thank you. This channel about a videogame, is suprisingly thought provoking. Thanks again, and may you win your battles against your Shadows.

[@docrobo360]

I am glad you are taking a step forward into the unknown. No matter what happens, like Kreia says, your experiences, your internal struggle will make you stronger. May life's opportunity bring you to your true strength, and may you come back to us one day and share your wisdom and insight. Thanks for being the one of a few who dissect Kreia's teachings. Many of the values I carry with me to this day are from her teachings and it is people, like you, who have helped lead me from just echoing her words to applying them in my life. So thank you.

[@PapitoQinn]

You're welcome, man. Thank you for all the support. But I'm not giving up just yet. Tell your friends about me.

[@victorjohansen6038]

Regardless of the hardships you'll face, I wish you good fortune on the battles to come. Right now, you have taken upon yourself to stand by the work that made you feel whole, and perhaps its time for you to transcend even that, and work with something that you really struggle with. Please, remember that there is value in what you've made, and we are all proud of you for coming this far... Whatever happens, thank you for bringing this game to life for so many people... It speaks volumes about you, just as much as it does for the game

[@PapitoQinn]

Thank you, man. You're right about that last part. I stream now and it really cheers me up.

[@crestcringlingcrungler1332]

You are honestly a favorite creator of mine, hell i even archived some of your videos in case KZbin ever cucked you of your channel I could email them to you or something. If this is a goodbye, then just know for me personally I'll never forget your videos, but I have a feeling I'll be getting notifications still in the near future for more Kreias Conundrums. Godspeed Papito, and best of luck to you and your brother.

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks man. I have all my videos backed up too, just in case. But like I told someone else here. This is what I want to do, I'll eventually find my way back.

[@labibsaud8064]

We'll try our best till the very end. Don't worry quinn I am with you as are others, surely.

[@Zack-tx7oz]

For a couple of years, on and off, I've seen your videos and they've helped me through a few darkest phases, particularly from your videos on Kreia's philosophy. Kreia offers wisdom in a world devoid and lacking it. Kreia offers balance in an unbalanced world. Kreia offers an opportunity for enlightenment and renewal. I trust you'll come through it. Above it all, live life on your own terms. They matter more than anything else. To you, my friend..

[@bullseye5262]

Unfortunately I’m often forced to isolation because people always end up turning their back on me. It’s something that always happens to me and it always leads me into a deep depression. Because I do so much for others, but when I’m struggling I’m left behind. Alas it does feel like this life is a test because of this I feel that isolation isn’t really a weakness. Because as I sit here alone I’m starting to realize that being around others has weakened me. I and many others rely on others for happiness, support, guidance, and power...instead of finding it in ourselves. I had to find the will to live in myself and not others and I’m stronger for it. Because of these videos you put out I’ve been able to find a new perspective in my own life So don’t give up, keep pushing, and you’ll continue to have my support

[@bullseye5262]

All for Sloth All for Sloth My answer to this might not be what you want to hear and it’s possible you might find a different or better answer, but I’ll tell you. I found happiness in myself after acknowledging the fact that in the pursuit of trying to free myself of loneliness that I’ve lost myself. Because as soon as I got what I wanted it was snatched away again and again and after being depressed about it, I got to thinking “was it worth it”? It turned out that it wasn’t. Just because you’re around friends doesn’t mean all your pain or loneliness will disappear. Just because you can give your all to someone you love doesn’t mean things will automatically change for the better. In losing it all, I found my own strength because if you can find the will to stand alone you’ll start to realize that being around others actually has its cons along with its pros. Being away from people allows you to be free from their problems (emotional, physical, financial, etc.), free from their drama, and most importantly it allows you to have the time to find what you want for yourself and not what people want from you. You want to do things? Do them yourself. You want friendship? Be your own friend. Do you want love? Love yourself first because when you desire something so much you’ll actually end up putting power over your life in the hands of another...literally letting someone else other than you decide your worth as a person. That’s unhealthy for you and you’ll become needy on the desire of being “needed” by others. Which will have people leave you behind as well. I’m not going to lie to you it’ll take time, hell I’d rather not be alone but it’s better to stand alone than stand among “friends” who’ll consider you less than nothing or as a tool to get things they want from you. The hardest thing to do is let go and you will feel angry, you will feel sad, you will want to reach out to those who left you behind, but hold on to your pride and start doing what makes you happy and better yourself. As you do that you’ll find pride in your solitude and in the fact that others will depend on others, you can do it all of with your will and with your own two hands.

[@bullseye5262]

All for Sloth it’s no problem man, I’m still going through the process myself, but I’ll make it through and so will you mobile.twitter.com/Ryoka_X_Blazer

[@bullseye5262]

All for Sloth no problem man

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks man. I can't find the quote for some reason, but Kreia says something along the lines of: Sometimes a momentary insight can prove to be worth a lifetime of teachings. By the way I found some of your replies in the "spam" section. But now I see you redid them and I don't know which ones to delete. :/

[@bullseye5262]

Papito Qinn I appreciate that and umm about the comments I really don’t know what to tell you lol

[@89BlackGatomon]

I watch many videos from you. Subscribed for amazing videos and content!

[@PapitoQinn]

Thank you very much! Sharing the content would be very much appreciated as well.

[@hk9034]

I understand struggles. I’ve lost my sister and my closed friend. I’ve been bully both physically and mentally due skin tone and for being autistic. I’ve been homeless by choice. Denying any aid from family. With experiencing the hardships of my younger days in school and homeless. I’ve developed skill and techniques to hard my autistic behavior and gain skills that most in the same or most generation would not have or shunned others for practicing it. I’m now a self employed barber. In some cases I view what I’ve done to that of kriea’s philosophy. There’s a reason why humans are the apex of earth. You can do it.

[@edd1041]

Good luck! I really appreciate how much effort and time you’ve put into a game that nobody really talks about anymore, but deserves it. You’ll do great! You can do it!

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks man. Hopefully these videos can convince more people to talk about this game and it's characters.

[@bullseye5262]

In retrospect and after getting to know you Qinn, this is probably your best video you’ve made and my favorite. How interesting, even at your lowest you held true to not giving up, you made it through a hard patch in life, and became stronger for it

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks, man. It's actually kinda uncharacteristic of me. At least earlier on in my life I was pretty prone to giving up. I guess I am growing up.

[@bullseye5262]

Papito Qinn you live and you learn

[@nunya_bizniz]

I only subscribed to ur channel a week or so ago. Glad to see things worked out since ur still making vids.

[@PapitoQinn]

So far so good, man. Still could be a lot better. But I'm trying to hang in there. The support means a lot!

[@durnel2001]

Content creators like you truly keep the game alive. Thank you.

[@PapitoQinn]

You're welcome. But really I like to thank you and all of my viewers for the support. I really hope more people start making content like this. If for nothing else then to get more perspectives on the game and it's characters.

[@ebilveryebil3091]

Without ever seeing me as a person. Without ever meeting me and having a face to face conversation with me. Without ever even really knowing me you've changed my life in a way you may not understand. You did something minor. Something you probably thought was just normal. You responded to my e-mail. You treated me with dignity. You showed me a simple respect. I've had a terrible summer this year mentally. I've felt the lowest I've ever felt, but yet you helped me by just responding to an e-mail. I've been through a lot of not-so-good things. Sometimes I relate to the Exile to an extreme amount because I feel as though I've carried the death and pain inside me like a wound. I feel as though I am constantly connecting everyone to me and influencing them. Because of that I feel like I hurt them in ways I cant repair. Know that your worth has not been so easily forgotten amongst the droll of the internet. Know that I still watch your videos everyday and I still smile when I get to learn more of your perspective. Know that you showed me that perhaps I don't have to be alone and maybe I can be more than just a wound. Know that your basic kindness made me realize that I have purpose in this world. Hell that wasn't your intention, but that is what you did. Thank you and I'm sorry for the challenges that face you, but I hope your will does not become eroded and you strive for more and greater things. Thank you Papito.

[@PapitoQinn]

Damn, man. That's deep. You're right, I didn't think of it when I replied to your email. But there you go. Kreia's right. Everything we do, every choice we make can produce an echo that travels far. Now there's no telling what your future holds for you, as opposed to what it would have been had it not been for that email, and this little KZbin channel. It's like that moment in the matrix when Neo visits the Oracle and she tell him to not worry about the vase and then he breaks it. He asks: "How did you know?" and Responses by saying something like: "What really gonna make you wonder is, would you have broken it at all if I hadn't said anything?" Thank you for the continued support man. Don't be sorry about my challenges, it happens. I guess now I'm really gonna see what I'm made of.

[@donavinkeyes6539]

This is one of my favorite channels. Thank you for your hard work.

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks, man. I do my best. I just hope my best is good enough.

[@ede234]

I cannot thank you enough for these videos. I started watching them last year after the death of Anthony Bourdain, and when I was feeling so low. Watching these took my mind off the depression. And they also opened my eyes to a character I've known since my youth. It is true, going through these hardships really does make you stronger. I wish you a hard struggle, but an even harder will to get past it all. Always here for you. -Rob

[@PapitoQinn]

Thank you, Robert. Yes, Anthony Bourdain's passing hit me rather hard too. I'm gonna do what I have to in order to conquer this. But I obviously can't do it alone. I'm glad I have great supporters like you.

[@1992zorro]

This channel deserves all the best. Hopefully it will keep surviving and thrive

[@PapitoQinn]

Hopefully, yeah. I'm gonna need a lot more support though. Thanks for watching!

[@BrandonS101]

Her teachings aren't just important to video games, they are important to our universe too.

[@Ashguy733]

Your videos were the reason I created this youtube account, before that I watched just on my computer without offering anything back, and I felt a real connection with the content you were creating, and its been great and I hope you can continue.

[@PapitoQinn]

Really? I didn't know that. Seems I had quite the influence then. Take her easy man. Maybe one day you'll start making videos of your own. Even just for fun.

[@Ashguy733]

@@PapitoQinn I have already, i just am on the fence of publishing them and going down the youtube rabbit hole, mainly because I work and that job takes up alot of my time, but yeah before this I was on reddit and that was it, cause I felt fb and twitter were just a place for people to show off how great their life is, I just like discussing stuff and this was the main reason I did make an account so thank you!

[@PapitoQinn]

@@Ashguy733 I know exactly what you mean. It's gotten a lot better but I still obsess over my videos and I feel anxious every time a new Kreia's Conundrums is about to go live. Some of the best advice I ever got were: 1. Don't think about it just do it. 2. Keep uploading, no matter what. Keep uploading. Even if your earlier videos are great, you'll improve over time to the point where you'll look back and say they sucked. It all gets easier over time. But my words can only go so far. Ultimately you'll have to see it for yourself.

[@Ashguy733]

@@PapitoQinn Well thanks for the advice. I do wonder, because I likely won't use this account for ny videos, what my channel would be about exactly, I have a couple of lore videos, I have two walkthroughs I could publish and then haha book/ comic reviews, I just have always like reading, gaming and extended lore. Right now im merely tying to save for better equipment and a new computer. Thanks though, i think my biggest fear would be putting my voice out there, or my face for that matter.

[@SvenQ45]

Not believing in yourself. Yes know that sometimes. On a more widespread aspect: Yes being alive is the biggest gift we got!

[@dend1]

Thank you for your insightful videos. Your force ripples have indeed traveled very far friend

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks, man. But I'm not giving up yet. So thanks for the support.

[@TheSkully343]

Life will always have its set of challenges. And in a way I think Kreia's teachings hold just as much positive values as they do a lethal dose about the reality of your actions and consequences. I wish you the best of luck in finding a job dude. But the most important bit of advice I think anyone can give is to never give up and pursue your dreams of attaining Force Lightning... Just me? Anyone? Hello is this thing on? Anyway, the point is as Kreia always says, take your struggles head on and work to find a solution so that you may be stronger, smarter and sexier because of it.

[@PapitoQinn]

Man if I come out the end sexier? That in of itself is a strength. Coupled with an Instagram account, there's no telling how far I can go then.

[@EmmaCross94]

It's interesting you make a video about this only a few days after I discovered I disagree with Kreia on one thing... Her idea that tests strengthen us. Imagine you're a professional fighter. Does the fight itself strengthen you? No, it's the training you go through between fights. The fight shows you who you are, how strong you are. Kreia does mention something similar to this, but ends up placing too much importance on the test. Tests show us who we are, it's from then on that we decide whether we are going to give up or if we are going to get stronger to pass the test next time. To be more accurate, it's the fear of failing the test that strengthens us, not the test itself. And isolation can be essential for training, as it eliminates distractions. Also your line about hard work made me think of Hachiman (from Oregairu), who said something along the lines of that "hard work isn't necessarily what guarantees success, as there are plenty of people who work themselves to the bone but fail anyway". Success is a product of a certain kind of mindset, in my opinion. Confidence goes much further than most people think. It's probably better to think of bad experiences as learning opportunities, not failure. If you think about that enough, you'll notice that in reality, losses are much more valuable than victories, because you can learn more from them. Best of luck to you man, I enjoy your content. FYI I clicked on this before PewDiePie's video ;)

[@PapitoQinn]

I get what you're saying. But it's only with the test that you see if you really have what it takes. And like you said at the end, you learn a lot from failure. So if you lose the fight, you'll learn a lot. The training itself consists of tests. Both the training and the fight makes you stronger. Isolation isn't essential, but solitude is. Think about it, there's a difference between the two. I think having fear of failing is a weakness. But actually facing the test, even if you fail, can help you shed that fear, and in effect make you stronger. But that's just me. You're right that hard work alone doesn't automatically translate into success. It's about a lot of factors, and ultimately there's also pretty hefty element of luck involved.

[@EmmaCross94]

@@PapitoQinn Yeah you got it, I think we're pretty much on the same page. Words are hard haha

[@beskamir5977]

Sometimes difficulty and hardship ends up weakening you rather than strengthening you. Much like poison, illness, radiation, etc are all capable of permanently weakening you even if you manage to survive, so too can adversary drain you. This is rather well explored in games where if you waste all your resources on one conflict you will not be prepared for the next one. I've actually been feeling rather similar lately as well. While I'm financially okayish (at least for the moment) I'm at a loss as to what to do once I graduate university next year and have recently been just letting life go by without really caring much, sort of like the song you mentioned described. In a way I feel as if I've drained myself in the past year and no longer care about things as much as I used to. I think I need a central passion with which I could then motivate myself to achieve it. There's a lot that I can see myself doing or that I'd like to do but none of those are powerful enough motivators to overcome the difficulties involved with getting them completed. Many of your Kreia's conundrums videos have been keeping me sane while I've been at a loss of desires and after finally playing The Talos Principle, (finished it 2 days ago despite having owned it for at least 2 years) I might finally be able to get myself to do something other than just watching my life slowly ebb away while I do the bare minimum to maintain a day to day existence. Also the Revan novel and swtor contradict Kreia's comment saying Revan having never met a Sith Empire :(

[@PapitoQinn]

They do? Well that sucks. That negates the entire premise that Sith teachings had to have come from something. I have the Talos Principle too and I've yet to play it. I hear it's quite something. I'm not all that great with puzzles though. My brother's always been good at those. By the way you're right about what you first said. That's kinda what I was getting at in Kreia's Conundrums - Help. Although I suppose strength can come from achieving your goal despite previously being weakened by a past event. You hear a lot of stories about severely disabled people still persevering and doing extraordinary things. I have a lot of respect for people like that. Try and take her easy man, one day at a time. I'm glad I was able to help.

[@beskamir5977]

@@PapitoQinn I've had the Talos Principle for years before finally getting around to playing it and I can't recommend it enough. The game is an absolute work of art in a way I've yet to see another game match. It felt as if the game was speaking directly to me and either questioning or mirroring my own beliefs and ideas regarding our world, AI, psychology, theology, philosophy, etc. All in all it's a really good game and I want to forget it a bit before I replay it so I can have a fresher experience. Plus I still need to get all the "bonus" stars for the final ending but those seem impossible to get and I'd rather not resort to cheating :P

[@PapitoQinn]

@@beskamir5977 Wow. I might have to play it sooner rather than later. Maybe on stream.

[@Rackatiakka]

Man I'm going through the same thing right now. I hope you find a way bro, best of luck.

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks. I hope you do too. We're not alone.

[@Rackatiakka]

@@PapitoQinn For sure, thanks. Us thinking people got it rough I think. A lot of space in our minds to sort through. Of course a great advantage when properly organized/utilized. Ya know, however ya do that lol Oh I wanted to say that maybe the Jedi don't fear change if they are "Jedi Masters" but have a different prospective that angry darksiders frame or project on to the Jedi? Haven't given that point too much more thought but hey there's that.

[@derpingtoast]

Thanks!

[@PapitoQinn]

No no, sir. Thank YOU for your generosity.

[@robinvanoss6088]

I doubt we would object to a few more ads in the pursuit of funding this channel. As an audience, it doesn’t stop everyone from enjoying the content if the content is enjoyable.

[@PapitoQinn]

I hope your right. We're talking about going through over 800 videos though. It's gonna take me a while.

[@robinvanoss6088]

Papito Qinn it’s the little things that your fans can do. Our way to help our creators we love.

[@reckszkingzactivitiesrkat.4134]

The deeper I dig into this channel more I love this content more & more to much real talk being spoken here. But on a real only when you go through hardships then you will know if you truly are a guy who is weak or strong it’s easier said then done but yes it will show you what’s up ✅

[@TheSaintMystic]

Please don't go for good. Even if you just go on a hiatus to get your life more in order, make sure to come back.

[@PapitoQinn]

This is what I want to do. I think that one way or another, I'll find my way back.

[@ThePunisher0995]

Adapt and Adjust. Thus, heavy ads shall it be. Followed you on Twitch. I actually have a story of a struggle. I was a third year student, it was the end of academic year. In Ukraine it is obligatory to check lungs once every year. I am talking about Photofluorography. So I went to a hospital, made a Photofluorography and they diagnosed me with tuberculosis. Fun times, goodbye Alma Mater. Later it was found out that I had the resilient type of tuberculosis, and only limited amount of drugs could fight it. In my county we have US funded program (Its called USAID) to fight tuberculosis so my medication and my hospitalization was for free (Imagine my positivity. Spoiler alert, it was still non-existent). So here I am, 18 years old, forced to be in a hospital, to take an academic brake. My plans for life are ruined, and according to doctors, I might need my lung to be surgically removed, because even those drugs might just fail. Oh, and a cherry on top - my girlfriend abandons me with no real explanation. But I have a guess what was the reason, and I think you are also. The food was shit, toilets were shit and those drugs, including a shot in the butt once every day was also shit. I had to take 5 different types of strong drugs 3 times a day. And, fuck, my, life, they were shit. I felt like shit after taking them. We all were placed in a hospital wards, each one housing 6 people. So you can imagine the living standards. Shit. It was shit. A few weeks later I found out that I might not survive this medication, because we had to move dead patients to a morgue every day. Most of them died not of tuberculosis, but because their bodies couldn't tolerate drugs. Kidney failure, liver failure, heart failure, you name it. Some even went full on def. They were hearing stuff ok, and then all of a sudden, because of meds, they are fucking def. Well thats fucking ensuring. Ah, you probably asking why we had to transport our dead fellows and not male nurses. The thing is, there were non. All nurses ware female so they asked us to do it. And oh boy are dead people weight a ton. We also transported incapable to walk, you know, to take their monthly analysis and whatnot. We also done some minor work at the hospital, like caring sand bags to construction site (they were repairing an old shower room), or moving some stuff to the basement. And you know what, we were not forced to do it, we did it because it was THAT FUCKING BORING. After one or two months I started to know people, surprisingly, most of them were good (in their own kind a way. So it was fucking sad to transport their dead bodies to the morgue). At that time I also learned to not give a shit, about them, about me. So my two month depression was gone. I guess my hardships made me stronger, so I adapted, made peace with my shitty situation. (hello Kreia). From that moment on, this fucking hospital was my Home, not my purgatory. I made myself stronger whether I wanted it or not. One whole year past in that fucked, twisted, shithole I called Home. It was the time to take MRT (magnetic resonance tomography) to find out if those meds were any good. And you know what. They worked. They worked so good, I actually was not put to operation to remove my infected lung. Or was it through my new enormous willpower I got cured? Anyway, I was put on ambulatory treatment. The nightmare, the hell on earth was over. And I emerged from those hellish flames strong as a fucking titanium alloy. Now I realize how WEAK I was before, in every aspect of my personality. I mean I was fucking crying every night for weeks while in hospital, this is how much a pathetic human I was. Now? Now you can throw any shit at me and Im going to tear it apart like it is nothing. So fight my friend, fight and be stronger for your victory. All it takes is a little bit of willpower. And with time, your "little bit of willpower" will transform in SUPERHUMAN amount of willpower. You will become an ubermensch. You will not solve your problems from that moment on, you will CRUSH them like a fucking BATTERING RAM. That's what I do with my "problems". I dont even call them that anymore. They are not deserve to be called like that. They are a temporary setbacks on a path to victory.

[@PapitoQinn]

Holy shit, dude. That is one hell of a story. Thanks for sharing. There's a lot of fucked up shit that happens in the world, including what happened to you and often time I say: "it shouldn't be the case. What happened to you shouldn't have happened in a society. But it did, and while they always break you, you put yourself back together stronger than before. But as you saw, it isn't always the case. Death makes all that impossible. I am sorry that you had to go through that. But I'm glad it didn't destroy you.

[@LoganSewell83]

KOTOR 2 is no mere video game. This particular game is specially designed for one with an introspective mind. One must set aside a few hours at a time to listen to a humanities lecture and or have a meditation session. As for meditation I found out a lot about myself when meeting Atris for the first time. This game can unlock one's memories to see how one's behavior came about. This is is going to be a very long game to play. Kreia is an interesting mentor to meet during the Hero's Journey. Kreia is a fictional character, yet can challenge one's mind and one's place in the world. Be safe and God be with you.

[@DarthAzog]

please never stop Kreia's conondrums

[@PapitoQinn]

I'll keep going for as long as I can, man. Thanks for the support.

[@etel_unraed]

kreia's view and wisdom towards gaining strength and letting peoples fighting their own fight is very conflicting for me, i agree the whole part where she says "we must fight our own fight, for there we will find strength from the many failures we've endured" (i am paraphrasing) it is a natural thing for us humans nay a sentient to learn from our mistakes and misfortune but what really itch me really hard is, the struggling or fighting all alone, no help whatsoever and as a social being it kind of defeated some purpose of what makes us, us. and yes we must be independent on our own to keep fighting our own fights, struggles, misfortune, and gaining strength. but one way or another we will need someone to progress, to gain more strength if you could say that but what makes it more fuckin conflicting to me is when do we help one eachother so we could grow? and when do we need to let them suffer so they can grow themselves? we're not omniscient, we can't see what's going to happen to that person, we don't know if he/she will grow, stay the same, or worst, gotten weak

[@PapitoQinn]

You're right, we're not omniscient. We can't know. We also can't avoid it. We can only think things through and do the best we can. It isn't always easy. But maybe it shouldn't be. Making the decision itself can be a learning experience.

[@etel_unraed]

@@PapitoQinn kreia's teachings by its foundation is very great and should be spread but sometimes it can hurt our very core beliefs and our individual idealism and it hurts really bad, but it shows how (in my opinion) kreia as a character is one of the perfectly well written characters in the star wars universe

[@PapitoQinn]

@@etel_unraed Yes it can hurt. That's one of the reasons why people tend to avoid challenging they're beliefs.

[@ggt47]

(Gasps)Ooh .Anoher one.

[@JC-zj2is]

Great video!

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks man! Take care of yourself. Oh and tell your friends about me.

[@JC-zj2is]

Papito Qinn for sure , love your kotor analysis videos. I think you are pretty much the only one giving us this type of quality content , i really hope you can keep making videos! 👍

[@rosethorn7255]

You can offer nothing but a little earlier release for Patreon.

[@PapitoQinn]

Maybe. But that's what the brainstorming is for.

[@rosethorn7255]

@@PapitoQinn You're good either way boss.

[@Achy_Bones]

I wish you luck! I'll help where I can, your content brings me some joy in my hours between work, ill be happy to help you out!

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks, man! All I ask for though is to not force it. If you're in a tough spot, don't sweat it. Make sure everything's all good with you first and foremost.

[@kaneon_thedon]

Can we please have a serious breaking down Kriea’s use of the 48 laws of power and any of Robert Greene’s teachings. I need that asap 🙏🏾 pleaaaaaaaase

[@pwangsaprom]

Just discover your channel. Love your content. and wish you luck.

[@PapitoQinn]

Thanks, man! We're gonna have a lot fun together, I'm sure. Just out of curiosity, I hope you don't mind me asking. How did you discover the channel?

[@pwangsaprom]

@@PapitoQinn I'm looking to revisit video of Kreia's philosophy breakdown i watch s long time ago. Then i found you Apathy video and watch the whole playlist of Kreia's Conundrums. Love the character. IMO the best character in Star Wars.

[@PapitoQinn]

@@pwangsaprom I see. I agree, she's the best character Star Wars has ever had. Well glad to have you, man. Tell your friends about me.

[@maarvin2092]

Monetize all you want, you earned it

[@mn5499]

How did it Go .

[@raider762]

Final Fantasy 10 music?

[@darthrevan3342]

4:35 And dicover why french aren't so happy about uberisation XD. You will realize soon that working on this kind of plateform is like being employed without the benefit of being employed. You Will really start to udnerstand why people are ready to kill to impose their vision of how the world should be. Or at least go in the street by winter summer and rain.

[@PapitoQinn]

The world keeps shifting. Technology keeps advancing and thus society and culture shifts with it. Which means the political landscape needs to adapt with it, and doesn't always happen on it's own. So the people have to demand it, sometimes too much in order to see any progress, and by the time progress is made, more shifts have already occurred.

[@darthrevan3342]

The prorgession ins't linear there is some up and down. phase of regression we are in such a phase.

[@darthrevan3342]

You will learn what is labour value.. Is labour being employed? Or is labour working payed or not payed?

[@PapitoQinn]

It can mean both. Depends on the context. It has multiple meanings.

[@sennewam]

Have you been playing Remnant? Pretty sure I saw you recently...

[@darthrevan3342]

Good luck for finding the part time job.

[@darthrevan3342]

5:00 Then speak with the one and only Bob Lenon and discover what OPSPS are, and dsciover what corruption is.

[@hankhill1964]

What song is that at 6:31?

[@PapitoQinn]

Whoops. I forgot to add the music again. But that one is from Chrono Trigger called "Epilogue - To Good Friends"

[@th3n1ck27]

Lol u will be tested the way we all should: standing on your own 2 feet

[@garrisonjones1827]

6:30-9:25 what is the name of that tune

[@PapitoQinn]

Chrono Trigger - Epilogue - To Good Friends

[@Lekiamh]

Just a quick comment; I think you need purpose. You haven't found it yet, and are thus driven to look for meaning in games - but these are ultimately distractions only. Sure, KoTOR tells an amazing story, and there are valuable lessons in here, but these are all philosophies that you can find outside these games. Avellone basically created space Nietzsche with Kreia, the idea of the Force is buddistic in nature, etc. Do not let melancholy take hold of your life, it's too common for intelligent introverts to lock themselves up in a room, being just with their own thoughts and lamenting the world that does not understand them. Get out there and work on yourself, your development, and look for people with similar interests as you. They are out there, and even if finding them might be hard, it is infinitely more easier now than it was in the past. In short, get out there and find, or make, your purpose in life.

[@darthrevan3342]

Sorry for the spam again.... I am in a similar situation. Or at leats use to be..... That is why I reacted that much.

[@PapitoQinn]

That's alright man. Although I will suggest you try and edit a post or two then. But you're getting better. Keep practicing.

[@nevrhasa85]

at 00:47 please try katana zero ... it is a pretty fun game..

[@darthrevan3342]

If you learn french I can present you a dude named dominique pagani, he will teach you philosophy ho yess.

[@th3n1ck27]

To rely on 'external' sources is true weakness this is literally what Kreia fights against. Just grow up and handle your shit on your own damn bro

[@darthrevan3342]

I have my BAC but fail French university (Look at what universitée mena in French before confusion start to happen...) You will see, you are not dead yet. And you might still have free time.

[@darthrevan3342]

Rousseau though that reliance was a danger for freedom, yet human being born unable to walk and feed themself they don't even have teeth, this a result of the female hips going thiner when our ancestors have gone bipedal. Our baby are reliant on us, and thus force our species to heavly rely on cooperation. You will see capitalisme is a bitch to technical progress, like feudalism use to be (read lavoisier before the French revolution), but a world where we could dedicate more time to art politic and philosophy is about to come, thank to technical progress. You can try to run away from this society and the way it is organized, but one day you will have to confront it and submit or come with friend to submit it. The only questions that remain are : "Is reorganisation possible right now or do we need to seize power first? Is seizing political power possible right now without seizing economicla power without reorganizing society on a small scale first?"

[@PapitoQinn]

It's easier then ever now express yourself artistically, politically, and/or philosophically, and actually have people see it. You're right about that. And everybody, even Kreia, was at one point completely dependent on someone else for our survival. And then after a while we're not. Some people run away from society and become hermits, living off the land. Most of us see the benefits of society as worth it, even though there are downsides, mind you. Can we change those we've put in charge to take care of the things that society needs to keep running? I don't know. But if not, then that's when people are supposed to replace them. Reorganization of a society, even on a small scale, can be a herculean task. Because you're essentially trying to change the mindset of the people to make up that society, and although it depends on what you're changing their minds about, it can be very difficult.

[@I_am_a_cat_]

This video is nothing but a vlog dude. And self plugs. Disappointing. And everyone is dependent on something.

[@vernonthompson3060]

This video is jus plain boring lol